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Following the huge success of Silence of the Grave, another spellbinding thriller from the winner of the CWA Gold Dagger.

Detective Erlendur encounters memories of his troubled past in this gripping and award-winning continuation of the Reykjavík Murder Mysteries.

At a grand Reykjavík hotel the doorman has been repeatedly stabbed in the dingy basement room he called home. It is only a few days before Christmas and he was preparing to appear as Santa Claus at a children’s party. The manager tries to keep the murder under wraps. A glum detective taking up residence in his hotel and an intrusive murder investigation are not what he needs.

As Erlendur quietly surveys the cast of grotesques who populate the hotel, the web of malice, greed and corruption that lies beneath its surface reveals itself. Everyone has something to hide. But most shocking is the childhood secret of the dead man who, many years before, was the most famous child singer in the country: it turns… SUMMARY: The third novel in the award-winning Reykjavik Murder Mysteries.The Christmas rush is under way in a big Reykjavik hotel when the police are called to the scene of a murder. The hotel doorman (and long-time resident of its basement) has been stabbed to death. With the hotel fully booked, the manager is desperate to keep the murder under wraps and his reputation intact.Detectives Erlendur and Sigurdur Oli discover that the dead man had had a childhood brush with fame and that two old 45s on which he had sung have become prized collectors’ items. Estranged from his family for decades, why had the man continued to pay secret visits to his boyhood home?As Detective Elinborg investigates a separate case of child abuse, and Erlendur continues to struggle both with his troubled family relationships and the ghosts of his own youth, their parallel stories probe deeper into the riddle of this latest Reykjavik Murder Mystery.From the Trade Paperback edition.

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Arnaldur Indridason

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2010-05-02

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VOICES
Arnaldur Indridason worked for many years as a journalist and critic before he began writing novels. The series featuring Erlendur and Sigurdor (Mi has won numerous awards, including Sweden's Martin Beck Award, the Nordic Glass Key and the 2005 CWA Gold Dagger.
Bernard Scudder's translations from Icelandic encompass sagas, ancient and modern poetry, leading contemporary novels, plays and art history. He lives in Reykjavik.
ALSO BY ARNALDUR INDRIDASON
Tainted Blood (originally published as Jar City)
Silence of the Grave
ARNALDUR INDRIDASON
Voices
TRANSLATED FROM THE ICELANDIC BY
Bernard Scudder
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But when winter comes,
where will I find
the flowers, the sunshine,
the shadows of the earth?
The walls stand
speechless and cold,
the weathervanes
rattle in the wind.
From 'At the Middle of Life' by Friedrich Hölderlin
(translated by James Mitchell)
At last the moment arrived. The curtain went up, the auditorium unfolded; he felt glorious seeing all the people watching him and his shyness vanished in an instant. He saw some of his schoolmates and teachers, and the headmaster who seemed to nod approvingly at him. But most of them were strangers. All these people had come to listen to him and his beautiful voice, which had commanded attention, even outside Iceland.
The murmuring in the auditorium gradually died down and all eyes focused on him in silent expectation.
He saw his father sitting in the middle of the front row in his black horn-rimmed glasses, his legs crossed, and holding his hat on his knees. He saw him watching through the thick lenses and smiling encouragingly; this was the big moment in their lives. From now on, nothing would ever be the same.
The choirmaster raised his arms. Silence descended upon the auditorium.
And he began to sing with the clear, sweet voice that his father had described as divine.
FIRST DAY

1

Elínborg was waiting for them at the hotel.
A large Christmas tree stood in the lobby and there were decorations, fir branches and glittering baubles all around. 'Silent night, holy night', over an invisible sound system. A large shuttle coach stood in front of the hotel and a group approached the reception desk. Tourists who were planning to spend Christmas and the New Year in Iceland because it seemed to them like an adventurous and exciting country. Although they had only just landed, many had apparently already bought traditional Icelandic sweaters, and they checked into the exotic land of winter. Erlendur brushed the sleet off his raincoat. Sigurdur Óli looked around the lobby and caught sight of Elínborg by the lifts. He tugged at Erlendur and they walked over to her. She had examined the scene. The first police officers to arrive there had made sure that it would remain untouched.
The hotel manager had asked them not to cause a fracas. Used that phrase when he rang. This was a hotel and hotels thrive on their reputations, and he asked them to take that into account. So there were no sirens outside, nor uniformed policemen bursting in through the lobby. The manager said that at all costs they should avoid arousing fear among the guests.
Iceland mustn't be too exciting, too much of an adventure.
Now he was standing next to Elínborg and greeted Erlendur and Sigurdur Óli with a handshake. He was so fat that his suit hardly encompassed his body. His jacket was done up across the stomach by one button that was on the verge of giving up. The top of his trousers was hidden beneath a huge paunch that bulged out of his jacket and the man sweated so furiously that he could never put away the large white handkerchief with which he mopped his forehead and the back of his neck at regular intervals. The white collar of his shirt was soaked in perspiration. Erlendur shook his clammy hand.
'Thank you,' the hotel manager said, puffing like a grampus. In his twenty years of managing the hotel he had never encountered anything like this.
'In the middle of the Christmas rush,' he groaned. 'I can't understand how this could happen! How could it happen?' he repeated, leaving them in no doubt as to how totally perplexed he was.
'Is he up or down?' Erlendur asked.
'Up or down?' the fat manager puffed. 'Do you mean whether he's gone to heaven?'
'Yes,' Erlendur said. 'That's exactly what we need to know...'
'Shall we take the lift upstairs?' Sigurdur Óli asked.
'No,' the manager said, casting an irritated look at Erlendur. 'He's down here in the basement. He's got a little room there. We didn't want to chuck him out. And then you get this for your troubles.'
'Why would you have wanted to chuck him out?' Erlendur asked.
The hotel manager looked at him but did not reply.
They walked slowly down the stairs beside the lift. The manager went first. Going down the stairs was a strain for him and Erlendur wondered how he would get back up.
Apart from Erlendur, they had agreed to show a certain amount of consideration, to try to approach the hotel as discreetly as possible. Three police cars were parked at the back, with an ambulance. Police officers and paramedics had gone in through the back door. The district medical officer was on his way. He would certify the death and call out a van to transport the body.
They walked down a long corridor with the panting manager leading the way. Plain-clothes policemen greeted them. The corridor grew darker the further they walked, because the light bulbs on the ceiling had blown and no one had bothered to change them. Eventually, in the darkness, they reached the door, which opened onto a little room. It was more like a storage space than a dwelling, but there was a narrow bed inside, a small desk and a tattered mat on the dirty tiled floor. There was a little window up near the ceiling.
The man was sitting on the bed, leaning against the wall. He was wearing a bright red Santa suit and still had the Santa cap on his head, but it had slipped down over his eyes. A large artificial Santa beard hid his face. He had undone the thick belt around his waist and unbuttoned his jacket. Beneath it he was wearing only a white vest. There was a fatal wound to his heart. Although there were other wounds on the body, the stabbing through the heart had finished him off. His hands had slash marks on them, as if he had tried to fight off the assailant. His trousers were down round his ankles. A condom hung from his penis.
'Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer,' Sigurdur Óli warbled, looking down at the body.
Elínborg hushed him.
In the room was a small wardrobe and the door was open. It contained folded trousers and sweaters, ironed shirts, underwear and socks. A uniform hung on a coat-hanger, navy blue with golden epaulettes and shiny brass buttons. A pair of smartly-polished black leather shoes stood beside the cupboard.
Newspapers and magazines were strewn over the floor. Beside the bed was a small table and lamp. On the table was a single book: A History of the Vienna Boys' Choir.
'Did he live here, this man?' Erlendur asked as he surveyed the scene. He and Elínborg had entered the room. Sigurdur Óli and the hotel manager were standing outside. It was too small for them all inside.
'We let him stay here,' the manager said awkwardly, mopping the sweat from his brow. 'He's been working for us for donkey's years. Since before my time. As a doorman.'
'Was the door open when he was found?' Sigurdur Óli asked, trying to be formal, as if to compensate for his little ditty.
'I asked her to wait for you,' the manager said. "The girl who found him. She's in the staff coffee room. Gave her quite a shock, poor thing, as you can imagine.' The manager avoided looking into the room.
Erlendur walked up to the body and peered at the wound to the heart. He had no idea what kind of blade had killed the man. He looked up. Above the bed was an old, faded poster for a Shirley Temple film, sellotaped at the corners. Erlendur didn't know the film. It was called The Little Princess. The poster was the only decoration in the room.
'Who's that?' Sigurdur Óli asked from the doorway as he looked at the poster.
'It says on it,' Erlendur said. 'Shirley Temple.'
'Who's that then? Is she dead?'
'Who's Shirley Temple?' Elinborg was astonished at Sigurdur Óli's ignorance. 'Don't you know who she was? Didn't you study in America?'
'Was she a Hollywood star?' Sigurdur Óli asked, still looking at the poster.
'She was a child star,' Erlendur said curtly. 'So she's dead in a sense anyway.'
'Eh?' Sigurdur Óli said, failing to grasp the remark.
'A child star,' Elínborg said. 'I think she's still alive. I don't remember. I think she's something with the United Nations'
It dawned on Erlendur that there were no other personal effects in the room. He looked around but could see no bookshelf, CDs or computer, no radio or television. Only a desk, chair, wardrobe and bed with a scruffy pillow and dirty duvet cover. The little room reminded him of a prison cell.
He went out into the corridor and peered into the darkness at the far end, and could make out a faint smell of burning, as if someone had been playing with matches there or possibly lighting their way.
'What's down there?' he asked the manager.
'Nothing,' he replied and looked up at the ceiling. 'Just the end of the corridor. A couple of bulbs have gone. I'll have that fixed.'
'How long had he lived here, this man?' Erlendur asked as he went back into the room.
'I don't know, since before my time.'
'So he was here when you became the manager?'
'Yes.'
'Are you telling me he lived in this hole for twenty years?'
'Yes.'
Elínborg looked at the condom.
'At least he practised safe sex,' she said.
'Not safe enough,' Sigurdur Óli said.
At that point the district medical officer arrived, accompanied by a member of the hotel staff who then went back along the corridor. The medical officer was very fat too, although nowhere near a match for the hotel manager. When he squeezed into the room, Elínborg darted back out for air.
'Hello, Erlendur,' the medical officer said.
'What does it look like?' Erlendur asked.
'Heart attack, but I need a better look,' replied the medical officer, who was known for his appalling sense of humour.
Erlendur looked out at Sigurdur Óli and Elínborg, who were grinning from ear to ear.
'Do you know when it happened?' Erlendur asked.
'Can't be very long ago. Some time during the last two hours. He's hardly begun to go cold. Have you located his reindeer?'
Erlendur groaned.
The medical officer lifted his hand from the body.
'I'll sign the certificate,' he said. 'You send it to the mortuary and they'll open him up there. They say that orgasm is a kind of moment of death,' he added, looking down at the body. 'So he had a double.'
'A double?' Erlendur didn't understand him.
'Orgasm, I mean,' the medical officer said. 'You'll take photographs, won't you?'
'Yes,' Erlendur said.
'They'll look nice in his family album.'
'He doesn't appear to have any family,' Erlendur said and looked around the room again. 'So you're done for the time being?' he asked, eager to put an end to the wisecracks.
The district medical officer nodded, squeezed back out of the room and went down the corridor.
'Won't we have to close down the hotel?' Elínborg asked, and noticed the manager gasp at her question. 'Stop all traffic in and out. Question everyone staying here and all the staff? Close the airports. Stop ships leaving port...'
'For God's sake,' the manager groaned, squeezing his handkerchief with an imploring look at Erlendur. 'It's only the doorman!'
Mary and Joseph would never have been given a room here, Erlendur thought to himself.
'This ... this ... filth has nothing to do with my guests,' the manager spluttered with indignation. 'They're tourists, almost all of them, and regional people, businessmen and the like. No one who has anything to do with the doorman. No one. This is one of the largest hotels in Reykjavík. It's packed over the holidays. You can't just close it down! You just can't!'
'We could, but we won't,' Erlendur said, trying to calm the manager down. 'We'll need to question some of the guests and most of the staff, I expect.'
'Thank God,' the manager sighed, regaining his composure.
'What was the man's name?'
'Gudlaugur,' the manager said. 'I think he's around fifty. And you're right about his family, I don't think he has any.'
'Who visited him?'
'I haven't got a clue,' the manager puffed.
'Has anything unusual happened at the hotel involving this man?'
'No.'
'Theft?'
'No. Nothing's happened.'
'Complaints?'
'No.'
'He hasn't become embroiled in anything that could explain this?'
'Not as far as I know.'
'Was he involved in any conflicts with anyone at this hotel?'
'Not that I know of
'Outside the hotel?'
'Not that I know of but I don't know him very well. Didn't,' the manager corrected himself.
'Not after twenty years?'
'No, not really. He wasn't very sociable, I don't think. Kept himself to himself as much as he could.'
'Do you think a hotel is the right place for a man like him?'
'Me? I don't know ... He was always very polite and there were never really any complaints about him.'
'Never really?'
'No, there were never any complaints about him. He wasn't a bad worker really?
'Where's the staff coffee room?' Erlendur asked.
'I'll show you.' The hotel manager mopped his brow, relieved that they would not close the hotel.
'Did he have guests?' Erlendur asked.
'What?' the manager said.
'Guests,' Erlendur repeated. 'It looks like someone who knew him was here, don't you think?'
The manager looked at the body and his eyes dwelled on the condom.
'I don't know anything about his girlfriends,' he said. 'Nothing at all.'
'You don't know very much about this man,' Erlendur said.
'He's a doorman here,' the manager said, and felt that Erlendur should accept that by way of explanation.
They left the room. The forensics team went in with their equipment and more officers followed them. It was difficult for them all to squeeze their way past the manager. Erlendur asked them to examine the corridor carefully and the dark alcove further down. Sigurdur Óli and Elinborg stood inside the little room observing the body.
'I wouldn't like to be found like that,' Sigurdur Óli said.
'It's no concern of his any more,' Elínborg said.
'No, probably not,' Sigurdur Óh said.
'Is there anything in it?' Elínborg asked as she took out a little bag of salted peanuts. She was always nibbling at things. Sigurdur Óli thought it was because of nerves.
'In it?' Sigurdur Óli said.
She nodded in the direction of the body. After staring at her for a moment, Sigurdur Óli realised what she meant. He hesitated, then knelt down by the body and stared at the condom.
'No,' he said. 'It's empty'
'So she killed him before his orgasm,' Elínborg said. 'The doctor thought—'
'She?' Sigurdur Óli said.
'Yes, isn't that obvious?' Elínborg said, emptying a handful of peanuts into her mouth. She offered some to Sigurdur Óli, who declined. 'Isn't there something tarty about it? He's had a woman in here,' she said. 'Hasn't he?'
'That's the simplest theory,' Sigurdur Óli said, standing up.
'You don't think so?' Elínborg said.
'I don't know. I don't have the faintest idea.'

2

The staff coffee room had little in common with the hotel's splendid lobby and well-appointed rooms. There were no Christmas decorations, no Christmas carols, only a few shabby kitchen tables and chairs, linoleum on the floor, torn in one place, and in one corner stood a kitchenette with cupboards, a coffee machine and a refrigerator. It was as if no one ever tidied up there. There were coffee stains on the tables and dirty cups all around. The ancient coffee machine was switched on and burped water.
Several hotel employees were sitting in a semicircle around a young girl who was still traumatised after finding the body. She had been crying and black mascara was smudged down her cheeks. She looked up when Erlendur entered with the hotel manager.
'Here she is,' the manager said as if she were guilty of intruding upon the sanctity of Christmas, and shooed the other staff out. Erlendur ushered him out after them, saying he wanted to talk to the girl in private. The manager looked at him in surprise but did not protest, muttering about having plenty of other things to do. Erlendur closed the door behind him.
The girl wiped the mascara off her cheeks and looked at Erlendur, uncertain what to expect. Erlendur smiled, pulled up a chair and sat facing her. She was around the same age as his own daughter, in her early twenties, nervous and still in shock from what she had seen. Her hair was black and she was slim, dressed in the hotel chambermaid's uniform, a light blue coat. A name tag was attached to her breast pocket. Ösp.
'Have you been working here long?' Erlendur asked.
'Almost a year,' Ösp said in a low voice. She looked at him. He did not give the impression that he would give her a hard time. With a snuffle she straightened up in her chair. Finding the body had clearly had a strong effect on her. She trembled slightly. Her name Ösp – meaning aspen – suited her, Erlendur thought to himself. She was like a twig in the wind.
'And do you like working here?' Erlendur asked.
'No,' she said.
'So why do you?'
'You have to work.'
'What's so bad about it?'
She looked at him as if he did not need to ask.
'I change the beds,' she said. 'Clean the toilets. Vacuum. But it's still better than a supermarket.'
'What about the people?'
'The manager's a creep.'
'He's like a fire hydrant with a leak.'
Ösp smiled.
'And some of the guests think you're only here for them to grope.'
'Why did you go down to the basement?' Erlendur asked.
'To fetch Santa. The kids were waiting for him.'
'Which kids?'
'At the Christmas ball. We have a Christmas party for the staff. For their children and any kids who are staying at the hotel, and he was playing Santa. When he didn't show up I was sent to fetch him.'
'That can't have been pleasant.'
'I've never seen a dead body before. And that condom.' Ösp tried to drive the image out of her mind.
'Did he have any girlfriends at the hotel?'
'None that I know of?
'Do you know about any contacts of his outside the hotel?'
'I don't know anything about that man, though I've seen more of him than I should of!
'Should have,' Erlendur corrected her.
'What?'
'You're supposed to say "should have", not "should of".'
She gave him a pitying look.
'Do you think it matters?'
'Yes, I do,' Erlendur said.
He shook his head, a remote expression on his face.
'Was the door open when you found him?'
Ösp thought
'No, I opened it. I knocked and got no reply, so I waited and was just going to leave when it occurred to me to open the door. I thought it was locked but then it suddenly opened and he was sitting there naked with a rubber on his...'
'Why did you think it would be locked?' Erlendur hurried to say. 'The door.'
'I just did. I knew it was his room.'
'Did you see anyone when you went down to fetch him?'
'No, no one.'
'So he'd got ready for the Christmas party, but someone came down and disturbed him. He was wearing his Santa suit.'
Ösp shrugged.
'Who did his bed?'
'What do you mean?'
'Who changed the linen? It hasn't been done for a long time.'
'I don't know. He must have done it himself?
'You must have been shocked.'
'It was a revolting sight,' Ösp said.
'I know,' Erlendur said. 'You should try to forget it as quickly as possible. If you can. Was he a good Santa?'
The girl looked at him.
'What?' Erlendur said.
'I don't believe in Santa.'
The lady who organised the Christmas party was smartly dressed, short and, Erlendur thought, around thirty. She said she was the hotel's marketing and PR manager, but Erlendur could not have been less interested; most of the people he met these days were marketing-somethings. She had an office on the second floor and Erlendur found her on the phone there. The media had got wind of an incident at the hotel and Erlendur imagined she was telling lies to a reporter. The conversation came to a very abrupt end. The woman slammed down the phone with the words that she had absolutely no comment to make.
Erlendur introduced himself, shook her dry hand and asked her when she had last spoken to the, aahemm, man in the basement. He did not know whether to say doorman or Santa, he had forgotten his name. He felt he could hardly say Santa.
'Gulli?' she said, solving the problem. 'It was just this morning, to remind him of the Christmas party. I met him by the revolving doors. He was working. He was a doorman here as you perhaps know. And more than a doorman, a caretaker really. Mended things and all that.'
'Easy-going?'
'Pardon?'
'Helpful, easy-going, didn't need much nagging?'
'I don't know. Does that matter? He never did anything for me. Or rather, I never needed his help.'
'Why was he playing Santa? Was he fond of children? Funny? Fun?'
'That goes back before I started here. I've been working here for three years and this is the third Christmas party I've organised. He was the Santa the other two times and before that too. He was OK. As Santa. The kids liked him.'
Gudlaugur's death did not seem to have had the slightest effect on the woman. It was none of her business. All that the murder did was to disturb the marketing and PR for a while. Erlendur wondered how people could be so insensitive and boring.
'But what sort of person was he?'
'I don't know. I never got to know him. He was a doorman here. And the Santa. That was really the only time I ever spoke to him. When he was the Santa.'
'What happened to the Christmas party? When you found out that Santa was dead?'
'We called it off. Nothing else for it. Also out of respect for him,' she added, as if to show a hint of feeling at last. It was futile. Erlendur could tell that she could not care less about the body in the basement.
'Who knew this man best?' he asked. 'Here at the hotel, I mean.'
'I don't know. Try talking to the head of reception. The doorman worked for him.'
The telephone on her desk rang and she answered it. She gave Erlendur a look implying that he was in her way, and he stood up and walked out, thinking that she could not go on telling lies over the phone for ever.
The reception manager had no time to deal with Erlendur. Tourists swarmed around the front desk and even though three other employees were helping to check them in, they could hardly handle the crowd. Erlendur watched them looking at passports, handing over key cards, smiling and moving on to the next guest. The crowd stretched back to the revolving doors. Through them Erlendur saw yet another tourist shuttle stop outside the hotel.
Policemen, most of them in plain clothes, were all over the building questioning the staff. A makeshift incident centre had been set up in the staff coffee room in the basement, from where the investigation was managed.
Erlendur contemplated the Christmas decorations in the lobby. A sentimental Christmas tune was playing over the sound system. He walked over to the large restaurant to one side of the lobby. The first guests were lining up around a splendid Christmas buffet. He walked past the table and admired the herring, smoked lamb, cold ham, ox tongue and all the trimmings, and the delicious desserts, ice cream, cream cakes and chocolate mousse, or whatever it was.
Erlendur's mouth watered. He had eaten almost nothing all day.
He looked all around and, almost too fast to be seen, popped a bite of spicy ox tongue into his mouth. He did not think anyone had noticed, and his heart leaped when he heard a sharp voice behind him.
'No, listen, that's not on. You mustn't do that!'
Erlendur turned round and a man wearing a large chef's hat walked up to him glaring.
'What's that supposed to mean, picking at the food? What kind of manners do you call that?'
'Take it easy,' Erlendur said, reaching for a plate. He began piling an assortment of delicacies onto the plate as if he had always intended to have the buffet.
'Did you know Santa Claus?' he asked to change the subject from the ox tongue.
'Santa Claus?' the cook said. 'What Santa Claus? And please don't put your fingers on the food. It's not—'
'Gudlaugur,' Erlendur interrupted him. 'Did you know him? He was a doorman and jack of all trades here, I'm told.'
'You mean Gulli?'
'Yes, Gulli.' Erlendur repeated his nickname as he put a generous slice of cold ham on his plate and a dash of yoghurt sauce over it. He wondered whether to call in Elínborg to appraise the buffet; she was a gourmet and had been assembling a book of recipes for many years.
'No, I... what do you mean by "did I know him"?' the cook asked.
'You haven't heard?'
'What? Is something wrong?'
'He's dead. Murdered. Hasn't word got around yet?'
'Murdered?' the cook groaned. 'Murdered! What, here? Who are you?'
'In his little room. Down in the basement. I'm from the police.'
Erlendur went on choosing goodies to put on his plate. The cook had forgotten the ox tongue.
'How was he murdered?'
'The least said the better.'
'At the hotel?'
'Yes.'
The cook looked all around.
'I don't believe it,' he said. 'Won't there be hell to pay?'
'Yes,' Erlendur said. 'There will be hell to pay?
He knew that the hotel would never be able to shake off the murder. It would never wipe away the smear. After this it would always be known as the hotel where Santa was found dead with a condom on his penis.
'Did you know him?' Erlendur asked. 'Gulli?'
'No, hardly at all. He was a doorman here and fixed all sorts of stuff?
'Fixed?'
'Yes, mended. I didn't know him at all.'
'Do you know who knew him best here?'
'No,' the cook said. 'I don't know anything about the man. Who could have murdered him? Here? At the hotel? My God!'
Erlendur could tell that he was more worried about the hotel than about the murdered man. He considered telling him that the murder might boost the occupancy rate. That's the way people think these days. They could even advertise the hotel as a murder scene. Develop crime-based tourism. But he could not be bothered. He wanted to sit down with his plate and eat the food. Have a moment's peace.
Sigurdur Óli turned up out of nowhere.
'Did you find anything?' Erlendur asked.
'No,' Sigurdur Óli said, looking at the cook, who hurried off to the kitchen with the news. 'Are you eating now?' he added with indignation.
'Oh, don't give me any crap. There was a compromising situation.'
'That man owned nothing, or if he did, he didn't keep it in his room,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'Elínborg found a couple of old records in his wardrobe. That was the lot. Shouldn't we shut down the hotel?'
'Shut down the hotel, what kind of nonsense is that?' Erlendur said. 'How are you going to go about shutting down this hotel? And how long do you plan to do that for? Are you going to send a search team into every room?'
'No, but the murderer could be one of the guests. We can't ignore that.'
'That's absolutely uncertain. There are two possibilities. Either he's at the hotel, a guest or an employee, or he's nothing to do with the hotel. What we need to do is to talk to all the staff and everyone who checks out over the next couple of days, especially those who check out earlier than they had planned, although I doubt that the person who did it would try to draw attention to himself like that.'
'No, right. I was thinking about the condom,' Sigurdur Óli said.
Erlendur looked for a vacant table, found one and sat down. Sigurdur Óli sat down with him and looked at the heaped plate, and his mouth began watering too.
'Well, if it's a woman she's still of child-bearing age, isn't she? Because of the condom.'
'Yes, that would have been the case twenty years ago,' Erlendur said, savouring the lightly smoked ham. 'Nowadays a condom's more than just a contraceptive. It's protection against bloody everything, chlamydia, Aids ...'
'The condom might also tell us that he wasn't very well acquainted with the ... the person who was in his room. That it must have been a quickie. If he'd known the person well he may not have used a condom.'
'We must remember that the condom doesn't rule out that he was with a man,' Erlendur said.
'What kind of implement could it be? The murder weapon?'
'We'll see what comes out of the autopsy. Obviously there's no problem getting hold of a knife at this hotel, if it was someone from here who attacked him.'
'Is that nice?' Sigurdur Óli asked. He had been watching Erlendur devouring the food and was sorely tempted to get some for himself but was afraid of causing even more of a scandal: two cops investigating a murder at a hotel, who sat down at the buffet as if nothing had happened.
'I forgot to check whether there was anything in it,' Erlendur said between bites.
'Do you think you ought to be eating at the murder scene?'
'This is a hotel.'
'Yes, but...'
'I told you, I ran into a compromising situation. This was the only way to get out of it. Was there anything in it? The condom?'
'Empty,' Sigurdur Óli said.
'The medical officer thought he'd had an orgasm. Twice in fact, but I didn't really catch how he came to that conclusion.'
'I don't know anyone who can work out what he's talking about'
'So the murder was committed in full swing.'
'Yes. Something happened when everything was hunky dory'
'If everything was hunky dory, why take along a knife?'
'Maybe it was part of the game.'
'What game?'
'Sex has become much more complex than just the old missionary position,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'So it could be anyone?'
'Anyone,' Erlendur said. 'Why do they always talk about the missionary position? What's the mission?'
'I don't know.' Sigurdur Óli sighed. Sometimes Erlendur asked questions that irritated him because they were so simple but at the same time so infinitely complicated and dull.
'Is it something from Africa?'
'Or Catholicism,' Sigurdur Óli said.
'Why missionary?'
'I don't know.'
"The condom doesn't rule out either sex,' Erlendur said. 'Let's establish that. The condom doesn't rule out anything. Did you ask the manager why he wanted rid of Santa Claus?'
'No, did he want rid of Santa?'
'He mentioned it without any explanation. We have to find out what he meant.'
'I'll jot that down,' said Sigurdur Óli, who always carried around a notepad and pencil.
'And then there's one group that uses condoms more than other people.'
'Really?' Sigurdur Óli said, his face one huge question mark.
'Prostitutes.'
'Prostitutes?' Sigurdur Óli repeated. 'Hookers? Do you think there are any here?'
Erlendur nodded.
'They do a lot of missionary work at hotels.'
Sigurdur Óli stood up and dawdled in front of Erlendur, who had finished his plate and was eyeing up the buffet again.
'Ehmmm, where will you be spending Christmas?' Sigurdur Óli asked awkwardly.
'Christmas?' Erlendur said. 'I'll be ... what do you mean, where will I be spending Christmas? Where should I spend Christmas? What business of yours is that?'
Sigurdur Óli hesitated, then took the plunge.
'Bergthóra was wondering if you'd be on your own.'
'Eva Lind has some plans. What did Bergthóra mean? That I should visit you?'
'I don't know,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'Women! Who ever understands them?' Then he sauntered away from the table and down to the basement.
Elínborg was standing in front of the murdered man's room, watching the forensics team at work, when Sigurdur Óli came walking down the dim corridor.
'Where's Erlendur?' she asked, throttling her little bag of peanuts.
'At the buffet,' Sigurdur Óli said peevishly.
A preliminary test made that evening revealed that the condom was covered with saliva.

3

Forensics contacted Erlendur as soon as the biopsy results were available. He was still at the hotel. For a while the scene of the crime looked like a photographer's studio. Flashes lit up the dim corridor at regular intervals. The body was photographed from all angles, along with everything found in Gudlaugur's room. The corpse was then transported to the morgue on Barónsstígur where the postmortem would be performed. Forensics had combed the doorman's room for fingerprints and found many sets, which would be checked against the police records. All the hotel staff were to be fingerprinted and the forensics team's discovery also meant that saliva samples would have to be taken.
'What about the guests?' Elínborg asked. 'Won't we have to do the same with them?'
She yearned to get home and regretted the question; she wanted to finish her shift. Elínborg took Christmas very seriously and missed her family. She hung up fir branches and decorations all around her home. She baked delicious cookies, which she stored in her Tupperware boxes, carefully labelled by variety. Her Christmas roast was legendary, even outside her extended family. The main course every Christmas was a Swedish-style leg of pork, which she kept outside on the balcony to marinate for twelve days, and tended it just as carefully as if it had been the baby Jesus in swaddling clothes.
'I think we have to assume, initially, that the murderer is an Icelander,' Erlendur said. 'Let's keep the guests in reserve. The hotel is filling up for Christmas now and few people are checking out. We'll talk to the ones who do, take saliva samples, even fingerprints. We can't prevent them from leaving the country. They would have to be prime suspects for us to do that. And we need a list of the foreigners staying at the hotel at the time of the murder, we'll forget about the ones who check in afterwards. Let's try to keep it simple.'
'But what if it isn't that simple?' Elínborg asked.
'I don't think any of the guests know there was a murder,' said Sigurdur Óli, who wanted to get home too. Bergthóra, his partner, had phoned him towards evening and asked if he was on his way. It was exactly the right time now and she was waiting for him, she had said. Sigurdur Óli knew immediately what she meant by 'the right time'. They were trying to have a baby but nothing was happening and he had told Erlendur that they were beginning to talk about IVF.
'Don't you have to give them a jarful?' Erlendur asked.
'A jarful?' Sigurdur Óli said.
'In the mornings?'
Sigurdur Óli looked at Erlendur until he realised what he meant.
'I should never have told you,' he growled.
Erlendur sipped his foul-tasting coffee. The three of them were sitting by themselves in the staff coffee room in the basement. All the commotion was over, the police officers and forensics team had left, the room was sealed off. Erlendur was in no hurry. He had no one to go to, only his gloomy apartment in a block of flats. Christmas meant nothing to him. He had a few days holiday owing and nothing to do with them. Perhaps his daughter would visit him and they would boil smoked lamb. Sometimes her brother came with her. And Erlendur sat and read, which he always did anyway.
'You ought to get yourselves home,' he said. 'I'm going to potter around a little longer. Find out whether I can't talk to that head of reception who never has the time.'
Elínborg and Sigurdur Óli stood up.
'Will you be OK?' Elínborg asked. 'Why don't you just go home? Christmas is coming and—'
'What's with you and Sigurdur Óli? Why don't you leave me in peace?'
'It's Christmas,' Elínborg said with a sigh. Dithered. Then she said, 'Forget it.' She and Sigurdur Óli turned round and left the coffee room.
Erlendur sat for a good while, sunk in thought. He pondered Sigurdur Óli's question about where he was going to spend Christmas, and mulled over Elínborg's thoughtfulness. He saw an image of his flat, the armchair, the battered old television set and the books lining the walls.
Sometimes he bought a bottle of Chartreuse at Christmas and had a glass beside him while he read about ordeals and death in the days when people travelled everywhere on foot and Christmas could be the most treacherous time of the year. Determined to visit their loved ones, people would battle with the forces of nature, go astray and perish; for those awaiting them back home, Christmas turned from a celebration of salvation to a nightmare. The bodies of some travellers were found. Others were not. They were never found. These were Erlendur's Christmas carols.
The head of reception had taken off his hotel jacket and was putting on his raincoat when Erlendur located him in the cloakroom. He said he was exhausted and wanted to get home to his family like everyone else. He had heard about the murder, yes, terrible, but did not know how he could be of assistance.
'I understand you knew him better than most people at the hotel,' Erlendur said.
'No, I don't think that's right,' the head of reception said as he wrapped a thick scarf around his neck. 'Who told you that?'
'He worked for you, didn't he?' Erlendur replied, ignoring the question.
'Worked for me, yes, probably. He was a doorman, I'm in charge of the reception, the check-in, as you may know. Do you know how long the shops are open tonight?'
He gave the impression of not being particularly interested in Erlendur and his questions, which irritated the detective. And it irritated him that no one seemed to care in the slightest about the fate the man in the basement had met.
'Round the clock, I don't know. Who could have wanted to stab your doorman in the chest?'
'Mine? He wasn't my doorman. He was the hotel's doorman.'
'And why did he have his trousers round his ankles and a condom on his todger? Who was with him? Who normally came to visit him? Who were his friends at the hotel? Who were his friends outside the hotel? Who were his enemies? Why was he living at this hotel? What was the deal? What are you hiding? Why can't you answer me like a decent human being?'
'Hey, I, what...?' The man fell silent. 'I just want to get home,' he said eventually. 'I don't know the answers to all those questions. Christmas is coming. Can we talk tomorrow? I haven't had a moment's rest all day.'
Erlendur looked at him.
'We'll talk tomorrow,' he said. As he left the cloakroom he suddenly remembered the question that had been vexing him ever since he met the hotel manager. He turned round. The man was on his way out through the door when Erlendur called to him.
'Why did you want to get rid of him?'
'What?'
'You wanted to get rid of him. Santa. Why?'
The reception manager hesitated.
'He'd been sacked.'
Erlendur found the hotel manager sitting down to a meal. He was at a large table in the kitchen, wearing a chef's apron and devouring the contents of the half-empty trays that had been brought in from the buffet.
'You can't imagine how I love eating,' he said, wiping his mouth, when he noticed Erlendur staring at him. 'In peace,' he added.
'I know exactly what you mean,' Erlendur said.
They were alone in the large, polished kitchen. Erlendur could only admire him. He ate quickly, but deftly and without greed. There was something almost elegant about the motions of his hands. One bite after another disappeared inside him, smoothly and with a visible passion.
He was calmer now that the body had been removed from the hotel and the police had gone, along with the reporters who had been standing outside the hotel; the police had ordered them to stay out, the entire building was deemed a crime scene. The hotel was returning to business as normal. Very few tourists knew about the body in the basement, but many noticed the police activity and asked about it. The manager instructed his staff to say something about an old man and a heart attack.
'I know what you're thinking. You think I'm a pig, don't you?' he said, pausing to take a sip of red wine. His little finger darted out, the size of a cocktail sausage.
'No, but I do understand why you want to run a hotel,' Erlendur said. Then he lost his patience. 'You're killing yourself, you know that,' he said brashly.
'I weigh 180 kilos,' the manager said. 'Farmed pigs don't get much heavier. I've always been fat. Never known otherwise. Never been on a diet. I've never been able to think of changing my lifestyle, as they say. I feel good. Better than you, from the look of things,' he added.
Erlendur remembered hearing that fat people were supposed to be jollier than skinny people. He did not believe it himself.
'Better than me?' he said with a hint of a smile. 'You're the last person to judge. Why did you sack the doorman?'
The manager had resumed eating and some time passed before he put down his knife and fork. Erlendur waited patiently. He could see the manager weighing up the best answer, how to phrase it, given that he had found out about the dismissal.
'We haven't been doing too well,' he said eventually. 'We're overbooked in the summer and there's always plenty of traffic over Christmas and the New Year, but then come dead periods that can be damned difficult. The owners said we had to cut back. Lay off staff. I didn't think it was necessary to have a full-time doorman all year round.'
'But I'm told he was much more than just a doorman. Santa Claus, for example. A jack of all trades. Mended things. More like a caretaker.'
The manager had gone back to feeding his face yet again and another break in their conversation ensued. Erlendur looked around. After taking down their names and addresses, the police had allowed the staff who had finished their shifts to go home; it had still not been established who was the last person to talk to the victim, nor what happened on the last day of his life. No one had noticed anything unusual about Santa. No one had seen anybody go down to the basement. No one knew of him ever having visitors there. Only a couple of people knew that he lived there permanently, that the little room was his home, and apparently they wanted to know as little as possible about him. Very few said they knew him and he did not seem to have had any friends at the hotel. Nor did the employees know about any friends of his outside it.
A real Lone Wolf, Erlendur thought to himself.
'No one is indispensable,' the manager said, his sausagelike finger protruding again as he took another sip of red wine. 'Of course, firing people is never fun, but we can't afford to have a doorman all year. That's why he was sacked. No other reason. And there wasn't really much door-manning to do. He put on his uniform when film stars or foreign dignitaries came, and he threw out undesirables.'
'Did he take it badly? Being sacked?'
'He understood, I think.'
'Are any knives missing from the kitchen?' Erlendur asked.
'I don't know. We lose knives and forks and glasses worth hundreds of thousands of krónur every year. And towels and ... Do you think he was stabbed with a knife from the kitchen?'
'I don't know.'
Erlendur watched the manager eat.
'He worked here for twenty years and no one knew him. Don't you find that unusual?'
'Employees come and go,' the manager shrugged. 'There's a high staff turnover in this business. I think people knew about him, but who knows who? Don't ask me. I don't know anyone here that well.'
'You've stayed put through all these staff changes'
'I'm difficult to move.'
'Why did you talk about chucking him out?'
'Did I say that?'
'Yes.'
'Then it was just a turn of phrase. I didn't mean anything by it.'
'But you'd sacked him and were going to chuck him out,' Erlendur said. "Then someone comes along and kills him. It hasn't exactly been going well for him recently.'
The manager acted as though Erlendur was not even there while he filled himself with cakes and mousse with his delicate, gourmandising motions, trying to savour the treats.
'Why was he still here if you'd sacked him?'
'He was supposed to leave at the end of last month. I'd been hurrying him along, but didn't pressure him. I should have. Then I'd have avoided this nonsense.'
Erlendur watched the manager scoffing his food, and said nothing. Maybe it was the buffet. Maybe the gloomy block of flats. Maybe the time of year. The microwave dinner waiting for him at home. The lonely Christmas. Erlendur did not know. Somehow the question just came out. Before he knew it.
'A room?' the manager said, as if not understanding what Erlendur meant.
'It doesn't have to be anything special,' Erlendur said.
'You mean for you?'
'A single room is fine,' Erlendur said.
'We're fully booked. Unfortunately' The hotel manager stared at Erlendur. He didn't want to have the detective over him day and night.
"The head of reception said there was a vacant room,' Erlendur lied, more firmly now. 'He said it was no problem if I just talked to you.'
The manager stared at him. Looked down at his unfinished mousse. Then he pushed the plate away, his appetite ruined.
It was cold in the room. Erlendur stood gazing out of the window, but saw nothing apart from his own reflection in the glass. He hadn't looked that man in the face for some time and he noticed in the darkness how he was ageing. Snowflakes fell cautiously to the ground, as if the heavens had split open and their dust was being strewn over the world.
A little book of verse that he owned suddenly entered his mind, exceptionally elegant translations of poems by Hölderlin. He let his mind wander through them until he stopped at a line that he knew applied to the man looking back at him from the window.
The walls stand speechless and cold, the weathervanes rattle in the wind.

4

He was falling asleep when he heard a tap on his door and a voice whispering his name.
He knew at once who it was. When he opened the door he saw his daughter, Eva Lind, standing in the corridor. They looked each other in the eye, she smiled at him and slipped past him into the room. He closed the door. She sat down at the little desk and took out a packet of cigarettes.
'I don't think you're allowed to smoke in here,' said Erlendur, who had obeyed the smoke-free policy.
'Yeah, yeah,' Eva Lind said, fishing a cigarette out of the packet. 'Why's it so cold in here?'
'I think the radiator's broken.'
Erlendur sat down on the side of the bed. Dressed only in his underpants, he pulled the quilt over his head and shoulders and wore it like a wrap.
'What are you doing?' Eva Lind asked.
'I'm cold,' Erlendur said.
'I mean, the hotel room, why don't you just go home?' She inhaled deep into her lungs, almost a third of the cigarette frizzled away, and then she exhaled, filling the room with smoke.
'I don't know. I don't...' Erlendur stopped.
'Feel like getting yourself home?'
'Somehow it didn't seem right. A man was murdered in this hotel today, have you heard?'
'Santa Claus, wasn't it? Was he murdered?'
'The doorman. He was supposed to play Santa for the children in the hotel. How are you doing?'
'Great,' Eva Lind said.
'Still at work?'
'Yes.'
Erlendur watched her. She looked better. She was still as skinny as ever but the rings under her beautiful blue eyes had faded and her cheeks were not so sunken. He didn't think she had touched drugs for almost eight months. Not since she had a miscarriage and lay in a coma at the hospital, halfway between this world and the next. When she was discharged from the hospital she moved in with him and got herself a steady job for the first time in two years. For the past few months she had been renting a room in town.
'How did you find out where I was?' Erlendur asked.
'I couldn't get you on your mobile so I called the station and was told you had checked in to the hotel. What's going on? Why don't you go home?'
'I don't really know what to say,' Erlendur said. 'Christmas is a funny time.'
'Yeah,' Eva Lind said, and they fell silent.
'Heard anything from your brother?' Erlendur asked.
'Sindri's still working out of town,' Eva Lind said, and the cigarette hissed as it burned down to the filter. Ash dropped to the floor. She looked for an ashtray but couldn't see one, so she stood the cigarette up on end on the desk to let it burn out.
'And your mother?' Erlendur said. It was always the same questions, and the answers were generally the same as well.
'OK. Slaving away as usual.'
Erlendur said nothing. Eva Lind watched the blue cigarette smoke curling up from the desk.
'I don't know if I can hold out any longer,' she said, staring at the smoke.
Erlendur looked up from beneath his quilt.
There was a knock on the door and they exchanged looks of surprise. Eva stood up and opened the door. A member of staff was standing in the corridor, dressed in his hotel jacket. He said he worked at reception.
'Smoking is prohibited here,' was the first thing he said when he looked inside the room.
'I asked her to put it out,' Erlendur said, sitting in his underpants under the quilt. 'She's never listened to me.'
'And it's prohibited to have girls in the rooms too,' the man said. 'Because of what happened.'
Eva Lind gave a faint smile and looked over at her father. Erlendur looked up at his daughter and then at the employee.
'We were told a girl had come up here,' he continued. 'That's not allowed. You'll have to leave. Now."
He stood in the doorway, waiting for Eva Lind to accompany him. Erlendur stood up, still with the quilt over his shoulders, and walked over to the man.
'She's my daughter,' he said.
'Of course,' the man from the reception said, as if that was none of his business.
'Seriously; Eva Lind said.
The man looked at each of them in turn.
'I don't want any trouble,' he said.
'Bugger off then and leave us in peace,' Eva Lind said.
He stood looking at Eva Lind and at Erlendur in his underpants beneath the quilt, and did not budge.
'There's something wrong with the radiator in here,' Erlendur said. 'It doesn't heat up.'
'She'll have to come with me,' the man said.
Eva Lind looked at her father and shrugged.
'We'll talk later,' she said. 'I'm not taking this bullshit'
'What do you mean, you can't hold out any longer?' Erlendur said.
'We'll talk later,' Eva said, and went out of the door.
The man smiled at Erlendur.
'Are you going to do something about the radiator in here?' Erlendur asked.
'I'll notify maintenance,' he said, and closed the door.
Erlendur sat back down on the edge of the bed. Eva Lind and Sindri Snaer were the fruit of a failed marriage that had come to an end more than two decades ago. Erlendur had had virtually no contact with his children after the divorce. His ex-wife, Halldóra, made sure of that. She felt betrayed and used the children to get her own back on him. Erlendur resigned himself to it. Ever since, he had regretted not insisting on his right to see his children. Regretted leaving it all up to Halldóra. When they grew older they tracked him down for themselves. His daughter was doing drugs by then. His son had already been through rehab for alcoholism.
He knew what Eva meant when she said she didn't know whether she could hold out. She had not been through treatment. Not been to any institution for help with her problem. She had tackled it herself, alone. Had always been reticent, spiteful and headstrong when the question of her lifestyle arose. Even when pregnant she had not managed to kick the drug habit. She made attempts, and gave up for a while, but lacked the resolve to quit for good. She tried, and Erlendur knew that she did so in complete earnestness, but it was too much and she always slipped back into her old ways. He didn't know what made her so dependent on drugs that she gave them priority over everything else in life. Didn't know the root of her self-destruction, but realised that in some way he had failed her. That in some way he was also to blame for the situation she was in.
*
He had sat by Eva's bedside at the hospital when she was in a coma, talking to her because the doctor said she might hear his voice and even sense his presence. A few days later she came round and the first thing she asked was to see her father. She was so frail that she could hardly speak. When he visited her she was asleep and he sat beside her and waited for her to wake up.
At last, when she opened her eyes and saw him, she seemed to try to smile, but she started to cry and he stood up and hugged her. She trembled in his arms and he tried to calm her, laid her back on the pillow and wiped the tears from her eyes.
'Where have you been all these long days?' he said, stroking her cheek and trying to give a smile of encouragement.
'Where's the baby?' she asked.
'Didn't they tell you what happened?'
'I lost it. They didn't tell me where it is. I haven't been allowed to see it. They don't trust me ...'
'I came very close to losing you.'
'Where is it?'
Erlendur had been to see the baby when it lay still-born in the operating theatre, a little girl who might have been given the name Audur.
'Do you want to see the baby?' he asked.
'Forgive me,' Eva said in a low voice.
'For what?'
The way I am. The way the baby...'
'I don't need to forgive the way you are, Eva. You shouldn't apologise for the way you are.'
'Yes, I should.'
'Your fate isn't in your own hands alone.'
'Would you...?'
Eva Lind stopped talking and lay on the bed, exhausted. Erlendur waited in silence while she mustered her strength. A long time passed. Eventually she looked at her father.
'Will you help me bury her?' she said.
'Of course,' he said.
'I want to see her,' Eva said.
'Do you think...?'
'I want to see her,' she repeated. 'Please. Let me see her.'
After a moment's hesitation Erlendur went to the mortuary and came back with the body of the girl whom in his mind he called Audur because he did not want her to be anonymous. He carried the body along the hospital corridor in a white towel because Eva was too weak to move, and he brought it to her in intensive care. Eva held her baby, looked at it, then looked up at her father.
'It's my fault,' she said in a low voice.
Erlendur thought she was about to burst into tears and was surprised when she did not. There was an air of calm about her that veiled the repulsion she felt towards herself.
'Feel free to have a cry,' he said.
Eva looked at him.
'I don't deserve to cry,' she said.
She sat in a wheelchair in Fossvogur cemetery and watched the vicar strewing the three spadefuls of soil over the coffin, with an expression of unflinching toughness. Only with difficulty could she stand, but she pushed Erlendur away when he moved to help her. She made the sign of the cross over her daughter's grave and her lips quivered; Erlendur couldn't tell whether through fighting back the tears or mouthing a silent prayer.
It was a beautiful spring day, the sun was glittering on the surface of the water in the bay and down in Nauthó1svík people could be seen strolling in the fine weather. Halldóra stood some distance away and Sindri Snaer by the edge of the grave, far from his father. They could hardly have stood further apart; a disparate group with nothing in common except the misery of their lives. Erlendur reflected that the family hadn't been all together for almost a quarter of a century. He looked over at Halldóra, who avoided looking his way. He did not speak to her, nor she to him.
Eva Lind slumped back into the wheelchair and Erlendur attended to her and heard her groan.
'Fuck life.'
Erlendur snapped out of his thoughts when he remembered something that the man from the reception had said which he wanted to insist on an explanation for. He stood up, went into the corridor and saw the man disappearing into the lift. Eva was nowhere to be seen. He called out to the man who held the lift door, stepped back out and sized up Erlendur as he stood in front of him, barefoot, in his underpants with the quilt still draped over him.
'What did you mean when you said "Because of what happened"?' Erlendur asked.
'Because of what happened?' the man repeated with a puzzled expression.
'You said I couldn't have the girl in my room because of what happened.'
'Yes.'
'You mean what happened to Santa in the basement.'
'Yes. What do you know about...?'
Erlendur looked down at his underpants and hesitated for a moment.
'I'm taking part in the investigation,' he said. "The police investigation.'
The man looked at him, unable to conceal an expression of disbelief.
'Why did you make that connection?' Erlendur hurried to say.
'I don't follow,' the man said, dithering in front of him.
'So if Santa hadn't been killed it would be all right to have a girl in the room. That was the way you said it. You see what I mean?'
'No,' the man said. 'Did I say "Because of what happened"? I don't remember that.'
'You said just that. The girl wasn't allowed to be in the room because of what happened. You thought my daughter was a ...' Erlendur tried to put it delicately but failed. 'You thought my daughter was a tart and you came to throw her out because Santa got murdered. If that hadn't happened it would have been all right to have a girl in the room. Do you allow girls in the rooms? When everything's all right?'
The man looked at Erlendur.
'What do you mean by girls?'
'Tarts,' Erlendur said. 'Do tarts hang around the hotel, nipping into the rooms, and you ignore it apart from now because of what happened? What did Santa have to do with that? Was he connected with it somehow?'
'I haven't a clue what you're talking about,' the man said.
Erlendur changed tack.
'I can understand that you want to exercise caution when there's been a murder at the hotel. You don't want to draw attention to anything unusual or abnormal even if it's innocent, and there's nothing to say about that. People can do what they want and pay for it for all I care. What I need to know is whether Santa was connected with prostitution at this hotel.'
'I don't know anything about any prostitution,' the man said. 'As you saw, we keep a lookout for girls who go to rooms on their own. Was that really your daughter?'
'Yes,' Erlendur said.
'She told me to fuck off?
'That's her.'
Erlendur closed the door to his room behind him, lay down on the bed and soon fell asleep, dreaming that the heavens were strewn over him, and that he heard the sound of weathervanes rattling in the wind.
SECOND DAY

5

The reception manager had not yet arrived for work when Erlendur went down to the lobby and asked for him. He had given no explanation for his absence, nor phoned in sick or to say he needed the day off to run some errands. A lady in her thirties who worked at reception told Erlendur that it was certainly unusual for the reception manager not to turn up on time, always such a punctual man, and incomprehensible of him not to get in touch if he needed time off.
She told Erlendur this in between pauses while a bio-technician from the National Hospital took a swab of her saliva. Three biotechnicians were collecting samples from the hotel staff. Another group went to the homes of the employees who were not at work. Soon the biotechnicians would have DNA from the hotel's entire staff to compare with the saliva on Santa's condom.
Detectives interrogated the staff about their acquaintanceship with Gudlaugur and the whereabouts of each and every one of them the previous afternoon. The entire Reykjavik CID took part in the murder investigation while information and evidence were being collected.
'What about people who've recently left or worked here a year ago or whatever, and knew Santa?' Sigurdur Óli asked. He sat down beside Erlendur in the dining room and watched him partake of herring and ryebread, cold ham, toast and piping hot coffee.
'Let's see what we discover from this for starters,' Erlendur said, slurping his coffee. 'Have you found out anything about this Gudlaugur?'
'Not much. There doesn't seem to be a lot to say about him. He was forty-eight, single, no children. He'd been working here for the past twenty years or so. I understand he lived in that little room down in the basement for years. It was only supposed to be a temporary solution at the time, that fat manager implied. But he says he's not familiar with the matter. Told us to talk to the previous manager. He was the one who made the deal with Santa. Fatso reckoned Gudlaugur had lost the place he was renting and was allowed to keep his stuff in the room, and he just never left.'
Sigurdur Óli paused, then said: 'Elínborg told me you stayed at the hotel last night.'
'I can hardly recommend it. The room's cold and the staff never give you a moment's peace. But the food's good. Where is Elínborg?'
The dining room was busy and the hotel guests made a din as they indulged in the breakfast spread. Most of them were tourists wearing traditional Icelandic sweaters, hiking boots and thick winter clothing, even though they were going no further than the city centre, ten minutes' walk away. The waiters made sure their coffee cups were refilled and their used plates taken away. Christmas songs were playing softly over the sound system.
'The main hearing starts today. You knew that, didn't you?' Sigurdur Óli asked.
'Yes.'
'Elínborg's down there. How do you think it will turn out?'
'I suppose it will be a couple of months, suspended. Always the same with those bloody judges.'
'Surely he won't be allowed to keep the boy.'
'I don't know,' Erlendur said.
'The bastard,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'They ought to put him in the stocks in the town square.'
Elínborg had been in charge of the investigation. An eight-year-old boy had been committed to hospital after being seriously assaulted. No one had been able to get a word out of him about the attack. The initial theory was that older children had set on him outside the school and beaten him up so badly that he suffered a broken arm, fractured cheekbone and two loose upper teeth. He crawled home in a terrible state. His father notified the police when he got back from work shortly afterwards. An ambulance took the boy to hospital.
The boy was an only child. His mother was in the Kleppur mental hospital when the incident took place. He lived with his father, who owned and ran an internet company, in a big and beautiful two-storey house with a commanding view of the city in Breidholt suburb. Naturally, the father was distressed after the assault and talked about taking vengeance on the boys who had hurt his son so horrifically. He insisted that Elínborg bring them to justice.
Elínborg might never have found out the truth had they not lived in a two-storey house with the boy's room upstairs.
'She identifies with it in a bad way,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'Elínborg has a boy the same age.'
'You shouldn't let that influence you too much,' Erlendur said vacantly.
'Says who?'
The peaceful atmosphere of the breakfast buffet was disturbed by a noise from the kitchen. All the guests looked up, then at each other. A loud-voiced man was ranting about something or other. Erlendur and Sigurdur Óli stood up and went into the kitchen. The voice belonged to the head chef who had caught Erlendur when he nibbled at the ox tongue. He was raging at a biotechnician who wanted to take a saliva sample from him.
'... and bugger off out of here with your bloody swabs!' the chef shouted at a woman of fifty who had a little sampling box open on the table. She went on insisting politely in spite of his fury, which did not soothe his temper. When he saw Erlendur and Sigurdur Óli his rage was redoubled.
'Are you mad?' he shouted. 'Do you think I was down there with Gulli putting a condom on his dick? Are you lot mental? Fucking idiots! No way. No bloody way. I don't give a monkey's what you say! You can stick me in jail and throw away the key but I'm not taking part in this bloody fiasco! Just get that straight! Fucking idiots!'
The chef strode out of the kitchen, swollen with righteous male indignation which was rather undermined, however, by his chimney-like white hat, and Erlendur began to smile. He looked at the biotechnician who smiled back and started to laugh. The tension in the kitchen eased. The cooks and waiters who had gathered round roared with laughter.
'You having trouble?' Erlendur asked the biotechnician.
'No, not at all,' she said. 'Everyone's very understanding really. He's the first one to make a scene about it'
She smiled, and Erlendur thought her smile was pretty. She was roughly the same height as him, with thick, blond hair, cut short, and was wearing a colourful knitted cardigan buttoned down the front. Under the cardigan was a white blouse. She was wearing jeans and elegant black leather shoes.
'My name's Erlendur,' he said, almost instinctively, and held out his hand.
She became a little flustered.
'Yes,' she said, shaking his hand. 'I'm Valgerdur.'
'Valgerdur?' he repeated. He did not see a wedding ring.
Erlendur's mobile phone rang in his pocket.
'Excuse me,' he said, answering the phone. He heard an old, familiar voice asking for him.
'Is that you?' the voice asked.
'Yes, it's me,' Erlendur said.
'I'll never get the hang of these mobile phones,' the voice said. 'Where are you? Are you at the hotel? Maybe you're rushing off somewhere. Or in a lift.'
'I'm at the hotel.' Erlendur put his hand over the mouthpiece and asked Valgerdur to wait a moment, then went back into the dining room and out to the lobby. It was Marion Briem on the phone.
'Are you sleeping at the hotel?' Marion asked. 'Is something wrong? Why don't you go home?'
Marion Briem had worked for the old Police Investigation Department when that institution was still around, and had been Erlendur's mentor. Was already there when Erlendur joined and had taught him the detective's craft. Marion sometimes phoned Erlendur and complained that he never visited. Erlendur had never really liked his former boss and felt no particular urge to reappraise his feelings in Marion's old age. Perhaps because they were too similar. Perhaps because in Marion he saw his own future and wanted to avoid it. Marion lived a lonely life and hated being old.
'Why are you phoning?' Erlendur asked.
'Some people still keep me in the picture, even if you don't,' Marion said.
Erlendur was about to put a swift end to the conversation, but stopped himself. Marion had assisted him before, without being asked. He mustn't be rude.
'Can I help you with anything?' Erlendur asked.
'Give me the man's name. I might find something you've overlooked.'
'You never give up.'
I'm bored,' Marion said. 'You can't imagine how bored I am. I retired almost ten years ago and I can tell you, every day in this hell is like an eternity. Like a thousand years, every single day.'
'There are plenty of things for senior citizens to do,' Erlendur said. 'Have you tried bingo?'
'Bingo!' Marion roared.
Erlendur passed on Gudlaugur's name. He briefed Marion on the case and then said goodbye. His phone rang almost immediately afterwards.
'Yes,' Erlendur said.
'We found a note in the man's room,' a voice said over the phone. It was the head of forensics.
'A note?'
'It says: Henry 18.30.'
'Henry? Wait a minute, when did the girl find Santa?'
'It was about seven.'
'So this Henry could have been in his room when he was killed?'
'I don't know. And there's another thing.'
'Go on.'
'Santa could have owned the condom himself. There was a packet of them in the pocket of his doorman's uniform. It's a packet of ten and three are missing.'
'Anything else?'
'No, just a wallet with a five-hundred-króna note, an old ID card and a supermarket receipt dated the day before yesterday. Oh yes, and a key ring with two keys on it.'
'What sort of keys?'
'One looks like a house key, but the other could be to a locker or something like that. It looks much smaller.'
They said goodbye and Erlendur looked around for the biotechnician, but she was gone.
Two guests at the hotel were named Henry. Henry Bartlet, American, and Henry Wapshott, British. The latter did not answer when his room was dialled, but Bartlet was in and showed surprise when it emerged that the Icelandic police wanted to talk to him. The hotel manager's story about the old man's heart attack had clearly got around.
Erlendur took Sigurdur Óli with him to meet Henry Bartlet; Sigurdur Óli had studied criminology in the US and was rather proud of the fact. He spoke the language like a native and although Erlendur had a particular dislike for the American drawl, he put up with it.
On the way up to Bartlet's floor, Sigurdur Óli told Erlendur that they had talked to most of the hotel employees who were on duty when Gudlaugur was attacked. All had alibis and named people to corroborate their stories.
Bartlet was about thirty, a stockbroker from Colorado. He and his wife had seen a programme about Iceland on American breakfast television some years before and were enchanted by the dramatic scenery and the Blue Lagoon – they had since been there three times. They had decided to make a dream come true and spend Christmas and the New Year in the distant land of winter. The beautiful landscape enthralled them, but they found the prices exorbitant at the restaurants and bars in the city.
Sigurdur Óli nodded. To him, America was paradise on earth. He was impressed on meeting the couple and discussing baseball and American Christmas preparations with them, until Erlendur had had enough and gave him a prod.
Sigurdur Óli explained the death of the doorman and told them about the note in his room. Mr and Mrs Henry Bartlet stared at the detectives as if they had suddenly been transported to a different planet.
'You didn't know the doorman, did you?' Sigurdur Óli said when he saw their expressions of astonishment.
'A murder?' Henry groaned. At this hotel?'
'Oh my God,' his wife said and sat down on the double bed.
Sigurdur Óli decided not to mention the condom. He explained how the note implied that Gudlaugur had arranged to meet a man called Henry, but they did not know what day, whether the meeting had taken place or whether it was supposed to be after two days, a week, ten days.
Henry Bartlet and his wife flatly denied all knowledge of the doorman. They hadn't even noticed him when they arrived at the hotel four days before. Erlendur and Sigurdur Óli's questions had clearly upset them.
'Jesus,' Henry said. 'A murder!'
'You have murders in Iceland?' his wife – Cindy, she had told Sigurdur Óli her name when they greeted each other – asked, glancing over at the Icelandair brochure on the bedside table.
'Rarely? he said, trying to smile.
'This Henry character is not necessarily a guest at the hotel,' Sigurdur Óli said while they waited for the lift back down. 'He doesn't even have to be a foreigner. There are Icelanders by the name of Henry.'

6

Sigurdur Óli had located the former hotel manager, so he said goodbye to Erlendur when they got to the lobby and went off to meet him. Erlendur asked for the head of reception but he had still not turned up for work and had not phoned in. Henry Wapshott had left the key card to his room at reception early that morning without anyone noticing him. He had spent almost a week at the hotel and was expected to stay for two more days. Erlendur asked to be notified as soon as Wapshott reappeared.
The hotel manager plodded past Erlendur.
'I hope you're not disturbing my guests,' he said.
Erlendur took him to one side.
'What are the rules about prostitution at this hotel?' Erlendur asked straight out as they stood next to the Christmas tree in the lobby.
'Prostitution? What are you talking about?' The hotel manager heaved a deep sigh and wiped his neck with a scruffy handkerchief.
Erlendur looked at him in anticipation.
'Don't you go mixing up any bloody nonsense in all this,' the manager said.
'Was the doorman involved with tarts?'
'Come off it,' the manager said. 'There are no tar— no prostitutes at this hotel.'
'There are prostitutes at all hotels.'
'Really?' the manager said. 'Are you talking from experience?'
Erlendur didn't answer him.
'Are you saying that the doorman was a pimp?' the manager said in a shocked tone. 'I've never heard such rubbish in my life. This isn't a strip joint. This is one of the largest hotels in Reykjavík!'
'No women in the bars or lobby who stalk the men? Go up to their rooms with them?'
The manager hesitated. He acted as though he wanted to avoid antagonising Erlendur.
'This is a big hotel,' he said eventually. 'We can't keep an eye on everything that goes on. If it's straightforward prostitution and there's no question about it, we try to prevent it, but it's a difficult matter to deal with. Otherwise the guests are free to do what they like in their rooms.'
'Tourists and businessmen, regional people, isn't that how you described the guests?'
'Yes, and much more besides, of course. But this isn't a doss-house. It's a quality establishment and as a rule the guests can easily afford the accommodation. Nothing smutty goes on here and for God's sake don't go spreading that kind of rumour around. The competition is tough enough as it is; it's terrible to shake off a murder.'
The hotel manager paused.
'Are you going to continue sleeping at this hotel?' he asked. 'Isn't that highly irregular?'
'The only thing that's irregular is the dead Santa Claus in your basement' Erlendur smiled.
He saw the biotechnician from the kitchen leaving the bar on the ground floor with her sampling kit in her hand. With a nod to the manager he walked over to her. She had her back to him and was walking towards the cloakroom by the side door.
'How's it going?' Erlendur asked.
She turned and recognised him at once, but kept walking.
'Is it you who's in charge of the investigation?' she asked, going into the cloakroom where she took a coat from a hanger. She asked Erlendur to hold her sampling kit.
'They let me tag along,' Erlendur said.
'Not everyone was pleased with the idea of saliva samples,' she said, 'and I don't just mean the chef?
'Above all we were eliminating the staff from our enquiries, I thought you were told to give that explanation.'
'Didn't work. Got any others?'
"That's an old Icelandic name, Valgerdur, isn't it?' Erlendur said, without answering her question. She smiled.
'So you're not allowed to talk about the investigation?'
'No.'
'Do you mind? Valgerdur being an old name, I mean?'
'Me? No, I...' Erlendur stammered.
'Was there anything in particular?' Valgerdur said, reaching out for her bag. She smiled at this man standing in front of her in a cardigan buttoned up under a tattered jacket with worn elbows, looking at her with sorrowful eyes. They were of a similar age, but she looked ten years younger.
Without completely realising it, Erlendur blurted it out. There was something about this woman.
And he saw no wedding ring.
'I was wondering if I could invite you to the buffet here tonight, it's delicious.'
He said this without knowing a thing about her, as if he had no chance of a reply in the affirmative, but he said it all the same and now he waited, thinking to himself that she would probably start laughing, was probably married with four children, a big house and a summer chalet, confirmation parties and graduation parties and had married off her oldest child and was waiting to grow old in peace with her beloved husband.
'Thank you,' she said. 'It's nice of you to ask. But ... unfortunately. I can't. Thanks all the same.'
She took her sampling kit from him, hesitated for a moment and looked at him, then walked away and out of the hotel. Erlendur was left behind in the cloakroom, half stunned. He hadn't asked a woman out for years. His mobile starting ringing in his jacket pocket and he eventually took it out, absent-mindedly, and answered. It was Elínborg.
'He's entering the courtroom,' she almost whispered into the telephone.
'Pardon?' Erlendur said.
"The father, he's coming in with his two lawyers. That's the minimum it will take to whitewash him.'
'Is anyone there?' Erlendur asked.
'Very few. It looks like the boy's mother's family, and the press are here too.'
'How's he looking?'
'Unruffled as usual, in a suit and tie like he's going out to dinner. He doesn't have a shred of conscience.'
'Not true,' Erlendur said. 'He definitely has a conscience.'
Erlendur had gone to the hospital with Elínborg to talk to the boy as soon as the doctors gave permission. By then he had undergone surgery and was in a ward with other children. There were children's drawings around the walls, toys in their beds, parents by their bedsides, tired after sleepless nights, endlessly worried about their children.
Elínborg sat down beside him. The bandaging around the boy's head left little of his face visible apart from his mouth and his eyes, which looked full of suspicion at the police officers. His arm was in a plaster cast, suspended by a small hook. The dressings after his operation were hidden by his quilt. They had managed to save his spleen. The doctor said they could talk to the boy, but whether the boy would talk to them was a different matter.
Elínborg started by talking about herself, who she was and what she did in the police, and how she wanted to catch the people who did this to him. Erlendur stood at a distance, watching. The boy stared at Elínborg. She knew that she was only supposed to talk to him in the presence of one of his parents. Elínborg and Erlendur had arranged to meet the father at the hospital but half an hour had gone by and he hadn't turned up.
'Who was it?' Elínborg said at last when she thought it was time to get to the point.
The boy looked at her but said nothing.
'Who did this to you? It's all right to tell me. They won't attack you again. I promise.'
The boy cast a glance at Erlendur.
'Was it the boys from your school?' Elínborg asked. 'The big boys. We've found out that two of the suspects are known troublemakers. They've beaten up boys like you before, but not so violently. They say they didn't do anything to you but we know they were at the school at the time you were attacked.'
Silently, the boy watched Elínborg tell her story. She had gone to the school and talked to the headmaster and teachers, then gone to the homes of the two boys to find out about their backgrounds, where she heard them deny doing anything to him. The father of one of them was in prison.
The paediatrician entered the room. He told them that the boy needed to rest and they would have to come back later. Elínborg nodded and they took their leave.
Erlendur also accompanied Elínborg to meet the boys father at his house later the same day. The father's explanation for not being able to go to the hospital was that he had to take part in an important conference call with his colleagues in Germany and the US. 'It came up unexpectedly,' he told them. When he finally managed to get away they had left the hospital.
While he was saying this the winter sun started to shine in through the lounge window, illuminating the marble floor and the carpet on the stairs. Elínborg was standing and listening when she noticed the stain on the stair carpet and another on the stair above it.
Little stains, almost invisible had it not been for the winter sun pouring in.
Stains that had been almost cleansed from the carpet and on first impression seemed to be part of the texture of the material.
Stains that turned out to be little footprints.
'Are you there?' Elínborg said over the telephone. 'Erlendur? Are you there?'
Erlendur came back to his senses.
'Let me know when he leaves,' he said, and they rang off.
The head waiter at the hotel was aged about forty, thin as a rake, wearing a black suit and shiny black patent leather shoes. He was in an alcove off the dining room, checking the reservations for that evening. When Erlendur introduced himself and asked whether he might disturb him for a moment, the head waiter looked up from his dogeared reservations book to reveal a thin black moustache, dark stubble that he obviously needed to shave twice a day, a brownish complexion and brown eyes.
'I didn't know Gulli in the slightest,' said the man, whose name was Rósant. 'Terrible what happened to him. Are you getting anywhere?'
'Nowhere at all,' Erlendur said curtly. His mind was on the biotechnician and the father who beat up his son, and he was thinking about his daughter, Eva Lind, who said she could not hold out any longer. Although he knew what that meant, he hoped he was wrong. 'Busy around Christmas,' Erlendur said, 'aren't you?'
'We're trying to make the most of the season. Trying to fill the dining room three times for each buffet, which can be very difficult because some people think that when they've paid it's like a take-away. The murder in the basement doesn't help.'
'No,' Erlendur said without any interest. 'So you haven't been working here long if you didn't know Gudlaugur.'
'Two years. But I didn't have much contact with him.'
'Who do you think knew him best among the hotel staff?'
'I just don't know,' the head waiter said, stroking his black moustache with his index finger. 'I don't know anything about the man. The cleaners, maybe. When do we hear about the saliva tests?'
'Hear what?'
'Who was with him. Isn't it a DNA test?'
'Yes,' Erlendur said.
'Do you have to send it abroad?'
Erlendur nodded.
'Do you know whether anyone visited him in the basement? People from outside the hotel?'
'There's so much traffic here. Hotels are like that. People are like ants, in and out, up and down, never a moment's peace. At catering college we were told that a hotel isn't a building or rooms or service, but people. A hotel's just people. Nothing else. Our job is to make them feel good. Feel at home. Hotels are like that.'
'I'll try to remember that,' Erlendur said, and thanked him.
He checked whether Henry Wapshott had returned to the hotel, but he was still out. However, the head of reception was back at work and he greeted Erlendur. Yet another coach had pulled up outside, full of tourists, who swarmed into the lobby, and he gave Erlendur an awkward smile and shrugged, as if it was not his fault they couldn't talk and their business would have to wait.

