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“I’LL NEVER BE AS GOOD AT FOOTBALL AS YOU WERE.”
“Be as good as you can be, kiddo,” his dad would say, “and I’ll be one happy guy.”
Scott would throw until his arm got tired, and Casey, who never got tired, would keep tearing after the ball and bringing it back to him, holding it by one of the seams that had come loose.
And then it was time for Scott Parry to get around to the only thing he was really good at in football.
He’d kick.
He might not have the hands, or the arm, or the size.
But Scott Parry could really kick.
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Once more, this book is for
my amazing wife, Taylor,
and our four amazing children,
Chris, Alex, Zach and Hannah.
I tell them here what I tell them a lot:
No one is luckier than I am.
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
Christopher Dykes, M.A., C.A.S. He is the school psychologist at Saxe Middle School, New Canaan, Conn., and proved as I wrote this book that he’s never afraid to take on a new student. No matter how old that student is. And Coach Green, as always.
ONE
There were a lot of bad parts that came with being the new kid.
Scott Parry was already used to eating by himself at lunch, having nobody to talk to yet at recess.
And after just four days in the sixth grade at Bloomfield South, he pretty much expected to be sitting by himself on the short bus ride home.
He had always been shy, even in his old school, in his old town. And in the school and town before that. He just hadn’t realized that his new school was going to be this shy back.
It wasn’t that Scott wasn’t trying to fit in.
When they broke off into discussion groups, he tried to get with a new group of kids every time, hoping that at least one of them might want to talk to him when they were finished. And he knew better than to raise his hand every single time he knew the answer in class. But that was hard for him, because he basically knew the answer to any question his teachers asked.
It had been the same way for him at all his schools.
Sometimes he wished he weren’t so smart, because it seemed to make the other kids mad. What he really wanted was to be a little less good in class and a lot more good at sports, football especially. But that’s not the way things had worked out for him.
He knew teachers always liked the smart kids better, despite how they tried to act like they were treating every student the same. But he didn’t want the teachers to like him. He wanted the other kids to like him. Girls or boys.
So he tried not to act like he was showing off, even though his hand still shot up more than anybody else’s in sixth grade.
It’s true that Scott felt alone most of the time, like he was hiding in plain sight, but he knew he could handle being the new kid one more time.
What he couldn’t handle was what happened to him every single day while he waited for the bus home.
Because Jimmy Dolan, one of the biggest kids in his class and easily the meanest, was always waiting, too. Which meant that Jimmy had plenty of time to rag on Scott every day.
Scott wanted kids at Bloomfield South to talk to him.
Just not this kid.
The only kid in the whole school that Scott didn’t want talking to him or hanging with him wouldn’t leave him alone.
“Hey,” Jimmy Dolan said now, “here comes the brain.”
Just by watching the pickup touch football games at recess—nobody had picked Scott yet, not one time—he knew Jimmy Dolan was a good football player. At recess that day, Scott had overheard a couple of the teachers talking about how Jimmy’s dad was going to be the coach of the sixth-grade town team this season.
Mr. Burden, their science teacher, had said, “Maybe his father can control him.”
Just then one of the smaller sixth-graders had caught a pass and even though it was supposed to be two-hand touch, Jimmy had managed to send the kid flying.
“I wouldn’t count on that,” Mrs. Graham, their math teacher, had said.
Waiting for the bus now, Scott tried to ignore Jimmy, tried to act as if he were searching for something really important inside his backpack.
But he knew he was wasting his time, that you had about as much chance of ignoring Jimmy Dolan as you did a stomachache.
“What’s the matter, brain? You don’t want to talk to me today?”
Scott had his backpack on the ground and was kneeling over it. But Jimmy was right over him, blocking out the sun like a giant black cloud.
Scott leaned to his right a little, trying to see past Jimmy’s legs, hoping the buses were starting to board.
They weren’t.
“What’re you looking for in there?” Jimmy said. “Maybe I can help you.”
“No,” Scott said. “I’m fine.”
Too late.
Jimmy reached down and scooped up Scott’s backpack like he was trying to beat him to a dollar he’d seen on the ground. And before Scott could do anything to stop him, Jimmy had dumped everything out on the ground.
Scott didn’t care about any of the school stuff in there, his pens and notebooks and textbooks, so much stuff that his mother always asked if he was carrying bricks.
None of that mattered.
The picture mattered.
The picture of Scott’s dog, Casey. Jimmy Dolan spotted it right away.
Scott tried to reach down and grab it, but once again Jimmy was too quick for him.
“Who’s this?” Jimmy said. “Your girlfriend?”
“Give it back,” Scott said, quieter than he wanted to.
“You carry a picture of your dog with you, brain?” Jimmy said, loud enough for every kid still waiting for a bus to hear. “That’s like something the little nerd in that Lassie movie would do, right?”
Scott felt like this was some kind of assembly now, and he and Jimmy were up on stage in front of the whole school. If the other kids at Bloomfield South didn’t know the new kid before this, they sure would now.
If I’m such a brain, Scott thought, how come I can’t think of a way to get myself out of this?
As a last resort, he actually tried being nice, as hard as that was.
“Can I please have my picture back?” he said.
Jimmy smiled and shook his head no, waving the picture back and forth in front of Scott’s face.
Scott lunged for it, trying to catch Jimmy by surprise.
Only he wasn’t big enough. Or quick enough.
As he landed, Jimmy stuck out a leg and tripped him, giving him a little shove on the way down for good measure.
Scott went down hard, landing on knees and elbows.
All he could hear now was laughter.
Until he heard this: “Cut it out, Dolan.”
Not a teacher’s voice. Not a voice belonging to any grown-up. A kid, definitely.
Scott picked himself up and saw that it was Chris Conlan.
You only had to be at Bloomfield South for one day to know that even though Jimmy Dolan was one of the bigger football players in the sixth grade, Chris Conlan was the best.
Chris Conlan wasn’t just the quarterback, he was the boy all the other boys in their class wanted to be.
“What’s the problem, Chris? I was just playing—”
“Give him back his picture.”
Scott could see by the look on Jimmy’s face how much he didn’t want to back down.
“Why’re you standing up for him?” Jimmy said, sounding whiny all of a sudden. “You don’t even know this guy.”
“I know you, though,” Chris said. “And I know you’re acting like a tool. Now, for the last time, give him back his picture.”
And, to Scott’s amazement, Jimmy Dolan did just that.
TWO
It was like a play Chris had called in the huddle.
Jimmy handed the picture back to Scott, saying, “Whatever. Take your stupid picture.”
Then he walked away shaking his head, maybe for once knowing what it felt like to look bad in front of the other kids.
“I’ve got a dog, too,” Chris said to Scott. Then he grinned and said, “But pictures sort of don’t do him justice.”
“Thanks for doing that,” Scott said. He stuck the picture of Casey inside his math book, started putting the rest of his books back inside the pack.
“Don’t worry about it,” Chris said. “He was acting stupid.”
Scott smiled for the first time since school had let out. Maybe the first time since he’d showed up at Bloomfield South on Monday morning. “I don’t think he was acting,” he said.
Now it was Chris’s turn to smile. “He’s actually not such a bad guy,” he said.
“Could’ve fooled me.”
Chris said, “It’s just that the only thing he’s really good at is knocking people down, like in football. And sometimes he forgets the game’s over. Or hasn’t started yet.”
Then, as if he’d remembered something, Chris stuck out his hand.
“I’m Chris,” he said.
It felt funny, and Scott was sure it looked funny, a couple of sixth-graders shaking hands, but they did it.
“I know who you are,” Scott said.
“And I know who you are,” Chris said. “The smartest kid in our class.”
“No way.”
“Way,” Chris said. “Like way the smartest. I watch you in class sometimes when somebody else is answering, and I can just tell you know the answer.”
Scott said, “Maybe that makes you the smart one.”
Chris gave him a funny look.
Just then the bus line finally started to move. Scott said he’d better get going, thanked Chris one last time.
“Dolan won’t bother you anymore,” Chris said.
“I wish.”
Chris grinned. “You’re cool now,” the coolest kid in their class said. “I got you.”
“Well . . . cool,” Scott said, because he couldn’t think of anything else to say.
He started to walk toward the bus, and Chris walked with him, saying, “Hey, maybe we could hang out sometime, or whatever.”
“Yeah,” Scott said, “anytime.”
He said it like it was no big deal, but what he really wanted to do was yell “Yeah!” and pump his fist windmill-style, the way Tiger Woods did after he sank a big putt in Tiger Woods PGA Tour ’07.
“See you tomorrow then,” Chris said.
“Yeah,” Scott said again.
He had to keep himself from running up the steps to bus number three.
Flying.
Just like that, he had a friend.
THREE
His mom was waiting for him when he got home.
This was the third time they had moved in the past five years. His dad worked as a salesman for Titleist golf balls, and the more he sold, the bigger his job seemed to get. Every time it got bigger, they moved.
But no matter where they were living, one thing hadn’t changed:
Scott Parry couldn’t think of a day in his entire life when he’d walked into whatever house they were living in and his mom hadn’t been there.
And ever since they’d gotten Casey, his golden retriever, as a pup two years ago, Casey was right there with her.
It was Casey who greeted him first today, jumping on him the minute he came through the front door, as if to say, Where have you been all day?
His mom was right behind, asking how school had gone, the way she did every day, the way she probably would until he stopped being the new kid.
Whenever that was.
Usually he’d just tell her fine and go straight to the cookies. But today he surprised her.
“Crazy,” he said.
“Good crazy or bad crazy?” His mom was small, the way he was, and smart about practically everything. If that wasn’t enough, people said Scott looked like her, too.
They were in the kitchen. It wasn’t a special occasion that Scott could think of, but there on the table was what she called her Amazing Chocolate Cake.
“Both,” Scott said, and then told her everything that had happened with Jimmy and Casey’s picture and Chris Conlan.
“You’ve mentioned this Chris before,” she said, “right?”
“Mom,” he said, “he’s the man.”
“And he stood up for you this way in front of all the other kids?”
“Like I said, crazy, right?”
“Doing the right thing is never crazy,” his mom said. “Young Mr. Conlan doing what he did, well, that just says to me if he hadn’t, that would have been crazy.”
“Mom,” he said, “you’re the brain around here.”
She smiled at him. “Don’t tell your father.”
“Maybe it’s going to be okay at this school after all,” Scott said.
He was already tearing into the huge piece of Amazing Chocolate Cake she’d cut for him. When he looked up, she was still smiling at him.
“You think?” she said.
Then she said, “You know, if you want, I could call Chris’s mom . . .”
“No,” Scott said. “No, no, no.”
“A mouthful of cake and a mouthful of no,” she said.
“No,” he said.
“Sorry,” she said. “Got carried away there.”
“Runaway Mom,” Scott said.
“Leaving the kitchen now,” she said, backing away. “You and Case going out to play ball when you finish eating?”
Scott smiled at her now. “If the dog doesn’t practice,” he said, “how’s he going to get better at football?”
“You make a good point,” she said, smiling.
There were woods behind their house and a pond on the other side of the woods. But between the trees and the water was a small clearing that Scott’s dad made sure was mowed with the rest of their lawn.
“Got to take good care of your field of dreams,” his dad would say.
It was Scott Parry’s field of dreams.
This was where he would go with Casey and pretend he was a football player.
That he was one of the guys.
His dad had measured out the distances, painted an outline for an end zone, painted perfectly straight yard lines across the field that stretched out thirty yards. He’d even used the kind of chalk roller they used on tennis courts and baseball fields, so that Scott could make the lines white again when they started to fade.
The best part was at the back of the end zone. That’s where the goalposts were, the ones his dad had put up himself, and the big old tire hanging from the crossbar.
The tire was Scott’s target.
He would drop back and pretend he was throwing from the pocket. Or he’d roll out to his left or right, pretend he was being chased by some crazed guys on defense—a whole gang of Jimmy Dolans—and give himself points if one of his passes connected anyplace on the tire.
But the biggest victory, the pretend-the-crowd-goes-wild victory, was reserved for when he somehow threw the ball through the opening without touching anything, like a game-winning swish in basketball as the clock runs out. It didn’t happen very often, but Scott kept trying. He blamed his lack of accuracy on the size of his hands. They were too small to get a good grip on the ball or to throw a tight spiral except by accident.
He kept practicing, anyway.
“It’s what you do in sports, whether you’re the star of the team or somebody at the end of the bench,” his dad always told him. “You keep trying.”
“Even if I grow,” Scott would say to his dad sometimes, “I’ll never be as good at football as you were.”
“Be as good as you can be, kiddo,” his dad would say, “and I’ll be one happy guy.”
Scott would throw until his arm got tired, and Casey, who never got tired, would keep tearing after the ball and bringing it back to him, holding it by one of the seams that had come loose.
And then it was time for Scott Parry to get around to the only thing he was really good at in football.
He’d kick.
He might not have the hands, or the arm, or the size.
But Scott Parry could really kick.
He’d start at the ten-yard line, which meant a twenty-yard kick, because the goalposts were ten yards deep in the back of the end zone, just like in real football, and put the ball down on the practice tee he always brought out here with him. He’d swing his leg, try to kick the ball through the uprights, pretending as hard as he could now, pretending that time was running out and the game was on the line.
Pretending that he was the best and most famous placekicker in the National Football League.
Sometimes he would put the ball on his plastic tee and pretend there were only a few seconds left in the Super Bowl.
“So it has come down to this,” he’d say, like he wasn’t just trying to win the game, but announce it on TV at the same time. “The whole season is on the foot of Scott Parry.”
He’d take two steps back from the ball, then one long step to the left of it, take a deep breath. Then he’d stride forward and kick with everything he had, following through the way the kickers on TV did. Sometimes he’d see how many he could make in a row from this distance, his all-time record being six.
But no matter how many he made in a row, no matter how dark it was getting or close to dinner, Scott still wasn’t done for the day.
Always saving the best until last.
He had been watching with his dad the day Doug Flutie of the Patriots had made the first dropkick in the NFL in what the announcers said was like a hundred years or something. It was the last game of Flutie’s long career. Scott’s dad, who’d played football at Boston College with Flutie, explained how great Flutie had been when he’d played quarterback for BC, even though he was only listed at five-nine and was really shorter than that. How he’d won the Heisman Trophy, how he’d thrown one of the most famous touchdown passes in all football history against the University of Miami when he was a senior. After that, according to Scott’s dad, Flutie had spent more than twenty years in pro football, in just about every league there was. Even the one in Canada.
Now Flutie was about to retire. And because it was his last game, his coach had let him try to drop-kick an extra point. It turned out Flutie loved football history almost as much as he loved playing. He knew that guys used to drop-kick all the time in the old days and had taught himself how to do it. Not only taught himself how, but gotten really good at it.
So Bill Belichick, the Patriots coach, put him in at the end of a game against the Dolphins, and Flutie drop-kicked the extra point right through. And even though that point didn’t win any championships for the Patriots, his teammates had acted as if it had. So had the people in the stands that day.
“They said he was too small his whole career,” Scott’s dad said. “But every time anybody ever gave him a fair chance, he played as big as anybody on the field.”
That was the biggest dream of all for Scott, down here behind his house, in his secret place between the woods and the water:
Someday he was going to get the chance to do something big in football.
FOUR
Chris Conlan came over on Saturday morning and brought his dog with him.
Scott hadn’t asked what kind of dog it was that day when Chris had said pictures didn’t do him justice. But in his head, he’d pictured a dog as big as Casey. Maybe a big old Lab, something like that.
It wasn’t a Lab.
Wasn’t even close.
The dog’s name was Brett, Chris said, for Brett Favre, his all-time favorite quarterback.
Brett was a black-and-tan Norwich terrier.
“Wow, he’s small,” Scott said when Chris came walking through the front door with Brett under his arm, carrying him the way he would a schoolbook.
Chris grinned and put a finger to his lips.
“Shhhh,” he said. “He thinks he’s big.”
But you had to say one thing for Brett: What he lacked in size, he made up for in speed. As soon as he was on the ground, he and Casey began tearing through every downstairs room in the house. Sometimes Casey was the one doing the chasing, sometimes Brett. Every few minutes, Casey would stop, lie down panting, tongue hanging out of the side of his mouth, and Brett would jump on his back.
The first time he did it, Chris said, “He looks like a jockey riding a horse.”
“Or Stuart Little riding one,” Scott said.
Right then the two dogs went tearing off again, like they were already best friends.
It wasn’t long before Scott’s mom pointed to them and said, “Outside. Now. Boys and dogs.”
Scott couldn’t wait to show Chris his field, anyway.
“Follow me,” Scott said as they made their way through his backyard, “there’s something you need to see.”
When they came through the trees, the dogs already running ahead of them, Chris spotted the goalposts.
“This,” he said, “is mad crazy.”
Scott said, “Welcome to Parry Field.”
Chris took Scott’s football out of his hands and, without even warming up or looking as if he were putting any effort into it, threw a perfect spiral from where they were standing that nearly clipped the top of one of the uprights.
“That throw didn’t exactly stink,” Scott said.
“Whatever,” Chris said. “Who does this field belong to?”
“Me.”
“This is . . . yours?”
“Mine and Case’s,” he said. “And my dad’s on weekends. You’re the first . . . guy I’ve brought here.”
He wanted to say “friend.” But he stopped himself, not wanting to scare Chris the very first time they were hanging out together. Besides, he’d always thought that being friends wasn’t something you talked about, it was something you just knew.
Something that just was.
“We gotta get some other guys from school back here as soon as possible,” Chris said, his voice excited. “Have you had any games yet?”
“I don’t know anybody yet,” Scott said.
“Well, that’s gonna change now,” Chris said, like it was easy.
Maybe everything came easy to him, even being friends.
They had been so busy talking that Chris hadn’t noticed Casey standing next to him, the football hanging from his mouth.
“He returned the ball?” Chris said.
Scott nodded.
Chris said, “Tell me he doesn’t do that every time somebody chucks it somewhere.”
“Pretty much,” Scott said. “Unless he gets distracted by a squirrel or a rabbit. It’s a good deal, if you don’t mind a little drool.”