7

Gudlaugur Egilsson joined the hotel in 1982, at the age of twenty-eight. He had held various jobs before, most recently as a nightwatchman at the Ministry for Foreign Affairs. When it was decided to employ a full-time doorman at the hotel, he got the job. Tourism was booming then. The hotel had expanded and was taking on more staff. The previous hotel manager couldn't remember exactly why Gudlaugur was selected, but he didn't recall there having been many applicants.
He made a good impression on the hotel manager. With his gentlemanly manner, polite and service-minded, he turned out to be a fine employee. He had no family, neither a wife nor children, which caused the manager some concern, because family men often proved to be more loyal. In other respects Gudlaugur did not say much about himself and his past.
Shortly after joining the staff he went to see the manager and asked if there was a room at the hotel for him to use while he was finding himself a new place to live. After losing his room at short notice he was on the street. He pointed out that there was a little room at the far end of the basement corridor where he could stay until he found a place of his own. They went down to inspect the room. All kinds of rubbish had been stored away in it and Gudlaugur said he knew of a place where it could all be kept, although most of it deserved to be thrown out anyway.
So in the end Gudlaugur, then a doorman and later a Santa Claus, moved into the little room where he would stay for the rest of his life. The hotel manager thought he would be there for a couple of weeks at the very most. Gudlaugur spoke in those terms and the room was not the sort of place anyone would want to live permanently. But Gudlaugur demurred about finding himself proper living quarters and soon it was taken for granted that he lived at the hotel, especially after his job developed more towards caretaking than being a straightforward doorman. As time wore on it was seen as a convenient arrangement to have him on call round the clock, lest something went wrong and a handyman was needed.
'Shortly after Gudlaugur moved into the room, the old manager left,' said Sigurdur Óli, who was up in Erlendur's room describing his meeting. It was well into the afternoon and beginning to get dark.
'Do you know why?' Erlendur asked. He was stretched out on the bed, staring up at the ceiling. 'The hotel had just been expanded, loads of new staff recruited and he leaves shortly afterwards. Don't you find that strange?'
'I didn't go into that. I'll find out what he says if you think it's of the slightest importance. He didn't know Gudlaugur had played Santa Claus. That started after his day and he was really shocked to hear that he was found murdered in the basement.'
Sigurdur Óli looked around the bare room.
'Are you going to spend Christmas here?'
Erlendur didn't answer.
'Why don't you get yourself off home?'
Silence.
'The invitation still stands'
'Thank you, and give my regards to Bergthóra,' Erlendur said, deep in thought.
'What's the name of the game anyway?'
'It's none of your business, if the game ... actually has a name.'
'I'm off home, anyway,' Sigurdur Óli said.
'How's it going with starting a family?'
'Not too well.'
'Is it your problem or just a coincidence between the two of you?'
'I don't know. We haven't had ourselves checked. But Bergthóra's started talking about it'
'Do you want children anyway?'
'Yes. I don't know. I don't know what I want'
'What's the time?'
'Just gone half past six.'
'Go home,' Erlendur said. 'I'm going to check out our other Henry'
Henry Wapshott had returned to the hotel but was not in his room. Erlendur had reception call him, went up to the floor he was staying on and knocked on his door, but met no response. He wondered whether to get the manager to open the room for him, but first he would need a search warrant from a magistrate, which could take well into the night, besides which it was altogether uncertain whether Henry Wapshott was in fact the Henry whom Gudlaugur was supposed to meet at 18.30.
Erlendur was standing in the corridor weighing up the options when a man probably in his early sixties came around the corner and walked in his direction. He was wearing a shabby tweed jacket, khaki trousers and a blue shirt with a bright red tie; he was balding, with his dark hair fondly combed right across the patch.
'Is it you?' he asked in English when he reached Erlendur. 'I was told someone was asking after me. An Icelander. Are you a collector? Did you want to see me?'
'Is your name Wapshott?' Erlendur asked. 'Henry Wapshott?' His English was not good. These days he could understand the language reasonably well, but spoke it badly. Global crime had forced the police force to organise special English courses, which Erlendur had attended and enjoyed. He was beginning to read books in English.
'My name's Henry Wapshott,' the man said. 'What do you want to see me about?'
'Maybe we shouldn't stand out here in the corridor,' Erlendur said. 'Can we go in your room? Or...?'
Wapshott looked at the door, then back at Erlendur.
'Maybe we should go down to the lobby,' he said. 'What is it you want to see me about? Who are you?'
'Let's go downstairs,' Erlendur said.
Hesitantly, Henry Wapshott followed him to the lift. When they were down in the lobby Erlendur went to the smokers' table and seats to one side of the dining room, and they sat down. A waitress appeared at once. Guests were beginning to sit down to the buffet, which Erlendur found no less tempting than the day before. They ordered coffee.
'It's very odd,' Wapshott said. 'I was supposed to meet someone at precisely this spot half an hour ago, but the man never came. I didn't get any message from him, and then you're standing right outside my door and you bring me down here.'
'What man were you going to meet?'
'He's an Icelander. Works at this held. His name's Gudlaugur.'
'And you were going to meet him here at half past six today?'
'Right,' Wapshott said. 'What...? Who are you?'
Erlendur told him he was from the police, described Gudlaugur's death and how they had found a note in his room referring to a meeting with a man called Henry, who was clearly him. The police wanted to know why they were going to meet. Erlendur did not mention his suspicion that Wapshott may well have been in the room when Santa was murdered. He just mentioned that Gudlaugur had worked at the hotel for twenty years.
Wapshott stared at Erlendur while he gave this account, shaking his head in disbelief as if he failed to grasp the full implications of what he was being told.
'Is he dead?'
'Yes.'
'Murdered?'
'Yes.'
'Oh my God,' Wapshott groaned.
'How did you know Gudlaugur?' Erlendur asked.
Wapshott seemed rather remote, so he repeated the question.
'I've known him for years,' Wapshott said eventually, smiling to reveal small, tobacco-stained teeth, some of the lower ones with black crests. Erlendur thought he must be a pipe smoker.
'When did you first meet?' Erlendur asked.
'We've never met,' Wapshott said. 'I've never seen him. I was going to meet him for the first time today. That's why I came to Iceland.'
'You came to Iceland to meet him?'
'Yes, among other things.'
'So how did you know him? If you never met, what kind of relationship did you have?'
'There was no relationship,' Wapshott said.
'I don't understand.'
'There's never been any "relationship",' Wapshott repeated, putting the final word in quotation marks with his fingers.
'What then?' Erlendur asked.
'Only one-sided worship,' Wapshott said. 'On my part.'
Erlendur asked him to repeat the last words. He could not understand how this man, who had come all the way from England and had never met Gudlaugur, could worship him. A hotel doorman. A man who lived in a dingy little room in a hotel basement and was found dead with his trousers round his ankles and a knife wound through his heart. One-sided worship of a man who played Father Christmas at children's parties.
'I don't know what you're talking about,' Erlendur said. Then he remembered that, in the corridor upstairs, Wapshott had asked him if he was a collector. 'Why did you want to know if I was a collector?' he asked. 'What did you mean?'
'I thought you were a record collector,' Wapshott said. 'Like me.'
'What kind of record collector? Records? You mean ...?'
'I collect old records,' Wapshott said. 'Old gramophone records. LPs, EPs, singles. That's how I know Gudlaugur. I was going to meet him here just now and was looking forward to it, so you must understand it's quite a shock for me to hear that he's dead. Murdered! Who could have wanted to murder him?'
His surprise seemed genuine.
'Did you meet him last night maybe?' Erlendur asked.
At first, Wapshott didn't realise what Erlendur meant, until it dawned on him and he stared at the detective.
'Are you implying... do you think I'm lying to you? Am I ...? Are you saying I'm a suspect? Do you think I had something to do with his death?'
Erlendur watched him, saying nothing.
'How absurd!' Wapshott raised his voice. 'I've been looking forward to meeting that man for a long time. For years. You can't be serious."
'Where were you around this time last night?' Erlendur asked.
'In town,' Wapshott said. 'I was in town. I was at a collectors' shop on the high street, then I had dinner at an Indian restaurant not far away.'
'You've been at the hotel for a few days. Why didn't you meet Gudlaugur before?'
'But... weren't you just saying that he's dead? What do you mean?'
'Didn't you want to meet him as soon as you checked in? You looked forward to meeting him, you said. Why did you wait so long?'
'He decided the time and venue. Oh my God, what have I got myself into?'
'How did you contact him? And what did you mean by "one-sided worship"?'
Henry Wapshott looked at him.
'I mean—' Wapshott began, but Erlendur didn't allow him to complete the sentence.
'Did you know he worked at this hotel?'
'Yes.'
'How?'
'I'd found out. I make a point of researching my subjects. For collection purposes'
'And that's why you stayed at this hotel?'
'Yes.'
'Were you buying records from him?' Erlendur continued. 'Is that how you knew each other? Two collectors, the same interest?'
'As I said, I didn't know him, but I was going to meet him in person.'
'What do you mean?'
'You haven't got the faintest idea who he was, have you?' Wapshott said, surprised that Erlendur had never heard of Gudlaugur Egilsson.
'He was a caretaker or a doorman and a Father Christmas,' Erlendur said. 'Is there anything else I need to know?'
'Do you know my specialist field?' Wapshott replied. 'I'm not sure how much you know about collecting in general or record collecting in particular, but most collectors specialise in a certain field. People can be rather eccentric about it. It's incredible what people can be bothered to collect. I've heard of a man who has sick bags from every airline in the world. I also know a woman who collects hair from Barbie dolls'
Wapshott looked at Erlendur.
'Do you know what I specialise in?'
Erlendur shook his head. He was not completely convinced that he had understood the part about airline sick bags. And what was all that about Barbie dolls?
'I specialise in boys' choirs.'
'Boys' choirs?'
'Not only boys' choirs. My special interest is choirboys.'
Erlendur hesitated, unsure whether he had misunderstood.
'Choirboys?'
'Yes.'
'You collect records of choirboys?'
'I do. Of course I collect other records, but choirboys are – how should I put it? – my passion.'
'How does Gudlaugur fit in with all this?'
Henry Wapshott smiled. He stretched out for a black leather briefcase that he had with him. Opening it, he took out the sleeve of a 45 single.
He took his glasses out of his breast pocket and Erlendur noticed that he dropped a white piece of paper onto the floor. Erlendur reached for it and saw the name Brenner's printed on it in green.
'Thank you. A serviette from a hotel in Germany? Wapshott said. 'Collecting is an obsession,' he added apologetically.
Erlendur nodded.
'I was going to ask him to autograph this sleeve for me,' Wapshott said, handing it to Erlendur.
On the front of the sleeve was the name 'GUDLAUGUR EGILSSON' in a little arc of golden letters, with a black-and-white photograph of a young boy, hardly more than twelve years old, slightly freckled, his hair carefully smoothed down, who smiled at Erlendur.
'He had a marvellously sensitive voice,' Wapshott said. "Then along comes puberty and ...' He shrugged in resignation. There was a hint of sadness and regret in his tone. 'I'm astonished you haven't heard of him or don't know who he was, if you're investigating his death. He must have been a household name in his day. According to my sources, he could be described as a well-known child star.'
Erlendur looked up from the album sleeve, at Wapshott.
A child star?'
'He performed on two records, singing solo and with church choirs. He must have been quite a name in this country. In his day.'
'A child star,' Erlendur repeated. 'You mean like Shirley Temple? That kind of child star?'
'Probably, by your standards, I mean here in Iceland, a small country off the beaten track. He must have been pretty famous even if everyone seems to have forgotten him now. Shirley Temple was of course ...'
'The Little Princess,' Erlendur muttered to himself.
'Pardon?'
'I didn't know he was a child star.'
'It was ages ago.'
'And? He made records?'
'Yes.'
'That you collect?'
'I'm trying to acquire copies. I specialise in choirboys like him. He was a unique boy soprano.'
'Choirboy?' Erlendur said almost to himself. He recalled the poster of The Little Princess and was about to ask Wapshott in more detail about the child star Gudlaugur, when someone disturbed him.
'So here you are,' Erlendur heard someone say above him. Valgerdur was standing behind him, smiling. She no longer carried her sampling kit. She was wearing a thin, black, knee-length leather coat with a beautiful red sweater underneath, and she had put on her make-up so carefully that it hardly showed. 'Does the invitation still stand?' she asked.
Erlendur leaped to his feet. But Wapshott had already stood up.
'Sorry,' Erlendur said, 'I didn't realise ... Of course.' He smiled. 'Of course.'

8

They moved to the bar next to the dining room when they had eaten their fill of the buffet and drunk coffee afterwards. Erlendur bought them drinks and they sat down at a booth well inside the bar. She said she couldn't stay long, from which Erlendur read polite caution. Not that he was planning to invite her up to his room – the thought didn't even cross his mind and she knew that – but he felt a sense of insecurity about her and the same kind of barriers he encountered from people who were sent to him for interrogation. Perhaps she didn't know herself what she was doing.
Talking to a detective intrigued her and she wanted to know everything about his job, the crimes and how he went about catching criminals. Erlendur told her that it was mostly boring administrative work.
'But crimes have become more vicious,' she said. 'You read it in the papers. Nastier crimes'
'I don't know,' Erlendur said. 'Crimes are always nasty'
'You're always hearing stories about the drug world; debt collectors attacking kids who owe money for their dope, and if the kids can't pay, their families are attacked instead.'
'Yes,' said Erlendur, who sometimes worried about Eva Lind for precisely that reason. 'It's quite a changed world. More brutal.'
They fell silent.
Erlendur tried to find a topic of conversation but he had no idea how to approach women. The ones he associated with could not prepare him for what might be called a romantic evening like this. He and Elínborg were good friends and colleagues, and there was a fondness between them that had been formed by years of collaboration and shared experience. Eva Lind was his child and a constant source of worry. Halldora was the woman he married a whole generation before, then divorced and whose hatred he earned for doing so. These were the only women in his life apart from the occasional one-night stands that never brought anything more than disappointment and awkwardness.
'What about you?' he asked. 'Why did you change your mind?'
'I don't know,' she said. 'I haven't had an invitation like that for ages. What made you think to ask me out?'
'No idea. It slipped out over the buffet. I haven't done this for a long time either.'
They both smiled.
He told her about Eva Lind and his son, Sindri Snaer, and she told him she had two sons, also both grown up. He had the feeling that she didn't want to talk too much about herself and her circumstances, and he liked that. He didn't want to poke his nose into her life.
'Are you getting anywhere with the man who was murdered?'
'No, not really. The man I was talking to in the lobby...'
'Did I interrupt you? I didn't know he was connected with the investigation.'
'That's all right,' Erlendur said. 'He collects records, vinyl that is, and it turns out that the man in the basement was a child star. Years ago.'
'A child star?'
'He made records.'
'I can imagine that's difficult, being a child star,' Valgerdur said. 'Just a kid with all kinds of dreams and expectations that rarely come to anything. What do you think happens after that?'
'You shut yourself up in a basement room and hope no one remembers you.'
'You think so?'
'I don't know. Someone might remember him.'
'Do you think that's connected with his murder?'
'What?'
'Being a child star.'
Erlendur tried to say as little as possible about the investigation without appearing standoffish. He hadn't had time to ponder this question and didn't know whether it made any difference.
'We don't know yet,' he said. 'But we'll find out'
They stopped talking.
'So you weren't a child star,' Valgerdur then said.
'No,' Erlendur said. 'Devoid of talent in all fields.'
'Same here,' Valgerdur said. 'I still draw like a three-year-old.'
'What do you do when you're not at work?' she asked after a short silence.
Unprepared for this question, Erlendur dithered until she began to smile.
'I didn't mean to invade your privacy,' she said when he gave no answer.
'No, it's... I'm not accustomed to talking about myself? Erlendur said.
He could not claim to play golf or any other sport. At one time he had been interested in boxing, but that had waned. He never went to the cinema and rarely watched television. Travelled alone around Iceland in the summer, but had done less of that in recent years. What did he do when he wasn't at work? He didn't know the answer himself. Most of the time he was just on his own.
'I read a lot,' he said suddenly.
'And what do you read?' she asked.
Once more he hesitated, and she smiled again.
'Is it that difficult?' she said.
'About deaths and ordeals,' he said. 'Death in the mountains. People who freeze to death outdoors. There are whole series of books about that. Used to be popular, once.'
'Deaths and ordeals?' she said.
'And plenty of other things, of course. I read a lot. History. Local history. Chronicles.'
'Everything that's old and gone,' she said.
He nodded.
'But why deaths? People who freeze to death? Isn't that awful to read?'
Erlendur smiled to himself.
'You ought to be in the police force,' he said.
In that short part of an evening she had penetrated a place in his mind that was carefully fenced off, even to himself. He did not want to talk about it. Eva Lind knew about it but was not entirely familiar with it and did not link it in particular with his interest in accounts of deaths. He sat in silence for a long time.
'It comes with age,' he said finally, regretting the lie immediately. 'What about you? What do you do when you've finished sticking cotton wool buds in people's mouths?'
He tried to rewind and make a joke but the bond between them had been tarnished and it was his fault.
'I really haven't had time for anything other than work,' she said, realising that she had unwittingly struck a nerve. She became awkward and he sensed that.
'I think we ought to do this again soon,' he said to wind things up. The lie was too much for him.
'Definitely,' she said. 'To tell you the truth I was very hesitant but I don't regret it. I want you to know that.'
'Nor do I,' he said.
'Good,' she said. 'Thank you for everything. Thanks for the Drambuie,' she added as she finished her liqueur. He had also ordered a Drambuie for himself to keep her company, but hadn't touched it.
Erlendur lay stretched out on the bed in his hotel room looking up at the ceiling. It was still cold in the room and he was wearing his clothes. Outside, it was snowing. It was a soft, warm and pretty snow that fell gently to the ground and melted instantaneously. Not cold, hard and merciless like the snow that caused death and destruction.
'What are those stains?' Elínborg asked the father.
'Stains?' he said. 'What stains?'
'On the carpet,' Erlendur said. He and Elínborg had just returned from seeing the boy in hospital. The winter sun lit up the stair carpet that led to the floor where the boy's room was.
'I don't see any stains,' the father said, bending down to scrutinise the carpet.
'They're quite clear in this light,' Elínborg said as she looked at the sun through the lounge window. The sun was low and pierced the eyes. To her, the creamy marble tiles on the floor looked as if they were aflame. Close by the stairway stood a beautiful drinks cabinet. It contained spirits, expensive liqueurs, red and white wines rested forward onto their necks in racks. There were two glass windows in the cabinet and Erlendur noticed a smudge on one of them. On the side of the cabinet facing the staircase, a little drip had been spilt, measuring roughly a centimetre and a half. Elínborg put her finger on the drip and it was sticky.
'Did anything happen by this cabinet?' Erlendur asked.
The father looked at him.
'What are you talking about?'
'It's like something's been splashed on it. You've cleaned it recently.'
'No,' the father said. 'Not recently.'
'Those marks on the staircase,' Elínborg said. 'They look like a child's footprints to me.'
'I can't see any footprints on the staircase,' the father said. 'Just now you were talking about stains. Now they're footprints. What are you implying?'
'Were you at home when your son was assaulted?'
The father said nothing.
'The attack took place at the school,' Elínborg went on. 'School was over for the day but he was playing football and when he set off home they attacked him. That's what we think happened. He hasn't been able to talk to you, nor to us. I don't think he wants to. Doesn't dare. Maybe because the boys said they would kill him if he told the police. Maybe because someone else said they would kill him if he talked to us.'
'Where's all this leading?'
'Why did you come home early from work that day? You came home around noon. He crawled home and up to his room, and shortly afterwards you arrived and called the police and an ambulance.'
Elínborg had already been wondering what the father was doing at home in the middle of a weekday, but had not asked him until now.
'No one saw him on his way home from school,' Erlendur said.
'You're not implying that I attacked ... that I attacked my own boy like that? Surely you're not implying that?'
'Do you mind if we take a sample from the carpet?'
'I think you ought to get out of here,' the father said.
'I'm not implying anything,' Erlendur said. 'Eventually the boy will say what happened. Maybe not now and maybe not after a week or a month, maybe not after one year, but he will in the end.'
'Out,' the father said, enraged and indignant by now. 'Don't you dare ... don't you dare start... You leave. Get out. Out!'
Elínborg went straight to the hospital and into the children's ward. The boy was asleep in his bed with his arm suspended from the hook. She sat down beside him and waited for him to wake up. After she had stayed by the bedside for fifteen minutes the boy stirred and noticed the tired-looking policewoman, but the sad-eyed man in the woollen cardigan who had been with her earlier that day was nowhere to be seen now. Their eyes met and Elínborg did her utmost to smile.
'Was it your dad?'
She went back to the father's house when night had fallen, with a search warrant and forensics experts. They examined the marks on the carpet. They examined the marble floor and the drinks cabinet. They took samples. They swept up tiny grains from the marble. They plucked at the spilt drop on the cabinet. They went upstairs to the boy's room and took samples from the head of his bed. They went to the laundry room and looked at the cloths and towels. They examined the dirty laundry. They opened the vacuum cleaner. They took samples from the broom. They went out to the dustbin and rummaged around in the rubbish. They found a pair of the boy's socks in the bin.
The father was standing in the kitchen. He dialled a lawyer, his friend, as soon as the forensics team appeared. The lawyer came round promptly and looked at the warrant from the magistrate. He advised his client not to talk to the police.
Erlendur and Elínborg watched the forensics team at work. Elínborg glared at the father, who shook his head and looked away.
'I don't understand what you want,' he said. 'I don't get it.'
The boy had not said it was his father. When Elínborg asked him, his only response was that his eyes filled with tears.
The head of forensics phoned two days later.
'It's about the stains on the stair carpet,' he said.
'Yes,' Elínborg said.
'Drambuie.'
'Drambuie? The liqueur?'
'There are traces of it all over the sitting room and a trail on the carpet up to the boy's room.
Erlendur was still staring at the ceiling when he heard a knock on the door. He got to his feet, opened the door and Eva Lind darted into his room. Erlendur looked along the corridor, then closed the door behind her.
'No one saw me,' Eva said. 'It would make things easier if you could be arsed to go home. I can't suss out what you're playing at.'
'I'll get myself home,' Erlendur said. 'Don't worry about that. What are you doing here? Do you need anything?'
'Do I need a special reason to want to see you?' Eva said. She sat down at the desk and took out a packet of cigarettes. She threw a plastic bag onto the floor and nodded towards it. 'I brought you some clothes," she said. 'If you plan to hang around at this hotel you'll need to change.'
'Thank you,' Erlendur said. He sat down on the bed facing her and borrowed a cigarette from her. Eva lit them both.
'It's nice to see you,' he said, exhaling.
'How's it going with Santa?'
'Bit by bit. What's new with you?'
'Nothing.'
'Have you seen your mother?'
'Yes. Same as usual. Nothing happens in her life. Work and television and sleep. Work, television, sleep. Work, television, sleep. Is that it? All that awaits you? Am I staying clean so I can slave away until I croak? And just look at you! Hanging round in a hotel room like a dickhead instead of getting your arse back home!'
Erlendur inhaled the smoke and blew it out through his nose.
'I didn't mean to—'
'No, I know,' Eva interrupted him.
'Are you giving in?' he said. 'When you came yesterday ...'
'I don't know if I can stand it.'
'Stand what?'
'This fucking life!'
They sat smoking, and the minutes passed.
'Do you sometimes think about the baby?' Erlendur asked at last. Eva was seven months' pregnant when she miscarried, and sank into a deep depression when she moved in with him after leaving hospital. Erlendur knew that she had nowhere near shaken it off. She blamed herself for the baby's death. The night that it happened she called him for help and he found her lying in her own blood outside the National Hospital after collapsing on her way to the maternity ward. She came within a hair's breadth of losing her life.
'This fucking life!' she said again, and stubbed out her cigarette on the desktop.
The telephone on the bedside table rang when Eva Lind had left and Erlendur had gone to bed. It was Marion Briem.
'Do you know what time it is?' Erlendur asked, looking at his watch. It was past midnight.
'No,' Marion said. 'I was thinking about the saliva.'
'The saliva on the condom?' Erlendur said, too lethargic to lose his temper.
'Of course they'll find it out for themselves, but it might not do any harm to mention Cortisol.'
'I've still got to talk to forensics, they'll surely tell us something about the Cortisol.'
'You can work a few things out from that. See what was going on in that basement room.'
'I know, Marion. Anything else?'
'I just wanted to remind you about the Cortisol.'
'Goodnight, Marion.'
'Goodnight.'
THIRD DAY

9

Erlendur, Sigurdur Óli and Elínborg held a meeting early the following morning. They sat at a little round table to one side of the dining room and had breakfast from the buffet. It had snowed during the night, then turned warmer and the streets were clear. The weathermen were forecasting a green Christmas. Long queues of cars built up at every junction and the city swarmed with people.
'This Wapshott,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'Who is he?'
Much ado about nothing, Erlendur thought to himself as he sipped his coffee and looked out of the window. Odd places, hotels. He found staying at a hotel a welcome change but it was accompanied by the strange experience of having someone go into his room when he was not in it to tidy everything up. In the morning he left his room and the next time he returned someone had been in and restored it to normal: made the bed, changed the towels, put fresh soap on the sink. He was aware of the presence of the person who put his room back in order but saw no one, did not know who tidied up his life.
When he went downstairs in the morning he asked reception not to have his room cleaned any more.
Wapshott was going to meet him again later that morning and tell him more about his record collecting and Gudlaugur Egilsson's singing career. They had shaken hands on parting when Valgerdur interrupted them the previous evening. Wapshott had stood to attention, waiting for Erlendur to introduce him to the woman, but when nothing of the sort happened he had held out his hand, introduced himself and bowed. Then he'd asked to be excused; he was tired and hungry and was going up to his room to deal with some business before dining and going to bed.
They did not see him come down to the dining room where they were eating, and talked about how he might have ordered a meal by room service. Valgerdur mentioned that he looked tired.
Erlendur had accompanied her to the cloakroom and helped her put on her smart leather coat, then walked with her to the revolving doors where they stood for a moment before she went out into the falling snow. When he lay on his bed, after Eva Lind had left, Valgerdur's smile accompanied him into sleep, along with the faint scent of perfume that lingered on his hand from when they had said their goodbyes.
'Erlendur?' Sigurdur Óli said. 'Hello! Wapshott, who is he?'
'All I know is that he's a British record collector,' Erlendur said, after telling them about his meeting with him. 'And he's leaving the hotel tomorrow. You ought to phone the UK and get some details on him. We're going to meet before noon and I'll get some more out of him.'
'A choirboy?' Elínborg said. 'Who could have wanted to kill a choirboy?'
'Naturally, he wasn't a choirboy any longer,' Sigurdur Óli said.
'He was famous once,' Erlendur said. 'Released some records that are clearly rare collectors' items today. Henry Wapshott comes up here from the UK on account of them, on account of him. He specialises in choirboys and boys' choirs from all over the world.'
"The only one I've heard of is the Vienna Boys' Choir,' Sigurdur Óli said.
'Specialises in choirboys' Elínborg said. 'What kind of man collects records of choirboys? Shouldn't we give that some thought? Isn't there something odd about that?'
Erlendur and Sigurdur Óli looked at her.
'What do you mean?' Erlendur asked.
'What?' Elínborg's expression turned to one of astonishment.
'Do you think there's something odd about collecting records?'
'Not records, but choirboys,' Elínborg said. 'Recordings of choirboys. There's a huge difference there, I reckon. Don't you see anything pervy about that?' She looked at them both in turn.
'I haven't got a dirty mind like you,' Sigurdur Óli said, looking at Erlendur.
'Dirty mind! Did I imagine seeing Santa Claus with his trousers down in a little basement room and a condom on his willy? Did I need a dirty mind for that? Then a man who worships Santa, but only when he was twelve years old or so, just so happens to be staying at the same hotel and comes over from the UK to meet him? Are you two plugged in?'
'Are you putting this in a sexual context?' Erlendur asked.
Elínborg rolled her eyes.
'You're like a couple of monks!'
'He's just a record collector,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'As Erlendur said, some people collect airline sick bags. What's their sex life like, according to your theories?'
'I can't believe how blind you two are! Or frustrated. Why are men always so frustrated?'
'Oh, don't you start,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'Why do women always talk about how frustrated men are? As if women aren't frustrated with all their stuff, "Oh, I can't find my lipstick"...'
'Blind, frustrated old monks,' Elínborg said.
'What does being a collector mean?' Erlendur asked. 'Why do people collect certain objects to have around them and why do they see one item as being more valuable than others?'
'Some items are more valuable than others,' Sigurdur Óli said.
'They must be looking for something unique,' Erlendur said. 'Something no one else has. Isn't that the ultimate goal? Owning a treasure that no one else in the whole wide world has?'
'Aren't they often pretty strange characters?' Elínborg said.
'Strange?'
'Loners. Aren't they? Weirdos?'
'You found some records in Gudlaugur's cupboard,' Erlendur said to her. 'What did you do with them? Did you look at them at all?'
'I just saw them in the cupboard,' Elínborg said. 'Didn't touch them and they're still there if you want to take a look.'
'How does a collector like Wapshott make contact with a man like Gudlaugur?' Elínborg continued. 'How did he hear about him? Are there intermediaries? What does he know about recordings of Icelandic choirboys in the 1960s? A boy soloist singing up here in Iceland more than thirty years ago?'
'Magazines?' Sigurdur Óli suggested. 'The Internet? Over the phone? Through other collectors?'
'Do we know anything else about Gudlaugur?' Erlendur asked.
'He had a sister,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'And a father who's still alive. They were informed of his death, of course. The sister identified him.'
'We should definitely take a saliva sample from Wapshott,' Elínborg said.
'Yes, I'll see to that,' Erlendur said.
Sigurdur Óli began gathering information about Henry Wapshott; Elínborg undertook to arrange a meeting with Gudlaugur's father and sister, and Erlendur headed down to the doorman's room in the basement. Walking past reception, he remembered that he still had to talk to the manager about his absence from work. He decided to do it later.
He found the records in Gudlaugur's cupboard. Two singles. One sleeve read: Gudlaugur sings Schubert's 'Ave Maria'. It was the same record that Henry Wapshott had shown him. The other showed the boy standing in front of a small choir. The choirmaster, a young man, stood to one side. Gudlaugur Egilsson sings solo was printed in large letters across the sleeve.
On the back was a brief account of the child prodigy.
Gudlaugur Egilsson has commanded much-deserved attention with Hafnarfjördur Children's Choir and this twelve-year-old singer definitely has a bright future ahead. On his second recording he sings with unique expression in his beautiful boy soprano under the direction of Gabriel Hermannsson, choirmaster of Hafnarfjördur Children's Choir. This record is a must for all lovers of good music. Gudlaugur Egilsson proves beyond all doubt that he is a singer in a class of his own. He is currently preparing for a tour of Scandinavia.
A child star, Erlendur thought as he looked at the film poster for The Little Princess with Shirley Temple. What are you doing here? he asked the poster. Why did he keep you?
He took out his mobile.
'Marion,' he said when the call was answered.
'Is that you, Erlendur?'
'Anything new?'
'Did you know that Gudlaugur made song recordings when he was a child?'
'I've just found that out,' Erlendur said.
'The record company went bankrupt about twenty years ago and there's not a trace of it left. A man by the name of Gunnar Hansson owned and ran it. The name was GH Records. He released a bit of hippy stuff but it all went down the plughole.'
'Do you know what happened to the stock?'
'The stock?' Marion Briem said.
'The records.'
'They must have gone towards paying off his debts. Isn't that usually the case? I spoke to his family, two sons. The company never released much and I drew a total blank at first when I asked about it. The sons hadn't heard it mentioned for decades. Gunnar died in the mid-eighties and all he left behind was a trail of debts.'
'There's a man staying here at the hotel who collects choral music, choirboys. He was planning to meet Gudlaugur but nothing came of it. I was wondering whether his records might be worth something. How can I find out?'
'Find some collectors and talk to them,' Marion said. 'Do you want me to?'
'Then there's another thing. Could you locate a man called Gabriel Hermannsson who was a choirmaster in Hafnarfjördur in the sixties? You're bound to find him in the phone directory if he's still alive. He may have taught Gudlaugur. I've got a record sleeve here, there's a photo of him and he looks to me as if he was in his twenties then. Of course, if he's dead then it stops there.'
'That's generally the rule.'
'What?'
'If you're dead, it stops.'
'Quite.' Erlendur hesitated. 'What are you talking about death for?'
'No reason.'
'Everything's all right, isn't it?'
'Thanks for throwing some morsels my way,' Marion said.
'Wasn't that what you wanted? To spend your wretched old age delving into obscurities?'
'It absolutely makes my day,' Marion said. 'Have you checked about the Cortisol in the saliva?'
'I'll look into it,' Erlendur said and rang off.
*
The head of reception had a little room of his own in the lobby beside the reception desk and was doing some paperwork when Erlendur walked in and closed the door behind him. The man stood up and began to protest, saying he couldn't spare the time to talk, he was on his way to a meeting, but Erlendur sat down and folded his arms.
'What are you running away from?' he asked.
'What do you mean?'
'You didn't come to work yesterday, in the hotel's peak season. You acted like a fugitive when I spoke to you the evening the doorman was murdered. You're all jittery now. To my mind you're top of the list of suspects. I'm told you knew Gudlaugur better than anyone else at this hotel. You deny it – say you don't know a thing about him. I think you're lying. You were his boss. You ought to be a little more cooperative. It's no joke spending Christmas in custody.'
The man stared at Erlendur without knowing what to do, then slowly sat back down in his chair.
'You haven't got anything on me,' he said. 'It's nonsense to think I did that to Gudlaugur. That I was in his room and... I mean with the condom and all that.'
Erlendur was concerned by how the details of the case appeared to have leaked and how the staff were wallowing in them. In the kitchen, the chef knew precisely why they were collecting saliva samples. The reception manager could picture the scene in the doorman's room. Maybe the hotel manager had blurted it all out, maybe the girl who found the body, maybe police officers.
'Where were you yesterday?' Erlendur asked.
'Off sick,' the reception manager said. 'I was at home all morning.'
'You didn't tell anyone. Did you go to the doctor? Did he give you a note? Can I talk to him? What's his name.'
'I didn't go to the doctor. I stayed in bed. I'm better now.' He forced out a cough. Erlendur smiled. This man was the worst liar he had ever encountered.
'Why these lies?'
'You haven't got a thing on me,' the manager said. 'All you can do is threaten me. I want you to leave me alone.'
'I could talk to your wife too,' Erlendur said. 'Ask her if she brought you a cup of tea in bed yesterday.'
'You leave her out of it,' the manager said, and suddenly there was a tougher, more serious tone to his voice. He went red in the face.
'I'm not going to leave her out of it,' Erlendur said.
The manager glared at Erlendur.
'Don't talk to her,' he said.
'Why not? What are you hiding? You've become too mysterious to get rid of me.'
The man stared into space, then heaved a sigh.
'Leave me alone. It's nothing to do with Gudlaugur. These are personal problems I got myself into, which I'm trying to fix.'
'What are they?'
'I don't have to tell you anything about them.'
'Let me be the judge of that.'
'You can't force me.'
'As I said, I can make a request for custody, or I can simply talk to your wife.'
The man groaned. He looked at Erlendur.
'This won't go any further?'
'Not if it has nothing to do with Gudlaugur.'
'It's nothing to do with him.'
All right then.'
'My wife received a phone call the day before yesterday,' the head of reception said. 'The same day you found Gudlaugur.'
On the phone, a woman whose voice the manager's wife did not recognise asked for him. This was in the middle of a weekday, but it was not uncommon for him to receive calls at home at such times. His acquaintances knew that he worked irregular hours. His wife, a doctor, worked shifts and the call woke her up: she was on duty that evening. The woman on the phone acted as though she knew the head of reception, but immediately took umbrage when his wife wanted to know who she was.
'Who are you?' she had asked. 'What are you calling here for?'
'He owes me money? the voice on the phone said.
'Shed threatened that she would phone my house,' the reception manager told Erlendur.
'Who was it?'
He had gone out for a drink ten days before. His wife was at a medical conference in Sweden and he went out for a meal with three old friends. They had a lot of fun, went on a pub crawl after the restaurant and ended up at a popular nightspot in town. He lost his friends there, went to the bar and met some acquaintances from the hotel trade, stood by a small dance floor and watched the dancing. Although quite tipsy, he wasn't too drunk to make sensible decisions. That was why he couldn't understand it. He had never done anything like it before.
She approached him and, just like in a movie scene, held a cigarette between her fingers and asked him for a light Although he didn't smoke, because of his job he made a point of always carrying a lighter. It was a habit from the days when people could smoke wherever they wanted. She started talking to him about something he had now forgotten, and asked if he was going to buy her a drink. He looked at her. But of course. They stood at the bar while he bought the drinks, then sat down at a little table when it became vacant. She was exceptionally attractive and flirted subtly with him. Unsure what was going on, he played along. Women didn't treat him like this as a rule. She sat up close to him and was forward and self-assured. When he stood up to fetch a second drink she stroked his thigh. He looked at her and she smiled. An enchanting, beautiful woman who knew what she wanted. She could have been ten years his junior.
Later that night she asked him to walk her home. She lived nearby. He was still unsure and hesitant, but excited as well. It was so strange for him that he might just as easily have been walking on the moon. In twenty-three years he had been faithful to his wife. Two or three times in all those years he'd perhaps had the chance to kiss another woman, but nothing like this had ever happened to him before.
'I lost the plot completely,' he told Erlendur. 'Part of me wanted to run home and forget the whole thing. Part of me wanted to go with the woman.'
'I bet I know which part that was,' Erlendur said.
They stood by the door to her flat, in the stairwell of a modern apartment block, and she put the key in the lock. Somehow even that act became voluptuous in her hands. The door opened and she moved close to him.'Come inside with me,' she said, stroking his crotch.
He went inside with her. First she mixed drinks for them. He sat down on the sofa. She put on some music, came over to him with a glass in her hand and smiled, her beautiful white teeth shining behind the red lipstick. Then she sat beside him, put down her glass, grabbed the belt of his trousers and slowly unzipped his flies.
'I've never ... It was ... She could do the most incredible things,' the reception manager said.
Erlendur watched him without saying a word.
'I was going to sneak out in the morning, but she was one step ahead. My conscience was killing me, I felt like shit for betraying my wife and children. We've got three children. I was going to get out and forget about it. Never wanted to see that woman again. She was wide awake when I started creeping around the room in the dark.'
She sat up and switched on the beside lamp. 'Are you going?' she asked. He said he was. Claimed to be late. For an important meeting. Something of that sort.
'Did you enjoy it last night?' she asked.
Holding his trousers in his hands, he looked at her.
'It was amazing,' he said. 'But I just can't go on with this. I can't. Sorry.'
'I want eighty thousand krónur,' she said calmly, as if that was almost too obvious to mention.
He looked at her as if he had not heard what she said.
'Eighty thousand,' she repeated.
'What do you mean?'
'For the night,' she said.
'The night?' he said. 'What, are you selling yourself?'
'What do you think?' she said.
He didn't understand what she was talking about.
'Do you think you can get a woman like me for free?' she said.
Gradually it dawned on him what she meant.
'But you didn't say anything about that!'
'Did I need to say anything? Pay me eighty thousand and I might just let you come back home with me some other time.'
'I refused to pay' the reception manager told Erlendur. 'Walked out. She went berserk. Called work and threatened to phone my wife if I didn't pay.'
'What are they called?' Erlendur said. 'A... hustler? Was she one of them? Is that what you're saying?'
'I don't know what she was but she knew what she was doing and in the end she phoned home and told my wife what happened.'
'Why didn't you just pay her? Then you'd have been rid of her.'
'I'm not sure I would have been rid of her even if I had coughed up,' the manager said. 'My wife and I went through all this yesterday. I described what happened just as I described it to you. We've been together for twenty-three years and although I have no excuse it was a trap, the way I see it. If that woman hadn't been after money it would never have happened.'
'So it was all her fault?'
'No, of course not, but... it was still a trap.'
They paused.
'Does that sort of thing go on at this hotel?' Erlendur asked. 'Prostitution?'
'No,' the reception manager said.
'It's not something you'd miss?'
'I was told you were asking about that. Nothing of that kind goes on here.'
'Quite,' Erlendur said.
'Are you going to keep schtum about this?'
'I need the woman's name if you have it. And her address. It won't go any further.'
The manager hesitated.
'Fucking bitch,' he said, slipping for an instant out of the role of the polite hotelier.
'Are you going to pay her?'
'That was one thing we agreed on, my wife and I. She's not getting a penny.'
'Do you think it could have been a prank?'
'A prank?' the manager said. 'I don't follow. What do you mean?'
'I mean, could someone want to harm you so badly that they would set you up? Someone you've quarrelled with?'
'The thought hadn't even crossed my mind. Are you suggesting that I've got enemies who would do something like that to me?'
'They needn't be enemies. Practical jokers, your friends'
'No, my friends aren't like that. Besides, as a practical joke that would have been going a bit far – way beyond funny'
'Was it you who fired Santa?'
'What do you mean?'
'Was it you who told him the news? Or did he receive a letter, or...?'
'I told him.'
'And how did he take it?'
'Not well. Understandably. He'd been working here for ages. Much longer than I have.'
'Do you think he could have been behind it, if anyone was?'
'Gudlaugur? No, I can't imagine that. Gudlaugur? Doing that sort of thing? I think not. He was really not the joking sort. Absolutely not.'
'Did you know Gudlaugur was a child star?'
'A child star? How?'
'He made records. A choirboy.'
'I didn't know that,' the manager said.
'Just one final thing,' Erlendur said, standing up.
'Yes?'
'Could you fix me up with a record player in my room?' Erlendur asked, and saw that the head of reception did not have the faintest idea what he was talking about.
When Erlendur went back into the lobby he saw the head of forensics coming up the stairs from the basement.
'How's it going with the saliva you found on the condom?' Erlendur asked. 'Have you checked the Cortisol?'
"We're working on it. What do you claim to know about Cortisol?'
'I know that too much of it in the saliva can prove dangerous.'
'Sigurdur Óli was asking about the murder weapon,' the head of forensics said. 'The pathologist doesn't think it's a particularly remarkable knife. Not very long, with a thin, serated edge.'
'So it's not a hunting knife or a carving knife?'
'No, it sounds to me like a fairly unremarkable instrument,' the head of forensics said. 'A pretty nondescript knife.'

10

Erlendur took the two records from Gudlaugur's room up to his own, then called the hospital and asked for Valgerdur. He was put through to her department. Another woman answered. He asked for Valgerdur again. The woman said, 'One moment, please,' and at last Valgerdur answered.
'Have you got any of those cotton wool buds left?' he asked.
'Is that Mr Deaths and Ordeals speaking?' she said.
Erlendur grinned.
'There's a tourist at the hotel we need to test'
'Is it a rush job?'
'It will have to be done today.'
'Will you be there?'
'Yes.'
'I'm on my way'
Erlendur rang off. Mr Deaths and Ordeals, he chuckled to himself. He was supposed to meet Henry Wapshott at the hotel bar. He went down, sat at the bar and waited. The waiter asked if he wanted anything, but he declined. Changed his mind and called out to him to bring a glass of water. He looked along the shelves of drinks behind the bar, rows of bottles in all colours of the rainbow, rows of liqueurs.
*
They had found powdered glass, too minute to be seen, on the marble floor of the lounge. Traces of Drambuie on the drinks cabinet, Drambuie on the boy's socks and on the staircase. They found fragments of glass in the broom and the vacuum cleaner. All the signs were that a bottle of liqueur had fallen onto the marble floor. The boy probably stepped in the puddle that it left, then ran straight up to his room. The marks on the staircase indicated that he ran rather than walked. Frightened little feet. They concluded that the boy broke the bottle, his father lost his temper and attacked him so brutally that he put him in hospital.
Elínborg had him taken to the police station on Hverfisgata for questioning, where she told him about the results of the forensic tests, the boy's reaction when he was asked whether his father had hit him, and her personal conviction that he was the culprit. Erlendur was present at the interrogation. She informed the father that he was in the legal position of being a suspect and was allowed to have a lawyer present. He should have one. The father protested his innocence and repeated that he was astonished to be under suspicion simply because a liqueur bottle had fallen onto his floor.
Erlendur switched on the tape recorder in the interrogation room.
'What we believe happened is this,' Elínborg said, acting as if reading aloud from a report; she tried to put her emotions to one side. "The boy came home from school. It was just gone three o'clock. You came back shortly afterwards. We understand that you left work early that day. Maybe you were at home when it happened. For some reason the boy dropped a large bottle of Drambuie on the floor. Panicking, he ran up to his room. You flew into a rage, and more than that. You totally lost control of yourself and went up to the boy's room to punish him. It got out of hand and you beat your son so badly that you then had to call an ambulance.'
The father watched Elínborg without saying a word.
'You used a weapon that we have not managed to identify, a rounded or at least blunt instrument; possibly you banged him against the head of the bed. You persistently kicked him. Before calling an ambulance you tidied up in the lounge. You wiped up the liqueur with three towels, which you threw in the dustbin outside the house. You vacuum-cleaned the tiniest fragments of glass. You swept the marble floor as well and gave it a quick scrub. You washed the cabinet carefully. You took the boy's socks off and threw them in the dustbin. You used detergent on the stains on the stairs but did not manage to remove them completely.'
'You can't prove a thing, since it's rubbish anyway. The boy hasn't said anything. He hasn't said a word about who assaulted him. Why don't you try to find his classmates?'
'Why didn't you tell us about the liqueur?'
'It's nothing to do with this.'
'And the socks in the dustbin? The little footprints on the staircase?'
'A liqueur bottle did get broken, but I was the one who broke it. It happened two days before my boy was attacked. I was getting myself a drink when I dropped it on the floor and it smashed. Addi saw this and it made him jump. I told him to be careful where he walked, but by then he had trodden in the spillage and ran up the stairs to his room. This has nothing to do with him being attacked and I must say this scenario astonishes me. You haven't a shred of evidence! Has he said that I hit him? I doubt that. And he never will say it, because it wasn't me. I'd never do anything like this to him. Never.'
'Why didn't you tell us about it straight away?'
'Straight away?'
'When we found the stains. You didn't say anything about it then.'
'This is precisely what I thought would happen. I knew you'd link that accident with Addi getting beaten up. I didn't want to complicate matters. The boys at the school did it.'
'Your company's heading for bankruptcy,' Elínborg said. 'You've laid off twenty employees and expect to make more redundancies. I expect you're under a lot of strain. You're losing your house...'
'That's just business,' he said.
'We have reason to believe you've used violence before.'
'Hey, wait a minute ...'
'We checked the medical reports. Twice in the past four years he has broken his finger.'
'Have you got kids? Kids are always having accidents. This is nonsense.'
'A paediatrician remarked on the broken finger the second time and informed the child welfare agency. It was the same finger. The agency sent people to your house. Examined the conditions. Found nothing of note. The paediatrician came and found needlemarks on the back of the boy's hand.'
The father said nothing.
Elínborg could not control herself.
'You bastard,' she hissed.
'I want to talk to my lawyer,' he said and looked away.
*
'I said, good morning!'
Erlendur returned to his senses and saw Henry Wapshott standing over him. Absorbed in his thoughts about the fleeing boy, he hadn't noticed Wapshott walk into the bar or heard his greeting.
He leaped to his feet and shook him by the hand. Wapshott was wearing the same clothes as the previous day. His hair was more unkempt and he looked tired. He ordered coffee, and so did Erlendur.
'We were talking about collectors,' Erlendur said.
'Yes,' Wapshott said, a wincing smile forming on his face. 'A bunch of loners, such as myself!
'How does a collector like you in the UK find out that forty years ago there was a choirboy with a beautiful voice in Hafnarfjördur in Iceland?'
'Oh, much more than a beautiful voice,' Wapshott said. 'Much, much more than that. He had a unique voice, that boy.'
'How did you hear about Gudlaugur Egilsson?'
'Through people with the same interest as me. Record collectors specialise, as I believe I told you yesterday. If we take choral music, for example: collectors can be divided into those who collect only certain songs or certain arrangements, and others who collect certain choirs. Others still, like me, choirboys. Some collect only choirboys who recorded 78 rpm glass records, which they stopped manufacturing in the sixties. Others go in for 45 rpm singles, but only from one particular label. There are infinite types of specialisation. Some look for all the versions of a single song, let's say "Stormy Weather", which I'm sure you know. Just so you understand what's involved. I heard about Gudlaugur through a group or association of Japanese collectors who run a big website for trading. No one collects Western music on the scale of the Japanese. They go all over the world like Hoovers, buying up everything that's ever been released that they can get their hands on. Particularly Beatles and hippy music. They're renowned in the record markets, and the best thing of all is that they have money.'
Erlendur was wondering whether it was permitted to smoke at the bar and decided to give it a shot. Seeing that he was about to have a cigarette, Wapshott took out a crumpled packet of Chesterfields and Erlendur gave him a light.
'Do you think we can smoke here?' Wapshott asked.
'We'll find out,' Erlendur said.
'The Japanese had one copy of Gudlaugur's first single,' Wapshott said. 'The one I showed you last night. I bought it from them. Cost me a fortune but I don't regret it. When I asked about its background they said they'd bought it from a collector from Bergen in Norway at a record fair in Liverpool. I got in touch with the Norwegian collector and found out that he'd bought some records from the estate of a music publisher in Trondheim. He may have had the copy sent from Iceland, possibly even by someone who wanted to promote the boy abroad.'
'A lot of research for an old record,' Erlendur said.
'Collectors are like genealogists. Part of the fun is tracing the origin. Since then I've tried to acquire more copies of his records, but it's very tough. He only made the two recordings.'
'You said the Japanese sold you your copy for a fortune. Are these records worth anything?'
'Only to collectors,' Wapshott said. 'And we're not talking about huge sums'
'But big enough for you to come up here to Iceland to buy more. That's why you wanted to meet Gudlaugur. To find out if he had any copies'
'I've been dealing with two or three Icelandic collectors for some time now. That goes back long before I became interested in Gudlaugur. Unfortunately, virtually none of his records are around any more. The Icelandic collectors couldn't locate any. I might have a copy on the way through the Internet from Germany. I came here to meet those collectors, to meet Gudlaugur because I adore his singing, and to go to record shops here and look at the market.'
'Do you make a living from this?'
'Hardly,' Wapshott said, chugging on his Chesterfield, his fingers yellow after decades of smoking. 'I came into an inheritance. Properties in Liverpool. I manage them, but most of my time goes on collecting records. You could call it a passion.'
'And you collect choirboys'
'Yes.'
'Have you found anything interesting on this trip?'
'No. Nothing. There doesn't seem to be much interest in preserving anything here. It all has to be modern. Old stuff is rubbish. Nothing is worth keeping. People seem to treat records badly here. They're just thrown away. From dead people's estates, for example. No one is called in to examine them. They're just driven off to the dump. For a long time I used to think that a company in Reykjavik called Sorpa was a collectors' society. It was always being mentioned in correspondence. It turned out to be a recycling plant that runs a second-hand outlet on the side. Collectors here find all kinds of valuables among the rubbish and sell them over the Internet for good money.'
'Is Iceland of special interest to collectors?' Erlendur asked. 'On its own.'
'The big plus about Iceland for collectors is the small size of the market. Only a few copies of each record are released and it doesn't take long for them to disappear and become lost. Like Gudlaugur's records.'
'It must be exciting to be a collector in a world where people hate everything old and useless. It must make you happy to think you're rescuing things of cultural value.'
'We're a few nutters who resist destruction,' Wapshott said.
'And you profit from it.'
'You can.'
'What happened to Gudlaugur Egilsson? What happened to the child star?'
'What happens to all child stars,' Wapshott said. 'He grew up. I don't know exactly what became of him, but he never sang as a teenager or adult. His career was short but beautiful, then he vanished into the crowd and stopped being unique. Nobody championed him any more and he surely missed it. You need strong nerves to withstand admiration and fame at such a young age, and even stronger nerves when people turn their backs on you.'
Wapshott looked at the clock that hung above the bar, then at his watch, and cleared his throat.
'I'm taking the evening flight to London and need to run a few errands before I set off. Was there anything else you wanted to know?'
Erlendur looked at him.
'No, I think that's all. I thought you were going to leave tomorrow.'
'If there's anything further I can help you with, here's my card,' Wapshott said as he took a card out of his breast pocket and handed it to Erlendur.
'It's changed,' Erlendur said. "Your flight.'
'Because I didn't meet Gudlaugur,' Wapshott said. 'I've finished most of what I planned to do on this trip and I'll save myself the price of a night at the hotel.'
"There's just one thing,' Erlendur said.
'OK.'
'A biotechnician is coming here to take a saliva sample from you, if that's all right.'
'A saliva sample?'
'For the murder investigation.'
'Why saliva?'
'I can't tell you at the moment.'
'Am I a suspect?'
'We're taking samples from everyone who knew Gudlaugur. For the investigation. That says nothing about you.'
'I understand,' Wapshott said. 'Saliva! How queer.'
He smiled, and Erlendur stared at the teeth in his lower jaw, stained black from nicotine.

11

They entered the hotel through the revolving doors: he was old and frail and in a wheelchair; and she followed behind, short and slim, with a thin, hooked nose and tough, piercing eyes that scoured the lobby. The woman was in her fifties, dressed in a thick, brown winter coat and long leather boots, pushing him along in front of her. The man looked about eighty, white straggles of hair stood out from under the brim of his hat and his skinny face was deathly pale. He sat hunched up, white bony hands protruding from the sleeves of a black coat. He had a scarf around his neck and thick black horn-rimmed glasses that magnified his eyes like a fish's.
The woman pushed him to the check-in desk. The head of reception, who was leaving his office, watched them approach.
'Can I help you?' he asked when they reached the desk.
The man in the wheelchair ignored him, but the woman asked for a detective named Erlendur who she had been told was at work at the hotel. Leaving the bar with Wapshott, Erlendur had seen them enter. They caught his attention immediately. There was something reminiscent of death about them.
He wondered whether to ground Wapshott and stop him from going back to the UK for the time being, but could not think of a good enough reason to detain him. He was pondering who those people could be, the man with haddock eyes and the woman with the eagle's beak, when the head of reception saw him and waved to him. Erlendur was about to say goodbye to Wapshott, but suddenly he was gone.
'They're asking for you,' the head of reception said as Erlendur approached the check-in desk.
Erlendur walked behind the desk. The haddock's eyes stared at him from beneath the hat.
'Are you Erlendur?' the man in the wheelchair asked in an old and slurred voice.
'Do you want to talk to me?' Erlendur asked. The eagle's beak pointed up in the air.
'Are you in charge of the investigation into the death of Gudlaugur Egilsson at this hotel?' the woman asked.
Erlendur said he was.
'I'm his sister,' she said. 'And this is our father. Can we talk somewhere quiet?'
'Do you want me to help you with him?' Erlendur offered. She looked insulted and pushed the wheelchair along. They followed Erlendur into the bar and over to the table where he had been sitting with Wapshott. They were the only people inside. Even the waiter had disappeared. Erlendur did not know whether the bar was open before noon as a rule. Since the door was unlocked he assumed that it must be, but few people seemed to know about it.
The woman steered the wheelchair up to the table and locked the wheels. Then she sat down facing Erlendur.
'I was just on my way to see you,' Erlendur lied; he had intended to let Sigurdur Óli and Elínborg talk to Gudlaugur's family. He could not remember whether he had actually asked them to do so.
'We'd prefer not to have the police inside our house,' the woman said. "That has never happened. A lady phoned us, presumably your colleague, I think she said her name was Elínborg. I asked who was in charge of the investigation and she told me you were one of them. I was hoping we could get this over with and that you would then leave us in peace.'
There was no hint of sorrow in their demeanour. No mourning for a loved one. Only cold nastiness. They felt they had certain duties to dispatch, felt obliged to give a report to the police, but clearly had a repulsion against doing so and did not mind showing it. It didn't seem as if the corpse found in the hotel basement was any concern of theirs in the slightest. As if they were above that.
'You know the circumstances in which Gudlaugur was found,' Erlendur said.
'We know he was killed,' the old man said. 'We know he was stabbed.'
'Do you know who could have done it?'
'We don't have the faintest idea,' the woman said. 'We had no contact with him. We don't know who he associated with. Don't know his friends, nor his enemies if he had any'
'When was the last time you saw him?'
Elínborg walked into the bar. She approached them and sat down beside Erlendur. He introduced her to them but they showed no reaction, both equally determined to allow none of this to ruffle them.
'I suppose he must have been about twenty then,' the woman said. 'The last time we saw him.'
'Twenty?' Erlendur thought he must have misheard.
'As I said, there was no contact.'
'Why not?' Elínborg asked.
The woman did not even look at her.
'Isn't it enough for us to talk to you?' she asked Erlendur. 'Does this woman have to be here too?'
Erlendur looked at Elínborg. He seemed to cheer up slightly.
'You don't seem to be mourning his fate very much,' he said without answering her. 'Gudlaugur. Your brother' he said, and looked at the woman again. 'Your son,' he said, and looked at the old man. 'Why? Why haven't you seen him for thirty years? And as I told you, her name is Elínborg,' he added. 'If you have any more comments to make we'll take you down to the police station and continue there, and you can lodge a formal complaint. We've got a police car outside.'
The eagle's beak rose, offended. The haddock's eyes narrowed.
'He lived his own life,' she said. 'We lived ours. There's not much more to say about it. There was no contact. That's the way it was. We were happy with that. So was he.'
'Are you telling me that you last saw him in the mid-seventies?' Erlendur said.
'There was no contact,' she repeated.
'Not once in all that time? Not one phone call? Nothing?'
'No,' she said.
'Why not?'
'That's a family matter,' the old man said. 'Nothing to do with this. Not a bit. Over and done with. What more do you want to know?'
'Did you know he was working at this hotel?'
'We heard about him every so often,' the woman said. 'We knew he was a doorman here. Put on some stupid uniform and held the door open for the hotel guests. And I understand he used to play Santa Claus at Christmas parties.'
Erlendur's eyes were riveted to her. She said this as if Gudlaugur could not have humiliated his family more, except by being found murdered, half naked, in a hotel basement
'We don't know much about him,' Erlendur said. 'He doesn't seem to have had many friends. He lived in a little room at this hotel. He seems to have been liked. People thought he was good with children. As you say, he played Santa at the hotel's Christmas parties. However, we've just heard that he was a promising singer. A young boy who made gramophone recordings, two of them I think, but of course you know more about that. I saw on a record sleeve that he was going to tour Scandinavia, and it sounded as if he had the world at his feet. Then somehow that came to an end, apparently. No one knows that boy today apart from a few nutters who collect old records. What happened?'
The eagle's beak had lowered and the haddock's eyes dimmed while Erlendur was talking. The old man looked away from him and down at the table, and the woman, who still tried to retain her air of authority and pride, no longer appeared quite so self-assured.
"What happened?' Erlendur repeated, suddenly remembering that he had Gudlaugur's singles up in his room.
'Nothing happened,' the old man said. 'He lost his voice. He matured early and lost his voice at the age of twelve and that was the end of that'
'Couldn't he sing afterwards?' Elínborg asked.
'His voice turned bad,' the old man said irritatedly. 'You couldn't teach him anything. And you couldn't do anything for him. He turned against singing. Rebellion and anger took hold of him and he opposed everything. Opposed me. Opposed his sister who tried to do her best for him. He attacked me and blamed me for it all.'
'If there isn't anything else,' the woman said with a look at Erlendur. 'Haven't we said enough? Haven't you had enough?'
'We didn't find much in Gudlaugur's room,' Erlendur said, pretending not to have heard her. 'We found some of his records and we found two keys.'
He had asked forensics to return the keys when they had been examined. Taking them out of his pocket, he placed them on the table. They dangled from a key ring with a miniature penknife. It was set in pink plastic and on one side was a picture of a pirate with a wooden leg, cutlass and patch over one eye, with the word PIRATE written in English underneath it.
After a quick glance at the keys the woman said she did not recognise them. The old man adjusted his glasses on his nose and looked at the keys, then shook his head.
'One is probably a front door key,' Erlendur said. 'The other looks like the key to a cupboard or locker of some kind.' He watched them but received no response, so he put the keys back in his pocket.
'Did you find his records?' the woman asked.
'Two,' Erlendur said. 'Did he make any more?'
'No, there weren't any more,' the old man said, glaring at Erlendur for an instant but quickly averting his gaze.
'Could we have the records?' the woman asked.
'I assume you'll inherit everything he left,' Erlendur replied. 'When we consider the investigation to be over you'll get everything he owned. He had no other family, did he? No children? We haven't been able to locate anything of that kind.'
'The last time I knew he was single,' the woman said. 'Can we help you any further?' she then asked, as if they had made a major contribution to the investigation by taking the trouble to call at the hotel.
'It wasn't his fault that he matured and lost his voice,' Erlendur said. He could stand their indifference and haughtiness no longer. A son had lost his life. A brother had been murdered. Yet it was as if nothing had happened. As if it was nothing to do with them. As if his life had long ago ceased to be part of their lives, because of something that was being kept from Erlendur.
The woman looked at Erlendur.
'If there wasn't anything else,' she said again, and released the brake on the wheelchair.
'We'll see,' Erlendur said.
'You don't think we show enough sympathy, do you?' she suddenly said.
'I don't think you show any sympathy,' Erlendur said. 'But that's no business of mine.'
'No,' the woman said. 'It's no business of yours.'
'But all the same, what I want to know is whether you had any feelings towards the man. He was your brother.' Erlendur turned to the old man in the wheelchair. 'Your son.'
'He was a stranger to us,' the woman said, and stood up. The old man grimaced.
'Because he didn't live up to your expectations?' Erlendur rose to his feet as well. 'Because he failed you at the age of twelve. When he was a child. What did you do? Did you throw him out? Did you throw him out on the street?'
'How dare you talk to my father and me in that tone?' the woman said through clenched teeth. 'How dare you? Who appointed you the conscience of the world?'
'Who took your conscience away?' Erlendur snarled back.
She looked daggers at him. Then she seemed to give up. She jerked the wheelchair towards her, swung it away from the table and pushed it in front of her out of the bar. She strode across the lobby towards the revolving door. Over the sound system an Icelandic soprano was singing melancholically... O touch my harp, you heaven-born goddess ... Erlendur and Elínborg set off after them and watched them leave the hotel, the woman holding her head high but the old man sunk even deeper into his wheelchair, nothing of him visible apart from his head nodding above the back.
... And others will little children e'er abide...

12

When Erlendur went back to his room shortly after midday, the reception manager had set up a record player and two loudspeakers. The hotel had a few old turntables that had not been used for some time. Erlendur owned one himself so he quickly worked out how to operate it. He had never had a CD player and hadn't bought a record for years. He didn't listen to modern music. For a long time after hearing people at work talking about hip-hop he thought it was a variation on hopscotch.
Elínborg was on her way to Hafnarfjördur. Erlendur had told her to go there and find out where Gudlaugur attended school. He had intended to ask the father and sister but hadn't had the chance when their meeting came to its abrupt end. He would talk to them again later. In the meantime, he wanted Elínborg to locate people who knew Gudlaugur when he was a child star, to talk to his schoolmates. He wanted to know what effect his reputed fame had on the boy at such a young age. Also what his schoolmates had thought about it, and he wanted to know whether any remembered what happened when he lost his voice, and what became of him in the first few years afterwards. He was also wondering whether anyone knew of any enemies of Gudlaugur s from that time.
Outlining all this to Elínborg in the lobby, he noticed her irritation at having it all spelled out. She knew what the case involved and was quite capable of setting targets for herself.
'And you can buy yourself an ice cream on the way he added to tease her even more. With a few muttered curses about male chauvinist pigs, she went out of the door.
'How do I recognise this tourist?' said a voice behind him, and when he turned round he saw Valgerdur standing there, sampling kit in hand.
'Wapshott? You met him last night. He's the haggard old Brit with stained teeth who collects choirboys,' Erlendur said.
She smiled.
'Stained teeth?' she said. 'And collects choirboys?'
'It's a long, long story that I'll tell you some time. Any news about all those samples?'
He was strangely pleased to see her again. His heart almost skipped a beat when he heard her behind him. The gloom lifted from him for a moment and his voice became animated. He felt slightly breathless.
'I don't know how it's going,' she said. 'There's an incredible amount of samples'
'I, er ...' Erlendur groped for an excuse for what had happened the previous night 'I really seized up last night. Deaths and fatalities. I didn't quite tell you the truth when you asked about my interest in people dying in the wilds'
'You don't have to tell me anything,' she said.
'Yes, I definitely do need to tell you,' Erlendur said. 'Is there any chance we could do that again?'
'Don't...' She paused. 'Don't make an issue of it. It was great. Let's forget it. OK?'
'OK, if that's the way you want it,' Erlendur said, much against his wishes.
'Where is this Wapshott guy?'
Erlendur accompanied her to reception where she was given the number of his room. They shook hands and she walked over to the lift. He watched her. She waited for the lift without looking back. He wondered whether to pounce and was on the verge of doing so when the door opened and she stepped inside. She glanced at him the moment that the door closed, smiling an almost imperceptible smile.
Erlendur stood still for a moment and watched the number of the lift as it stopped on Wapshott's floor. Then he pressed the button and ordered it back. He could smell Valgerdur's perfume on the way up to his floor.
He put a recording of choirboy Gudlaugur Egilsson on the turntable and made sure the speed was set to 45 rpm. Then he stretched out on the bed. The record was brand new. It sounded as though it had never been played. Not a scratch or speck of dust on it. After a slight crackle at the beginning came the prelude, and finally a pure and celestial boy soprano started to sing 'Ave Marial
He stood alone in the passageway, carefully opened the door to his father's room and saw him sitting on the edge of the bed, staring into space in silent anguish. His father did not take part in the search. He had battled his way home to the farm after losing sight of his two sons on the moor in the storm that broke without warning. He had roamed around in the blizzard calling to them, unable to see a thing with the howling of the storm smothering his shouts. His desperation defied description. He had taken the boys along to help round up the sheep and bring them back to the folds. Winter had arrived but it seemed to be a fine day when they set off. But it was only a forecast and only an outlook. The storm came unannounced.
Erlendur approached his father and stopped by his side. He could not understand why he was sitting on the bed instead of joining the search party up on the moor. His brother had still not been found. He might be alive, though it was unlikely. Erlendur read the hopelessness in the faces of the exhausted men returning home to rest and eat before setting out again. They came from the villages and farms all around, everyone who was up to the task, bringing dogs and long sticks that they plunged into the snow. That was how they had found Erlendur. That was how they were going to find his brother.
They went up to the moor in teams of eight to ten, stabbing their sticks into the snow and shouting his brother's name. Two days had passed since they had found Erlendur and three days since the storm had split up the three travellers. The brothers had stayed together for a long time. They shouted into the blizzard and listened for their father's voice. Two years the elder, Erlendur led his brother by the hand, but their hands were numbed by the frost and Erlendur did not feel when he lost his grip. He thought he was still holding his brothers hand when he turned round and could not see him any longer. Much later he thought he remembered the hand slipping away from his, but that was an invention. He never actually felt it happen.
He was convinced that he would die at the age of ten in a seemingly incessant blizzard. It attacked him from all directions, tore him and cut him and blinded his sight, cold and harsh and merciless. In the end he fell down into the snow and tried to bury himself. Lay there thinking about his brother who was also dying on the moor.
A sharp jab in his shoulder woke him and suddenly a face he did not recognise appeared. He could not hear what the man said. He wanted to go on sleeping. He was heaved out of the snow and the men took turns carrying him down from the moor, although he remembered little of the journey home. He heard voices. He heard his mother nursing him. A doctor examined him. Frostbite on his feet and legs, but not very severe. He saw inside his father's room. Saw him sitting alone on the edge of the bed as if nothing that had happened had affected him.
Two days later, Erlendur was up and about again. He stood beside his father, helpless and afraid. Strange pangs of conscience had haunted him when he began to recover and regain his strength. Why him? Why him and not his brother? And if they had not found him, would they possibly have found his brother instead? He wanted to ask his father about this and wanted to ask why he was not taking part in the search. But he asked nothing. Just watched him, the deep lines etched into his face, his stubble, his eyes black with sorrow.
A long time elapsed and his father ignored him. Erlendur put his hand on his father's and asked whether it was his fault. That his brother was missing. Because he had not held him tightly enough, should have taken better care of him, should have had him by his side when he himself was found. He asked in a soft and hesitant voice but lost control of himself and began whimpering. His father bowed his head. Tears welled up in his eyes, he hugged Erlendur and started to weep as well, until his huge body shook and trembled in his son's arms.
All this passed through Erlendur's mind until the record began crackling again. He had not allowed himself these contemplations for a long time, but suddenly the memories unfolded within him and he once again felt the heavy sorrow that he knew would never be completely buried or forgotten.
Such was the power of the choirboy.

13

The telephone on the bedside table rang. He sat up, lifted the needle from the record and switched off the player. Valgerdur was calling. She told him that Henry Wapshott was not in his room. When she had the hotel staff call his room and look for him, he was nowhere to be found.
'He was going to wait around for the sample,' Erlendur said. 'Has he checked out of the hotel? I understand he had a flight booked for tonight.'
'I haven't asked about that,' Valgerdur said. 'I can't wait here much longer and ...'
'No, of course not, sorry' Erlendur said. 'I'll send him to you when I find him. Sorry about that'
'OK then, I'm off?
Erlendur hesitated. Although he didn't know what to say, he didn't want to let her go immediately. The silence became prolonged and suddenly there was a knock on his door. He thought Eva Lind had come to visit him.
'I'd so like to meet you again,' he said, 'but I understand if you can't be bothered.'
Again there was a knock on the door, harder this time.
'I wanted to tell you the truth about that deaths and ordeals business,' Erlendur said. 'If you can be bothered to listen.'
'What do you mean?'
'Do you fancy that?'
He didn't know himself exactly what he meant Why he wanted to tell this woman what he had never told anyone but his daughter before. Why he would not wind up the matter, get on with his life and let nothing disturb it, not now or ever.
Valgerdur did not answer immediately, and there was a third knock on the door. Erlendur put down the phone and opened the door without looking outside to see who was there; he assumed it could only be Eva. When he picked up the telephone again, Valgerdur had gone.
'Hello,' he said. 'Hello?' There was no reply.
After putting down the receiver again, he turned around. In his room stood a man he had never seen before. He was short, wearing a thick, dark blue winter coat and a scarf, with a blue peaked cap on his head. Drops of water glittered on his cap and coat where the snow had melted. He was fairly fat-faced with thick lips, and enormous, dark bags beneath small, tired eyes. He reminded Erlendur of photographs of the poet W. H. Auden. A drip hung from the end of his nose.
'Are you Erlendur?' he said.
'Yes.'
'I was told to come to this hotel and talk to you,' the man said. He took off his cap, tapped it against his coat and wiped the drip from his nose.
'Who told you that?' Erlendur asked.
'Someone by the name of Marion Briem. I don't know who that is. Something about the Gudlaugur Egilsson investigation and talking to everyone who knew him in the past. I used to know him and that Marion told me to talk to you about it.'
'Who are you?' Erlendur said, trying to recall where he had seen his face before.
'My name's Gabríel Hermannsson and I used to conduct the Hafnarfjördur Children's Choir once,' the man said. 'May I sit down on the bed? Those long corridors...'
'Gabriel? Be my guest. Have a seat.' The man unbuttoned his coat and loosened his scarf. Erlendur picked up one of Gudlaugur's record sleeves and looked at the photograph of the Hafnarfjördur Children's Choir. The choirmaster stared cheerfully into the camera. 'Is this you?' he asked, handing him the sleeve.
Gabriel looked at the sleeve and nodded.
'Where did you get that?' he asked. 'Those records have been unavailable for decades. I stupidly lost mine somehow or other. Lent it to someone. You should never lend anything.'
'It belonged to Gudlaugur,' Erlendur said.
'I'm only, what, twenty-eight there,' Gabriel said. 'When the photo was taken. Incredible how time flies'
'What did Marion say to you?'
'Not much. I said what I knew about Gudlaugur and was told to talk to you. I was coming to Reykjavik anyway so I thought it would be ideal to use the opportunity.'
Gabriel hesitated.
'I couldn't quite tell from the voice,' he said, 'but I was wondering whether it was a man or a woman. Marion. I thought it would be rude to ask but I couldn't make up my mind. Normally you can tell from the voice. Funny name. Marion Briem.'
Erlendur discerned in his voice a note of interest, almost eagerness, as if it mattered to know.
'I've never thought about that,' Erlendur said. 'That name. Marion Briem. I was listening to this record," he said, pointing to the sleeve. 'His voice has a strong effect, there's no denying that. Considering how young the lad was.'
'Gudlaugur was probably the best choirboy we ever had,' Gabriel said as he looked at the sleeve. 'In retrospect. I don't think we realised what we had in our hands until much later, maybe not even until only a few years ago.'
'When did you first get to know him?'
'His father brought him to me. The family lived in Hamarfiördur then, and still do, I think. The mother died a little while later and he brought the children up entirely by himself: Gudlaugur and a girl who was some years older. The father knew that I'd just got back from studying music abroad. I taught music, private lessons and other things. I was appointed choirmaster when I managed to round up enough children to form a choir. It was mostly girls, as always, but we advertised specially for boys and Gudlaugur's father brought him to my house one day. He was ten at the time and had a wonderful voice. That wonderful voice. And he knew how to sing. I could tell straight away that his father made great demands on the boy and was strict with him. He said he'd taught him everything he knew about singing. I later found out that he was hard on the boy, punished him, kept him indoors when he wanted to go out and play. I don't think you could call it a good upbringing because so much was expected of him and he wasn't allowed to hang around with friends much. He was a classic example of parents taking control of their children and trying to turn them into what they want. I don't think Gudlaugur had a particularly happy childhood.'
Gabriel stopped.
'You've wondered about this quite a lot, haven't you?' Erlendur said.
'I just saw it happening.'
'What?'
'Strict discipline and unwavering demands can have an awful effect on children. I'm not talking about discipline when children are naughty and need restraint or guidance, that's a completely different matter. Of course children need discipline. I'm talking about when children aren't allowed to be children. When they're not allowed to enjoy being what they are and what they want to be, but are shaped and even broken to make them something different. Gudlaugur had this beautiful boy soprano and his father intended a big role for him in life. I'm not saying that he treated him badly in a conscious, calculated way, he just deprived him of his life. Robbed him of his childhood.'
Erlendur diought about his own father who did nothing but teach him good manners and show him affection. The single demand he made was to behave well and treat other people kindly. His father had never tried to turn him into anything he was not. Erlendur thought about the father who was awaiting sentence for a brutal assault on his own son, and he imagined Gudlaugur continually trying to live up to his father's expectations.
'Maybe we see this most clearly with religion,' Gabriel continued. 'Children who find themselves in certain religions are made to adopt their parents' faith and in effect live their parent's lives much more than their own. They never have the opportunity to be free, to step outside the world they're born into, to make independent decisions about their lives. Of course the children don't realise until much later, and some never do. But often when they are adolescents or grown-up, they say: "I don't want this any more", and conflicts can arise. Suddenly the child doesn't want to live its parents' life, and that can lead to great tragedy. You see it everywhere: the doctor who wants his child to be a doctor. The lawyer. The company director. The pilot. There are people all over the place who make impossible demands of their children.'
'Did that happen in Gudlaugur's case? Did he say, "This is where I draw the line"? Did he rebel?'
Gabriel waited before replying.
'Have you met Gudlaugur's father?' he asked.
'I spoke to him this morning,' Erlendur said. 'Him and his daughter. They're full of some kind of anger and antipathy and they clearly didn't have any warm feelings for Gudlaugur. They didn't shed a tear for him.'
'And was he in a wheelchair? The father?'
'Yes.'
'That happened several years afterwards,' Gabriel said.
'After what?'
'Several years after the performance. That dreadful performance just before the boy was due to tour Scandinavia. It had never happened before, a boy leaving Iceland to sing solo with choirs in Scandinavia. His father sent his first record to Norway, a record company there became interested and organised a concert tour with the aim of releasing his records in Scandinavia. His father once told me that his dream, nota bene his dream, not necessarily Gudlaugur's, was for the lad to sing with the Vienna Boys' Choir. And he could have, no question about it'
'So what happened?'
'What always happens sooner or later with boy sopranos; nature intervened,' Gabríel said. 'At the worst imaginable time in the boy's life. It could have happened at a rehearsal, could have happened while he was alone at home. But it happened there and the poor child ...'
Gabriel looked at Erlendur.
'I was with him backstage. The children's choir was supposed to sing some songs and a crowd of local children were there, leading musicians from Reykjavik, even a couple of critics from the papers. The concert was widely advertised and his father was sitting in the middle of the front row, of course. The boy came to see me later, much later, when he'd left home, and told me how he felt on that fateful night, and since then I've often thought how a single incident can mark a person for life.'
*
Every seat in Hafnarfjördur cinema was occupied and the audience was buzzing. He'd been to that charming building twice before to watch films and was enchanted by everything he saw: the beautiful lighting in the auditorium and the raised stage where plays were performed. His mother had taken him to Gone with the Wind and he had been with his father and sister to see a Walt Disney cartoon.
But these people had come not to watch the heroes of the silver screen, but to listen to him. Him singing with the voice that had already featured on two records. Instead of shyness, he was beset by uncertainty now. He had sung in public before, in the church in Hafnarfjördur and at school, in front of large audiences. Often he was shy and downright scared. Later he came to realise that he was sought-after by others, which helped him overcome his reticence. There was a reason that people came to hear him sing, a reason that people wanted to hear him, and it was nothing to be shy about. The reason was his voice and his singing. Nothing else. He was the star.
His father had shown him the advertisement in the newspaper: Iceland's best boy soprano is performing tonight. There was no one better. His father was beside himself with joy and much more excited than the boy himself. Talked about it for days on end. If only your mother could have lived to see you singing at that place, he said. That would have pleased her so much. It would have pleased her indescribably.
People in other countries were impressed with his singing and wanted him to perform there too. They wanted to release his records there. I knew it, his father said over and again. I knew it. He had worked hard on preparing the trip. The concert in Hafnarfjördur was the finishing touch to that work.
The stage manager showed him how to peep through into the auditorium to watch the audience taking then-seats. He listened to the murmurings and saw people he knew he would never meet. He saw the choirmaster's wife sit down with their three children at the end of the third row. He saw several of his classmates with their parents, even some who had teased him, and he saw his father take his place in the middle of the front row, with his big sister beside him, staring up at the ceiling. His mother's family were there too, aunts he hardly knew, men holding their hats in their hands waiting for the curtain to open.
He wanted to make his father proud. He knew how much his father had sacrificed to make a successful singer of him, and now the fruits of that toil were going to be seen. It had cost relentless training. Complaining was futile. He had tried that and it made his father angry.
He trusted his father completely. That was the way it had always been. Even when he was singing in public against his own wishes. His father drove him on, encouraged him and had his own way in the end. It was torture for the boy the first time he sang for strangers: stage fright, bashful-ness in front of all those people. But his father would not yield an inch, not even when the boy was bullied over his singing. The more he performed in public, at school and in church, the worse the boys and some girls too treated him, calling him names, even mocking his voice. He could not understand what motivated them.
He did not want to provoke his father's wrath. He was devastated after their mother died. She contracted leukaemia and it killed her within months. Their father was by her bedside day and night, accompanied her to the hospital and slept there while her life ebbed away. The last words he said before they left home for the concert were: Think about your mother. How proud she would have been of you.
The choir had taken up its position on the stage. All the girls in identical frocks paid for by the town council. The boys in white shirts and black trousers, just like he was wearing. They whispered together, excited at all the attention the choir was receiving, determined to do their best. Gabriel, the choirmaster, was talking to the stage manager. The compère stubbed out a cigarette on the floor. Everything was ready. Soon it would be curtain up.
Gabriel called him over.
'Everything all right?' he asked.
'Yes. It's a packed house.'
'And they've all come to see you. Remember that. They've all come to see you and hear you sing and no one else, and you ought to be proud of that, pleased with yourself and not shy. Maybe you're a bit nervous now, but that will wear off as soon as you start singing. You know that.'
'Yes.'
'Shall we start then?'
He nodded.
Gabriel put his hand on the boy's shoulder.
'It's bound to be difficult for you to look all those people in the eye, but you only need to sing and everything will be all right.'
'Yes.'
'The compère doesn't come on until after the first song. We've rehearsed all this. You start singing and everything will be fine.'
Gabriel gave a sign to the stage manager. He gestured to the choir who immediately fell silent and lined up. Everything was in place. They were all ready.
The lights in the auditorium dimmed. The murmuring stopped. The curtain went up.
Think of your mother.
The last thought that crossed his mind before the auditorium opened up in front of him was his mother on her deathbed the final time he saw her, and for a second he lost his concentration. He was with his father, they were sitting together on one side of the bed, and she was so weak she could hardly keep her eyes open. She closed them and seemed to have fallen asleep, then opened them slowly, looked at him and tried to smile. They could not speak to each other any longer. When it was time to say goodbye they stood up, and he always regretted not having given her a farewell kiss, because this was the last time they were together. He simply stood up and walked out of the ward with his father, and the door closed behind them.
The curtain rose and he met his father's gaze. The auditorium vanished from his sight and all he could see was his father's glaring eyes.
Someone in the auditorium began laughing.
He came back to his senses. The choir had begun to sing and the choirmaster had given a sign, but he had missed it. Trying to gloss over the incident, the choirmaster took the choir through another round of the verse, and now he came in at the right place and had just started the song when something happened.
Something happened to his voice.
*
'It was a wolf,' Gabriel said, sitting in Erlendur's cold hotel room. 'There was a wolf in his voice, as the saying goes. Straight away in the first song, and then it was all over.'

14

Gabriel sat motionless on the bed, staring straight ahead, transported back to the stage at Hafnarfjördur cinema as the choir gradually fell silent. Gudlaugur, who could not understand what was happening to his voice, cleared his throat repeatedly and kept on trying to sing. His father got to his feet and his sister ran up onto the stage to make her brother stop. People whispered to each other at first, but soon the occasional half-smothered laugh broke out, gradually growing louder, and a few people whistled. Gabriel went to lead Gudlaugur off, but the boy stood as if nailed to the floor. The stage manager tried to bring down the curtain. The compère walked onto the stage with a cigarette in his hand, but did not know what to do. In the end Gabriel managed to move Gudlaugur and push him away. His sister was with him and shouted out to the audience not to laugh. His father was still standing in the same place in the front row, thunderstruck.
Gabriel came to earth and looked at Erlendur.
'I still shudder to think of it,' he said.
'A wolf in his voice?' Erlendur said. 'I'm not too well up on...'
'It's an idiom for when your voice breaks. What happens is that the vocal cords stretch in puberty, but you go on using your voice in the same way and it shifts an octave lower. The result isn't pretty, you sort of yodel downwards. This is what ruins all boys' choirs. He could have had another two or three years, but Gudlaugur matured early. His hormones started working prematurely and produced the most tragic night of his life.'
'You must have been a good friend of his, if you were the first person he went to later to discuss the whole affair.'
'You could say that. He regarded me as a confidant. Then that gradually ended, the way it does. I tried to help him as best I could and he continued singing with me. His father did not want to give up. He was going to make a singer out of his son. Talked about sending him to Italy or Germany. Even Britain. They've cultivated the most boy sopranos and have hundreds of fallen choral stars. Nothing is as short-lived as a child star.'
'But he never became a singer?'
'No. It was over. He had a reasonable adult voice, nothing special actually, but his interest was gone. All the work that had been put into singing, his whole childhood really, turned to dust that evening. His father took him to another teacher but nothing came of that. The spark had gone. He just played along for his father's sake, then he gave up for good. He told me he had never really wanted any of it. Being a singer and a choirboy and performing in public. It was all his fathers wish.'
'You mentioned something before that happened some years later,' Erlendur said. 'Some years after the concert at the cinema. I thought it was connected with his father being in a wheelchair. Was I mistaken?'
'A rift gradually developed between them. Between Gudlaugur and his father. You described the way the old man behaved when he came to see you with his daughter. I don't know the whole story. Only a fragment of it.'
'But you give the impression that Gudlaugur and his sister were close.'
'There was no question about that,' Gabriel said. 'She often came to choir practice with him and was always there when he sang at school and in church. She was kind to him, but she was devoted to her father too. He had an incredibly strong character. He was unflinching and firm when he wanted his own way, but could be tender at other times. In the end she took her father's side. The boy was in rebellion. I can't explain what it was, but he ended up hating his father and blaming him for what happened. Not just up there on the stage but everything.'
Gabriel paused.
'One of the last times I talked to him, he said his father had robbed him of his childhood. Turned him into a freak.'
'A freak?'
'That was the word he used, but I didn't know any more than you what he meant by it. That was shortly after the accident'
'Accident?'
'Yes.'
'What happened?'
'I suppose Gudlaugur would have been in his teens. He moved away from Hafnarfjördur afterwards. We really had no contact by then but I could well imagine that the accident was caused by his rebellion. The rage that had built up inside him.'
'Did he leave home after this accident?'
'Yes, so I understand.'
'What happened?'
'There was a high, steep staircase in their house. I went there once. It led upstairs from the hall. Wooden stairs with a narrow well. Apparently it began with an argument between Gudlaugur and his father, who had his study upstairs. They were at the top of the staircase and I'm told Gudlaugur pushed him and he fell down the stairs. It was quite a fall. He never walked again. Broke his back. Paralysed from the waist down.'
'Was it an accident? Do you know?'
'Gudlaugur alone knew that. And his father. They completely shut him out afterwards, the father and daughter. Cut off all contact and refused to have anything more to do with him. That might suggest he went for his father. That it wasn't a simple accident.'
'How do you know this? If you weren't in touch with those people?'
'It was the talk of the town that he'd pushed his father down the stairs. The police investigated the matter.'
Erlendur looked at the man.
'When was the last time you saw Gudlaugur?'
'It was just here at the hotel, by sheer coincidence. I didn't know where he was. I was out for dinner and caught a glimpse of him in his doorman's uniform. I didn't recognise him immediately. Such a long time had passed. This was five or six years ago. I went up to him and asked if he remembered me, and we chatted a little.'
'What about?'
'This and that. I asked him how he was doing and so on. He kept fairly quiet about his own affairs – didn't seem comfortable talking to me. It was as if I reminded him of a past he didn't want to revisit. I had the feeling he was ashamed of being in a doorman's uniform. Maybe it was something else. I don't know. I asked him about his family and he said they'd lost touch. Then the conversation dried up and we said goodbye to each other.'
'Do you have any idea who could have wanted to kill Gudlaugur?' Erlendur asked.
'Not the faintest,' Gabriel said. 'How was he attacked? How was he killed?'
He asked cautiously, a mournful look in his eyes. There was no hint that he wished to gloat over it later; he simply wanted to know how the life of a promising boy he had once taught came to an end.
'I honestly can't go into that,' Erlendur said. 'It's information that we're trying to keep secret because of the investigation.'
'Yes, of course,' Gabriel said. 'I understand. A criminal investigation ... are you making any headway? Of course, you can't talk about that either, listen to how I carry on. I can't imagine who would have wanted to kill him, but then I lost touch with him long ago. I just knew that he worked at this hotel.'
'He'd been working here for years as a doorman and sort of jack of all trades. Playing Santa Claus, for example.'
Gabriel sighed. 'What a fate.'
'The only thing we found in his room apart from these records was a film poster that he had on his wall. It's a Shirley Temple film from 1939 called The Little Princess. Do you have any idea why he would have kept it, or glorified it? There was almost nothing else in the room.'
'Shirley Temple?'
'The child star.'
'The connection's obvious,' Gabriel said. 'Gudlaugur saw himself as a child star and so did everyone around him. But I can't see any other significance as such.'
Gabriel stood up, put on his cap, buttoned his coat and wrapped his scarf around his neck. Neither of them said anything. Erlendur opened the door and walked out into the corridor with him.
'Thank you for coming to see me,' he said, offering his hand to shake.
'It was nothing,' Gabriel said. 'It was the least I could do for you. And for the dear boy.'
He dithered as if about to add something else, unsure exactly how to phrase it.
'He was terribly innocent,' he said eventually. 'A totally harmless boy. He'd been convinced that he was unique and he'd become famous, he could have had the world at his feet. The Vienna Boys' Choir. They make such an awful fuss about small things here in Iceland, even more now than they used to; it's a national trait in a country of under-achievers. He was bullied at school for being different; he suffered because of it. Then it turned out he was just an ordinary boy and his world fell apart in a single evening. He needed to be strong to put up with that.'
They exchanged farewells and Gabriel turned round and walked down the corridor. Erlendur watched him leaving with the feeling that telling the tale of Gudlaugur Egilsson had drained the old choirmasters strength completely.
Erlendur shut the door. He sat down on the bed and thought about the choirboy and how he found him in a Santa suit with his trousers round his ankles. He wondered how his path had led to that little room and to death, at the end of a life paved with disappointment. He thought about Gudlaugur's father, paralysed in a wheelchair, with his thick horn-rimmed glasses, and about his sister with her hooked eagle's nose and her antipathy towards her brother. He thought about the fat hotel manager who had sacked him, and the man from reception who pretended not to know him. He thought about the hotel staff, who did not know who Gudlaugur was. He thought about Henry Wapshott who had travelled all that way to seek out the choirboy because the child Gudlaugur with his lovely voice still existed and always would.
Before he knew it he had started thinking about his brother.
Erlendur put the same record back on the turntable, stretched out, closed his eyes and let the song take him back home.
Maybe it was his song as well.

15

When Elínborg came back from Hafnarfjördur towards evening she went straight to the hotel to meet Erlendur.
She went up to his floor and knocked on the door, and again when she got no response, then a third time. She was turning away when the door opened at last and Erlendur let her in. He had been lying down thinking and had dozed off, and was rather vague when Elínborg began telling him what she had unearthed in Hafnarfjördur. She had spoken to the ex-headmaster of the primary school, an ancient man who remembered Gudlaugur well; his wife, who had died ten years before, had also been close to the boy. With the headmaster's help Elínborg tracked down three of Gudlaugur's classmates who were still living in Hafnarfjördur. One had been at the fateful concert. She talked to the family's old neighbours and people who were in touch with them in those days.
'No one is ever allowed to excel in this dwarf state,' Elínborg said, sitting down on the bed. 'No one's allowed to be different.'
Everyone knew that Gudlaugur's life was supposed to be something special. He never talked about it himself, never talked about himself at all really, but everyone knew. He was sent for piano lessons and learned to sing, first from his father and then with the choirmaster who was appointed to conduct the children's choir, and finally with a well-known singer who once lived in Germany but had come back to Iceland. People praised him to the skies, applauded him, and he would take a bow in his white shirt and black trousers, gentlemanly and sophisticated. Such a beautiful child, Gudlaugur, people said. And he made recordings of his singing. Soon he would be famous in other countries.
He was not from Hafnarfjördur. The family was from the north and had lived in Reykjavik for a while. His father was said to be the son of an organist who had studied singing abroad when he was younger. Rumour had it that he bought the house in Hafnarfjördur with what he inherited from his father, who had made money by trading with the American military after the war. It was said that he inherited enough to live comfortably afterwards. But he was never showy about his wealth. He kept a low profile in the community. Doffed his hat when he went out for walks with his wife and greeted people politely. She was said to be the daughter of a trawler owner. No one knew where. They made few friends in the town. Most of their friends were in Reykjavik, if they had any at all. They did not seem to have many visitors.
When the local boys and Gudlaugur's classmates called round for him the usual answer was that he had to stay in and do his homework, either for school or for singing and piano practice. Sometimes he was allowed to go out with them and they noticed that he was not as coarse as they were, and strangely sensitive. His clothes never got dirty, he never jumped in puddles, he was rather a wimp at football and spoke very properly. Sometimes he talked about people with foreign names. Some Schubert bloke. And when they told him about the latest action comics they were reading or what they had seen at the cinema, he told them he read poetry. Maybe not necessarily because he really wanted to, but because his father said it was good for him to read poetry. They had a hunch that his father set him lessons to learn and was very strict about it. One poem every evening.
His sister was different. Tougher. More like her father. The father did not seem to make such great demands on her as on the boy. She was learning the piano and like her brother, had joined the children's choir when it was set up. Her friends described how she was sometimes jealous of her brother when their father praised him; their mother appeared to favour the son as well. People thought Gudlaugur and his mother were close. She was like his guardian angel.
One of Gudlaugur's classmates was shown into the drawing room once while the family debated whether he could go out to play. The father stood on the stairs wearing his thick glasses, Gudlaugur on the landing and his mother by the door to the drawing room, and she said it did not matter if the boy went out to play. He did not have so many friends and they did not call for him very often. He could go on practising later.
'Get on with your exercises!' the father shouted. 'Do you think it's something you can pick up and put down as you please? You don't understand the dedication it involves, do you? You'll never understand that!'
'He's just a child,' his mother said. 'And he doesn't have many friends. You can't keep him shut up indoors all day. He must be allowed to be a child too.'
'It's all right,' Gudlaugur said, and walked over to the boy visiting him. 'I might come out later. Go home and I'll come afterwards.'
As the boy left, before the door closed behind him, he heard Gudlaugur's father shout down the stairs: 'You shall never do that again, argue with me in front of strangers.'
Over time Gudlaugur became isolated at school and the boys in the top form started to tease him. It was very innocent at first. They all teased each other and there were fights in the playground and pranks just as in all schools, but by the age of eleven Gudlaugur had clearly become the butt of the bullying and practical jokes. It was not a large school by modern standards and everyone knew that Gudlaugur was different. He was wan and sickly. A stay-at-home. The boys where he lived stopped calling for him and started teasing him at school. His satchel would go missing or be empty when he picked it up. Boys pushed him over. They ripped his clothes. He was beaten up. He was called names. No one invited him to birthday parties.
Gudlaugur did not know how to fight back. He did not understand what was going on. His father complained to the headmaster, who promised to put an end to it, but it proved to be beyond his control and Gudlaugur would go home from school as before covered in bruises and clutching his empty satchel. His father contemplated removing him from the school, even moving out of the town, but he was obstinate and refused to give in, having taken part in founding the children's choir. He was pleased with the young conductor, and, knowing that choir was a place for Gudlaugur to practise and draw attention to himself eventually, felt that the bullying – for which there was no word in the Icelandic language in those days, Elínborg interjected – was something Gudlaugur simply had to put up with.
The boy responded with total surrender and became a dreamy loner. He concentrated on singing and the piano and appeared to derive some peace of mind from them. In that field everything went in his favour. He could see what he was capable of. But most of the time he felt bad and when his mother died it was as if he turned to nothing.
He was always seen alone and tried to smile if he met children from the school. He made a record that was reported in the newspapers. It was as if his father had been right all the time. Gudlaugur would be something special in life.
And soon, because of a closely guarded secret, he earned a new name in the neighbourhood.
'What was he called?' Erlendur asked.
'The headmaster didn't know,' Elínborg said, 'and his classmates either pretended not to remember or refused to tell. But it had a profound effect on the boy. They all agreed on that.'
'What time is it anyway?' Erlendur suddenly asked, as if in panic.
'I suppose it must be past seven,' Elínborg said. 'Is something wrong?'
'Bugger it, I've slept all day,' Erlendur said, leaping to his feet. 'I have to find Henry Wapshott. They were supposed to take a sample from him at lunchtime and he wasn't here.'
Elínborg looked at the record player, loudspeakers and records.
'Is he any good?' she asked.
'He's brilliant,' Erlendur said. 'You ought to listen to him.'
'I'm going home,' Elínborg said, standing up now too.
'Are you going to stay at the hotel over Christmas? Aren't you going to get yourself home?'
'I don't know,' Erlendur said. 'I'll see.'
'You're welcome to join us. You know that. I'll be having cold leg of pork. And ox tongue.'
'Don't worry so much,' Erlendur said as he opened the door. 'You get off home, I'm going to check on Wapshott.'
'Where's Sigurdur Óli been all day?' Elínborg asked.
'He was going to see if he could find out anything about Wapshott from Scotland Yard. He's probably home by now.'
'Why's it so cold in your room?'
'The radiator's broken,' Erlendur said, closing the door behind them.
When they went down to the lobby he said goodbye to Elínborg and found the head of reception in his office. Henry Wapshott had not been seen at the hotel all day. His key card was not in the pigeon hole and he had not checked out. He still had to pay the bill. Erlendur knew that he was catching the evening flight to London and he had nothing concrete to prevent him from leaving the country. He had not heard from Sigurdur Óli. He dithered in the lobby.
'Could you let me into his room?' he asked the reception manager.
The manager shook his head.
'He could have fled,' Erlendur said. 'Do you know when the plane for London leaves tonight? What time?'
'The afternoon flight was badly delayed,' the man said. Knowing all about the flights was part of his job. 'It will take off around nine, they think.'
Erlendur made a couple of telephone calls. He found out that Henry Wapshott had a flight booked to London. He had not checked in yet. Erlendur took measures for passport control to apprehend him at the airport and have him sent back to Reykjavík. Needing to find a reason for the Keflavík police to detain him, he hesitated for a moment and wondered whether to invent something. He knew that the press would have a field day if he told the truth, but he couldn't think of a plausible lie on the spot, and in the end he said, which was true, that Wapshott was under suspicion in a murder inquiry.
'Can't you let me into his room?' Erlendur asked the manager again. 'I won't touch anything. I just need to know if he's done a runner. It would take me ages to get a warrant. I just need to put my head round the door.'
'He may yet check out,' the manager said stiffly. "There's a good while before the flight yet and he has plenty of time to come back here, pack, pay his bill, check out and take the shuttle to Keflavík airport. Won't you hang on a while?'
Erlendur pondered.
'Can't you send someone up to tidy his room and I can walk past the door when it's open? Is that any problem?'
'You must understand the position I'm in,' the manager said. 'Above all we safeguard the interests of our guests. They're entitled to privacy, just like being at home. If I break that rule and word gets out or it's reported in the trial documents, our guests won't be able to trust us any longer. It couldn't be simpler. You must understand.'
'We're investigating a murder that was committed at this hotel,' Erlendur said. 'Isn't your reputation gone to buggery anyway?'
'Bring a warrant and there won't be any problem.'
Erlendur walked away from reception with a sigh. He took out his mobile and called Sigurdur Óli. The phone rang for a long while before he answered. Erlendur could hear voices in the background.
'Where on earth are you?' Erlendur asked.
'I'm doing the bread,' Sigurdur Óli said.
'Doing the bread?'
'Carving patterns in the wafer bread. For Christmas. With Bergthóra's family. It's a regular feature on our Christmas agenda. Have you gone home?'
'What did you find out from Scotland Yard about Henry Wapshott?'
'I'm waiting to hear. I'll find out tomorrow morning. Is anything happening with him?'
'I think he's trying to dodge the saliva sample,' Erlendur said, noticing the head of reception walking up with a sheet of paper in his hand. 'I think he's trying to leave the country without saying goodbye to us. I'll talk to you tomorrow. Don't cut your fingers'
Erlendur put his mobile in his pocket. The manager was standing in front of him.
'I decided to check out about Henry Wapshott,' he said, handing Erlendur the piece of paper. 'To help you a bit. I shouldn't be doing this but...'
'What is it?' Erlendur said as he looked at the paper. He saw Henry Wapshott's name and some dates.
'He's spent Christmas at this hotel for the past three years,' the manager said. 'If that helps at all.'
Erlendur stared at the dates.
'He said he's never been to Iceland before.'
'I don't know anything about that,' the man said. 'But he's been at this hotel before.'
'Do you remember him? Is he a regular?'
'I don't remember ever checking him in. There are more than two hundred rooms at this hotel and Christmas is always busy, so he can easily disappear into the crowd, besides which, he only makes short stops. Just a couple of days. I haven't noticed him this time around but the penny dropped when I looked at the printout. He's just like you in one respect. He has the same special needs.'
'What do you mean, like me? Special needs?' Erlendur could not imagine what he had in common with Henry Wapshott.
'He appears to be interested in music'
'What are you talking about?'
'You can see here,' the manager said, pointing at the sheet of paper. 'We make a note of our guests' special requirements. In most cases.'
Erlendur read down the list.
'He wanted a player in his room,' the manager said. 'Not a smart CD player, but some old heap. Just like you.'
'Bloody liar,' Erlendur hissed, and took out his mobile again.

16

A warrant for Henry Wapshott's arrest was issued that evening. He was apprehended when he went to catch the plane for London. Wapshott was taken to the cells in the police station on Hverfisgata and Erlendur obtained a warrant to search his room. The forensics team arrived at the hotel around midnight. They combed the room in search of the murder weapon, but found nothing. All they found was a suitcase that Wapshott clearly intended to leave behind, his shaving kit in the bathroom, an old record player similar to the one Erlendur had borrowed from the hotel, a television and video player, and several British newspapers and magazines. Including Record Collector.
Fingerprint experts looked for clues that Gudlaugur had been in his room, scouring the edges of the table and the door frame. Erlendur stood out in the corridor watching the forensics team. He wanted a cigarette and even a glass of Chartreuse because Christmas was coming, wanted his armchair and books. He intended to go home. Did not really know why he stayed at that deathly hotel. Did not really know what to do with himself.
White dust from the fingerprinting sprinkled onto the floor.
Erlendur saw the hotel manager waddling along the corridor. He wielded his handkerchief and was puffing and blowing. After taking a look inside the room where the forensics team were at work, he smiled all over his face.
'I heard you've caught him,' he said, wiping his neck. 'And that it was a foreigner.'
'Where did you hear that?' Erlendur asked.
'On the radio,' the manager said, unable to conceal his glee at all this good news. The man had been found, it was not an Icelander who committed the deed and it was not one of the hotel staff either. The manager panted: 'They said on the news that he was arrested at Keflavík airport on his way to London. A Brit?'
Erlendur's mobile started ringing.
'We don't know whether he's the one we're looking for,' he said as he took out his phone.
'You don't need to come down to the station,' Sigurdur Óli said when Erlendur answered. 'Not for the time being.'
'Shouldn't you be doing the Christmas bread?' Erlendur asked, and turned away from the manager with his mobile in his hand.
'He's drunk,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'Henry Wapshott. It's pointless trying to talk to him. Shall we let him sleep it off tonight and talk to him in the morning?'
'Did he cause any trouble?'
'No, not at all. They told me he went along with them without saying a word. They stopped him immediately at passport control and kept him in the body search room, and when the police arrived they took him straight out to the van and drove to Reykjavík. No trouble. He was apparently very reticent and fell asleep in the van on his way into town. He's sleeping in his cell now.'
'It was on the news, so I'm told,' Erlendur said. 'About the arrest' He looked at the manager. 'People are hoping we've got the right man.'
'He only had a case with him. A big briefcase.'
'Is there anything in it?'
'Records. Old ones. The same sort of vinyl crap we found in the room in the basement.'
'You mean Gudlaugur's records?'
'Looked like it. Not many. And he had some others. You can examine it all tomorrow.'
'He's hunting for Gudlaugur's records.'
'Maybe he managed to add to his collection,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'Should we meet down here at the station tomorrow morning?'
'We need a saliva sample from him,' Erlendur said.
'I'll see to that,' Sigurdur Óli said, and they rang off.
Erlendur put his mobile back in his pocket.
'Has he confessed?' the hotel manager asked. 'Did he confess?'
'Do you remember seeing him in the hotel before? Henry Wapshott. From Liverpool. Looks about sixty. He told me this was his first visit to Iceland, then it turns out that he's stayed here before.'
'I don't remember anyone by that name. Do you have a photograph of him?'
'I need to get one. Find out if any of the staff recognise him. It might ring a bell somewhere. Even the tiniest detail could be important.'
'Hopefully you'll get it all sorted,' the manager grunted. 'We've had cancellations because of the murder. Icelanders mostly The tourists haven't heard so much about it. But the buffet's not so busy and our bookings are down. I should never have allowed him to live down there in the basement. Bloody kindness will be the death of me.'
'You positively ooze with it,' Erlendur said.
The manager looked at Erlendur, unsure whether he was mocking him. The head of forensics came out into the corridor to them, greeted the manager and drew Erlendur to one side.
'It all looks like a typical tourist in a double room in a Reykjavik hotel,' he said. "The murder weapon isn't lying on his bedside table, if that's what you were hoping for, and there are no bloodstained clothes in his suitcase – nothing to connect him with the man in the basement really. The room's covered with fingerprints. But he's obviously done a runner. He left his room as if he was on his way down to the bar. His electric shaver is still plugged in. Spare pairs of shoes on the floor. And some slippers he'd brought with him. That's really all we can say at this stage. The man was in a hurry. He was fleeing.'
The head of forensics went back into the room and Erlendur walked over to the manager.
"Who does the cleaning on this corridor?' he asked. 'Who goes into the rooms? Don't the cleaners share the floors out between them?'
'I know which women do this floor,' the manager said. 'There are no men. For some reason.'
He said this sarcastically, as if cleaning was obviously not a man's job.
'And who are they then?' Erlendur asked.
'Well, the girl you talked to, for example.'
'Which girl I talked to?'
*
'The one in the basement,' the manager said. 'Who found the body. The girl who found the dead Santa. This is her floor.'
When Erlendur went back to his room two storeys above, Eva Lind was waiting for him in the corridor. She was sitting on the floor, leaning against the wall, with her knees up under her chin, and appeared to be asleep. When he walked over she looked up and smoothed out her clothes.
'It's fantastic coming to this hotel,' she said. 'When are you going to get your arse back home?'
'The plan was soon,' Erlendur said. 'I'm growing tired of this place too.'
He slid his card into the slot on the door. Eva Lind got to her feet and followed him inside. Erlendur closed the door and Eva threw herself flat out onto his bed. He sat down at the desk.
'Getting anywhere with the bizz?' Eva asked, lying on her stomach with her eyes closed as if trying to fall asleep.
'Very slowly,' Erlendur said. 'And stop calling it "bizz". What's wrong with "business", or even "case"?'
'Aw, shut your face,' Eva Lind said, her eyes still closed. Erlendur smiled. He looked at his daughter on the bed and wondered what kind of parent he would have been. Would he have made great demands on her? Signed her up for ballet classes? Hoped she was a little genius? Would he have hit her if she had knocked his chartreuse onto the floor?
'Are you there?' she asked, eyes still closed.
'Yes, I'm here,' Erlendur said wearily.
'Why don't you say anything?'
'What am I supposed to say? What are people ever supposed to say?'
'Well, what you're doing at this hotel, for instance. Seriously.'
'I don't know. I didn't want to go back to the flat. It's a bit of a change.'
'Change! What's the difference between hanging around by yourself in this room and hanging around by yourself at home?'
'Do you want to hear some music?' Erlendur asked, trying to steer the conversation away from himself. He began outlining the case to his daughter, point by point, to gain some kind of a picture of it himself. He told her about the girl who found a stabbed Santa, once an exceptionally gifted choirboy who had made two records that were sought-after by collectors. His voice was unique.
He reached for the record he had yet to listen to. It contained two hymns and was clearly designed for Christmas. On the sleeve was Gudlaugur wearing a Santa hat, with a wide smile showing his adult teeth, and Erlendur thought about the irony of fate. He put the record on and the choirboy's voice resounded around the room in beautiful, bitter-sweet song. Eva Lind opened her eyes and sat up on the bed.
'Are you joking?' she said.
'Don't you think it's magnificent?'
'I've never heard a kid sing like that,' Eva said. 'I don't think I've ever heard anyone sing so beautifully' They sat in silence and listened to the end of the song. Erlendur reached over to the record player, turned the record over and played the hymn on the other side. They listened to it, and when it was over Eva Lind asked him to play it again.
Erlendur told her about Gudlaugur's family, the concert in Hafnarfjördur, his father and sister who had not been in touch with him for more than thirty years, and the British collector who tried to leave the country and was only interested in choirboys. Told her that Gudlaugur's records might be valuable today.
'Do you think that's why he got done?' Eva Lind asked. 'Because of the records? Because they're valuable now?'
'I don't know.'
'Are there any still around?'
'I don't think so,' Erlendur said, 'and that's probably what makes them collectors' items. Elínborg says collectors look for something that's unique. But that might not be important. Maybe someone at the hotel attacked him. Someone who didn't know about the choirboy at all.'
Erlendur decided not to tell his daughter about the way Gudlaugur was found. He knew that when she was taking drugs she had prostituted herself and knew how it operated in Reykjavík. Yet he flinched from broaching that subject with her. She lived her own life and had her own way without him ever having any say in the matter. But since he thought there was a possibility that Gudlaugur had paid for sex at the hotel, he asked her if she knew of any prostitution there.
Eva Lind looked at her father.
'Poor bloke,' she said without answering him. Her mind was still on the choirboy. 'There was a girl like that at my school. Primary school. She made a few records. Her name was Vala Dögg. You remember anything by her? She was really hyped. Sang Christmas carols. A pretty little blonde girl.'
Erlendur shook his head.
'She was a child star. Sang on children's hour and TV shows and sang really well, a little sweetie-pie sort of type. Her dad was some obscure pop singer but it was her mum who was a bit of a nutter and wanted to make a pop star out of her. She got teased big time. She was really nice, not a show-off or pretentious in the least, but people were always bugging her. Icelanders get jealous and annoyed so easily. She was bullied, so she left school and got a job. I met her a lot when I was doing dope and she'd turned into a total creep. Worse than me. Burned-out and forgotten. She told me it was the worst thing that ever happened to her.'
'Being a child star?'
'It ruined her. She never escaped from it. Was never allowed to be herself. Her mum was really bossy. Never asked her if it was what she wanted. She liked singing and being in the spotlight and all that, but she had no idea what was going on. She could never be anything more than the little cutie on children's hour. She was only allowed to have one dimension. She was pretty little Vala Dögg. And then she got teased about it, and couldn't understand why until she got older and realised that she'd never be anything but a pretty little dolly singing in her frock. That she'd never be a world-famous pop star like her mum always told her.'
Eva Lind stopped talking and looked at her father.
'She totally fell to bits. She said the bullying was the worst thing, it turns you into shit. You end up with exactly the same opinion of yourself as the people who persecute you.'
'Gudlaugur probably went through the same,' Erlendur said. 'He left home young. It must be a strain for kids having to go through all that.'
They fell silent.
'Of course there are tarts at this hotel,' Eva Lind suddenly said, throwing herself back on the bed. 'Obviously.'
'What do you know about it? Is there anything you could help me with?'
'There are tarts everywhere. You can dial a number and they wait for you at the hotel. Classy tarts. They don't call themselves tarts, they provide "escort services".'
'Do you know of any who work this hotel? Girls or women who do that?'
"They don't have to be Icelandic. They're imported too. They can come over as tourists for a couple of weeks, then they don't need any papers. Then come back a few months later.'
Eva Lind looked at her father.
'You could talk to Stína. She's my friend. She knows the game. Do you think it was a tart who killed him?'
'I have no idea.'
They fell silent. Outside in the darkness snowflakes glittered as they fell to the ground. Erlendur vaguely recalled a reference to snow in the Bible, sins and snow, and tried to remember it: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow.
'I'm freaking out,' Eva Lind said. There was no excitement in her voice. No eagerness.
'Maybe you can't handle it by yourself,' Erlendur said; he had urged his daughter to seek counselling. 'Maybe you need someone other than me to help you.'
'Don't give me that psychology bollocks,' Eva said.
'You haven't got over it and you don't look well, and soon you'll go and take the pain away the old way, then you're back in exactly the same mess as before.'
Erlendur was on the verge of saying the sentence he still had not dared to say out loud to his daughter.
'Preaching all the time,' Eva Lind said, instantly on edge, and she stood up.
He decided to fire away.
'You'd be failing the baby that died.'
Eva Lind stared at her father, her eyes black with rage.
'The other option you have is to come to terms with this fucking life, as you call it, and put up with the suffering it involves. Put up with the suffering we all have to endure, always, to get through that and find and enjoy the happiness and joy that it brings us as well, in spite of our being alive.'
'Speak for yourself! You can't even go home at Christmas because there's nothing there! Not a fucking thing and you can't go there because you know it's just a hole with nothing in it which you can't be bothered to crawl back into any more.'
'I'm always at home at Christmas,' Erlendur said.
Eva Lind looked confused.
'What are you talking about?'
'That's the worst thing about Christmas,' Erlendur said. 'I always go home.'
'I don't understand you,' Eva Lind said, opening the door. I'll never understand you.'
She slammed the door behind her. Erlendur stood up to run after her, but stopped. He knew that she would come back. He walked over to the window and watched his reflection in the glass until he could see through it into the darkness and the glittering snowflakes.
He had forgotten his decision to go home to the hole with nothing in it, as Eva Lind put it. He turned from the window and set Gudlaugur's hymns playing again, stretched out on his bed and listened to the boy who, much later, would be found murdered in a little room at a hotel, and thought about sins as white as snow.
FOURTH DAY

17

He woke up early in the morning, still in his clothes and lying on top of the quilt. It took him a long time to shake off the sleep. A dream about his father followed him into the dark morning and he struggled to remember it but caught only snatches: his father, younger in some way, fitter, smiled at him in a deserted forest.
His hotel room was dark and cold. The sun would not be up for a few hours yet. He lay thinking about the dream, his father and the loss of his brother. How the unbearable loss had made a hole in his world. And how the hole was continually growing and he stepped back from its edge to look down into the void that was ready to swallow him when finally he let go.
He shook off these waking fantasies and thought about his tasks for the day. What was Henry Wapshott hiding? Why did he tell lies and make a forlorn attempt to flee, drunk and without luggage? His behaviour puzzled Erlendur. And before long his thoughts stopped at the boy in the hospital bed and his father: Elínborgs case, which she had explained to him in detail.
Elínborg suspected that the boy had been maltreated before and there were strong indications that it happened at home. The father was under suspicion. She insisted on having him remanded in custody for the duration of the investigation. A week's custody was granted, against vociferous protests from both the father and his lawyer. When the warrant was issued Elínborg went to fetch him with four uniformed police officers and accompanied him down to Hverfisgata. She led him along the prison corridor and locked the door to his cell herself. She pulled back the hatch on the door and looked in at the man who was standing on the same spot with his back turned to her, hunched up and somehow helpless, like everyone who is removed from human society and kept like an animal in a cage.
He slowly turned round and looked her in the eye from the other side of the steel door, and she slid the hatch shut on him.
Early the next morning she began questioning him. Erlendur took part but Elínborg was in charge of the interrogation. The two of them sat facing him in the interrogation room. On the table between them was an ashtray screwed down to the table. The father was unshaven, wearing a crumpled suit and a scruffy white shirt buttoned at the neck with a tie knotted impeccably, as if it represented the last vestiges of his self-respect.
Elínborg switched on the tape recorder and recorded the interview, the names of those present and the number assigned to the case. She had prepared herself well. She had met the boy's supervisor from school who talked about dyslexia, attention deficit disorder and poor school performance; a psychologist, a friend of hers, who talked about disappointment, stress and denial; and talked to the boy's friends, neighbours, relatives, everyone whom it occurred to her to ask about the boy and his father.
The man would not yield He accused them of persecution, announced that he would sue them, and refused to answer their questions. Elínborg looked at Erlendur. A warden appeared who pushed the man to his cell again.
Two days later he was brought back for questioning. His lawyer had brought him more comfortable clothes from home and he was now dressed in jeans and a T-shirt with a designer label on one of the breast pockets, which he wore like a medal rewarding him for absurdly expensive shopping. He was in a different frame of mind now. Three days in custody had dampened his arrogance, as it tends to do, and he saw that it depended on him alone whether he would stay confined in the cells or not.
Elínborg made sure that he came in for interrogation barefoot. His shoes and socks were taken away without explanation. When he sat down in front of them he tried to pull his feet under his chair.
Elínborg and Erlendur sat facing him, intractable. The tape recorder whirred softly.
'I talked to your son's teacher,' Elínborg said. 'And although what happens and passes between parent and teacher is confidential and she was very firm about that, she wanted to help the boy, help in the criminal case. She told me you assaulted him once in front of her.'
Assaulted him! I gave him a little rap on the jaw. That's hardly what you call assault. He was being naughty, that's all. Fidgeting all over the place. He's difficult. You don't know about that sort of thing. The strain.'
'So it's right to punish him?'
'We're good friends, my boy and I,' the father said. 'I love him. I'm responsible for him all by myself. His mother...'
'I know about his mother,' Elínborg said. And of course it can be difficult bringing up a child by yourself. But what you did to him and do to him is ... it's indescribable.'
The father sat and said nothing.
'I didn't do anything,' he said eventually.
Elínborg crossed her legs and caught her foot on the father's shin as she did so.
'Sorry? Elínborg said.
He winced, unsure whether she had done it on purpose.
"The teacher said you make unrealistic demands on your son,' she said, unruffled. 'Is that true?'
'What's unrealistic? I want him to get an education and make something of himself.'
'Understandably,' Elínborg said. 'But he's eight years old, dyslexic and borderline hyperactive. You didn't finish school yourself?
'I own and run my own business.'
'Which is bankrupt. You're losing your house, your fancy car, the wealth that's brought you a certain social status. People look up to you. When the old classmates have a reunion you're sure to be the big shot. Those golfing trips with your mates. You're losing everything. How infuriating, especially when you bear in mind that your wife is in a psychiatric ward and your son's behind at school. It all mounts up, and in the end you explode when Addi, who's surely spilled milk and dropped plates on the floor all his life, knocks a bottle of Drambuie onto the marble floor of your lounge.'
The father looked at her. His expression did not change.
Elínborg had visited his wife at Kleppur mental hospital. She suffered from schizophrenia and sometimes had to be admitted when she began hallucinating and the voices overwhelmed her. When Elínborg met her she was on such strong medication that she could hardly speak. Sat rocking backwards and forwards and asked Elínborg for a cigarette. Had no idea why she was visiting her.
'I'm trying to bring him up as best I can,' the father said in the interrogation room.
'By pricking the back of his hand with needles.'
'Shut your mouth.'
Elínborg had talked to the man's sister, who said she sometimes thought the boy's upbringing rather harsh. She cited one example from a visit to their home. The boy was four at the time and complained that he was not feeling well, he cried a little and she thought he might even have the flu. Her brother lost his patience when the boy had been moaning at him for some while, and he picked him up and held him.
'Is anything wrong?' he asked the child brashly.
'No,' Addi said, his voice low and nervous, as if giving in.
'You shouldn't be crying.'
'No,' the boy said.
'If there's nothing wrong, then stop crying.'
'Yes.'
'So is there anything wrong?'
'No.'
'So everything's OK.'
'Yes.'
'Good. You shouldn't blubber about nothing.'
Elínborg recounted this story to the father, but his expression remained unchanged.
'My sister and I don't get on,' he said. 'I don't remember that.'
'Did you assault your son with the result that he was admitted to hospital?' Elínborg asked.
The father looked at her.
Elínborg repeated the question.
'No,' he said. 'I didn't. Do you think any father would do that? He was beaten up at school.'
The boy was out of hospital. Child welfare had found a foster home for him and Elínborg went to see him when the interrogation was over. She sat down beside him and asked how he was doing. He hadn't said a word to her since the first time they met, but now he looked at her as if he wanted to say something.
He cleared his throat, faltering.
'I miss my dad,' he said, choking back the sobs.
Erlendur was sitting at the breakfast table when he saw Sigurdur Óli come in followed by Henry Wapshott. Two detectives sat down at another table behind them. The British record collector was scruffier than before, his ruffled hair standing out in all directions and a look of suffering on his face, which expressed total humiliation and a lost battle with a hangover and imprisonment.
'What's going on?' Erlendur asked Sigurdur Óli, and stood up. 'Why did you bring him here? And why isn't he done up?'
'Done up?'
'In handcuffs.'
'Does that look necessary to you?'
Erlendur looked at Wapshott.
'I couldn't be bothered to wait for you,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'We can only detain him until this evening, so you'll have to make a decision on charges as soon as possible. And he wanted to meet you here. Refused to talk to me. Just wanted to talk to you. Like you were old friends. He hasn't insisted on bail, hasn't asked for legal aid or help from his embassy. We've told him he can contact the embassy but he just shakes his head.'
'Have you found out anything about him from Scotland Yard?' Erlendur said with a glance at Wapshott, who was standing behind Sigurdur Óli, his head hung low.
'I'll explore that when you take him over,' said Sigurdur Óli, who had done nothing on the matter. 'I'll let you know what they've got on him, if anything.'
Sigurdur Óli said goodbye to Wapshott, stopped briefly with the two detectives, then left. Erlendur offered the British man a seat. Wapshott perched on a chair, looking down at the floor.
'I didn't kill him,' he said in a low voice. 'I could never have killed him. I've never been able to kill anything, not even flies. To say nothing of that wonderful choirboy.'
Erlendur looked at Wapshott.
'Are you talking about Gudlaugur?'
'Yes,' Wapshott said. 'Of course.'
'He was a long way from being a choirboy,' Erlendur said. 'Gudlaugur was almost fifty and played Santa Claus at Christmas parties.'
'You don't understand,' Wapshott said.
'No, I don't,' Erlendur said. 'Maybe you can explain it to me.'
'I wasn't at the hotel when he was attacked,' Wapshott said.
'Where were you?'
'I was looking for records.' Wapshott looked up and a pained smile passed across his face. 'I was looking at the stuff you Icelanders throw away. Seeing what comes out of that recycling plant. They told me a dead person's estate had come in. Including gramophone records for disposal.'
'Who?'
'Who what?'
'Told you about the dead person's things?'
'The staff. I give them a tip if they let me know. They have my card. I've told you that. I go to the collectors' shops, meet other collectors and go to the markets. Kolaportid, isn't that the name? I do what all collectors do, try to find something worth owning.'
'Was anyone with you at the time of the attack on Gudlaugur? Someone we can talk to?'
'No,' Wapshott said.
'But they must remember you at those places'
'Of course.'
'And did you find anything worth having? Any choirboys?'
'Nothing. I haven't found anything on this trip.'
'Why were you running away from us?' Erlendur asked.
'I wanted to get home.'
'And you left all your stuff at the hotel?'
'Yes.'
Apart from a few of Gudlaugur's records'
'Yes.'
'Why did you tell me you'd never been to Iceland before?'
'I don't know. I didn't want to attract unnecessary attention. The murder has nothing to do with me.'
'It's very easy to prove the opposite. You must have known, when you were lying, that I'd find out. That I'd find out you'd been at this hotel before.'
'The murder is nothing to do with me.'
'But now you've convinced me it is something to do with you. You couldn't have drawn more attention to yourself?
'I didn't kill him.'
'What was your relationship with Gudlaugur?'
'I've told you that story and I wasn't lying then. I became interested in his singing, in old records by him as a choirboy, and when I heard he was still alive I contacted him.'
'Why did you lie? You've been to Iceland before, you've stayed at this hotel before and you've definitely met Gudlaugur before.'
'It's nothing to do with me. The murder. When I heard about it I was afraid you'd find out that I knew him. I got more paranoid by the minute and I had to apply amazing self-discipline not to make a run for it at once, which would have pointed the finger at me. I had to let a few days go by, but then I couldn't stand it any longer and I had to get away. My nerves couldn't take it any more. But I didn't kill him.'
'How much did you know about Gudlaugur's background?'
'Not much.'
'Isn't the point about collecting records to dig up information about what you collect? Have you done that?'
'I don't know much,' Wapshott said. 'I know he lost his voice at a concert, only two recordings of his songs were released, he fell out with his father...'
'Wait a minute, how did you hear about how he died?'
'What do you mean?'
"The hotel guests weren't told it was a murder, but an accident or heart attack. How did you find out he'd been murdered?'
'How did I find out? You told me.'
'Yes, I told you and you were very surprised, but now you say that when you heard about the murder you were afraid we would link you to him. In other words, it was before we met. Before we linked you to him.'
Wapshott stared at him. Erlendur could tell when people were stalling for time, and he let Wapshott have all the time he needed. The two detectives sat calmly at a suitable distance. Erlendur had been late for breakfast and there were few people in the dining hall. He caught a glimpse of the big chef who had gone berserk when the saliva sample was supposed to be taken. Erlendur's thoughts turned to Valgerdur. The biotechnician. What would she be doing? Sticking needles into children who were fighting back their tears or trying to kick her?
'I didn't want to get involved in this,' Wapshott said.
'What are you hiding? Why don't you want to talk to the British embassy? Why don't you want a lawyer?'
'I heard people talking about it down here. Hotel guests. They were saying someone had been murdered. Some Americans. That's how I heard. And I was worried that you would connect us and I'd end up in precisely the situation in which I now find myself. That's why I fled. It's as simple as that.'
Erlendur remembered the American Henry Bartlet and his wife. Cindy, she had told Sigurdur Óli with a smile.
'How much are Gudlaugur's records worth?'
'What do you mean?'
'They must be worth a lot to make you come all the way up to the cold north here in the middle of winter to get hold of them. How much are they worth? One record. What does it cost?'
'If you want to sell it you auction it, even on E-bay, and there's no telling how much it will fetch in the end.'
'But at a guess. What do you guess it would sell for?'
'I cant say.'
'Did you meet Gudlaugur before he died?'
Henry Wapshott hesitated.
'Yes,' he said at last.
'The note we found, 18.30, was that the time of your meeting?'
'That was the day before he was found dead. We sat down in his room and had a short meeting.'
'About what?'
'About his records.'
'What about his records?'
'I wanted to know, I've wanted to know for a long time, whether he had any more. Whether the handful I know about, in my own collection and others', are the only copies in the world. For some reason he wouldn't answer. I asked him first in a letter that I wrote him several years ago, and it was one of the first things I asked when I met him.'
'So, did he have any records for you?'
'He refused to say.'
'Did he know what his records were worth?'
'I gave him a fairly clear picture.'
'And how much are these records really worth?'
Wapshott did not reply immediately.
'When I met him the last time, he gave in,' he said. 'He wanted to talk about his records. I...'
Wapshott hesitated again. He looked behind him and saw the two detectives who were guarding him.
'I gave him half a million.'
'Haifa million?'
'Króna. As a down payment or—'
'You told me we weren't talking about huge sums'
Wapshott shrugged and Erlendur thought he detected a smile.
'So that's another lie,' Erlendur said.
'Yes.'
'Down payment for what?'
'The records he owned. If he had any'
'And did you let him have the money the last time you met him without knowing if he had any records?'
'Yes.'
"Then what?'
'Then he was killed.'
'We didn't find any money on him.'
'I don't know anything about that. I gave him half a million the day before he died.'
Erlendur recalled asking Sigurdur Óli to check Gudlaugur's bank account. He must remember to ask him what he had found out.
'Did you see the records in his room?'
'No.'
'Why should I believe that? You've lied about everything else. Why should I believe anything you say?'
Wapshott shrugged.
'So he had half a million on him when he was attacked?'
'I don't know. All I know is that I gave him the money and then later he was killed.'
'Why didn't you tell me about that money in the first place?'
'I wanted to be left alone,' Wapshott said. 'I didn't want you to think I'd killed him for the money'
'Did you?'
'No.'
They paused.
'Are you going to charge me?' Wapshott asked.
'I think you're still hiding something,' Erlendur said. 'I can hold you until the evening. Then we'll see.'
'I could never have killed the choirboy. I worship him and still do. I've never heard such a beautiful voice from any boy.'
Erlendur looked at Henry Wapshott.
'Strange how alone you are in all this,' he said, before even realising it.
'What do you mean?'
'You're so alone in the world.'
'I didn't kill him,' Wapshott said. 'I didn't kill him.'

18

Wapshott left the hotel accompanied by the two policemen, while Erlendur found out that Ösp, the girl who had discovered the body, was currently working on the fourth floor. He took the lift and when he arrived there he saw her loading a trolley with dirty laundry outside one of the rooms. She did not notice him until he walked up to her and said her name. She looked up and recognised him at once.
'Oh, is it you again?' she said indifferently.
She looked even more tired and depressed than when he had met her in the staff coffee room, and Erlendur thought to himself that Christmas was probably no season of joy in her life either. Before he knew it he had asked her.
'Does Christmas get you down?'
Instead of answering him she pushed the trolley to the next door, knocked and waited a moment before taking out her master key and opening the door. She called into the room in case someone was inside but had not heard her knocking, then went in and began cleaning, made the bed, picked up the towels from the bathroom floor, squirted cleaner on the mirror. Erlendur wandered into the room after her and watched her at work, and after a while she seemed to notice that he was still there with her.
'You mustn't come into the room,' she said. 'It's private.'
'You do room 312 on the floor below,' Erlendur said. 'A weird Brit was there. Henry Wapshott. Did you notice anything unusual in his room?'
She gave him a look of not quite following what he meant.
'Like a bloodstained knife, for example?' Erlendur said and tried to smile.
'No,' Ösp said. She stopped to think. Then she asked: 'What knife? Did he kill Santa?'
'I don't quite remember how you put it the last time we spoke, but you said some of the guests grope you. I thought you were talking about sexual harassment. Was he one of them?'
'No, I only saw him once.'
'And was there nothing that—'
'He went ballistic,' she said. 'When I went into the room.'
'Ballistic?'
'I disturbed him and he threw me out. I went to check what was going on and it turned out he'd made a special request at reception not to have his room tidied. No one told me anything. None of this bloody crew ever says a word to us. So I walked in on him and when he saw me he totally lost it. Went for me, the old sod. As if I have any say at this hotel. He should have gone for the hotel manager.'
'He is a little mysterious.'
'He's a creep.'
'I mean that Wapshott.'
'Yes, both of them.'
'So you didn't notice anything unusual in his room?'
'It was a real mess, but that's nothing unusual.'
Ösp stopped working, stood still for a moment and looked pensively at Erlendur.
'Are you getting anywhere? With Santa?'
'A little,' Erlendur said. 'Why?'
'This is a weird hotel,' Ösp said, lowering her voice and looking out into the corridor.
'Weird?' Erlendur had a sudden feeling that she was not quite so self-confident. 'Are you afraid of something? Something here at the hotel?'
Ösp did not answer.
'Are you frightened of losing your job?'
She looked at Erlendur.
'Yeah right, this is the sort of job you don't want to lose.'
'So what is it?'
Ösp hesitated, then seemed to make a decision. As if what she wanted to say was not worth bothering about any longer.
'They steal from the kitchen,' she said. 'Everything they can. I don't think they've had to go shopping for years.'
'Steal?'
'Everything that's not bolted to the floor.'
'Who are they?'
'Don't say I told you. The head chef. Him for starters.'
'How do you know?'
'Gulli told me. He knew everything that went on at this hotel'
Erlendur recalled when he stole the ox tongue from the buffet and the head chef saw him and chided him. Remembered his tone of indignation.
'When did he tell you this?'
'A couple of months ago.'
'So what? Did it worry him? Was he going to tell someone? Why did he tell you? I thought you didn't know him.'
'I didn't know him.' Ösp paused. 'They were having a go at me in the kitchen,' she continued. 'Talking dirty. "How you feeling down there?" and that sort of thing. All the pathetic crap morons like that come up with. Gulli heard it and talked to me. Told me not to worry. He said they were all thieves and he could get them caught if he wanted.'
'Did he threaten to get them caught?'
'He didn't threaten anything,' Ösp said. 'He just said it to cheer me up.'
'What do they steal?' Erlendur asked. 'Did he mention anything in particular?'
'He said the manager knew but didn't do anything, he's on the take too. He buys black market stuff. For the bars. Gulli told me that too. The head waiter's in on it with him.'
'Gudlaugur told you that?'
'Then they pocket the difference.'
'Why didn't you tell me this when I first talked to you?'
'Is it relevant?'
'It might be.'
Ösp shrugged.
'I didn't know and I wasn't quite myself after I found him. Gudlaugur. With the condom. And the knife wounds'
'Did you see any money in his room?'
'Money?'
'He'd recently been paid some money but I don't know whether he had it on him when he was attacked.'
'I didn't see a penny.'
'No,' Erlendur said. 'You didn't take the money? When you found him?'
Ösp stopped working and threw her hands down by her sides.
'Do you mean, did I steal it?'
'These things happen.'
'You think I—'
'Did you take it?'
'No.'
'You had the chance.'
'So did the person who killed him.'
'That's true,' Erlendur said.
'I didn't see a penny.'
'No, all right.'
Ösp went back to her cleaning. Sprayed disinfectant into the toilet bowl and scrubbed it with the brush, acting as if Erlendur wasn't there. He watched her working for a little while, then thanked her.
'What do you mean, you disturbed him?' he said, stopping at the door. 'Henry Wapshott. You could hardly have got very far into his room if you called out first the way you did here.'
'He didn't hear me.'
'What was he doing?'
'I don't know if I can ...'
'It won't go any further.'
'He was watching TV,' Ösp said.
'He wouldn't want that to get around,' Erlendur whispered conspiratorially.
'Or, you know, a video,' Ösp said. 'It was porn. Disgusting.'
'Do they show porn films at the hotel?'
'Not that sort of film, they're banned everywhere.'
'What sort of film?'
'It was child pornography. I told the manager.'
'Child pornography? What sort of child pornography?'
'What sort? Do you want me to describe it?'
'What day was this?'
'Fucking pervert!'
'When was it?'
'The day I found Gulli.'
'What did the manager do?'
'Nothing,' Ösp said. 'Told me to keep my mouth shut about it.'
'Do you know who Gudlaugur was?'
'What do you mean, the doorman? He was the doorman. Was he something else?'
'Yes, when he was little. He was a choirboy and had a very good voice. I've heard his records'
'A choirboy?'
'A child star, really. Then somehow everything went wrong in his life. He grew up and it was over.'
'I didn't know that.'
'No, no one knew about Gudlaugur any more,' Erlendur said.
They fell silent, deep in their own thoughts. Some minutes passed.
'Does Christmas get you down?' Erlendur asked again. It was as if he had found a soul mate.
She turned towards him.
'Christmas is for happy people.'
Erlendur looked at Ösp and a hint of a wry smile moved across his face.
'You'd get on with my daughter,' he said, and took out his mobile phone.
Sigurdur Óli was surprised when Erlendur told him about the money that had probably been in Gudlaugur's room. They discussed the need to verify Wapshott's claim that he had been roaming the record markets at the time the murder was committed. Sigurdur Óli was standing in front of Wapshott's cell when Erlendur phoned him, and he described the conditions under which his saliva sample had been taken.
The cell he was in had housed many poor unfortunates, the whole spectrum from wretched tramps to thugs and murderers, and they had covered the walls and scratched the paint with remarks about their miserable stay in custody.
In the cell was a toilet bowl and a bed, bolted to the floor. On top of it was a thin mattress and a hard pillow. There were no windows in the cell, but high above the prisoner was a strong fluorescent light that was never switched off, making it difficult for the occupants to tell whether it was day or night.
Henry Wapshott stood rigid against the wall, facing the heavy steel door. Two warders held him. Elínborg and Sigurdur Óli were also in the cell with a warrant ordering the test to be made, and Valgerdur was there too, cotton bud in hand, ready to take the sample.
Wapshott stared at her as if she were the devil incarnate, who had arrived to drag him down into eternal hell fire. His eyes were popping out of his head, he arched himself as far away from her as he could, and no matter how they tried, they could not make him open his mouth.
Eventually they laid him on the floor and held his nose until he had to give in and gasp for breath. Valgerdur seized the chance and rammed the cotton wool bud into his mouth, wiped it around until he retched, then whipped it back out of him and hurried from the cell.