“You throw it, and the dog goes and gets it?”
“Well, sometimes I kick it, and he goes and gets it.”
“You’re lucky,” Chris said. “If I even try to get Brett to fetch a ratty old tennis ball, he gives me this look, like, ‘You want me to get that?’ ”
Chris and Scott started light-tossing the ball to each other then, and Casey figured out pretty quickly that he wasn’t needed at the moment, so he and Brett went running off for the woods.
After a few minutes, Chris said it was time for them to cut loose a little bit and for Scott to go long.
Scott did that, running as fast as he could, feeling slower than a tractor with Chris watching him.
Chris waited until he was far enough away and put the ball right into his chest.
Scott dropped it.
“Good try,” Chris yelled.
Yeah, Scott thought, maybe it’s a good try if you’ve never played football before.
For the next few minutes, he was lucky if he caught anything. Chris kept putting the ball where he should have been able to catch it, even started taking something off his throws, lofting them a little more until they were practically like pop flies in baseball.
But the harder Scott concentrated, the harder he tried to will the stupid ball into his hands, the worse it got. He felt clumsier than he ever had before in his life.
And more embarrassed.
The one kid in class he wanted to impress, the one kid in the whole town he wanted to impress, and he was making a total and complete idiot of himself.
It wasn’t much different than if Chris had been trying to get Casey to catch the ball out of the air.
Scott thought, I should be bringing the ball back to him in my teeth.
“Sorry,” Scott said when another pass ended up on the ground.
Chris said, “Sorry for what?”
Sounding exactly like his dad.
“I have the worst hands in the world!” Scott finally yelled.
He’d been running a pass pattern right at the goalposts, Chris had made another perfect throw, and the ball had gone off Scott’s fingertips.
Casey was back now. He started to go for the ball, and Scott stopped him with, “Case? Don’t even think about it.”
Chris jogged over to where Scott was standing and said, “You’re just trying too hard. My dad’s not the greatest athlete in the world, but he always says that the thing you’ve got to try hardest at in sports is relaxing.”
Scott managed to squeeze out a smile. “You don’t understand,” he said. “All I’m good at in football is trying.”
He wasn’t ready to tell Chris about kicking. The way things were going today, he was afraid to even put the ball on the tee, because he probably wouldn’t be able to kick the ball in the water if he was standing right near the edge.
And Scott knew it was more than that.
Kicking a ball wasn’t close to being as cool as what Chris could do on a football field, what he could do with a football in his hands. It was almost a different sport.
“Speaking of trying,” Chris said, “are you going out for the team?”
They were standing in the middle of the field in front of the goalposts now, only a few yards apart, soft-tossing again as they talked.
But each time they did, without saying anything, Chris would take a step back. When he did, so would Scott.
“The town team? Uh, that would be a no.”
Chris took two steps back now.
So did Scott.
“Come on, you gotta—it’ll be great,” Chris said. “And it’s not really like you’re trying out, anyway. They don’t even call them tryouts, because if you show up and you’re willing to come to practice, you’re on the team. Nobody gets cut.”
Chris threw a pass that had a little extra zip on it. Scott tried to concentrate as hard as he could, look the ball right into his hands the way Chris had told him to.
And dropped it.
“You’re still thinking too much,” Chris said.
“Because I know I can’t play,” Scott said. “Except maybe when I’m out here by myself.”
By now they had the whole field between them and were shouting at each other to be heard.
“Come out for the team,” Chris said. “Otherwise you’re never going to find out if you’re any good or not.”
“I already know.”
Chris’s answer to that was to haul off and throw as hard a pass as he had all day, like one of those bullets the real Brett Favre would throw to one of the Packer wide receivers. The ball came in a little high, forcing Scott to jump for it, but somehow he timed the jump perfectly and looked the ball into his hands like Chris had been telling him to all day.
And made the catch.
Yes!
He felt like spiking the ball, the way guys did in the pros after they scored a touchdown, but figured he better quit while he was ahead.
“That’s what I’m talking about!” Chris said. “Let’s end on that one.”
“Deal,” Scott said.
“My mom’s probably already here. See you at school.”
Scott watched Chris and Brett until they disappeared into the woods, Casey following behind them, barking at Brett like he was telling him to stay, he wasn’t done playing yet.
Now it was safe for Scott to kick.
No way he was going to kick in front of Chris.
He walked over to goalposts, picked up his tee where he’d left it the day before, walked back to the ten-yard line, placed the ball on the tee just right. Then he went through his little routine, measured out his two steps back and one to the side, feeling no pressure now that he was alone on the field, everything quiet back here again.
Scott took a deep breath and stepped into the kick and caught this one perfectly, kicked the ball so high and true he thought he might have made this one from thirty yards away from the posts.
As soon as the ball landed, he heard Casey barking again, so he pretended that sound was the roar of the crowd going wild.
Scott smiled, turning toward the woods as he said, “Good timing there, Case, you came back just in time to see the game-winning kick.”
Only it wasn’t just Casey.
Chris was there, too.
“You can kick?” Chris said.
He sounded shocked, but Scott didn’t care. He could feel himself smiling, happy that Chris had seen him make that.
Happy and proud.
He felt like he’d really impressed him now, even more than he had with one leaping catch.
“Well, keep it to yourself,” he said, trying to make it sound like the kick was no big deal.
“Don’t worry,” Chris said. “Your secret is safe with me.”
“Oh, I get it,” Scott said, “you’re one of those guys who doesn’t think kickers are real players.”
“Not me,” Chris said. “Coach Dolan.”
Scott could see now that Chris wasn’t joking around, he was being serious.
“Mr. Dolan doesn’t like kickers?”
“He lost the Pop Warner championship for the older kids last year because a guy missed an extra point,” Chris said.
Then he paused and said, “The guy hates kickers.”
FIVE
They didn’t call them tryouts here. They called them “evaluations.”
Mr. Dolan, Jimmy’s dad, explained this to all of them, saying that even though each and every one of them was supposed to try his hardest, they weren’t trying out, because if you were willing to put in the time and the effort, you were going to be a member of his team.
Scott still thought of himself as trying out.
To him, being here meant he was trying to show he belonged, even in front of somebody like Jimmy Dolan, who’d said, “Wait a second—the brain is going to try out for football?” as soon as he’d seen Scott out on the field with the rest of the guys.
“Just ignore him,” Chris said.
Scott kept his voice low, because the last thing he wanted to do before tryouts—evaluations—was make the coach’s son mad at him. Especially this coach’s son.
“I’ve got a better chance of beating you out for quarterback than I do of ignoring that guy,” Scott said.
“It’s gonna be fine,” Chris said.
It was a disaster.
“It wasn’t as bad as you think,” his dad said in the car on the way home.
“You weren’t there.” Scott was slumped down so far in the backseat that his dad had to actually lift his head a little bit if he wanted to see him in the rearview mirror.
“As a matter of fact, champ, I was there. The whole time.”
“I didn’t see you.”
“You weren’t supposed to.”
“We started at five,” Scott said. “You’re never home from work by then.”
The evaluations had gone from five to eight, and Scott’s dad had been waiting with the other parents in the parking lot when it was over; the parents had not been allowed on the field.
“I left work early,” his dad said. “And then I found a nice spot in the woods where I could watch, hoping that I wouldn’t get arrested by the town football police.”
“Well, if you saw us, there’s no way you can think I played good,” Scott said, “even if I am your son.” He made a gagging sound like he was about to choke his brains out. “I was the worst one out there.”
They had pulled into their driveway. Hank Parry shut off the engine but made no move to get out of the car. He just turned around so he was facing Scott. And he was smiling. Sometimes Scott would catch his dad smiling at him and have no idea why. They’d be playing football out on Parry Field, just the two of them, and Scott would be messing up all over the place the way he usually was, and still his dad would be smiling.
And Scott, no matter what was going on with him, no matter how lousy or frustrated he felt when he couldn’t do anything right, would feel better looking back at him.
It was even happening now, after football evaluations that made Scott want to give himself an F.
“It was just the first night,” his dad said. “You were nervous in front of the other kids, and I know you were nervous trying to impress those coaches. You think the other guys weren’t feeling the same way?”
His dad was trying to make it stop hurting, basically. Scott knew that was what parents did. Well, maybe not all parents. He wasn’t positive that all of them were as cool as his parents were. But his dad was acting as if Scott had just gotten knocked down and now he was trying to help him up.
He had gotten knocked down good today, no matter what kind of Band-Aid his dad was trying to put on it.
Dropped easy passes, like that was his signature move. Beaten by every kid his size in the running races. When they’d been asked to run through some tires, in what Mr. Dolan called “agility drills,” he’d fallen twice his first time through.
When they were asked to do some throwing, both for distance and for accuracy, like it was one of those Pass, Punt and Kick contests, he was so bad trying to keep the ball between the ropes that Jimmy Dolan yelled out, “Hey, brain, are you sure you’re right-handed?”
Everybody in earshot laughed.
Scott didn’t wear a watch, so he wasn’t sure what time it was, how long they’d been at it, or how many more drills he could embarrass himself in before they were finished.
But already he wanted to quit.
How come sports came so hard to him?
“I’d trade half my brain just to be half as good as some of the guys I saw out there today,” he said to his dad from the backseat.
His dad still hadn’t made any move to go into the house, so neither had he. He still couldn’t believe his dad had come home early from work just to watch him fall all over himself in front of Jimmy Dolan’s dad and the two other coaches.
“Don’t ever say that,” his dad said.
“Why not?”
“Because if you gave away anything from inside that amazing head of yours, you wouldn’t be you,” his dad said. “And I like my son just the way he is, thank you very much. Besides, I’ll tell you a secret: A lot of these kids would give anything to be as smart as you.”
“If I ask you something, will you tell me the truth?” Scott said.
“You know I will,” his dad said. “I have a lifetime contract to do that with you.”
Scott said, “Don’t you wish I was better at sports than I am?”
That smile again.
His dad shook his head slowly from side to side.
“Nope,” he said. “Not true. Not today. Not ever.”
“Well,” Scott said, “I wish I had more of you in me than I do. Like the part that made you a great football player.”
“I was never great,” he said. “I was all right. And then I outworked everybody enough to be better than I should have been.”
But it wasn’t just football with his dad. He was good at golf and tennis and swimming and softball. Everything.
Scott was good at school.
“I could outwork the whole stupid world and still not be better than anybody,” Scott said. “I’d settle for being even a little more like you were when you were my age.”
“You’ve got it all wrong, champ,” his dad said. “Sometimes I’m the one wishing he was more like you.”
“Yeah, right.”
“No, I really mean it. Someday you’ll be able to see what I saw today, hiding over there in the trees.”
“And what’s that?”
“That you were the toughest one on that field.”
SIX
There were twenty-six of them who made it through to the end of practice on Wednesday night. That was the night they put on helmets and shoulder pads and real football pants and the football shoes with rubber spikes, not too different from soccer shoes, they’d been told to bring with them.
Scott knew there were twenty-six players because he’d counted them.
There had been forty when they started on Monday night. He’d counted that night, too. Now here they were, the survivors—like this was a Survivor show for sixth-grade football—waiting for their parents to pick them up.
He was one of the twenty-six, feeling like more of a football player than he ever had in his life.
Because he was as sore as he’d ever been in his life after all the hits he’d taken, including the one in particular that not only made him lose his breath, but made him think for a minute he’d never be able to find his breath again.
Yet here he was.
On the team.
A survivor.
“Now, boys, I want to make this crystal clear,” Mr. Dolan said after they came out of the gym, where they’d changed out of their regular clothes and into the football gear. “Light contact means light contact tonight. I’m sure we’re going to have the hardest hitters in the county on this team, but I don’t need you trying to take a teammate’s head off the very first night.”
They did some basic blocking drills after that, divided up by weight like they were kids being assigned to different grades in school, even though everybody here was the same age. Scott knew from Chris that the weight limit was one hundred and fifty pounds in their league.
Great, Scott thought, the big guys like Jimmy Dolan have me by fifty pounds.
Mr. Dolan had been a star middle linebacker at Ohio State, something he’d told them when he introduced himself before the first practice on Monday night. It was almost like, “Hi, I’m Dick Dolan. I’m your coach, and I played for Ohio State.”
Tonight he said that proper tackling was proper tackling no matter what level of football you played, sixth-grade ball or Pop Warner or college or the pros. So he showed them how he wanted them to set themselves and lower their shoulders and square themselves in front of the ballcarrier and drive right through him.
But that was for games, he said.
For tonight, he wanted them to get into solid position, but then just put their arms around the ballcarrier and hold up when he blew his whistle.
Scott was with the backs on both offense and defense, even though he kept tripping over his own feet when the coaches were showing how to back-pedal in order to cover a receiver. The second time he fell, he was so embarrassed that he reached down and started fussing with the laces on his high-top black shoes, as though they were untied.
Near the end of practice Mr. Dolan had them line up eleven against eleven and told them they were going to run some simple handoff plays with Chris at quarterback. Each back was to carry the ball one time and then switch over to defense, while somebody from defense would come over and get a carry.
There was nothing very tricky about it. Chris would take the ball from center, spin around—another thing he made look easy—and put the ball in somebody’s stomach. Then that guy would try to gain a few yards before somebody wrapped him up and Mr. Dolan blew his whistle.
When it was finally Scott’s turn, he wasn’t thinking about even getting as far as the line of scrimmage.
He just wanted to put two hands on the ball and not drop it.
He didn’t think he was going to get the ball from Chris and suddenly turn into LaDainian Tomlinson or Reggie Bush or Tiki Barber, break into the clear, run for the daylight that the TV announcers were always talking about.
Scott Parry was just praying that for once those small hands of his were going to hold on to the stupid ball.
By now, they all knew Chris would say “hut hut hut” and get the ball on the third “hut.” The only thing the guys on defense didn’t know was whether they were going to run right or left. They were supposed to read the way Chris turned and which way the blockers were going.
In the huddle, Chris told Scott they were running right this time.
Chris said, “No matter what happens, keep your legs moving, even after you hear the whistle.”
“I can’t feel my legs,” Scott whispered to him.
The fullback got down into his stance in front of Scott. Scott was standing behind him, crouched over a little, hands on his thighs the way Mr. Dolan had showed him.
Please, he thought, let this be just one time when I look as if I belong here.
On the third “hut” he moved forward and to his right, his hands in the position that the coaches had shown them for receiving the ball: Right arm underneath, palm up. Left arm on top, palm down. Chris spun to his right, put the ball in perfect position. Scott squeezed the ball between his arms, telling himself he wasn’t letting go, no matter what.
Scott knew he was supposed to “read” the blocking ahead of him—that’s the way Mr. Dolan had put it—and then either run inside or outside the right tackle.
He never made it that far.
Jimmy Dolan, playing middle linebacker like his dad had, blew right through the opening between the right guard and the right tackle before they even had the chance to straighten up and try to block him. Then, ignoring what his own dad had said about no tackling, he piled right into Scott, putting his helmet into Scott’s stomach right below where the ball was.
Scott never had the chance to think about stepping left or right.
From the ground, the only direction he could see was up.
From what sounded like the other end of the field, Scott thought he heard a whistle blowing.
Or maybe that was just all the air in his body coming out of him at once.
The next thing he heard after the faraway sound of the whistle was Jimmy, still on top of him, saying, “Sorry, brain. Guess I got a little carried away.”
Then Chris was there, yelling, “Get off of him, Jimmy!”
But Jimmy yelled right back, “Take a chill pill, Conlan! I just didn’t hear the whistle in time to stop myself.”
“Right,” Chris said, pushing Jimmy out of the way.
“This is still tackle football, right?” Jimmy said.
“Yeah,” Chris said. “And you’re the tackling dummy.”
Then Mr. Dolan was there with Chris, telling Scott to try to relax, he just got the wind knocked out of him. “Sit up if you can,” he said. “But easy does it.”
Chris put his hand behind Scott’s back, gently helped him up, took his helmet off, said, “Your face is pretty red. You okay yet?”
All Scott could do was shake his head.
He still couldn’t breathe.
When he finally did get some air back into him, he suddenly started coughing so hard that Chris, not sure what to do, started patting him on the back, as if that would make him stop.
When he stopped coughing, Scott was at least able to make a joke out of it.
“Were you trying to burp me?” he said to Chris.
“Sorry.”
Mr. Dolan said, “Put your head down for one more second, just to make sure.”
Scott did. That’s when he realized something.
He was still holding on to the ball.
SEVEN
The first official practice, for all the guys who had made it through the evaluations and still wanted to play sixth-grade football, was the next Saturday.
Scott did his own count, saw that nobody had dropped out after Wednesday. Still twenty-six survivors. After they’d finished, Mr. Dolan called them all together at midfield and told them that playing on his team was going to require almost as serious a commitment to hard work as school did.
“Hard work and hard hitting,” he said.
There would be three night practices during the week, he said, and one on Saturday mornings until they started playing games on Saturday.
The six-game schedule would begin in two weeks, one game against each of the other seven teams in their league.
Their team would be called the Eagles.
“I know that doesn’t sound like a lot of games,” Mr. Dolan said when practice was over. “But this is a small town, and we play in a small league.” He was kneeling in front of the whole group, wearing a cap with an O on it that Scott knew was from Ohio State. “This is the first time for me coaching at this level, and I know it’s the first time playing organized football for a lot of you guys. But we’re still out here to win. All I’ve ever been about in football, going back to when I was your age, was winning, and that isn’t going to change now. Starting today, I’m going to do whatever it takes to make this a winning team. Do you all understand that?”
Some of the guys nodded. Some mumbled, “Yeah.”
Mr. Dolan suddenly turned into one of those drill sergeants you’d see in a movie, yelling, “I can’t hear you. Is this going to be a winning team?”
“Yes!” they yelled back at him.
“See?” Mr. Dolan said. “You’re learning already.”
“Now there’s one other thing you need to understand,” he continued. “Now that the evaluations are over, the tryouts begin.”
Scott looked around. Everybody else seemed as confused as he was. Everybody had made such a big deal out of calling the first three nights “evalations.”