19

When Erlendur went back down to the lobby on his way to the kitchen he saw Marion Briem standing at the reception desk in a shabby coat, wearing a hat and fidgeting. He noticed how badly his old boss had aged in the years since they had last met, but still had the same watchful and inquisitive eyes, and never wasted time on formalities.
'You look awful,' Marion said, sitting down. 'What's getting you down?' A cigarillo appeared from somewhere in the coat and a box of matches with it.
'This is a smoke-free zone, apparently,' Erlendur said.
'You can't smoke anywhere any more,' Marion said, lighting up. Marion wore a pained expression, the skin grey, slack and wrinkled. Pallid lips puckered around the cigarillo. Anaemic nails stood out from bony fingers that reached for the cigarillo again once the lungs had taken their fill.
For all the long and eventful history of their acquaintance, Marion and Erlendur had never got along particularly well. Marion had been Erlendur's boss for years and tried to teach him the profession. Erlendur was surly and did not accept guidance willingly; he couldn't stand his superiors in those days and nothing had changed. Marion would take umbrage at this and they often clashed, but Marion knew that a better detective was difficult to find, if only because Erlendur was not tied down by family and the time-consuming commitments that entailed. Erlendur did nothing but work. Marion was the same, a lifelong recluse.
'What's new with you?' Marion asked, puffing on the cigarillo.
'Nothing,' Erlendur said.
'Does Christmas annoy you?'
'I've never understood this Christmas business,' Erlendur said vaguely as he peered into the kitchen, on the lookout for the chef's hat.
'No,' Marion said. 'Too much cheer and joy, I would imagine. Why don't you get yourself a girlfriend? You're not that old. There are plenty of women who could take a fancy to an old fart like you.'
'I've tried that,' Erlendur said. 'What did you find out about—'
'Do you mean your wife?'
Erlendur didn't intend to spend the time discussing his private life.
'Stop it, will you?'
'I heard that—'
'I told you to stop it,' Erlendur said angrily.
'All right,' Marion said. 'It's none of my business how you live your life. All I know is that loneliness is a slow and painful death.' Marion paused. 'But of course you've got your children, haven't you?'
'Can't we just skip all this?' Erlendur said. 'You are—' He got no further.
'What am I?'
'What are you doing here? Couldn't you have phoned?'
Marion looked at Erlendur and the hint of a smile played across that old face.
'I'm told you've been sleeping at this hotel. That you won't go home for Christmas. What's happening to you? Why don't you go home?'
Erlendur didn't answer.
'Are you that fed up with yourself?'
'Can't we talk about something else?'
'I know the feeling. Being fed up with yourself. With the bastard that happens to be you and which you can't get out of your own head. You can get rid of it for a while but it always comes back and starts on the same old bollocks. You can try to drink it away. Have a change of scenery. Stay at hotels when it gets really bad.'
'Marion,' Erlendur pleaded, 'give me a break.'
'Anyone who owns Gudlaugur Egilsson's records,' Marion said, suddenly getting to the point, 'is sitting on a goldmine.'
'What makes you say that?'
'They're a treasure trove today. Admittedly not many people own them or know about them, but people in the know are prepared to pay incredible sums for them. Gudlaugur's records are a rarity in the collectors' world and very sought-after.'
'What kind of incredible sums? Tens of thousands?'
'Could be hundreds of thousands,' Marion said. 'For a single copy.'
'Hundreds of thousands? You're kidding.' Erlendur sat up in his seat. He thought about Henry Wapshott. Knew why he came to Iceland in search of Gudlaugur. In search of his records. It was not only admiration for choirboys that kindled his interest, as Wapshott would have him believe. Erlendur realised why he had given Gudlaugur half a million on the off-chance.
'As far as I've been able to find out, the boy made only two records,' Marion Briem said. 'And what makes them valuable, besides the boy's incredible singing, is that very few copies were cut and they hardly sold at all. There aren't many people who own those records today.'
'Does the actual singing matter?'
'It seems to, but the rule is still that the quality of the music, the quality of what is on the record, is less important than its condition. The music might be bad but if it's the right performer with the right song and the right label at the right time, it can be priceless. No one is interested solely in artistic value.'
'What happened to the copies? Do you know?'
"They've gone missing. They've been lost over the course of time or simply thrown away. That happens. Probably there weren't more than a couple of hundred to start with. The main reason that the records are so valuable is that there only seems to be a handful in the world. The short career helps too. I understand he lost his voice and never sang again.'
'It happened at a concert, the poor boy Erlendur said. 'A wolf in your voice, it's called. When your voice breaks'
'Then decades later he's found murdered.'
'If those records are worth hundreds of thousands ...?'
'Well?'
'Isn't that ample motive for killing him? We found one copy of each record in his room. There was really nothing else in there.'
'Then the person who stabbed him can't have realised how much they are worth,' Marion Briem said.
'Because otherwise he would have stolen the records?'
'What were the copies like?'
'Pristine,' Erlendur said. 'Not a spot or crease on the sleeves and I can't see that they've ever been played...'
He looked at Marion Briem.
'Could Gudlaugur possibly have acquired all the copies?' he said.
'Why not?' Marion said.
'We found some keys in his room that we can't figure out. Where might he have kept others?'
'It needn't be the whole lot,' Marion said. 'Maybe some of them. Who else would own them other than the choirboy himself?'
'I don't know,' Erlendur said. 'We've detained a collector who came over from the UK to meet Gudlaugur. A mysterious old sod who tried to run away from us and worships the ex-choirboy. He seems to be the only person around here who realises how much Gudlaugur's records are worth.'
'Is he a nutter?' Marion Briem asked.
'Sigurdur Óli's looking into that,' Erlendur said. 'Gudlaugur was the hotel Santa,' he added, as if Santa was an official appointment there.
A smile passed over Marion's grey old face.
'We found a note in Gudlaugur's room saying Henry and the time 18.30, as if he'd been to a meeting or was supposed to go at that time. Henry Wapshott says he met him at half past six on the day before the murder.'
Erlendur fell silent, deep in thought.
'What are you brooding over?' Marion asked.
'Wapshott told me he paid Gudlaugur half a million krónur to prove he meant business, or words to that effect. In buying the records. That money could have been in the room when he was attacked.'
'Do you mean someone knew about Wapshott and his dealings with Gudlaugur?'
'Possibly.'
'Another collector?'
'Maybe. I don't know. Wapshott's odd. I know he's hiding something from us. Whether it's about him or about Gudlaugur I don't know.'
'And of course the money was gone when you found him.'
'Yes.'
'I must be going,' Marion said, standing up. Erlendur got to his feet too. 'I can barely last half a day any more,' Marion said. 'I'm dying of exhaustion. How's your daughter doing?'
'Eva? I don't know. I don't think she feels too good.'
'Maybe you should spend Christmas with her.'
'Yes, maybe.'
'And your love life?'
'Stop going on about my love life,' Erlendur said, and his thoughts turned to Valgerdur. He wanted to phone her but lacked the nerve. What was he supposed to say? What business of hers was his past? What business of anyone's was his life? Ridiculous, asking her out like that. He didn't know what had come over him.
'I'm told you dined here with a woman,' Marion said. 'That hasn't happened for years to the best of our knowledge.'
'Who told you that?' Erlendur asked in astonishment.
'Who was the woman?' Marion asked back without answering him. 'I hear she's attractive.'
"There's no woman,' Erlendur snarled and strutted away. Marion Briem watched him and then walked slowly out of the hotel, chuckling.
On his way down to the lobby, Erlendur had wondered how he could politely accuse the head chef of theft, but Marion had wound him up. After taking the man aside in the kitchen he had not an iota of discretion left in him.
'Are you a thief?' he asked straight out. 'And all of you in the kitchen? Do you steal everything that isn't bolted to the floor?'
'What do you mean?'
'I mean that Santa might have been stabbed to death because he knew about a massive pilfering operation at this hotel. Maybe he was stabbed because he knew who ran the scam. Maybe you crept down to his hovel in the basement and stabbed him to death so he wouldn't go spilling the beans to everyone. What do you reckon to that theory? And you robbed him in the process.'
The chef stared at Erlendur. 'You're crazy!' he grunted.
'Do you steal from the kitchen?'
'Who have you been talking to?' the chef asked in a deadly serious tone. 'Who's been filling your head with lies? Was it someone from the hotel?'
'Have they taken your saliva sample?'
'Who told you?'
'Why didn't you want to give a sample?'
'It was done eventually. I think you're a retard. Taking samples from all the hotel staff! Why? To make us all look like a load of wankers! And then you come calling me a thief. I've never stolen as much as a head of cabbage from this kitchen. Never! Who's been telling you these lies?'
'If Santa had some dirt on you, for thieving, could it just be that he blackmailed you into doing him favours? Like su—'
'Shut up!' the head chef shouted. 'Was it the pimp? Who told you these lies?'
Erlendur thought the chef was about to jump on him. He moved so close that their faces almost touched. His chef's hat bent forward.
'Was it the fucking pimp?' the chef hissed.
'Who's the pimp?"
"That fucking fat bastard of a manager,' the chef said through gritted teeth.
Erlendur's mobile started ringing in his pocket. They looked each other in the eye, neither of them prepared to back down. At last Erlendur took out his mobile. The chef walked off, seething.
The head of forensics was on the phone.
'It's about the saliva on the condom,' he told Erlendur.
'Yes,' Erlendur said, 'have you traced the owner?'
'No, we're still a long way from that,' the head of forensics said. 'But we've looked at it more closely, the composition I mean, and we found traces of tobacco.'
'Tobacco? You mean pipe tobacco?'
'Well, it's more like quid,' the voice said over the telephone.
'Quid? I'm not with you.'
'The chemical composition. You used to be able to buy quid in tobacco shops once but I'm not sure if it's still around. Maybe in sweetshops, I don't know if they're still allowed to sell it. We need to check that. You stick it under your lip, either in a lump or in a gauze, you must have heard of it.'
The chef kicked a cupboard door and spouted curses.
'You're talking about chewing tobacco,' Erlendur said. 'Are there traces of chewing tobacco in the sample from the condom?'
'Bingo,' the voice said.
'So what does that mean?'
'The person who was with Santa chews tobacco.'
'What do we gain by knowing that?'
'Nothing. Yet. I just thought you'd want to know. And there's another thing. You were asking about the Cortisol in the saliva.'
'Yes.'
'There wasn't very much, in fact it was quite normal.'
'What does that tell us? It was all quiet on that front?'
'A high level of Cortisol indicates a rise in blood pressure due to excitement or stress. The person who was with the doorman was as calm as a millpond all the time. No stress. No excitement. They didn't have anything to fear.'
'Until something happened,' Erlendur said.
'Yes,' the head of forensics said. 'Until something happened.'
They finished the conversation and Erlendur put his mobile back in his pocket. The head chef stood staring at him.
'Do you know anyone here who chews tobacco?' Erlendur asked.
'Fuck off!' the chef screamed.
Erlendur took a deep breath, clasped his hands over his face and rubbed it wearily, then suddenly saw an image of Henry Wapshott's tobacco-stained teeth.

20

Erlendur asked for the hotel manager at reception and was told he had popped out. The head chef refused to explain the pimp moniker when he mentioned the 'fucking fat bastard of a manager'. Erlendur had rarely met anyone with such a temper. The chef must have realised that in his agitation he had let slip something. Erlendur made no headway. All he could get out of him were snide remarks and abuse, since the man was on home ground in the kitchen. To level the playing field and irritate the chef even further Erlendur thought of arranging for four uniformed police officers to turn up at the hotel and take him off for questioning at the station on Hverfisgata.
After toying with the idea he decided to shelve it for the time being.
Instead, he went up to Henry Wapshotts room. He broke the police seal that had been put on the door. The forensics team had taken care not to move anything. Erlendur stood still for a long time, scanning all around. He was looking for some kind of wrapper from a packet of chewing tobacco.
It was a twin room with two single beds, both unmade as if Wapshott had either slept in both of them or had had a guest for the night. On one table was an old record player connected to an amplifier and two small speakers, and on the other was a 14-inch television set and a video player. Two tapes lay beside it. Erlendur put one in the player and turned on the television, but switched it off as soon as the picture came on. Ösp was right about the pornography.
He opened the drawer of the bedside table, took a good look inside Wapshotts suitcase, checked the cupboard and went into the bathroom, but did not find chewing tobacco anywhere. He looked in the wastepaper basket, but it was empty.
'Elínborg was right,' said Sigurdur Óli, who suddenly appeared in the room.
Erlendur turned round.
'What do you mean?' he said.
'Scotland Yard sent us some information about him at last,' Sigurdur Óli said, looking around the room.
'I'm looking for chewing tobacco,' Erlendur said. "They found some on the condom.'
'I think I know why he doesn't want to contact his embassy or a lawyer and is just hoping all this will blow over,' Sigurdur Óli said before relaying Scotland Yard's information on the record collector.
Henry Wapshott, unmarried with no children, was born on the eve of the Second World War, in 1938, in Liverpool. His father's family owned several valuable properties in the city. Some were bombed during the war and rebuilt as quality residential and office premises, which ensured a certain degree of wealth. Wapshott had never needed to work. An only child, he had the best education, Eton and Oxford, but did not complete his degree. When his father died he took over the family business but, unlike the old man, he had little interest in property management and soon attended only the most important meetings, until he stopped that as well and handed over the operations entirely to his managers.
He always lived in his parents' house and his neighbours regarded him as an eccentric loner; kindly and polite but strange and withdrawn. His only interest was collecting records and he filled his house with albums that he bought from the estates of dead people or at markets. He did a great deal of travelling for his hobby and was said to own one of the largest private record collections in Britain.
He had twice been found guilty of a criminal offence and was on Scotland Yard's register of sex offenders. On the first occasion he was imprisoned for raping a twelve-year-old boy. The boy was a neighbour of Wapshott's and they got to know each other through a common interest in collecting records. The incident took place at Wapshott's parents' house, and when his mother heard of her son's behaviour she had a breakdown; it was blown up in the British media, especially the tabloids, which portrayed Wapshott, born into the privileged class, as a beast. Investigations revealed that he paid boys and young men handsomely to perform sexual acts.
By the time he finished his sentence his mother had died, and he sold his parents' house and moved to another district. Several years later he was back in the news when two boys in their early teens revealed how Wapshott had offered them money to undress at his home, and he was charged with rape again. When the matter came to light Wapshott was in Baden Baden in Germany and was arrested at Brenner's Hotel & Spa.
The second rape charge could not be proved and Wapshott moved abroad, to Thailand, but retained his British citizenship and kept his record collection in the UK, which he often visited on collecting missions. He used his mothers surname then, Wapshott; his real name was Henry Wilson. He had not fallen foul of the law since emigrating from Britain, but little was known about what he did in Thailand.
'So it's not surprising that he wanted to keep a low profile,' Erlendur said when Sigurdur Óli had finished his account.
'He sounds like a pervert big time,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'You can imagine why he chose Thailand.'
'Don't they have anything on him at the moment?' Erlendur asked. 'Scotland Yard.'
'No, but I'll bet they're relieved to be rid of him,' Sigurdur Óli said.
They had gone back to the ground floor and into the small bar there. The buffet table was packed. The tourists at the hotel were merry and noisy and gave the impression of being happy with everything they had seen and done, rosy-cheeked in their traditional Icelandic sweaters.
'Have you found any bank account in Gudlaugur's name?' Erlendur asked. He lit a cigarette, looked around him and noticed that he was the only smoker at the bar.
'I've still got to look into that,' Sigurdur Óli said, and sipped his beer.
Elínborg appeared in the doorway and Sigurdur Óli waved her over. She nodded and elbowed her way to the bar, bought a large beer and sat down with them. Sigurdur Óli gave Elínborg a resume of Scotland Yard's dossier on Wapshott, and she took the liberty of smiling.
'I bloody knew it,' she said.
'What?'
'That his interest in choirboys was sexually motivated. His interest in Gudlaugur too for certain.'
'Do you mean that he was having a bit of fun with Gudlaugur downstairs?' Sigurdur Óli said.
'Maybe Gudlaugur was forced to take part,' Erlendur said. 'Someone was carrying a knife.'
'What a way to spend Christmas, having to puzzle all this out,' Elínborg sighed.
'Not exactly good for the appetite,' Erlendur said and finished his Chartreuse. He wanted another. Looked at his watch. If he had been at the office he would have finished work by now. The bar was a little less busy and he waved the waiter over.
"There must have been at least two people in there with him because you can't threaten anyone if you're down on your knees' Sigurdur Óli cast a glance at Elínborg and thought he might have gone a little too far.
'It gets better all the time,' Elínborg said.
'Ruins the taste of the Christmas cookies,' Erlendur said.
'OK, but why did he stab Gudlaugur?' Sigurdur Óli said. 'Not just once, but repeatedly. As if he lost control of himself. If Wapshott attacked him first, something must have happened or been said in the basement room that made the pervert snap.'
Erlendur was going to order but the others declined and looked at their watches – Christmas was drawing quickly closer.
'I reckon he had a woman in there,' Sigurdur Óli said.
'They measured the level of Cortisol in the saliva on the condom,' Erlendur said. 'It was normal. Any woman who was with Gudlaugur could have been gone by the time he was murdered.'
'I don't think that's likely, judging from how we found him,' Elínborg said.
'Whoever was with him wasn't forced into anything,' Erlendur said. 'I think that's established. If any level of Cortisol had been found it would have been a sign of excitement or tension in the body.'
'So it was a whore then,' Sigurdur Óli said, going about her job.'
'Can't we talk about something nicer?' Elínborg asked.
'It could be that they were fleecing the hotel and Santa knew about it,' Erlendur said.
'And that's why he was killed?' Sigurdur Óli said.
'I don't know. There might also be some low-key prostitution going on with the manager's complicity. I haven't quite worked out all this but we may need to look into these things'
'Was Gudlaugur tied up in it in any way?' Elínborg asked.
'Judging from the state he was in when he was found, we can't rule it out,' Sigurdur Óli said.
'How's it going with your man?' Erlendur asked.
'He was poker-faced in the district court,' Elínborg said, sipping her beer.
'The boy still hasn't testified against his father, has he?' asked Sigurdur Óli, who was also familiar with the case.
'Silent as the grave, poor kid,' Erlendur said. 'And that bastard sticks to his statement. Flatly denies hitting the boy. And he's got good lawyers too.'
'So he'll get the boy back?'
'It could well be.'
'And the boy?' Erlendur asked. 'Does he want to go back?'
'That's the weirdest part of all,' Elínborg said. 'He's still attached to his father. It's as if he feels he deserved it.'
They fell silent.
'Are you going to spend Christmas at this hotel, Erlendur?' Elínborg asked. There was a tone of accusation in her voice.
'No, I suppose I'll get myself home,' Erlendur said. 'Spend some time with Eva. Boil some smoked lamb.'
'How's she doing?' Elínborg asked.
'So-so,' Erlendur said. 'Fine, I suppose.' He thought they could tell that he was lying. They were well aware of the problems his daughter had run into but rarely mentioned them. They knew he wanted to discuss them as little as possible and never asked in detail.
'St Thorlac's Day tomorrow,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'Got everything done, Elínborg?'
'Nothing.' She sighed.
'I'm wondering about that record collecting,' Erlendur said.
'What about it?' Elínborg said.
'Isn't it something that starts in childhood?' Erlendur said. 'Not that I know anything about it. I've never collected anything. But isn't it an interest that develops when you're a kid, when you collect cards and model planes, stamps of course, theatre programmes, records? Most people grow out of it but some go on collecting books and records until their dying day.'
'What are you trying to tell us?'
'I'm wondering about record collectors like Wapshott, although of course they're not all perverts like him, whether the collecting fad is connected with some kind of yearning for lost youth. Connected with a need to keep hold of something that otherwise would disappear from their lives but which they want to retain for as long as they can. Isn't collecting an attempt to preserve something from your childhood? Something to do with your memories, something you don't want to let go but keep on cultivating and nourishing with this obsession?'
'So Wapshott's record collecting, the choirboys, is some kind of nostalgia for youth?' Elínborg asked.
'And then when the nostalgia for youth appears before him in the flesh at this hotel, something snaps inside him?' said Sigurdur Óli. 'The boy turned into a middle-aged man. Do you mean something like that?'
'I don't know.'
Erlendur vacantly watched the tourists at the bar and noticed one who was middle-aged, Asian in appearance and American-sounding. He had a new video camera and was filming his friends. Suddenly it occurred to Erlendur that there might be security cameras at the hotel. The hotel manager had not mentioned it, nor the reception manager. He looked at Sigurdur Óli and Elínborg.
'Did you ask if there were security cameras at this hotel?' he asked.
They looked at each other.
'Weren't you going to?' Sigurdur Óli said.
'I just forgot,' Elínborg said. 'Christmas and all that. It completely slipped my mind.'
The reception manager looked at Erlendur and shook his head. He said the hotel had a very firm policy on this issue. There were no security cameras on the hotel premises, neither in the lobby nor lifts, corridors nor rooms. Especially not in the rooms, of course.
'Then we wouldn't have any guests,' the manager said seriously.
'Yes, that had occurred to me,' Erlendur said, disappointed. For a moment he had entertained the vague hope that something had been caught on camera, something that did not tally with the stories and statements, something at odds with what the police had discovered.
He turned away from the reception to head back to the bar when the manager called out to him.
"There's a bank in the south wing, on the other side of the building. There are souvenir shops and a bank, and you can enter the hotel from there. Fewer people use it as an entrance. The bank's bound to have security cameras. But they'll hardly show anyone besides their customers'
Erlendur had noticed the bank and souvenir shops, and he went straight there but saw that the bank was closed. Looking up, he saw the almost invisible eye of a camera above the door. No one was working in the bank. He knocked on the glass door so hard that it rattled, but nothing happened. Eventually he took out his mobile and insisted on having the bank manager fetched.
While he was waiting Erlendur looked at the souvenirs in the shop, sold at inflated prices: plates with pictures of Gullfoss and Geysir painted on them, a carved figurine of Thor with his hammer, key rings with fox fur, posters showing whale species off the Icelandic coast, a sealskin jacket that would set him back a month's salary. He thought about buying a memento of this peculiar Tourist-Iceland that exists only in the minds of rich foreigners, but he couldn't see anything cheap enough.
The bank manager, a woman of about forty, had been on her way to a Christmas party and was far from amused about being interrupted; at first she thought there had been a robbery at the bank. She had not been told what was going on when two uniformed police officers knocked on the door of her house and asked her to accompany them. She glared at Erlendur in front of the bank when he explained to her that he needed access to her security cameras. She lit a fresh cigarette with the butt of the old one and Erlendur thought to himself that he had not encountered a proper smoker like her for years.
'Couldn't this wait until the morning?' she asked coldly, so coldly that he could almost hear the icicles dropping from her words, and thought that he would not like to owe this woman any money.
"Those things will kill you,' Erlendur said, pointing to the cigarette.
"They haven't yet,' she said. 'Why did you drag me out here?'
'Because of the murder,' Erlendur said. 'At the hotel'
'And?' she said, unimpressed by murder.
'We're trying to speed up the investigation.' He smiled, but it was pointless.
'Bloody farce this is,' she said, and ordered Erlendur to follow her inside. The two police officers had left, clearly relieved at being rid of the woman, who had hurled abuse at them on the way. She took him to the staff entrance to the bank, keyed in her PIN, opened the door and commanded him to hurry.
It was a small branch and inside her office the manager had four monitors connected to the security cameras: one behind each of the two cashiers, in the waiting area and above the entrance. She switched on the monitors and explained to Erlendur that the cameras rolled all day and night, and that tapes were kept for three weeks and then rewritten. The recorders were in a small basement below the bank.
Already on her third cigarette, she led him downstairs and pointed to the tapes, which were clearly labelled with the dates and locations of the cameras. The tapes were kept in a locked safe.
'A security guard comes here from the bank every day,' she said, 'and takes care of it all. I don't know how to use it and would ask you not to go fiddling with anything that's none of your business.'
"Thank you' Erlendur said humbly. 'I want to start on the day the murder was committed.'
'Be my guest,' she said, dropping her smoked cigarette on the floor where she diligently stamped it out.
He found the date he wanted on a tape labelled 'Entrance' and put it in a video player that was connected to a small television. He didn't think he needed to look at the tapes from the cashiers' cameras.
The bank manager looked at her gold watch.
"There's a full twenty-four-hour period on each tape,' she groaned.
'How do you manage?' Erlendur asked. 'At work?'
'What do you mean, how do I manage?'
'Smoking? What do you do?'
'What business is that of yours?'
'None at all,' Erlendur hastened to say.
'Can't you just take the tapes?' she said. 'I don't have time for this. I was supposed to be somewhere else ages ago and I don't plan to hang around here while you go through all of these.'
'No, you're right,' Erlendur said. He looked at the tapes in the cupboard. 'I'll take the fortnight before the murder. That's fourteen tapes'
'Do you know who killed the man?'
'Not yet,' Erlendur said.
'I remember him well,' she said. "The doorman. I've been manager here for seven years,' she added as if by way of explanation. 'He struck me as a nice enough chap.'
'Did he talk to you at all recently?'
'I never talked to him. Not a word.'
'Was this his bank?' Erlendur asked.
'No, he didn't have an account here. Not as far as I know. I never saw him in this branch. Did he have any money?'
Erlendur took the fourteen tapes up to his room and had a television and video player installed. He had started watching the first tape towards evening when his mobile rang. It was Sigurdur Óli.
'We've got to charge him or let him go,' he said. 'Really we don't have anything on him.'
'Is he complaining?'
'He hasn't said a word.'
'Has he asked for a lawyer?'
'No.'
'Make a charge for child pornography'
'Child pornography?'
'He had tapes in his room containing child pornography. Possession of them is illegal. We have a witness who saw him watching that filth. We'll take him for the porn and then we'll see. I don't want to let him go back to Thailand just yet. We need to find out if his story of going into town the day that Gudlaugur was murdered holds good. Let him sweat in his cell a bit and we'll see what happens.'

21

Erlendur watched the tapes for almost the whole night.
He soon got the hang of using fast forward when no one walked past the camera. As expected, the heaviest footfall in front of the bank was over the period from nine in the morning to four in the afternoon, after which it slowed down sharply, and even further when the souvenir shops closed at six. The entrance to the hotel was open round the clock and there was an ATM but little traffic around it in the dead of night.
He saw nothing noteworthy the day Gudlaugur was murdered. The faces of the people going through the lobby were quite clearly visible but Erlendur didn't recognise any of them. When he fast-forwarded through the night recordings, figures would dart in through the door and stop at the cash machine before rushing out again. An occasional person went into the hotel itself. He scrutinised them but couldn't link any with Gudlaugur.
He saw that the hotel staff used the bank entrance. The head of reception, the fat hotel manager and Ösp could be seen rushing past, and he thought to himself how relieved she probably felt to get away after her day at work. In one place he saw Gudlaugur cross the lobby, and he stopped the tape. This was three days before the murder. Gudlaugur, alone, paced slowly in front of the camera, looked inside the bank, turned his head, looked over at the souvenir shops and then went back to the hotel. Erlendur rewound and watched Gudlaugur again, then again and a fourth time. He found it odd to see him alive. He stopped the tape when Gudlaugur looked inside the bank and watched his frozen face on the screen. It was the choirboy in the flesh. The man who once had that lovely voice, that tear-jerking boy soprano. The boy who forced Erlendur to probe into his own most painful memories when he heard him.
There was a knock on the door, and he turned off the video and opened for Eva Lind.
'Were you asleep?' she asked, squeezing past him. "What are these tapes?'
'They're to do with the case,' Erlendur said.
'Getting anywhere?'
'No. Nowhere.'
'Did you talk to Stína?'
'Stína?'
'The one I told you about. Stína! You were asking about tarts and the hotels.'
'No, I haven't spoken to her. Tell me something else, do you know a girl of your age called Ösp who works at this hotel? You have a similar attitude to life.'
'Meaning?' Eva Lind offered her father a cigarette, gave him a light and flopped down onto the bed. Erlendur sat at the desk and looked out through the window into the pitch-black night. Two days to Christmas, he thought. Then we'll be back to normal.
'Pretty negative,' he said.
'Do you reckon I'm really negative?' Eva Lind said.
Erlendur said nothing, and Eva snorted, sending billows of smoke out through her nose.
'And what, you're the picture of happiness?'
Erlendur smiled.
'I don't know any Ösp,' Eva said. 'What's she got to do with it?'
'She has nothing to do with it,' Erlendur said. 'At least I don't think so. She found the body and seems to know a few things about what goes on in this place. Quite a smart girl. A survivor, with a mouth on her. Reminds me a bit of you.'
'I don't know her,' Eva said. Then she fell silent and stared at nothing, and he looked at her and said nothing either, and time went by. Sometimes they had nothing to say to each other. Sometimes they argued furiously. They never made small talk. Never talked about the weather or prices in the shops, politics, sport or clothes, or whatever it was that people spent their time discussing, which they both regarded as idle chatter. Only the two of them, their past and present, the family that was never a family because Erlendur walked out on it, the tragic circumstances of Eva and her brother Sindri, their mother's malice towards Erlendur – that was all that mattered, their topic of conversation that coloured all contact between them.
'What do you want for Christmas?' Erlendur suddenly broke the silence.
'For Christmas?' Eva said.
'Yes.'
'I don't want anything.'
'You must want something.'
'What did you get for Christmas? When you were a boy?'
Erlendur thought. He remembered some mittens.
'Little things,' he said.
'I always thought Mum gave Sindri better presents than me,' Eva Lind said. 'Then she stopped giving me presents. Said I sold them to buy dope. She gave me a ring once and I sold it. Did your brother get better presents than you?'
Erlendur felt the way she cautiously probed him. Usually she went straight to the point and shocked him with her candour. At other times, much less frequently, she seemed to want to be delicate.
When Eva was in intensive care after her miscarriage, in a coma, the doctor told Erlendur to try to be with her as much as possible and talk to her all the same. One topic that Erlendur talked about to Eva was his brother's disappearance and how he himself was rescued from the moor. When Eva regained consciousness and moved in with him he asked her whether she remembered what he had said to her, but she did not recall a word. Her curiosity was aroused and she pressed him until he repeated what he had told her, what he had never told anyone about before and no one knew about. He had never talked to her about his past and Eva, who never tired of calling him to account, felt that she moved a little closer to him, felt she knew her father a fraction better, although she also knew that she was a long way from understanding him fully. One question that haunted Eva made her angry and spiteful towards him, and shaped their relationship more than anything else. Divorces were common, she realised that. Couples were always getting divorced and some divorces were worse than others, when the partners never spoke again. Aware of this, she did not question it. But she was totally incapable of fathoming why Erlendur divorced his children too. Why he took no interest in them after he left. Why he continually neglected them until Eva herself sought him out and found him alone in a dark block of flats. She had discussed all this with her father, who so far could provide no answers to her questions.
'Better presents?' he said. 'It was all the same. Really just like in the old Christmas rhyme: a candle and a pack of cards. Sometimes we would have liked something more exciting, but our family was poor. Everyone was poor in those days'
'What about after he died? Your brother.'
Erlendur said nothing.
'Erlendur?' Eva said.
'Christmas disappeared with him,' Erlendur said.
*
The birth of the Saviour was not celebrated after his brother died. More than a month had elapsed since his disappearance and there was no joy in the home, no presents and no visitors. It was a custom for Erlendur's mother's family to visit them on Christmas Eve when they would all sing Christmas carols. It was a small house and everyone sat close together, emanating warmth and light. His mother refused all visitors that Christmas. His father had sunk into a deep depression and spent most days in bed. He took no part in the search for his son, as if he knew it was futile, as if he knew he had failed; his son was dead and he could do nothing about it, nor anyone ever, and that it was his fault and no one else's.
His mother was indefatigable. She made sure that Erlendur was nursed properly. She urged on the search party and took part herself. She was the last to come down from the moors when darkness fell and searching became futile, exhausted, and was the first to set off back into the highlands when it grew light again. After it became obvious that her son must be dead she kept on searching just as energetically. It was not until winter had set in completely, the snows were so deep and the weather so treacherous that she was forced to give up. Forced to face up to the fact that the boy had died in the wilds and she would have to wait until spring to look for his earthly remains. She turned towards the mountains every day, sometimes cursing. 'May the trolls eat you who took my boy!'
The thought of his dead body lying up there was unbearable to Erlendur, who began seeing him in nightmares from which he awoke screaming and crying, fighting the blizzard, submerged in the snow, his little back turned against the howling wind and death by his side.
Erlendur did not understand how his father could sit motionless at home while all the others were hard at work. The incident seemed to break him completely, turn him into a zombie, and Erlendur thought about the power of grief, because his father was a strong, vigorous man. The loss of his son gradually drained him of the will to live and he never recovered.
Later, when it was all over, his parents argued for the first and only time about what happened, and Erlendur found out that their mother had not wanted their father to go up onto the moors that day, but he did not listen to her. 'Well,' she said, 'since you're going anyway, leave the boys at home.' He paid no heed.
And Christmas was never the same again. His parents reached some kind of accord as time went by. She never mentioned that he had ignored her wishes. He never mentioned that he had been seized by stubbornness at hearing her tell him not to go and not to take the boys. There was nothing wrong with the weather and he felt she was meddling. They chose never to talk about what happened between them, as if breaking the silence would leave nothing to keep them together. It was in this silence that Erlendur tackled the guilt that swamped him at being the one who survived.
'Why's it so cold in here?' Eva Lind asked, wrapping her coat tighter.
'It's the radiator,' Erlendur said. 'It doesn't get warm. Any news about you?'
'Nothing. Mum got off with some bloke. She met him at the old-time dancing at Ölver. You can't imagine how gross that freak is. I think he still uses Brylcreem, he combs his hair into a quiff and wears shirts with sort of huge collars and he clicks his fingers when he hears some old crap on the radio. "My bonnie lies over the ocean ..."'
Erlendur smiled. Eva was never as bitchy about anything as when she described her mother's 'blokes', who seemed to become more pathetic with every year that went by.
Then they fell silent again.
'I'm trying to remember what I was like when I was eight,' Eva suddenly said. 'I don't really remember anything except my birthday. I can't remember the party, just the day it was my birthday. I was standing in the car park outside the block and I knew it was my birthday that day and I was eight, and somehow this memory that is totally irrelevant has stuck with me ever since. Just that, I knew it was my birthday and I was eight.'
She looked at Erlendur.
'You said he was eight. When he died.'
'It was his birthday that summer.'
'Why was he never found?'
'I don't know.'
'But he's up there on the moor?'
'Yes.'
'His skeleton.'
'Yes.'
'Eight years old.'
'Yes.'
'Was it your fault? That he died?'
'I was ten.'
'Yes, but...'
'It was no one's fault.'
'But you must have thought...'
'What are you driving at, Eva? What do you want to know?'
'Why you never contacted me and Sindri after you left us,' Eva Lind said. 'Why didn't you try to be with us?'
'Eva,..'
'We weren't worth it, were we?'
Erlendur looked out of the window in silence. It had started snowing again.
'Are you drawing a parallel?' he said eventually.
'I've never been given an explanation. It crossed my mind...'
'That it was something to do with my brother. The way he died. You want to associate the two?'
'I don't know,' Eva said. 'I don't know you in the slightest. It's a couple of years since I first met you and I was the one who located you. That business with your brother is all I know about you apart from the fact you're a cop. I've never been able to understand how you could leave Sindri and me. Your children.'
'I left it to your mother to decide. Maybe I should have been firmer about gaining access but...'
'You weren't interested,' Eva finished the sentence for him.
'That's not true.'
'Sure it is. Why didn't you take care of your children like you were supposed to?'
Erlendur said nothing and stared down at the floor. Eva stubbed out her third cigarette. Then she stood up, went to the door and opened it.
'Stína's going to meet you here at the hotel tomorrow,' she said. 'At lunchtime. You can't miss her with those new tits of hers.'
'Thanks for talking to her.'
'It was nothing,' Eva said.
She hesitated in the doorway.
'What do you want?' Erlendur asked.
'I don't know.'
'No, I mean for Christmas'
Eva looked at her father.
'I wish I could have my baby back,' she said, and quietly closed the door behind her.
Erlendur heaved a deep sigh and sat on the edge of his bed for a long while before he resumed watching the tapes. People going about their Christmas errands rushed across the screen, many of them carrying bags and parcels of Christmas shopping.
He had reached the fifth day before Gudlaugur was murdered when he saw her. Initially he overlooked it but a flash went off somewhere in his mind and he stopped the recorder, rewound the tape and went back over the scene. It was not her face that caught Erlendur's attention, but her bearing; her walk and haughtiness. He pressed 'Play' again and saw her clearly, walking into the hotel. He fast-forwarded again. About half an hour later she reappeared on the screen when she left the hotel and strode past the bank and souvenir shops looking neither left nor right.
He stood up from the bed and stared at the screen.
It was Gudlaugur's sister.
Who had not set eyes on her brother for decades.
FIFTH DAY

22

It was late when the noise woke Erlendur up the following morning. It took him a long time to stir after a dreamless night, and at first he did not realise what the awful din was that resounded in his little room. He had stayed up all night watching a succession of tapes, but only saw Gudlaugur's sister that one day. Erlendur couldn't believe it was purely coincidence that she went to the hotel – that she had business there other than to meet her brother, with whom she claimed to have had no contact for decades.
Erlendur had unearthed a lie and he knew there was nothing more valuable for a criminal investigation.
The noise refused to stop, and gradually Erlendur realised that it was his telephone. He answered and heard the hotel manager's voice.
'You must come down to the kitchen,' the manager said. 'There's someone here you should talk to.'
'Who is it?' Erlendur asked.
'A lad who went home sick the day we found Gudlaugur,' the manager said. 'You ought to come.'
Erlendur got out of bed. He was still in his clothes. He went into the bathroom, looked in the mirror and perused the several days' stubble, which made a noise like sandpaper being rubbed over rough timber when he stroked it. His beard was dense and coarse like his father's.
Before going downstairs he telephoned Sigurdur Óli and told him to go to with Elínborg to Hafnarfjördur to take Gudlaugur's sister in for questioning. He would meet them later that day. He did not explain why he wanted to talk to her. He did not want them to blurt it out. Wanted to see her expression when she realised that he knew she had been lying.
When Erlendur went into the kitchen he saw the hotel manager standing with an exceptionally skinny man in his twenties. Erlendur wondered whether the contrast with the manager was playing tricks on his vision; beside him, everyone looked skinny.
"There you are,' the manager said. 'Anyone would think I'm taking over this investigation of yours, locating witnesses and whatever.'
He looked at his employee.
'Tell him what you know.'
The young man began his account. He was fairly precise about details and explained that he had started to feel ill around noon on the day Gudlaugur was found in his room. In the end he vomited and just managed to grab a rubbish sack in the kitchen.
The man gave the manager a sheepish look.
He was allowed to go home and went to bed with a bad fever, a temperature and aches. Since he lived alone and did not watch the news he hadn't mentioned to anyone what he knew until this morning when he came back to work and heard about Gudlaugur's death. And he was certainly surprised to hear what had happened, and even though he didn't know the man well – he had only been working in the hotel for just over a year – he did sometimes talk to him and even went down to his room and—
'Yes, yes, yes,' the manager said impatiently. 'We're not interested in that, Denni. Just get on with it.'
'Before I went home that morning Gulli came into the kitchen and asked if I could get him a knife.'
'He asked to borrow a knife from the kitchen?' Erlendur said.
'Yes. At first he wanted scissors, but I couldn't find any so then he asked for a knife.'
'Why did he need scissors or a knife, did he tell you?'
'It was something to do with the Santa suit.'
'The Santa suit?'
'He didn't go into detail, just some stitches he needed to unpick.'
'Did he return the knife?'
'No, not while I was here, then I left at noon and that's all I know.'
'What sort of a knife was it?'
'He said it had to be a sharp one,' Denni said.
'It was the same kind as this,' the manager said, reaching into a drawer to take out a small steak knife with a wooden handle and fine-serated blade. 'We lay these for people who order our T-bone steak. Have you tried one? Delicious. The knives go through them like butter.'
Erlendur took the knife, examined it and thought to himself that Gudlaugur may have provided his murderer with the weapon that was used to kill him. Wondered whether that business about the stitching of his Santa suit was just a ploy. Whether Gudlaugur had expected someone in his room and wanted to have the knife at hand; or had the knife been lying on his desk because he needed to mend his Santa suit and the attack was sudden, unpremeditated and sparked by something that happened in the little room? In that case, the attacker had not gone to Gudlaugur's room armed, not gone there with the purpose of killing him.
'I need to take that knife,' he said. 'We need to know if the size and type of blade match the wounds. Is that all right?'
The hotel manager nodded.
'Isn't it that British chap?' he said. 'Have you got anyone else?'
'I'd like to have a quick word with Denni here,' Erlendur said without answering him.
The manager nodded again and stayed where he was, until the penny dropped and he gave Erlendur an offended look. He was accustomed to being the centre of attention. When he did get the message he noisily invented some business to attend to in his office and disappeared. Dennis relief when his boss was no longer present proved shortlived.
'Did you go down to the basement and stab him?' Erlendur asked.
Denni looked at him like a doomed man.
'No,' he said hesitantly, as if not quite sure himself. The next question left him even more in doubt.
'Do you chew tobacco?' Erlendur asked.
'No,' he said. 'Chew tobacco? What...?'
'Have you had a sample taken?'
'Eh?'
'Do you use condoms?'
'Condoms?' said Denni, still at a total loss.
'No girlfriend?'
'Girlfriend?'
'That you have to make sure you don't get pregnant?'
Denni said nothing.
'I don't have a girlfriend,' he said in the end; Erlendur sensed a note of regret. 'What are you asking me all this for?'
'Don't worry about it,' Erlendur said. 'You knew Gudlaugur. What kind of a man was he?'
'He was cool.'
Denni told Erlendur that Gudlaugur had felt comfortable at the hotel, did not want to leave and in fact feared moving out after he was sacked. He used all the hotel services and was the only member of staff who got away with that for years. He ate cheaply at the hotel, put his clothes in with the hotel laundry and didn't pay a penny for his Utile room in the basement. Redundancy came as a shock to him, but he said he could manage if he lived frugally and might not even have to earn himself a living any more.
'What did he mean by that?' Erlendur asked.
Denni shrugged.
'I don't know. He was quite mysterious sometimes. Said lots of things I couldn't suss out.'
'Like what?'
'I don't know, something about music. Sometimes. When he drank. Most of the time he was just normal.'
'Did he drink a lot?'
'No, not at all. Sometimes at weekends. He never missed a day's work. Never. He was proud of that although it's not such a remarkable job. Being a doorman and stuff
'What did he say to you about music?'
'He liked beautiful music. I don't remember exactly what he said.'
'Why do you think he said he didn't need to earn himself a living any more?'
'He seemed to have money. And he never paid for anything so he could save up for ever. I guess that's what he meant. That he'd saved enough.'
Erlendur remembered asking Sigurdur Óli to check Gudlaugur's bank accounts and resolved to remind him. He left Denni in the kitchen in a state of confusion, wondering about chewing tobacco and condoms and girlfriends. As he walked past the lobby he caught sight of a young woman arguing noisily with the head of reception. He seemed to want her out of the hotel, but she refused to leave. It crossed Erlendur's mind that the woman who wanted to invoice this man for his night of fun had shown up, and he was about to go away when the young woman noticed him and stared.
'Are you the cop?' she called out.
'Get out of here!' the head of reception said in an unusually harsh tone.
'You look exactly like Eva Lind described you,' she said, sizing up Erlendur. 'I'm Stína. She told me to talk to you.'
*
They sat down in the bar. Erlendur bought them coffee. He tried to ignore her breasts but had his work cut out doing so. Never in his life had he seen such a huge bosom on such a slim and delicate body. She was wearing an ankle-length beige coat with a fur collar, and she draped it over the chair at their table to reveal a skintight red top that hardly covered her stomach and black flared trousers that barely stretched above the crease between her buttocks. She was heavily painted, wore thick, dark lipstick and smiled to reveal a beautiful set of teeth.
'Three hundred thousand,' she said, carefully rubbing under her right breast as if it itched. 'Were you wondering about the tits?'
'Are you all right?'
'It's the stitches' She winced 'I mustn't scratch them too much. Have to be careful.'
'What—?'
'New silicon,' Stína interrupted him. 'I had a boob job the other day.'
Erlendur took care not to stare at her new breasts.
'How do you know Eva Lind?' he asked.
'She said you'd ask that and told me to tell you that you don't want to know. She's right. Trust me. And she also told me you'd help me with a Utile business and then I could help you, know what I mean?'
'No,' Erlendur said. 'I don't know what you mean.'
'Eva said you would.'
'Eva was lying. What are you talking about? A little business, what does that involve?'
Stína sighed.
'My friend was busted with some hash at Keflavík airport. Not much, but enough for them to put him away for maybe three years. They sentence them like murderers, those fuckers. A bit of hash. And a few tabs, right! He says he'll get three years. Three! Paedophiles get three months, suspended. Fucking wankers!'
Erlendur didn't see how he could help her. She was like a child, unaware of how big and complicated and difficult it is to deal with the world.
'Was he caught at the terminal?'
'Yeah.'
'I can't do anything,' Erlendur said. 'And I don't feel inclined to. You don't keep particularly good company. Dope smuggling and prostitution. What about a straightforward office job?'
'Won't you just try?' Stína said. 'Talk to someone. He mustn't get three years!'
'To get this perfectly straight,' Erlendur said with a nod, 'you're a prostitute?'
'Prostitute, prostitute,' Stína said, producing a cigarette from a little black handbag over her shoulder. 'I dance at The Marquis. She leaned forwards and whispered con-spiratorially to Erlendur: 'But there's more money in the other business.'
'And you've had customers at this hotel?'
'A few,' Stína said.
'And you've been working at this hotel?'
'I've never worked here.'
'I mean do you pick up the customers here or bring them over from town?'
'Whatever I please. They used to let me be here until Fatso threw me out'
'Why?'
Stína started itching under her breasts again and gave the spot a cautious rub. She winced and forced a smile at Erlendur, but clearly didn't feel particularly well.
'A girl I know went for a boob job that went wrong,' she said. 'Her tits are like empty bin liners'
'Do you really need all that breast?' Erlendur couldn't refrain from asking.
'Don't you like them?' she said, thrusting them forward but grimacing as she did. 'These stitches are killing me,' she groaned.
'Well, they are ... big,' Erlendur admitted.
'And straight off the shelf? Stína boasted.
Erlendur saw the hotel manager enter the bar with the head of reception and stride over to them in all his majesty. Looking around to make sure no one else was in the bar, he hissed at Stína when he was still a few metres away from her.
'Out! Get out, girl! This minute! Out of here!'
Stína looked over her shoulder at the hotel manager, then back at Erlendur and rolled her eyes.
'Christ,' she said.
'We don't want whores like you at this hotel!' the manager shouted.
He grabbed her as if to throw her out
'Leave me alone,' Stína said. 'I'm talking to this man here.'
'Watch her tits!' Erlendur shouted, not knowing what else to say. The hotel manager looked at him, dumbfounded. 'They're new,' Erlendur added by way of explanation.
He stood up, blocked the hotel manager's path and tried to push him away, but with little success. Stína did her utmost to protect her breasts, while the head of reception stood at a distance, watching the goings-on. Eventually he came to Erlendur's aid and they managed to shuffle the furious hotel manager out of reach of Stína.
'Everything ... she ... says about ... me is ... fucking lies!' he wheezed. The effort was almost too much for him; his face poured with sweat and he was panting for breath after the struggle.
'She hasn't said anything about you,' Erlendur said to calm him down.
'I want ... her ... to ... get out ... of here.' The hotel manager slumped down in a chair, took out his handkerchief and started mopping his face.
'Cool it, Fatso,' Stína said. 'He's a meat merchant, you know that?'
'A meat merchant?' Erlendur didn't immediately grasp the meaning.
'He takes a slice from all of us who work at this hotel,' Stína said.
'A slice?' Erlendur said.
'A slice. His commission! He takes a cut from us.'
'It's a lie!' the hotel manager shouted. 'Get out, you fucking whore!'
'He wanted more than half a share for himself and the head waiter,' Stína said as she carefully rearranged her breasts, 'and when I refused he told me to fuck off and never come back.'
'She's lying,' the hotel manager said, slightly calmer. 'I've always thrown those girls out, and her too. We don't want whores at this hotel.'
'The head waiter?' Erlendur said, visualising the thin moustache. Rósant, he thought the name was.
'Always thrown them out,' Stína snorted as she turned to Erlendur. 'He's the one who phones us. If he knows one of the guests is up for it or has money he phones to let us know and plants us in the bar. Says it makes the hotel more popular. They're conference guests and the like. Foreigners. Lonely old men. If there's a big conference on, he phones'
'Are there many of you?' Erlendur asked.
'A few of us run an escort service,' Stína said. 'Really high class.'
Stína gave the impression that she was not as proud of anything as being a prostitute, apart perhaps from her new breasts.
'They don't run a bloody escort service,' the manager said, breathing normally again. 'They hang around the hotel and try to hook guests and take them up to the rooms, and she's lying about me phoning them. You fucking bitch of a whore!'
Thinking it inadvisable to continue the conversation with Stína at the bar, Erlendur said he needed to borrow the head of receptions office for a moment – otherwise they could all go down to the police station and resume there. The hotel manager let out a groan and gave Stína the evil eye. Erlendur followed her out of the bar and into the office. The hotel manager stayed behind. All the wind seemed to have been knocked out of him, and he shooed the head of reception away when he went over to attend to him.
'She's lying, Erlendur,' he shouted after them. 'It's all a pack of lies!'
Erlendur sat down at the manager's desk while Stína stood and lit a cigarette, as if immune to the fact that smoking was prohibited throughout the hotel except conceivably at the bar.
'Did you know the doorman at this hotel?' Erlendur asked. 'Gudlaugur?'
'He was really nice. He collected Fatso's cut from us. And then he got killed.'
'He was—'
'Do you reckon Fatso killed him?' Stína interrupted. 'He's the biggest creep I know. Do you know why I'm not allowed at this shitty hotel of his any more?'
'No.'
'He didn't only want a cut from us girls, but, you know...'
'What?'
'Wanted us to do stuff for him too. Personal. You know...'
'And?'
'I refused. Put my foot down. Those rolls of fat on the bastard. He's gross. He could have killed Gudlaugur. I could see him doing that. I bet he sat on him.'
'But what was your relationship with Gudlaugur? Did you do things for him?'
'Never. He wasn't interested.'
'He certainly was,' Erlendur said, imagining Gudlaugur's corpse in his little room with his trousers round his ankles. 'I'm afraid he wasn't entirely uninterested.'
'He never took an interest in me anyway,' Stína said, carefully hitching up her breasts. 'And none of us girls'
'Is the head waiter in on this with the manager?'
'Rósant? Yeah.'
'What about the man from reception?'
'He doesn't want us. He doesn't want any tarts but the other two decide. The man from reception wants to get rid of Rósant, but Fatso makes too much money out of him.'
'Tell me something else. Do you ever chew tobacco? In a kind of gauze, like miniature teabags. People keep it under their lip. Pressed against the gums'
'Yuk, no,' Stína said. 'Are you crazy? I take really good care of my teeth.'
'Does anyone you know chew tobacco?'
'No.'
They said nothing more until Erlendur felt compelled to do a spot of moralising. He had Eva Lind in mind. How she had been caught up in drugs and surely went in for prostitution to pay for her habit, although it probably didn't take place at any of the finer hotels in the city. He thought what a terrible lot it was for a woman to sell her favours to any dirty old man whatever, wherever and whenever.
'Why are you doing this?' he asked, trying to conceal the tone of accusation in his voice. 'The silicon implants in your breasts. Sleeping with conference guests in hotel rooms. Why?'
'Eva Lind said you'd ask that too. Don't try to understand it,' Stína said, and stubbed her cigarette out on the floor, 'Don't even try.'
She happened to glance through the open door to the office and into the lobby, and saw Ösp walking by.
'Is Ösp still working here?' she said.
'Ösp? Do you know her?' Erlendur's mobile began ringing in his pocket.
'I thought she'd quit. I used to talk to her sometimes when I was here.'
'How did you know her?'
'We were just together in—'
'She wasn't whoring with you, was she?' Erlendur took out his mobile and was about to answer.
'No,' Stina said. 'She's not like her little brother.'
'Her brother?' Erlendur said. 'Has she got a brother?'
'He's a bigger tart than I am.'

23

Erlendur stared at Stína while he tried to puzzle out her comment about Ösp's brother. Stína dithered in front of him.
'What?' she said. 'What's wrong? Aren't you going to answer the phone?'
'Why did you think Ösp had quit?'
'It's just a shitty job.'
Erlendur answered his phone almost absent-mindedly.
'About time too,' Elínborg said down the line.
She and Sigurdur Óli had gone to Hafnarfjördur to bring Gudlaugur's sister in for questioning at the police station in Reykjavik, but she refused to go with them. When she asked for an explanation they refused to give one, and then she said she could not abandon her father in his wheelchair. They offered to provide a carer for him and also invited her to talk to a lawyer, who could be present, but she didn't seem to realise the seriousness of the matter. She would not entertain the notion of going to the police station, so Elínborg suggested a compromise, flatly against Sigurdur Óli's wishes. They would take her to Erlendur at the hotel and after he had talked to her they would decide the next move. She thought about it. On the verge of losing his patience, Sigurdur Óli was about to drag her off forcibly when she agreed. She phoned a neighbour who came round immediately, clearly accustomed to looking after the old man when needed. Then she began resisting again, which infuriated Sigurdur Óli.
'He's on his way to you with her,' Elínborg said over the telephone. 'He would have much preferred to have had her locked up. She kept asking us why we wanted to talk to her and wouldn't believe us when we said we didn't know. Why do you want to talk to her anyway?'
'She came to the hotel a few days before her brother was murdered but told us she hadn't seen him for decades. I want to know why she didn't tell us that, why she's lying. See the look on her face.'
'She might be rather peeved,' Elínborg said. 'Sigurdur Óli wasn't exactly pleased at the way she behaved.'
'What happened?'
'He'll tell you.'
Erlendur rang off.
'What do you mean, he's a bigger tart than you?' he said to Stína, who was peering into her bag and wondering whether she could be bothered to light another cigarette. 'Ösp's brother. What are you talking about?'
'Eh?'
'Ösp's brother. You said he was a bigger tart than you.'
'Ask her,' Stína said.
'I will, but I mean, what... he's her little brother, didn't you say?'
'Yes, and he's a... bye-bye, baby.'
'A bye-bye baby. You mean a...?'
'Bisexual.'
'And, does he prostitute himself?' Erlendur asked. 'Like you?'
'You bet. A junkie. There's always someone wanting to beat him up because he owes them money'
'And what about Ösp? How do you know her?'
'We were at school together. So was he. He's only a year younger than her. We're the same age. We were in the same class. She isn't that bright.' Stína pointed at her head. 'Not up there,' she said. 'Left school at fifteen. Failed the lot. I passed them all. Finished secondary school.'
Stína gave a broad smile.
Erlendur sized her up.
'I know you're my daughter's friend and you've been helpful,' he said, 'but you shouldn't go comparing yourself with Ösp. For a start, she doesn't have itchy stitches.'
Stína looked at him, still smiling out of one corner of her mouth, then walked out of the office without a word and through the lobby. On the way she swung her fur-collared coat over her, but now her motions lacked all dignity. She came face to face with Sigurdur Óli and Gudlaugur's sister as they entered the lobby, and Erlendur saw Sigurdur Óli goggle at Stína's breasts. He thought to himself that she must have got her money's worth after all.
The hotel manager stood nearby as if he had been waiting for Erlendur's meeting to finish. Ösp was standing by the lift and watched Stína leave the hotel. It was obvious that Ösp recognised her. When Stína walked past the head of reception who was sitting at his desk, he looked up and watched her go out through the door. He glanced over at the hotel manager who waddled off in the direction of the kitchen, and Ösp entered the lift, which closed behind her.
'What's behind all this tomfoolery, may I ask?' Erlendur heard Gudlaugur's sister say as she approached him. 'What's the meaning of such effrontery and rudeness?'
'Effrontery and rudeness?' Erlendur said in a quizzical voice. 'That doesn't sound familiar.'
'This man here,' the sister said, clearly unaware of Sigurdur Óli's name, 'this man has been rude to me and I demand an apology.'
'Out of the question,' Sigurdur Óli said.
'He pushed me and led me out of my home like a common criminal.'
'I handcuffed her,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'And I won't apologise. She can forget that. She called me plenty of names and Elínborg too, and she resisted. I want to lock her up. She was impeding a police officer in the execution of his duty.'
Stefanía Egilsdóttir looked at Erlendur and said nothing.
'I'm not accustomed to such treatment,' she said at last.
'Take her down the station,' Erlendur said to Sigurdur Óli. 'Put her in the cell next to Henry Wapshott. We'll talk to her tomorrow.' He looked at the woman. 'Or the day after.'
'You can't do this,' Stefanía said, and Erlendur could tell that she was severely taken aback. 'You have no reason to treat me like this. Why do you think you can throw me in prison? What have I done?'
'You've been lying,' Erlendur said. 'Goodbye.' And then to Sigurdur Óli, 'We'll be in touch.'
He turned away from them and set off in the direction the hotel manager had gone. Sigurdur Óli took Stefanía by the arm and was about to lead her away, but she stood rooted to the spot and stared at Erlendur's retreating back.
'All right,' she called after him. She tried to shake off Sigurdur Oli. 'This is not necessary,' she said. 'We can sit down and talk this over like human beings'
Erlendur stopped and turned around.
'My brother,' she said. 'Let's talk about my brother if you want. But I don't know what you'll gain by it'
They sat down in Gudlaugur's little room. She said she wanted to go there. Erlendur asked whether she had been there before and she denied it. When he asked whether she had not met her brother in all those years, she repeated what she had said before, that she had not been in contact with her brother. Erlendur was convinced that she was lying. That her business at the hotel five days before Gudlaugur's murder was in some way connected with him, not mere coincidence.
She looked at the poster of Shirley Temple in the role of the Little Princess without the slightest change of expression or word of comment. Opening the wardrobe, she saw his doorman's uniform. Finally she sat down on the only chair in the room, while Erlendur propped himself up against the wardrobe. Sigurdur Óli had meetings scheduled in Hafnarfjördur with more of Gudlaugur's old classmates and left when they went down to the basement.
'He died here,' the sister said without a hint of regret in her voice, and Erlendur wondered, just as he had at their first meeting, why this woman apparently lacked all feeling towards her brother.
'Stabbed through the heart,' Erlendur said. 'Probably with a knife from the kitchen,' he added. 'There is blood on the bed.'
'How sparse,' she said, looking around the room. 'That he should have lived here all those years. What was the man thinking of?'
'I was hoping you could help me with that one.'
She looked at him and said nothing.
'I don't know' Erlendur went on. He regarded it as ample. Some people can only live in a villa five hundred metres square. I understand that he benefited from living and working at the hotel. There were plenty of perks.'
'Have you found the murder weapon?' she asked.
'No, but perhaps something resembling it,' Erlendur said. Then he stopped and waited for her to speak, but she did not utter a word and a good while elapsed until she broke the silence.
'Why do you claim I'm lying to you?'
'I don't know how much of it is a lie but I do know that you're not telling me everything. You're not telling me the truth. But of course above all you're not telling me anything and I'm astonished at your and your father's reaction to Gudlaugur's death. It's as if he was nothing to do with you.'
She took a good long look at Erlendur, then seemed to make a decision.
'There were three years between us,' she said suddenly, 'and, young as I was, I still remember the first time they brought him home. One of my first memories in life, I expect. He was the apple of his father's eye from day one. Dad was always devoted to him and I think he had great things in mind for him from the very start. It didn't come of its own accord, as it should have done perhaps – our father always had something big planned for when Gudlaugur grew up.'
'What about you?' Erlendur asked. 'Didn't he see you as a genius?'
'He was always kind to me,' she said, 'but he worshipped Gudlaugur.'
'And drove him on until he broke down.'
'You want to have things simple,' she said 'Things rarely are. I would have thought that a man like you, a policeman, realised that.'
'I don't think this revolves around me,' Erlendur said.
'No,' she said. 'Of course not.'
'How did Gudlaugur end up alone and abandoned in this little room? Why did you hate him so much? I could conceivably understand your father's attitude if Gudlaugur cost him his health but I don't understand why you take such a harsh stand against him.'
'Cost him his health?' she said, looking at Erlendur in surprise.
'When he pushed him down the stairs,' Erlendur said. 'I've heard that story.'
'From whom?'
'That's not important. Is it true? Did he cripple your father?'
'I don't think that's any of your business.'
'Definitely not,' Erlendur said. 'Unless it concerns the investigation. Then I'm afraid it's more people's business than just you two.'
Saying nothing, Stefanía looked at the blood on the bed, while Erlendur pondered why she wanted to talk to him in the room where her brother had been murdered. He thought of asking her, but could not bring himself to.
'It can't always have been that way,' he said instead. 'The choirmaster told me you came to your brother's rescue when he lost his voice on stage. At some point you were friends. At some point he was your brother.'
'How do you know what happened? How did you dig that up? Who have you been talking to?'
'We're gathering information. People from Hafnarfjördur remember it well. You weren't totally indifferent to him then. When you were children.'
Stefanía remained silent.
'The whole thing was a nightmare,' she said at last. 'A terrible nightmare.'
*
In their house in Hafnarfjördur they spent the whole day excitedly looking forward to when he would sing at the cinema. She woke up early, made breakfast and thought about her mother, feeling that she had assumed that role in the household and was proud of it. Her father mentioned how helpful she was at looking after the two of them after her mother died. How grown-up and responsible she was in everything she did. Normally he never said anything about her. Ignored her. Always had.
She missed her mother. One of the last things her mother said to her in hospital was that now she would need to look after her father and brother. She must not let them down. 'Promise me that,' her mother said. 'It won't always be easy. It hasn't always been easy. Your father can be so stubborn and strict and I don't know whether Gudlaugur can take it. But if it ever comes to that you must stand with him, Gudlaugur, promise me that too,' her mother said, and she nodded and promised that too. And they held hands until her mother fell asleep, and then she stroked her hair and kissed her on the forehead.
Two days later she was dead.
'We'll let Gudlaugur sleep a little bit longer,' her father said when he came down into the kitchen. 'It's an important day for him.'
An important day for him.
She did not recall any day being important for her. Everything revolved around him. His singing. The recording sessions. The two records that had been released. The invitation to tour Scandinavia. The concerts in Hafnarfjördur. The concert tonight. His voice. His singing practice when she had to sneak around the house so as not to disturb them as he stood by the piano and his father played the accompaniment, instructing and encouraging him and showing him love and understanding if he felt he did well, but being strict and firm if he did not think he concentrated enough. Sometimes he lost his temper and scolded him. Sometimes he hugged him and said he was wonderful.
If only she had received a fraction of the attention lavished on him and the encouragement that he was given every day for having that beautiful voice. She felt unimportant, devoid of any talent that could attract her father's attention. He sometimes said it was a shame that she did not have a voice. He regarded teaching her to sing as a hopeless task, but she knew that wasn't the case. She knew that he could not be bothered to expend his energy on her, because she did not have a special voice. She lacked her brother's gift. She could sing in a choir and hammer out a tune on the piano, but both her father, and the piano teacher he sent her to because he did not have the time to attend to her himself, talked about her lack of musical talent
Her brother, on the other hand, had a wonderful voice and a profound feeling for music, but was still just a normal boy like she was a normal girl. She did not know what it was that distinguished them from each other. He was no different from her. To some extent she was in charge of his upbringing, especially after their mother fell ill. He obeyed her, did what she told him and respected her. Similarly, she loved him, but also felt jealous of the praise he earned. She was afraid of that feeling and mentioned it to no one.
She heard Gudlaugur coming down the stairs, and then he appeared in the kitchen and sat down beside their father.
'Just like Mum,' he said as he watched his sister pour coffee into their father's cup.
He often talked about their mother and she knew he missed her terribly. He had turned to her when something went wrong, when the boys bullied him or their father lost his temper, or simply when he needed someone to hold him without it being a special reward for a good performance.
Expectation and excitement reigned in the house all day and had reached an almost unbearable pitch when towards evening they put on their best clothes and set off for the cinema. The two of them accompanied Gudlaugur backstage, their father greeted the choirmaster, and then they crept out into the auditorium as it began to fill up. The lights in the auditorium dimmed. The curtain rose. Quite big for his age, handsome and peculiarly determined as he stood on stage, Gudlaugur finally began to sing in his melancholy boy soprano.
She held her breath and closed her eyes.
The next thing she knew was her father grabbing her by the arm so tightly that it hurt, and hearing him moan: 'Oh my God!'
She opened her eyes and saw her father's face, pale as death, and when she looked up at the stage she saw Gudlaugur trying to sing, but something had happened to his voice. It was like yodelling. She rose to her feet, looked all around the auditorium behind her and saw that people had started to smile and some were laughing. She ran up onto the stage to her brother and tried to lead him away. The choirmaster came to her assistance and eventually they managed to take him backstage. She saw her father standing rigid in the front row, staring up at her like the god of thunder.
When she lay in bed that evening and thought back to that terrible moment her heart missed a beat, not from fear or horror at what had happened or how her brother must have felt, but from a mysterious glee for which she had no explanation and which she repressed like an evil crime.
*
'Did you have a guilty conscience about those thoughts?' Erlendur asked.
'They were completely alien to me,' Stefanía said. 'I'd never thought anything like that before.'
'I don't suppose there's anything abnormal about gloating over other people's misfortunes,' Erlendur said. 'Even people close to us. It may be an instinct, a kind of defence mechanism for dealing with shock.'
'I shouldn't be telling you this in such detail,' Stefanía said. 'It doesn't paint a very appealing picture of me. And you may be right. We all suffered shock. An enormous shock, as you can imagine.'
'What was their relationship like after this happened?' Erlendur asked. 'Gudlaugur and his father.'
Stefanía ignored his question.
'Do you know what it's like not to be the favourite?' she asked instead. 'What it's like just being ordinary and never earning any particular attention. It's like you don't exist. You're taken for granted, not favoured or shown any special care. And all the time someone you consider your equal is championed like the chosen one, born to bring infinite joy to his parents and the whole world. You watch it day after day, week after week and year after year and it never ceases, if anything it increases over the years, almost ... almost worship.'
She looked up at Erlendur.
'It can only spawn jealousy,' she said. 'Anything else would not be human. And instead of suppressing it the next thing you know is that you're nourished by it, because in some odd way it makes you feel better.'
'Is that the explanation for gloating over your brother's misfortune?'
'I don't know,' Stefanía said. 'I couldn't control that feeling. It hit me like a slap in the face and I trembled and shivered and tried to get rid of it, but it wouldn't go. I didn't think that could happen.'
They fell silent.
'You envied your brother,' Erlendur said then.
'Maybe I did, for a while. Later I began to pity him.'
'And eventually hate him.'
She looked at Erlendur.
'What do you know about hate?' she said.
'Not much,' Erlendur said. 'But I do know that it can be dangerous. Why did you tell us that you hadn't been in contact with your brother for almost three decades?'
'Because it's true,' Stefanía said.
'It's not true,' Erlendur said. 'You're lying. Why are you lying about that?'
'Are you going to send me to prison for lying?'
'If I need to I will,' Erlendur said. 'We know that you came to this hotel five days before he was murdered. You told us you hadn't seen or been in contact with your brother for decades. Then we discover that you came to the hotel a few days before his death. On what business? And why did you lie to us?'
'I could have come to the hotel without meeting him. It's a big hotel. Did that ever occur to you?'
'I doubt that. I don't think it's a coincidence that you came to the hotel just before he died.'
He saw that she was prevaricating. Saw that she was mulling over whether to take the next step. She had patently prepared herself to give a more detailed account than at their first meeting, and now was the moment to decide whether to take the plunge.
'He had a key? she said in such a low voice that Erlendur could barely hear it. "The one you showed to me and my father.'
Erlendur remembered the key ring that was found in Gudlaugur's room and the little pink penknife with a picture of a pirate on it. There were two keys on the ring, one that he thought was a door key and the other that could well fit a chest, cupboard or box.
'What about that key?' Erlendur asked. 'Did you recognise it? Do you know what it fits?'
Stefanía smiled.
'I have an identical key,' she said.
'What key is it?'
'It's the key to our house in Hafnarfjördur.'
'You mean your home?'
'Yes,' Stefanía said. 'Where my father and I live. The key fits the basement door at the back of the house. Some narrow steps lead up from the basement to the hall and from there you can get into the living room and kitchen.'
'Do you mean ...?' Erlendur tried to work out the implications of what she was saying. 'Do you mean he went in the house?'
'Yes.'
'But I thought you weren't in contact. You said you and your father hadn't had anything to do with him for decades. That you didn't want to have any contact with him. Why were you lying?'
'Because Dad didn't know.'
'Didn't know what?'
"That he came. Gudlaugur must have missed us. I didn't ask him, but he must have done. For him to do that.'
'What was it precisely that your father didn't know?'
"That Gudlaugur sometimes came to our house at night without us being aware, sat in the living room without making a sound and left before we woke up. He did it for years and we never knew.'
She looked at the bloodstains on the bed.
'Until I woke up in the middle of the night once and saw him.'

24

Erlendur watched Stefanía, her words racing through his mind. She was not as haughty as at their first meeting when Erlendur had been outraged at her lack of feeling for her brother, and he thought he may have judged her too quickly. He knew neither her nor her story well enough to be able to sit on his high horse, and suddenly he regretted his remark on her lack of conscience. It was not up to him to judge others, though he was always falling into that trap. To all intents and purposes he knew nothing about this woman who had suddenly turned so pitiful and terribly lonely in front of him. He realised that her life had been no bed of roses, first as a child living in her brother's shadow, then a motherless teenager and finally a woman who never left her father's side and probably sacrificed her life for him.
A good while passed in this way, each of them engrossed in their respective thoughts. The door to the little room was open and Erlendur went out into the corridor. All of a sudden he wanted to reassure himself that no one was outside, no one was eavesdropping. He looked along the poorly lit corridor but saw nobody. Turning round, he looked down to the end, but it was pitch dark. He thought to himself that anyone who went down there would have had to walk past the door and that he would have noticed. The corridor was empty. All the same, he had a strong feeling that they were not alone in the basement when he went back into the room. The smell in the corridor was the same as the first time he went there: something burning that he could not place. He did not feel comfortable. His first sight of the body was etched in his mind and the more he found out about the man in the Santa suit, the more wretched was the mental image he preserved and knew he could never shake off.
'Is everything all right?' Stefanía asked, still sitting on the chair.
'Yes, fine,' Erlendur said. 'A silly idea of mine. I had a feeling someone was in the corridor. Shouldn't we go somewhere else? For coffee maybe?'
She looked across the room, nodded and stood up. They walked along the corridor in silence, up the stairs and across the lobby to the dining room where Erlendur ordered two coffees. They sat down to one side and tried not to let all the tourists disturb them.
'My father wouldn't be pleased with me now,' Stefanía said. 'He's always forbidden me to talk about the family. He can't stand any invasion of his privacy'
'Is he in good health?'
'He's in quite good health for his age. But I don't know ...' Her words trailed off.
'There's no such thing as privacy when the police are involved,' Erlendur said. 'Not to mention when murder has been committed.'
I'm starting to realise that. We were going to shake this off like it was none of our business, but I don't expect anyone can claim immunity in these dreadful circumstances. I don't suppose that's part of the deal.'
'If I understand you correctly? Erlendur said, 'you and your father had broken off all contact with Gudlaugur but he sneaked into the house at night without being noticed. What was his motive? What did he do? Why did he do this?'
'I never got a satisfactory answer out of him. He just sat still in the living room for an hour or two. Otherwise I'd have noticed him much earlier. He'd been doing it several times a year for years on end. Then one night about two years ago I couldn't sleep and was lying in bed in a drowsy state at about four in the morning, when I heard a creaking noise in the sitting room downstairs, which of course startled me. My father's room is downstairs and his door is always open at night, and I thought he was trying to get my attention. I heard another creak and wondered if it was a burglar, so I crept downstairs. I saw that the door to my father's room was just as I'd left it, but when I entered the hall I saw someone dart down the stairs, and I called out to him. To my horror he stopped on the stairs, turned round and came back up.'
Stefanía paused and stared ahead as if transported away from time and place.
'I thought he would attack me,' she began again. 'I stood in the kitchen doorway and turned on the light, and there he was in front of me. I hadn't seen him face to face for years, ever since he was a young man, and it took me a little while to realise that it was my brother.'
'How did you react to it?' Erlendur asked.
'It threw me completely. I was terrified too, because if it had been a burglar I should have rung the police instead of making all that fuss. I was trembling with fright and let out a scream when I switched on the light and saw his face. It must have been funny to see me so scared and nervous, because he started laughing.'
*
'Don't wake Dad,' he said, putting a finger to his lips to hush her.
She couldn't believe her eyes.
'Is that you?' she gasped.
He wasn't like the image she retained of him from his youth, and she saw how badly he had aged. He had bags under his eyes and his thin lips were pale; wisps of hair stood out in all directions and he regarded her with infinitely sad eyes. She automatically began working out how old he really was. He looked so much older.
'What are you doing here?' she whispered.
'Nothing,' he said. 'I'm not doing anything. Sometimes I just want to come home.'
*
'That was the only explanation he gave for why he sometimes sneaked into the living room at night without letting anyone know,' Stefanía said. 'Sometimes he wanted to go home. I don't know what he meant by that. Whether he associated it with childhood, when Mum was still alive, or whether he meant the years before he pushed Dad down the stairs. I don't know. Maybe the house itself held some meaning for him, because he never had another home. Just a dirty little room in the basement of this hotel.'
*
'You ought to leave,' she said. 'He might wake up.'
'Yes, I know,' he said. 'How is he? Is he all right?'
'He's doing fine. But he needs constant care. He has to be fed and washed and dressed and taken out and put down in front of the television. He likes films.'
'You don't know how bad I've felt about this,' he said. 'All these years. I didn't want it to turn out like this. It was all a huge mistake.'
'Yes, it was,' she said.
'I never wanted to be famous. That was his dream. My part was just to make it come true.'
They fell silent.
'Does he ever ask about me?'
'No,' she said. 'Never. I've tried to get him to talk about you but he won't even hear your name mentioned.'
'He still hates me.'
'I don't think he'll ever get that out of his system.'
'Because of the way I am. He can't stand me because Im...'
'That's something between the two of you that...'
'I would have done anything for him, you know that.'
'Yes.'
'Always.'
'Yes.'
'All those demands he made on me. Endless practising. Concerts. Recordings. It was all his dream, not mine. He was happy and then everything was fine.'
'I know.'
'So why can't he forgive me? Why can't he make up with me? I miss him. Will you tell him that? I miss when we were together. When I used to sing for him. You are my family.'
'I'll try to talk to him.'
'Will you? Will you tell him I miss him?'
'I'll do that.'
'He can't stand me because of the way I am.'
Stefanía said nothing.
'Maybe it was a rebellion against him. I don't know. I tried to hide it but I can't be anything else than what I am.'
'You ought to go now,' she said.
'Yes.'
He hesitated.
'What about you?'
'What about me?"
'Do you hate me too?'
'You ought to go. He might wake up.'
'Because it's all my fault. The situation you're in, having to look after him all the time. You must...'
'Go,' she said.
'Sorry:
*
'After he left home, after the accident, what happened then?' Erlendur asked. 'Was he just erased as if he'd never existed?'
'More or less. I know Dad listened to his records now and again. He didn't want me to know, but I saw it sometimes when I got home from work. He'd forget to put the sleeve away or take the record off. Occasionally we heard something about him and years ago we read an interview with him in a magazine. It was an article about former child stars. "Where are they now?" was the headline or something equally appalling. The magazine had dug him up and he seemed willing to talk about his old fame. I don't know why he opened up like that. He didn't say anything in the interview except that it was fun being the main attraction.'
'So someone remembered him. He wasn't completely forgotten.'
'There's always someone who remembers.'
'In the magazine he didn't mention being bullied at school or your father's demands, losing his mother and how his hopes, which I expect your father kindled, were dashed and he was forced to leave home?'
'What do you know about the bullying at school?'
'We know that he was bullied for being different. Isn't that right?'
'I don't think my father kindled any expectations. He's a very down-to-earth and realistic man. I don't know why you talk like that. For a while it looked as if my brother would go a long way as a singer, performing abroad and commanding attention on a scale unknown in our little community. My father explained that to him but I also think he told him that even though it would take a lot of work, dedication and talent, he still shouldn't set his hopes too high. My father isn't stupid. Don't you go thinking that.'
'I don't think anything of the sort.'
'Good.'
'Did Gudlaugur never try to contact you two? Or you him? All that time?'
'No. I think I've already answered your question. Apart from sneaking in sometimes without us noticing. He told me he'd been doing it for years.'
'You didn't try to track him down?'
'No, we didn't.'
'Were he and his mother close?' Erlendur asked.
'She meant the world to him,' Stefanía said.
'So her death was a tragedy to him.'
'Her death was a tragedy to us all.'
Stefanía heaved a deep sigh.
'I suppose something died inside us when she passed away. Something that made us a family. I don't think I realised until long afterwards that it was her who tied us together, created a balance. She and Dad never agreed about Gudlaugur, and they quarrelled about his upbringing, if you could call it quarrelling. She wanted to let him be the way he was, and even if he did sing beautifully not to make too much of it.'
She looked at Erlendur.
'I don't think our father ever regarded him as a child, more of a task. Something for him alone to shape and create.'
'And you? What was your standpoint?'
'Me? I was never asked.'
They stopped talking, listened to the murmuring in the dining room and watched the tourists chatting together and laughing. Erlendur looked at Stefanía, who seemed to have withdrawn inside her shell and the memories of her fragile family life.
'Did you have any part in your brother's murder?' Erlendur asked cautiously.
It was as if she did not hear what he said, so he repeated the question. She looked up.
'Not in the slightest,' she said. 'I wish he was still alive so that I could...'
Stefanía did not finish.
'So you could what?' Erlendur asked.
'I don't know, maybe make up for ...'
She stopped again.
'It was all so terrible. All of it. It started with trivial things and then escalated beyond control. I'm not making light of him pushing our father down the stairs. But you take sides and don't do much to change it. Because you don't want to, I suppose. And time goes by and the years pass until you've really forgotten the feeling, the reason that set it all in motion, and you've forgotten, on purpose or accidentally, the opportunities you had to make up for what went wrong, and then suddenly it's too late to set things straight. All those years have gone by and ...' She groaned.
'What did you do after you caught him in the kitchen?'
'I talked to Dad. He didn't want to know about Gulli, and that was that. I didn't tell him about the night-time visits. A few times I tried to talk to him about a reconciliation. Said I'd bumped into Gulli in the street and he wanted to see his father, but Dad was absolutely immovable.'
'Did your brother never go back to the house after that?'
'Not as far as I know.'
She looked at Erlendur.
'That was two years ago and that was the last I saw of him.'

25

Stefanía stood up, about to leave. It was as if she'd said all she had to say. Erlendur still had an inkling that she had been selective about what she wanted to go on record, and was keeping the rest to herself. He stood up as well, wondering whether to let that suffice for the time being or press her further. He decided to leave the choice to her. She was much more cooperative than before and that suited him for now. But he could not refrain from asking her about an enigma that she had left unexplained.
'I could understand your father's lifelong anger at him because of the accident,' Erlendur said. 'If he blamed him for the paralysis that has confined him to a wheelchair ever since. But you I can't quite figure out. Why you reacted the same way. Why you took your father's side. Why you turned against your brother and had no contact with him for all those years.'
'I think I've helped you enough,' Stefanía said. 'His death is nothing to do with my father and me. It's connected with some other life that my brother led and neither I nor my father know. I hope you appreciate the fact that I've tried to be honest and helpful, and you won't disturb us any more. You won't handcuff me in my own home.'
She held out her hand as if wanting to seal some kind of pact that she and her father would be left undisturbed in future. Erlendur shook her hand and tried to smile. He knew the pact would be broken sooner or later. Too many questions, he thought to himself. Too few real answers. He wasn't ready to let her off the hook just yet and thought he could tell that she was still lying to him, or at least circumventing the truth.
'You didn't come to the hotel to meet your brother a few days before his death?' he said.
'No, I met a friend in this dining room. We had coffee together. You ask her if you think it's not true. I'd forgotten that he worked here and I didn't see him while I was here.'
'I might check that,' Erlendur said, and wrote down the woman's name. 'Then there's something else: do you know a man called Henry Wapshott? He's British and he was in contact with your brother.'
'Wapshott?'
'He's a record collector. Interested in your brother's recordings. It just so happens that he collects records of choral music and specialises in choirboys'
'I've never heard of him,' Stefanía said. 'Specialises in choirboys?'
'Actually there are stranger collectors than him,' Erlendur said, but did not venture into an account of airline sick bags. 'He says your brother's records are very valuable today, do you know anything about that?'
'No, not a thing,' Stefanía said. 'What was he suggesting? What does it mean?'
'I don't know for sure,' Erlendur said. 'But they're valuable enough for Wapshott to want to come up here to Iceland to meet him. Did Gudlaugur have any of his own records?'
'Not that I know of?
'Do you know what happened to the copies that were released?'
'I think they just sold out,' Stefanía said. 'Would they be worth anything if they were still around?'
Erlendur sensed a note of eagerness in her voice and wondered whether she was masquerading, whether she was much better informed about all this than he was and was trying to establish just what he knew.
'Could well be,' Erlendur said.
'Is this British man still in the country?' she asked.
'He's in police custody,' Erlendur said. 'He may know more about your brother and his death than he wants to tell us.'
'Do you think he killed him?'
'You haven't heard the news?'
'No.'
'He's a candidate, no more than that.'
'Who is this man?'
Erlendur was about to tell her about the information from Scotland Yard and the child pornography that was found in Wapshott's room. Instead, he repeated that Wapshott was a record collector who was interested in choirboys and had stayed at the hotel and been in contact with Gudlaugur, and was suspicious enough to be remanded in custody.
They exchanged cordial farewells and Erlendur watched her leave the dining room for the lobby. His mobile rang in his pocket. He fumbled for it and answered. To his surprise, Valgerdur was on the other end.
'Could I meet you tonight?' she asked without preamble. 'Will you be at the hotel?'
'I can be,' Erlendur said, not bothering to conceal the surprise in his voice. 'I thought...'
'Shall we say eight? In the bar?'
'All right,' Erlendur said. 'Let's say that What—?'
He was going to ask Valgerdur what was bothering her when she rang off and all he could hear was silence. Putting away his mobile, he wondered what she wanted. He had written off any chance of getting to know her and concluded he was probably a total loser as far as women were concerned. Then this telephone call came out of the blue and he didn't know what to read into it.
It was well past noon and Erlendur was starving, but instead of eating in the dining room he went upstairs and had room service send up some lunch. He still had several tapes to go through, so he put one in the player and let it roll while he waited for his food.
He soon lost his concentration, his mind wandered from the screen and he started mulling over Stefanía's words. Why had Gudlaugur crept into their house at night? He had told his sister that he wanted to go home. Sometimes I just want to come home. What did those words imply? Did his sister know? What was home in Gudlaugur's mind? What did he miss? He was no longer part of the family and the person who had been closest to him, his mother, had died long before. He did not disturb his father and sister when he visited them. He did not come by day as normal people would do – if there was such a thing as normal people – to settle scores, to tackle differences and the anger and even hatred that had formed between him and his family. He came by cover of night, taking care not to disturb anyone, and sneaked back out unnoticed. Instead of reconciliation or forgiveness, he seemed to be looking for something perhaps more important to him, something that only he could understand and which was beyond explanation, enshrined in that single word.
Home.
What was that?
Perhaps a feeling for the childhood he spent in his parents' house before life's incomprehensible complexities and destinies descended upon him. When he had run around that house in the knowledge that his father, mother and sister were his companions and loved ones. He must have gone to the house to gather memories that he did not want to lose and from which he drew nourishment when life weighed him down.
Perhaps he went to the house to come to terms with what fate had meted out to him. The unyielding demands that his father made, the bullying that went with being considered different, the motherly love that was more precious to him than all other things, and the big sister who protected him too; the shock when he returned home after the concert at Hafnarfjördur cinema, his world in ruins and his father's hopes dashed. What could be worse for a boy like him than to fail to live up to his father's expectations? After all the effort he had expended, all the effort his father had made, all the effort his family had made. He had sacrificed his childhood for something too large for him then to comprehend or control – and which then failed to materialise. His father had played a game with his childhood, and in effect deprived him of it.
Erlendur sighed.
Who doesn't want to come home sometimes?
He was flat out on his bed when suddenly he heard a noise in the room. At first he couldn't tell where it was coming from. He thought the turntable had started up and the needle had missed the record.
Sitting up, he looked at the record player and saw that it was switched off. He heard the same noise again and looked all around. It was dark and he couldn't see very clearly. A vague light emanated from the lamp post on the other side of the road. He was about to switch on the bedside lamp when he heard the noise again, louder than before. He didn't dare move. Then he remembered where he had heard the noise before.
He sat up in bed and looked towards the door. In the weak glow he saw a small figure, blue with cold, huddled up in the alcove by the door, staring at him, shaking and shivering so that its head bobbed, sniffling.
The sniffling was the noise that Erlendur recognised.
He stared at the figure and it stared back at him, trying to smile but unable to do so for the cold.
'Is that you?' Erlendur gasped.
In that instant the figure disappeared from the alcove and Erlendur started from his sleep, half out of bed, and stared at the door.
'Was that you?' he groaned, seeing snatches of the dream, the woollen mittens, the cap, the winter jacket and scarf. The clothing they were wearing when they left their house.
The clothing of his brother.
Who sat shivering in the cold room.

26

For a long time he stood in silence at the window, watching the snow fall.
Eventually he sat down to continue watching the tapes. Gudlaugur's sister didn't reappear, nor anyone he knew apart from some employees he recognised from the hotel, hurrying to or from work.
The hotel telephone rang and Erlendur answered.
'I reckon Wapshott's telling the truth,' Elínborg said. 'They know him well at the collectors' shops and the flea market.'
'Was he down there at the time he claimed?'
'I showed them photos of him and asked about the times, and they were pretty close. Close enough to stop us putting him at the hotel when Gudlaugur was attacked.'
'He doesn't give the impression of being a murderer either.'
'He's a paedophile, but maybe not a murderer. What are you going to do with him?'
'I suppose we'll send him to the UK.'
The conversation ended and Erlendur sat pondering Gudlaugur's murder, without reaching any conclusion. He thought about Elínborg and his mind soon returned to the case of the boy whose father abused him and whom Elínborg hated for it.
*
'You're not the only one,' Elínborg had said to the father. She wasn't trying to console him. Her tone was accusatory, as if she wanted him to know he was only one of many sadists who maltreated their children. She wanted to let him hear what he was a part of. The statistics that applied to him.
She had studied the statistics. Well over three hundred children had been examined at the Children's Hospital in connection with suspected maltreatment over the period 1980-99. Of these, 232 cases involved suspected sexual abuse and 43 suspected physical abuse or violence. Including toxic poisoning. Elínborg repeated the words for emphasis. Including toxic poisoning and wilful neglect. She read from a sheet of paper, calm and collected: head injuries, broken bones, burns, cuts, bites. She reread the list and stared into the father's eyes.
'It is suspected that two children died from physical violence over that twenty-year period,' she said. 'Neither case went to court.'
The experts, she told him, considered that this was an underlying problem, which in plain language meant there were probably many more cases.
'In the UK,' she said, 'four children die every week from maltreatment. Four children,' she reiterated. 'Every week.
'Do you want to know what reasons are given?' she continued. Erlendur sat in the interrogation room but kept a low profile. He was only there to help Elínborg if necessary, but she did not appear to need any assistance.
The father stared into his lap. He looked at the tape recorder. It wasn't switched on. It wasn't a proper interrogation. His lawyer had not been notified but the father had not objected nor complained, yet.
'I shall name some,' Elínborg said, and began listing the reasons that parents are violent to their children: 'Stress,' she said. 'Financial problems, sickness, unemployment, isolation, poor partner support and momentary insanity.'
Elínborg looked at the father.
'Do you think any of this applies to you? Momentary insanity?'
He didn't answer.
'Some people lose control of themselves, and there are documented cases of parents who are so disturbed by a guilty conscience that they want to be caught. Does that sound familiar?'
He said nothing.
'They take the child to the doctor, maybe their GP, because it has, let's say, a persistent cold. But it's not the cold that motivates them; they want the doctor to notice the wounds on the child, the bruises. They want to get caught. You know why?'
He still sat in silence.
'Because they want to put an end to it. Want someone to intervene. Intervene in a process they have no control over. They are incapable of doing so themselves and hope the doctor will see that something's wrong.'
She looked at the father. Erlendur watched in silence. He was worried that Elínborg was going too far. She seemed to draw on every ounce of strength to act professionally, to show that she was not upset by the case. It seemed to be a hopeless struggle and he thought she realised. She was too emotional.
'I spoke to your GP, Elínborg said. 'He said he had twice reported the boy's injuries to the child welfare agency. The agency investigated both times but found no conclusive evidence. It didn't help that the boy said nothing and you admitted nothing. It's two different things, wanting to be found out for the violence and confessing to it. I read the reports. In the second one, your son is asked about his relationship with you, but he does not seem to understand the question. They repeat the question: "Who do you trust most of all?" And he replies: "My Dad. I trust my Dad most of all."'
Elínborg paused.
'Don't you think that's appalling?' she said.
She looked over towards Erlendur and back to the father.
'Don't you think that's just appalling?'
Erlendur thought to himself that there was a time when he would have given the same answer. He would have named his father.
When spring came and the snow thawed his father went up to the mountains to look for his lost son, trying to calculate his route in the storm from where Erlendur had been found. He seemed to have made a partial recovery, but was nevertheless tormented by guilt.
He roamed the moors and the mountains, beyond where there was any chance of his son reaching, but never found anything. He stayed in a tent up there, Erlendur went with him and his mother took part in the search, and sometimes local folk came to help them, but the boy was never discovered. It was crucial to find the body. Until then, he was not dead in the proper sense, only lost to them. The wound remained open and immeasurable sorrow seeped from it.
Erlendur fought that sorrow alone. He felt bad, and not only about losing his brother. His own rescue he attributed to luck, but a strange sense of guilt preyed on him because it was him and not his younger brother who was saved. Not only had he lost his grip on his brother in the storm, he was also haunted by the thought that he should rather have died himself. He was older and was responsible for his sibling. It had always been that way. He had taken care of him. In all their games. When they were home alone. When they were sent off on errands. He had lived up to those expectations. On this occasion he had failed, and perhaps he did not deserve to be saved since his brother had died. He didn't know why he survived. But he sometimes thought it would have been better if he were the one lying lost on the moor.
He never mentioned these thoughts to his parents and in his loneliness he sometimes felt that they must think the same about him. His father had sunk down into his own guilt and wanted to be left alone. His mother was overwhelmed with grief. They both blamed themselves in part for what happened. Between them reigned a curious silence that drowned out the loudest of shouts, while Erlendur fought his own battle in solitude, reflecting on responsibility, blame and luck.
If they had not found him, would they have found his brother instead?
Standing by the hotel window, he wondered what mark his brothers death had left on his life, and whether it was more than he realised. He had pondered those events when Eva Lind began asking him questions. Although he had no simple answers, he knew deep down where they were to be found. He had often asked himself the same questions as Eva Lind did when she quizzed him about his past.
Erlendur heard a knock on his door and turned away from the window.
'Come in!' he called out. 'It's not locked'
Sigurdur Óli opened the door and entered.
He had spent the whole day in Hafnarfjördur, talking to people who knew Gudlaugur.
'Anything new?' Erlendur asked.
'I found out the name he was called. You remember, the one after everything had collapsed around him.'
'Yes, who told you?'
Sigurdur Óli sighed and sat down on the bed. His wife Bergthóra had been complaining how much he had been away from home recently when Christmas was drawing near; she had to handle all the preparations by herself. He intended to go home and take her to buy a Christmas tree, but first he needed to see Erlendur. Over the telephone on his way to the hotel, he explained this to her and said he would hurry, but she had heard that story too often to believe it and was in a huff by the time they finished speaking.
'Are you going to spend the whole of Christmas in this room?' Sigurdur Óli asked.
'No,' Erlendur said. 'What did you find out in Hafnarfjördur.'
'Why's it so cold in here?'
'The radiator,' Erlendur said. 'It won't heat up. Won't you get to the point?'
Sigurdur Óli smiled.
'Do you buy a Christmas tree? For Christmas?'
'If I did buy a Christmas tree, I'd do it at Christmas'
'I located a man who, after waffling a bit, told me he knew Gudlaugur in the old days,' Sigurdur Óli said. He knew he had information that could change the course of the investigation and enjoyed keeping Erlendur in suspense.
Sigurdur Óli and Elínborg had set themselves the goal of talking to everyone who had been at school with Gudlaugur or knew him as a boy. Most of them remembered him and vaguely recalled his promising career as a singer and the bullying that accompanied his celebrity. The occasional person remembered him well and knew what happened when he left his father paralysed. One had a closer relationship with him than Sigurdur Óli could ever have imagined.
An old female schoolmate of Gudlaugur's pointed him out to Sigurdur Óli. She lived in a big house in the newest quarter of Hafnarfjördur. He had telephoned her that morning, so she was expecting him when he arrived. They shook hands and she invited him inside. A pilot's wife, she worked part time in a book shop; her children were grown up and had left home.
She told him all the details of her acquaintance with Gudlaugur, even though it was only slight, and also had a dim recollection of his sister, who she knew was older. She thought she remembered him losing his voice, but didn't know what had happened to him after they left school, and was shocked to see the reports that he was the man who was found murdered in the little basement room at the hotel.
Sigurdur Óli listened to all this distractedly. He had heard most of it from Gudlaugur's other classmates. When she finished, he asked whether she knew any name that Gudlaugur was called as a child and teased with. She didn't remember any, but added, when she saw Sigurdur Óli was about to leave, that she had heard something about him a long time ago that the police might be interested in, if they didn't know it already.
'What's that?' Sigurdur Óli asked, standing up to leave.
She told him, and was pleased to see that she had managed to arouse the detective's interest.
'And is this man still alive?' Sigurdur Óli asked the woman, who said that for all she knew he was, and gave his name. She stood up to fetch the telephone directory and Sigurdur Óli found the man's name and address. He lived in Reykjavík. His name was Baldur.
'Are you sure this is the guy?' Sigurdur Óli asked.
'As far as I know,' the woman said, smiling in the hope that she had provided some assistance. 'It was the talk of the town,' she added.
Sigurdur Óli decided to go there immediately on the off-chance that the man would be at home. It was late in the day. The traffic to Reykjavik was heavy and on the way Sigurdur Óli called Bergthóra who—
'Please stop beating about the bush,' Erlendur impatiently interrupted Sigurdur Oil's account.
'No, this part involves you,' Sigurdur Óli said with a teasing grin. 'Bergthöra wanted to know if I'd invited you round for Christmas Eve. I told her I had, but you hadn't given an answer.'
'I'm spending Christmas Eve with Eva Lind,' Erlendur said. 'That's the answer. Will you please get to the point.'
'Right on,' Sigurdur Óli said.
'And stop staying "right on".'
'Right on.'
*
Baldur lived in a neat wooden house in the Thingholt district near the city centre and had just got home; he was an architect. Sigurdur Óli rang his doorbell and introduced himself as a detective investigating the murder of Gudlaugur Egilsson. The man showed no surprise. He looked Sigurdur Óli up and down and invited him inside.
'To tell the truth I've been expecting you,' he said. 'Or one of you. I was wondering about getting in touch, but I've been putting it off. It's never nice talking to the police.' Smiling again, he offered to hang up Sigurdur Óli's coat.
Everything in the house was spick and span. There were lit candles in the sitting room and a decorated Christmas tree. The man offered Sigurdur Óli a glass of liqueur, which he declined. He was of average height, slim, jolly and balding, but what hair was left had clearly been tinted to enhance its ginger colour. Sigurdur Óli thought he recognised Frank Sinatra crooning from speakers.
'Why were you expecting me, or us?' Sigurdur Óli asked as he sat down on a large red sofa.
'Because of Gulli,' the man said, sitting opposite him. 'I knew you'd dig this up.'
'This what?' Sigurdur Óli asked.
'That I was with Gulli in the old days,' the man said.
'What do you mean, he was with Gudlaugur in the old days?' Erlendur butted in again. 'What could he mean by that?'
'That's the way he phrased it,' Sigurdur Óli said.
'That he was with Gudlaugur?'
'Yes.'
'What does that mean?'
'That they were together.'
'You mean Gudlaugur was ...?' Countless thoughts rushed through Erlendur's mind, all screeching to a halt at the stern expressions on the faces of Gudlaugur's sister and his father in the wheelchair.
'That's what this Baldur guy says,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'But Gudlaugur didn't want anyone to know.'
'Didn't want anyone to know about their relationship?'
'He wanted to hide the fact that he was gay.'

27

The man from Thingholt told Sigurdur Óli that his relationship with Gudlaugur began when they were about twenty-five. It was during the disco era when Baldur rented a basement flat in the Vogar district. Neither of them had come out of the closet. 'Attitudes to being gay were different then,' he said with a smile. 'But it was starting to change.'
'And we didn't really live together,' Baldur added. 'Men didn't live together then like they do today, without anyone giving it a second thought. Gays could hardly survive in Iceland in those days. Most of us felt compelled to go abroad, as you may know. He often used to visit me, shall we say. Stayed the night with me. He had a room of his own in the west of town and I went there a couple of times, but he was maybe not quite houseproud enough for my taste so I stopped going there. We were mainly at my place.'
'How did you meet?' Sigurdur Óli asked.
'There were places where gays used to meet then. One was just off the city centre, in fact not far from here in Thingholt. Not a club, but a sort of meeting place we had in someone's house. You never knew what to expect at the clubs and you sometimes got thrown out for dancing with other men. This home was a hotchpotch of everything, a coffee bar, guesthouse, night club, advice centre and shelter. He came there one evening with some friends. That was the first time I saw him. Sorry, silly me, can I offer you coffee?'
Sigurdur Óli looked at his watch.
'Maybe you're in a terrible hurry,' the man said, carefully smoothing down his thin, dyed hair.
'No, it's not that, I wouldn't mind a cup of tea if you have any,' Sigurdur Óli said, his thoughts on Bergthóra. She sometimes got angry when his time-keeping failed. She was very petty about punctuality and would nag him long afterwards if he turned up late.
The man went into the kitchen to make the tea.
'He was awfully repressed,' he said from the kitchen, raising his voice so that Sigurdur Óli could hear him better. 'I sometimes thought he hated his own sexuality. As if he still hadn't fully admitted it. I think he was partly using his relationship with me to help find his way along. He was still searching even at that age. But of course that's nothing new. People come out in their forties, maybe having been married with four kids.'
'Yes, there are all sorts of permutations,' said Sigurdur Óli, who had no idea what he was talking about.
'Oh yes there are, my dear. Do you like it well brewed?'
'Were you together for long?' Sigurdur Óli asked, adding that he did like his tea strong.
"Three years or so, but it was very on and off towards the end.'
'And you haven't been in touch with him since?'
'No. I knew about him, sort of,' the man said, returning to the sitting room. "The gay community isn't that big.'
'In what way was he repressed?' Sigurdur Óli asked while the man put two cups on the table. He had brought in a bowl of cookies, which he recognised as the sort Bergthóra baked every Christmas. He tried in vain to remember what they were called.
'He was very mysterious and rarely opened up, or only if we got drunk. It was something to do with his father though, I think. He had no contact with him or with his older sister, who had turned against him, but he missed them terribly. His mother had been dead for years when I met him, but he talked more about her than the rest of his family. He could go on for ever about his mother and it could be very tiring, to tell the truth.'
'How did she turn against him? His sister?'
'This was a long time ago and he never described it exactly. All I know is that he fought what he was. You know what I mean? As if he should have been something else.'
Sigurdur Óli shook his head.
'He thought it was dirty. Something unnatural about it. Being gay.'
'And fought it?'
'Yes and no. He wavered about it. I don't think he knew which foot to stand on. Poor thing. He didn't have much self-confidence. Sometimes I think he hated himself?
'Did you know about his past? As a child star?'
'Yes,' the man said, then he stood up to go to the kitchen and returned with a pot of piping-hot tea which he poured into the cups. He took the pot back to the kitchen and they sipped their tea.
'Can't you speed this up a bit?' Erlendur said to Sigurdur Óli, making no attempt to conceal his impatience as he sat at his hotel room desk listening to the account.
'I'm trying to make it as detailed as possible,' Sigurdur Óli said with a glance at his watch. He was already three-quarters of an hour late for Bergthóra.
'Yes, yes, get on with it...'
'Did he ever talk about it?' Sigurdur Óli asked, putting down his teacup and helping himself to a cookie. 'His childhood brush with fame?'
'He said he lost his voice,' Baldur said.
'And was he bitter about that?'
'Terribly. It happened at an awful time for him. But he would never tell me about it. He said he was bullied at school for being famous, and that got him down. But he didn't call it being famous. He didn't regard himself as ever having been famous. His father wanted him to be, and apparently he came very close to it. But he felt unhappy, and on top of that these feelings started to come out, his gay side. He was reluctant to talk about it. Preferred to say as little as possible about his family. Do have another cookie.'
'No, thanks,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'Do you know of anyone who may have wanted to kill him? Someone who wanted to hurt him?'
'Good Lord, no! He was such a pussy cat, he would never have harmed a fly. I don't know who could have done it. The poor man, going like that. Are you getting anywhere in your enquiries?'
'No,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'Did you ever listen to his records, or do you have them?'
'You bet,' the man said. 'He was absolutely brilliant. It's wonderful the way he sang. I don't think I've ever heard a child sing so well.'
'Was he proud of his singing when he was older? When you knew him?'
'He never listened to himself Didn't want to hear his records. Never. No matter how I tried.'
'Why not?'
'It was just impossible to get him to. He never gave any explanation, he just didn't listen to his own records.'
Baldur stood up, went to a cupboard in the sitting room, fetched Gudlaugur's two records and put them on the table in front of Sigurdur Óli.
'He gave them to me after I helped him move.'
'Move?'
'He lost his room on the west side of town and asked me to help him move. He got himself another room and put all his stuff in there. He never really owned anything apart from records.'
'Did he have a lot?'
'Tons of them.'
'Was there anything special that he listened to?'
'No, you see,' Baldur said, 'they were all the same records. These ones here,' he said, pointing to Gudlaugur's two records. 'He had loads of these. He said he'd acquired all the copies.'
'So, he had boxes full of these?' Sigurdur Óli said, unable to conceal his eagerness.
'Yes, at least two.'
'Do you know where they might be?'
'Me? No, I haven't the foggiest. Are they a hot number these days?'
'I know of someone who might be prepared to kill for them,' Sigurdur Óli said.
Baldur's face was now a huge question mark.
'What do you mean?'
'Nothing,' Sigurdur Óli said, looking at his watch. 'I must be going. I might need to contact you again to fill in a few details. It would also be helpful if you phoned me if you remember anything, no matter how trivial it may seem.'
'To tell the truth we didn't have much choice in those days,' the man said. 'Not like today when half the population is gay and the other half pretends it is.'
He smiled at Sigurdur Óli, who choked on his tea.
'Excuse me,' Sigurdur Óli said.
'It is a little strong.'
Sigurdur Óli stood up and so did Baldur, who followed him to the door.
"We know that Gudlaugur was bullied at school,' Sigurdur Óli said when he was about to leave, 'and they called him names. Do you remember if he ever mentioned that to you?'
'It was quite obvious that he'd been bullied for being in a choir and having a beautiful voice and not playing football, and being a bit girlish. He gave the impression of being a little unsure of himself with other people. He talked to me as if he understood why they teased him. But I don't remember him mentioning any names ...'
Baldur hesitated.
'Yes,' Sigurdur Óli said.
'When we were together, you know...'
Sigurdur Óli shook his head vacantly.
'In bed...'
'Yes?'
'Sometimes he wanted me to call him "my Little Princess",' Baldur said, a smile playing across his lips.
Erlendur stared at Sigurdur Óli.
'My Little Princess?'
'That's what he said.' Sigurdur Óli stood up from Erlendur's bed 'And now I really must be going. Bergthóra will be going bananas. So you'll be home for Christmas?'
'And what about the boxes of records?' Erlendur said. 'Where could they be?'
'The guy didn't have any idea.'
"The Little Princess? As in the Shirley Temple film? How does that all fit together? Did that man explain it?'
'No, he didn't know what it meant.'
'It doesn't have to mean anything in particular,' Erlendur said, as if thinking out loud. 'Some gay patois no one else understands. Maybe no stranger than a lot of other things. So, he hated himself then?'
'Not much self-confidence, his friend said. He was indecisive.'
'About his homosexual feelings or something else?'
'I don't know.'
'You didn't ask?'
'We can always talk to him again, but he didn't really seem to know that much about Gudlaugur.'
'And nor do we,' Erlendur said languidly. 'If he wanted to hide the fact that he was gay twenty or thirty years ago, do we assume he went on hiding it?'
'That's the question.'
'I haven't met anyone else who mentioned that he was gay.'
'Yes, well, I'm off anyway' Sigurdur Óli said, moving to the door. 'Was there anything else for today?'
'No,' Erlendur said. 'That's fine. Thanks for the invitation. Give my regards to Bergthóra, and try to treat her decently.'
'I always do,' Sigurdur Óli said and hurried out. Erlendur looked at his watch and saw that it was time to meet Valgerdur. He took the last tape from the bank out of the video player and put it on the top of the stack. Immediately his mobile began to ring.
It was Elínborg. She told him she had spoken to the State Prosecutor's office about the father who assaulted his son.
'What do they reckon he'll get?' Erlendur asked.
'They think he might even get off, Elínborg said. 'He won't be convicted if he stands firm. If he just denies it. Won't spend a minute inside.'
'What about the evidence? The footprints on the stairs? The bottle of Drambuie? Everything suggests that—'
'I don't know why we bother. A case of assault came up for sentence yesterday. A man was repeatedly stabbed with a knife. The attacker got eight months in prison, four of them suspended, which means that he goes to jail for two months. Where's the justice in that?'
'Will he get the boy back?'
'He's bound to. The only positive thing, if it can be called positive, is that the boy seriously seems to miss his father. That's what I don't understand. How can he feel attached to his father if the man beats the shit out of him? I just can't figure this case out. Something must be missing. Something we've overlooked. It just doesn't add up.'
'I'll talk to you later,' Erlendur said and looked at his watch. He was late for his meeting with Valgerdur. 'Can you do one thing for me? Stefanía Egilsdóttir said she was with a friend at the hotel the other day. Would you talk to the woman and confirm it?' Erlendur gave her the woman's name.
'Aren't you going to get yourself back home from that hotel?' Elínborg asked.
'Stop nagging me,' Erlendur said and rang off.

28

When Erlendur went down to the lobby he saw Rósant, the head waiter. He hesitated, uncertain whether to make a move. Valgerdur was bound to be waiting for him. Erlendur looked at his watch, pulled a face and went up to the head waiter. This shouldn't take long.
'Tell me about the whores,' he said without preamble. Rósant was talking courteously to two hotel guests. They were clearly Icelandic, because they looked at him in astonishment.
Rósant smiled, raising his little moustache. He apologised politely to the guests, bowed and took Erlendur aside.
'A hotel is just people and our job is to make them feel good, wasn't it some kind of crap like that?' Erlendur said.
'It's not crap. They taught us that at catering college.'
'Did they also teach head waiters to be pimps?'
'I don't know what you're talking about.'
'I'll tell you then. You run a little knocking shop at this hotel'
Rósant smiled.
'A knocking shop?'
'Has it got anything to do with Gudlaugur, your pimping?'
Rósant shook his head.
'Who was with Gudlaugur when he was murdered?'
They fixed each other's gaze until Rósant backed off and stared down at the floor.
'There was no one I know of,' he finally said.
'Not you?'
'One of your people took a statement from me. I have an alibi.'
'Was Gudlaugur involved with the whores?'
'No. And there are no whores under my charge. I don't know where you get these stories from about pilfering from the kitchen and whores. They're nonsense. I'm not a pimp.'
'But—'
'We have certain information for people, for visitors. Foreigners at conferences. Icelanders too. They ask for company and we try to assist. If they meet pretty women at the bars here and feel good about it—'
'Then everyone's happy. Aren't they grateful customers?'
'Extremely.'
'So you're an escort provider, so to speak,' Erlendur said.
'I...'
And how romantic you make it all sound. The hotel manager's in it with you. What about the head of reception?'
Rósant hesitated.
'What about the head of reception?' Erlendur repeated.
'He doesn't share our desire to fulfil the customers' diverse needs'
'The customers' diverse needs,' Erlendur mimicked. 'Where did you learn to talk like that?'
'At catering college.'
'And how do the head of reception's views fit in with yours?'
'There are occasional conflicts'
Erlendur remembered the man from reception denying that there were prostitutes at the hotel, and thought to himself that he was probably the only member of the management who tried to safeguard the hotel's reputation.
'But you're trying to eliminate these conflicts, aren't you?'
'I don't know what you're talking about.'
'Does he get in your way?'
Rósant did not answer.
'It was you who set that whore on him, wasn't it? A little warning in case he was planning to say anything. You were out on the town, saw him and set one of your whores on him.'
Rósant stalled.
'I don't know what you're talking about,' he repeated.
'No, I bet you don't.'
'He's just so awfully honest,' Rósant said, his moustache lifting alarmingly. 'He refuses to understand that it's better for us to run this ourselves.'
Valgerdur was waiting for Erlendur at the bar. As at their previous meeting, she was wearing light make-up that accentuated her features, with a white silk blouse under a leather coat. They shook hands and she gave a faltering smile. He wondered whether this meeting would be like a fresh start to their acquaintance. He couldn't work out what she wanted from him, after apparently saying the final word about their friendship the time they met in the lobby. With a smile, she asked him if she could buy him a drink from the bar, or was he perhaps on duty?
'In films, cops aren't supposed to drink if they're on duty,' she said.
'I don't watch films' Erlendur smiled.
'No,' she said. 'You read books about pain and death.'
They took a seat in one corner of the bar and sat in silence, watching the people milling around. As Christmas drew closer, Erlendur felt that the guests were growing noisier, there were endless carols playing over the sound system, the tourists brought in gaudy parcels and drank beer as if unaware that it was the most expensive in Europe, if not the world.
'You managed to get a sample from Wapshott,' he said.
'What kind of guy is he anyway? They had to knock him to the floor and force his mouth open. It was awesome to see the way he acted, the way he fought them off inside his cell.'
'I can't work him out really,' Erlendur said. 'I don't know exactly what he's doing here and I don't know exactly what he's hiding.'
He didn't want to go into details about Wapshott, nor talk about the child pornography and the sentences he had received in the UK for sex crimes. He didn't feel that was an appropriate topic of conversation with Valgerdur, besides which Wapshott had the right, in spite of everything, that Erlendur did not go blathering about his private life to everyone he met.
'I expect you're much more accustomed to this than I am,' Valgerdur said.
'I've never taken a saliva sample from a man who has been knocked to the floor and lies there screaming and shouting.'
Valgerdur laughed.
'I didn't mean that,' she said. 'I mean, I haven't sat down by myself with a man other than my husband for – I guess it must be thirty years. So you have to excuse me if I act ... sheepish.'
'I'm just as clumsy,' Erlendur said. 'I don't have much experience either. It's almost a quarter of a century since I divorced my wife. You can count the women in my life on three fingers'
'I think I'm divorcing him,' Valgerdur said gloomily, looking at Erlendur.
'What do you mean? Divorcing your husband?'
'I think it's over between us and I wanted to apologise to you.'
'To me?'
'Yes, you,' Valgerdur said. 'I'm such an idiot,' she groaned. 'I was going to use you to take revenge.'
'I don't follow,' Erlendur said.
'I hardly know myself. It's been awful ever since I found out.'
'What?'
'He's having an affair.'
She said this just like any other fact she had to live with and Erlendur couldn't discern how she felt, sensed only the emptiness behind her words.
'I don't know when it started or why,' she went on.
Then she stopped talking and Erlendur, at a loss for something to say, kept silent as well.
'Did you cheat on your wife?' she suddenly asked.
'No,' Erlendur said. 'It wasn't like that. We were young and we weren't compatible.'
'Compatible,' Valgerdur repeated after him, vacantly. 'What's that?'
'And you're going to divorce him?'
'I'm trying to get my bearings,' she said. 'It may depend on what he does.'
'What kind of an affair is it?'
'What kind? Is there any difference between affairs?'
'Has it been going on for years or has he just started? Has he had more than one maybe?'
'He says he's been with the same woman for two years. I haven't had the guts to ask him about the past, whether there were any others. That I never knew about. You never know anything. You trust your people, your husband, and the next thing you know is one day he starts talking about the marriage, then that he knows this woman and he's known her for two years, and you're like a total idiot. Don't realise what he's talking about. Then it turns out they've been meeting at hotels like this one ...'
Valgerdur stopped.
'Is she married, this woman?'
'Divorced. She's five years younger than him.'
'Has he given any explanation for the affair? Why he—?'
'Do you mean whether it's my fault?' Valgerdur interjected.
'No, I didn't mean ...'
'Maybe it is my fault,' she said. 'I don't know. There have been no explanations. Just anger and incomprehension, I think.'
'And your two sons?'
'We haven't told them. They've both left home. Not enough time for ourselves while they were there, too much time when they'd moved out. Maybe we didn't know each other any longer. Two strangers after all those years.'
They fell silent.
'You don't have to apologise to me for anything,' Erlendur said eventually, looking at her. 'Far from it. I'm the one who should apologise for not being straight with you. For lying to you.'
'Lying to me?'
'You asked why I was interested in deaths in the mountains, in storms and up on the moors, and I didn't tell you the truth. It's because I've hardly ever talked about it and find it difficult, I suppose. I don't think it's anyone else's business. Not my children's business either. My daughter had a near-fatal experience and I thought she was going to die – it was only then that I felt the need to talk about it to her. To tell her about it'
'Talk about what?' Valgerdur asked. 'Was it something that happened?'
'My brother froze to death,' Erlendur said. 'When he was eight. He was never found and still hasn't been found.'
He had told a complete stranger, a woman at a hotel bar, what had been weighing down his heart for almost as long as he could remember. Maybe it was a long-awaited dream. Maybe he did not want to wage that war any longer.
'There's a story about us in one of those books on. tragedies that I'm always reading,' he said. 'The story of what happened when my brother died, the search and the gloom and grief that engulfed our home. A remarkably accurate account actually, related by one of the leaders of the search party, which a friend of my father's wrote down. All our names are given, it describes our household and my father's reaction, which was considered strange because he was overwhelmed by total hopelessness and self-recrimination, and sat in his room rigid and staring into space while everyone else was searching for all they were worth. We weren't asked permission when the account was published and my parents were extremely upset by it. I can show it to you some time if you want.'
Valgerdur nodded.
Erlendur began to tell her, she sat and listened, and when he had finished she leaned back in her seat and sighed.
'So you never found him?' she said.
Erlendur shook his head.
'Long after this happened, even sometimes today, I imagine he's not dead. That he got down from the moor, weatherbeaten and having lost his memory, and that I'll meet him some time later. I look for him in crowds and try to imagine what he looks like. Apparently this is not an uncommon reaction when no bodily remains are found. I know that from being in the police. Hope lives on when nothing else is left.'
'You must have been close,' Valgerdur said. 'You and your brother.'
'We were good friends' Erlendur said.
They sat in deep silence, watching the hustle and bustle at the hotel from their respective worlds. Their glasses were empty and neither thought of ordering more. A good while passed until Erlendur cleared his throat, leaned over to her and asked her in a hesitant voice a question that had been preying on his mind ever since she started talking about her husband's infidelities.
'Do you still want to take revenge on him?'
Valgerdur looked at him and nodded.
'But not yet,' she said. 'I can't...'
'No,' Erlendur said. 'You're right. Of course.'
'Why don't you tell me about one of those missing persons you're so interested in? That you're always reading about.'
Erlendur smiled, thought for a moment and then started telling her about a man who disappeared right in front of everyone's eyes: Jón Bergthdrsson, a thief from Skagafjördur.
He went out onto the sea ice off the Skagi coast to fetch a shark that had been hauled up through a hole in the ice the previous day. Suddenly a southerly wind set in, it began to rain and the ice split and drifted out to sea with Jon on it. Rescuing him by boat was ruled out because of the storm, and the ice drifted northwards out of the fjord, driven by the southerly wind.
The last time Jón was seen was through a pair of binoculars as he scurried back and forth across the iceberg on the distant northern horizon.

29

The soft bar music had a soporific effect and they sat in silence until Valgerdur reached over and took hold of his hand.
'I'd better be going now' she said.
Erlendur nodded and they both stood up. She kissed him on the cheek and stood pressed up against him for a moment.
Neither of them noticed when Eva Lind walked into the bar and saw them from a distance. Saw them stand up, saw her kiss him and apparently snuggle up against him. Eva Lind shuddered and marched over.
'Who's this old cow?' Eva said, staring at them.
'Eva,' Erlendur reproached her, startled at suddenly seeing his daughter in the bar. 'Be polite.'
Valgerdur held out her hand and Eva Lind looked at it, looked Valgerdur in the face and then back at the outstretched hand. Erlendur watched them both in turn and ended up glaring at Eva.
'Her name's Valgerdur and she's a good friend of mine,' he said.
Eva Lind looked at her father and at Valgerdur again but did not shake her hand. With an embarrassed smile, Valgerdur turned round. Erlendur followed her out of the bar and watched her cross the lobby. Eva Lind went over to him.
'What was that?' she said. 'Have you started buying the tarts at the bar here?'
'How could you be so rude?' Erlendur said. 'How could you think of behaving like that? It's none of your business. Leave me in bloody peace!'
'Right! You can go poking your nose into my business 24-fucking-7 but I'm not allowed to know who you're shagging at this hotel!'
'Stop talking such filth! What makes you think you can talk to me like that?'
Eva Lind stopped but glared angrily at her father. He stared at her, furious.
'What the hell do you want from me, child?' he shouted in her face, then ran after Valgerdur. She had left the hotel and through the revolving doors he saw her stepping into a taxi. When he came out onto the pavement in front of the hotel he saw the taxi's red rear lights fading in the distance and finally vanish around the corner.
Erlendur cursed as he watched the tail lights disappear. Not in any mood to go back to the bar where Eva Lind was waiting for him, he went back inside absent-mindedly and down the stairs to the basement, and before he realised he was in the corridor where Gudlaugur's room was. He found a switch and turned it on, and the few remaining working bulbs cast a gloomy light onto the corridor. He fumbled his way along until he reached the little room, opened the door and turned on the light. The Shirley Temple poster greeted his eyes.
The Little Princess.
He heard light footsteps along the corridor and Eva Lind appeared in the doorway.
'The girl upstairs said she saw you go down to the basement,' Eva said, looking into the room. Her gaze stopped at the bloodstains on the bed. 'Was it here that it happened?' she asked.
'Yes,' Erlendur said.
'What's that poster?'
'I don't know,' Erlendur said. 'I don't understand the way you act sometimes. You shouldn't go calling her an old cow and refuse to shake her hand. She hasn't done you any harm.'
Eva Lind said nothing.
'You ought to be ashamed of yourself? Erlendur said.
'Sorry,' Eva said.
Erlendur didn't reply. He stood staring at the poster. Shirley Temple in a pretty summer frock with a ribbon in her hair, smiling in Technicolor. The Little Princess. Made in 1939, based on the story by Frances Hodgson Burnett. Temple played a lively girl who was sent to a London boarding school when her father went abroad: he left her in the care of a harsh headmistress.
Sigurdur Óli had found an entry about the film on the Internet It left them none the wiser about why Gudlaugur had hung up the poster in his room.
The Little Princess, Erlendur thought to himself.
'I couldn't help thinking about Mum,' Eva Lind said behind him. 'When I saw her with you at the bar. And about me and Sindri, who you've never shown any interest in. Started thinking about all of us. Us as a family, because however you look at it we are still a family. In my mind anyway.'
She stopped.
Erlendur turned to face her.
'I don't understand that neglectfulness,' she went on. 'Especially towards me and Sindri. I don't get it. And you're not exactly helpful. Never want to talk about anything that involves you. Never talk about anything. Never say anything. It's like talking to a brick wall.'
'Why do you need explanations for everything?' Erlendur said. 'Some things can't be explained. And some things don't need to be explained.'
'Says the cop!'
'People talk too much,' Erlendur said. 'People should shut up more often. Then they wouldn't give themselves away so much.'
'You're talking about criminals. You're always thinking about criminals. We're your family!'
They fell silent.
'I've probably made mistakes,' Erlendur said at last. 'Not with your mother, I think. Though I might have. I don't know. People get divorced all the time and I found living with her unbearable. But I definitely did wrong by you and Sindri. And perhaps I didn't even appreciate it until you found me and started visiting me, and sometimes dragged your brother along with you. Didn't realise that I had two children I hadn't been in touch with for the whole of their childhood, who'd gone astray so early in life, and I started wondering whether my lack of action played any part in it. I've thought a lot about why that was. Just like you. Why I didn't go to court and secure my parental rights, fight tooth and nail to have you with me. Or try harder to persuade your mother and reach an agreement. Or just hang around outside your school to kidnap you.'
'You just weren't interested in us,' Eva Lind said. Isn't that the point?'
Erlendur said nothing.
'Isn't that the point?' Eva repeated.
Erlendur shook his head.
'No,' he said. 'I wish it were that simple.'
'Simple? What do you mean?'
'I think...'
'What?'
'I don't know how to put this. I think...'
'Yes.'
'I think I lost my life up on the moors too.'
'When your brother died?'
'It's hard to explain and maybe I can't. Maybe you can't explain everything and some things may be better left unexplained.'
'What do you mean, lost your life?'
'I'm not... a part of me died.'
'Please...'
'I was found and rescued, but I died too. Something inside me. Something I had before. I don't know exactly what it was. My brother died and I think something inside me died too. I always felt he was my responsibility, and I failed him. That's the way I've felt ever since. I've been guilty that it was me and not him who survived. I've avoided looking anything in the face ever since. And even if I wasn't directly neglected, the way I neglected you and Sindri, it was as if I no longer mattered. I don't know if I'm right and I never will know, but I felt it as soon as I came down from the moor and I've felt it ever since.'
'All these years?'
'You can't measure time in feelings.'
'Because it was you and not him who survived.'
'Instead of trying to rebuild something from the ruins, which I think I was trying to do when I met your mother, I dug myself down deeper into it because it's comfortable there and it looks like sanctuary. Like when you take drugs. It's more comfortable that way. That's your sanctuary. And as you know, even if you are aware that you're doing other people wrong, your own self matters most. That's why you go on taking drugs. That's why I dig myself down over and again into the snowdrift.'
Eva Lind stared at her father, and although she did not fully comprehend him, she realised that he was making an absolutely candid attempt to explain what had puzzled her all the time and had prompted her to track him down when she did. She understood that she had penetrated a place within him that no one else had ever been to, not even him, except to make sure that everything there remained undisturbed.
'And that woman? Where does she come into the picture?'
Erlendur shrugged, and started to close the door that had come ajar.
'I don't know,' he said.
They stayed silent for a while until Eva Lind made her excuses and left. Unsure which direction to take, she peered into the darkness at the end of the corridor, and Erlendur suddenly noticed she was sniffing at the air like a dog.
'Can you smell that?' she said, sticking her nose up into the air.
'Smell what?' Erlendur said. 'What are you talking about?'
'Hash,' Eva Lind said. 'Dope. Do you mean to tell me you've never smelted hash?'
'Hash?'
'Can't you smell it?'
Erlendur went out into the corridor and started sniffing into the air as well.
'Is that what it is?' he said.
'You're asking the expert,' she said.
She was still sniffing at the air.
'Someone's been smoking hash down here, and not very long ago,' she said.
Erlendur knew that forensics had lit up the end of the corridor when the body was taken away, but was uncertain whether it had been fine-combed.
He looked at Eva Lind.
'Hash?'
'You're on the scent,' she said.
He went back into the room, took a chair and placed it in the corridor underneath one of the functional light bulbs, which he unscrewed. The bulb was scorching and he had to use the sleeve of his jacket to grip it. He found a blown bulb at the dark end of the corridor and swapped them. Suddenly it was illuminated and Erlendur jumped down from the chair.
At first they could see nothing of note, until Eva Lind pointed out to her father how spotlessly clean the alcove at the end seemed to be compared with the rest of the corridor. Erlendur nodded. It was as if every single spot on the floor had been cleaned and the walls wiped down.
Erlendur got down on all fours and scanned the floor. Heating pipes ran along all the walls at floor level and he looked under the pipes and crawled alongside them.
Eva Lind saw him stop and fish under the pipe to fetch something that had caught his attention. He got to his feet, walked over to her and showed her what he had found.
'At first I thought it was rat droppings,' he said, holding up a little brown lump between his fingers.
'What is it?' Eva Lind asked.
'It's a gauze,' Erlendur said.
'A gauze?'
'Yes, containing chewing tobacco that you put under your lip. Someone has thrown away or spat out his chewing tobacco here in this corridor.'
'But who? Who could have been in this corridor?'
Erlendur looked at Eva Lind.
'Someone who's a bigger tart than I am,' he said.
CHRISTMAS EVE

30

He found out that Ösp was working on the floor above his room, and he went up the stairs after having coffee and toast from the breakfast buffet.
He contacted Sigurdur Óli about some information he needed him to gather and phoned Elínborg to find out whether she had remembered to question the woman Stefania claimed to have met at the hotel when she was captured on the security camera. Elínborg had gone out and did not answer her mobile.
Erlendur had lain awake in bed until almost morning, in pitch darkness. When he finally got up he looked out of the hotel window. It would be a white Christmas this year. The snow was setting in seriously. He could see it in the light from the lamp posts. Thick snow fell into the light they shed and formed a kind of backdrop for Christmas Eve.
Eva Lind had said goodbye to him in the basement corridor. She was going to meet him at home that evening. They were going to boil some smoked lamb and when he woke up he started wondering what to give her for Christmas. He had given her small presents after she began spending Christmas with him and she had given him socks, which she admitted she had stolen, and once a pair of gloves, which she said she had bought and he soon lost. She never asked about them. Perhaps the aspect of his daughter's character that he liked most was that she never asked about anything unless it mattered.
Sigurdur Óli called him with the information. It wasn't much, but enough to go on. Erlendur didn't know exactly what he was looking for, but thought his hypothesis was worth putting to the test.
He watched her working on her hotel floor as before, until she noticed him. She did not show any particular surprise at seeing him.
'Are you up?' she said, as if he was the laziest guest at the hotel.
'It took me ages to get to sleep,' he said. 'Actually I was thinking about you all night.'
'Me?' Ösp said, putting a heap of towels into a laundry basket. 'Nothing dirty, I hope. I've had enough of dirty old men at this hotel.'
'No,' Erlendur said. 'Nothing dirty'
'Fatso asked me if I'd been grassing to you, telling you shit. And the chef shouted at me like I was stealing from his buffet. They knew we'd been talking.'
'Everyone knows more or less everything about everyone else at this hotel,' Erlendur said. 'But they never really say anything about anyone. Such people are very difficult to deal with. Like you, for example.'
'Me?' Ösp went into the room she was cleaning and Erlendur followed her inside as he had done before.
'You tell me everything and I believe every word because you create an honest and truthful impression, but actually you're only telling a fraction of what you know, which is also a lie of sorts. No less serious for us, the police. That sort of lie. Do you know what I'm talking about?'
Ösp did not reply. She was busy changing the beds. Erlendur watched her. He couldn't read what she was thinking. She acted as if he wasn't in the room. As if she could shake him off if she just pretended he was not there.
'For example, you didn't tell me that you have a brother' Erlendur said.
'Why should I tell you that?'
'Because he's in trouble.'
'He's not in any trouble.'
'Not with me, he's not,' Erlendur said. 'I haven't got him into trouble. But he is in trouble and he sometimes goes to his sister for help when he needs it.'
'I don't get you,' Ösp said.
'I'll tell you. He's been in prison twice, not long stretches, for burglary and theft. Some of it has been found out, other things doubtless haven't, that's the way it goes. These are typical petty offences by a small-time criminal. Typical crimes by a junkie who's in debt. He's on the most expensive stuff now and never has enough money. But dealers don't do things by halves. They've caught him more than once and beaten him up. Once they threatened to kneecap him. So he needs to do odd jobs besides stealing to buy his drugs. To cover his debts'
Ösp put down the linen.
'He has various recourses for financing his habit,' Erlendur said. 'You probably know that. Like all those kids do. Kids who are hopeless junkies'
Ösp remained silent.
'Do you understand what I'm saying?'
'Did Stína tell you this?' Ösp said. 'I saw her here yesterday. I've often seen her here and if anyone's a tart it's her.'
'She didn't tell me any of this,' Erlendur said, not allowing Ösp to change the subject. 'It wasn't long ago your brother was in the corridor where Gudlaugur was living. He could even have been there since the murder. He may have been there very recently. His smell's still mere, for those who recognise it. For people who smoke hash and use speed and cook heroin.'
Ösp stared at him. Erlendur didn't have much to work on when he went to see her. Only the fact that the alcove was spotlessly clean, but he could tell from her reaction that what he was saying was not so wide of the mark. He wondered whether to take an even greater gamble. After deliberating for a while, he decided to give it a shot.
'We found his chewing tobacco too,' Erlendur said. 'Has he been using that for long?'
Ösp was still staring at him without saying a word. Finally she looked down at the bed. Took a long look, until she seemed to resign herself.
'Since he was fifteen,' she said, almost inaudibly.
He waited for her to go on, but she added nothing and they stood facing each other in the hotel room, and Erlendur allowed the silence to reign for a while. In the end Ösp sighed and sat down on the bed.
'He's always broke,' she said softly. 'Owes everyone money. All the time. And then they threaten him and beat him up, but he still keeps on and his debts mount up. Sometimes he gets money and can pay part of it off. Mum and Dad gave up on him ages ago. Threw him out when he was seventeen. They sent him to rehab and he ran away. He didn't come home for a week or so and they put a missing persons announcement in the papers. He didn't give a shit. He's been dossing around ever since. I'm the only one in the family who keeps in touch with him. Sometimes I let him into the basement in the winter. He's slept in the alcove when he needs to hide. I've banned him from having drugs down there but I can't control him either. No one has any control over him.'
'Have you given him money? To pay off those debts?'
'Sometimes, but it's never enough. They've been round to Mum and Dad threatening blue murder and they smashed Dad's car in, so now they're paying to try to get the thugs off their backs, but it's just so much. They charge ridiculous interest on those debts and when they talk to the police, guys like you, the cops say they can't do anything because it's only threats, and apparently it's OK to threaten people.'
She looked at Erlendur.
'If they kill Dad, maybe you'll look into the matter.'
'Did your brother know Gudlaugur? They must have known about each other. From the basement'
'They knew each other,' Ösp said gloomily.
'How?'
'Gulli paid him for...' Ösp stopped.
'For what?'
'Favours he did.'
'Sexual favours?'
'Yes, sexual favours'
'How do you know that?'
'My brother told me.'
'Was he with Gudlaugur that afternoon?'
'I don't know. I haven't seen him for days, not since ...' She stopped. 'I haven't seen him since Gudlaugur was stabbed,' she then said. 'He hasn't been in touch.'
'I think he may have been in the corridor not so long ago. Since Gudlaugur's murder.'
'I haven't seen him.'
'Do you think he attacked Gudlaugur?'
'I don't know,' Ösp said. 'All I know is that he's never attacked anyone. And he's constantly on the run and he must be on the run now because of this, even though he didn't do anything. He could never hurt anyone.'
And you don't know where he is now?'
'No, I haven't heard from him.'
'Do you know whether he knew that British man I mentioned to you. Henry Wapshott? The one with the child pornography'
'No, he didn't know him. I don't think so anyway. What are you asking that for?'
'Is he gay? Your brother?'
Ösp looked at him.
'I know he does anything for money,' she said. 'But I don't think he's gay'
'Will you tell him I want to talk to him. If he noticed anything in the basement I need to speak to him about it. I also need to ask him about his relationship with Gudlaugur. I need to know whether he saw him the day he was murdered. Will you do that for me? Tell him I need to talk to him?'
'Do you think he did it? Killed Gudlaugur?'
'I don't know,' Erlendur said. 'If I don't hear from him very soon I'll have to declare him wanted for questioning.'
Ösp showed no reaction.
'Did you know that Gudlaugur was gay?' he asked.
Ösp looked up.
'Judging from what my brother said he seems to have been. And judging from what he paid my brother for being with him ...'
Ösp stopped.
'Did you know that Gudlaugur was dead when you were asked to go and fetch him?' Erlendur asked.
She looked at him.
'No, I didn't know. Don't try to pin this on me. Is that what you're trying to do? Do you reckon I killed him?'
'You didn't tell me about your brother in the basement'
'He's always in trouble but I know he didn't do that. I know he could never do anything like that. Never.'
'You two must be close, the way you take care of him.'
'We've always been good friends,' Ösp said as she stood up. 'I'll talk to him if he gets in touch. Tell him you need to meet him in case he knows anything about what happened.'
With a nod, Erlendur said he would be at the hotel for most of the day and she could always find him there.
'It has to happen right away, Ösp,' he said.