“What that means,” Mr. Dolan said, “is that just because you have a uniform and a number doesn’t guarantee you a spot out on that field. It doesn’t work that way in our league. The only thing I can promise you is that if you’re willing to learn, which means willing to be coached, then you’re going to learn more about football in the next couple of months than you ever thought you could.” He paused then and said, “And that’s just in practice.”
Mr. Dolan stood up, making a face as he did, then rubbing his right knee hard before he started talking again. Scott had already noticed that he limped a little when he moved around the field.
“I’ll explain this all to your parents at our meeting,” he said. “But this isn’t one of those football leagues where everybody has to play a certain amount of downs. Playing time is up to me and my coaches. If we don’t think you’re ready to play tackle football, even at this level, then practice players is all some of you are going to be this season.”
Scott had one knee on the ground, his right hand resting on his helmet, trying to look like Chris and Jimmy.
Mr. Dolan was standing right over him now.
In Scott’s mind, the coach wasn’t talking to the whole team.
He was speaking directly to him.
“What you’re really going to find out this season is just how much you love football,” he said.
Scott wanted to say, Don’t worry, Coach, I already know.
If I didn’t love it, I wouldn’t still be here.
The only time he had gotten to scrimmage today was at the very end, when Mr. Dolan put him in on the kickoff team.
Nick Donegan, the only kid on the team bigger than Jimmy Dolan, was kicking the ball off. Jeremy Sharp, the fastest kid on their team, was back by himself receiving. Scott was on the far left, as close to the sideline as they could put him, hoping he could run down the field and get somewhere near Jeremy Sharp without falling all over himself.
No chance.
He made it about three steps before he tripped over his own feet again. By the time he picked himself up, Jeremy had grabbed Nick’s line-drive kick on one bounce, dodged the first couple of tacklers, made Nick miss, made Jimmy Dolan miss, cut to his right, broke into the clear down the sideline.
Just one guy left to beat now:
Scott.
Who was feeling like he was out in the street and had a speeding car coming right for him.
He tried to stay calm, hard as his heart was beating, and squared himself up the way the coaches had shown them, reminded himself to be up on the balls of his feet in case Jeremy made another cut, this one back toward the middle of the field.
Jeremy didn’t cut back.
Didn’t have to.
He just switched the ball to his left hand and straight-armed Scott with his right, sending him flying out of bounds, making it look as if Scott was the one who had gotten tackled as Jeremy ran the rest of the way to the end zone.
“Hey, brain,” Jimmy yelled from the middle of the field, even though all he’d tackled on the play was air, “at least you got your uniform dirty.”
Yeah, he loved football, all right.
Scott didn’t need a missed tackle to tell him he wasn’t even close to being good. All he had to do was watch everybody else play eleven-on-eleven. You didn’t have to ask if they loved football, or why they did. It was right there in front of your eyes. You saw it with Jimmy Dolan, as soon as he got out there and was allowed to start hitting people. You saw it with Jeremy Sharp, who looked like he was born to run the way he had down the sideline.
Most of all, you saw it with Chris Conlan.
This wasn’t Parry Field. This wasn’t anything like the Chris from Parry Field when he was playing catch with Scott, the one who was as much a cheerleader as a quarterback.
No, this was a whole different Chris Conlan, moving guys around on offense if they weren’t lined up in the right place, running down the field and showing somebody like Jeremy that he’d run the wrong pass pattern, slapping the sides of his helmet with both hands when he was the one who’d made a mistake.
And as good as he was, he would make mistakes, like everybody else. Sometimes it was almost as if he was making them on purpose. Mr. Dolan would come into the huddle and bring a piece of paper with the Xs and Os on it, and then they’d get up to the line of scrimmage and the blockers would run one way and Chris would run the other.
Maybe he just doesn’t want to look perfect every single second he’s out there, Scott thought, like he’s so far above everybody else.
But most of the time he was, not just looking better but looking older somehow, especially when Mr. Dolan would let him cut loose and throw a pass down the field. Or when he’d let Chris roll out and run with the ball himself. Chris would fight for every last yard, even when somebody managed to bring him down in the open field.
Scott didn’t mind watching from the sidelines.
Just being there, just being on the team, getting to wear a uniform, that’s what mattered.
He knew he’d probably never leave the sidelines and do something to belong with these guys. And that was okay.
It was still football.
Early Saturday afternoon.
Scott and Chris were lying in grass that had just been cut the day before, that cool, cut-grass smell all around them, a summer smell, watching the dogs chase each other around the goalposts, the sun warm enough on their faces that they really could still pretend it was summer vacation.
Scott had been doing most of the talking, but only because Chris hadn’t been doing any talking at all since practice had ended. He’d tried to act like he was in a good mood in front of Scott’s mom when they were back at the house having lunch, but now he was like the complete opposite, as though he was barely listening.
Like he wished he wasn’t there.
Scott decided to ask him a question he’d been wanting to ask anyway. Just came right out with it.
“How come you wanted to be friends with me?” he said, not looking at Chris, just staring straight up at the sky. Hoping Chris wouldn’t laugh at him. Or say something like “Who said anything about being friends?”
Or get weirded out and just get up and leave.
He didn’t do any of those things.
“Dogs,” he said.
“Dogs?”
Chris rolled over, propping himself up on an elbow. “No lie,” he said. “It started when I saw you had that picture of Casey that day.”
“Aw, man, that is so not cool.”
“It was to me,” Chris said. “’Cause it’s the way I feel about Brett, even though I’d never tell any of the guys that.”
“So we’re hanging out because we both like dogs?”
“I’m not good at talking about myself,” Chris said.
Scott grinned. “My mom says guys never are.”
Chris rolled back over, like maybe he could find the right words in the sky. “When you talk about how hard you try, I could see that even before I knew you,” Chris said. “Does that make any sense? My mom says that the best thing anybody can have going for them is heart. And, I don’t know, somehow I could see you had heart even before we got out here.”
He blew out some breath like even talking this much had made him tired.
For a long time, nobody said anything.
Then Chris said, “Can I ask you a question?”
“Yeah.”
“How come you didn’t tell Mr. D you could kick when he was looking for guys to kick off?”
“Are you joking? Did you see how fast Big Nick went for that tee?”
“You can kick, dude,” Chris said. “But Coach’ll never know that if you don’t tell him.”
“I can kick here,” Scott said. “I can kick with only you and Casey watching. And you have to promise me you’re not going to tell anybody.”
“Why?” Chris said.
“Because I’m asking you to.”
“I’m not promising until you tell me why,” Chris said.
“Because I’m afraid, that’s why,” Scott said. He took a deep breath, wanting Chris to understand. “Because kicking is all I’ve got, and if I screw up, then I won’t even have that anymore. I won’t even be any good in my dreams.”
“For a guy I said had heart, you can sound like such a baby sometimes!” Chris said.
It came at Scott loud—and out of nowhere, like a clap of thunder you didn’t know was coming. Like something had been building up inside him since they’d gotten out here and now he had just popped.
“What . . . ?” was all Scott could get out.
Chris Conlan wasn’t through.
He was on his feet, on fire.
“You want to be afraid about something?” Chris was really yelling now. “How about somebody taking your whole stinking season away?”
Then he picked up the ball and threw it as far as Scott had ever seen him throw it, toward the woods. Casey went running after it at top speed from all the way at the other end of the field, barking his head off, Brett trailing way behind, making the squeaky noise that passed for his own bark.
“Dude,” Scott said, when he thought it was safe to say anything, “what does that mean, somebody’s going to take your season away?”
Chris turned toward the water now. Scott couldn’t get a good look at his face and wasn’t sure he wanted to, because the coolest kid in school was blinking his eyes, fast, biting down on his lower lip, like he might start crying any second.
“I’ve been wanting to tell you for a couple of days,” Chris said finally. “I might have to quit the team before the season even starts.”
“Quit the team?” Scott said. “You can’t quit the team. You’re the best player. There is no team without you.”
“Doesn’t matter.”
“Why?”
“Because I can’t read,” Chris said.
Then he turned and ran.
EIGHT
Scott was afraid to call Chris the rest of Saturday.
He wanted to call him, wanted in the worst way to understand what was going on with the only friend he had at school.
But he didn’t pick up the phone. He thought about going online and trying to instant-message him, which sometimes was an easier way to talk to somebody.
He didn’t do that, either.
He mostly just sat up in his room, Casey lying there on the floor next to his bed, thinking the same thing over and over again: How crazy this was.
This was Chris Conlan. How could he be this crazy about some book he was having trouble reading?
Except that’s not the way it came out. It came out like he couldn’t read at all. But how could that be? Everybody could read by the time they got to the sixth grade.
Couldn’t they?
When he finally left his room for dinner that night, his mom said, “Did you and Chris have some sort of fight?”
“No.”
He stared at his plate like he was trying to read something.
“Because he left in a pretty big hurry.”
“There was no fight, Mom.”
No way he was going to tell his parents what had happened. Chris hadn’t said it was a secret, hadn’t said another word before he’d bolted. But Scott wasn’t taking any chances until he talked to him again.
Still his mom, being a mom, wouldn’t let it go.
She said, “He just came in, asked if he could use the phone to call his mom, then said he was going to wait outside for her. Then when you didn’t come back right away—”
“Mom!” It came out too loud and Scott knew it. “Nothing happened!”
“Don’t raise your voice to your mother, bud,” his dad said. “She didn’t do anything.”
“Sorry,” he said.
He wanted to ask his parents if there was any way somebody as smart as Chris couldn’t read. Or if it was possible that any sixth-grader couldn’t read.
But he had made up his mind that he wasn’t going to say anything to anybody until he saw Chris at school on Monday.
He didn’t have to wait that long.
Every Sunday Scott and his parents had brunch at their favorite restaurant in town, the New Paradise Café.
They would leave their car at church and walk down Main Street and usually sit in the first room at the New Paradise. Scott ordered the same thing every time: blueberry pancakes, tall stack.
Today Scott had polished off his stack in record time, finished eating so fast that his parents weren’t even close to finishing their omelets. He asked them if he could walk down to the video store, which opened at noon on Sundays, then meet them back here in a little while.
His dad gave him some money, saying, “In honor of making the team, you can rent a game if you want.”
“Dad,” Scott said, “I didn’t make anything, and you know it. I just stuck it out.”
“So get a game in honor of that,” his dad said.
“I’m not any better at football this week than I was last week.”
“You know what we say in this family,” his dad said, smiling that smile at him. “You don’t always get to pick the things you’re best at.”
Scott was walking toward Gramophone Video, still thinking about Chris because he hadn’t been thinking about anything else since yesterday, when he saw Chris walking toward him, along with Jimmy Dolan and Jeremy Sharp.
No place to hide.
He wanted to see Chris, but not like this. Certainly not with Jimmy Dolan in the picture.
“Hey, look, it’s the brain,” Jimmy said. “All duded up.”
They were all stopped now, in front of Thayer’s Hardware.
“Hey, guys,” Scott said, trying to ignore Jimmy as usual.
“Hey,” Jeremy said.
Chris didn’t say anything, just kicked some invisible pebble on the sidewalk. Scott couldn’t believe Chris would be hanging out with Jimmy. Maybe he’d just run into the other guys at the video store.
Scott said to Chris, “I was going to give you a shout-out later.”
Jimmy said, “You been hanging out with the brain, Conlan? What for—you need help with your homework?”
Scott thought, Of all the things in the whole world this dope could have said, he had to say that.
Chris looked over Scott’s head, down Main Street, and said, “I don’t need any help from the brain to do my homework.”
Scott felt as if all the air had gone out of him, like a ball with a hole in it.
Before anybody else could say anything, Chris said, “I gotta go. My mom’s picking me up in front of Lou’s.”
A diner at the other end of Main.
“We’ll go with you,” Jimmy Dolan said. “See you around, brain.”
He laughed then, as if he’d cracked himself up.
Scott stayed right where he was, didn’t turn to watch them go, didn’t care about the sound of Jimmy’s laughter, which to Scott was always the same as a fingernail being scratched across a blackboard.
The only thing he could really hear—still—was Chris calling him “the brain.”
He didn’t turn around until he was sure they were gone. Then he walked slowly back to the New Paradise Café, hoping his parents were ready to go home.
Because he was.
Casey was waiting for him, the way he always was.
He was waiting right behind the front door, spinning around in excitement, acting as if Scott had been away forever.
At least Casey never let him down.
Scott ran upstairs, changed into his play clothes as fast as he could, grabbed his football. When Casey saw the ball, he immediately ran through the kitchen and to the back door, barking all over again, kept barking all the way through the woods until they were back out on Parry Field.
It seemed like more than just a day since Scott and Chris had been out here.
More than that, it seemed to Scott that he was right back where he started.
Him and Case.
Alone.
He should have known it wasn’t going to last with Chris Conlan, no matter what Chris had said about them having dogs in common. No matter what he’d said about Scott having heart.
When Scott got close enough to the goalposts, he fired a pass as hard as he could at the tire.
Missed by a mile.
Casey didn’t care. He chased after the ball like this was their regular game on a regular day, as if nothing had changed, even though Scott felt as if everything had changed.
Even if he couldn’t figure out why.
Chris had acted in town as if Scott was the one who had done something, when all Scott had done the day before was listen. How was listening somebody’s fault?
In town it was like he and Chris hardly knew each other, as if it had been somebody else who stuck up for him with Jimmy Dolan at the bus that day, somebody else pushing Scott to go out for football and then hang in there, no matter what, so he could make a team for the first time in his life.
Now it was a team he didn’t even want to be on anymore.
He was better off here.
Scott kept throwing the ball, managed eventually to put a couple through the tire, Casey always bringing the ball back for another try. Then it was time for Scott to start kicking, first off the tee, then some dropkicks.
For some reason, even though that big heart Chris had talked about wasn’t really in it, he couldn’t miss with his dropkicks today.
He was on fire.
He hardly ever made a lot of dropkicks in a row, mostly because all you had to do was be a little off dropping the ball to throw everything off.
You could miss your spot. Or the ball would land crooked. Stuff like that.
Today he had made six in a row.
He wasn’t just money today. He was cash. That’s what his dad would say when they were out here together and Scott would really nail one. In fact, his dad was supposed to be out here by now, he’d said that he was coming out for one of their Sunday kicking contests for the championship of the entire known universe as soon as he made a couple of quick Sunday business calls.
But Scott wasn’t waiting for him now as he went for seven in a row, which would have been his all-time record. He was in the zone. Could not miss.
He made number seven.
Casey started barking, as if somehow he knew that Scott had earned a cheer, then went after the ball.
But instead of bringing the ball right back, Casey suddenly ran in the opposite direction, back toward the woods.
“Case, get back here,” Scott called out, his voice so loud on the empty field it sounded like it was coming out of speakers on a real field.
No sound from Casey.
No sight of his crazy dog.
Didn’t he know that when you got hot like this, when you had this kind of rhythm going for you, you didn’t want to wait? You wanted to kick the next one right away.
Only now his dog was freezing the kicker the way the other team did sometimes in the pros by calling a time-out.
“Case!” Scott yelled. “This is definitely delay of game.”
He started to go after him, then saw Casey coming out of the woods.
Only he didn’t have the ball with him.
Just Brett.
Chris was right behind them.
He had the ball now.
“I think this belongs to you,” he said.
NINE
“I came to say I’m sorry,” Chris said.
“It’s cool.”
“No, it’s not cool,” he said. “I was out of line.
Like way out of line. Calling you the brain like Jimmy does.” He shook his head. “Talking to you like that . . . that’s not me.”
“I thought maybe I did something,” Scott said.
“Not you. Me. I’m the stupid one.”
“Not a problem.”
They were sitting in the grass. The dogs were gone.
Chris said, “I’m the one with the problem.”
“When you’re friends with somebody,” Scott said, “then it’s your problem, too.” He stopped there for a second, not wanting this to come out sounding like some big deal. But knowing that it was, right now, the biggest possible deal. “And you and me . . . we’re still friends, right?”
“We’re friends,” Chris said, “even if I didn’t act like one in town.”
“Now all you’ve gotta do is tell me what the problem is,” Scott said. “Reading or being on the team?”
“Both.”
Then he tried to explain to Scott about dyslexia.
And how it could drag him down from behind better than any tackler on a football field.
“You ever get cramps?” Chris said.
“Don’t laugh,” Scott said, “but I get them in my feet sometimes.”
“What I’ve got,” Chris said, “is like a permanent cramp of my brain.”
He said that he and Scott would read the same page in a book, but that some of the words would sound different inside his brain than Scott’s.
He said he could look at a word like pen and read pin instead, and then get confused, not knowing why somebody in the book was trying to write with a pin.
Or, Chris said, he’d read a word at the top of a page and then forget what it meant by the time he got down to the bottom.
Writing, he said, was even worse.
“I’m okay if I have to get up in class and talk about something we had to read, as long as I worked really, really hard on it the night before with my mom or one of my tutors,” he said. “But when I try to write out the same answer, I’ll just be getting started when you guys are putting your notebooks away.”
All of a sudden, Scott felt like he’d been in a dark room and somebody had hit the light switch.
“It’s why you run the wrong way sometimes,” he said, “on the field.”
Chris reached over and bumped him some fist. “If Mr. Dolan shows me the Xs and Os on a page, I get crossed up sometimes, just the way I do with my reading. But if he tells me what to do, then I’m pretty much good to go. It’s why even on some of our simplest plays sometimes, I ask him to break down every part of it, even have him walk through it like he’s the quarterback. That way I can really see it.”
But football wasn’t his problem, he said, even if he was the only one running right sometimes when the rest of the team was running left.
School was the problem, and it was getting worse, even though the year had just started.
“How are you when you have to work on the computer and type stuff?” Scott said.
“I’m the king of IM-ing people,” he said, “because nobody cares if you’re a lousy speller or not.”
“I still don’t get how this means you might have to quit the team,” Scott said.
Chris took a deep breath, let it out in a long whoosh. “Here’s the deal,” he said. “If I can’t keep up this year, they want to put me in Special Ed. And I’m already not keeping up.”