31

When Erlendur went back down to the lobby he noticed Elínborg at the reception desk. The head of reception pointed towards him and Elínborg turned round. She was looking for him and walked over briskly wearing a concerned expression that Erlendur seldom saw.
'Is something the matter?' he asked as she approached.
'Can we sit down somewhere?' she said. 'Is the bar open yet? God, what a pathetic job this is! I don't know why I bother.'
'What's up?' Erlendur asked, taking her by the arm and leading her to the bar. The door was closed but not locked, and they went inside. Although the room was open, the bar itself seemed to be closed. Erlendur saw a sign saying it would not open for another hour. They sat down in one of the booths.
'And my Christmas is being ruined,' Elínborg said. 'I've never done so little baking. And all the in-laws are coming tonight and—'
'Tell me what happened,' Erlendur said.
'What a cock-up,' Elínborg said. 'I don't understand him. I simply don't understand him.'
'Who?'
'The boy!' Elínborg said. 'I don't understand what he means'
She told Erlendur that, instead of going home and baking cookies the previous evening, she had dropped in at Kleppur mental hospital. Exactly why she did not know, but she couldn't get the case of the boy and his father out of her mind. When Erlendur chipped in that she may just have had enough of baking for her in-laws, she didn't even smile.
She had been to the mental hospital once before to try to talk to the boy's mother, but the woman was so ill then that she hardly uttered a word of sense. The same happened again on this second visit. His mother sat rocking back and forth, in a world of her own. Elínborg wasn't quite sure what she wanted to hear her say, but thought she might know something about the relationship between the father and the son that had not yet come to light.
She knew that his mother would only be in hospital temporarily. She was admitted intermittently, when she went through a phase of flushing her psychiatric medication down the toilet. When she took her pills she was generally in reasonable condition. She took good care of their home. When Elínborg mentioned the boy's mother to his teachers, they also said she seemed to look after him well.
Elínborg sat in the hospital lounge where the nurse had brought the boy's mother, and watched her twiddling her hair around her index finger, muttering something Elínborg could not make out. She tried to talk to her but the mother seemed to be miles away. Offered no response to her questions. It was as though she was sleepwalking.
After sitting with her for a while, Elínborg started thinking about all the assortments of cookies that she still had to bake. She stood up to fetch someone to take the woman back to the ward and found a warder in the corridor. He was about thirty and looked like a bodybuilder. He was wearing white trousers and a white T-shirt, and his strong biceps rippled with every movement of his body. His hair was crewcut and he had a round, chubby face with little eyes sunk deep into his head. Elínborg didn't ask his name.
He followed her into the lounge.
'Oh, it's old Dora,' the warder said, walking over and taking the woman by the arm. 'You're pretty quiet tonight'
The woman stood up, just as confused as ever.
'Stoned out of your tree again, are you, old girl,' the warder said in a tone that Elínborg disliked. It was like he was talking to a five-year-old. And what did he mean by saying she was pretty quiet tonight? Elínborg couldn't hold herself back.
'Will you stop talking to her like a little kid,' she said, more brashly than she had intended.
The warder looked at her.
'Is that any of your business?' he said.
'She's entitled to be treated with respect just like everyone else,' Elínborg said, but desisted from saying she was from the police.
'Maybe she is,' the warder said. 'And I don't think I'm treating her disrespectfully. Come on, Dóra,' he went on, leading her out into the corridor.
Elínborg followed close behind.
'What did you mean when you said she's pretty quiet tonight?'
'Quiet tonight?' the warder repeated, turning his head towards Elínborg.
'You said she was pretty quiet tonight,' Elínborg said. 'Wasn't she supposed to be?'
'I sometimes call her the Fugitive,' the warder said. 'She's always on the run.'
Elínborg didn't follow.
'What are you talking about?'
'Haven't you seen the movie?' the warder asked.
'Does she escape?' Elínborg said. 'From this hospital?'
'Or when we take them on trips into town,' the warder said. 'She ran away the last time we went. We were shitting bricks when you found her at the bus station and brought her back here to the ward. You didn't treat her with much respect then.'
'I found her?'
'I know you're from the cops. The cops literally threw her at us.'
'What day was this?'
He thought about it. He had been accompanying her and two other patients when she slipped away. They were on Laekjartorg square at the time. He remembered the date well, it was the same day that he set his personal best on the bench press.
The date matched that of the attack on the boy.
'Wasn't her husband informed when she ran away from you?' Elínborg asked.
'We were about to phone him when you found her. We always give them a few hours to come back. Otherwise we'd spend all our time on the phone.'
'Does her husband know that you call her that? The Fugitive.'
'We don't call her that. It's only me. He doesn't know.'
'Does he know that she runs away?'
'I haven't told him. She always comes back.'
'I don't believe this,' Elínborg said.
'When she comes in here she has to be drugged right up to stop her running off,' the warder said.
'This changes everything!'
'Come on, Dora old girl,' the warder said, and the door to the ward closed behind him.
Elínborg stared at Erlendur.
'I was positive it was him. The father. Now she could have run away, gone home, assaulted the boy and hopped back out. If only the boy would open his mouth!'
'Why should she assault her son?'
'I've no idea,' Elínborg said. 'Maybe she hears voices'
'And the broken fingers and bruises? All that over the years? Is it always her then?'
'I don't know.'
'Have you spoken to the father?'
'I've just come from seeing him.'
'And?'
'Naturally, we're not the best of friends. He hasn't been allowed to see the boy since we burst into their home and turned everything upside-down. He showered me with abuse and—'
'Did he say anything about his wife, the boy's mother?' Erlendur butted in impatiently. 'He must have suspected her.'
'And the boy hasn't said a thing,' Elínborg continued.
'Except that he misses his father,' Erlendur said.
'Yes, apart from that. So his father finds him in his room upstairs and thinks he's crawled home from school in that state.'
'You visited the boy in hospital and asked if it was his father who assaulted him, and he made some reaction that convinced you it was.'
'I must have misunderstood him,' Elínborg said, her head bowed. 'I read something into his manner...'
'But we have nothing to prove it was the mother. We have nothing to prove it wasn't the father.'
'I told him, the boy's father, that I'd been to the hospital to talk to his wife and that we know nothing about her whereabouts on the day of the assault. He was surprised. As if it never occurred to him that she could escape from the hospital. He's still convinced it was the boys in the school playground. He said the boy would tell us if his mother had assaulted him. He's convinced of that.'
'So why doesn't the boy name her?'
'He's in a state of shock, poor thing. I don't know.'
'Love?' Erlendur said. 'In spite of everything she's done to him.'
'Or fear,' Elínborg said. 'Maybe a huge fear that she'll do it again. Either way he might be keeping quiet to protect his mother. It's impossible to say'
'What do you want us to do? Should we drop the charges against the father?'
'I'm going to talk to the State Prosecutor's office and find out what they say'
'Start with that. Tell me another thing, did you phone the woman who was with Stefanía Egilsdóttir at this hotel a few days before Gudlaugur was stabbed?'
'Yes,' Elínborg said vacantly. 'She asked her friend to vouch for her but when it came to the crunch she couldn't go through with the lie.'
'You mean lie for Stefanía?'
'She began by saying that they'd been sitting here, but she was very hesitant about it, and she was such a bad liar that when I said I had to bring her down to the station to make a statement she started crying over the phone. She told me how Stefanía phoned her, they're old friends from a music society, and asked her to say they were together at this hotel if she was asked. She said she refused, but Stefanía appears to have some hold over her and she won't tell me what it is.'
'It was a poor lie from the start,' Erlendur said. 'We both knew she let it slip out. I don't know why she's holding up the investigation like this unless she knows it's her fault'
'You mean that she killed her brother?'
'Or she knows who did.'
They lingered at their table for a while and talked about the boy, his father and mother and the difficult family circumstances, which prompted Elínborg to ask Erlendur once again what he was going to do for Christmas. He said he was going to be with Eva Lind.
He told Elínborg about his discovery in the basement corridor and his suspicions that Ösp's brother was somehow involved, a delinquent with endless money problems. He thanked Elínborg for the invitation and told her to take off the rest of the time until Christmas.
'There isn't any time until Christmas' Elínborg smiled, and shrugged as if Christmas no longer mattered, what with all the cleaning and cookies and in-laws.
'Will you get any Christmas presents?' she asked.
'Maybe some socks,' Erlendur said. 'Hopefully.'
He hesitated before saying: 'Don't upset yourself about the boy's father. These things always happen. We feel certain, convinced even, then something always comes along that erodes it.'
Elínborg nodded.
Erlendur followed her through the lobby and they exchanged farewells. He planned to go up to his room to pack. He'd had enough of the hotel. He was seriously beginning to miss his 'hole with nothing in it', his books, his armchair and even Eva Lind lying on the sofa.
He was standing waiting for the lift when Ösp surprised him.
'I've found him,' she said.
'Who?' Erlendur said. 'Your brother?'
'Come with me,' Ösp said, heading for the stairs to the basement. Erlendur hesitated. The lift doors opened and he looked inside. He was on the trail of the murderer. Perhaps Ösp's brother had come to turn himself in at her urging: the lad with the chewing tobacco. Erlendur felt no excitement about it. None of the expectation or sense of triumph that accompanied solving a case. All he felt was fatigue and sadness because the case had stirred up all manner of associations with his own childhood, and he knew he had so much left to come to terms with in his own life that he had no idea where to begin. Most of all he wanted to forget about work and go home. Be with Eva Lind. Help her to get over the troubles she was dealing with. He wanted to stop thinking about others and start thinking about himself and his own people.
'Are you coming?' Ösp said in a low voice, standing on the stairs and waiting.
'I'm coming,' Erlendur said.
He followed her down the stairs and into the staff coffee room where he had first spoken to her. It was as squalid as ever. She locked the door behind them. Her brother was sitting at one of the tables and leaped to his feet when Erlendur walked in.
'I didn't do anything,' he said in a high-pitched voice. 'Ösp says you think I did it, but I didn't do anything. I didn't do anything to him!'
He was wearing a dirty blue anorak with a rip on one shoulder that revealed the white lining. His jeans were black with grime and he was wearing scruffy black boots that could be laced up to the calves, but Erlendur saw no laces in them. His fingers were long and filthy, clutching a cigarette. He inhaled the smoke and blew it back out. His voice was agitated and he paced back and forth in the corner of the kitchen like a caged animal, cornered by a policeman who was poised to arrest him.
Erlendur looked over his shoulder at Ösp, who was standing by the door, then back at her brother.
'You must trust your sister to come here like this.'
'I didn't do anything,' he said. 'She told me you were cool and just wanted some information.'
'I need to know about your relationship with Gudlaugur,' Erlendur said.
'I didn't stab him,' he said.
Erlendur sized him up. He was halfway between adolescence and adulthood, peculiarly childlike but with a hardened expression that displayed anger and bitterness towards something that Erlendur could not even begin to imagine.
'No one is suggesting you did,' Erlendur said reassuringly, trying to calm him down. 'How did you know Gudlaugur? What relationship did you have?'
He looked at his sister but Ösp just stood by the door and said nothing.
'I did him favours sometimes and he paid me for it,' he said.
'And how did you know each other? Have you known him for a long time?'
'He knew I was Ösp's brother. He thought it was funny that we're brother and sister, like everyone does.'
'Why?'
'My name's Reynir.'
'So? What's funny about that?'
'Ösp and Reynir. Aspen and Rowan. Brother and sister. Mum and Dad's little joke. Like they're into forestry'
'What about Gudlaugur?'
'I first saw him here when I came to meet Ösp. About half a year ago.'
'And?'
'He knew who I was. Ösp had told him a bit about me. She sometimes let me sleep at the hotel. On his corridor.'
Erlendur turned to Ösp.
'You cleaned that alcove very carefully,' he said.
Ösp gave him a blank look and did not reply. He turned back to Reynir.
'He knew who you were. You slept on the corridor in front of his room. What then?'
'He owed me money. Said he would pay.'
'Why did he owe you money?'
'Because I did him favours sometimes and—'
'Did you know he was gay?'
'Isn't that obvious?'
And the condom?'
'We always used condoms. He was paranoid. He said he didn't take chances. Said he didn't know if I was infected or not. I'm not infected,' he said emphatically and looked at his sister.
And you chew tobacco.'
He looked at Erlendur in surprise.
'What's that got to do with it?'
'That's not the point. Do you chew tobacco?'
'Yes.'
'Were you with him the day he was stabbed?'
'Yes. He asked me to see him because he was going to pay me.'
'How did he get hold of you?'
Reynir took a mobile phone out of his pocket and showed it to Erlendur.
'When I arrived he was putting on his Santa suit,' he said. 'He said he had to rush off to the Christmas party, paid me what he owed, looked at his watch and saw he had time for a quickie.'
'Did he have a lot of money in his room?'
'Not that I knew of. I just saw what he paid me. But he said he was expecting a load of money.'
'Where from?'
'I don't know. He said he was sitting on a goldmine.'
'What did he mean by that?'
'It was something he was going to sell. I don't know what it was. He didn't tell me. Just said he was expecting loads of money, or a lot of money, he never said loads. He never talked like that. Always spoke polite and used classy words. He was always really courteous. A good bloke. Never did me any harm. Always paid. I know loads of worse people than him. Sometimes he just wanted to talk to me. He was lonely, or at least he said he was. Told me I was his only friend.'
'Did he tell you anything about his past?'
'No.'
'Nothing about being a child star once?'
'No. A child star? At what?'
'Did you see a knife in his room that could have come from the hotel kitchen?'
'Yes, I saw a knife in there but I don't know where it came from. When I went to see him he was picking away at his Santa suit. He said he had to get a new one for next Christmas'
'And he didn't have any money besides what he paid you?'
'No, I don't think so.'
'Did you rob him?'
'No.'
'Did you take half a million that was in his room?'
'Haifa million? Did he have half a million?!'
'I'm told you always need money. It's obvious how you get it. There are people you owe money. They've threatened your family...'
Reynir glared at his sister.
'Don't look at her, look at me. Gudlaugur had money in his room. More than he owed you. Maybe he'd sold part of his goldmine. You saw the money. You wanted more. You did things for him that you thought you ought to be paid more for. He refused, you argued, you grabbed the knife and tried to stab him, but he held you off until you managed to sink the knife into his chest and kill him. You took the money...'
'You tosser,' Reynir hissed. 'What fucking bollocks!'
' ... and since then you've been smoking hash and shooting up or whatever it is you—'
'You fucking creep!' Reynir shouted.
'Go on with the story,' Ösp called out. 'Tell him what you told me. Tell him everything!'
'Everything about what?' Erlendur said.
'He asked me if I'd give him one before he went up to the Christmas party,' Reynir said. 'He said he didn't have much time but had money and he'd pay me well. But when we were starting that woman burst in on us.'
'That woman?'
'Yes.'
'What woman?'
'The one who caught us.'
'Tell him,' Erlendur heard Ösp say behind his back 'Tell him who it was!'
'What woman are you talking about?'
'We forgot to lock the door and suddenly the door opened and she burst in on us.'
'Who?'
'I don't know who it was. Some woman.'
'And what happened?'
'I don't know. I buggered off. She shouted something at him and I legged it.'
'Why didn't you give us this information straight away?'
'I avoid the cops. There's all kinds of people after me and if they know I'm talking to the cops they'll think I'm grassing and they'll get me for it'
'Who was this woman who caught you? What did she look like?'
'I didn't really notice. I buggered off. He was mortified. Pushed me away and shouted and totally lost it. He seemed to be terrified of her. Scared shitless.'
'What did he shout?' Erlendur asked.
'Steffí.'
'What?'
'Steffi. That was all I heard. Steffi. He called her Steffi and he was scared shitless of her.'

32

She was standing outside the door to his room with her back to him. Erlendur stopped and watched her for a moment, and saw how she had changed since the first time he saw her, storming into the hotel with her father. Now she was just a tired and weary middle-aged woman who still lived with her crippled father in the house that had always been her home. For reasons unknown to him, this woman had come to the hotel and murdered her brother.
It was as if she sensed his presence in the corridor, because suddenly she turned round and looked at him. He could not decipher her thoughts from the expression on her face. All he knew was that she was the person he had been looking for since he first went to the hotel and saw Santa sitting in a pool of his own blood.
She stood still by the door and said nothing until he was standing right next to her.
'There's something I have to tell you,' she said. 'If it makes any difference.'
Erlendur thought she had come to see him concerning the lie about her friend and felt the time had come to tell him the truth. He opened the door and she walked in ahead of him, went to the window and watched the snow.
'They forecast it wouldn't snow this Christmas,' she said
'Are you ever called Steffi for short?' he asked.
'When I was small,' she said, still looking out of the window.
'Did you brother call you Steffi?'
'Yes, he did,' she said. 'Always. And I always called him Gulli. Why do you ask?'
'Why were you at this hotel five days before your brother's death?'
Stefanía gave a deep sigh.
'I know I shouldn't have lied to you.'
'Why did you come?'
'It was to do with his records. We thought we were entitled to some of them. We knew he had quite a few copies, probably all the ones that didn't sell when they came out, and we wanted a share if he was planning to sell.'
'How did he acquire the copies?'
'Dad had them and kept them at home in Hafnarfjördur, and when Gudlaugur moved out he took the boxes with him. He said they belonged to him. To him alone.'
'How did you know he was planning to sell them?'
Stefanía hesitated.
'I also lied about Henry Wapshott,' she said. 'I do know him. Not very well, but I should have told you about him. Didn't he tell you he met us?'
'No,' Erlendur said. 'He has a number of problems. Is anything true that you've told me up to now?'
She did not answer him.
'Why should I believe what you're telling me now?'
Stefanía watched the snow falling to earth and was remote, as if she had vanished back into a life she led long ago when she knew no lies and everything was the truth, fresh and pure.
'Stefanía?' Erlendur said.
'They didn't argue about his singing,' she said suddenly. 'When Dad fell down the stairs. It wasn't about singing. Hurt's the last and the biggest lie.'
'You mean when they had a fight on the landing?'
'Do you know what the kids called him at school?'
'I believe I do,' Erlendur said.
'They called him The Little Princess.'
'Because he sang in the choir and was a sissy and—'
'Because they caught him wearing one of Mum's dresses,' Stefanía interrupted him.
She turned away from the window.
'It was after she died. He missed her terribly, especially when he wasn't a choirboy any more but just a normal boy with a normal voice. Dad didn't know, but I did. When Dad was out he sometimes put on Mum's jewellery and sometimes he tried on her dresses, stood in front of the mirror, even put on make-up. And once, it was in the summer, some boys walked past the house and saw him. Some were in his class. They peeped in through the living-room window. They used to do that sometimes because we were considered odd. They started to laugh and jeer, mercilessly. After that he was considered an absolute freak at school. The kids started calling him The Little Princess.'
Stefanía paused.
'I thought he just missed Mum,' she continued. 'That it was his way of getting close to her, wearing her clothes and putting on her jewellery. I didn't think he had unnatural urges. But it turned out otherwise.'
'Unnatural urges?' Erlendur said. 'Is that how you regard it? Your brother was a homosexual. Haven't you been able to forgive him for that? Is that why you had no contact with him for all those years?'
'He was very young when our father caught him with a boy. I knew he had his friend in his room, I thought they were doing their homework together. Dad came home unexpectedly to look for something and when he walked into Gudlaugur's room he saw them doing something abominable. He wouldn't tell me what it was. When I came out the other boy was running down the stairs, Dad and Gulli were on the landing shouting at each other, and I saw Gulli give him a shove. He lost his balance, fell down the stairs and never stood up again.'
Stefanía turned back to the window and watched the Christmas snow gliding to earth. Erlendur said nothing, wondering what she thought about when she disappeared within herself like now, but he could not imagine it. He thought he gained some kind of answer when she broke the silence.
'I never mattered,' she said. 'Everything I did was a secondary consideration. I'm not saying that from self-pity, I think I stopped that ages ago. More to try to understand and explain why I never had any contact with him after that awful day. Sometimes I think I gloated over the way everything turned out. Can you imagine that?'
Erlendur shook his head.
'When he left, I was the one who mattered. Not him. Never again him. And in some strange way I was pleased, pleased that he never became the great child star he was supposed to become. I expect I envied him the whole time, much more than I realised, for all the attention he got and the voice he had. It was divine. It was as if he'd been blessed with all those talents but I had none; I thumped away at the piano like a horse. That was what Dad called it when he tried to teach me. Said I was totally devoid of talent. Yet I worshipped him because I thought he was always right. Usually he was kind to me and when he became unable to look after himself my talent became looking after him. I was indispensable to him then. And the years went by without anything changing. Gulli left home, Dad was in a wheelchair and I took care of him. Never thought about myself at all, what it was that I wanted. The years can pass like that without you doing anything except living in the rut you create for yourself. Year after year after year.'
She paused and watched the snow.
'When you begin to perceive that that is all you have, you start to hate it and try to find the culprit, and I felt my brother was to blame for everything. Over time I began to despise him and the perversion that ruined our lives'
Erlendur was about to add something, but she went on.
'I don't know if I can describe this better. How you lock yourself up inside your own monotonous life because of something that, decades later, turns out to be so unimportant. Actually turns out to be unimportant and harmless.'
'We understand that he thought he had been robbed of his childhood,' Erlendur said. 'That he wasn't allowed to be what he wanted to be, but was forced to be something completely different, a singer, a child star, and he paid the price when he was bullied at school. Then it all came to nothing and those "unnatural urges", as you call them, compound the picture. I don't think he can have been very happy. Maybe he didn't want all that attention you clearly longed for.'
'Robbed of his childhood,' Stefanía said. 'Could well be.'
'Did your brother ever try to discuss his homosexuality with your father or you?' Erlendur asked.
'No, but we might have seen it coming. I don't know if he even realised what was happening to him. I have no idea about it. I don't think he knew why he wore Mum's dresses. I don't know how or when those people discover they're different.'
'But he was fond of the nickname in some perverse way,' Erlendur said. 'He's got this poster and we know that...' Erlendur stopped mid-sentence. He didn't know whether to tell her that Gudlaugur had asked his lover to call him Little Princess.
'I don't know anything about that,' Stefanía said. 'He could have been tormenting himself with the memory of what happened. Maybe there was something inside him that we'll never understand.'
'How did you get to know Henry Wapshott?'
'He came to our house one day and wanted to talk about Gudlaugur's records. He wanted to know whether we had any copies. It was last Christmas. He had obtained information about Gudlaugur and his family through some collector and told me that his records were incredibly valuable abroad. He had talked to my brother, who refused to sell him any, but that changed somehow and he was prepared to let Wapshott have what he wanted.'
'And you wanted your share of the profits.'
'We didn't think that was unreasonable. It didn't belong to him any more or less than to my father. At least, that was how we saw it. Our father paid for the recordings out of his own pocket.'
'Was a substantial sum involved? That Wapshott offered for the records?'
Stefanía nodded. 'Millions.'
"That corresponds with what we know.'
'He has plenty of money, that Wapshott man. I believe he wanted to avoid the records going into the collectors' market. If I understood him correctly, he wanted to acquire all the existing copies of the records and prevent them from flooding the market. He was very straightforward about it and was prepared to pay an incredible sum. I think he finally talked Gudlaugur round just before this Christmas. Something must have changed for him to attack him like that.'
'Attack him like that? What do you mean?'
'Well, haven't you got him in custody?'
'Yes,' Erlendur said, 'but we have no proof that he attacked your brother. What do you mean by "something must have changed"?'
'Wapshott visited us in Hafnarfjördur and said he had persuaded Gudlaugur to sell him all the copies, and I expect he was making sure that there were no others around. We told him there weren't, Gudlaugur had taken them all when he left home.'
'That's why you went to the hotel to meet him,' Erlendur said. 'To get your cut of the sale.'
'He was wearing his doorman's uniform,' Stefanía said. 'He was in the lobby carrying suitcases out to a car for some tourists. I watched him for a while and then he saw me. I said I had to talk to him about the records. He asked about Dad...'
'Did your father send you to see Gudlaugur?'
'No, he would never have done that. After the accident he never wanted to hear his name mentioned.'
'But he was the first thing Gudlaugur asked about when he saw you at the hotel.'
'Yes. We went down to his room and I asked where the records were.'
*
'They're in a safe place,' Gudlaugur said, smiling at his sister. 'Henry told me he'd talked to you.'
'He told us you were planning to sell him the records. Dad said half of them are his and we want half of the proceeds.'
'I've changed my mind,' Gudlaugur said. 'I'm not going to sell them.'
'What did Wapshott say to that?'
'He wasn't pleased.'
'He's offering a very good price for them.'
'I can get more for them if I sell them myself, one at a time. Collectors are very interested in them. I think Wapshott's going to do the same even if he told me he wants to buy them to keep them out of circulation. I expect he's lying. He's planning to sell them and make money out of me. Everyone was going to make money out of me in the old days, especially Dad, and that hasn't changed. Not in the least.'
They stared at each other.
'Come home and talk to Dad,' she said. 'He doesn't have much time left.'
'Did Wapshott talk to him?'
'No, he wasn't there when Wapshott came. I told Dad about him.'
'And what did he say?'
'Nothing. Only that he wanted his share.'
'What about you?'
'What about me?'
'Why have you never left him? Why haven't you got married and had a family of your own? It's not your life that you're living, it's his life. Where's your life?'
'I suppose it's in the wheelchair you put him in,' Stefanía snorted, 'and don't you dare ask about my life.'
'He has the same power over you that he had over me in the old days.'
Stefanía exploded with rage.
'Someone had to look after him! His favourite, his star, turned into a voiceless queer who pushed him down the stairs and hasn't dared talk to him since. Prefers sitting in his house at night and creeping out before he wakes up. What power does he have over you? You think you got rid of him for once and for all, but just look at you! Look at yourself! What are you? Tell me that! You're nothing. You're scum.'
She stopped.
'Sorry,' he said. 'I shouldn't have said that.'
She didn't answer him.
'Does he ask about me?'
'No.'
'He never talks about me?'
'No, never.'
'He hates the way I live. He hates the way I am. He hates me. After all these years.'
*
'Why didn't you tell me this before?' Erlendur said. 'Why this game of hide-and-seek?'
'Hide-and-seek? Well, you can imagine. I didn't want to talk about family matters. I thought I could protect us, our privacy.'
'Was this the last time you saw your brother?'
'Yes.'
'Are you quite sure?'
'Yes.' Stefanía looked at him. 'What are you implying?'
'Didn't you catch him with a young man just as your father did, and throw a fit? That recalled the root of the unhappiness in your life and so you decided to put an end to it.'
'No, what...?'
'We have a witness.'
'A witness?'
'The lad who was with him. A young man who did your brother favours for money. You caught them in the basement, the lad ran away and you attacked your brother. Saw a knife on his desk and attacked him.'
'That's all wrong!' Stefanía said, sensing that Erlendur meant what he was saying, sensing the noose genuinely closing on her. She stared at Erlendur, unable to believe her own ears.
'There's a witness—' Erlendur began, but didn't manage to finish the sentence.
'What witness? What witness are you talking about?'
'Do you deny having caused your brothers death?'
The hotel telephone began ringing and before Erlendur could answer his mobile began ringing in his jacket pocket as well. He cast an apologetic look at Stefanía, who glared back at him.
'I must take this call,' Erlendur said.
Stefania backed off and he saw her take one of Gudlaugur's records, which was on the desk, out of its cover. When Erlendur answered the hotel telephone she was scrutinising the record. It was Sigurdur Óli. Erlendur answered his mobile and asked the caller there to hold.
'A man got in touch with me just now about the murder at the hotel and I gave him your mobile number,' Sigurdur Óli said. 'Has he called you?'
"There's someone on the other line right now,' Erlendur said.
'It looks as though we've solved this case. Talk to him and call me. I sent three cars over. Elínborg's with them.'
Erlendur put the receiver down and picked up his mobile again. He didn't recognise the voice, but the man introduced himself and started his account. He had barely begun before Erlendur's suspicions were confirmed and he figured it all out. They had a long talk and at the end of the conversation Erlendur asked the caller to go down to the police station and give a statement to Sigurdur Óli. He called Elínborg and gave her instructions. Then he put his mobile away and turned to Stefanía, who had put Gudlaugur's record on the turntable and switched it on.
'Sometimes, in the old days,' she said, 'when records like this were being made, there was all kinds of background noise that got onto the recordings, maybe because people didn't take much care about making them, the technology was primitive and the recording facilities were poor too. You can even hear passing traffic on them. Did you know that?'
'No,' Erlendur said, not grasping the point.
'You can hear it on this song, for example, if you listen carefully. I don't think anyone would notice unless they knew it was there.'
She turned up the volume. Erlendur pricked up his ears and noticed a background sound in the middle of the song.
'What is that?' he asked.
'It's Dad,' Stefanía said.
She played the part of the song again and Erlendur could hear it clearly, although he couldn't make out what was being said.
'That's your father?' Erlendur said.
'He's telling him he's wonderful,' Stefania said remotely. 'He was standing near the microphone and couldn't contain himself:
She looked at Erlendur.
'My father died yesterday,' she said. 'He lay down on the sofa after dinner and fell asleep as he sometimes did, and never woke up again. As soon as I entered the room I could tell he was gone. I sensed it before I touched him. The doctor said he had had a heart attack. That's why I came to the hotel to see you, to make a clean sweep. It doesn't matter any more. Not for him and not for me either. None of this matters any more.'
She played the snatch of song a third time and on this occasion Erlendur thought he could make out what was said. A single word attached to the song like a footnote.
Wonderful.
'I went down to Gudlaugur's room the day he was murdered to tell him that Dad wanted a reconciliation. By then I'd told Dad that Gudlaugur kept a key to the house and had sneaked inside, sat in the living room and crept back out without our noticing. I didn't know how Gudlaugur would react, whether he wanted to see Dad again or whether it was hopeless to try to reconcile them, but I wanted to try. The door to his room was open...'
Her voice quavered.
'... and there he lay in his own blood...'
She paused.
' ... in that costume ... with his trousers down ... covered in blood ...'
Erlendur went over to her.
'My God,' she groaned. 'I'd never in my life ... it was too appalling for words. I don't know what I thought. I was terrified. I think my only thought was to get out and try to forget it. Like all the rest. I convinced myself it was none of my business. That it didn't matter whether I was there or not, it was over and done with and was none of my business. I pushed it away, acted like a child. I didn't want to know about it and I didn't tell my father what I saw. Didn't tell a soul.'
She looked at Erlendur.
'I should have called for help. Of course I should have called the police ... but ... it ... it was so disgusting, so unnatural ... that I ran away. That was the only thing I thought of. Getting away. To escape from that terrible place and not let a single person see me.'
She paused.
'I think I've always been fleeing him. Somehow I've always been running away from him. All the time. And there...'
She sobbed gently.
'We should have tried to patch things up much earlier. I should have arranged that long before. That's my crime. Dad wanted that too, in the end. Before he died.'
They fell silent and Erlendur looked out of the window, and noticed that it was snowing less.
'The most terrifying thing was ...'
She stopped, as if the thought was unbearable.
'He wasn't dead, was he?'
She shook her head.
'He said one word, then he died. He saw me in the doorway and groaned my name. That he used to call me. When we were little. He always called me Steffi.'
And they heard him say your name before he died. Steffi.'
She looked at him in surprise.
'They who?'
Suddenly Eva Lind was standing in the open doorway. She stared at Stefanía and at Erlendur, then at Stefania again and shook her head.
'How many women have you got on the go anyway?' she said, with an accusatory look at her father.

33

He couldn't discern any change in Ösp. Erlendur stood watching her working, wondering if she would ever show remorse or guilt for what she had done.
'Have you found her, that Steffi?' she asked when she saw him in the corridor. She dumped a pile of towels into the laundry bin, took some fresh ones and put them in the room. Erlendur walked closer and stopped in the doorway, his thoughts elsewhere.
He was thinking about his daughter. He had managed to convince her who Stefanía actually was, and when Stefanía left he asked Eva Lind to wait for him. Eva sat down on the bed and he could tell at once that she was altered, she was back to her old ways. She launched into a tirade against him for everything that had gone wrong in her life and he stood and listened without saying a word, without objecting or enraging her even further. He knew why she was angry. She was not angry with him but with herself, because she had crashed. She could control herself no longer.
He didn't know what drug she was using. He looked at his watch.
'Are you in a hurry to go somewhere?' she said. 'Rushing off to save the world?'
'Can you wait for me here?' he said.
'Piss off she said, her voice hoarse and ugly.
'Why do you do this to yourself?'
'Shut up.'
'Will you wait for me? I wont be long and then we'll go home. Would you like that?'
She didn't answer. Sat with bowed head, looking out of the window at nothing.
'I won't be a minute,' he said.
'Don't go,' she pleaded, her voice less harsh now. 'Where are you going?'
'What's wrong?' he asked.
'What's wrong!' she barked. 'Everything's wrong. Everything! This fucking bloody life. That's what's wrong, life. Everything's wrong in this life! I don't know what it's for. I don't know why we live it. Why! Why??'
'Eva, it'll be—'
'God, how I regret not having her,' she groaned.
He put his arm around her.
'Every day. When I wake up in the morning and when I fall asleep at night. I think about her every single day and what I did to her.'
'That's good,' Erlendur said. 'You ought to think about her every day'
'But it's so hard and you never break out of it. Never. What am I supposed to do? What can I do?'
'Don't forget her. Think about her. Always. She helps you that way'
'How I wish I'd had her. What kind of a person am I? What kind of person does something like that? To her own child.'
'Eva.' He put his arm around her, she huddled up to him and they sat like that on the edge of the bed while the snow quietly settled over the city.
When they had been sitting for some time Erlendur whispered to her to wait for him in the room. He was going to take her home and celebrate Christmas with her. They looked at each other. Calmer now, she gave a nod.
But now he was standing at the door of a room on the floor below watching Ösp at work. He couldn't stop thinking about Eva. He knew he had to hurry back to her, take her home, be with her and spend Christmas with her.
'We talked to Steffi,' he called into the room. 'Her proper name's Stefanía and she was Gudlaugur's sister.'
Ösp came out of the bathroom.
'And what, does she deny everything, or...?'
'No, she doesn't deny anything,' Erlendur said. 'She knows where her fault lies and she's wondering what went wrong, when it happened and why. She's feeling bad but is beginning to come to terms with it. It's tough for her because it's too late for her to make amends.'
'Did she confess?'
'Yes,' Erlendur said. 'Most of it. In effect. She didn't confess in so many words but she knows the part she played.'
'Most of it? What's that supposed to mean?'
Ösp walked through the doorway past him to fetch detergent and a cloth, then went back into the bathroom. Erlendur walked inside and watched her cleaning as he had done before when the case was still open and she was a kind of friend of his.
'Everything, really,' he said. 'Except the murder. That's the only thing she's not going to own up to.'
Ösp sprayed cleaner onto the bathroom mirror, unmoved.
'But my brother saw her,' she said. 'He saw her stab her brother. She can't deny that. She can't deny being there.'
'No,' Erlendur said. 'She was down in the basement when he died. It just wasn't her who stabbed him.'
'Yes, Reynir saw it,' she said. 'She can't deny it'
'How much do you owe them?'
'Owe them?'
'How much is it?'
'Owe who? What are you talking about?'
Ösp rubbed the mirror like her life depended on it, like it would all be over if she stopped, the mask would drop and she would have to give up. She went on spraying and polishing, and avoided looking herself in the eye,.
Erlendur watched her and a phrase from a book he once read about paupers in times of old crossed his mind: she was a bastard child of the world.
'Elínborg is a colleague of mine who just checked your record at the crisis centre. The rape crisis centre. It was about six months ago. There were three of them. It took place in a hut by Lake Raudavatn. That was all you said. You claimed not to know who they were. They snatched you one Friday night when you were in town, took you to that hut and raped you one after the other.'
Ösp went on polishing the mirror and Erlendur couldn't see whether what he said had the slightest effect on her.
'In the end you refused to identify them and refused to press charges'
Ösp did not say a word.
'You work at this hotel but you don't earn enough to clear your debts and you don't earn enough to cover your habit. You've managed to keep them at bay with small payments and they give you more stuff, but they've been threatening you and you know they follow through with their threats'
Ösp did not look at him.
'There's no pilfering at this hotel, is there?' Erlendur said. 'You said that to hoodwink us, lead us on a wild goose chase.'
Erlendur heard a noise it he corridor and saw Elínborg and four police officers in front of the door. He gestured to her to wait.
'Your brother is in the same position as you. Maybe you have the same account with them, I don't know. He's been beaten up. He's been threatened. Your parents have been threatened. You don't dare to name these people. The police can't act because they are only threats, and when these people do do something, seize you and rape you in a hut, you don't give their names. Nor does your brother.'
Erlendur paused and watched her.
'A man phoned me just now. He works for the police, the drug squad. He sometimes gets calls from informants who tell him what they hear on the streets and on the drug scene. He received a call late last night, this morning really, from a man who said he had heard a story about a young girl who was raped six months ago and had trouble paying her dealers, until she settled her debt a couple of days ago. Both for herself and for her brother. Does that sound familiar?'
Ösp shook her head.
'It doesn't sound familiar?' Erlendur asked again. 'The informant knew the girl's name and that she worked at the hotel where Santa Claus was killed.'
Ösp went on shaking her head.
'We know that Gudlaugur had half a million in his room,' Erlendur said.
She stopped wiping the mirror, dropped her hands to her sides and stared at herself.
'I've been trying to stop.' 'Drugs?'
'It's pointless. They're merciless if you owe them.' 'Will you tell me who they are?' 'I didn't mean to kill him. He was always nice to me. And then ...' 'You saw the money?' 'I needed the money.'
'Was it because of the money? That you attacked him?' She didn't answer.
'Was it the money? Or was it because of your brother?' 'A bit of both,' Ösp said in a low voice. 'You wanted the money' 'Yes.'
'And he was taking advantage of your brother.' 'Yes.'
*
Out of the corner of her eye she saw her brother on his knees, a pile of money on the bed and the knife, and without a moment's thought she grabbed the knife and tried to stab Gudlauger. He parried her with his arms but she lurched at him again and again until he stopped thrashing around and slumped against the wall. Blood spurted out of a wound in his chest, his heart.
The knife was bloodstained, her hands were bloody and blood had spilled onto her coat. Her brother had got up from the floor and run out into the corridor, heading for the stairs.
Gudlaugur gave a heavy groan.
A deathly silence descended in the little room. She stared at Gudlaugur and at the knife in her hands. Suddenly Reynir reappeared.
'Someone's coming down the stairs,' he whispered.
He took the money, grabbed his sister who was glued to the spot, and dragged her out of the room and into the alcove at the end of the corridor. They hardly dared to breathe as the woman approached. She peered into the darkness but did not see them.
When she reached Gudlaugur's door she let out a muffled scream and they could hear Gudlaugur.
'Steffi,' he groaned.
Then they heard nothing more.
The woman went into the room but they saw her come straight back out. She backed away all the way up against the corridor wall, then suddenly turned away from the room and walked off quickly without so much as a backward glance.
*
'I threw the coat away and found another one. Reynir got out. I had to go on working. Otherwise you'd have sussed it all out at once, or I thought so anyway. Then I was asked to fetch him for the Christmas party. I couldn't refuse. I couldn't do anything that would draw attention to myself. I went down and waited in the corridor. His door was still open but I didn't go inside. I went back up and said I found him in his room and I thought he was dead.'
Ösp looked down at the floor.
'The worst thing is he was never anything but kind to me. Maybe that's why I got so mad. Because he was one of the few people who treated me decently here, and then my brother... I went mental. After everything that...'
'After everything they did to you?' Erlendur said.
'There's no point in bringing charges against those bastards. For the most brutal and bloodiest rapes they maybe get a year, a year and a half inside. Then they come back out. You lot can't do anything. There's nowhere to go for help. You just have to pay up. No matter how you go about it. I took the money and I paid. Maybe I killed him for the money. Maybe because of Reynir. I don't know. I don't know...'
She paused.
'I went mental,' she repeated. 'I've never felt like that before. Never flown into such a rage. I relived every second in that hut. Saw them. Saw it all happening again. I took the knife and tried to stab him everywhere I could. Tried to slash him and he tried to defend himself but I just stabbed and stabbed and stabbed until he stopped moving.'
She looked at Erlendur.
'I didn't realise it was that hard. That hard to kill someone.'
Elínborg appeared in the doorway and gestured to Erlendur that she couldn't understand why they didn't arrest the girl.
'Where's the knife?' Erlendur asked.
'The knife?' Ösp said, walking over to him.
'The one you used.'
She paused for a moment.
'I put it back where it belongs,' she said eventually. 'I cleaned it as well as I could in the staff coffee room, then got rid of it before you came.'
'And where is it?'
'I put it back where it belongs.'
'In the kitchen, where the cutlery's kept?'
'Yes.'
'The hotel must own five hundred knives like that,' Erlendur said in desperation. 'How are we supposed to find it?'
'You could start in the buffet'
"The buffet?'
'Someone's sure to be using it'

34

Erlendur handed over Ösp to Elínborg and the officers and hurried up to his room where Eva Lind was waiting for him. He put his card in the slot and threw the door open to find that she had opened the big window completely and was sitting on the windowsill, looking down at the snow falling to the ground several floors below.
'Eva,' he said calmly.
Eva said something he couldn't make out.
'Come on, dear,' he said, approaching her cautiously.
'It looks so easy,' Eva Lind said.
'Eva, come on,' Erlendur said in a low voice. 'Home.'
She turned around. She took a long look at him, and then nodded.
'Let's go,' she said quietly, stepped down onto the floor and closed the window.
He walked over to her and kissed her on the forehead.
'Did I rob you of your childhood, Eva?' he said in a low voice.
'Eh?' she said.
'Nothing,' he said.
Erlendur took a long look into her eyes. Sometimes he could see white swans in them.
Now they were black.
*
Erlendur's mobile rang in the lift on the way down to the lobby. He recognised the voice at once.
'I just wanted to wish you a merry Christmas,' Valgerdur said, and she seemed to be whispering down the phone.
'You too,' Erlendur said. 'Merry Christmas.'
In the lobby, Erlendur glanced into the dining room packed with tourists gorging themselves on the Christmas Eve buffet and chattering away in all imaginable languages, their joyful murmuring spreading all over the ground floor. He couldn't help thinking that one of them was holding a murder weapon in his hands.
He told the head of reception that Rósant may well have been responsible for sending the woman who slept with him that night and who demanded payment afterwards. The man replied that he was beginning to suspect something of the sort. He had already informed the owners of the hotel about what manager and head waiter were up to, but did not know how they would tackle the matter.
Erlendur caught a glimpse of the hotel manager looking in astonishment at Eva Lind. He was going to pretend he hadn't noticed him, but the manager darted into his path.
'I' just wanted to thank you, and of course you don't need to pay for your stay!'
'I've already settled,' Erlendur said. 'Goodbye.'
'What about Henry Wapshott?' the manager asked, blocking Erlendur's way. 'What are you going to do with him?'
Erlendur stopped. He was holding Eva Lind by the hand and she looked at the manager with drowsy eyes.
"We're sending him home. Was there anything else?'
The manager dithered.
'Are you going to do anything about those lies the girl told you about the conference guests?'
Erlendur smiled to himself.
'Are you worried about that?'
'It's all lies.'
Erlendur put his arm around Eva Lind and they set off towards the front door.
'We'll see,' he said.
When they crossed the lobby Erlendur noticed people stopping all about and looking around. The sentimental Christmas songs were no longer jingling through the speakers, and Erlendur smiled to himself when he heard that the reception manager had agreed to his request and changed the music on the sound system. He thought about the records. He had asked Stefanía where she thought they might be, but she didn't know. Had no idea where her brother kept them, and was uncertain whether they would ever be found.
Gradually the murmuring in the dining room died down. The guests exchanged astonished looks and peered up at the ceiling in search of the wondrously beautiful song that reached their ears. The staff stopped in their tracks to listen. Time seemed to stand still.
They left the hotel and in his mind Erlendur sang the beautiful hymn in chorus with the young Gudlaugur, and sensed once again the deep yearning in the boy's voice.
O Father, turn me into a light for all my life's short stay...
Now read the first chapter of
Arnaldur Indridason's next novel
The Draining Lake
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Harvill Secker

1

She stood motionless for a long time, staring at the bones as if it should not be possible for them to be there. Any more than for her.
At first she thought it was another sheep that had drowned in the lake, until she moved closer and saw the skull half-buried in the lake bed and the shape of a human skeleton. The ribs protruded from the sand and beneath them could be seen the outlines of the pelvis and thigh bones. The skeleton was lying on its left side so she could see the right side of the skull, the empty eye sockets and three teeth in the upper jaw. One had a large silver filling. There was a wide hole in the skull itself, about the size of a matchbox, which she instinctively thought could have been made by a hammer. She bent down and stared at the skull. With some hesitation she explored the hole with her finger. The skull was full of sand.
The thought of a hammer crossed her mind again and she shuddered at the idea of someone being struck over the head with one. But the hole was too large to have been left by a hammer. She decided not to touch the skeleton again. Instead, she took out her mobile and dialled emergency services.
She wondered what to say. Somehow this was so completely unreal. A skeleton so far out in the lake, buried on its sandy bed. Nor was she on her best form. Visions of hammers and matchboxes. She found it difficult to concentrate. Her thoughts were roaming all over the place and she had great trouble rounding them up again.
It was probably because she was hung-over. After planning to spend the day at home she had changed her mind and gone to the lake. She had persuaded herself that she must check the instruments. She was a scientist. She had always wanted to be a scientist and knew that the measurements had to be monitored carefully. But she had a splitting headache and her thoughts were far from logical. The National Energy Authority had held its annual dinner dance the night before and, as was sometimes the way, she had had too much to drink.
She thought about the man lying in her bed at home and knew that it was on his account that she had hauled herself off to the lake. She did not want to be there when he woke up and hoped that he would be gone when she returned. He had come back to her flat after the dance but was not very exciting. No more than the others she had met since her divorce. He hardly talked about anything except his CD collection and carried on long after she had given up feigning any interest. Then she fell asleep in a living-room chair. When she woke up she saw that he had got into her bed, where he was sleeping with his mouth open, wearing tiny underpants and black socks.
'Emergency services,' a voice said over the line.
'Hello – I'd like to report that I've found some bones,' she said. 'There's a skull with a hole in it.'
She grimaced. Bloody hangover! Who says that sort of thing? A skull with a hole in it. She remembered a phrase from a children's rhyme about a penny with a hole in it. Or was it a shilling?
'Your name, please,' said the neutral emergency-services voice.
She straightened out her jumbled thoughts and stated her name.
'Where is it?'
'Lake Kleifarvatn. North side.'
'Did you pull it up in a fishing net?'
'No. It's buried on the bed of the lake.'
'Are you a diver?'
'No, it's standing up out of the bed. Ribs and the skull.'
'It's on the bottom of the lake?'
'Yes.'
'So how can you see it?'
'I'm standing here looking at it'
'Did you bring it to dry land?'
'No, I haven't touched it,' she lied instinctively.
The voice on the telephone paused.
'What kind of crap is this?' the voice said at last, angrily. 'Is this a hoax? You know what you can get for wasting our time?'
'It's not a hoax. I'm standing here looking at it'
'So you can walk on water, I suppose?'
'The lake's gone,' she said. 'There's no water any more. Just the bed. Where the skeleton is.'
'What do you mean, the lake's gone?'
'It hasn't all gone, but it's dry now where I'm standing. I'm a hydrologist with the Energy Authority. I was recording the water level when I discovered this skeleton. There's a hole in the skull and most of the bones are buried in the sand on the bottom. I thought it was a sheep at first.'
'A sheep?'
'We found one the other day that had drowned years ago. When the lake was bigger.'
There was another pause.
'Wait there,' said the voice reluctantly. 'I'll send a patrol car.'
She stood still by the skeleton for a while, then walked over to the shore and measured the distance. She was certain the bones had not surfaced when she was taking measurements at the same place a fortnight earlier. Otherwise she would have seen them. The water level had dropped by more than a metre since then.
The scientists from the Energy Authority had been puzzling over this conundrum ever since they'd noticed that the water level in Lake Kleifarvatn was falling rapidly. The authority had set up its first automatic surface-level monitor in 1964 and one of the hydrologists' tasks was to check the measurements. In the summer of 2000 the monitor seemed to have broken. An incredible amount of water was draining from the lake every day, twice the normal volume.
She walked back to the skeleton. She was itching to take a better look, dig it up and brush off the sand, but imagined that the police would be none too pleased at that. She wondered whether it was male or female and vaguely recalled having read somewhere, probably in a detective story, that their skeletons were almost identical: only the pelvises were different. Then she remembered someone telling her not to believe anything she read in detective stories. Since the skeleton was buried in the sand she couldn't see the pelvis, and it struck her that she would not have known the difference anyway.
Her hangover intensified and she sat down on the sand beside the bones. It was a Sunday morning and the occasional car drove past the lake. She imagined they were families out for a Sunday drive to Herdísarvík and on to Selvogur. That was a popular and scenic route, across the lava field and hills and past the lake down to the sea. She thought about the families in the cars. Her own husband had left her when the doctors ruled out their ever having children together. He remarried shortly afterwards and now had two lovely children. He had found happiness.
All that she had found was a man she barely knew, lying in her bed in his socks. Decent men became harder to find as the years went by. Most of them were either divorced like her or, even worse, had never been in a relationship at all.
She looked woefully at the bones, half-buried in the sand, and was close to tears.
About an hour later a police car approached from Hafnarfjördur. It was in no hurry, lazily threading its way along the road towards the lake. This was May and the sun was high in the sky, reflecting off the smooth surface of the water. She sat on the sand watching the road and when she waved to the car it pulled over. Two police officers got out, looked in her direction and walked towards her.
They stood over the skeleton in silence for a long time until one of them poked a rib with his foot.
'Do you reckon he was fishing?' he said to his colleague.
'On a boat, you mean?'
'Or waded here.'
"There's a hole,' she said, looking at each of them in turn. 'In the skull.'
One officer bent down.
'Well,' he said.
'He could have fallen over in the boat and broken his skull,' his colleague said.
'It's full of sand,' said the first one.
'Shouldn't we notify CID?' the other asked.
'Aren't most of them in America?' his colleague said, looking up into the sky. 'At a crime conference?'
The other officer nodded. Then they stood quietly over the bones for a while until one of them turned to her.
'Where's all the water gone?' he asked.
'There are various theories,' she said. 'What are you going to do? Can I go home now?'
After exchanging glances they took down her name and thanked her, without apologising for having kept her waiting. She didn't care. She wasn't in a hurry. It was a beautiful day by the lake and she would have enjoyed it even more in the company of her hangover if she had not chanced upon the skeleton. She wondered whether the man in the black socks had left her flat and certainly hoped so. Looked forward to renting a video that evening and snuggling up under a blanket in front of the television.
She looked down at the bones and at the hole in the skull.
Maybe she would rent a good detective film.

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Ansul was once a peaceful town filled with libraries, schools, and temples. But that was long ago, and the conquerors of this coastal city consider reading and writing to be acts punishable by death. And they believe the Oracle House, where the last few undestroyed books are hidden, is seething with demons. But to seventeen-year-old Memer, the house is the only place where she feels truly safe.

Then an Uplands poet named Orrec and his wife, Gry, arrive, and everything in Memer’s life begins to change. Will she and the people of Ansul at last be brave enough to rebel against their oppressors?

Includes an interview with the author and a teaser to the third book in the series, Powers.

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Voices

Ursula K. Le Guin


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ALSO BY URSULA K. LE GUIN
Gifts
The Telling
Changing Planes
THE EARTHSEA CYCLE
A Wizard of Earthsea
The Tombs of Atuan
The Farthest Shore
Tehanu
Tales from Earthsea
The Other Wind

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Summary: Young Memer takes on a pivotal role in freeing
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CASPRO'S HYMN
As in the dark of winter night
Our eyes seek dawn,
As in the bonds of bitter cold
The heart craves sun,
So blinded and so bound, the soul
Cries out to thee:
Be our light, our fire, our life,
Liberty!

1

The first thing I can remember clearly is writing the way into the secret room.

I am so small I have to reach my arm up to make the signs in the right place on the wall of the corridor. The wall is coated with thick grey plaster, cracked and crumbling in places so the stone shows through. It's almost dark in the corridor. It smells of earth and age, and it's silent. But I'm not afraid;I'm never afraid there. I reach up and move my writing finger in the motions I know, in the right place, in the air, not quite touching the surface of the plaster. The door opens in the wall, and I go in.

The light in that room is clear and calm, falling from many small skylights of thick glass in the high ceiling. It's a very long room, with shelves down it's wall, and books on the shelves. It's my room, and I've always known it. Ista and Sosta and Gudit don't. They don't even know it's there. They never come to these corridors far in the back of the house. I pass the Waylord's door to come here, but he's sick and lame and stays in his rooms. The secret room is my secret, the place where I can be alone, and not scolded and bothered, and not afraid.

The memory isn't of one time I went there, but many. I remember how big the reading table looked to me then, and how high the bookshelves were. I liked to get under the table and build a kind of wall or shelter with some of the books. I pretended to be a bear cub in it's den. I felt safe there. I always put the books back exactly where they belonged on the shelves; that was important. I stayed in the lighter part of the room, near the door that's not a door. I didn't like the farther end, where it grows dark and the ceiling comes down lower. In my mind I called that the shadow end, and I almost always stayed away from it. But even my fear of the shadow end was part of my secret, my kingdom of solitude. And it was mine alone, until one day when I was nine.

Sosta had been scolding me for some stupid thing that wasn't my fault, and when I was rude back to her she called me "sheep hair," which put me in a fury. I couldn't hit her because her arms were longer and she could hold me off, so I bit her hand. Then her mother, my bymother Ista, scolded me and cuffed me. Furious, I ran to the back part of the house, to the dark corridor, and opened the door and went into the secret room. I was going to stay there till Ista and Sosta thought I'd run away and been taken as a slave and was gone forever, and then they'd be sorry for scolding unjustly and cuffing and calling me names. I rushed into the secret room all hot and full of tears and rage—and there, in the strange clear light of that place, stood the Waylord with a book in his hands.

He was startled, too. He came at me, fierce, his arm raised as if to strike. I stood like a stone. I could not breathe.

He stopped short. "Memer! How did you come here.?"

He looked at the place where the door is when it's open, but of course nothing was there but the wall.

I still couldn't breathe or speak.

"I left it open," he said, without believing what he said.

I shook my head.

Finally I was able to whisper, "I know how."

His face was shocked and amazed, but after a while it changed, and he said, "Decalo."

I nodded.

My mother's name was Decalo Galva.

I want to tell of her, but I can't remember her. Or I do but the memory won't go into words. Being held tight, jostling, a good smell in the darkness of the bed, a rough red cloth, a voice which I can't hear but it's only just out of hearing. I used to think if I could hold still and listen hard enough, I'd hear her voice.

She was a Galva by blood and by house. She was head housekeeper for Sulter Galva, Waylord of Ansul, an honorable and responsible position. In Ansul there were no serfs or slaves then;we were citizens, householders, free people. My mother Decalo was in charge of all the people who worked in Galvamand. My bymother Ista, the cook, liked to tell us about how big the household used to be, back then, how many people Decalo had to look after. Ista herself had two kitchen assistants every day, and three helpers for the big dinners for visiting notables; there were four house-cleaners, and the handyman, and a groom and stable-boy for the horses, eight horses in the stable, some to ride and some to drive. There were quite a few relatives and old people living in the house. Ista's mother lived up over the kitchens, the Waylord's mother lived in the Master's rooms upstairs. The Waylord himself was always travelling up and down the Ansul Coast from town to town to meet with the other waylords, sometimes in the saddle, sometimes in a carriage with a retinue. There was a smithy in the west court in those days, and the driver and postboy lived on the top floor of the carriage house, always ready to go out with the Waylord on his rounds. "Oh it was all busy and abustle," Ista says. "The old days! The good days!"

When I ran through the silent corridors past the ruined rooms, I used to try to imagine those days, the good days. I used to pretend, when I swept the doorways, that I was making ready for guests who'd come through them wearing fine clothes and shoes. I used to go up to the Master's rooms and imagine how they'd looked clean and warm and furnished. I'd kneel in the windowseat there to look out through the clear, small-paned window over the roofs of the city to the mountain.

The name of my city and all the coast north of it, Ansul, means "Looking at Sul"—the great mountain, last and highest of the five peaks of Manva, the land across the straits. From the seafront and from all the western windows of the city you can see white Sul above the water, and the clouds it gathers round it as if they were it's dreams.

I knew the city had been called Ansul the Wise and Beautiful for it's university and library, it's towers and arcaded courts, it's canals and arched bridges and the thousand little marble temples of the street-gods. But the Ansul of my childhood was a broken city of ruins, hunger, and fear.

Ansul was a protectorate of Sundraman, but that great nation was busy fighting over it's border with Loaman and kept no troops here to defend us. Though rich in goods and farmland, Ansul had long fought no wars. Our well-armed merchant fleet kept pirates from the south from harrying the coast, and since Sundraman enforced an alliance with us long ago, we had had no enemies by land. So when an army of Alds, the people of the deserts of Asudar, invaded us, they swept over the hills of Ansul like wildfire. Their army broke into the city and went through the streets murdering, looting, and raping. My mother Decalo, caught in the street coming from the market, was taken by soldiers and raped. Then the soldiers who had her were attacked by citizens, and in the fighting she managed to get away and get home to Galvamand.

The people of my city fought the invaders street by street and drove them out. The army camped outside the walls. For a year Ansul was besieged. I was born in that year of the siege. Then another, greater army came out of the eastern deserts, assaulted the city, and conquered it.

Priests led the soldiers to this house, which they called the Demon House. They took the Waylord away as a prisoner. They killed any people of the household who resisted them, and the old people. Ista managed to get away and hide at a neighbor's house with her mother and daughter, but the Waylord's mother was killed and her body thrown into the canal. Younger women were taken as slaves for the soldiers to use. My mother escaped by hiding with me in the secret room.

I am writing this story in that room.

I don't know how long she hid here. She must have had some food with her, and there's water here. The Alds ransacked the house, looting, burning what would burn. Soldiers and priests kept coming back day after day, wrecking the rooms, looking for books or loot or demonry. She had to come out at last. She crept out at night, and found refuge with other women in the basements of Cammand. And she kept herself and me alive, I don't know where or how, until the Alds ceased looting and wrecking and settled down as masters of the city. Then she came back to her house, to Galvamand.

All the wooden outbuildings had been burned, the furnishings broken or stolen, even the wooden floors torn out in places;but the main part of the house is stone with tile roofs, and it was not much harmed. Though Galvamand is the greatest house in the city, no Ald would live in it, considering it to be full of demons and evil spirits. Little by little Decalo put things in order again as well as she could. Ista came back from hiding, with her daughter Sosta, and the old hunchback handyman Gudit turned up. This was their household, and they were loyal to it and to one another. Their gods were here, their ancestors who gave them their dreams were here, their blessing was here.

After a year had passed the Waylord was released from the Gand's prison. The Alds put him out into the street naked. He could not walk, because their torture had broken his legs. He tried to crawl down Galva Street from the Council House to Galvamand. People of the city helped him, carried him here, carried him home. And there were people of his household to care for him.

They were very poor. Every citizen of Ansul was poor, stripped bare by the Alds. They lived somehow, and under my mother's care the Waylord began to regain his strength. But in the cold and hunger of the third winter after the siege, Decalo took ill of a fever, and there was no medicine to cure it. So she died.

Ista declared herself my bymother and looked after my needs. She has heavy hands and a hot temper, but she loved my mother and did her best for me. I learned early to help with the work of the house and liked it well enough. In those years the Waylord was ill much of the time, in pain from the broken limbs and the tortures which had crippled him, and I was proud to be able to wait on him. Even when I was a very young child he'd rather have me wait on him than Sosta, who hated any kind of work, and spilled things.

I knew it was because of the secret room that I was alive, for it had saved me and my mother from the enemy. She must have told me that, and she must have shown me the way to open the door; or I saw her do it and remembered. That's how it seemed to me: I could see the shapes of the letters being written on the air, though I couldn't see the hand that wrote them. My hand followed those shapes, and so I would open the door, and come here, where I thought only I ever came.

Until that day when I faced the Waylord, and we stood staring at each other, he with his fist raised to strike.

He lowered his arm.

"You've been here before?" he asked.

I was quite terrified. I managed a nod.

He wasn't angry—he had raised his arm to strike an intruder, an enemy, not me. He'd never shown me anger or impatience, even when he was in pain and I was clumsy and stupid. I trusted him utterly and had never been afraid of him before, but I did hold him in awe. And at this moment he was fierce. His eyes had a fire in them as they did when he spoke the Praise of Sampa the Destroyer. They were dark, but that fire would come into them like the smoulder of opal in dark rock. He stared at me.

"Does anybody know you come here?"

Shake head.

"Have you ever spoken of this room?"

Shake head.

"Do you know you must never speak of this room?"

Nod.

He waited.

I saw that I had to say it aloud. I took a breath and said, "I will never speak of this room. Witness my vow all you gods of this house, and you gods of this city, and my mother's soul and all souls who have dwelt in the House of the Oracle."

At that he looked startled again. After a moment he came forward and reached out to touch my lips with his fingers. "I bear witness that this vow was made with a true heart," he said, and turned to touch his fingers to the threshold of the little god-niche between the shelves of books. So I did the same. Then he put his hand lightly on my shoulder, looking down at me. "Where did you learn such a vow?"

"I made it up," I said. "For when I swear that I will always hate the Alds, and I will drive them out of Ansul, and kill them all if I can."

When I had told him that, my own most secret vow, my heart's wish and promise that I had never told to anyone, I burst into tears—not fury tears, but sudden, huge, awful sobs that seemed to pick me up and shake me to pieces.

The Waylord got down somehow on his broken knees so that he could put his arms around me. I wept against his chest. He said nothing, but held me in a strong embrace until at last I could stop sobbing.

I was so tired and ashamed then that I turned away and sat on the floor with my face hidden against my knees.

I heard him haul himself up and go limping down towards the shadow end of the room. He came back with his handkerchief wet with water from the spring that runs there in the darkness. He put the wet cloth in my hand, and I held it to my hot blubbery face. It was lovely and cool. I held it against my eyes for a while and then scrubbed my face with it.

"I'm very sorry, Waylord," I said. I was ashamed to have troubled him with my being there and my tears. I loved and honored him with all my heart and wanted to show my love by helping and serving him, not by worrying and disturbing him.

"There's a good deal to weep about, Memer," he said in his quiet voice. Looking at him then I saw that he had cried, too, when I did. Tears change people's eyes and mouth. I was abashed to see that I had made him weep, and yet it eased my shame, somehow.

After a while he said, "This is a good place for it."

"Mostly I don't cry, here," I said.

"Mostly you don't cry," he said.

I was proud he'd noticed that.

"What do you do in this room?" he asked.

It was hard to answer. "I just come when I can't bear things," I said. "And I like to look at the books. Is it all right if I look at them? If I look inside them?"

He answered gravely, after a pause, "Yes. What do you find in them.?"

"I look for the things I do to make the door open."

I didn't know the word "letters."

"Show me," he said.

I could have drawn the shapes in the air with my finger as I did when I opened the door, but instead I got up and took the big dark-brown leather-bound book from the bottom shelf, the book I called the Bear. I opened it to the first page with words on it. (I think I did know they were words, but maybe not.) I pointed to the shapes that were the same as the ones that opened the door.

"This one, and this one," I said, whispering. I had laid the book on the table, very carefully, as I always did with the books when I looked inside them. He stood beside me and watched me point at the letters I recognised, though I didn't know their names or how they sounded.

"What are they, Memer.?"

"Writing."

"So it's writing that opens the door?"

"I think so. Only for the door you do it in the air, in the special place."

"Do you know what the words are?"

I didn't entirely understand what he was asking. I don't think I knew then that the words in writing are the same as the words in speaking, that writing and speaking are different ways of doing the same thing. I shook my head.

"What do you do with a book?" he asked.

I said nothing. I didn't know.

"You read it," he said, and this time he smiled as he spoke, his face lighting up as I had seldom seen it.

Ista was always telling me how happy and hospitable and genial the Waylord was in the old days, how merry his guests in the great dining room used to be, and how he had laughed at Sosta's baby tricks. But my Waylord was a man whose knees had been broken with iron bars, his arms dislocated, his family murdered, his people defeated, a man in poverty and pain and shame.

"I don't know how to read," I said. And then, because his smile was fading fast, going back into the shadow, I said, "Can I learn?"

It saved the smile for a moment. Then he looked away.

"It's dangerous, Memer," he said, not speaking to me as to a child.

"Because the Alds are afraid of it," I said.

He looked back at me. "They are. They ought to be."

"It's not demons or black magic," I said. "There isn't any such thing."

He did not answer directly. He looked me in the eyes, not like a man of forty looking at a child of nine, but as one soul judging another soul.

"I'll teach you, if you like," he said.

2

So the Waylord began to teach me, and I learned to read very quickly, as if I had been waiting and more than ready, like a starving person given dinner.

As soon as I understood what the letters were, I learned them, and began to make out the words, and I don't remember ever being puzzled or stopped for long, except once. I took down the tall red book with gold designs on it's cover, which had always been a favorite of mine before I could read, when I called it Shining Red. I just wanted to find out what it was about, to taste it. But when I tried to read it, it made no sense. There were the letters, and they made words, but meaningless words. I could not understand a single one. It was nonsense, garble, garbage. I was furious with it and with myself when the Waylord came in. "What is wrong with this stupid book!" I said.

He looked at it. "Nothing's wrong with it. It's a very beautiful book." And he read some of the garble out loud. It did sound beautiful, and as if it meant something. I scowled. "It's in Aritan," he said, "the language spoken in the world a long time ago. Our language grew out of it. Some of the words aren't much changed. See, here? and here?" And I recognised parts of the words he pointed to.

"Can I learn it?" I asked.

He looked at me the way he often did, slowly: patient, judging, approving. "Yes," he said.

So I began to learn the ancient language, at the same time as I began to read the Chamhan in our own language.

We couldn't take books out of the secret room, of course. They would endanger us and everyone in Galvamand. The redhat priests of the Alds would come with soldiers to a house where a book was found. They wouldn't touch the book, because it was demonic, but they'd have slaves take it down to the canal or the sea, bind stones to it to weight it, and throw it in to sink. And they'd do the same with the people who had owned it. They didn't burn books or people who read them. The god of the Alds is Atth, the Burning God, and death by fire is a grand thing to them. So they drowned books and people, or took them to the mudflats by the sea and pushed them in with shovels and poles and trampled them down until they suffocated, sunk in the deep wet mud.

People often brought books to Galvamand, at night, in secret. None of them knew of the hidden room—people who'd lived in the house all their life didn't know of it—but people even outside the city knew that the Waylord Sulter Galva was the man to bring books to, now that it was dangerous to own them, and the House of the Oracle was the place to keep them safe.

None of us in the household ever entered the Waylord's rooms without knocking and waiting for his answer, and since he was no longer so ill, if he didn't answer we didn't bother him. What he did with his time and where he spent it, Ista and Sosta never inquired. They thought he was always in his apartments or the inner courtyards, I suppose, as I used to think. Galvamand is so big it's easy to lose people in it. He never left the house, being too lame to walk even a block's length, but people came to see him, many people. They'd spend hours talking with him in the back gallery or, in summer, in one of the courts. They'd come and leave quietly, any time of the day or night, attracting no notice, using the ways through the back part of the house where nobody lived and the rooms were empty and in ruin.

When he had daytime visitors, I'd serve water, or tea when we had any, and sometimes I could stay with them and listen. Some were people I'd known all my life: Desac the Sundramanian, and people of the Four Houses, like the Cams of Cammand, and Per Actamo. Per had been a boy of ten or twelve when the Alds took the city. The people of Actamand put up a hard fight, and when the soldiers took the house they killed all the men and carried off the women as slaves. Per hid from the soldiers in a dry well in a courtyard for three days. He lived now as we did, with a few people in a ruinous house. But he joked with me and was kind, and younger than most of the Waylord's visitors. I was always glad when Per came. Desac was the only visitor who made it clear I was not welcome to stay and listen to the talk.

The people I didn't know who came to see the Waylord were mostly merchants and such from the city; some of them still had good clothes. Often men came who looked as if they'd been on the road a long time, visitors or messengers from other towns of Ansul, maybe from other waylords. After dark, in winter, sometimes women came, though it was dangerous for women to go alone in the city. One who used to come often had long grey hair; she seemed a little mad to me, but he greeted her with respect. She always brought books. I never knew her name. Often the people from other towns had books, too, hidden in their clothing or in parcels containing food. Once he knew I could enter the secret room, the Waylord would give them to me to take there.

He mostly went to the room at night, which was why we'd never met there before. I hadn't gone often, and never at night. I shared a sleeping room in the front part of the house with Ista and Sosta, and couldn't just vanish. And the days were busy; I had my share of the housework to do, and the worship, and most of the shopping too, since I liked doing it and got better bargains than Sosta did.

Ista was always afraid Sosta would meet soldiers and be taken and raped if she went out alone. She wasn't afraid for me. The Alds wouldn't look at me, she said. She meant they wouldn't like my pale bony face and sheep hair like theirs, because they wanted Ansul girls with round brown cheeks and black sleek hair like Sosta's. "You're lucky to look the way you do," she always told me. And I stayed quite small and slight for a long time, which really was lucky. By order of the Gand of the Alds, women could go in the streets and marketplaces only if they had a man with them. A woman who went alone in the street was a whore, a demon of temptation, and any soldier was free to rape, enslave, or kill her. But the Alds apparently didn't consider old women to be women, and children were mostly though not always ignored. So grannies and children, many of them "siege brats," half-breeds like me, the girls dressed as boys, did most of the shopping and bargaining in the markets.

All the money we had was what an ancestor had hidden long ago when a pirate fleet threatened Ansul; the pirates were driven off, but the family left the luck-hoard, as the Waylord called it, buried out in the woods behind the house; and that was what we lived on now. So I had to look for the best bargains I could, which took time. So did the worship and the housework. Ista got up very early in the morning to make the bread. The only time I could go regularly to the secret room without being missed and rousing a lot of curiosity and questions would be at night when the others had gone to bed. So I told Ista I wanted to move my bed to my mother's room, just down the hall from the room we all shared. That was fine with her. She and Sosta were generally snoring away not long after we'd washed up from supper; they weren't likely to notice if I wasn't in my room. So every night I'd go softly in darkness through the corridors and passages of the great house to the secret door, and go in, and read and learn with my dear teacher.

Nights when he had visitors, he couldn't come to teach me Aritan or help me with my reading, but I could get along on my own well enough. Often I stayed reading, lost in the story or the history till long after he would have sent me off to bed.

When I started growing a little taller and coming into my womanhood, I did get terribly sleepy sometimes, not at night but in the morning. I couldn't make myself get out of bed, and felt heavy as lead and stupid as a sowbug all day. The Waylord spoke to Ista, though I begged him not to, and asked her to hire the street girl Bomi to do the sweeping and cleaning that I'd been doing. I said to him, "I don't mind sweeping and cleaning! What takes all the time is doing all the altars. We could hire a girl for that, and I'd have lots more time."

That was a mistake. He looked at me slowly: patient, judging, but not approving.

"Your mother's shadow dwells here, with the shadows of our ancestors," he said. "The gods of this house are her gods. She blessed them daily. I do them honor as a man," and it was true, he never missed a day or an offering due, "and you do them honor and receive their blessing as the daughter of our grandmothers." And that was that.

I was ashamed of myself, and also cross. I'd had it in my head that I'd be able to get out of the whole hour it took sometimes to go to all the god-niches, dusting them, giving fresh leaves to Iene, and lighting incense for the Hearthkeepers, and giving and asking blessing of the souls and shadows of the former householders, and thanking Ennu and putting meal and water on her altar on her days, and stopping in the doorways to say the praise of the One Who Looks Both Ways, and remembering when to light the oil lamps for Deori, and all the rest.

We have more gods in Ansul, I think, than anybody else has anywhere. More gods, and closer to us, the gods of our earth and our days, our blood and bone. Of course I was blessed in knowing that the house was full of them, and that I was doing as my mother had done in returning their blessing, and that my own room-spirit dwelt in the little empty niche in the wall by the door and waited for me to return and watched over my sleep. When I was little, I was proud of doing worship, but I'd been doing it for a long time now. I got tired of the gods. They wanted so much looking after.

But all it took to make me do my worship cheerfully, with all my heart and soul, was to remember that the Alds called our gods evil spirits, demons, and were afraid of them.

And it was good to be reminded that my mother had done the woman's worship in the house. The Waylord had trusted her with that, as he trusted her with the knowledge of the secret room, knowing she was of his own lineage. Thinking about this, I realised clearly for the first time that he and I were the only ones of our lineage left; the few people now in our household were Galvas by choice not by blood. I hadn't thought much about the difference till then.

"Did my mother know how to read.?" I asked him once, at night, after my lesson in Aritan.

"Of course," he said, and then, recollecting, "It wasn't forbidden then." He sat back and rubbed his eyes. The torturers had stretched and broken his fingers so that they were twisted and knotted up, but I was used to how his hands looked. I could see that they had been beautiful once.

"Did she come here to read." I asked, looking around the room, happy to be there. I had come to love it best at night, when warm shadows stretched up and out from the lamp's yellow dome of light, and the gilt lettering on the backs of books winked like the stars you could sometimes glimpse through the small, high skylights.

"She didn't have much time for reading," he said. "She kept everything going here. It was a big job. A waylord had to spend a lot of money—entertaining and all the rest of it. Her books were account books, mostly." He looked at me as if looking back, comparing me with my mother in his mind. "I showed her the door to this room when we first heard that the Alds had sent an army into the Isma Hills. My mother urged me: Decalo was of our blood, and had a right to the secret, she said. She could preserve it, if things went badly. And the room could be a refuge for her."

"It was."

He said a line from "The Tower," the Aritan poem we had been translating: Hard is the mercy of the gods.

I countered with a line from later in the poem: True sacrifice is true heart's praise. He liked it when I could quote back at him.

"Maybe when she was hiding here with me, when I was a baby, maybe she read some of the books," I said. I had thought that before. When I read something that gave my soul joy and strength, I often wondered if my mother had read it, too, when she was in the secret room. I knew he had. He had read all the books.

"Maybe she did," he said, but his face was sad.

He looked at me as if studying me with some question in his mind;finally, coming to a decision, he said, "Tell me, Memer. When you first came here, by yourself—before you could read them, what were the books to you."

It took me a while to answer. "Well, I gave some of them names." I pointed to the large, leather-bound Annals of the Fortieth Consulate of Sundraman. "I called that the Bear. And Rostan was Shining Red. I liked it because of the gold on the cover ... And I built houses with some of them. But I always put them back exactly where they'd been."

He nodded.

"And then some of them—" I had not meant to say this, but the words came out of me—"I was afraid of them."

"Afraid. Why."

I did not want to answer, but again I spoke: "Because they made noises."

He made a little noise himself, at that: ah.

"Which books were they." he asked.

"It was one of them. Down at ... at the other end. It groaned."

Why was I talking about that book. I never thought about it, I didn't want to think about it, let alone talk about it.