Scott felt like the slow one now. “But what does this have to do with football?”
Chris said his parents had laid it out for him like this: If he couldn’t show that he was keeping up in his classes by the time the season started in a couple of weeks, then they were going to hire a full-time tutor. Full-time meant four nights a week. The tutor’s job was to get him ready for this big state equivalency test at the end of the semester.
“If I can pass that, I can stay in our regular class,” he said. “If I can’t, I go into Special Ed.”
“And that’s a bad thing?”
“Listen, every grown-up who talks to me says that Special Ed isn’t like school for dummies,” he said. “They say that sometimes the opposite is true, that some of the smartest kids end up in Special Ed for all kinds of different reasons, not just dyslexia. But I don’t care. I want to stay with my friends.”
“Dude,” Scott said, “nobody’s gonna think any differently about you whatever class you’re in. You’re . . . you’re you.”
“You hear what the other kids say about Special Ed kids.”
“Well, then, you can be the one to show those kids that they’re the ones acting dumber than dirt.”
Chris’s face started to get red.
His eyes, too.
“I just want things to stay the way they are,” he said. “I want to be with my regular teachers. I want to be with my friends. And I want to keep playing football instead of getting tutored every stinking night.”
“Your parents wouldn’t really make you quit the team,” Scott said, “would they?”
“Two weeks,” Chris said. “I’ve got two weeks.”
“Then we need a plan.”
“Yeah, and here it is: In the next two weeks I’ve got to become more like you.”
Scott couldn’t help it when he heard that.
He laughed.
“You think this is funny?”
No, Scott said, it wasn’t that at all.
“It’s just that nobody ever said that to me before,” he said.
Scott didn’t have a plan. He didn’t have anything close to a plan. He sat there feeling as helpless as he did at sports sometimes.
It was Chris who changed the subject, just by standing up, grabbing the ball, motioning for Scott to get up and go long.
Scott did that, running away from the goalposts at Parry Field, running down the sideline until he couldn’t see the white line underneath his sneakers anymore.
When he looked back, the ball was right on top of him.
Unfortunately, so were the dogs.
They had come running back out of the woods at the worst possible moment, Casey in the lead, tracking the ball as if Chris was throwing it to him instead of to Scott, cutting Scott off the way a free safety would, and taking his legs right out from under him.
The ball landed harmlessly in the grass.
“My own dog can cover me,” Scott said to himself.
Even Casey’s better at football than I am.
And then, for some weird reason, it wasn’t his own voice inside his head, it was his dad’s.
From brunch.
You don’t always get to pick the things you’re best at.
Sitting there, brand-new grass stains all over his knees, the idea came to him. And not just any old idea. A totally fantastically brilliant idea.
He jumped up and tried to beat Casey back to where Chris was standing at the other end of the field.
Out of breath he said to Chris, “Make you a deal.”
“Deal,” Chris said, “or no deal.”
Trying to sound like the guy on the TV show.
“No, really,” Scott said. “Listen to me. The deal is, you make me better at football, and I’ll make you better at school.”
Scott was feeling so brilliant.
“And how are you going to do that, exactly?” Chris said.
“You forget something,” Scott said, almost in a cocky way.
“What’s that?”
“I’m the brain.”
TEN
It was later that same afternoon, and Scott and Chris were in the Conlans’ living room with Chris’s mom and dad.
“Nothing else we’ve tried has worked out that great,” Chris said. “Why can’t we try this?”
Scott and Chris had done most of the talking from the time they’d all sat down, taking turns like they were some kind of tag team, not really giving Chris’s parents a chance to interrupt them. That was always the way you did it with your parents when you weren’t just talking to them, but trying to talk them into something.
When you were afraid that the second you stopped talking they were going to say no.
Only that didn’t happen, at least not right away.
All Chris’s dad said, in a nice way, was, “Are you two finished?”
Chris’s dad was tall, the way Chris was, and looked like an athlete. But Chris said he really wasn’t, that all he did was jog. He had no real interest in sports unless he was watching one of Chris’s games.
“You two really think you can pull this off?” Bill Conlan said.
“We do,” Scott and Chris said, almost at the exact same time.
“I’ve heard what a wonderful student you are,” Chris’s dad said to Scott now.
“Not as good as he says I am.”
“I doubt that, just listening to you speak today, the way you present things. But you’re talking about being the first eleven-year-old teaching assistant I believe I’ve ever heard of.”
Chris’s mom hadn’t said anything yet. She was mostly smiling, like she knew something the rest of them didn’t.
“All we’re asking for is a shot,” Chris said.
“For two weeks,” Scott said.
“Scott,” Chris’s dad said, “has Chris really explained to you the issues he has in the classroom?”
“Yes.”
“And you’re saying you can help him get past them?”
“No, that’s not what I’m saying.” Then he added, “Sir.”
“No?”
“I’m saying that I’m willing to try, Mr. Conlan,” he said. “And my mom says she’s willing to help, too. She used to be a guidance counselor before she married my dad, and she says she can help me plan stuff out.” He turned toward Chris, grinning. “Like a game plan.”
“I’d rather have Scott than another new tutor,” Chris said.
Now Mrs. Conlan said, “Maybe this is so crazy it might work, Bill. Peer support instead of peer pressure.”
“It’s going to work!” Chris said. “I’m going to work twice as hard as I ever have!”
“Your plan is to study before every practice, is that right?” Bill Conlan said.
“That’s the plan,” Scott said. “Sometimes here, sometimes at my house.”
“And you study together from then until it’s time for football?”
Scott and Chris nodded, hard.
Mrs. Conlan, whose first name was Gail, said, “And two weeks from today, we talk to Chris’s teachers and see where he is.”
Talking about it like it was a done deal already.
Scott and Chris waited, not saying anything now.
Then Chris’s dad looked at his mom, turned back to them and said, “You’ve got a deal.”
“Yessssss!” Chris said, leaning over in his chair to bump fists with Scott and nearly falling over as he did.
Then the two of them were running out of the living room, colliding with each other in the Conlans’ front hall before heading up the stairs to Chris’s room.
When the door was closed, Chris said, “Do you really think we can pull this off?”
“I do if you do,” Scott said. “Who’s the one always saying that you can’t do stuff in sports unless you think you can?”
“I am so hearing you,” Chris said.
Then Scott told Chris to get out the flash cards he said he tried to use for English sometimes, so the two of them could get busy.
It wasn’t so long ago that Scott was the new kid at school.
Now he was the new teacher.
ELEVEN
After the first week of real practice, with one more week to go until the first game, Scott’s dad said to him one night at dinner, “So what position do you think you’re going to end up playing?”
Being serious.
Scott decided not to paint one of those dopey smiley faces on the whole thing.
“I don’t have a position,” he said, trying to make himself look busy cutting another piece of steak. “I’m probably not going to have one, either, other than maybe glorified water boy.”
“Oh, come on, it’s still way too early to be talking like that.”
“Dad, we play our first game in a week.”
Hank Parry said, “Most coaches I ever had wanted to keep guys off balance about who was going to get the most playing time until the last possible moment.”
So his dad was the one drawing the smiley face.
As usual.
“Well, he must love me, Dad. Because I’m always off balance.”
His dad laughed and said, “Good one, kiddo.”
Yeah, Scott thought, when it comes to football, I’m hilarious.
“Well, does he have you working more on offense or defense?” his dad said.
“Special teams.”
It was the truth. Not that it made him feel very special. When he did get on the field now, it was almost always as one of the guys running downfield on punts, even if he hadn’t made a single tackle yet. Not one. He’d be close to the guy with the ball sometimes, even throw himself down near the real tacklers just to feel as if he’d been part of the play. But he knew he wasn’t fooling anybody.
Starting with himself.
Sometimes on punts Mr. Dolan would put him on the receiving team, on the outside, lining him up against the fast guys who could actually run down and make a tackle, telling him to try to throw a block as a way of slowing them down.
Then another outside guy on the kick team would run around him as if he wasn’t even there.
Jimmy Dolan, just for the fun of it, would go out of his way to knock Scott down before running down the field, even though he knew it would cost him a few seconds getting to the punt returner, and that he would hear it from his dad when the play was over. Which he did.
“Use your head once in a while,” Mr. Dolan would say to Jimmy, trying to act as hard on him as he was on everybody else, even though not one single player on the team believed it. They knew that Jimmy got away with stuff that nobody else on the team could, stuff nobody would even dream about trying to get away with on the field.
“Sorry, brain,” Jimmy would say when the play was over. “But there’s just something about putting you on the ground that is so totally awesome. It’s like I’m racking up points playing video.”
Water boy would actually be a step up, he realized.
“Your chance will come,” his dad said from across the dinner table now.
“Dad, I’m trying not to get my hopes up,” Scott said. “All I see myself doing this year is riding the bench, unless we’re winning, like, 100-0.”
His dad put down his knife and fork and in a soft voice said to him, “Hey, what happened to my Rudy?”
Rudy was one of their favorite sports movies to watch together. No, that wasn’t right. It was one of their favorite movies, period. The story of the Notre Dame guy, a little guy who wasn’t supposed to make the team and then, once he was on the team, wasn’t ever supposed to get in a game. But he finally got in for one play and made a tackle and got carried off the field by his teammates at the end.
It said on the screen at the end of the movie that it was the only time in the whole history of Notre Dame football that any player had ever been carried off the field.
“You just gotta be ready for your Rudy moment,” his dad said.
“But what difference does it make if I’m ready if I can’t even make a tackle in practice?” Scott said. “If the only person I can bring down most of the time is myself?”
“Yet,” his dad said. “You haven’t made a tackle yet.”
Scott said, “The only big play I’m gonna make this season is in your dreams.”
“Let me worry about my dreams,” his dad said. “You just worry about your own.”
He called into the den and told his parents he was going to take Casey for a walk.
“With the leash,” his dad said.
“Case won’t go anywhere,” Scott said.
“Case goes everywhere,” his dad called back, “especially at night. And, besides, you know the rules.”
“At night he’s on the leash.”
“And don’t—”
“—leave the neighborhood.”
Casey had never liked being on a leash, from the time he was a pup. But he knew the leash was a signal he was going outside, and he loved going outside. So he’d get almost as excited when he saw Scott with the leash in his hands as he did when Scott came walking down stairs with a ball.
“Let’s go, pal,” Scott said.
Casey’s answer was to come sliding right into Scott on their slippery kitchen floor.
As soon as they were out the door, Casey was pulling him down the front walk. It was completely dark by now, and the old-fashioned streetlights were lit. When they got to the sidewalk, Scott saw a woman he recognized from up the block walking at them from the other direction, power-walking the way his mom did sometimes, earphones in her ears.
As she passed them, she said to Scott, “Very cool dog.”
Scott smiled and said, “I know,” wondering if she even heard him over whatever it was she was listening to.
When the sound of her footsteps was gone, there was just the panting Casey the dog, straining against the leash the way he always did once they got going, wanting Scott to go faster.
Alone on the street, Scott began to announce an imaginary game.
“Welcome to Bloomfield North Field,” he said. “It’s a perfect morning for football as the Eagles prepare to open their season against their cross-town rival, the Jets.”
Not a great voice, he thought.
But not bad.
“The Eagles have won the toss and elected to receive,” he said.
On the quiet street, his voice sounding loud, Scott said, “Scott Parry to kick off. . . .”
TWELVE
Chris’s big day in class was the Thursday before their first game.
Mr. Dykes, their English teacher, was going to give them a passage from a book, ask them to read it in an allotted period of time, then quiz them on it right after they finished reading.
Quiz them and grade them.
“It will be like a homework assignment, just in class,” Mr. Dykes had told them on Monday. “And it will give me a good read, early in the semester, on your ability to not just read, but understand what you’re reading.”
On the bus home on Monday, Chris had said, “If I have to read a chapter fast, I’m done like dinner. You know how slow I read.”
“So you pick up a step by Thursday,” Scott had said.
“You sound pretty confident.”
“I am.”
Actually, he wasn’t.
That afternoon they figured out that it took Chris about two minutes to read a page. The book they were using was one they were reading in school, called My Brother Sam Is Dead, about a family during the Revolutionary War.
When Scott put himself on the clock, they found out he needed fifty-five seconds to read the same page.
“Great,” Chris said. “You’re more than twice as fast as me.”
Scott smiled.
Chris said, “You’re smiling because?”
“Because I just came up with another one of my brilliant ideas.”
“Your brilliant ideas usually mean more work for me,” Chris said.
“You want to hear it or not?”
“Do I have a choice?”
“Nah.”
“Before we get to Mr. Dykes’s class on Friday,” he said, “your time is going down, sucker.”
“You sound like Mr. Dolan when he takes his stopwatch out.”
“Exactly,” Scott said. “You’re going to compete. Against yourself. And I’m going to time you.”
The hero of My Brother Sam Is Dead was a boy named Tim Meeker, and the story was about how his brother Sam runs off to fight for the American rebels and against the British army in the late 1770s, before America won its independence. Scott, who’d finished the whole book even though the class hadn’t been required to do that yet, thought it was a solid book. Chris was only about halfway through, but Scott could see that he was getting into it, too.
“I still can’t believe I actually like a book,” Chris said.
Scott looked at him, curious now. “You’ve never read just for the fun of it?”
Chris shook his head. “Would you, if you were me? And who said this is fun, anyway?”
“You’re liking this book, you said so yourself.”
“I like it okay.”
“That’s good enough for now,” Scott said.
As the week went on, Scott saw the athlete in Chris coming out a little more every day, saw how competitive he was getting, how he was pushing himself. Could see how Chris would finish a page, say “done,” then look at Scott and ask with his eyes what his time was without saying a word.
“Eighty-five seconds,” Scott would say.
Or eighty-three. Whatever it was. Chris seemed to knock off a couple of seconds every time Scott put him on the clock.
When they did their last page on Wednesday, studying at Scott’s this time, he got under eighty seconds for the first time.
“And I slowed down for a second when I got here,” Chris said, pointing to the word sight. “Another one that doesn’t sound the way it looks,” he said.
Words like that, ones he couldn’t sound out, were still a problem for him, Scott had discovered. But he kept telling Chris that he couldn’t let words like that make him feel like he’d run into a door.
“You just gotta keep moving,” Scott said.
Chris grinned. “Like I’m getting chased by a couple of linebackers.”
“If you stop,” Scott said, “you’re gonna get sacked.”
“Mr. Dolan calls it getting dough-popped,” Chris said. “Some kind of Southern expression.”
“Yeah,” Scott said. “And, remember, dough is spelled d-o-u-g-h.”
“I hate words like that!”
Scott said, “Get over it and start reading the next page.” Pointing to his watch as he said that.
“You have turned into Mr. Dolan,” Chris said.
They read until Scott’s mom said Chris’s mom was there to pick him up. Wednesday wasn’t a practice night this week, but they were studying together anyway, because the test was tomorrow.
When Chris was gone, Scott’s mom said, “So how are we looking there, Professor?”
“Chris calls me Coach.”
“So how is he doing, really? He seems to be in a much better mood lately. Mrs. Conlan says she’s noticed it, too.”
Scott said, “He’s gotten a lot better in just a week. The last page we did today, he had his best time ever. Then I had him read a whole chapter and talk about it afterward. Mom,” Scott said, excited, “he got it.”
“You think he can get through this tomorrow?”
“He’s definitely nervous,” Scott said. “Chris said he never chokes at football, but when it comes to quizzes, he gags his lungs out.”
“You’re more nervous about his test than you’ve ever been for one of your own.”
“Not even close,” Scott said.
She put her arms around him then. “Have I told you lately what a great kid you are?”
Scott said, “Well, not in months and months.”
“You are an unbelievably great kid.”
“Thanks, Mom.”
“You are most welcome.”
Scott looked up at his mom and said, “He’s got to nail this sucker.”
THIRTEEN
Chris nailed it.
They didn’t know for sure he’d nailed it that day, because they weren’t getting their grades until the next morning. At lunch all Chris said was that he thought he’d done a solid job.
“I was going to stop a couple of times,” he said. “I’d get stuck on a word and get that bad feeling. But I made myself keep going, like we talked about.”
English, their last class before lunch, had just ended a few minutes before, and he was still all fired up, like he really had just played a big game. “The whole time, I pictured you standing over me, looking at that cheesy watch of yours.”
Scott said, “What do you mean, cheesy? Do you know how many tickets at the video arcade this watch cost me?”
The book Mr. Dykes had given them was called Hoot, about some cool kids in Florida trying to save baby owls. He’d had them read the first chapter, then told them to write an essay about what had happened and how they felt the author had made them want to read the rest of the book.
When Mr. Dykes handed them back their blue books on Friday, Scott could feel himself holding his breath the way he would during the best parts of a movie, could actually feel his heart beating inside his chest.
Chris stared at the grade on the front, not changing expression until Mr. Dykes was past him, then holding up the front of the book so that Scott could see the grade written in red Magic Marker on the front:
B.
Scott knew that the best Chris had done on the first three quizzes so far this semester was a C-minus.
Making sure Mr. Z couldn’t see, Chris pointed across at Scott and mouthed “you.”
Scott smiled, then shook his head.
When Mr. Dykes dropped the blue book on his desk, Scott saw the A at the top and “Excellent work!” underneath that.
He felt much better about the B across the room.
That night, after talking to Mr. Dykes on the telephone, Mr. and Mrs. Conlan made it official that Chris could stay on the team. The next day Chris scored two touchdowns as the Eagles beat the Jets, 12-6.
Scott didn’t play a single down, just watched from the sidelines, helmet on his head the whole time, standing about twenty yards from Mr. Dolan, trying not to cheer for Chris every single time he made a good play, because that made him feel more like a cheerleader than a teammate.
When the game was over, Chris ran straight for Scott, so he could bump him some fist.
“First the quiz, now the game,” Scott said. “You’re on a roll, dude.”
Chris shook his head slowly from side to side. “We’re on a roll,” he said. “You and me, we’re a team now.”
In the classroom, Scott wanted to say to him.
In the classroom we’re a team.