Dearly as I loved being in the secret room, reading with the Waylord, finding my greatest happiness in the treasure of story and poetry and history that was mine there, still I never went all the way to that end of the room where the floor became a rougher, greyer stone and the ceiling was lower, without skylights, so that the light died away slowly into the dark. I knew there was a spring or fountain there because I could hear the faint sound of it, but I'd never gone far enough to see it. Sometimes I thought the room became larger there in the shadow end, sometimes I thought it must grow smaller, like a cave or a tunnel. I had never been past the shelves where the book that groaned was.

"Can you show me which book?"

I sat still at the reading table for a minute and then said, "I was just little. I made up things like that. I pretended the Annals was a bear. It was silly."

"You have nothing to fear, Memer," he said softly. "Some might. Not you."

I said nothing. I felt sick and cold. I was afraid. All I knew was that I was going to keep my mouth shut so that nothing else I didn't want to say could come out of it.

Again he sat pondering, and again came to some decision. "Time enough for that later. Now, ten more lines, or bed?"

"Ten more lines," I said. And we bent over "The Tower"again.

Even now it's hard for me to admit, to write about my fear. Back then, at fourteen or fifteen, I kept my thoughts away from it, just as I kept myself away from the end of the room that went back into shadow. Wasn't the secret room the one place where I was free of fear? I wanted it to be only that. I didn't understand my fear and didn't want to know what it was. It was too much like what the Alds called devilry and evil spirits and black magic. Those were nothing but ignorant, hateful words for what they didn't understand—our gods, our books, our ways. I was certain that there were no demons and that the Waylord had no evil powers. Hadn't they tortured him for a year to make him confess his wicked arts, and let him go because he had nothing to confess?

So what was I afraid of?

I knew the book had groaned when I touched it. I was only about six years old then, but I remembered. I wanted to make myself brave. I dared myself to go all the way to the shadow end. I went, keeping my eyes on the floor right before my feet, until the tiles gave way to rough stone. Then I sidled over to a bookcase, still keeping my eyes down, seeing only that it was low and built into the rock wall, and reached out to touch a book bound in shabby brown leather. When I touched it, it groaned aloud.

I pulled back my hand and stood there. I told myself I hadn't heard anything. I wanted to be brave, so that I could kill Alds when I grew up. I had to be brave.

I walked five steps more till I came to another bookcase and glanced up quickly. I saw a shelf with one book on it. It was small and had a smooth, pearly white cover. I clenched my right hand and reached out my left hand and took the book from the shelf, telling myself it was safe because the cover was pretty. I let the book fall open. There were drops of blood oozing from the page. They were wet. I knew what blood was. I shut it and shoved it back on the shelf and ran to hide in my bear's den under the big table.

I hadn't told the Waylord about that. I didn't want it to be true. I had never gone back down to those shelves in the shadow end.

I'm sorry, now, for that girl of fifteen who wasn't as brave as the child of six, although she longed as much as ever for courage, strength, power against what she feared. Fear breeds silence, and then the silence breeds fear, and I let it rule me. Even there, in that room, the only place in the world where I knew who I was, I wouldn't let myself guess who I might become.

3

Even ten years later, it's hard to write truly about how I lied to myself. It's as hard to write about my courage as about my cowardice. But I want this book to be as truthful as it can be, to be of use in the records of the House of the Oracle, and to honor my mother Decalo, to whom I dedicate it. I'm trying to put the memories of all those years in order, because I want to get to where I can tell about meeting Gry the first time. But there wasn't much order in my mind and heart when I was sixteen and seventeen. It was all ignorance and passionate anger and love.

What peace I had, what understanding I had, came from my love for the Waylord and his kindness to me, and from books. Books are at the heart of this book I'm writing. Books caused the danger we were in, the risks we ran, and books gave us our power. The Alds are right to fear them. If there is a god of books it's Sampa the Maker and Destroyer.

Of all the books the Waylord gave me to read, in poetry I most loved The Transformations, and in story The Tales of the Lords of Manva. I knew the Tales were stories not history, but they gave me truths I needed and wanted: about courage, friendship, loyalty to the death, about fighting the enemies of your people, driving them out of your land. All the winter I was sixteen I came to the secret room and read about the friendship of the heroes Adira and Marra. I longed to have a friend and companion like Adira. To be driven with him up into the snows of Sul, and suffer with him there, and then side by side with him to strike down like eagles on the hordes of Dorven, driving them back to their ships—I read that again and again. When I read of the Old Lord of Sul I saw him like my own lord—dark, crippled, noble, fearless. All about me in my city and my life were fear and distrust. What I saw in the streets daily made my heart shrink and cower. My love for the heroes of Manva was my heart's blood. It gave me strength.

That was the year we took the street girl Bomi into the household, and the Waylord gave her the name Galva in the old ceremony at the house altars. She moved into the room down the hall from Sosta's. She worked hard and well, satisfying even Ista most of the time, and was good company too. She was about thirteen;she had no idea when she was born or who her mother was. She was hanging around our street as a beggar for a while, and old Gudit began coaxing her in, luring her like a stray cat. When he'd got her to sleep in the shed in the courtyard, he started making her earn her food by helping him clean the stables, which were full of burned lumber and wrecked furniture and trash. Gudit was determined that the Waylord was going to have horses again. "It stands to reason," he'd say. "How can a waylord travel his ways without a horse to carry him? Would you have him walk on foot? Clear to Essangan or Dom? Bad as his legs are.? Like some common peddler, with no dignity? It won't do. He needs horses. It stands to reason."

There never was much to do with Gudit but agree with him. He was crazy, old, hunchbacked, and worked very hard, if not always at the most useful job. He had a foul mouth but a clear heart. When Ista hired Bomi to take my place housecleaning, he was furious, not at Ista but at Bomi for "deserting" him and his precious stable. Every time he saw her for months he cursed her by the shadows of her ancestors, which didn't bother Bomi much, since she didn't know any of her ancestors or where their shadows were. Then he got over it, and she went back to helping him after her housework with that terrible job of cleaning out the stable and rebuilding the stalls, because she had a clear heart too. She took in cats, just as Gudit took her in. The stableyard swarmed with kittens that summer. Ista said that Bomi ate like ten girls, but I thought she ate like one girl and twenty cats. Anyhow, the stable was finally clean, which turned out to be fortunate, even if it didn't exactly stand to reason. And we had no mice.

Ista took a long time to accept the fact that the Waylord had taken me under his particular charge and that I was being "educated," a word she always spoke very carefully, as if it were in another language. And indeed it was a word to be spoken carefully under the dominion of the Alds, who thought reading a deliberate act of evil. Because of that danger, and because she herself had forgotten, as she said, whatever hen-scratching she was taught as a girl ("And what earthly use would all that be to a cook, I ask you? You just show me how to make a sauce with a pen and ink, will you!")—Ista wasn't entirely comfortable with my becoming educated. But it would never have occurred to her to hold it against me, or to question the Waylord's judgment or his will. Maybe I loved loyalty so dearly because I knew this house was blessed with it.

Anyhow, I still helped Ista with the rough work of the kitchen, and went to the market, with Bomi if she was free to go, alone if not. I stayed short and bony, and by wearing old cut-down men's clothes I could still look fairly much like a child, or at least an unattractive boy. Street-gang boys sometimes saw I was a girl and threw stones at me—boys of my race, of Ansul, acting like filthy Alds. I hated to pass them and kept away from the places they gathered. And I hated the swaggering Ald guards posted around all the marketplaces to "keep order," which meant to bully citizens and take whatever they liked from the vendors' stalls without paying. I tried not to cringe when I passed them. I tried to walk slowly, ignoring them. They stood there puffed up in their blue cloaks and leather cuirasses, with their swords and clubs. They seldom looked as low as me.

Now I have come to the important morning.

It was late spring, four days after my seventeenth birthday. Sosta was to be married in summer and Bomi was helping her sew for her wedding—the green gown and headdress and the groom's coat and headdress too. It was all Ista and Sosta had talked about for weeks, wedding wedding wedding, sewing sewing sewing. Even Bomi blithered about it. I'd never even tried to learn to sew, or to fall in love and want to marry, either. Someday. Someday I'd be ready to find out about that kind of love, but it wasn't time yet. I had to find out who I was, first. I had a promise to keep, and my dear lord to love, and a lot to learn. So I left them chattering, and went out to market alone that morning.

It was a bright sweet day. I went down the steps of the house to the Oracle Fountain. The broad, shallow, green basin was dry and littered, and the pipe from which the water had risen stuck up jagged from the broken, defaced central sculpture. The fountain had been dry all my lifetime and long before that, but I said the blessing to the Lord of the Springs and Waters as I stood beside it. And I wondered, not for the first time, why it was called the Oracle Fountain, and then why Galvamand itself was sometimes called the Oracle House. I should ask the Waylord, I thought.

I looked up from the dead fountain, out over the city, and saw Sul across the straits like a great white rising wave of stone and snow, one banner of mist blown northward from it's crest. I thought of Adira and Marra and their ragged soldiers driven up to the icy heights, without food or fire, and how they knelt to praise the god of the mountain and the spirits of the glacier. A crow came flying to them with a spray of leaves in it's beak and dropped it before Adira. They thanked the crow, offering it what little bread they had: "In the beak of black iron, the gift of green hope." My thoughts were always with the heroes.

I spoke praise to Sul and the Seunes, whose white manes I could see just out past the headland. I went on, speaking to the Sill Stone, and touching the street-god's niche as I passed the corner and turned left to West Street. I'd decided to go to the Harbor Market, which was farther to carry things home from but a better market than Foothill. I was glad to be outdoors, to see the sunlight strike blue-green down into the canal and the bright shadows of the carvings on the bridges.

The sunlight and the sea wind were a joy. As I walked I became quite certain that my gods were with me. I was fearless. I went past the Ald soldiers on guard at the marketplace as if they were wooden posts.

Harbor Market is a broad marble pavement, with the red arcades of the Customs House on the north and east sides and the Tower of the Sea Admirals on the south;to the west it's open to the harbor and the sea. Long, shallow marble steps with curved, carved banisters go down to the Admiralty boat-houses and the gravel beach. It was all sun and wind and white marble and blue sea that morning, and nearby were the colored awnings and umbrellas of the market stands and all the cheerful racket of the market. I passed by the market god, the round stone that represents the oldest god of the city: Lero, whose name means justice, agreement, doing right. I saluted the god openly, without even thinking of the Ald soldiers.

I had never in my life done that. When I was ten I saw soldiers beat an elderly man and leave him bloody and unconscious on the street under the empty pedestal of a god he had saluted. No one dared go to him while the soldiers were there. I ran away crying and never knew if he had been killed or not. I had not forgotten that, but it did not matter. This was a day without fear for me. A day of blessing. A holy day.

I went on across the square, looking at everything, for I loved the stalls and the goods and the coaxing, insulting vendors. I was heading for the fish market, but went a bit out of the way when I saw they were setting up a large tent in front of the Admirals' Tower. I asked a boy selling dirty rock-sugar what the tent was for.

"A great storyteller from the Uplands," he said, "very famous. I can hold a place for you, young master." Market boys will turn a turd into a penny, as they say.

"I can hold my own place," I said, and he, "Oh, it'll be terrible crowded in no time—he's to be here all day, a terrible famous man—half a penny to hold you a good place right up close?"

I laughed at him and went on.

I was tempted to go over to the tent, though. I felt like doing something foolish, like listening to a storyteller. The Alds are crazy about makers and tellers. Every rich Ald has a storyteller in his retinue, they say, and every company of soldiers too. There hadn't been many in Ansul, the Waylord told me, before the Alds came, but there were more now that books were banned. A few men of my own people told stories for small change on street corners. I had stopped to listen a couple of times, but they mostly told Ald stories to get pennies from the soldiers. I didn't like the Ald stories, all about their wars and their warriors and their tyrant god, nothing I cared a straw for.

It was the word "Uplands" that caught me. A man from the Uplands would not be an Ald. The Uplands were far, far to the north. I'd never even heard of them or any of those distant lands until last year, when I read Eront's Great History, with it's maps of all the lands of the Western Shore. The market boy repeated the word as he'd heard it spoken, without any meaning for him except somewhere-very-far-away. Even to Eront, the Uplands were mostly hearsay. I didn't remember anything on that part of his map except a big mountain with a strange name I couldn't bring to mind, as I made my way on past the potmenders to the fishwives.

I bargained down a big redspot that would feed us all today, even the cats, and make fishhead soup for tomorrow. I went round the stalls and bought a fresh cheese and some coarse greens that looked good. Then before I set off home I wandered over towards the big tent to see if anything was happening yet. The crowds were thick. I saw riders above the people's heads, and horse's heads tossing up and down: two Ald officers. The Alds brought no women from their deserts, but they brought their fine, pretty horses, which they treated so well that it was a street joke to call the horses "soldiers' wives."

People in the crowd now were trying to get out of the horses' way, but there was some kind of commotion behind them and a good deal of confusion. Then all at once one of the horses reared up squealing and bolted, bucking stiff-legged like a colt. People in front of me pressed back to get out of it's way. It came straight at me. There were people crowding from behind and I couldn't move. The horse came at me—there was no rider on it, and the flailing reins slapped my hand as if thrown at me. I grabbed and pulled. The horse's head came down right by my shoulder, it's eye rolling wildly. That head seemed huge, it filled the world. But the horse had stopped. I shortened my grip on the rein up to the bridle and stood firm, not knowing what else to do. The horse tried to toss it's head, which half lifted me off the ground, but I hung tight out of pure terror. The horse gave a great whuff through it's nostrils and stood still—even pushing up against me a little as if for protection.

All around me people were shouting and screaming, and I could only think of how to keep them from panicking the horse again. "Be quiet, be quiet," I said foolishly to the shouting people. And as if they had heard me they began to back away, leaving a space of marble pavement empty behind the horse. In that white, sunlit space was the Ald officer, who had been thrown hard and was lying stunned, and a woman standing near him, and a lion.

The woman and the lion stood side by side. When they moved, the clear space of pavement moved with them. The crowd had gone almost silent.

I saw the top of some kind of carriage behind the woman and the lion. They turned towards it. The pavement appeared as if by magic in front of them as the crowd backed away. It was a little caravan wagon. The two horses hitched to it stood calmly, facing away from us. The woman opened the back door of the wagon, the lion leapt up into it, it's tail disappearing in a lovely curve, and the woman latched the door. She came back at once, and the crowd backed away from her again, even without the lion.

She knelt by the Ald officer, who was sitting up looking dizzy. She spoke to him a little, and then stood up and came to me where I was standing, still holding the horse because I didn't dare let it go. The crowd drew back with some pushing and shoving, which scared the horse again. It jerked against my grip on the bridle, and the market basket on my arm fell open and the fish and cheese and greens all flew out, which scared the horse worse, and I could not hold it—but the woman was there. She put her hand on the horse's neck and said something to it. It shook it's head, with a kind of grumble in it's chest, and stood still.

She put out her hand and I gave her the reins. "Well done," she said to me, "well done!" Then she said something else to the horse, close to it's ear, softly, and blew a little of her breath into it's nostrils. It sighed and drooped it's head. I was frantically trying to pick up our food for the next two days before it was trampled on or stolen. Seeing me scrabbling on the pavement, the woman gave the horse a hard pat and bent down to help me. We tumbled the big fish and the greens into the basket, and somebody in the crowd tossed me the cheese.

"Thank you, good people of Ansul!" the woman said in a clear voice and a foreign accent. "He deserves a reward, this boy!" And to the officer, who was now standing up shakily on the other side of his horse, she said, "This boy caught your mare, Captain. It was my lion frightened her. I ask your pardon for that."

"The lion, yes," the Ald said, still dazed. He stared at her, and stared at me, and after a while dug into his belt pouch and held out something to me—a penny.

I was fastening the clasp on my basket. I ignored him and his penny.

"Oh, so generous, so generous," people in the crowd murmured, and somebody crooned, "A fountain of riches!" The officer glared around at them all. He finally refocused on the woman who stood in front of him holding his horse's reins.

"Get your hands off her!" he said. "You—woman—it was you had that animal—a lion—"

The woman tossed the reins at him, slapped the mare lightly, and slipped into the crowd. This time the people closed round her. In a moment I saw the roof of the wagon moving off.

I saw the wisdom of invisibility and ducked away into the old-clothes market while the officer was still trying to remount his mare.

The old-clothes vendor called High Hat had been watching the show, standing on her stool. She clambered down. "Used to horses, are you?" she said to me.

"No," I said. "Was that a lion?"

"Whatever it is, it goes with that storyteller. And his wife. So they say. Stay to hear him. He's the prime lord of storytellers, they say."

"I have to get my fish home."

"Ah. Fish don't wait." She fixed her fierce, mean little eyes on me. "Here," she said, and flipped me something, which I caught by reflex. It was a penny. She had already turned away.

I thanked her. I left the penny in the hollow under Lero, where people leave god-gifts and poorer people find them. I still didn't care if the guards saw me, because I knew they wouldn't. I was just starting up West Street away from the market, past the high red arcades of the Customs, when I heard a clip-clop and the clatter of wheels. There along Customs Street came the two horses and the caravan wagon. The lion woman was perched on the driver's seat.

"Lift?" she said, while the horses stopped.

I hesitated. I almost thanked her and said no. It was different, and nothing different ever happened, so I didn't know how to do it. And I was not easy with strangers. I was not easy with people. But the day was blessed, and to turn away blessing is to do ill. I thanked her and climbed up onto the seat beside her.

It seemed very high.

"Where to?"

I pointed up West Street.

She seemed to do nothing, not shaking the reins or clucking her tongue as I had seen drivers do, but the horses set right off. The taller horse was a fine red-brown color, almost as red as the cover of Rostan, and the smaller one was bright brown with black legs and mane and tail and a bit of a white star on her forehead. They were bigger than the Ald horses, and more peaceable-looking. Their ears went back and forth, listening constantly; it was pleasant to watch that.

We went along some blocks without speaking. It was interesting to look down the canals, to see the bridges, the facades and windows of buildings from this height, and people walking along, the way people on horseback see them, looking down on them. I found it made me feel superior.

"The lion is—back there—in the wagon?" I asked at last.

"Halflion," she said.

"From the Asudar desert!" When she said the word "halflion," I remembered it and the picture from the Great History.

"Right," she said, with a glance at me. "That's probably why it spooked the mare. She knew what it was."

"But you aren't an Ald," I said, suddenly fearing she was, even though she was dark-skinned and dark-eyed and couldn't be.

"I'm from the Uplands."

"In the far north!" I said, and then could have bitten my tongue in half.

She glanced at me sidelong and I waited for her to accuse me of reading books. But that was not what she had noticed.

"You aren't a boy," she said. "Oh, I am stupid."

"No, I dress like a boy, because..." I stopped.

She nodded, meaning no need to explain.

"So how did you learn to handle horses?" she asked.

"I didn't. I never touched a horse before."

She whistled. She had a little, sweet whistle, like a small bird. "Well, then you have the knack, or the luck!"

Her smile was so pleasant I wanted to tell her that it was the luck, that Lero and Luck himself, the deaf god, were giving me a holy day, but I was afraid of saying too much.

"I thought you'd be able to take me to a good stable for these two, you see. I thought you were a stableboy. You were as quick and cool as any old hostler I ever saw."

"Well, the horse just came at me."

"It came to you," she said.

We clip-clop-rattled on for another block.

"We have a stable," I said.

She laughed. "Aha!"

"I'd have to ask."

"Of course."

"There aren't any horses in it. Or feed, or anything. Not since—not for years. It's clean, though. There's some straw. For the cats." Every time I opened my mouth I talked too much. I clenched my teeth.

"You're very kind. If it isn't convenient, never mind. We can find a place. The fact is, the Gand has offered us the use of his stables. But I'd rather not be beholden to the Gand." And she shot me a glance.

I liked her. I'd liked her from the moment I saw her standing beside her lion. I liked the way she talked and what she said and everything about her.

You must not refuse the blessing.

I said, "My name is Decalo Galva's daughter Memer of Galvamand."

She said, "My name is Gry Barre of Roddmant."

Having introduced ourselves we got shy, and went on to Galva Street in silence. "That's the house," I said.

She said in a tone of awe, "It is a beautiful house."

Galvamand is very large and noble, with it's wide courts and stone arches and high windows, but it's half ruined too, so it touched me that somebody come from far away, who had seen many houses, saw it's beauty.

"It's the House of the Oracle," I said. "The Waylord's house."

At that, the horses stopped short.

Gry looked at me blankly for a moment. "Galva—the Waylord.—Hey, wake up there!" The horses walked patiently on. "This is a day of the greatly unexpected," she said.

"This is a day of Lero," I said. We were at the street gate. I slid down off the seat to touch the Sill Stone. I led Gry in, past the dry basin of the Oracle Fountain in the great front court, and around the side of the house to the arched gates of the stable courtyard.

Gudit came out of the stable scowling. "What by all the ghosts of your stupid ancestors do you think I'm going to do for oats?" he shouted. He came up and began to unhitch the red horse.

"Wait, wait," I said. "I have to talk to the Waylord."

"Talk away, the beasts can have a drink while you talk, can't they? Here, let be, lady. I'll see to it."

Gry let him unhitch the horses and lead them over to the trough. She watched the old man open the spigot and saw the clear water pour into the trough. She looked interested and admiring. "Where do you get the water from?" she asked Gudit, and he started to tell her about the springs of Galvamand.

As I passed the wagon it shook a little. There was a lion in it. I wondered what Gudit would say about that.

I ran on into the house.

4

The Waylord was in the back gallery talking with Desac. Desac was not a native of Ansul but of Sundraman;he had been a soldier in their army. He never brought books or talked of books. He stood very straight, spoke harshly, and seldom smiled. I thought he must have known much grief. He and the Waylord treated each other with respect and friendship. Their long conversations were always private. They both looked at me rather sternly, in silence, as I walked down the room to where they were sitting under the end window in a patch of sunlight. The back part of the house, the oldest part, all of stone and built right up against the hillside, is chilly, and we didn't have much firewood to warm the rooms.

I greeted them. The Waylord raised his eyebrows, waiting for my message.

"There are travellers here from the far north who need stabling for their horses. He is a storyteller and she," I paused, "she has a lion. A halflion. I told her I would ask if they may keep their horses here." As I spoke I felt like a person in a tale of the Lords of Manva, bearing a request from a noble visitor to a noble host.

"Circus people," Desac said. "Nomads."

Outraged at his contemptuous tone, I said, "No!"

The Waylord's eyebrows went down at my rudeness.

"She is Gry of the Barres of Roddmant of the Uplands," I said.

"And where are these Uplands?" said Desac, speaking to me as to a child.

"In the far north," I said.

The Waylord said, "Memer, a little further, please?" That was how he always asked me to go on translating a line of Aritan or explaining anything. He liked me to do it in order, making sense. I tried.

"Her husband came to tell stories in the Harbor Market. So they were there. Her lion frightened an Ald's horse. I caught the horse. Then she quieted it. Then when I was coming home I met her with her wagon and she brought me home. She was looking for stabling. The lion is in the wagon. Gudit is watering the horses."

Only as I mentioned coming home did I realise that the market basket with a ten-pound fish and cheese and greens in it was still weighing down my arm.

There was a pause.

"You offered her use of the stables?"

"I said I'd ask you."

"Will you ask her to come to me?"

"Yes," I said, and got away quickly.

I left the basket in the pantry cooler—Ista and the others were all still sewing in the workroom—and ran back to the stableyard. Gry and Gudit were talking about dogs;that is, Gudit was telling her about the great followhounds of Galvamand in the old days, that ran with the horses and guarded the gates. "Nowadays all it is is cats. Cats everywhere," he said, spitting aside. "No meat for dogs any more, see. It stands to reason. It was meat they were themselves, those dogs, in the siege years."

"Maybe it's just as well you have no followhounds just now," she said. "They'd be anxious about the contents of our wagon."

I said, "The Waylord asks if you will be pleased to come into the house. He would come himself but it's hard for him to walk far." I wanted so badly to welcome her rightly, nobly, generously, as the Lords of Manva welcomed strangers to their houses.

"With pleasure," she said, "but first—"

"Leave the horses to me," said Gudit. "I'll put 'em both in the loose box and then be off for a bit of hay from Bossti down the way there."

"There's a truss of hay and a barrel of oats in the wagon," Gry said, going to show him, but he brushed her off—"Na na na, nobody brings their own feed to the Waylord's house. Come along here, then, old lady."

"She's Star," said Gry, "and he's Branty." At their names both horses looked round at her, and the mare whuffed.

"And it would be well if you knew what else is in the wagon," Gry said, and there was something in her voice, though she spoke low and mild, that made even Gudit turn and listen to her.

"A cat," she said. "Another cat. But a big one. She's trustworthy, but not to be taken by surprise. Don't open the wagon door, please. Memer, shall I leave her here in the wagon or shall she come with me into the house?"

When you're lucky, press your luck. I wanted Desac to see the "circus" lion and be scared stiff. "If you wish to bring her..."

She studied me a moment.

"Best leave her here," she said with a smile. And thinking of Ista and Sosta screaming and screeching at the sight of a lion passing by in the corridor, I knew she was right.

She followed me through the courtyards around to the front entrance. On the threshold she stopped and murmured the invocation of the guest to the house-gods.

"Are your gods the same as ours?" I asked.

"The Uplands haven't much in the way of gods. But as a traveller I've learned to honor and ask blessing of any gods or spirits that will grant it."

I liked that.

"The Alds spit on our gods," I said.

"Sailors say it's unwise to spit into the wind," she said.

I had brought her the long way round, wanting her to see the reception hall and the great court and the wide hallways leading to the old university rooms and galleries and the inner courts. It was all bare, unfurnished, the statues broken, the tapestries stolen, the floors unswept. I was half proud for her to see it and half bitterly ashamed.

She walked through it with wide, keen eyes. There was a wariness in her. She was easy and open, but self-contained and on the alert, like a brave animal in a strange place.

I knocked at the carved door of the back gallery and the Waylord bade us enter. Desac had gone. The Waylord stood to greet the visitor. They bowed their heads formally as they spoke their names. "Be welcome to the house of my people," he said, and she, "My greeting to the House of Galva and it's people, and my honor to the gods and ancestors of the house."

When they looked up and at each other, I saw his eyes full of curiosity and interest, and hers shining with excitement.

"You've come a long way to bring your greeting," he said.

"To meet Sulter Galva the Waylord."

His face closed, like a book shutting.

"Ansul has no lords but the Alds," he said. "I am a person without importance."

Gry glanced at me as if for support, but I had none to give. She said to him, "Your pardon if I spoke amiss. But may I tell you what brought us to Ansul, my husband Orrec Caspro and me?"

Now at that name, he looked as utterly amazed as she had when I said his title to her.

"Caspro is here?" he said—"Orrec Caspro?" He took a deep breath. He gathered himself and spoke in his stiffest, most formal tone: "The fame of the poet runs before him. He honors our city with his presence. Memer told me that a maker is to speak in the marketplace, but I did not know who it was."

"He will recite for the Gand of the Alds too," said Gry. "The Gand sent for my husband. But that's not why we came to Ansul."

The pause was a heavy one.

"We sought this house," Gry said. "And to this house your daughter brought me—though I didn't know she was it's daughter, and she didn't know I sought it."

He looked at me.

"Truth," I said. And because he still looked at me, distrustful, I said, "The gods have been with me all day. It is a day of Lero."

That carried weight with him. He rubbed his upper lip with the first knuckle of his left hand the way he does when he's thinking hard. Then suddenly he came to a decision, and the distrust was gone. "As you are brought in Lero's hands, the blessing of the house is yours," he said. "And all in it is yours. Will you sit down, Gry Barre?"

I saw that she watched the way he moved as he showed her to the claw-foot chair, that she saw his crippled hands as he lowered himself into the armchair. I perched on the high stool by the table.

"As Caspro's fame has come to you," she said, "so the fame of the libraries of Ansul has come to us."

"And your husband came here to see those libraries?"

"He seeks the nourishment of his art and his soul in books," she said.

At that I wanted to give all my heart to her, to him.

"He must know," the Waylord said without emotion, "that the books of Ansul were destroyed, with many of those who read them. No libraries are permitted in the city. The written word is forbidden. The word is the breath of Atth, the only god, and only by the breath may it be spoken. To entrap it in writing is blasphemy, abominable."

I flinched, hating to hear him speak those words. He sounded as if he believed them, as if they were his own words.

Gry was silent.

He said, "I hope Orrec Caspro brought no books with him."

"No," she said, "he came to seek them."

"As well seek bonfires in the sea,'" he said.

She came right back, "'Or milk a desert stone.'"

I saw the flicker in his eyes, that almost hidden glint, when she answered with the rest of Denios' line.

"May he come here.?" she asked, quite humbly.

I wanted to shout Yes! Yes! I was shocked, ashamed, when the Waylord did not at once answer inviting him warmly to come, to be welcome. He hesitated, and then all he said was, "He is the guest of the Gand Ioratth?"

"A message came to us when we were in Urdile, saying that Ioratth, the Gand of the Alds of Ansul, would make welcome Orrec Caspro, the Gand of All Makers, if he would come and display his art. We are told that the Gand Ioratth is very fond of hearing tales and poems. As are his people. So we came. But not as his guests. He offered stabling for our horses, but not for us. His god would be offended if unbelievers came under his roof. When Orrec goes to perform for the Gand it will be outdoors, under the open sky."

The Waylord said something in Aritan;I wasn't sure, but I thought it was about the sky having room enough for all the stars and gods. He looked at her to see if she understood the line.

She cocked her head. "I am an ignorant woman," she said in her mild way.

He laughed. "Hardly!"

"No, truly. My husband has taught me a little, but my own knowledge is not in words at all. My gift is to listen to those who don't talk."

"You walk with a lion, Memer said."

"I do. We travel a lot, and travellers are vulnerable. After our good dog died, I looked for another guardian companion. We met with a company of nomads, tellers and musicians, who'd trapped a halflion and her cub in the desert hills south of Vadalva.They kept the mother for their shows, but sold us the cub. She's a good companion, and trustworthy."

"What is her name?" I asked very softly.

"Shetar."

"Where is she now?" the Waylord asked.

"In our wagon, in your stableyard."

"I hope to see her. As I too am unburdened with belief, I am free to offer you the shelter of my roof, Gry Barre—you and your husband, your horses and your lion."

She thanked him for his generosity, and he said, "The poor are rich in generosity." Ever since she had spoken her husband's name, his face had been alight. "Memer," he said, "which room—?"

I'd already decided that and was calculating whether the fish could feed eight if Ista made a stew with it. "The east room," I said.

"How about the Master's room?"

That startled me a little, for I knew his mother had lived in that beautiful, spacious apartment, upstairs from his rooms in this oldest part of the house. Long ago when Galvamand housed the university and library of Ansul, that apartment had belonged to it's head, the Master. It's unbroken, small-paned windows looked over the lower roofs of the house westward to Sul. There was a bedstead in it and nothing much else, now. But I could bring a mattress from the east room, and the chair from mine.

"I'll lay a fire there," I said, for I knew the unused room would be dank and cold.

The Waylord looked at me with great kindness. He said to Gry Barre, "Memer is my hands and half my head. She is not the daughter of my body, but of my house and heart. Her gods and ancestors are mine."

I knew well that I was of the blood of Galva, but it gave me a painful joy to hear him say what he said.

"In the market," Gry said, "a horse bolted when it saw my cat. It threw it's rider and ran straight at Memer. She caught the reins and stopped and held it."

"I'll go get the room ready," I said, finding praise hard to bear.

Gry excused herself and came with me, wanting to help me with the room. Once we had made up the bed and got a fire going in the hearth, it was done, and she said she'd go bring her husband here from the Harbor Market. I longed to hear him, and she saw that. "He'll be nearly done speaking, I think," she said, "but I'd be glad of your company. I'll leave Shetar in the wagon. She's fine there." As we went out she added, "One lion is enough."

How could I not love her?

So Gry Barre and I went afoot back down to the Harbor Market. There I first heard the maker Orrec Caspro speak.

The tent was full, and the front and sides had been raised for people to stand outside it, crowded together like trees on a mountainside, all still, listening. He was telling the tale of the Fire-Tailed Bird from Denios' Transformations. I knew it, and older people of Ansul there knew it, but to the Ald soldiers—and there were many, all in the best places, up close to the platform in the tent—and to most of the young people, it was new, a wonder. All stood with moving lips and gazing eyes, rapt in the story-poem. Caught in it too, hearing the teller's even, resonant voice and clear northern accent, I hardly saw him himself. I listened, and saw the story happen.

When he was done, the great crowd stood in silence for a long breath's space, and then said, "Ah!" And then they began to applaud him, the Alds by hitting their palms together loudly, and we by crying the old praise-word, "Eho, eho!" I saw him then, a handsome, thin, straight, dark man, with a certain defiance in his stance up there on the dais, though he was most gracious with the crowd.

We could not get near him for a long time. "I should have brought the other lion too," Gry said, as we tried in vain to pry through the massed backs of the soldiers and officers with their blue cloaks and their sheep hair and their swords and crossbows and bludgeons, all pressing round the speaker, who had come down among them.

When he leapt back up on the platform and scanned the crowd, Gry made her bird's whistle, loud and piercing this time. At once he saw her; she nodded to our left;and a few minutes later he met us by the steps of the Customs.

Now that the soldiers had dispersed, many citizens trailed him, but they were timid, unwilling to press forward. Only one elderly man came up to him, and bowed as we bow in thanks to our gods, deeply, with open hands that hold the gift given and received. "Praise to the maker," he whispered. He straightened up and walked swiftly away. He was in tears. He was a man who had brought books to the Waylord more than once. I didn't know his name.

Orrec Caspro saw us and strode forward. He took both Gry's hands for a moment. "Get me out!" he said. "Where's Shetar?"

"At Galvamant," she said, pronouncing the name northern-wise. "I am with Decalo's daughter Memer of Galvamant. We're to be guests of that house."

His eyes widened. He greeted me courteously and asked no questions, but he looked as if he had some.

"Please excuse me," I said on the spur of the moment, "I forgot something at the market this morning. You know the way. I'll catch up." And I left them. It was true that Ista would need more greens for a stew for eight.

I always wondered why the makers leave housekeeping and cooking out of their tales. Isn't it what all the great wars and battles are fought for—so that at day's end a family may eat together in a peaceful house? The tale tells how the Lords of Manva hunted and gathered roots and cooked their suppers while they were camped in exile in the foothills of Sul, but it doesn't say what their wives and children were living on in their city left ruined and desolate by the enemy. They were finding food too, somehow, cleaning house and honoring the gods, the way we did in the siege and under the tyranny of the Alds. When the heroes came back from the mountain, they were welcomed with a feast. I'd like to know what the food was and how the women managed it.

I saw Gry and her husband at the top of West Street when I started up the hill from the Gelb Bridge. When I came into the kitchen, Sosta and Bomi were all agog, having met the guests, and Ista was on the very edge of a tantrum—"How in the name of Sampa the Destroyer is a woman to feed guests on a scrap of fish and a kale stalk?" The additional greens and celery-root I brought averted disaster. She set to work grating ginger and chopping thessony and ordering Bomi and even Sosta about unmercifully. Galvamand would not scant it's guests or shame it's ancestors if Ista could help it. This is part of what I meant about housework. If it isn't important, what is? If it isn't done honorably, where is honor?

Ista could tell us about the banquets for forty in the great dining hall in the old days, but we always ate in what she called the pantry, a large room full of shelves and counters, between the dining hall and the kitchens. Gudit had built a table of pine scraps, and we had found a chair here and a chair there. The Waylord's longest walk in a day was often from his room, through the corridors, past the staircases and the inner courtyards, to dinner in the pantry. Tonight he came wearing the heavy, stiff, grey robe that was the only fine clothing he had left from the good days. All of us had cleaned up a bit except Gudit, who smelled very much of horse. Gry wore a long red shirt over narrow silk pants, and her husband a white shirt, black coat, and black kilt that left his legs bare below the knee. He was very goodlooking in his black, and Sosta goggled at him like the fish on it's slab in the market.

But the Waylord was a handsome man too for all his lameness, and when he greeted Orrec Caspro I thought again of the heroes Adira and Marra. Both he and Caspro stood very straight, though it must have cost the Waylord more to do so.

We sat to table, Gry at the Waylord's right hand and Caspro at his left, Sosta next to Bomi down the table, Gudit next to me, and the place at the foot empty, because Ista would never sit with us till late in the meal. "A cook at the table, a burnt dinner," she said, which may have been true when there were more people to be served and more dinner to burn. She stood while my lord gave the man's blessing and I the woman's, and then she vanished while we ate her excellent bread and fish stew. I was glad for the honor of our house that the food was so good.

"You of Ansul do as we do in the Uplands," Caspro said. His voice was the most beautiful thing about him; it was like a viol. "The household eats at one table. It makes me feel at home."

"Tell us something of the Uplands," the Waylord said.

Caspro looked about at us, smiling, not knowing where to begin. "Do you know anything of the place at all?"

"It's far to the north," I said, as no one else spoke, "a hilly land, with a great mountain—" and the name came to me then as if I was seeing Eront's map—"the Carrantages? And the people are said to practice wizardry. But that's only what Eront says."

Bomi and Sosta stared, the way they always did when I knew anything they didn't. I thought it very stupid—as if I should stare every time they talked about how to hem a gusset, or gusset a hem, whichever it is. I didn't always understand them, but I didn't stare at them as if they were crazy for knowing what they knew.

Caspro said to me, "The Carrantages is our great mountain, as Sul is yours. The Uplands are all hill and stone, and the farmers poor. Some of them have powers, indeed; but wizardry is a dangerous word. We call them gifts."

"Among the Alds, we called them nothing at all," said Gry in her dry, slightly teasing way. "Not wishing to be stoned to death for the sin of coming from a gifted people."

"What," Bomi began, and then stuck. For once she was shy. Gry encouraged her, and Bomi asked, "Do you have a gift?"

"I get along with animals, and they with me. The gift is called calling, but it's more like hearing, actually."

"I have no gift," Caspro said with a smile.

"I cannot believe you so ungrateful," the Waylord said, not joking.

Caspro accepted the reproof. "You're right, Waylord, I was indeed given a great gift. But it was ... It was the wrong one." He frowned and sought almost desperately for words, as if it were the most important thing in the world that he should answer honestly. "Not wrong for me. But for my people. So it took me from them, from the Uplands. I have great joy in my art. But there are times—times I'm sick at heart, missing the rocks and bogs and the silence of the hills."

The Waylord looked at him patiently, unjudging, approving. "One can be sick for home in one's own city, in one's own house, Orrec Caspro. You are an exile among exiles here." He raised his glass. There was water in it; we had no wine. "To our homecoming!" he said, and we all drank with him.

"If your gift is the wrong one, what would the right one have been?" asked Bomi, whose shyness once gone is gone forever.

Caspro looked at her. His face changed again. He might have given a light answer to her light question and she'd have been satisfied, but that wasn't in him to do.

"My family's gift is the unmaking," he said, and involuntarily put both hands over his eyes for a moment—a strange moment. "But I was given the gift of making. By mistake." He looked up as if bewildered. I saw Gry watching him across the table, intent, concerned.

"No mistake about it," said the Waylord with a calm, genial authority that lightened the uncanny mood. "And all you were given you give to us in your poetry. I wish I could come hear you."

"Don't encourage him," Gry said, "he'll spout you poems till the cows come home."

Sosta giggled. I think it was the first thing anybody said she understood, and she thought it was funny to say "till the cows come home."

Caspro laughed too, and told us that he could speak poetry forever. "The only thing I like better than saying is hearing," he said, "or reading." In his glance at the Waylord there was a signal or challenge, heavier than the words themselves. But then, reading was a heavy word, in our city under the Alds.

"This was a good house for poetry, once," my lord said. "Will you have a little more fish, Gry Barre? Ista! Are you coming or not, woman?"

Ista likes it when he raises his voice, when he orders her to sit and eat. She bustled in at once, bobbed to the guests, and, as soon as she had blessed her bread, asked, "What's Gudit going on about, about a lion?"

"It's in the wagon," Gudit said. "I told you, you godless fool. Don't go meddle with that wagon, I said. You didn't, did you?"

"Of course I did nothing of the sort." Offended by Gudit's coarseness and his loud voice, Ista became ladylike, almost mincing. "A lion is nothing to me. Will it be staying in the wagon, then?"

"She'll be best staying with us, if it won't disturb the household," Gry said, but seeing the sensation this caused in Sosta and Bomi and possibly Ista, she added quickly, "But maybe it's better she sleeps in the wagon."

"That sounds cramped. May we meet our other guest.?" said the Waylord. I had never seen him like this, genial, forceful. I was seeing Ista's Waylord of the good days. "Has she had her dinner? Please, bring her in."

"Ohhh," Sosta said faintly.

"'Twon't be you she eats, Sos," Ista said. "More likely she'd fancy a bit of fish?" She was not going to be overawed by any lion. "I kept out the head, just for broth you know. She's more than welcome to it."

"I thank you, Ista, but she ate early this morning," Gry said. "And tomorrow's her fasting day. A fat lion is a terrible thing to see."

"I have no doubt," said Ista primly.

Gry excused herself and presently came in with her halflion, led on a short leash. The animal was the size of a large dog but very different in shape and gait—a cat, long-bodied yet compact, lithe, smooth, long-tailed, with the short face and forward-looking jewel eyes of a cat, and a pace between slouching and majestic. She was sand-colored, tawny. The hairs round her face were lighter, long and fine, and the short fur round the mouth and under the chin was white. The long tail ended in a little tawny plume. I was half scared half enchanted. The halflion sat down on her haunches, looked all around at us, opened her mouth to show a broad pink tongue and fearsome white teeth in a yawn, closed her mouth, closed her great topaz eyes, and purred. It was a loud, rumbling, deliberate purr.

"Aw," Bomi said. "Can I pet her?"

And I followed Bomi. The lion's fur was lovely, deep and thick. When you scratched around her round, neat ears she leaned into your hand and the purr deepened.

Gry led her to the Waylord. Shetar sat down beside his chair and he put his hand out for her to sniff. She sniffed it thoroughly and then looked up at him, not with the long dog gaze: one keen cat glance. He put his hand on her head. She sat there with half-shut eyes, purring, and I saw the big talons of her forepaws working in and out gently against the slate floor.

5

When dinner was done, the Waylord invited our guests to come with him to his apartments, glancing at me to assure me I was welcome. We made our way at the slow pace of his lameness back through the corridors and past the deserted rooms and inner courts. We sat in the back gallery. The evening light was fading in the windows.

"I think we have a good deal to talk about," the Waylord said to his guests. He looked at them both, and the flash of opal fire was in his eyes. "Gry Barre says that you came to Ansul in part to find me. And Memer told me that her meeting with you was blessed by Lero. I am sure of that blessing. But may I ask why you sought me?"

"May I tell you all the story?" Caspro asked.

The Waylord laughed and said, "'Shall I allow the sun to shine, or permit the river to run?'" That is what Raniu said when the great harper Moro asked him if he might play his harp in the temple.

Caspro began hesitantly. "Because of what books were to me when I was a boy—because what was written was a light—a light in darkness to me—" He paused. "Then, when I came down to the cities and began to learn how much there was to be learned, I was half in despair—"

"You were a calf in clover," Gry said.

"Well, yes, that too." We all laughed, and he went on more easily. "At any rate, as I see it, making poetry is the least of what I do. Finding what other makers made, speaking it, printing it, recovering it from neglect or oblivion, relighting the light of the word—this is the chief work of my life. So when I'm not earning my living in the marketplace, I'm in the library or the book-dealer's stall or the scholar's den, asking about books and writings, learning about forgotten makers, those known only in their city or country. And everywhere I've been in Bendraman, Urdile, the City States, Vadalva, in every university or library or marketplace, the wisest, most learned people speak of the learning of Ansul and the Library of Ansul."

"In the past tense," said the Waylord.

"Waylord, I work with what's lost, buried, hidden. Lost by time and ill chance, maybe, or hidden from destruction, from the prejudice of a ruler or a priest. In the foundations of the old council halls of Mesun in Urdile we found the earliest of all the testaments of the Life of Raniu, written on calfskin and sealed in an unmarked vault five hundred years ago, in the reign of the tyrant Terensa. He drove out teachers and destroyed temples and writings throughout the city. He ruled for forty years. The Alds have ruled Ansul only seventeen years."

"Memer's lifetime," the Waylord said. "A lot can be lost in seventeen years. A generation learns that knowledge is punished and safety lies in ignorance. The next generation doesn't know they're ignorant, because they don't know what knowledge was. Those who came after Terensa in Mesun didn't dig up the buried writings. They didn't know of them."

"A rumor survived," Caspro said.

"There are always rumors."

"I follow them."

"Was it some particular rumor that brought you here? The name of a lost maker, a lost poem?"

"Mostly the reputation of Ansul as the center of learning and of writing in all the Western Shore. What most drew me was the tale—the rumor—of a great library that was here even before the founding of the University of Ansul. In it were said to be writings from the days when we still spoke Aritan, and had some memory of the lands beyond the desert, from which we came. Perhaps there were even books brought from the Sunrise, across the desert, in the beginning of our history. I have longed for years to come here, to ask, to seek any knowledge of that library!"

The Waylord said nothing, made no response.

"I know that my quest puts me in some danger. It puts in worse danger every man I speak to about it—even if he doesn't answer."

The Waylord nodded slightly. His face was expressionless.

"I know the Alds," Caspro said. "We lived among them some while."

"That took courage."

"Less than I ask of you."

I could hardly bear it, the suppressed passion in both of them, the fire and fear and challenge. I wanted to say to them, shout at them, "Trust each other! Can't you trust each other?" and knew it was foolish, childish, and wanted to cry.

Gry Barre nudged Shetar. The lion got up and lounged over to me and sat on her haunches in her peaceable, sleepy fashion right in front of my legs, so that I could scratch her ears. I did that, and the touch soothed me. Gry looked at us. She didn't quite wink, but I thought I read in her look something like, "They're men; this is the only way they know how to do it."

The Waylord had risen to fetch a candle. I should have done that, but he was already bringing the heavy iron candlestick to the table, awkwardly, having little grip in his hands. Gry lit the candle with the strike-box. The light bloomed, making the rest of the room dark and our faces vivid against the darkness and the faint glimmer of the windows. Shetar gave a grunt and sank down at my feet in picture-book lion pose, front paws outstretched, eyes gazing at the light.

"I revised my opinion of courage," the Waylord said, "while I was in the Gand's prison. I thought it was something a man owed himself, like pride or self-respect. I learned that we owe it only to the gods." His gaze too was on the steady yellow flame of the candle.

Caspro did not speak.

"I was taken there," he went on, "because they, like you, had heard tales and rumors. Tales and rumors that brought them here. To Ansul. Do you know why the Alds invaded my country and laid siege to my city?"

"I thought greed, envy of your green lands."

"Why this green land? Vadalva is closer, and as un-warlike as we are. You say you lived a while in Asudar. Tell me, then, if I go astray: The Alds have a king, a Gand of Gands, who is also the high priest of Atth. His power is great. All slaves are his to claim. He commands the armies."

Caspro nodded.

"The name of this priest-king who took the throne of Asudar thirty years ago is Dorid. He believes that Atth wishes him to combat evil on earth. Atth is what the Alds call the only god they acknowledge; it means Lord. The true name of Atth is not spoken. All good belongs to Atth. But there is a great power of evil, and it is called Obatth, the Other Lord."

Again Caspro nodded.

The Waylord asked, "Do you know the story of the Thousand True Men?"

"The Alds say that if a thousand true soldiers could be gathered together, Obatth could be vanquished forever. Or, some say, a hundred."

"And some say ten," said Gry.

The Waylord smiled, though not with much cheer. "I like that version," he said. "Did they say where these true men were to meet?"

"No." Caspro looked at Gry, who also shook her head.

"Well, the story was told me in a manner that made it hard to forget. It was the son of our Gand here, Iddor son of Ioratth, who told it to me. Many times." He paused for a while and then said, very low, "I don't like to speak it here in this house. Forgive me. This is what I was told: All light and righteousness belong to Atth, the Burning God, whose power is visible in the sun. There is nothing sacred outside the Fire of Atth. All fire is holy for his sake. The moon they despise, calling it the slave, the witch. The earth is a place of exile. A foul place, unholy, infested by demons, utterly cold and dark but for the light and warmth reflected on it by the sun of Atth. And on earth Obatth, the enemy of Atth, is manifest—in the evil fortunes of men, and the evil men do, and the evil spirits they worship. And most of all, in one certain place.

"In that place, all the foulness of earth gathers together, darkness drawing inward into earth, the reverse of light shining out from the sun. It is an anti-sun that eats light. It is black, wet, cold, vile. As the sun is being, it is unbeing. A void, a great hole in the earth, deep beyond depth. It is called the Night Mouth.

"And it is there that the Thousand True Men are to gather to bear the Fire of Atth into the kingdom of Obatth. They will enter the darkness, make war on the Other Lord, and destroy him. Then they will come forth with their banners of flame, and all earth will burn as bright as the sun both night and day. All demons and shadows will be driven into outer darkness beyond the stars. And the sons of Asudar will rule over all men in righteousness, worshipping the Burning God."

The Waylord's voice was monotonous and rough, scarcely audible, and I saw that his hands were clenched one in the other.

"Old traditions of Asudar said that the Night Mouth was in the west, on the coast. Dorid the priest-king in his city Medron ordered the lesser priests of Atth to find this center of darkness. Some thought the mountain Sul itself contained the Night Mouth, but the others said no: Sul, they said, is a volcano, it contains fire and so is sacred to Atth. Opposite it—across the water from it—would be the dark place, the bottomless well of evil. The Night Mouth would be found here, in the city of Ansul.

"It is supposed to be guarded by a wizard of terrible powers, who can summon armies of evil spirits, the foul emanations of the earth. And the gods of the heathen will gather to defend it, the thousand false gods.

"So the armies of Asudar were sent to take the country and city of Ansul by force and find the Night Mouth. When it is found, King Dorid will send the Thousand True Men into it with banners of fire, a burning army. Light will banish darkness, and good will vanquish evil."

He drew a harsh breath. He bit his lips and looked away from the candle, hiding his face in shadow.

"I never heard that tale," Caspro said. His own voice was shaken. He spoke, I think, to give the Waylord time to recover himself. "Tales of how earth is the battlefield of Atth and Obatth, yes. An unending war. And people in the desert knew there was a mountain called Sul far in the west, an uncanny place, but only because it's surrounded by the sea. Salt water they call the curse of Obatth ... This tale of the Night Mouth must be a secret knowledge. Priestly lore."

"Useful to justify an invasion," said Gry.

"If so, it would be more widely known, wouldn't it? Do the common soldiers know the story, Waylord?"

"I don't know. I know they were told to search for certain things. Certain houses. Caves, wizards, idols, books ... There are many caves in the hills above the city. And idols and books—there was no end of them in Ansul. The soldiers were diligent."

We were all silent for a while.

"How are you governed?" Gry asked.

There was something in her voice; it wasn't as beautiful as her husband's voice, but there was something in it that relieved me, quieted me, the way touching the lion's fur did. When the Waylord answered her he sounded a little less strained.

"We're enslaved, not governed. The Gand Ioratth and his officers are all the law. For the most part, we of Ansul hold the city together by doing things as we used to do them, as best we can, while the Alds exact tribute, and punish blasphemy, and hold aloof. They've lived here as soldiers in a garrison ever since they took the city. They sent no colonists. They brought no women. They don't want to live here. They hate it, land and city and sea. The earth itself is a place of exile to them, and this is the worst of it."

In the silence that followed, Shetar raised her head from her paws, said, "Rrrawow!" in a deep, throaty voice, and yawned mightily.

"You're right," Gry said to her. She and Caspro rose to say good night, thanking the Waylord for his hospitality, and thanking me too.

I gave her an oil lamp with a mica shade to light their way to their room. I saw that both she and her husband touched the god-niche by the door as they left the room. I watched them go down the corridor side by side, his hand on her shoulder, the lion pacing softly after them and the glimmer of the lamp running along the bare stone walls.

I turned back to see the Waylord gazing at the candle, his face very weary. I thought how alone he was. His friends came and went again, and here he must stay. I had thought of his solitude as his choice, his nature, maybe because it came so natural to me. But he had no choice.

He looked up at me. "What have you brought to Galvamand?" he said.

I was frightened by his tone. I said at last, "Friends, I think."

"Oh yes. Powerful friends, Memer."

"Waylord—"

"Well?"

"This Night Mouth, this Obatth. Did they come here to the house, to Galvamand—the redhats, the soldiers—did they take you to prison, because they thought—?"

He didn't answer for a while. He sat stiffly, his shoulders hunched, as he did when in pain. "Yes," he said.

"But is it—is there anything here—?"

I didn't know what I was asking, but he did. He looked up at me, a fierce look. "What they seek is theirs. It's in their hearts, not ours. This house hides no evil. They bring their darkness with them. They will never know what is in the heart of this house. They will not look, they will not see. That door will never open to them. You needn't fear, Memer. You can't betray it. I tried. I tried to betray it. Over and over. But the gods of my house and the shadows of my dead forgave me before I could do it. They wouldn't let me do it. All the hands of all the givers of dreams were on my mouth."

I was very frightened now. He had never spoken of the torture. He was clenched and hunched and trembling. I wanted to go to him but did not dare.

He made a slight gesture and whispered, "Go on. Go to bed, child."

I went forward and put my hand on his.

"I'm all right," he said. "Listen. You did right to bring them here. You brought blessing. Always, Memer. Now go on."

I had to leave him sitting there, shaking, alone.

I was tired, it had been a long day, an immense day, but I could not go to bed. I went to the wall under the hill and opened the door in it with the words written in air and went into the secret room.

As I went into it, all at once I was afraid. My heart went cold, my hair stirred on my neck.

That horrible image of a black sun that sucked out warmth and light from the world—it was like a hole in my mind, now, sucking meaning out, leaving nothing but cold and emptiness.

I had always been afraid of the far end of this long, strange room stretching off into darkness. I had kept away from the shadow end, turned my back on it, not thought about it, told myself, "That's something I'll understand later." Now it was later. Now I had to understand what my house was built on.

But all I had to make understanding out of was that tale of a Night Mouth, that hateful image from the people I hated.

And Orrec Caspro's tale. A library, he had said. A great library. The greatest in the world. A place of learning, of the light of the mind.

I could not even look at the shadow end of the room. I wasn't ready yet for that, I had to gather my strength. I went to the table, the one I used to build houses under and pretend to be a bear cub in it's den. I set down the lamp and laid my hands palm down on the table, pressing them hard on the smooth wood, to feel it's smoothness, it's solidity. It was there.

There was a book on it.

The two of us always returned books to the shelves before we left the room, an old habit of order the Waylord had from his mother, who had been his teacher as he was mine. I didn't recognise this book. It didn't look old. It must be one of those that people had brought him secretly to be hidden away, to be saved from the destruction of Atth. Occupied with learning all I could of the great makers of the past and the knowledge they had gathered, I had scarcely looked yet at the shelves that held those random, rescued, newer books. The Waylord must have set this one out for me while I went back to the market with Gry.

I opened it and saw it was printed, with the metal letters they use now in Bendraman and Urdile, which make it easy to make a thousand copies of a book. I read the title: Chaos and Spirit: The Cosmogonies, and under that the name Orrec Caspro, and under that the name of the printers, Berre and Holaven of Derris Water in Bendraman. On the next page were only the words,"Made in honor and dear remembrance of Melle Aulitta of Caspromant."

I sat down, facing the dark end of the room, for if I couldn't look at it neither could I turn my back on it. I drew the lamp closer to the book and began to read.

I woke there in the grey of early morning, the lamp dead, my head on the open book. I was chilled to the bone. My hands were so stiff I could barely write the letters on the air to leave the room.

I ran to the kitchen and all but crawled into the fireplace trying to get warm. Ista scolded and Sosta chattered but I didn't listen. The great words of the poem were running in my head like waves, like flights of pelicans over the waves. I couldn't hear or see or feel anything but them.

Ista was really worried about me. She gave me a cup of hot milk and said, "Drink this, you fool girl, what are you taking sick for now? With guests in the house? Drink it up!" I drank it and thanked her and went to my room, where I fell on the bed and slept like a stone till late in the morning.

I found Gry and her husband in the stableyard, with the lion and the horses and Gudit and Sosta. Sosta was neglecting her sewing to swoon around Caspro, Gudit was saddling the tall red horse, and Gry and Caspro were arguing. They weren't angry with each other, but they weren't in agreement. Lero was not in their hearts, as we say. "You can't possibly go there by yourself," Gry was saying, and he was saying, "You can't possibly go there with me," and it was not the first time either had said it.

He turned to me. For a moment I felt almost as swoony as Sosta, thinking that this was the man who had made the poem that I had read all night and that had remade my soul. That confusion went away at once. This was Orrec Caspro all right, only not the poet Caspro but the man Orrec, a worried man arguing with his wife, a man who took everything terribly seriously, our guest, whom I liked. "You can tell us, Memer," he said. "People saw Gry in the marketplace yesterday, saw her with Shetar—hundreds of people—isn't that true.?"

"Of course it is," Gry said before I could speak. "But nobody saw inside the wagon! Did they, Memer?"

"Yes," I said to him, and "I don't think so," to her.

"So," she said, "your wife hid in the wagon in the marketplace, and now stays indoors in the house, like a virtuous woman. And your servant the lion trainer emerges from the wagon and comes with you to the Palace."

He was obstinately shaking his head.

"Orrec, I travelled as a man with you for two months all over Asudar! What on earth makes it impossible now?"

"You'll be recognised. They saw you, Gry. They saw you as a woman."

"All unbelievers look alike. And the Alds don't see women, anyhow."

"They see women with lions who frighten their horses!"

"Orrec, I am coming with you."

He was so distressed that she went to him and held him, pleading and reassuring. "You know nobody in Asudar ever saw I was a woman except that old witch at the oasis, and she laughed about it. Remember? They won't know, they won't see, they can't see. I will not let you go alone. I can't. You can't. You need Shetar. And Shetar needs me. Let me go dress now—there's plenty of time. I won't ride, you ride and we'll walk with you, there'll be plenty of time. Won't there, Memer? How far is it to the Palace?"

"Four street crossings and three bridges."

"See? I'll be back in no time. Don't let him go without me!" she said to me and Gudit and Sosta and perhaps to the horse, and she ran off to the back of the house, Shetar loping along with her.

Orrec walked to the gateway of the court and stood there straight and stiff, his back turned to us all. I felt sorry for him.

"Stands to reason," Gudit said. "Murderous snakes they are in that Palace what they call it. Our Council House it was. Get over there, you!" The tall red horse looked at him with mild reproach and moved politely to the left.

"What a beauty you are," I said to the horse, for he was. I patted his neck. "Brandy?"

"Branty," Orrec said, coming back to us with an air of dignified defeat that you could see went right to Sosta's heart.

"Ohhh," she said to Orrec, and then trying to cover it up, "oh, can I, can I get you a..." but she couldn't think of anything to get him.

"He's a good old fellow," Orrec said, taking up Branty's reins. He made as if to mount, but Gudit said, "Hold on, wait a minute, have to look to the cinch here," getting between him and the horse and throwing the stirrup up over the saddle.

Orrec gave up, and stood as patiently as the horse.

"Have you had him a long time?" I asked, trying to make conversation and feeling as foolish as Sosta.

"He's well over twenty. Time he had a rest from travelling. And Star as well." He smiled a little sadly. "We left the Uplands together—Branty and me, Star and Gry. And Coaly. Our dog. A good dog. Gry trained her."

That got Gudit started off on the followhounds that used to live at Galvamand and he was still talking about them when Gry reappeared. She wore breeches and a rough tunic. Men in Ansul wear their hair long, tied back, so she had merely combed out her braid and put on a worn black velvet cap. She had somehow darkened or roughened her chin. She had become a fellow of twenty-five or so, quick-eyed, shy, and sullen. "So, are we ready?" she said, and her soft, burry voice had changed, too, becoming hoarse.

Sosta was staring at her, rapt. "Who are you?" she asked.

Gry rolled her eyes and said, "Chy the lion tamer. So, Orrec?"

He gazed at her, shrugged, laughed a little, and swung up onto the horse. "Come on, then!" he said and set right off, not looking back. She and the lion followed behind him. She looked back at me as they passed through the gate, and winked.

"But where did he come from?" Sosta asked.

"Merciful Ennu go with them, that nest of murderous rats and snakes they're going to," Gudit said hollowly, shuffling into the stable.

I went in to look after the gods and the ancestors and find out what Ista needed from the market.

6

Gudit told me that a messenger had come that morning from the Council House, which the Alds called the Palace of the Gand, to say Orrec Caspro was to wait upon the Gand before midday. Not saying please or why or anything, of course. So they went, and so we waited. It was late enough when they came back that I'd had plenty of time to worry. I was out sitting on the edge of the dry basin of the Oracle Fountain in front of the house when I saw them coming along our street from the south, Orrec afoot leading the horse, Chy the lion tamer beside him, and the lion padding along behind with a bored expression. I ran to meet them. "It went well, it went well," Orrec said, and Chy said, "Well enough."

Gudit was at the stableyard gate to take Branty—having horses in the stable was such joy to him he wouldn't let anybody else look after them for a moment—and Chy said to me, "Come up with us." In the Master's room, though she hadn't yet changed her clothes or washed her face, she became Gry again. I asked if they were hungry, but they said no, the Gand had given them food and drink. "Did they let you under the roof?" I asked. "Did they let Shetar in?" I didn't want to be curious about anything the Alds did, but I was. Nobody I knew had ever been inside the Council House or the barracks or seen how the Gand and the Alds lived there, for all of Council Hill was always guarded and swarming with soldiers.

"Tell Memer about it while I get out of these clothes," Gry said, and Orrec told me, making a tale of it; he couldn't help it.

The Alds had set up tents as well as barracks, tents of the fashion they use travelling in their deserts. The tent in Council Square was high and very large, as large as a big house, all of red cloth with golden trimming and banners. It appeared, said Orrec, that the Gand actually governed from this tent rather than from the Council House, at least now that the rains had ceased. The tent would be sumptuously furnished, and would have movable, carved screens making rooms of a kind within it—Orrec had been made welcome in such great tents in his travels in Asudar. But here he was not brought under even that cloth roof. He was invited to sit on a light folding stool on a carpet not far from the open doorway of the tent.

Branty had been taken to the stables by a groom who handled him as if he were made of glass. The lion tamer and the lion stood some yards behind Orrec, with Ald officers guarding them. They, like Orrec, were offered paper parasols to protect them from the sun. "I got one on account of Shetar," Gry called to us from the dressing room. "They respect lions. But they'll throw away the parasols, because we used them and we're unclean."

They were offered refreshments at once, and a bowl of water was brought for Shetar. After they had waited about half an hour, the Gand emerged from the tent with a retinue of courtiers and officers. He greeted Orrec most graciously, calling him prince of poets and welcoming him to Asudar.

"Asudar!" I burst out. "This is Ansul!" Then I apologised for interrupting.

"Where the Ald is is the desert," Orrec said mildly; I don't know whether they were his own words or an Ald saying.

The Gand Ioratth, he said, was a man of sixty or more, splendidly dressed in robes of linen inwoven with gold thread in the fashion of Asudar, with the wide, peaked hat that only Ald noblemen can wear. His manners were affable and his talk was shrewd and lively. He sat with Orrec and conversed about poetry: at first they spoke of the great epics of Asudar, but he also wanted to know about what he called the western makers. His interest was real, his questions intelligent. He invited Orrec to come regularly to the Palace to recite from his own work and that of other makers. It would, he said, give him and his court much pleasure and instruction. He spoke as one prince to another, inviting, not ordering.

Some of the courtiers and officers joined in the conversation after a while, and like the Gand showed a thorough knowledge of their own epics and a curiosity, even a hunger, to hear poetry and story. They complimented Orrec, saying he was a fountain in the desert to them.

Others were less friendly. The Gand's son, Iddor, kept noticeably apart, paying no attention to the talk about poetry, standing inside the open tent with a group of priests and officers and chatting with them, until they grew so noisy that the Gand silenced them with a reproof. After that Iddor scowled and said nothing.

The Gand asked that the lion be brought to him, so Chy obliged, and Shetar did her useful trick, as Orrec called it: facing the Gand, she stretched out her front paws and bowed her head down between them, as cats do when they stretch—"doing obeisance." This pleased everybody very much, and Shetar had to do it several times, which was fine with her, since she got a small treat each time, even though it was her fasting day. Iddor came forward and wanted to play with her, dangling his feathered cap, which she ignored, and asking how strong she was, did she kill live prey, had she bitten people, had she killed a man, and so on. Chy the lion tamer answered all his questions respectfully, and had Shetar do obeisance to him. But Shetar yawned at him after doing a rather perfunctory bow.

"An unbeliever should not be permitted to keep a lion of Asudar," Iddor said to his father, who replied, "But who will take the lion from the master of the lion?"—evidently a proverb, neatly applied. At that, Iddor started to tease Shetar, provoking her by shouting and starting at her as if in attack. Shetar ignored him absolutely. The Gand, when he realised what his son was doing, stood up in a rage, told him he was shaming the hospitality of his house and offending the majesty of the lion, and ordered him to leave.

"The majesty of the lion," Gry repeated, sitting down with us at last, her face clean, and dressed now in her silk shirt and trousers—"I like that."

"But I don't like what went on between the Gand and his son," Orrec said. "A snake's nest, as Gudit said. It will take careful treading. The Gand, though, he's a very interesting man."

He's the tyrant that ruined and enslaved us, I thought, but didn't say.

"The Waylord is right," Orrec went on. "The Alds are camped in Ansul like soldiers on the march. They seem amazingly ignorant of how people live here, who they are, what they do. And the Gand is bored with ignorance. I think he's seen that he'll probably finish out his life here and might as well make the best of it. But on the other hand, the people of the city don't know anything about the Alds."

"Why should we?" I said. I couldn't stop myself.

"We say in the Uplands, it takes a mouse to really know the cat," said Gry.

"I don't want to know people who spit on my gods and call us unclean. I call them filth. Look—look at my lord! Look what they did to him! Do you think he was born with his hands broken?"

"Ah, Memer," Gry said, and she reached out to me, but I pulled away. I said, "You can go to what they call their palace and eat their food if you like and tell them your poetry, but I'd kill every Ald in Ansul if I could."

Then I turned away and broke into tears, because I had ruined everything and didn't deserve their confidence.

I tried to leave the room, but Orrec stopped me.

"Memer, listen," he said, "listen. Forgive our ignorance. We are your guests. We ask your pardon."

That brought me out of my stupid crying. I wiped my eyes and said, "I'm sorry."

"Sorry, sorry," Gry whispered, and I let her take my hand and sit down with me on the windowseat. "We know so little. Of you, of your lord, of Ansul. But I know as you do that we were brought together here by more than chance."

"By Lero," I said.

"By a horse, and a lion, and Lero," she said. "I will trust you, Memer."

"I will trust you," I said to them both.

"Tell us who you are, then. We need to know one another! Tell us who the Waylord is—or what he was, before the Alds came. Was he the lord of the city?"

"We didn't have any lords."

I tried to pull myself together to answer properly, as I did when the Waylord asked me, "A little further, please, Memer?" I said, "We elected a council to govern the city. All the cities on the Ansul Coast did. The citizens voted for the councillors. And the councils named the waylords. Waylords travelled among the cities and arranged trade so that the towns and the cities got what they needed from each other. And they kept merchants from cheating and usury, if they could."

"It's not a hereditary title, then?"

I shook my head. "You were a waylord for ten years. And ten more if your council named you again. Then somebody else took over. Anybody could be a waylord. But you had to have money of your own or from your city. You had to entertain the merchants and the factors and the other waylords, and travel all the time—even down into Sundraman, to talk with the silk merchants and the government there. It cost a lot. But Galvamand was a rich house, then. And people of the city helped. It was an honor, a great honor, being a waylord. So we still call him that. In honor. Although it means nothing now."

I almost broke out in tears again. My weakness, my lack of control, scared me and made me angry, and the anger helped steady me.

"All that was before I was born. I only know it because people have told me and I've read the histories."

Then my breath went out of me as if I had been hit in the stomach, and I sat paralysed. The habit of my lifetime had hold of me: I should not speak of reading, I should never say to anyone outside my household that I had read something in a book.

But Orrec and Gry, of course, didn't even notice. To them it was perfectly natural. They nodded. They asked me to go on.

I wasn't sure what I should and should not tell them, now. "People like me are called siege brats," I said. I pulled at my pale, fine, crinkly hair. I wanted them to know what I was but I didn't want to speak of my mother being raped. "You can see ... When the Alds took the city. That was when ... But we drove them out again, and kept them out almost a year. We can fight. We don't make wars, but we can fight. But then the new army came from Asudar, twice as many men, and broke into the city. And they took the Waylord to prison and wrecked Galvamand. They tore down the university and threw the books into the canals and the sea. They drowned people in the canals and stoned them to death and buried them alive. The Waylord's mother, Eleyo Galva—"

She had lived in this room. She had been here when the soldiers broke into the house. I could not go on.

We were all silent.

Shetar paced by, lashing her tail. I reached out to her, to get away from what I'd been talking about, but she ignored me. Her mouth was half open and she looked somehow more lionish than usual.

"She'll be in a bad mood all night," Gry said. "She got those rewards, at the Palace, and it reminded her that she hasn't had a meal."