Never on the field.
They won the next Saturday, against the Bears, and then the Saturday after that, against the Rams, to make it 3-0 for the season.
Chris was great against the Bears, even throwing a touchdown pass to Jimmy Dolan. But it was Grant Dillon, their fullback, a guy usually only in there to block in the backfield for Chris or Jeremy Sharp, who saved them against the Rams. Jeremy had rolled his ankle early in the fourth quarter and had to sit out the rest of the game. After that, Chris was the one running with the ball—when he wasn’t trying an occasional pass, even though Mr. Dolan liked passing about as much as he liked referees.
The Rams were ahead, 6-0.
By the time the Eagles got the ball with two minutes left, the Ram defenders had figured out that if they sent everybody after Chris on every play and double-covered Jimmy when he went out for a pass, they were going to win the game.
But on third-and-four from the Eagles’ forty-yard line, Chris crossed them up.
Big-time.
He took the snap and started rolling to his right. If you had been watching the game, it looked like every sweep he had been running to that side all day. Suddenly, though, he stopped, turned and threw the ball back across the field to Grant, who was wide open on the left sideline, nothing but green grass stretched out ahead of him.
Grant wasn’t the fastest guy on their team. In fact, next to Scott, he was probably the slowest. But with most of the Rams chasing Chris, and Jimmy Dolan having taken his two defenders deep down the right side, he was in the clear.
The only two Rams with a chance were the ones down the field with Jimmy. But Jimmy blocked one of the guys somehow. Like he was a streak of light, Chris appeared out of nowhere, thirty yards from the spot where he’d released the ball, to take down the other.
Grant ended up running sixty yards for the touchdown that made it 6-6, and Chris threw a pass to Jimmy for the conversion. The Eagles had won again.
When Mr. Dolan gathered the team around him at midfield after the game, he said, “This game is the one I’ve been talking about since the start of practice.” He tapped the top of Grant’s helmet lightly with his knuckle, like he was knocking on a door. “And this guy right here is the player I’ve been saying I want you all to be. When it was his turn to make a play, he was ready.”
Mr. Dolan stood up then, putting his big right hand out in front of him, meaning it was time for the players to bring it in.
“I want the rest of you to go home today and think about the play Grant made for us and the game he won for us,” Mr. Dolan said. “And tell yourself that you’re going to be ready when your number’s called.”
Every number except mine, Scott thought as he put his hand in there with all the rest.
In the car on the way home, Scott’s dad said, “I’m thinking about having a talk with your coach.”
Scott was still in his uniform, helmet on his lap. “Dad, no.”
“You don’t even know what I want to talk to him about,” his dad said.
“Yeah, I do. You want to get him to play me. But you always said you were never going to be one of those dads.”
“And I’m not going to be one now. I’d just sort of like him to explain why he won’t play you.”
“Not just me,” Scott said. “Eric Dodds, also. And Nik Solo.”
“There’s three of you? Good, then I’m not just talking about my own kid.”
“We’re not playing because we’re not good enough,” Scott said.
“To do what? Make it to the Pro Bowl this season?” Dialing up his voice just a little.
“Dad, you don’t see our practices.”
“I’ve seen enough to get a pretty good handle on things.”
“If you saw us every day,” Scott said, “I’m pretty sure you’d see what Mr. Dolan sees. Which is that I stink.”
“You put in the time,” his dad said. “You go to every practice. It seems to me he could reward you with a couple of downs here and there.”
“He says he doesn’t coach that way,” Scott said. “He says it doesn’t teach us anything about sports and it doesn’t teach us anything about the real world.”
“Which I’m sure he is a huge expert on,” Hank Parry said. “He must have learned it all at the Ohio State-Michigan game.”
They were in a line of traffic, waiting as a train went through town. Scott turned so his dad could see him smiling, not wanting him to make a big deal out of this. “This isn’t like school,” he said. “Coach isn’t going to give me a gold star for perfect attendance.”
“You’re aware that you’ve already played half the season, right?”
“I can still do math,” Scott said.
“You should get into a game.”
“Dad, listen,” Scott said when the car was moving again. “I’ve thought about this. I don’t just want to be out there. I want to be more than Rudy. If Mr. Dolan ever puts me in the game, I want it to be because he thinks I can help us win.”
“What if that doesn’t happen this season?” his dad said. “You’ll really be okay with that?”
“If I wasn’t, I’d quit,” Scott said. “And I’m not quitting.”
“You don’t have to prove anything to anybody,” his dad said. “Especially me.”
“Maybe I’ve just got a hard head,” he said.
He didn’t change out of his uniform when they got home. He ran up the stairs and tossed his helmet on the bed and got his football and took Casey out to Parry Field.
He started by just throwing the ball around, throwing it to an imaginary Jeremy Sharp or even an imaginary Jimmy Dolan. Casey happily—and loudly—chased down the ball, no matter how far it went, and brought it back. Then Scott kicked for a while, first off the tee, then dropkicks after that, stubbornly staying with the dropkicks—that hard head of his again—even though today he couldn’t make more than two in a row.
It was still a perfect day for football, sunny and cold, but not too cold, the wind at his back when he faced the goalposts. The field looked perfect, too. The men had just been there the day before to mow it, and Scott had used his roller to chalk the lines when they were through.
When he finally made three dropkicks in a row, he went to the end of the thirty-yard field and tried to pace off another thirty yards.
The length of Grant’s run against the Rams.
Now he crouched down behind an imaginary center, started calling out signals.
Not an announcer today, a football player in a football uniform, even if there wasn’t a speck of dirt on it.
Casey watched from the sidelines, waiting to see what was going to happen next. As if even Casey the dog wanted to see what play Scott had called.
As soon as Scott pulled back with the ball, he ran to his right. Like Chris on a sweep.
Then he stopped the way Chris had, threw the ball high up in the air, high enough that Scott had time to run under it, throwing the ball to himself the way Chris had thrown it to Grant.
As soon as Scott caught it, he ran for the end zone at Parry Field, Casey falling into place alongside him, Scott really feeling the wind at his back now.
He ran like he was running to win the game, veering a little toward the left sideline the way Grant had on the day when his number finally got called.
Scott ran, feeling his legs pumping hard, feeling the ball tucked securely under his arm, hearing his own breath.
Ran like he was the fastest one on the field.
FOURTEEN
It all started about ten minutes before practice ended, and the funny thing was, it started with Scott finally making a play.
At least he thought he had.
They had gone a little longer than usual Monday night, Mr. Dolan having told them that their next opponent, the Lions, was the best team—besides their own—he had seen in the league.
“I scouted them Saturday afternoon,” he said. “And I’m here to tell you boys that we’re going to have our work cut out for us.”
Scott barely heard the part about them having their work cut out for them. He was stuck on what Mr. Dolan had said right before that, just like how Chris got stuck on words he couldn’t sound out.
Thinking to himself: You scouted them?
A bunch of sixth-graders?
He felt himself starting to giggle, the way you’d start to giggle in class sometimes without being able to stop yourself, and had to make it sound like he was coughing.
“You okay there, Parry?” Mr. Dolan said.
“Think I might have swallowed a bug, Coach,” Scott said.
Then Mr. Dolan was telling them that in addition to the Lions having good players on both offense and defense, and being well-coached, they had also returned two punts for touchdowns in their game against the Giants.
“Let me give you boys a heads-up,” he said. “Punt returns like that are not happening on Saturday.”
They had spent the last half hour of practice covering punt returns as if their lives depended on it, trying to contain Jeremy Sharp. There were a bunch of guys missing that night, because it turned out to be the night when the sixth-graders from Bloomfield South were helping pass out food at a local soup kitchen. So Scott had been in on every play for once, even though his job was the same every time:
Line up opposite Jimmy on the outside and try to slow him down before he went downfield and tried to tackle Jeremy. And, unfortunately for Scott, Jimmy had been taking the job seriously for a change, maybe because he saw how serious his dad was about covering these returns.
It basically meant he wasn’t going out of his way to dough-pop Scott every chance he got.
Dave Kepp was their punter. He couldn’t placekick to save his life, but somehow that didn’t prevent him from being a really good punter. And tonight it seemed like he was getting even more hang time than usual, giving Jimmy a chance to make one tackle after another.
One time when they were lined up, waiting for Dave to kick again, Jimmy said to Scott, “You know you’re catching a break tonight, right, brain? When my old man gets locked in on something like this, even I’m smart enough not to horse around.”
“Am I supposed to, like, thank you?” Scott said.
“Don’t push it,” Jimmy said, then gave Scott another head fake, as if he needed one, and went right around him again. Only this time, Jeremy ran for about twenty yards before Dave Kepp had to run him out of bounds. When the play was over, Mr. Dolan announced that he’d been ready to call it a night, but since Jeremy had nearly broken one, they were going to do it one more time.
“And maybe just this once,” Mr. Dolan said, “the outside guys on the return team could be something more than speed bumps for the guys on the kicking team.”
He was looking right at Scott when he said it.
“Don’t even think about trying to block me, brain,” Jimmy said just loud enough for Scott to hear. “Just get out of my way like you always do, or it will not be pretty.”
Scott didn’t say anything back to him, just decided this wasn’t going to be a play when he tried to slow Jimmy down, it was going to be a play when he put him down.
Sometimes Jimmy would fake to Scott’s right, toward the sideline, and then cut inside. Sometimes he would fake Scott to the right and go that way anyway. Waiting for the snap, Scott remembered something his dad said one time when they were playing tennis and Scott was up at the net.
“You might as well guess one way or the other,” his dad said. “Because if you just stand there in the middle, the other guy’s going to pass you every time.”
Scott was tired of getting passed.
He decided to guess.
The brain was finally using his on a football field.
As soon as Jimmy made his head fake this time, Scott moved in the same direction, setting himself good and low for his block, elbows out wide, not caring if Jimmy tried to run right through him, ready to finish his block—something Mr. Dolan talked about all the time—no matter what.
This time Scott was the one initiating the contact.
Just not very well.
Scott dropped his shoulder and tried to drive it into Jimmy’s midsection. But the moment he did get low, Jimmy grabbed Scott by his left shoulder pad, like he wanted to just toss him out of the way.
Even as he started to fall, Scott was determined to finish the block, no matter what.
Somehow he rolled forward as Jimmy tried to step over him, only managing to catch him with his legs.
Instead of being in the clear, Jimmy stepped on Scott’s foot. His leg collapsed underneath him, and down he went.
Hard.
As soon as he hit the ground, he was grabbing for his right ankle and yelling at Scott, “You tripped me, you stinking cheater.”
Scott said, “No—”
Mr. Dolan was there now, standing over both of them.
“Dad, you saw it,” Jimmy said. “He leg-whipped me when I started to go by him.”
Mr. Dolan was kneeling next to Jimmy by now.
Mr. Hartung, their assistant coach, had gone to get an ice pack out of their first aid kit.
Mr. Dolan turned, looked up at Scott and said, “We don’t block with our legs, Parry. It’s against the rules, and it’s how people get hurt.”
“I was just trying to stay with the block,” Scott said.
“Sure you were.”
Scott didn’t just feel Mr. Dolan’s eyes on him. He felt everyone’s.
“Our legs got tangled up,” Scott said.
“He’s lying!”
Jimmy.
Mr. Dolan, in a low voice, not anything like his coach voice, said to Scott, “You haven’t stayed with one block all night.”
“I tried to block him, not trip him,” Scott said.
“Mr. Dolan,” Chris said, stepping forward, “Scott doesn’t lie.”
Mr. Dolan turned, and now he gave Chris Conlan a long look.
“Did you see the play, Conlan?”
“No, sir. I’m just sayin’—”
“My advice would be to not say anything,” Mr. Dolan said.
“He’s not good enough to play, so he plays dirty,” Jimmy said.
Mr. Dolan was the one holding the ice to his ankle, still staring at Scott. Scott looked around. Everybody was staring at him.
“I didn’t mean to hurt anybody,” he said, knowing he was sounding lamer by the second.
“Right,” Jimmy said. “I tripped myself.”
Mr. Dolan helped him to his feet, telling him not to put any weight on his ankle, then saying, “Let’s get you home and hope that thing doesn’t swell up on you.”
Then he looked right at Scott and shook his head, saying, “Your first real contribution of the whole season is getting one of our best players injured.”
Then he and Jimmy left without another word and walked toward the parking lot, leaving Scott feeling alone, even with the rest of the team standing there with him.
Usually Scott would have been getting a ride home from Mrs. Conlan, because it was her night to pick up. But she and Chris were making a quick trip to the mall to get him some new pants for school since he’d already grown out of the ones she’d bought him in the summer.
So Scott’s mom was coming to pick him up. She just hadn’t shown up by the time Mrs. Conlan and Chris were leaving.
Chris rolled down the window of his mom’s car and said, “You sure you’re gonna be all right?”
“My mom will be here any second.”
“I meant about what happened out there tonight.”
“I’m good,” he said.
He wasn’t.
He sat down on the curb and waited, head down, replaying his block on Jimmy Dolan again and again until he looked up and saw the three of them standing over him.
Bren Mahoney, the team’s middle linebacker and Jimmy Dolan’s best friend on the team. Charlie Grow, another linebacker. And Quinn Kellogg, who played nose tackle on defense and center on offense.
Bren spoke first.
“You happy now, brain?”
“No,” Scott said, not making any move to get up. “Actually, I’m not.”
Charlie said, “You know how this could mess us up totally, right? If Jimmy’s out for the year?”
“He twisted his ankle, is all,” Scott said.
“Oh, now the brain is a doctor,” Quinn said.
Scott looked around. It was just the four of them in the parking lot. Everybody else was gone. He seemed to remember Bren saying one time that he lived practically across the street and could walk home.
“Get up when we’re talking to you,” Bren said.
Scott stood up, not wanting to make this any worse than it already was. “I’m not looking for any trouble,” Scott said.
“That’s ’cause you made enough already tonight,” Bren said.
“We were talking about it after,” Charlie said. “How if you weren’t a dirty player you wouldn’t be any kind of player at all.”
“It wasn’t a dirty play, and you know it,” Scott said.
“I saw the whole thing,” Quinn said, “and that’s exactly what it was.”
In a quiet voice, Bren said, “It should’ve been you that got hurt, not Jimmy.”
He was as close to Scott as he could get now without actually touching him. Charlie was to Scott’s right, just as close. He could feel Quinn behind him.
“We were all wondering,” Bren said, “just when you’re going to stop pretending you’re a football player?”
Charlie said, “You’ve got one friend on the whole team, and that’s probably just Conlan doing it out of pity.”
It was like they were taking turns pushing him around, even without laying a hand on him.
“And if Jimmy can’t play,” Quinn said, “even he’s not gonna want you around.”
They all heard the car horn then.
Scott looked between Bren and Charlie and saw his mom’s Volvo pulling into the back parking lot.
Still nobody moved.
“I gotta go,” Scott said. “My mom’s here.”
Bren moved back. So did Charlie. Scott started walking toward the car.
“That’s it, run to Mommy,” Bren said.
Scott kept walking.
“But since you are such a brain,” Bren said, “why don’t you go home tonight and think of a way to really help this team?”
FIFTEEN
They were all in the living room after dinner, television sets off, no calls to be answered on the house phone, his dad’s cell phone turned off. Those were the rules for family conferences, and Scott had asked for a family conference once his dad, who’d worked late, had finished his dinner.
Now his parents sat on the couch, waiting.
“I don’t want to be on the team anymore,” Scott said. “And I don’t want you guys to try to change my mind.”
His dad smiled. “Doesn’t sound like much of a family conference to me. Sounds like a brief opening statement from the president, then no questions.”
“Dad, I didn’t mean it that way.”
His mom said, “Do we at least get to hear why?”
“I was going to,” Scott said, and then described what had happened at practice. He tried not to rush through it, wanting to make sure he got it all in so they’d understand what it had been like after Jimmy got hurt, how Chris had tried to stick up for him, how Mr. Dolan had just walked away from him finally, after saying the only thing Scott had done all year was get somebody hurt.
He wasn’t going to tell them about what Bren and the other guys had said after practice, because he wasn’t going to tell anybody that. There was no way to do that without sounding like the biggest baby in the world.
When he was done telling the story he’d decided to tell, his dad stood up, his face red, saying, “Okay, the conference is over, I’m calling that guy.”
But Scott’s mom put a hand on his arm and said, “Let’s talk about this a little bit.”
Scott knew it was her polite, Mom way of telling him he wasn’t going anywhere.
Scott said, “We can talk all you want, Mom. I’m still quitting.”
“But you’ve worked so hard,” she said.
Scott was standing in the middle of the room, feeling a lot more nervous here than he did when he had to get up in front of the class and say something. “You didn’t see how the rest of the guys were looking at me,” he said. “Like they all believed Jimmy that the only way I could ever get him down was if I did something dirty. I’m not sure even Chris thought I had it in me to throw a decent block.”
“Chris said he believed you, in front of the team,” Hank Parry said. “Sounds like at least he told the truth, that you don’t lie.” He was leaning forward, squeezing both knees with his hands, face even redder than before. “The only people who wouldn’t know that are ones who haven’t taken the time to find out anything about you, other than deciding you’re not going to play for the real Eagles someday.”
“Dad, it doesn’t matter. If this is all he thinks of me and this is all the other guys—maybe except Chris—think of me, then what am I doing on this team in the first place?”
“Honey,” his mom said, “you don’t know that the rest of the players think that. And by the time Mr. Dolan calms down a little—”
“He seemed pretty calm to me,” Scott said.
His mom smiled, as if smiling away the fact that he’d interrupted her, and said, “I’m sure twisted ankles happen all the time in sports and don’t have to be anybody’s fault.”
“He probably just wanted to act hurt because he was embarrassed that you finally got the best of him,” his dad said.
“Dad, you’re not listening,” Scott said. “This isn’t about Jimmy. It’s about me. I’m turning in my uniform tomorrow night.”
His parents looked at each other, as if deciding which one would go first. Then Scott saw his mom give his dad the tiniest nod.
Mr. Parry took a deep breath. “I’ve always taught you to finish what you started, haven’t I?”
Scott nodded, not liking where this was going.
“We talk about that a lot, right? Even when it’s something like cleaning your room?”
“Dad—”
“Let me finish, okay?”
Another nod, Scott looking his dad in the eyes, because that’s what his dad had taught him to do, from as far back as Scott could remember.
Even if you didn’t like what they were saying.
“But I’ve always told your mother I was never going to force you to play sports,” he said. “And I certainly don’t want sports to ever make you as miserable as you are right now.”
Scott just waited.
“But I do want to ask you a question, pal. Are you quitting because you are this miserable, or just because you got your feelings hurt tonight?”
“I’m doing it because this is a lost cause,” Scott said.
“The season’s not over.”
“For me it is.”
“You can’t let this coach run you off, whether you like him or not,” his dad said. “I had plenty of coaches like this Dolan guy, believe me.”
“Dad,” Scott said, “I’m not you.”
His dad looked at his mom, then back at Scott. “That’s not the problem, son,” he said. “The problem is that tonight you’re not being you.”
Hank Parry stood up, as if saying the conference was over.
“Sleep on it,” he said. “If you still want to quit tomorrow, I’ll come home early and drive you over to the practice field myself.”
Scott hadn’t changed his mind by the time he got up in the morning.
All day at school he felt as if he was keeping this huge secret from Chris, but he wasn’t ready to talk about it with him, especially not at school, where somebody might overhear them. Not that anybody on the team would really care.
He decided to tell Chris when they were studying together—Scott’s house today—later.
They took Chris’s bus after school so they could pick up Brett, then Mrs. Conlan drove them all to Scott’s, telling Chris she’d see him after practice.
His practice, Scott thought, not mine.
Up in his room, with the dogs running around in the backyard, Scott put off telling him a little more. They were working on math today, using a game Scott’s mom had bought for them, called “24.” Not from the TV show 24. This was like a board game, with all these different cards, four numbers on every one of them, in different combinations. You had to figure out how to use some combination of addition, subtraction, multiplication and division so that you ended up with a total of twenty-four.
Scott was having Chris work without a pencil and paper, saying it would help him organize things better inside his head.
“Just another exercise for his brain,” Scott’s mom had said.
Sometimes he thought she was into this as much as he was. Like she was the real head coach in this and Scott was just her assistant.
Scott had turned the whole thing into another competition, him against Chris this time, making it more fair by giving himself the hardest combinations, but still doing the thing that Chris understood best: keeping score.
Sometimes Chris would struggle. Sometimes he’d give up entirely and start firing his cards across Scott’s room like Frisbees and saying this was a stupid game and math was a stupid subject and he was stupid.
“You want to stop?” Scott said the first time Chris got frustrated today.
“Nah,” Chris said. “You know our deal. I just need a twenty.” Then he made the motion basketball coaches made, tapping their shoulders with their fingers, when they wanted a twenty-second time-out.
“There’s never one easy day,” Chris said. “You get that, right?”
“Dude,” Scott said, grinning at him, “who ever said this was going to be easy?”
They went back to playing “24” until Chris said his head was going to officially explode and couldn’t they please go outside and throw the ball around for a while?
It was the last thing Scott wanted to do today, be anywhere near a football or a football field, but he relented.
On their way through the woods, Scott said, “Don’t you ever get tired of playing football?”
“Never.”
“You love it that much?”
“That’s why you play, dude,” Chris said, running toward the field. “Love of the game.”
Now, Scott told himself.
You have to tell him now.
When he came out of the woods, Chris was running crazy patterns on the field, the dogs chasing him, barking away as usual. Chris seemed happier to be out here than the dogs, maybe because it meant he was through studying for the day.
Scott walked over to him when he finally stopped and said, “Hey, there’s something I need to tell you.”
Chris looked at him, as if he knew something. “Please don’t tell me you’re quitting studying with me.”
“No,” Scott said, “I’d never do that. But I am quitting football.”
Then he went right into why, doing it the way they had with Chris’s parents that time, not giving him a chance to say anything. Scott didn’t tell it the way he had last night with his own parents—he skipped a lot of parts because Chris had been there—yet still left out what had happened in the parking lot. He knew that if he told Chris about what Bren and Charlie and Quinn had done, it would just rip the team apart.
“I’m turning in my uniform tonight,” Scott said. “It’s not like anybody’s gonna miss me. The only way Coach ever noticed me was when I got his son hurt.”
Then he started running, like he was going out for a pass, putting an arm up the way you did when you were open.
Or maybe he was running away from what he’d just said.
When he was about twenty yards away, Chris Conlan threw a pass so hard that Scott felt like the ball took a couple of fingers with it as it went sailing through his hands.
“Wow,” Scott said, forcing a smile even though his hands really hurt, “where did that missile come from?”
Chris didn’t smile back. Just continued to stare at him.
“I don’t like quitters,” Chris said. “That’s where it comes from.”
This wasn’t Chris his friend now. This wasn’t even the Chris who’d called him “brain” in front of Jimmy Dolan.
This was the quarterback.
Scott was getting the kind of look he’d see from Chris on the sidelines after he’d messed up or somebody else on the offense had messed up and the Eagles had either turned the ball over with a fumble or interception or just not made the yardage they needed on fourth down.
A look that made you want to duck.
“Can I say something?”
“No.”
“I’m not allowed to explain?”
“You just did. Mr. Dolan and Jimmy hurt your little feelings and so now you’re taking your ball and going home.”
Maybe it was the tone of his voice, the way he seemed to be mocking the whole thing, but now Scott got mad.
“What are you,” he said, “my father?”
“I’m your friend,” Chris said. “And I thought you were mine.”
“What, I’m not good enough to be your friend now because I’m not a good football player?”
“I’d rather be friends with someone who’s not a good player than with a stinking quitter.”
“If this is your way of trying to talk me out of it, forget about it,” Scott said. Yelling now. “My parents couldn’t do it, and neither can you!”
“Who’s trying to talk you out of anything?” Chris said. “You do whatever you want, you know everything.”
“Fine!” Scott said.
“Fine!”
Scott figured that if they stayed at this for another minute they were going to start making faces at each other.
Or calling each other names.
Chris was the one who broke it off, whistling for Brett as he started walking back toward the woods.
“How are you going to get to practice?” Scott called after him. “My mom was supposed to take us.”
Without turning around, Chris said, “What do you mean, us?”
Before Scott could say anything else, he was already in the woods, Brett following behind him.
Right behind Brett was Casey.
Like somehow even Casey knew what was going on, and even he didn’t want to hang around with a quitter today.
Scott thought Casey would come back right away.
He didn’t.
He kept waiting for his mom to come walking on the field, wanting to know what had happened.
She didn’t.
He’d left his watch up in his room when he and Chris had been studying, so he didn’t know what time it was, just knew the sky was starting to look the way it usually did when it was time to leave for practice.
Except there was no practice today.
Scott decided to practice kicking anyway, do something fun, have football be fun the way it used to be out here, before he kidded himself into thinking he could be a real player.
He walked over to the middle of the field, extra-point distance, trying to pretend he was Doug Flutie. Ready to try the Flutie dropkick.
Then he couldn’t help it, he could hear his dad’s voice inside his brain, telling him for what felt like the thousandth time that no matter how many people tried to tell Flutie he was too small to be a great football player, even when he was in high school, he never gave up.
The way Rudy never gave up.
He kicked the ball now.
Wide right.
No Casey to get the ball. He went and got it himself. Then he walked toward the woods alone, wondering if Doug Flutie or Rudy ever felt as low as he did right now.
He was in his room, door closed, when he heard the car in the driveway, looked out the window and saw it was his dad, coming home early like he’d said he would.
Scott heard the front door close.
Heard his dad calling out in his singsong way, “Honey, I’m home,” the way he always did. He had explained that’s the way dads did it on TV when he was growing up.
Finally, Scott heard his dad coming up the stairs, then knocking on his door.
“You in there?”
“Yeah.”
“All right if I come in?”
“Yeah.”
His dad opened the door and as soon as he saw Scott, he broke out into the biggest smile he had, like it was two or three for the price of one.
Scott wasn’t only dressed in his uniform, he even had his helmet on.
“I’m ready for practice,” he said.
SIXTEEN
In the end, Scott had worked it out for himself, decided it wasn’t about Mr. Dolan, or Jimmy, or Chris, or even his parents.
He was playing for himself.
It wasn’t as if he didn’t want to get out on the field in a real game. Scott still wanted that in the worst way, even if he was the worst player on the team.
But if it didn’t happen this season, well, he could live with that more than he could live with being a quitter. It wasn’t just Chris who didn’t want to hang around with a quitter.
Neither do I, Scott thought.
When he got to practice, he thought Chris might at least act a little surprised to see him, but he didn’t.
“Hey,” was all he said.
“Hey,” Scott said back.
Then Chris nodded and put out his fist and Scott bumped him back, and they went out to stretch along with everybody else.
It turned out Jimmy had a “high ankle sprain.” Scott wasn’t sure how that was different from any other kind of ankle sprain, but Mr. Dolan said it was the worst kind and he wasn’t sure when Jimmy would play again. He was definitely out of Saturday’s game against the Lions.
Before they started scrimmaging, he said one other thing, making it sound as if he was addressing the whole team, even though Scott knew better.
“Let’s keep it clean tonight, okay?”
They spent most of tonight’s practice working on their “red zone” offense, which meant the offense tried to score from inside the other team’s twenty-yard line. Sometimes they’d start from the twenty, sometimes first-and-goal from the eight-yard line.
Scott watched every play from the sidelines, as usual.
Finally Mr. Dolan moved the ball back to midfield and told Chris, “Okay, it’s first down here, one minute left, no time-outs. Gotta score a touchdown to win the game.” If the offense did score, Mr. Dolan told them, the defense would have to to run laps afterward. If the defense held, the guys on offense would run.
As the offense went to huddle up, Mr. Dolan pointed at Scott and told him to get in at cornerback and cover Jeremy.
Scott didn’t think he could possibly have heard right.
“What did you say, Coach?”
“I said, I want you to take over at left corner.”
“But—” But, he wanted to say, I haven’t played one down at cornerback all season.
“Is there a problem, Parry?”
“No, sir.” Scott was fumbling around with his fingers, trying to get the strap on his helmet snapped.
“Then get out there.”
When Scott got to the defensive huddle, Bren Mahoney said to him, “We are not going to be the ones doing the running after practice. So here’s the deal, Parry: If Jeremy starts to blow past you, do what you do best and trip him.”
A couple of the other guys laughed.
Bren Mahoney said, “I get why Mr. D wants to pick on you for what you did to Jimmy. But why’s he have to pick on us at the same time?”
Mr. Dolan was in the huddle with the offense, calling every play. The first two were passes to Dave Kepp, who had replaced Jimmy at tight end. Dave ran out of bounds both times, the second pass gaining enough yards for a first down.
“Thirty-eight seconds left,” Mr. Dolan said, looking at his watch.
When the offense broke the huddle this time, Scott noticed Chris staring right at him, like he was trying to stare a hole right through him, holding the look as he walked up to the line, still looking at him as he bent down to take the snap.
Scott didn’t have to run over and ask him what was happening, because he knew.
Practice was about to come straight at him.
Scott immediately backed up five more yards and wished he could back all the way into the parking lot.
At least Bren Mahoney didn’t make it easy for Chris. Bren picked this play to blitz, and it must have surprised Chris’s blockers, because nobody picked him up. So as Jeremy Sharp made his cut to the right sideline, Scott could see Chris scrambling away from Bren to his right.
That was the last thing Scott saw as he turned and ran after Jeremy, who was ten yards past him already.
Scott had never rooted against Chris Conlan, but rooted against him now as hard as he could, hoping Bren would run him out of bounds or sack him, that the next thing he’d hear was Mr. Dolan’s whistle blowing.
He heard what felt like half the team yelling “Ball!” instead.
Scott knew he was beaten—badly—but also knew that you better turn around when you heard everybody yelling that the ball was in the air.
As he did, he saw the ball coming in his direction end over end, looking more like a punt falling to earth than one of Chris Conlan’s perfect spirals.
Whatever had happened, the pass was way underthrown.
“Aw, man,” he heard Jeremy Sharp say from behind him.
It wasn’t Scott fighting to catch up with Jeremy now, it was the other way around, Jeremy trying to come back and give himself a chance to make the catch.
Scott tried to do the same thing, putting the brakes on because he could see he’d nearly outrun the ball himself.
As he did, he got his feet tangled up.
As usual.
He didn’t need anybody’s help this time. He was just tripping himself up the way he always did, falling backward, unable to stop himself, not sure where Jeremy was in relation to the ball, not really caring.
Two things happened then, one amazing, one not so amazing.
The not-so-amazing thing:
Scott ended up on his butt.
The amazing thing:
The ball ended up in his lap.
He had intercepted the pass.
“You let me get it,” Scott said later in the car.
“Did not.”
“You threw it to me on purpose.”
Chris said, “You think I’d do that on the same day you tried to desert me? Nope. No way.”
It was Mrs. Conlan’s turn to drive them home after practice. From the front seat now she said, “Please tell me you two aren’t going to go on this way all the way to Scott’s house.”
Her face smiling at them in the rearview mirror.
“We’re done,” Chris said.
“No, we’re not,” Scott said, not letting go.
“You’ve never thrown a pass that wobbly in your life.”
“How many times do I have to tell you?” Chris said. “Bren hit me just as I released the ball.”
“I heard Bren say he hit you right after you released the ball,” Scott said.
“Who are you going to believe,” Chris said. “Your best friend or Jimmy Dolan’s?”
Scott didn’t say anything right away.
“I’m waiting,” Chris said.
“I believe you,” Scott said, adding, “I guess.”
They were pulling into his driveway by then. Scott thanked Mrs. Conlan for the ride and reminded Chris that they were studying together tomorrow even though there were teacher conferences, which meant no school.
Chris said, “So now I have school even when there’s no school.”
“Pretty much,” Scott said.
“Am I a lucky guy, or what?” Chris said.
Scott walked through the front door smiling, thinking it was funny how things worked out, how what had started out to be one of the worst days of his life had turned with him making that pick on Jeremy. How when the season started, he would have given anything to make a play like that, even in practice.
But that wasn’t what had him smiling.
He knew that one play wasn’t going to change things, not really.
No.
What had him smiling was that Chris Conlan had called him his best friend.
SEVENTEEN
The Eagles beat the Lions the next Saturday even without scoring an offensive touchdown, even without Jimmy, their best blocker on offense and their best tackler on defense. Bren Mahoney ran back an interception all the way for one score, Jeremy Sharp returned the second half kickoff for a touchdown, and the final score was 12-6.
No extra points in the game. Nobody ever even tried to kick in their league, the teams always went for two points, but today nobody had been able to convert after any of the touchdowns.
Jimmy showed up for the game on crutches, though Scott noticed he was moving around pretty well without them a couple of times when he thought nobody was watching him.
Scott did a good job of avoiding him for most of the game, but with two minutes to go, Jimmy came over and stood next to him.
“Good game, brain,” he said. Then, “Oops, my bad. I guess you didn’t get in.”
Scott moved away from him.
Jimmy, hopping on his crutches, moved with him. “Ask you a question, brain?”
There was no way to avoid this guy, on the field or off. “Sure,” Scott said. “Why not?”
Jimmy said, “Why are you still here?”
“You mean why am I still here having a conversation with you?”
“You know what I mean. Why are you even on this team?”
Scott said, “None of your business.”
“You don’t do anything,” Jimmy continued. “The only guy on the team who likes you is Chris. So why don’t you just quit?”
Scott felt himself clenching his fists, trying to decide what hurt more, that Jimmy was saying these things or that he was saying all the things Scott had thought about himself all season, even after he made up his mind not to do what Jimmy wanted him to do.
He turned and looked at Jimmy.
“I’m sort of wasting my time here,” Scott said, “because I’m gonna tell you something you’re not going to understand.”
Jimmy frowned, not sure if he was being insulted or not.
“Watch it, brain. I only need one good leg to kick your butt.”
“Yeah, I know how tough you are. But even you have to know by now that if you knock me down, I’ll get back up.”
“Whatever. You still haven’t answered my question.”
“Sometimes,” Scott said, “guys love the game even if it doesn’t love them back.”
Now Scott walked away, walked down the sideline and cheered for Chris and the rest of the guys on offense as they tried to run out the clock.
For once, Jimmy didn’t follow.
Scott and Chris made a deal:
No matter what happened, in football or studying, neither one of them was going to talk about quitting the rest of the way.
Then they shook on it with a handshake Chris had invented, one so complicated Scott was sure he was changing it every time they shook on something, palms up, palms down, up high, down low, even a shoulder bump at the end.
Scott was going to work harder than ever on the practice field between now and the end of the season. Chris was going to work harder than ever in the study sessions they had left before his equivalency test, scheduled now for the Monday after the championship game.
With one game left in the regular season, they were 5-0 and had locked up the number-one seed. If the Lions, whose only loss had been to the Eagles, won their last game, they were going to finish number two and play the Eagles for the title.
“The football season feels like it just started,” Chris said, “but, dude, my study season feels like it’s gone on forever.”
“You’re doing better than you ever thought you would.”
“I don’t stink as much as I used to, put it that way.”
This was Friday afternoon, before practice. They’d finished studying, working only on English today, mixing up reading and writing. Scott didn’t let Chris get up now when something had him stumped—he explained that Chris wouldn’t be able to get up and walk around the room and even toss a ball to himself if he got stumped during the equivalency test. It didn’t work like that.
Now they were out having another kicking contest on Parry Field, Scott winning the way he always did, especially when they got around to drop-kicking.
As good as Chris Conlan was at everything else at football, he just couldn’t kick to save his life.
“Someday,” Chris said, “when we get to high school, you’re going to be our star kicker.”
“Dream on, sucker.”
“No, seriously,” Chris said. “Just because Mr. Dolan has no use for kickers doesn’t mean every coach you’re ever gonna have is gonna feel the same way.”
“Yeah,” Scott said, “because I’m going to have so many football coaches in my life.”
“You wait.”
Scott squared up and drop-kicked one through from twenty yards away.
“Look at that,” Chris said. “Plenty of distance. Center cut all the way.”
“Yeah,” Scott said. “Very useful. Being able to drop-kick is like being able to eat a whole blueberry pie.”
Chris tried to match him, nearly kicked the ball sideways, then just stood there laughing at himself, looking totally helpless.
Like he was a brain trying to be good at football.
“But if they ever do bring back the dropkick—” Chris said.
“I’ll be the first one picked in the draft.”
“Oh, yeah,” Chris said. “You’ll be a wild man.”
“Wild man” being one of their favorite expressions from Rudy, when Rudy’s buddy is yelling “Who’s a wild man now?” as the other Notre Dame players carry Rudy off the field.
“Trouble is,” Scott said, “it’s hard to be a wild man if you can’t get into a game.”
Even Chris had to admit that was a good point.
Mr. Dolan dropped his bombshell that night when they got to practice.
“Everybody plays tomorrow,” he said as they were stretching.
Just like that.
“And when I say play,” he continued, walking in between the players, “I mean that even the guys who haven’t gotten to do much this season are going to get their hands on the ball.”
As excited as Scott was, he couldn’t help thinking: Haven’t gotten to do much?
How about haven’t gotten to do anything?
He didn’t know why the change of heart and he didn’t care. The way he didn’t care that tomorrow’s opponent, the Panthers, was the worst team in their league, one without a win or even a touchdown.
He was finally getting into a game.
“You think he really means it?” Scott said to Chris when they were jogging around the outside of the field.
“Say what you want about the guy,” Chris said, “but he says what he means.”
So for the first time, the first time for real, Scott got to work with the starters on offense. Got real “reps” as Mr. Dolan called them. Not just a play or two at the end of practice, but for whole drives. Most of the time he was out at wide receiver. A couple of times Chris even threw the ball his way. Once Scott was wide open, but Chris, probably trying to give him a pass he could handle, threw the ball way too easy and it floated so far out of Scott’s reach that Jimmy Dolan—whose ankle was better—nearly intercepted it.
When Scott got back to the huddle after that one, Chris’s face had turned its mad shade of red.
“I am such a jerk,” he said. “I aimed the sucker instead of just throwing it.”
“It’s cool.”
“No, it’s not cool,” Chris said.
Then he called for the reverse.
To Scott.
“I don’t know about this,” Scott said.
“I do,” Chris said. “Once you get around the corner, you’re gonna see nothing but green grass.”
Chris turned after taking the snap from center, faked the ball to Grant up the middle, started to run to his left so the defense would follow him. As he did, Scott came running from where he’d split out to the left and Chris casually stuck the ball in his belly.
“Go,” Chris said as he did.
Scott made sure he didn’t drop it, looked up, turned the corner, and saw nothing but open field in front of him.
Nothing but green grass.
It was as if everybody on the left side of the defense had gone home early.
Scott knew he didn’t have the speed to go all the way. But for these few seconds, it didn’t matter. He was in the clear, like he was alone with Casey on Parry Field.
For these few seconds, this was the season he had dreamed about.
Even if it was only practice.
He allowed himself one quick look back as he headed down the sidelines, just to check where the defense was. He found out soon enough. Because there came Jeremy Sharp, making up ground as if Scott were standing still.
Scott turned back around, put his head down, kept running, putting both hands on the ball now, promising himself that no matter what, he was not dropping this ball, even if Jeremy tried to take his head off.
Jeremy, one of the nicest kids on the team, didn’t try to do that, as it turned out. When he caught up with Scott at the twenty-yard line, he just gave him enough of a shove to push him out of bounds.
Jeremy wasn’t the problem.
The problem was that Jimmy was right behind him. Scott didn’t know that, the way he didn’t know what hit him as soon as he was out of bounds.
Just knew that he was suddenly airborne, that the ball was flying out of his hands right before he hit the ground and felt his left wrist explode.
EIGHTEEN
Scott didn’t know his dad was there.
But he was.
So his dad’s voice was the first one Scott heard, even though he was still facedown, afraid to take his left arm out from under him, that was how much it hurt.
The only thing that kept him from crying was this:
He was a football player.
In a gentle voice, his dad said, “See if you can roll over.”
Then in a completely different voice, one Scott barely recognized, he heard his dad say, “Get away from my son, Coach. Go talk to yours, maybe ask him what he was thinking.”
Mr. Dolan said, “Jimmy said he didn’t hear the whistle.”
“Because he didn’t want to,” Hank Parry said.
“You’re saying he did it on purpose?”
“You’re not the only one here who played football, Coach,” Scott’s dad said. “By the way, if it isn’t too much trouble, I could use some ice.”
Scott rolled over now, used all the strength he had to sit up, keeping the injured wrist pressed to his stomach. His dad unsnapped his helmet, carefully took it off.
“Hey, Dad,” Scott said.
“Hey, bud.”
“You didn’t tell me you were coming to practice.”
“Good thing I did come, or I wouldn’t have seen you turn into Reggie Bush.” Then his dad said, “Let’s have a look.”
Scott put out his left hand. As he did, he motioned for his dad to come closer and whispered, “It hurts, Dad. A lot.”
“Nice and easy, now, let’s see how much you can move it.”
Scott gently tried moving his wrist up and down, then side to side, surprised that moving it around this way didn’t make it hurt more.
“How’s that feel?”
“Not great.”
“But not any worse than before?”
“No.”
“I’m no doctor,” his dad said, covering the wrist with his hand now, putting a little pressure on the sides, “but I don’t think you broke anything. But the sucker is starting to swell up already.”
Mr. Dolan came back with the ice, handed it to Scott’s dad. Scott thought Mr. Dolan wanted to say something. But there was something in the look Scott’s dad gave him that made him just walk away, as if his dad had glared him away. “I’ll call later,” Mr. Dolan said, “to see how he’s doing.”
“Do that,” Hank Parry said.
He wrapped the ice pack around Scott’s wrist, told him to hold it tight, no matter how cold it got. Then he helped his son to his feet.
As he did, the rest of the Eagles began to applaud.
It wasn’t broken.
His dad had driven him straight to the emergency room. And even though his dad had said they might have to wait, it must have been a slow night there, because the nurse took him in right away to get x-rayed. They took pictures of the wrist from all angles.
After the x-rays had been developed, Dr. Accorsi showed Scott the injured area on the outside, said it was a combination of bone bruise and sprain, had him move it around a little more. Then he told Scott that just to be on the safe side, he was going to put a soft cast on it for a couple of days.
“But I’ve got a game tomorrow!” Scott said.
The doctor smiled. “Your team does, but I’m afraid you don’t.”
“It’s the last game of the regular season,” Scott said, as if that was somehow going to change the doctor’s mind.
Dr. Accorsi looked at Scott’s dad, then back at Scott. “The good news is that the wrist will be as good as new in a couple of weeks,” he said. “The bad news is that you’ve already played your last game of the regular season.”
Scott waited until he got in the car.
Then the football player started to cry.
Chris called in the morning to see how he was doing, ask if Scott was coming to the Panthers game.
“My wrist is still killing me,” Scott said, even though it felt much better. “I think I’ll sit this one out.”
“Come on,” Chris said. “After the game we’ll go hang out at my house.”
“Nah,” Scott said. “Watching a game I was going to get into will hurt even more than my wrist does.”
That much was the truth. The kind his dad sometimes called the painful truth. Scott didn’t want to watch the Eagles crush the Panthers, didn’t want to watch another guy off the bench getting carries he would have gotten today, didn’t want to go there and act like he was still a part of the team when his season was over.
He’d go to the championship game next Saturday, just to root for Chris. Not because he had to. Because he wanted to. If your best friend was playing for the championship, well, that wasn’t a game you could miss.
Today’s game he could miss.
After he hung up the phone, he got his ball and whistled for Casey. His parents were in the kitchen having coffee. His dad looked up when he saw Scott with the football. “Hey,” he said, “I don’t think you should be running around with that wrist today.”
Scott said, “I’m just gonna kick. Case will do the running around.”
They walked out to Parry Field. In an hour or so, the Eagles would be playing the Panthers.
I was gonna get in the game, he thought.
I was gonna play.
He walked slowly to the end of the field, where the goalposts were, Casey right behind him, ready to chase.
The two of them were right back where they started.
Like this was the only game in town.
NINETEEN
When the doorbell rang the next Saturday morning, the morning of the Eagles’ championship game against the Lions, Scott said he’d get it.
He didn’t look outside to see who it was, just opened the door and there was Chris, already dressed for the game except for his helmet.
“I told you on the phone I’d see you over there,” Scott said.
“Go suit up.”
“No,” Scott said. “We talked about this yesterday.”
“That was before your cast came off.”
“Who told?”
“I can’t reveal my source,” he said, then grinned.
“Okay, your mom told my mom.”
Dr. Accorsi had taken it off the day before, then wrapped the wrist in an Ace bandage, saying that was more of a reminder for him to be careful with it than anything else.
“I don’t have to be in uniform to watch from the sidelines,” Scott said.
“Suit up. We’re gonna finish what we started.”
“Yeah, with me watching and you playing.”
“No,” Chris said. “As teammates.”
He brushed past Scott and headed up the stairs. “I’m not leaving until you suit up.”
“Are you gonna be this stubborn about passing that test on Monday?” Scott said.
“More,” he said. “Now come on, or you’re gonna make me late.”
“I give up,” Scott said, and followed him.
He and Chris were coming down the stairs, Chris in his number four—for Brett Favre—and Scott in his number twenty-two for Doug Flutie, when Scott’s mom and dad came back from their walk.
His dad just gave him one of those smiles, the kind where he didn’t have to say anything because the smile said everything.
“I figured I’m gonna get rained on anyway,” Scott said. “I might as well do it wearing this.”
“Sounds like a plan,” his dad said.
It had started raining earlier that morning, not a big storm, just a steady downpour. Even if it stopped right now, the game was going to be played on a muddy field.
Scott’s dad said, “Your mom, Casey and I will see you over there.”
Sure enough, the field was a mess by the time the game started.
Yet the first half of the championship game was an even bigger mess.
By then it was no longer just a nice, steady rain, it was a total downpour, but because the coaches had agreed to start the game, they were determined to finish it, no matter how miserable the conditions had become.
Chris fumbled the ball away twice in the first quarter, both times deep in Eagles’ territory, but both times the Eagles’ defense held, and the game remained scoreless. It looked as if that might change when the Lions’ quarterback fumbled on his own twenty-yard line with less than a minute left in the half. Except then Jeremy fumbled right back.
The game was still scoreless at halftime.
For the first time all season, Mr. Dolan took them inside at the break. It wasn’t so they could get a chance to get dry. That, they all knew, wasn’t happening until they got home. But at least it was fifteen minutes out of the rain.
“You guys are playing your hearts out, and I’m proud of you,” Coach said. “I know the conditions are lousy, but they’re lousy for the other guys, too.” He took off his red cap with the O on the front now, shook it hard to get some of the rain off it.
Then he knelt down in the front of the room where they all could see him.
“This is one you win,” he said. “This is one you win and then no matter what you do in football after this, you’ll remember this day, and talk about it for the rest of your lives.”
Chris stood up then. He wasn’t much of a talker, and had never given a speech to the team, but he said something now.
“Let’s win the Mud Bowl!” he yelled.
Suddenly all of the Eagles were chanting “Mud, mud, mud.” Scott was yelling right along with everybody else, knowing they sounded as if they had water on the brain by now.
He and Chris were the last two out of the room as they filed out. “Glad you came?” Chris said.
Scott grinned. “Let’s go win the championship,” he said.
It didn’t get any easier in the second half. Both teams kept turning the ball over. Nobody came close to putting it in the end zone.
Then, near the end of the third quarter, disaster struck for the Eagles.
Dave Kepp was back to punt from his own five-yard line. Only the snap went sailing over his head like it had been shot out of a cannon and landed in the Eagles’ end zone. There was a wild scramble for the ball, and for a moment Scott was worried that somebody on the Lions was going to recover it for a touchdown.
At the last second, though, Dave was smart enough to shove the ball out of the back of the end zone for a safety. No touchdown, but now the Lions had a 2-0 lead. And in these conditions, those two points felt like more.
A lot more.
Maybe the whole game.
Because of the safety, the Eagles had to kick the ball back to the Lions, who weren’t taking any chances now that they had the lead. They just ran the ball up the middle three straight times from midfield and then watched as their punter boomed one out of bounds on the Eagles’ fifteen-yard line. Those eighty-five yards to the Lions’ end zone had never looked farther.
On first down, trying to make something happen despite lousy field position that matched the weather, Chris went back to throw one to Jimmy in the right flat. Only the ball slipped out of his hand and somehow ended up behind Chris, falling right into the arms of a Lions’ defensive tackle, who seemed as shocked as anybody to have the ball in his hands, then started slip-sliding toward the end zone until Chris managed to bring him down from behind.
Lions’ ball, on the Eagles’ eight-yard line.
But Scott watched as his guys on defense finally caught a break. The Lions’ quarterback fumbled the snap on first down and the Eagles got it back just as the third quarter ended. One last quarter to go in the season.
Lions 2. Eagles 0. A baseball score for the biggest football game of the year, the biggest game any of those kids had ever played.
The rain was coming as hard as ever.
Somehow, though, with three minutes left, Chris Conlan—maybe because he was Chris Conlan—began to drive the Eagles down the field.
You couldn’t see the numbers on the uniforms by then. You wondered how Chris could see anything with the rain hitting him in the face. Didn’t seem to matter to him. He completed his first pass of the day, to Jimmy, and Jimmy nearly dropped it before hugging it to his chest with both hands and running twenty more yards, almost in slow motion to avoid slipping in the mud. The Lions’ defenders could hardly plant their feet in the mud to make the tackle.
That gave Chris an idea. He called for the reverse that he’d run with Scott at practice, and Jeremy Sharp gained another fifteen yards.
The Eagles were at midfield now. The element of surprise seemed to be working. On the sloppy field, it was more difficult to react than act. So Chris kept the surprises coming by calling a quarterback sneak and running all the way to the Lions’ fifteen-yard line.
One minute to go. The Eagles’ first real drive of the game.
Chris called their first time-out, went over to talk to Mr. Dolan.
“No turnovers,” he said. “This is for the game.”
“Got it,” Chris said.
Scott had come over to listen.
“Let’s see if we can run it in,” Mr. Dolan said. “We’ve seen already that bad things are happening today when the ball’s in the air.”
Chris nodded. Scott handed him a bottle of Gatorade. Chris tipped his helmet back to take a swig, and it was then that Scott saw that he was smiling. Like there was nowhere else in the world he’d rather be.
He tossed the bottle to Scott. Still smiling, he said, “Love of the game, dude.”
Then the quarterback ran back on the field.
The next play was a sweep. Jeremy ran for three yards. When the play started, it looked like he might get more, but Jeremy fell down without being touched, body-surfing for about five yards after he hit the ground.
Second-and-seven.
They lined up without a huddle to save time. Chris faked a pitch to Jeremy, handed the ball to Grant. But the Lions weren’t fooled this time, and Grant got stuffed for no gain.
Third down now, from the twelve-yard line.
Fifteen seconds left.
Chris called another time-out to stop the clock. It was third-and-long. Pass coming. Chris took the snap, rolled to his right. As he did, Scott looked down the field and saw that Jimmy had gotten himself wide open in the back of the end zone, his man having slipped.
It looked like a sure touchdown to win the game.
Except.
Except as Chris’s arm came forward, his back foot slipped out from under him and he went down, the ball squirting out of his hand, dying like somebody had shot it out of the air. It fell harmlessly to the ground.
Fourth down from the twelve.
Eight seconds left.
Time for one more play.
Only Chris Conlan was limping now, limping badly, grabbing for his hamstring, in obvious pain. Even with the clock stopped because of the incompletion, he called their last time-out and hobbled toward the sideline.
Mr. Dolan ran out to meet him.
By the time Mr. Dolan had met him halfway, Chris was doubled over, unable to walk. Mr. Dolan leaned over now, put a hand on Chris’s shoulder, his face grim, and said something to him. Chris shook his head. Scott got as close as he could, tried to make out what they were saying. The rain was too loud, and they were too far away.
Chris was still bent over. But he turned now and met Scott’s eyes, before pointing right at him.
Mr. Dolan took off his cap despite the soaking rain, and rubbed his forehead. Scott thought the coach looked lost for a moment, Chris still speaking at his side.
Then, as if suddenly remembering where he was, Mr. Dolan put his cap back on.
“Parry!” he yelled, his eyes looking everywhere except at Scott. “You’re in!”
It took Scott a second to realize what he’d just heard. When he did, he began shaking his head no. But Chris caught his eye again and nodded.
Then Chris, straightening up now, waved him over.
Scott ran toward them.
“Are you crazy?” he said to Chris. “What the heck did you say to Coach?”
“I told him about our secret weapon,” Chris said. “Like he said, you’re going in.”
“To do what?”
“Kick for it,” Chris said.
Scott waited for some sign that he was joking, even with eight seconds left in the championship game. Only he wasn’t. He meant this. This was what he’d been talking about with Mr. Dolan, what he’d just spent nearly the whole time-out talking him into.
Scott couldn’t talk now, couldn’t move, just stood there shaking his head.
“No,” he managed finally, still shaking his head. “No way. I can’t.”
“Yes, you can.”
Then Chris Conlan was grabbing Scott by both sides of his helmet, forcing him to focus. “Let’s go win a championship,” he said.
TWENTY
“This is insane,” Scott said.
“Nah,” Chris said, “it’s Parry Field. Just muddier.”
They were standing in front of Mr. Dolan now. The whole team had gathered behind them, wanting to know what was going on. Mr. Dolan said to Scott, “You can do this?”
Chris answered before Scott could. “Coach, he can do it. I know he can even better than he does. It’s not just our best chance to win—it’s our only chance. You saw what just happened when Jeremy was in the clear. And I couldn’t throw a pass to save my life even on two good legs.”
Mr. Dolan ignored Chris. He tipped back his cap just slightly. Now Scott could see his eyes, staring at him.
“I’m asking you,” he said to Scott. “Can you make this kick?”
“Yes,” Scott said, “I can.”
The ref came over to where they were standing. “Coach, I’ve been giving extra time on the whistles.
But you gotta get these kids lined up soon or I’m gonna have to call a delay of game on you.”
Mr. Dolan nodded. The ref left. When Mr. Dolan started talking again, it was as if he were talking to himself.
“This is nuts,” he said. Then looked back at Scott and said, “Go for it.”
Jimmy Dolan had been over on the sidelines, trying to clean some of the mud out of his spikes, so he didn’t know what they’d been talking about.
“Go for what, Dad?”
“We’re gonna kick for it,” Mr. Dolan said.
“Who’s gonna kick for it?”
Mr. Dolan said, “Scott.”
“You’re gonna let the brain try a field goal?”
Jimmy said. “Tell me you’re joking. Please tell me you’re joking.”
Mr. Dolan gave his son a long look and said, “Tell me something, son. Do I look like I’m joking?”
Scott ignored them, turned to Chris instead.
“You’ve gotta come out, right?”
Chris nodded.
“So who’s going to hold for me?” Scott said.
“It’s like I just finished telling Coach,” Chris said. “We’re not gonna need a holder. It’s just one more thing that could go wrong.” He paused and said, “That’s why you’re gonna drop-kick it.”
Scott felt the air come out of him the way it had that time Jimmy’d hit him in practice and he was afraid he was never going to catch his breath, the day he’d somehow held on to the ball.
“I can’t drop-kick a field goal,” he said, choking the words out.
“Would somebody mind telling me what a drop-kick is?” Jimmy said.
His dad said, “It’s like a punt, except you drop it on the ground before you kick it.”
“But it counts the same as a placekick?” Jimmy said.
“Only if you make it,” Scott said in a weak voice.
“Look at me!” Chris said, snapping at him. This time he grabbed Scott by the shoulder pads. “You’ve made this kick with me a hundred times. And every single time it was to win the game. So go make it again.”
Then Chris put an arm around Mr. Dolan’s shoulder and limped toward the sideline as the rest of the Eagles walked out to huddle.
“I never snapped the ball for a field goal before,” Jimmy said. “Just punts.”
“Just snap it like that,” Scott said. “That’s how far back I’ll be.”
They all heard the ref blow the whistle. Scott looked over and saw the ref’s arm come down, which meant he was starting the play clock.
Thirty seconds to run a play.
Scott could see everybody else in the huddle staring now. Staring at him. He took a deep breath and said to all of them, “Block better than you ever have in your lives,” before clapping his hands and saying, “on two!”
He carefully paced off eight yards, found a place where there actually seemed to be some grass left.
Scott checked his footing then, alone in the backfield.
Heard somebody on the defense yell, “Trick play!”
They had no idea.
Scott was afraid he’d drop the snap. Or that it would be a bad snap.
Or that he’d slip.
“Ten seconds,” the ref said.
In that moment, Scott looked to the right of the goalposts, on the other side of the end zone, and saw his dad standing there.
With Casey.
Like this was Parry Field.
The only place where he was never afraid.
“Hut one,” he said.
“Hut two!”
Barking the last word out the way Chris did.
Jimmy Dolan gave him a perfect snap. Scott planted his left foot, not slipping even a little bit, dropped the ball perfectly in the spot he’d cleared, brought his right leg through.
The wet ball felt as if it weighed more than he did, like he was trying to kick a big rock.
As well as he’d hit it, he was sure when it got in the air that it was going to be short.
It wasn’t.
It cleared the crossbar with a couple of feet to spare.
Plenty of distance, center cut.
Eagles 3, Lions 2.
The last thing Scott saw before his teammates mobbed him was Casey breaking free from his dad, running after the ball.
TWENTY-ONE
Scott and Chris would talk about it a little more until one of them would start laughing all over again.
“I still don’t believe we pulled it off.”
“We didn’t do anything. You did.”
“I still can’t believe it.”
“I told you all along you could do it. What, you didn’t believe me? That hurts me, dude, I’m not gonna lie.”
“I believed that you believed. I just wasn’t sure I did.”
“You did it, that’s all that matters. You came through when it counted like I knew you would.”
“I still can’t believe I passed,” Chris said.
They weren’t talking this morning about what was already known at school, all over their town, as The Kick. They were talking about The Test.
There wasn’t much more to say about The Kick. They’d gone on about it all week, the way everybody else in town had. They’d even gotten to watch it on SportsCenter, courtesy of Mr. Conlan.
Even in the rain, he’d decided to bring his video recorder with him to the game, hoping something might happen that would be worth keeping.
It wasn’t just people in their town who got to see The Kick. The whole country did, on YouTube before it even showed up on ESPN. Which was why on Wednesday of that week, Scott’s dad handed him the phone and said, “An old friend of mine wants to talk to you.”
Then Scott heard Doug Flutie introducing himself and saying, “Couldn’t have done better myself.”
So the whole week had been dominated by The Kick. And that was a good thing, because it was a way for Scott and Chris not to spend all their free time worrying about how Chris had done on The Test.
And now they knew.
He’d passed.
Now he and Scott were out on Parry Field with the dogs.
“I’m gonna say this for the last time, and then I promise I won’t say it again,” Chris said. “I couldn’t have done it without you.”
“Works for me,” Scott said. “Because I wouldn’t have even gotten a chance to kick without you.”
Chris smiled a cocky quarterback’s smile. “Told you I’d get you better at football.”
“Told you I’d get you better at school,” Scott said.
Then Scott held up a finger, as if he’d just realized something.
“Wait a second,” he said. “I could kick before I met you.”
“Yeah,” Chris said. “In your dreams.”
Then Scott snatched the ball away from Chris for a change, and went tearing off with it down the field. Then Chris was tearing after him, and the dogs, thinking this was their big game, were after both of them, and the only sound louder than the barking on Parry Field was the sound of more laughter.
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ONE
More than anything, Nick Crandall’s real family had always been baseball.
He’d always felt that way about the teams he’d played on, since his first T-ball team. And he felt that way about the teams in the majors he followed, usually the ones with the best catchers, because Nick was a catcher, too.
Baseball was the only thing that made Nick feel like he really belonged. There were a lot of reasons why he loved baseball season, but that was the biggest.
Maybe everybody else on junior varsity at the Hayworth School, all the other sixth- and seventh-graders on the team, looked at the calendar and thought the school year was coming to an end.
Not Nick.
As far as he was concerned, everything was just beginning.
School baseball was for the spring, and that was his only team in the spring, because Paul and Brenda Crandall had one rule about sports: one team per season. Even that was all right with Nick. He got to play school ball every day except on the weekends, and he could look forward to playing in their town’s summer Little League from the end of June into August.
So when he looked at the calendar, all he could see was baseball, practically all the way until school started again in the fall.
It was the first week of tryouts for JV, even though hardly anybody thought of them as tryout tryouts, because everybody who came out made the team. Some guys did get cut off varsity, made up of eighth- and ninth-graders, depending on how many came out. But even those guys, no matter how old they were, got moved down to JV if they still wanted to play.
Nobody moved up, though.
You didn’t get to play varsity at Hayworth until you were in eighth. Nobody was sure if it was an official written-down rule. But if you played sports at Hayworth, and everybody had to play at least one, you knew that’s how things were done.
Nick didn’t care. No way did he care. He was in no rush to play varsity, anyway. The varsity catcher, Bobby Mazzilli, was graduating with the rest of his class in June. So in Nick’s mind, a mind filled with baseball stuff the way his desk drawers were filled with baseball cards and magazines, next year he had a good shot at being varsity catcher.
That was no sure thing, of course, even though things seemed to be set up just right for him. Because more than anything he knew about baseball, Nick knew this:
There were no sure things in your life.
For now, Nick was happy on JV. Most of this year’s team was made up of seventh-graders, which meant that Nick knew all of them from class, whether they were in his homeroom or not, Hayworth not being that big a school.
None of the guys on the team were what he thought of as real friends, just because that was a small category for him, wherever he’d gone to school. For now, Nick Crandall had only two real friends in the whole world.
And one was a girl, not that Nick would ever admit that to the other seventh-grade boys, actually admit having a girl as one of his best buds.
The girl was Gracie Wright, also a seventh-grader at Hayworth. Not only was she in his homeroom, she lived directly across the street from Nick and took the same bus and spent about as much time in the Crandall house as he spent in hers.
His other bud—not quite up there with Gracie, but close enough—was Jack Elmore, an eighth-grader. Jack was fourteen, and Nick hadn’t even turned thirteen yet. His birthday was still a couple of months away, officially making him the youngest seventh-grader at Hayworth. That official-type information came from Gracie, who pretty much knew everything about the kids at their school as far as Nick could tell.
But what even Gracie, as much of a know-it-all as she could be sometimes, didn’t know was how truly fast things could change in baseball, when you least expected them to.
And how fast they were going to change for Nick today.
The JV practiced on the last of the upper fields at Hayworth, the one with the best view of the soccer and lacrosse fields below. The varsity practiced way closer to the white classroom buildings and had the best-taken-care-of field at their school, one with a real dirt infield and a working scoreboard and even bleachers behind both benches, where parents could sit to watch games.
Nick had been stealing looks at the varsity practice all afternoon. At one point, he noticed a big crowd of players at home plate and thought they might actually be quitting early today, even though they were usually still on the field when the JV packed it in for the day.
Soon after that, Nick spotted the varsity coach, Coach Williams, leaning against a tree down the left-field line of the JV field, hanging there by himself in the shade.
Watching them.
“What’s he doing there?” Zach Dugas, their third baseman, said as he stepped to the plate.
The JV version of the Hayworth Tigers was scrimmaging by now, using just two outfielders—there were still only fifteen players on the team, total, until they found out about varsity cuts—and their coach, Mr. Leeman, was doing the pitching for both teams.
“Don’t know,” Nick said. “Maybe he just likes baseball so much he’ll watch any game. Even one of ours that doesn’t count.”
“Doubtful,” Zach said.
Jeff Kantor was the runner at first, having just singled, and there were two outs, which meant to Nick that Jeff was going to be running, even with Mr. Leeman pitching from the stretch.
Everybody was encouraged to run by the coach. He’d told them from the first day of practice they were going to be the runningest team in their league.
Probably running on the first pitch, Nick thought.
Bad idea.
Really bad.
It wasn’t something he’d ever say out loud. When you’d spent your whole life trying to fit in, trying to please people, trying so hard to be one of the guys, the last thing you wanted to do was sound cocky. Or sound like you were big-timing anybody.
But facts were facts. Four runners already had tried to steal today—tried Nick—and he had thrown out all four of them.
He couldn’t help wondering now if Coach Williams of the varsity had seen any of those babies, especially the one that had Ollie Brown by so much at second base that Ollie didn’t even bother to slide.
In the language of baseball announcers, all of whom felt like members of Nick’s baseball family, like funny uncles he’d never met, he had thrown absolute peas all three times.
“Frozen peas,” according to Zach, who’d been Nick’s first victim when he’d been rock-headed enough to try to steal third on him in the first inning.
Everybody knew by now what kind of player Nick was. The rest of the seventh-graders knew he could hit, knew he could run for a catcher, even as stocky as he was, with those short, thick legs that he kept hoping would grow one of these days.
Even at twelve, he could locate a pop foul behind the plate with the best of them, toss his mask away and actually catch the ball, something hardly anybody his age could do.
Like he had some kind of radar tracking system going for him, what Gracie said was like some chip he had inside his body somewhere.
Yet that wasn’t what set Nick Crandall apart on a ballfield. What set him apart was the way he could throw from behind the plate.
Nick Crandall had an arm on him.
He’d always been able to throw, even on the playgrounds, back when he was living in River-dale, in the Bronx in New York City. But last year was the first year he’d really been able to show it off. From the first few days of tryouts last year, when Coach Leeman had asked for volunteers to catch and that right arm of Nick’s had shot straight up in the air, he could see how shocked everybody was when he erased another runner as if he’d hit the Delete key on his computer.
“Dude,” Ollie Brown had said to him today, after Nick had schooled him so badly on his stolen-base attempt. “Guys our age aren’t supposed to get thrown out by that much unless they do a header between first and second.”
Throwing out guys stealing was Nick’s very best thing. He didn’t get all the runners who tried him. Even Johnny Bench, the old Cincinnati Red from the Big Red Machine, who Nick had read up on and who was supposed to be the best defensive catcher of all time, didn’t come close to doing that.
Sometimes Nick would bounce one.
Sometimes he’d throw wild left or wild right.
Sometimes, as if he didn’t know his own strength, he’d really let one fly and the ball would go sailing in the direction of Dave Chester, their center fielder, known as Junior on their team because he looked so much like Ken Griffey, Jr.
Most of the time, though, Nick was money.
And he had been money today.
The safest Nick felt in his life, the most confident and sure of himself, the most normal, was when he’d hear one of his teammates yell “he’s going!” just as he saw the runner take off from first, and then he’d be coming up and out of his crouch, and his arm would be coming forward, and he would be the no-worries Nick Crandall he wanted to be more than anything.
That was the way it was happening now as Coach Leeman brought his arm forward and delivered his first pitch to Zach. It wasn’t any kind of pitch-out, the kind that big-league catchers would call to give them a better chance if they thought a guy was about to steal, a pitch they’d have the pitcher purposely throw high and way off the plate so they’d be standing and ready to throw as soon as they came out from behind the batter to catch it.
It might as well have been.
Coach Leeman’s pitch just happened to be high and wide, and that could have been a problem if Nick hadn’t read it perfectly almost from the time it came out of Coach’s hand. As Nick straightened up to catch the ball, he could see that Jeff, one of their fastest guys on the bases, hadn’t gotten nearly a good enough jump.
If Coach Williams hadn’t seen the other throws, he was sure going to see one now.
Nick really leaned into this one and cut it loose, grunting loudly as he did.
The moment the ball came out of his hand, he knew he had put too much on it. Way too much. And he knew why, knew it the way you knew you’d said something wrong the second the words were out of your mouth, when it was too late to take them back: because he was a dope trying to show off for the varsity coach.
To Nick’s eyes, the ball was still rising like a plane taking off as it went over second base, over the head of Reed McDonagh, playing short for Nick’s team, and over the head of the sliding runner. It was still so high in the sky that Nick was suddenly afraid that the ball might make it all the way to center field on the fly.
Junior wound up fielding the throw on one bounce and didn’t even bother trying to get Jeff at third. There was no chance, so he just threw the ball back in to Reed at second. As he did, Nick heard Zach Dugas, in a real loud voice, saying, “I was starting to worry that sucker was going to need one of those parachutes you see on rockets after reentry.”
Nick didn’t say anything. He was too embarrassed. He didn’t mind getting people’s attention with his arm. But you never ever wanted to draw attention to yourself like this. He was used to messing up in his life. Sometimes the messing up was epic, too.
More than anything he hated to do that in baseball.
He took off his mask finally, just because it gave him something to do. Then he walked slowly back around the plate, taking long enough that it felt like he was taking a walk around the block, and yelled out to his fielders to remember there were still two out.
Then he got into his crouch and watched from there as Zach beat the next pitch into the ground and Reed at least showed off a strong accurate arm by throwing him out from deep short.
It was then that Nick saw Coach Williams walking in from where he’d been standing in foul territory, walking past third base now, straight down the faded white line between third and home.
Walking straight toward Nick.
Yeah, Nick thought, he probably can’t wait for me to be his catcher next season.
As Coach Williams got closer, Nick could see that he was smiling, slowly shaking his head.
Great. He’d cracked up the varsity baseball coach.
Coach Williams was still smiling when he got to home plate and was standing where a right-handed batter would stand, right there in front of Nick.
“That was some throw,” he said.
Nick put his head down. “I usually have better control than that.”
Now Coach Williams laughed. “Well, I hope so.”
“Really, Coach, I do.”
“I know,” he said. “It’s Nick, right?”
“Yes, sir,” he said, “Nick Crandall.”
He put out his hand the way he’d been taught by Paul Crandall and looked Coach Williams in the eye as the two of them shook hands, Nick thinking, My hand is almost as big as his.
Then Coach Williams said, “I just wanted to officially meet my new varsity catcher.”
Nick wasn’t big on surprises. He’d had enough of those already to last him the rest of his life.
A few good surprises.
Mostly bad.
“I don’t understand,” he said to Coach Williams.
“Bobby Mazzilli broke a bone in his wrist today on a play at the plate. His mom just called from the hospital,” he said.
“How?” Nick said.
“He was being a catcher, even in preseason,” Coach Williams said. “Blocked the plate like a champ, Les Roy flattened him, and both of them fell on his right wrist. He’s gonna be fine, but he’s gonna miss a chunk of the season. How much depends on how fast or slow he heals. For now, all we know is that he’s in a soft cast.”
Nick could actually hear himself breathing, even though he didn’t feel as if he’d heard a lot from Coach Williams since he’d said “varsity catcher.”
“Anyway,” the coach said, “I just wanted to come over and tell you myself that you’re going to have to play up for now.”
Nick noticed for the first time that the coach was small for a grown-up, taller than Nick but not by a lot, with blond hair and a young face.
Nick said, “You still want me after seeing a throw like that?”
Coach Williams put his hand on Nick’s shoulder. “Anybody can teach you control, son,” he said. “God has to give you an arm like that.”
“But I thought there was a rule at Hayworth that says you can’t play varsity sports until eighth grade,” Nick said. Almost sounding like he was trying to talk the coach out of it.
He saw that Coach Williams was smiling again.
“Not anymore,” he said.
Chris Conlan is the coolest kid in sixth grade—the golden-armed quarterback of the football team and the boy all the others look up to. Scott Parry is the new kid, the boy with the huge brain, but with feet that trip over themselves. These two boys may seem like an odd couple, but each has a secret that draws them together, and proves that the will to succeed is even more important than raw talent.