"What does she eat?"

"Hapless goat, mostly," Orrec said.

"Can she ever hunt?"

"She doesn't really know how," Gry said. "Her mother would have taught her. Halflions hunt in a clan, like wolves. That's why she tolerates us. We're her family."

Shetar made a long, groaning, growling, singsong remark and paced down the long room again.

"Memer, if it isn't too hard for you to talk about it?" Orrec began, and when I shook my head—"You said they destroyed the library of the university.? Entirely?" I could tell he hoped I would deny it.

"The soldiers tried to tear down the library building, but it was stone and well built, so they broke the windows and wrecked the rooms, and brought the books out. They didn't want to touch them, they made citizens carry them and load them on carts and haul them to the canal and dump them in. There were so many books they piled up on the bottom of the canal and began to choke it, so they made people cart them down to the harbor. And unload the books and dump them off the piers. If they didn't sink right away they pushed people into the water after them. Once I saw a—" but this time I managed to stop myself, before I said that I had seen a book that had been salvaged from the sea.

It was in the secret room now, one of the northern scrollbooks, written on coated linen and rolled around wooden rods. The person who had found it cast up on the beach dried it out and brought it here. Though it had been weeks in the water, the beautiful writing could still be read. The Waylord showed it to me when he was working on it to restore the damaged text.

But I could not talk about the books, the old books or the rescued books, in the secret room. Not even to Gry and Orrec.

It was safe, I hoped, to talk about ancient times, and I said, "The university used to be here, long ago, in Galvamand."

Orrec asked, and I told him what I knew, mostly as I had heard it from the Waylord, of the four great households of the city of Ansul: Cam, Gelb, Galva, Actamo. From earliest times they were the wealthiest families, with the most power in the Council. They built the finest houses and temples, paid for public rites and festivals, and gathered artists and makers, scholars and philosophers, architects and musicians to live and work in their houses. That was when people began to call the city Ansul the Wise and Beautiful.

The Galvas had always lived here on the first rise of the hill above the river and the harbor, in the Oracle House.

"There was an oracle here?" Orrec asked.

I hesitated. I had given little thought to what the word meant until yesterday, the morning of the day Gry and Orrec came, as I stood by the dry basin of the fountain—the Oracle Fountain.

"I don't know," I said. I started to say more, and did not. It was strange. Why had I never wondered why Galvamand was called the Oracle House? I did not even know what the oracle was, yet knew I must not speak of it—the way I knew, had always known, that I must not speak of the secret room. It was as if a hand was laid across my lips.

I thought then of what the Waylord had said last night, "The hands of all the givers of dreams were on my mouth." That frightened me.

They saw that I was confused and tongue-tied. Orrec changed the subject, asking about the house, and soon got me to telling it's story again.

In those old days, the Galvas prospered, and both the house and the household grew, drawing to it people of art and learning and craft, and especially scholars and makers of poetry and tales. People came from all Ansul and even from other lands to hear them, learn from them, work with them. So over the years the university grew up here at Galvamand. All this back part of the house, both the upper and lower floors, had been apartments and classrooms and workrooms and libraries; there had been other buildings off the outer courts;and houses farther back on the hilltop had been hostels and domiciles for students and masters, workshops for artists and builders.

The poet Denios came here from Urdile when he was a young man. Maybe he had studied in the gallery where we sat last night, for that had been part of the Library of Galvamand.

In the course of time, Luck, the god we call the Deaf One, turned away from the households of Cam, Gelb, and Actamo. As their wealth and well-being declined, their rivalry with Galva became rancorous. Partly in spite and envy, though they called it public spirit, they persuaded the Council to claim the university and it's library for the city, taking it away from Galvamand. The Galvas accepted the ruling of the Council, though they warned that the old site was a sacred one and the new site might not be so blessed. The city built new buildings for the university down nearer the harbor. Almost all the great library that had been gathered here over the centuries was moved there. And I told Gry and Orrec what the Waylord had told me: "When they began to take the books out of Galvamand, the Oracle Fountain in the forecourt began to fail. Little by little, as the books were taken out of the house, the water ceased to run. When they were done, it dried up entirely. It hasn't run for two hundred years..."

They opened the new university with ceremonies and festivals, and students and scholars came; but it was never so famous, so much visited, as the old Library of Galvamand. And then after two centuries the desert people came and tore down the stones, dumped the books into the canals and the sea, buried them in the mud.

Orrec listened to my story with his head in his hands.

"Nothing was left here at Galvamand?" Gry asked.

"Some books," I said uncomfortably. "But when the siege was broken the Ald soldiers came here right away, even before they went to the university. Looking for that ... that place they believe in. They tore out the wooden parts of the house, and took the books, the furnishings—Whatever they found they took." I was telling the truth, but I had a strong sense that Gry was aware that it wasn't the whole truth.

"This is terrible—terrible," Orrec said, standing up. "I know the Alds think writing is an evil thing—but to destroy—to waste—" He was grieved and upset beyond words. He strode off down the room and stood at the western windows, where over the roofs of Galvamand and the lower city white Sul floated on the mist above the straits.

Gry went to Shetar and clipped the leash to her collar. "Come on," she said softly to me. "She needs a walk."

"I'm sorry," I said, following her, despairing again at having so distressed Orrec. Everything I said was wrong. It was a day without Ennu, without any blessing.

"Was it you that destroyed the books?"

"No. But I wish—"

"If wishes were horses!" said Gry. "Tell me, is there anywhere I could let Shetar off the leash to run? She won't attack if I'm anywhere near her, but it's less worrisome to let her go where there aren't people around."

"The old park," I said, and we went there. It is just above and east of the house, a broad gully in the hillside over the river where the Embankments divide it into the four canals. Trees grow thick on the slopes of the old park. The Alds never go there; they don't like trees. Nobody much goes there except children hunting rabbits or quail to get a bit of meat for their family.

I showed Gry what they call Denios' Fountain, near the entrance, and Shetar had a long drink from the basin.

There was not a soul about, and Gry let the lion off the leash. She bounded off, but not far, and kept coming back to us. Evidently she didn't much like the trees either, and didn't want to go far into the thick, neglected undergrowth. She spent a long time sharpening her claws on one tree, then another, and sniffed exhaustively on the tracks of some creature all round a great thicket of brambles. The farthest she got from us was in pursuit of a butterfly, which led her leaping and batting at it down a steep dark path. After she'd been out of sight around a bend for a while, Gry gave a little purring call. In a moment the lion reappeared, loping up at us through the shadows. Gry touched Shetar's head, and she followed us as we started wandering slowly back up through the woods.

"What a wonderful gift," I said, "to be able to call animals to you."

"Depends on what you use it for," Gry said. "It certainly came in handy when we came down out of the Uplands and had to make a living. I trained horses while Orrec got his learning. I like that work ... I admire the way the Alds train their horses. For them, beating your horse is worse than beating your wife." She gave a little snort.

"How could you stand living in Asudar so long? Weren't you—didn't you get angry at them?"

"I didn't have the cause for anger you have," she said. "It was a little like living with wild animals—predators. They're dangerous, and not reasonable, by our standards. They make life hard. I felt sorry for the Ald men."

I said nothing.

"They're like stallions or buck rabbits," she went on, reflectively. "Never a moment they're not anxious about a rival male, or a female getting loose. They're never free. They fill their world with enemies ... But they're brave, and keep their word, and honor the guest. Like my people of the Uplands. I liked them well enough. I couldn't get to know any women, though, because I was pretending to be a man and had to keep away from them. That was tiresome."

"I hate everything about them," I said. "I can't help it."

"Of course you can't help it. What you've told us—how could you see them except as hateful?"

"I don't want to see them any other way," I said.

I don't believe Gry ever didn't hear what people said, but sometimes she ignored it. She walked on a little and then turned to me on the path with a sudden grin. "Listen, Memer! Why don't you come with us to the Palace.? Second groom. You make a fine boy. Fooled me completely. Would you like to? It's interesting. The Gand's a kind of king, how many chances do you get to meet a king? And you can hear Orrec—he's going to tell them the Cosmogonies. That could be risky, they're so stuck on Atth being the one and only god. But the Gand was asking him for it yesterday."

I only shook my head. I longed to hear Orrec speak that poem, but not among a lot of Alds. I wouldn't say any more about how I hated them, but I certainly wasn't going to go be polite and meek and slavish to them.

After dinner the next day, though, Gry brought up the idea again. Evidently she had talked Orrec into it, for he made no objection;and to my dismay, the Waylord didn't either. He asked how dangerous they thought it might be. When they both said they trusted the Alds' law of hospitality, he said only, "The hospitality they showed me wasn't of a kind I want Memer to know. But that our people and theirs know so little of one another, after so many years—that is shameful. For us as well as for them." He looked at me thoughtfully. "And Memer is a very quick learner."

I wanted to protest, to say I refused to go anywhere near the Alds, I didn't want to learn anything from them or about them. But that would be wilful ignorance, a thing the Waylord despised. And also it would sound like cowardice. If Orrec and Gry were willing to risk going to the Palace, how could I refuse?

The idea was more frightening the more I thought about it. Yet I was curious about the Palace, the Alds, as Orrec and Gry talked about them. Everything had been the same in my life for so long that I'd wondered if it would always be the same—the housework, the market;the empty rooms of Galvamand, the secret room and it's treasures of reading and learning, and the dark strange part of it where I dared not go;no one to teach me anything new but my dear lord, no one but him to be with, to give my love to. Now by the coming of two people the house had come alive. The ancestors were awake, were listening—the souls, the shadows, and the guardians of sill and hearth. The One Who Looks Both Ways had opened the door. I knew that. I knew that our guests had come on the path of Ennu and with Lero's blessing, and that to refuse what they offered me was to refuse the gift, the chance, the turning of the way.

"Do you want to go, Memer.?" the Waylord asked me. I knew if I protested he wouldn't insist. I shrugged, not even speaking, as if it were a matter of no importance to me if I went or not.

He looked at me searchingly. Why did he agree to send me among our enemies? And I saw why: because I could go where he could not. Even if I was a coward, I could carry his courage. He was asking me to play my part as the heir of our house.

"Yes, I'll go," I said.

That night for the first time in my life I dreamed of the man who was my father. He wore the blue cloak the soldiers wear. His hair was like mine, a dun, dull, crinkly mass too fine to comb, sheep hair. I could not see his face. He was climbing, clambering hastily over ruins, broken walls and stones, such as our city was full of. I stood in the street watching him. As he passed he looked straight at me. I could not see his face clearly, but I thought it was not a man's face but a lion's. He looked away again and climbed over a ruined wall, hurrying, as if pursued.

7

When Orrec Caspro set off the next time to entertain the Gand of the Alds of Ansul, his retinue was Chy the lion tamer, Shetar the lion, and Mem the groom.

Mem was anxious and uneasy. What if the Alds asked me to unsaddle Branty, or tried to talk groom-talk with me? They'd know in a moment that I didn't know a hock from a pastern. No fear, said Gry, they were just like Gudit, they wouldn't allow a strange boy in their stables with their prized horses. Anyhow, she'd keep me right beside her when we were at the Palace. All I had to do as Mem was walk through the streets at Branty's head, groom fashion, as if Orrec needed help managing his horse.

So I did that, feeling foolish and quite frightened. Branty was a comfort to me. He walked along, his shod hoofs ringing loud and regular on our stone-paved streets, his big head nodding up and down beside me, ears flicking forward and back; now and then he blew air out his nostrils. His big, dark eye had a kind look in it. He was old—older than I was—and had travelled over all the Western Shore. Where Orrec asked him to go he went with a noble patience. I wished I was like him.

We followed Galva Street up the low hill from Goldsmiths' Bridge to the square before the Council House. I looked at that building with a swell of pride. It is broad and tall, built of silvery-grey stone, with rows of high, delicate windows. It's dome of copper rises lightly above all the roofs of the city as Sul floats above the lower mountains. Steps go up from the great square to the terrace in front of the doors, where people used to make speeches and debate, when we governed ourselves. The Waylord had told me the terrace was so constructed that if you stood in front of the central doors and spoke only a little louder than usual your voice could be heard all over the square. But I'd never been up those steps; I'd never even walked on the square before. It belonged to the Alds, not the citizens.

In the middle of it stood the huge tent with it's red peaks and long red banners flying from the poles, almost hiding the Council House.

An officer came to meet us as we approached the entrance to the square and ordered the blue-cloaked guards to let us pass.

Men came to meet us from the stables, off to the left of the square. I held Branty while Orrec dismounted, and an elderly Ald took the reins from me and with a little tck-tck to Branty led him away. Chy the lion tamer came up next to me, with Shetar short-leashed, and we followed Orrec across the pavement. There was a carpet in front of the tent and a folding chair and a parasol for Orrec; no seats for us, but a little boy, a siege brat, a slave, handed Chy a parasol of red paper. We stood behind Orrec. Chy at once gave me the parasol to hold over the three of us, and stood with arms folded in a lofty posture. I saw that this would make sense to the Alds, who would see me as Chy's or Orrec's slave.

The Alds' slaves here at their court all wore a robe or tunic of coarse striped cloth, grey and white or dun and white. Some were Alds and some my countrymen. They were all men or boys. The women would be kept elsewhere, indoors, hidden. And none of them would be Alds.

Various courtiers in various kinds of finery came out of the tent, and several officers came up from the barracks which the Alds built above the East Canal behind the Council House, where our voting booths used to be. When at last the Gand came out of the big tent, everybody stood up. Two Ald slaves followed him; one held a huge red parasol over his head, while the other held a fan in case the Gand needed to be cooled off. It was a mild spring day, the sun mostly veiled by light clouds, a soft sea wind blowing. Seeing the slaves stand there with their silly equipment I thought how stupid the Alds were—couldn't they look around and see they didn't need parasols, or fans, or the wide-brimmed hats the courtiers wore? Couldn't they see this wasn't the desert?

Imitating the behavior of the Ald slaves, I didn't look directly at the Gand Ioratth, but stole glances. He had a heavy, seamed face, sallow like most Alds, with a short hawk nose and narrow eyes. The Alds' pale eyes always make me queasy, and I've thanked my ancestors many times for letting me have the dark eyes of my people. The Gand's sheep hair was short and grey, frizzing out under his hat; his eyebrows frizzed out too, and a short rim of close-cut grey beard followed his jawline. He looked tough and tired. He greeted Orrec with a smile that lightened his face and a gesture I had never seen any Ald make, opening out his hands from his heart in welcome with a bow of his head. It seemed a greeting to an equal. And he called Orrec "Gand of the Makers."

But he won't let him under his roof, I thought.

"Heathen," they called us. A word we learned from them. If it meant anything, it meant people who don't know what's sacred. Are there any such people? "Heathen" is merely a word for somebody who knows a different sacredness than you know. The Alds had been here seventeen years and still hadn't learned that the sea, the earth, the stones of Ansul are sacred, are alive with divinity. If anybody was heathen it was them, not us, I thought. So I stood stewing in my resentment and not listening to what the men said, Ioratth and Orrec, the two princes, the tyrant and the poet.

Orrec began to recite, and the viol of his voice woke me to hearing; but it was some Ald poem the Gand had asked for, one of their endless epics about wars in the desert, and I wouldn't listen.

I looked among the courtiers for the Gand's son Iddor, the one who had teased Shetar. He was easy enough to pick out. He wore a lot of finery, with feathers and cloth-of-gold ribbons on his fancy hat. He looked a good deal like his father, but was taller and handsomer, although very light-skinned. He was restless, always talking to a companion, fidgeting, gesturing, moving his body. The old Gand sat unmoving, intent on the story, his linen robe falling as if carved of stone, his short, hard hands spread on his thighs. And most of his officers listened as intently as he did, drinking in the words. Orrec's voice sang with passion, and I began hearing the story in spite of myself.

When he stopped, after a tragic scene of betrayal and reconciliation, the hearers all applauded by hitting their palms together. The Gand had a slave bring Orrec water in a glass. ("They'll break it, afterwards," Chy murmured to me.) Plates of sweets were offered about, not to Chy or me. Ioratth leaned forward holding out a morsel of something to Shetar. Chy led her forward. She sat down, sniffed the candy politely, and looked away. The Gand laughed. He had a pleasant laugh that creased his whole face. "Not food for a lion, eh, Lady Shetar?" he said. "Shall I send for some meat?"

Chy, not Orrec, answered him, gruff and brief: "Better not, sir."

The Gand was not offended. "You keep her to a diet, eh? Yes, yes. Will she do her bow again?"

I could not see that Chy moved or did anything, but the lion stood up and did a deep cat stretch in front of the Gand. While he laughed, she looked round for the little ball of bone marrow that was her reward, and Chy slipped it into her mouth.

Iddor had come forward and said now to Orrec, "What did you pay for her?"

"I got her for a song, Gand Iddor," Orrec said. He spoke still seated;he was tuning his lyre, an excuse for not rising. Iddor scowled. Orrec looked up from the instrument and said, "For a tale, more truly. The nomads who had the cub and her mother wanted to hear the whole tale of Daredar told, so they'd know more of it to tell at their shows. I told it for the three nights it takes to tell, and for that my reward was the lion cub. We were all well satisfied."

"How do you know that tale? How did you learn our songs?"

"I hear a tale or a song, and it's mine," Orrec said. "That's my gift."

"That and the making of songs," said Ioratth.

Orrec bowed his head.

"But where did you hear them?" the Gand's son insisted. "Where did you hear Daredar told?"

"I travelled in northern Asudar, Gand Iddor. Everywhere the people gave me their songs and stories, telling and singing, sharing their wealth with me. They didn't ask for payment, not a lion cub, not even a copper penny—only a new song or an old tale retold. The poorest people of the desert are most generous in word and heart."

"True, true," the elder Gand said.

"Did you read our songs? Have you put them in books?" Iddor spat out the words "read" and "books" as if they were turds in his mouth.

"Prince, among the people of Atth I live by the law of Atth." Orrec spoke not only with dignity but fiercely, a man whose honor has been challenged answering the challenge.

Iddor turned away, daunted either by Orrec's direct response or by his father's glare. He said, however, to one of his companions, "Is it a man, then, playing that fiddle? I thought it was a woman."

Among the Alds, only women play the plucked and bowed instruments of music, and only men the flutes and horns—so Gry told me later. All I understood then was that Iddor wanted to insult Orrec, or wanted to flout his father, and insulting Orrec was a way to do that.

"When you are refreshed, Maker, we should like to hear you speak verse of your own making," Ioratth said, "if you will forgive and enlighten our ignorance of the poetry of the west."

It surprised me that the Gand spoke so formally and elaborately. He was an old soldier, no doubt about that, and yet everything he said was measured, even flowery, with archaic words and turns of phrase, pleasant to hear. It was the way you might expect a people to speak who shunned writing and made all their art of words aloud. Until now I had hardly heard an Ald say anything, only shout orders.

Orrec was quite able to give as good as he got in polite exchange as well as verbal duelling. Earlier, reciting from the Daredar epic, he had laid aside his northern accent and spoke like an Ald, blurring the harsher consonants and stretching out the vowels. Answering the Gand now he kept that softness. "I am the last and least of that line of makers, Gand," he said, "and it is not in my heart to put myself before far greater men. Will you and your court permit me to say, rather than my own verses, a poem of the beloved maker of Urdile, Denios?"

The Gand nodded. Orrec finished tuning his lyre, explaining as he did so that the poem was not sung, but that the voice of the instrument served to set the poetry apart from all words said before and after it, and also to say, sometimes, what no words could. Then he bowed his head to the lyre and struck the strings. The notes were plangent, clear, impassioned. The last chord died away, and he spoke the first words of the first canto of The Transformations.

Nobody moved till he was done. And they were silent for a long moment afterwards, just as the crowd in the marketplace had been. Then they were about to clap their hands in praise, but the Gand held up his hand in a sudden gesture—"No," he said. "Again, Maker! If you will, speak us this marvel once again!"

Orrec looked a little taken aback, but he smiled and bowed his head to the lyre.

Before he touched the strings a man spoke loudly. It was not Iddor but one who stood near him among his troop: he wore a red-and-black robe and a red headdress that came down straight, boxlike, from a high red hat to his shoulders, hiding his head and leaving only his face visible. His beard had been singed off, leaving a burnt frizz along his chin. He carried a long, heavy, black stick as well as a short sword. "Son of the Sun," he said, "is not once enough and more than enough to hear this blasphemy?"

"Priest," Chy whispered to me. I knew he was a priest, though we didn't see them often. Redhats, we called them, and hoped never to see them, for when a citizen was to be stoned to death or buried alive down in the mudflats, it was the redhats who did it.

Ioratth turned to look at the priest. It was like the turn of a hawk's head, a quick, how-dare-you frown. But he spoke mildly. "Most Blessed of Atth," he said, "my ears are dull. I heard no blasphemy. I beg you to open my understanding."

The man in the red headdress spoke with great assurance. "These are godless words, Gand Ioratth. There is in them no knowledge of Atth, no belief in the revelations of his sacred interpreters. It is all blind worship of demons and false gods, talk of base earthly doings, and praise of women."

"Ah, ah," Ioratth said, nodding, not contradicting but not seeming shaken by this denunciation. "It is true that the heathen poets are ignorant of Atth and his Burnt Ones. They perceive darkly and in error, yet let us not call them blind. The fire of revelation may yet come to them. Meanwhile, we who were forced to leave our wives long years ago, do you begrudge even our hearing a word about women.? You the Blessed, the Fire-Burnt, are above pollution, but we are only soldiers. To hear is not to have, but it gives some comfort none the less." He was perfectly solemn saying this, but some of the men about him grinned.

The man in the headdress began to reply, but the Gand abruptly stood up. "In respect for the sacred purity of the Fire-Burnt," he said, "I will not ask the Blessed Rudde or his brothers to stay and listen longer to words that offend their ears. And any other man who does not wish to hear the heathen poet's songs may go. Since only he is cursed who hears the curse, as they say, those who have dull ears, like me, may stay and listen safely. Maker, forgive our disputes and our discourtesy."

He sat down again. Iddor and the redhats—there were four of them—and the rest of Iddor's group all went back into the great tent, talking loudly, discontented. One man who stood near Ioratth also slunk away as unnoticeably as he could, looking anxious and unhappy. The rest stayed. And Orrec struck the lyre, and spoke the opening of The Transformations again.

The Gand let his people applaud at the end, this time. He had another glass of water brought to Orrec ("Fortune in crystal," Chy hissed to me), and then he dismissed his retinue, saying that he wished to speak with the poet "beneath the fern-palm," which evidently meant in private.

A couple of guards remained standing at the tent entrance, but the officers and courtiers went back into the big tent or to the barracks, and Chy and I were dismissed by the officious slave with the fan. We went to the stable side of the courtyard, following several men who, I realised now, had come from the stables or elsewhere to hear the poetry and had been standing all along unobtrusively on the fringe of the group. Some were soldiers, others hostlers, a couple of them were boys. Most of them were interested in Shetar. They wanted to get closer to her than Chy would let them get. They tried to strike up conversation, asking all the usual questions—what's her name, where did you get her, what does she eat, has she killed anybody. Chy's answers were curt and haughty, as befitted a lion tamer.

"Is he your slave?" a young man asked. I didn't realise he was talking about me until Chy answered, "Prentice groom."

The young man fell into step with me, and when I reached the shady wall and sat down on the cobbles, he sat down too. He looked at me several times and finally said, "You're an Ald."

I shook my head.

"Your dad was," he said, looking very shrewd.

What was the use denying it, with my hair, my face? I shrugged.

"You live here? In the city?"

I nodded.

"Do you know any girls?"

My heart went up into my throat. All I could think was that he'd seen I was a girl, that he'd start shouting about pollution, defilement, blasphemy—

"I came here from Dur with my dad last year," he said in a depressed tone, and then said nothing for a while.

Sneaking a longer glance at him I saw that he was a boy rather than a man, fifteen, sixteen at most. He didn't wear the blue cloak, but a tunic with a blue knot at the shoulder. He was bare-legged, big-boned, pale-skinned, with a soft face and pimples around his mouth. His frizz of sheep hair was yellowish. He sighed. "The Ansul girls all hate us," he said. "I thought maybe you had a sister."

I shook my head.

"What's your name?"

"Mem."

"Well, look, Mem, if you knew some girls who, you know, just wanted to be with some men for a while, I have some money. For you, I mean."

He was graceless, detestable, and pitiful. He didn't even sound hopeful. I didn't make any answer at all. For all my fear and contempt of him, he made me want to laugh—I don't know why—he was so shameless. Like a dog. I couldn't actually hate him.

He went on about girls, just talking about his daydreams I suppose, and began to say some things that made me feel myself getting red in the face and restless. I said in a flat voice, "I don't know any girls." That shut him up for a while. He sighed and scratched his groin and finally said, "I hate it here. I want to go home."

Then go! I wanted to shout at him. I just said, "Hunh."

He looked at me again, so closely that it scared me all over again. "Do you ever go with boys?" he asked.

I shook my head.

"I never have either," he said in his sad, monotonous voice, which was no deeper than mine. "Some of the fellows do." The idea seemed to depress him so much that he said nothing more, until he said, "Father would kill me."

I nodded.

We sat in silence. Shetar was pacing up and down the courtyard with Chy in attendance. I wanted to be with them, but thought it would look odd if an apprentice groom walked up and down with the lion and the lion tamer.

"What do fellows do here?" the boy asked.

I shrugged. What did boys do? Scrounged for food and firewood, mostly, like everybody else in my city except the Alds. "Play stickball," I said finally.

He looked more depressed. Evidently he was not the game-playing type.

"What's so strange here," he said, "there's women everywhere. Out in the open. Women all over the place, but you can't ... They don't..."

"Aren't there any women in Asudar?" I asked, playing stupid.

"Of course there's women. Only they aren't outside, all over the place," he said in an aggrieved, accusing tone. "They aren't always around where you see them all the time. Our women don't go flaunting around in the street. They stay home where they belong."

I thought then of my mother, in the street, trying to get home.

A great, hot rage rose up through my body and if I had spoken then it would have been a curse, or I would have spat in his face; but I didn't speak, and the rage slowly died away to a cold, hollow sickness. I swallowed my saliva and willed myself to be calm.

"Mekke says there's temple whores," the boy said. "Anybody could go there. Only the temples were shut down, of course. So they do it in secret somewhere. But they still have them. They do it with anybody. You know anything about that?"

I shook my head.

He sighed.

Very carefully, I stood up. I needed to move, but move slowly.

"My name's Simme," he said, looking up at me with a squinting smile, like a child.

I nodded. I moved slowly away—towards Shetar and Chy, for I did not know anywhere else to go. The blood was singing in my ears.

Chy looked me over and said, "The Gand's about done talking, I think. Go to the stables and ask them to bring the maker's horse out. Say you want to walk him. All right?"

I nodded and went round into the great stable courtyard. For some reason I was no longer afraid of the men there. I asked after the maker's horse, and they took me to Branty's stall. Branty was playing with a taste of oats. "Have him saddled and brought out," I said, as if they were slaves and I a master. The old man who had taken him from me at first went to obey my orders. I stood with my hands behind my back, looking over the beautiful horses in the long line of stalls. When the old man brought Branty out, I took his bridle without hesitation.

"He'd be about nineteen or twenty?"

"Older," I said, with the same assurance.

"Good blood," the old man said. He reached up to part Branty's forelock with thick, dirty, gentle fingers. "I like big horses," he said.

I gave a brief nod of approval, and walked away with Branty. Chy and Shetar were just at the entrance to the stable court, and Orrec was coming towards us. I gave him a knee up to mount, and we set off sedately for home. As we went out through the gateway of the Council Square, past the Ald guards in blue cloaks, I was overcome suddenly by tears, they burst hot from my eyes, my mouth quivered and jerked. I went walking on, seeing my city, my beautiful city and the far mountain over the straits and the cloud-swept sky through tears, until they ceased.

8

Ista made one of her special dishes that night, what we call uffu, pastries stuffed with a bit of ground lamb or kid, potatoes, greens, and herbs, and fried in oil. They were crisp, greasy, delicious. Ista was grateful to Orrec and Gry not only because they had provided meat for the kitchen—we were sharing Shetar's dinner, is the fact of it—but because they were our guests, restoring honor and dignity to the house by their presence, and giving her somebody new to cook for. They complimented the uffu, while she shrugged and growled and criticised her pastry for being tough. Can't get decent oil, she said, like we had in the good days.

After dinner the Waylord took our guests and me to the back gallery, and again we sat and talked. Three of us were very curious to know what the Gand Ioratth had said to Orrec beneath the fern-palm. And Orrec was ready to tell us. He had news indeed.

Dorid, Gand of Gands, high priest and king of Asudar and commander of the Ald armies for nearly thirty years, was dead. He had died of a seizure over a month ago in his palace in the desert city Medron. His successor was a man named Acray, his nephew, or so called. Since the kings of Asudar were high priests, and priests of Atth were officially celibate, a king couldn't officially have a son, only nephews. Other nephews or claimants to the throne contested Acray's succession and had been killed in uprisings or behind the scenes. Medron had been in turmoil for some time, but by now Acray had seized firm hold of power as the Gand of Gands of all Asudar.

And this was evidently much to the Gand Ioratth's liking. From what he said, Orrec gathered that the new priest-king was less the priest and more the king than Dorid had been. The palace factions that had tried to keep Acray from the throne were, like Dorid, followers of the cult of the Thousand True Men—those who had declared a war of good against evil, urging the invasion of heathen Ansul to find and destroy the Night Mouth.

Acray's followers, it seemed, didn't put much stock in the existence of the Night Mouth, especially since the invading army had never been able to find it. They considered the occupation of Ansul, though it had brought some profit and luxury goods to Medron, as a drain on the resources of the Ald army and also a spiritually questionable enterprise. For the Alds were a race apart, dwelling in their desert, singularly favored by their single god. They had always kept clear of the pollution of the unbelievers. To continue to live among the heathen was to risk their souls.

What should the Alds in Ansul do, then?

Ioratth, considering these matters aloud to Orrec, had spoken remarkably plainly. The question, as he saw it, was which would be more pleasing to Atth: should the new Gand of Gands recall his soldiers home to Asudar with all the loot they could bring, or should he send settlers to colonise Ansul permanently?

"He put it just about like that," Orrec said. "Evidently the new ruler has asked Ioratth for his opinion, as a man who's lived all these years here among the heathen. And Ioratth sees me as disinterested, an impartial observer. But why does he see me so.? And why does he trust me with his damned indecisions? I'm a heathen myself!"

"Because you're a maker," the Waylord said. "Therefore, to the Alds, a truth-speaker and a seer."

"Maybe he has nobody else he can talk to," Gry said. "And whether or not you're a seer, you certainly are a good listener."

"A silent one," Orrec said, with some bitterness. "What can I say to all this?"

"I don't know what you can say to Ioratth," the Waylord said. "But it may help you to know what little I know about him. In the first place, he took a woman of Ansul as a slave, a concubine, but it's said he treats her honorably. Her name is Tirio Actamo. She's the daughter of a great family. I knew her before the invasion. She was a beautiful, clever, spirited girl. All I know of her now is servants' gossip brought to me by others, but the gossip is that Ioratth honors her as a wife, and that she has great influence on him."

"I wish I could talk with her!" Gry said.

"So do I," the Waylord said, and his voice was wry and melancholy. After a pause he went on. "Iddor is the Gand's son by a wife back in Asudar. They say Iddor hates Tirio Actamo. They also say he hates his father."

"He taunts and defies him," Orrec said, "but seems to obey him."

The Waylord sat silent for a while, then got up, went over to the god-niche, and stood before it. "Blessed spirits of this house," he murmured, "help me speak truly." He bowed his head and touched the worn sill of the niche, stood a moment longer, and came back to us. He spoke standing.

"It was Iddor and the priests who led the soldiers here to find their Night Mouth. They tortured the people of the house to make them reveal the entrance to the cave or sewer or whatever the Night Mouth might be. Some died in torture. The Alds kept me alive. They had—" he halted a moment and then went on, "they had the most hope of me, since they perceived me as a witch. A priest, in their terms, but a priest of their anti-god. But I wasn't able to tell them what they wanted to know. Ennu laid her hand on my mouth and would not let me lie. Sampa stopped my tongue and would not let me speak the truth. All the souls of Galvamand came round me. The priests knew it. They were afraid of me, even while they ... Not afraid of me but of the sacredness that came into me, the gathering of souls around me, the blessing of the gods and spirits of my house, my city, my land.

"After a while the priests didn't want to have anything to do with me, so Iddor himself was my only questioner. He feared me too, I think, but also he prided himself on his daring, since he believed me a great sorcerer and yet he could do what he liked with me. I proved his power, by being a toy for his cruelty. I had to listen to him. He talked and talked, always explaining to me, telling me over and over how the demon that filled me would come forth at last and tell him where to find the Night Mouth. When the demon came forth and spoke I would be allowed to die. All evil would die. Righteousness would rule the earth, and he, Iddor, would sit by the throne of the King of Kings, burning in glory. He talked and talked. I tried to lie to him, and I tried to tell him the truth. But they would not let me."

He had not sat down as he spoke, and now he went back to the god-niche, put his hands on the sill of it, and stood there in silence a while. I heard him whisper blessing on Ennu and the house-gods. Then he turned to us again.

"All that time, all the time Iddor held me prisoner, I never saw his father. Ioratth kept away from the prison cells and had no part in the witch hunts. Iddor constantly complained to me about his father, railed at him, saying he was impious, contemptuous of priests and prophecies, and flouted the order of the Gand of Gands to find the Night Mouth. 'I obey my god and my king, he does not,' he said. But in the end, whether at Ioratth's order or not, I was let go. The hunts for caves and demons died down. Now and then Iddor or the priests would raise up a scare, finding a book to destroy or a scholar to torture. Ioratth let them do it, I suppose to satisfy the Gand of Gands that the quest was still going on. He had to walk carefully, since his son was of the king's party and he was not.

"But now, it looks as if Ioratth has a king of his own kind, and the power Iddor and the priests had will be suddenly reduced. This could be a dangerous moment."

He sat down with us again. Though he had spoken painfully, he did not seem troubled now, only grave and weary; and as he looked around at us, a gentleness came into his face, as if, returned from a journey, he saw people he loved.

"Dangerous because...," Gry said, and Orrec finished her half question: "Because Iddor, seeing his faction losing power, might try to seize power?"

The Waylord nodded. "I wonder where the Ald soldiers stand on this," he said. "No doubt they'd like to go home to Asudar. But they respect their priests. If Iddor defied his father, and the priests were with Iddor, which of them would the soldiers obey?"

"We can do some listening at the Palace," Gry said. She glanced at me, I didn't know why.

"There's another element of danger, or hope, or both," the Waylord said, "which I tell you of, asking you for your silence. There's a group of people who hope to rouse Ansul against the Alds. A group that for a long time now has been laying plans for rebellion. I know of it only through friends. I don't take part in making it's plans, I don't even know with any certainty how strong it is. But it exists. Seeing a power struggle in the Palace, such a group might try to act."

Now at last I knew what Desac came to talk about, and why I was always sent away when he met with the Waylord. That sent a rush of anger through me. Why hadn't I been allowed to listen to talk of rebellion, of rising against the Alds, fighting them, driving them out.? Did Desac think I'd be afraid? Or go blabbing about it like a child? Did he think, because I had sheep hair, that I'd betray my people?

Gry wanted to know more about this group, but the Waylord was unable or unwilling to say much about it. Orrec was silent, brooding, till he asked at last, "How many Alds are here in Ansul—in the city? A thousand, two thousand?"

"Over two thousand," the Waylord said.

"They're greatly outnumbered."

"But armed and disciplined," Gry said.

"Trained soldiers," Orrec said. "It gives them an edge ... But still. All these years—"

I burst out, "We fought! We fought them in every street, we held out for a year—till they sent an army twice as large—and then they killed and killed—Ista told me that in the days after the city fell, the canals were so choked with the dead that the water couldn't run—"

"Memer, I know your people were overrun and overmatched," Orrec said. "I didn't mean to question their courage."

"But we're not warriors," said the Waylord.

"Adira and Marra!" I protested.

His gaze rested on me a moment. "I didn't say we couldn't have heroes," he said. "But for centuries we settled our affairs by talking, arguing, bargaining, voting. Our quarrels were fought with words not swords. We were out of the habit of brutality ... And the Ald armies seemed endless. How much more would they destroy? We lost heart. We have been a crippled people."

He held up his broken hands. His face was strange, wry; his eyes looked very dark.

"As you say, Orrec, they have the edge," he said. "Having one king, one god, one belief, they can act single-mindedly. They're strong. Yet the single can be divided. Our strength embraces multitude. This is our sacred earth. We live here with it's gods and spirits, among them, they among us. We endure with them. We've been hurt, weakened, enslaved. But only if they destroy our knowledge are we destroyed."

***

TWO DAYS AFTER THAT, when we went to the Council Square again, I found out why Gry had given me that glance when she said, "We can do some listening." She wanted Mem the apprentice groom to talk to the Ald stableboys and cadet soldiers who hung around to hear Orrec recite. "Keep an ear out," she said. "Ask about the new Gand in Medron. About the Night Mouth. You were talking for a long time with one of those boys the other day."

"The pimply one," I said.

"He took a shine to you."

"He wanted to know if I'd sell him my sister for sex," I said.

Gry whistled, a soft little down-note, tiu.

"Endure," she said softly.

The Waylord had used that word. I took it as my guide word, my orders. I would obey. I would endure.

This time, when the Gand came out of the great tent to hear Orrec, Iddor and the priests didn't follow him. Partway through the recitation a noise began inside the tent, a lot of loud chanting and drum banging—evidently the priests performing a ceremony. Some of the courtiers around the Gand looked disturbed, others shrugged and whispered. Ioratth sat imperturbable. Orrec finished the stanza and fell silent.

The Gand gestured to him to go on.

"I would not show disrespect to those who worship," Orrec said.

"It is not worship," Ioratth said. "It is disrespect. Proceed, if you will, Maker."

Orrec bowed and went on with the piece, another Ald hero tale. When it was done, Ioratth had him brought a glass of water and began to talk with him, several of the courtiers joining in. And I, obeying my orders, slipped back towards the group of boys and men in the shade of the stable wall.

Simme was there. He came right over to me. He was bigger than I was, a tall, strong boy. There were fair, fuzzy hairs among the pimples around his mouth—the Alds are hairier than my people, and many have beards. Yet when I saw the way he greeted me, almost cringing, hoping that I liked him, I thought: he's a little boy.

All I knew was my city and my house and books, while he had travelled with an army and was a soldier in training, but I knew that I knew more than he did, and was tougher. He knew it, too.

It made it hard to hate him. There's some virtue in hating people who are stronger than you, but to hate somebody weaker is contemptible and uncomfortable.

He didn't know what to talk about, and at first I thought we wouldn't be able to talk at all, but then I thought to ask him something I really wanted to know. "Where did you hear what you were talking about the other day," I said, "all that stuff about temples and prostitutes.?"

"Some of the men," he said. "They said you heathens had these temples, where they had these orgies with these priestesses of this goddess, this demoness, that made men, you know, have sex with the priestesses. The demoness possessed them. And they'd have sex with any man. Anybody who came along. All night."

He'd brightened up considerably at the thought.

"We don't have any priestesses," I said flatly. "Or priests. We do our own worship."

"Well, maybe it was just women who went to this temple, and the demoness made them have sex with anybody. All night."

"How could people get inside a temple."

In Ansul, the word "temple" usually means a little shrine on the street or in front of a building or at a crossways—altars, places to worship at. Many of them are just god-niches like the ones inside houses. You touch the sill of the temple to say the blessing, or lay a flower as an offering. Many street temples were wonderful little buildings of marble, two or three feet high, carved and decorated, with gilt roofs. The Alds had knocked those all down. Some temples were hung up in trees, and the Alds left them, thinking they were bird-houses. In fact if a bird nested in a temple it was a joyful thing, a blessing, and a lot of the old tree temples had swallows and sparrows and thrushes in them year after year. The best luck of all was an owl. The owl is the bird of the Deaf One.

I knew that to the Alds a temple meant a full-sized building. I didn't care.

My question did get his mind off the notion of all-night sex, anyway. He frowned and said, "What do you mean. Everybody goes into temples."

"What for."

"To pray!"

"What do you mean, 'pray'?"

"Worship Atth!" Simme said, staring.

"How do you worship Atth?"

"You go to the ceremony?" he said, in a questioning tone, incredulous that I didn't know what he was talking about. "And the priests sing and drum and dance, and they speak the words of Atth? You know! You're down on your hands and knees? And you knock your head on the ground four times and say the words after the priests."

"What for?"

"Well, if you want something, you pray to Atth, you knock your head on the ground and pray for it."

"Pray for it? How do you pray for something?"

He was beginning to look at me as if I was feebleminded.

I returned the look. "You don't make sense," I said. I was in fact rather curious to understand his idea of praying, but I didn't want him to start feeling superior to me. "You can't pray for things."

"Of course you can! You pray to Atth for life and health and, and, and everything else!"

I did understand him. Everybody cries out to Ennu when they're frightened. Everybody prays to Luck for things they want; that's why he's called the Deaf One. But I said, contemptuously, "That's begging, not praying. We pray for blessing, not for things."

He was both shocked and stymied. He looked sullen. He said, "You can't be blessed. You don't believe in Atth."

Now I was shocked. To say to someone that they couldn't be blessed, that was horrible. Simme didn't seem like a person who could even think such a cruel thing. I finally said, much more cautiously, "What do you mean, 'believe in'?"

He stared at me. "Well, to believe in Atth is—is to believe Atth is god."

"Of course he is. All the gods are god. Why shouldn't Atth be?"

"What you call gods are demons."

I thought about it for a while. "I don't know if I believe there are demons, but I do know the gods. I don't understand why you have to 'believe' in only one god and none of the others."

"Because if you don't believe in Atth you're damned and when you die you'll turn into a demon!"

"Who says so?"

"The priests!"

"And you believe that?"

"Yes! The priests know about stuff like that!" He was getting more and more unhappy, and spoke angrily.

"I don't think they know much about Ansul," I said, realising, a little late, that antagonising him was not the best way to get information out of him. "Maybe they know all about Asudar. But things are different here."

"Because you're heathens!"

"Right," I said, nodding, agreeing. "We're heathens. So we have a lot of gods. But we don't have any demons. Or priests. Or temple prostitutes. Unless they're about six inches high."

He was silent, scowling.

"I heard the army came looking for a specially bad place here," I said after a while, trying to speak in a more friendly way and feeling both devious and exposed. "Some sort of hole in the ground where all the demons are supposed to come from."

"I guess so."

"What for?"

"I don't know," he said. He looked very glum, screwing up his pale eyes and frowning.

We were sitting on the pavement in the shade of the wall. I began scratching criss-cross patterns in the dust on the paving stone.

"Somebody said your king in Medron died," I said, as easily as I could. I used our old word, king, not their word, gand.

He merely nodded. Our discussion had discouraged him. After a long time he said, "Mekke said maybe the new High Gand would order the army back home to Asudar. I guess you'd like that." He glanced at me sullenly.

I shrugged. "Would you?"

He shrugged.

I wanted to make him go on talking, but didn't know how.

"That's fit-fat," he said.

Now I looked at him as if he was crazy, till I saw he was looking down at the pattern I'd made on the dusty stone. He reached over and drew a horizontal line in one square of the criss-cross.

"We call it fool's game," I said, and drew a vertical line in another square. We played to a draw, as you always do in fool's game unless you really are a fool. Then he showed me a game called finding the ambush, where you each have a hidden criss-cross with a square marked off—the ambush—and you guess in turn where the other person's ambush is, and the one who finds the other's ambush first is the winner. Simme won two out of three, which cheered him up and made him talkative.

"I hope the army gets moved back to Asudar," he said. "I want to get married. I can't get married here."

"Gand Ioratth did," I said, and then was afraid I'd gone too far, but Simme just grinned and made a lewd chuckling noise.

"'Queen'Tirio?" he said."Mekke says she was one of those temple prostitutes, to start with, and she put a spell on the Gand."

I'd had enough of him and his temple prostitutes. "There were never any temples," I said. "We had festivals. All over the city. Processions and dances. But you Alds stopped them. You killed anybody who danced. You were so afraid of your stupid demons." I got up, rubbed out the criss-cross with my foot, and stalked off to the stable.

Once I got to the stables I didn't know what to do. I was ashamed of myself. I had not endured. I had run away. I looked in at Branty, who acknowledged me with a half nicker. He was lipping up a little treat of oats delicately, making them last. The old hostler was perched up on a sawhorse nearby, watching him with what looked to me like adoration. He nodded to me. Branty went on twiddling his oats. I leaned up against a post and folded my arms and hoped I looked aloof and unapproachable.

And here came Simme across the stableyard, slouching and cringing and grinning like a dog that's been yelled at.

"Hey, Mem," he said, as if we'd parted days ago instead of two minutes ago.

I nodded at him.

He looked at me the way the old hostler looked at Branty.

"My father's horse is over there," he said. "Come see her. She's from the royal stables in Medron."

I let him lead me across the yard to the facing stalls to show me a fine, nervous, bright-eyed sorrel mare with a light mane, like the horse that had run at me in the market. Maybe it was that horse. She eyed me sideways over the door of the stall and shook her head.

"She's named Victory," Simme said, trying to pat the mare on the neck;she tossed her head and moved back in the stall. When he tried again, she turned at him, showing her long yellow teeth. Simme drew his hand back quickly. "She's a real warhorse," he said.

I gazed at the horse as if judging it from a deep knowledge and experience of horses, nodded again rather patronisingly, and sauntered back across the yard. To my relief, Chy and Shetar were just looking in the gateway. Several horses, seeing or smelling the lion, neighed and kicked in their stalls. I hurried over to Chy, while behind me Simme called, "See you tomorrow, Mem?"

On our way back to Galvamand I told them of my efforts to cross-examine Simme, which I thought completely foolish and fruitless; but they, and later the Waylord, listened intently. They remarked on Simme's apparent lack of knowledge or interest when I spoke indirectly of the Night Mouth, and on his saying he had heard that the new Gand of Gands might recall the army to Asudar.

"Did he say anything about Iddor?" Gry asked.

"I didn't know how to ask."

"Is he a bright fellow?" the Waylord asked.

I said, "No. He's stupid." But I was ashamed, saying it. Even if it was true.

The day had been very warm, and the evening was mild. Instead of sitting in the gallery after dinner, we went out to the small outer courtyard that opens from it. It is sheltered by the house walls on two sides and marked off on the other two by slender columned arcades. The hill to the east rises immediately behind the house, and the scent of flowering shrubs was in the air. We sat looking north to the open evening sky faintly tinged with green.

"The house is built into the hillside, isn't it?" Orrec said, looking up at the north windows of the Master's room, above this court, and the walls behind walls and roofs behind roofs of the ancient building.

"Yes," the Waylord said, and I don't know what was in his tone, but the hairs on my neck stirred.

He went on after a little while, "Ansul is the oldest city of the Western Shore, and this is the oldest house in Ansul."

"Is it true that the Aritans came from the desert a thousand years ago, and found all these lands we know empty of humankind?"

"Longer than a thousand years, and from farther than the desert," the Waylord said. "From the Sunrise, they said. They were people of a great empire far in the east. They sent explorers into the desert that bordered their lands to the west, and at last a group found a way across the desert—hundreds of miles wide, they say—to the green valleys of the Western Shore. Taramon led that group. Others followed. The books are very old, fragmentary, hard to understand. Many of them are lost, now. But it seemed they said that the people who came here were driven out of the Sunrise lands." He said a line of verse in Aritan, and then in our tongue: "'The riverless waste that guards the exile's spring...' We are the children of those exiles."

"And no one has ever come from the east since then?"

"Nor gone back to the east."

"Except the Alds," said Gry.

"They went back into the desert, yes, or stayed there, but only the western border of it, where there are springs and rivers. East of Asudar, they say, for a thousand miles the sun is the Gand of Gands and the sand is his people."

"We live on the far edge of a world we know nothing of," Orrec said, gazing at the pale, deep sky.

"Some scholars think Taramon and the others were driven out because they were sorcerers, people who had uncanny powers. They think gifts such as you in the Uplands have were common among the people who came from the Sunrise, but have died out among us over the centuries."

"What do you think?" Gry asked.

"We have no such gifts as those here now," the Waylord said rather carefully. "But the earliest records of Ansul tell of people coming to be healed by women of the House of Actamo, who could restore sight to the blind and hearing to the deaf."

"Like the Cordemants!" Orrec said to Gry, and Gry said, "Backwards—as I thought!" They were about to explain this to us, when Desac came suddenly from the door of the gallery out into the court where we sat.

Like all the Waylord's regular visitors, he let himself into and through the old part of the house, which was never locked. Ista sometimes fretted about the risk, but the Waylord said, "There are no locks on the doors of Galvamand," and that was that. So Desac appeared now, startling Shetar. The halflion stood up with her head down and her ears flattened in a nasty, snaky way, and glared at him. He stopped short in the doorway.

Gry hissed a reproof at Shetar, who grunted and sat down, still glaring.

"Welcome, my friend, come sit with us," the Waylord said, while I hurried to find a chair. Desac meanwhile took my chair next to the Waylord. That was like him. He did not have bad or coarse manners, but people who did not interest him did not exist for him. To him I was a furniture bringer, about as important as the furniture. He was single-minded, like the Alds. Perhaps soldiers have to be single-minded.

By the time I'd found a manageable chair and brought it out, he had been introduced to Orrec and Gry, and the Waylord must have told them that this was the leader of the resistance, or Desac had told them so himself, for that's what they were talking about. I sat down to listen.

Desac took notice of me then. Furniture should not have ears. He looked from me to the Waylord with the plain intent of having me sent away as usual.

"Memer knows a soldier's son, who told her that some of the Alds talk of the army being recalled to Asudar," the Waylord said to Desac. "And the boy called Tirio Actamo Queen Tirio, as a common joke. Have you heard that title?"

"No," Desac said stiffly. He shot another glance at me. He looked a little like Shetar glaring with her ears flat (though she by now had decided to ignore him, and was industriously washing a hind paw). "What we say here must go no farther than this courtyard," he announced.

"Of course," said the Waylord. He spoke kindly and easily as ever, but the effect was rather like Gry's hiss at the lion. Desac looked away from me, cleared his throat, rubbed his chin, and spoke to Orrec.

"Blessed Ennu sent you here, Orrec Caspro," he said, "or the Deaf One called you to us, in the very hour of our need."

"Need for me?" said Orrec.

"Who can better call the people to arms than a great maker?"

Orrec's face went still and his bearing stiff. After a moment of silence he said, "I'll do what's in my power to do. But I'm a foreigner."

"Against the invader we are all one people."

"I've been more at the Palace than in the marketplace. At the Gand's beck and call. Why should your people trust me?"

"They do trust you. They speak of your coming as a sign, a portent that the great days of Ansul are about to return."

"I'm not a portent, I'm a poet," Orrec said. His face was hard as rock now. "A city rising against tyranny will find it's own speakers."

"You'll speak for us when we call you," Desac said, with equal certainty. "We've sung your poem 'Liberty' for ten years now here in Ansul, in hiding, behind doors. How did that song get here, who brought it? From voice to voice, from soul to soul, from land to land. When we sing it aloud at last, in the face of the enemy, do you think you'll be silent?"

Orrec said nothing.

"I'm a soldier," Desac said, "I know what makes people fight to win. I know what a voice like yours can do. And I know that's why you came here when you did."

"I came because the Gand asked me to come."

"He asked you because the gods of Ansul moved his mind. Because our hour is coming. The balance changes!"

"My friend," said the Waylord, "the balance may be changing, but are the scales in your hands?"

Desac held out his empty hands with a dry smile.

"There's no sign of unrest among the Ald soldiers which we might take advantage of," the Waylord said. "We're not certain if there's any change yet in Ald policy. And we don't know what's going on between Ioratth and Iddor."

"Ah, but that we do know," Desac said. "Ioratth intends to send Iddor back to Medron with a retinue of priests and soldiers. Seemingly to seek guidance from the new Gand Acray, actually to get Iddor and his priests out of Ansul.Tirio Actamo's servant Ialba passed that word this morning to the slaves we're in touch with at the Palace. She's been a faithful informer."

"Then you intend to wait till Iddor is gone before you move?"

"Why wait? Why let the rat escape the trap?"

"You plan to attack? The barracks?"

"An attack is planned. Not where or when they might expect it."

"I know you have some arms, but have you the men?"

"Arms we have, and men enough. The people will join with us. We are twenty to one, Sulter! All these years of tyranny, enslavement, insult, defilement, the rage of all these years will burst out like fire in straw, everywhere in the city. All we need is to see how many we are, how few they are! All we need is a voice, a voice to summon us!"

His passion shook me, and I could see it had shaken Orrec, at whom he was looking now. An uprising, a revolt—to turn on those arrogant men in blue cloaks, drag them off their horses, use them as they had used us, cow them as they had cowed us, drive them out, out, out of our city, out of our lives—Oh! I had wanted that so long! I would follow Desac. I saw him truly now: a leader, a warrior. I would follow him as the people followed the heroes of old, through fire and water, through death.

But Orrec sat there with his face set, silent.

And Gry, watchful as her lion, silent.

In that tense silence the Waylord said, "Desac: if I ask concerning this—if I am answered—would you hear the answer.?" He said the word ask with a strange emphasis.

Desac looked at him, at first evidently not understanding, then with a frown. He began a question, but the Waylord's expression checked him. Desac's hard, sad, weathered face changed slowly, becoming open, uncertain. "Yes," he said, hesitant, then again more strongly, "Yes!"

"Then I will," the Waylord said.

"Tonight?"

"The time is so near?"

"Yes."

"Very well."

"I'll come tomorrow morning," Desac said, standing up, alive with energy. "Sulter, my friend, I thank you from my heart. We will see—you will see—your spirits will speak for us." He turned to Orrec—"And your voice will call us, you'll be with us, I know. And we'll meet here again, free men, in a free city! The blessing of Lero and all the gods of Ansul on you all, and on the souls and shadows of Galvamand who hear us now!" He strode out, soldierly, exultant.

Orrec, Gry, and I looked at one another. Something important had been said, some promise had been made, which we three did not understand. The Waylord sat not looking at anyone, his face somber. Finally he glanced around at us. His gaze rested on me.

"Before there was a city here," he said, "before there was a house built here, the oracle was here." Then he spoke in Aritan: "'They came here across the deserts, the weary people, the exiles. They came over the hills above the Western Sea and saw white Sul across the water. In the hillside was a cave, and from the cave ran a spring. On the darkness of the air in the cave they saw words written: Here stay. So they drank the water of that spring, and built their city there.'"

9

We parted for the night soon after that, and the Waylord said to me, "Come to the room, Memer."

So a little later I went back through the house and drew the letters in the air and entered the hidden room that goes back under the hill in darkness.

He came in some while later. I had lighted the oil lamp on the reading table. He set down the small lantern he carried but did not blow it out. He saw I had Orrec's book open on the table, and smiled a little.

"You like his poetry?"

"Above any other. Above Denios!"

He smiled again more broadly, teasingly. "Ah, they're all very well, these moderns, but none of them is a match for Regali."

Regali lived a thousand years ago, here in Ansul, writing in Aritan;the language is difficult and the poetry is difficult and I had not got very far with Regali, though I knew how well the Waylord loved her.

"In time," he said, seeing my expression. "In time ... Now, I have a good deal to tell and to ask, my Memer. Let me talk to you a while." We sat at the table facing each other in the soft sphere of light the lamp made. Around it the high, long room darkened away; here and there shone the glimmer of a gold-stamped word on the spine of a book, and the books themselves were a silent gathering, a dark multiplicity.

He had said my name with such tenderness that it almost frightened me. But his face was grim as it was when he was in pain. When he spoke, it was with difficulty. He said, "I have not done well by you, Memer."

I began to protest, wanting to say he had given me all the treasures of my life—love, loyalty, learning—but he stopped me, gently, though still with that grim look. "You were my comfort," he said, "my dear comfort. And I looked only for comfort. I let hope go. I did not pay my debt to those who gave me life. I taught you to read, but I never let you know that there was more to read than tales and poetry ... Here. I gave you what was easy to give. I told myself, She's only a child, why should I burden her..."

I was aware of the darkness of the room behind my back; I felt it as a presence.

He went on, doggedly. "We were talking of gifts that run in the blood, in a lineage, like Gry's family, the Barres, who can speak with animals, or the Actamos, who could heal. We Galvas, whose ancestors inhabit this house as souls and shadows, we have—not a gift, maybe, but a responsibility. A bond. We are the people who live in this place. Here stay. We stay here. Here, this house. This room. We guard what is here. We open the door and close it. And we read the words of the oracle."

As he said the word, I knew he was going to say it. It was the word he had to say and I had to hear.

But my heart went cold and heavy in me.

"In my cowardice," he said, "I told myself it was unnecessary to speak of it to you. The time of oracles was past. It was an old story that was no longer true ... Truth can go out of stories, you know. What was true becomes meaningless, even a lie, because the truth has gone into another story. The water of the spring rises in another place. The Fountain of the Oracle has been dry for two hundred years ... But the spring that fed it still runs. Here. Within."

He sat facing me and that end of the room where it stretches into shadow, becoming darker and lower; he was no longer looking at me, but into that darkness. When he was silent I listened for the faint voice of the running water.

"I saw my duty and clung to it: to keep and guard what little was left—the books here, the books people brought me to preserve, the last of our treasure, the last of the glory of Ansul. And when you came here, into this room, that day, and we spoke of letters, of reading—you remember?"

"I remember," I said, and the memory warmed me a little. I looked at the shelves of books I had read and knew and loved, my friends.

"I told myself you were born to do the same, to take my place, to keep the one lamp burning. And I clung to that comfort, denying that I had any other duty to carry out, anything else to teach you.

"When your body is broken the way mine was, the mind too becomes misshapen, weak—" He held out his hands. "I can't trust myself. I am too full of fear. But I should have trusted you."

I wanted to say, to plead with him, "No, don't, you can't trust me, I'm weak, I'm afraid too!" but the words wouldn't come out.

He had spoken harshly. After a while he went on, and the tenderness was back in his voice. "So," he said, "a little more history. All the history you've patiently learned, you so young—all this weight of years on you, obligations undertaken by people dead for centuries! You've borne it all, you'll bear this too.

"Your house is the House of the Oracle, and we are the readers of the oracle. It is here, in this room. You learned to write the words that let you enter, before you knew what writing was. And so you'll know how to read the words that are written.

"The first were those I spoke just now: Here stay.

"In the early times, all the people of the Four Houses could read the oracle. That was their power, their sacredness. As the exiles of Aritan settled the coast and began to make towns elsewhere, still they came back to Ansul, to the Oracle House. They'd bring their questions: Is it right to do this? If we do that, what will happen? They'd come to the fountain and drink of it, and ask the blessing, and ask their question there. Then the readers of the oracle would go into the house, into the cave, into the dark. And if the question was accepted, they would read the answer written on the air.

"Sometimes, also, when they went into the darkness they would see words shining, though no question had been asked.

"All these words of the oracle were written down. The books they were written in were called the Galvan Books. Over the years the Galvas, who built their house at the oracle cave, became the sole keepers of the books, interpreters of the words, the voice of the oracle—the Readers.

"That led to jealousy and rivalry, in the end. It might have been better if we'd shared our power. But I think we weren't able to. The gift gives itself.

"The Galvan Books themselves weren't only records of the oracles. Sometimes the writing in them altered though no hand had touched it, or a Reader would open a book and find in it words no one had written there. More and more often the oracle spoke on the pages of the books, not on the darkness of the cave.

"But often the words themselves were dark. Interpretation was needed. And there were the answers to questions that had not been asked ... So the great Reader Dano Galva said, 'We do not seek true answers. The strayed sheep we seek is the true question. The answer follows it as the tail follows the sheep.'"

He had been watching his thoughts in the air behind me; now he looked back at me, and was silent.

"Have you—have you read the oracle?" I asked at last. I felt as if I hadn't spoken for a month; my throat was dry and my voice thready.

He answered slowly. "I began to read the Galvan Books when I was twenty, with my mother as my guide. The most ancient of them first. The words in those are fixed, they no longer change. But the oldest are the most obscure, because they didn't write the question with the answer, and so you have to guess the sheep from the tail ... Then there are many books from later centuries, both questions and answers. Often both are obscure, but they repay study. And then, after they moved the library out of Galvamand, there were fewer questions. And the answers may change, or vanish, or appear with no question asked. Those are the books you cannot read twice, any more than you could drink the same water twice from the Oracle Spring."

"Have you asked it a question?"

"Once." He gave a brief laugh and rubbed his upper lip with the knuckles of his left hand. "I thought it was a good question, direct and plain, such as the oracle seems to respond to. It was when Ansul was first besieged. I asked: Will the Aids take the city? I got no answer. Or if I did, I was looking in the wrong book."

"How did you—How do you ask?"

"You'll see, Memer. I told Desac, tonight, I'd ask the oracle about the rebellion he plans. He knows of it only as an old story, but he knows that if it spoke it might help his cause."

He studied me a moment. "I want you with me. Can you do that.? Is it too soon?"

"I don't know," I said.

I was stiff with fear, cold, mindless fear. The hair on my neck and arms had been standing up ever since he began to speak of the books, the oracle books. I didn't want to see them. I didn't want to go where they were. I knew where they were, which books they were. At the thought of touching them my breath stuck in my throat. I almost said, "No, I can't." But the words stuck too.

What I finally said took me by surprise. I said, "Are there demons?"

When he did not answer, I went on, the words bursting out of me hoarse and unclear, "You say I'm a Galva, but I'm not—not only—I'm both—neither. How can I inherit this? I never even knew about it. How can I do something like this? How can I take this power, when I'm afraid—afraid of demons—the Alds' demons—because I'm an Ald too!"

He made a little sound to halt me and soothe me. I fell silent.

He asked, "Who are your gods, Memer?"

He asked it the way he might ask me, when he was teaching me, "What does Eront say in his History of the lands beyond the Trond?" And I gathered my mind together and answered him as I would answer then, trying to say truly what I knew.

"My gods are Lero. Ennu who makes the way easy. Deori who dreams the world. The One Who Looks Both Ways. The keepers of the hearthfire and the guardians of the doorway. Iene the gardener. Luck, who cannot hear. Caran, Lord of the Springs and Waters. Sampa the Destroyer and Sampa the Shaper, who are one. Teru at the cradle, and Anada who dances on the grave. The gods of the forest and the hills. The Sea Horses. The soul of my mother Decalo, and your mother Eleyo, and the souls and shadows of all who lived in this house, the former dwellers, the forerunners, who give us our dreams. The room-spirits, my room-spirit. The street-gods and the crossway-gods, the gods of the market and the council place, the gods of the city, and of stones, and the sea, and Sul."

Saying their names I knew they were not demons, that there were no demons in Ansul.

"May they bless me and be blessed," I whispered, and he whispered the words with me.

I stood up then and walked towards the doorway and back to the table, only because I had to move. The books, the books I knew, my dear companions, stood solid on the shelves. "What do we have to do?" I asked.

He stood up. He picked up the small lantern he had brought. "First the darkness," he said. I followed him.

We went all the way down the long room, past the shelves where the books I feared were. The lantern gave small light, and I could not see them clearly. Beyond those last shelves the ceiling grew lower, and the light seemed less. I heard the sound of running water clearly now.

The floor had become uneven. Pavement gave way to dirt and rocks. His lame gait grew slower and more cautious.

I saw in the lantern's flickering light a small stream of water that ran from the darkness and dropped down into a deep basin, vanishing underground. We passed the basin and followed beside the water, upstream, on a rocky path. Shadows dodged away from the lantern, quick, huge, and shapeless, running black across raw rock walls. We walked deep into a high tunnel, a long cave. The walls drew closer as we kept walking farther.

The light glittered in the water of a welling spring and trembled reflected on the rock roof above. The Waylord stopped. He raised the lantern, and shadows leapt wildly. He blew it out, and we stood in darkness.

"Bless us and be blessed, spirits of the sacred place," his voice said, low and steady. "We are Sulter Galva of your people and Memer Galva of your people. We come in trust, honoring the sacred, following truth as we are shown it. We come in ignorance, honoring knowledge, asking to know. We come into darkness for light and into silence for words and into fear for blessing. Spirits of this place who made my people welcome, I ask an answer to my question. Will a rebellion, now, against the Alds who hold our city, fail or prevail?"

His voice made no echo off the rock walls. Silence snuffed it out utterly. There was no sound but the trickle of the spring, and my breathing, and his. It was absolutely dark. My eyes fooled me again and again, making faint lights flash, and colors blur and vanish in the black in front of me, that sometimes seemed to be right up against my eyes like a blindfold, and then deep and far as a starless sky, so that I feared to fall as if standing on a cliff's edge. Once I thought I saw a glimmer taking form, the shape of a letter, but it went out suddenly, utterly, as a spark goes out. We stood a long time, long enough that I began to feel the rock pressing through my thin shoe soles and the ache in my back from not moving. I was dizzy because there was nothing in the world, no thing at all, only blackness and the sound of water and the pressure of the rock under my feet. No air moved. It was cold. It was still.

I felt warmth, his warmth, a light touch on my arm. We murmured the blessing and turned round. Turning, I became dizzier, disoriented. I didn't know which way I was facing in this utter dark—had I turned halfway or clear round? I reached out and found him there, the warmth, the touch of the cloth of his sleeve; I took hold of it and followed him. I wondered why he did not light the lantern, but dared not speak. It seemed a long way we went, far longer than the way in. I thought we were going the wrong way, deeper and deeper into the dark. I wouldn't believe it when I first began to see a change, a dimness growing out of darkness ahead of us, not visibility yet but the promise of it. I let go his arm then. But he, lame, took my arm, and held it till we could see our way.

When we were in the room again the space around us was airy and welcoming, and everything was distinct, full of a warm light, even down here at the cave end, the shadow end.

He looked at me searchingly. Then he turned and went to the shelves that had been built where the rock of the cave mouth gave place to plastered wall. Through the plaster here and there a rough cornice of rock stuck out. The shelves were set into the wall, not built out from it. On them were books, some small, some large and coarsely bound, some standing, others lying, maybe fifty or so in all. Some shelves were empty or held only a volume or two. The Waylord looked at the shelves as one does when seeking a book but not certain which or where it is, scanning. He looked again at me.

I looked at once for the white book, the book that had bled. I saw it instantly.

He saw where I was looking. He saw that I could not take my eyes from it. He went forward and took the white book from the shelf.

I stepped back when he did so, I couldn't help it. I said, "Is it bleeding?"

He looked at me, and at the book;he let it fall open gently in his hands.

"No," he said. He held it out to me.

I took another step back from it.

"Can you read it, Memer?"

He turned it and held it out to me again, open. I saw the small, square, white pages. The right-hand page was blank. On the left-hand page there were a few words written small.

I took a hard step forward, and a second step, my hands clenched. I read the words aloud: Broken mend broken.

The sound of my voice was terrible to me, it was not my voice at all but a deep, hollow, echoing sound swelling out all round my head. I cried out, "Put it back, put it away!" and turned and tried to walk back towards the lamp that shone in a sphere of gold far off at the other end of the room, but it was like walking in a dream, I could move my legs only slowly, heavily. He came and took my arm, and together we made our way back. It grew easier for me as we went. We reached the reading table. That was like coming home, coming into firelight out of the night, a haven.

I sat down in the chair with a great, shuddering sigh. He stood a little while stroking my shoulders gently, then went round the table and sat down facing me, as we had been before.

My teeth chattered. I wasn't cold any longer, but my teeth chattered. It was a while before I could make my mouth obey me at all.

"Was that the answer.?"

"I don't know," he murmured.

"Was it—was it the oracle?"

"Yes."

I took a while longer to bite my lips, which felt stiff as cardboard, and tried to make my breath come evenly.

"Had you read in that book before?" I asked him.

He shook his head.

"I saw no words," he said.

"You didn't see—on the page—?" I gestured, to show that the words had been on the left-hand page, and I saw my fingers begin to write the letters on the air. I made them stop.

He shook his head.

That made it even worse.

"Was—what I said, was it the answer to the question you asked?"

"I don't know," he said.

"Why didn't it answer you?"

He said nothing for quite a while. At last he said, "Memer, if you had asked the question, what would it have been?"

"How can we be free of the Aids?" I said at once, and saying it I felt that again I was speaking with another voice, a loud deep voice not mine. I closed my mouth, I snapped my teeth shut on the thing that spoke through me, used me.

And yet that was the question I would have asked.

"The true question," he said, with a half smile.

"The book bled," I said. I was determined now to speak for myself, not to be spoken through—to say what I would say, to take control. "Years and years ago, when I was little. I went down to the shadow end. I told you that, I told you part of it. I told you I thought one of the books made a noise. But I didn't tell you I saw that one. That white book. And I took it from the shelf, and there was blood on the pages. Wet blood. Not words, but blood. And I never went back. Not until tonight. I—If—If there are no demons, all right, there are no demons. But I am afraid of what is in that cave."

"So am I," he said.

***

WE WERE BOTH TIRED, but there was no question of sleep yet. He relighted the small lantern, I put out the lamp, he drew the words on the air, and we went out of the room, through the corridors, back to the north courtyard where we had sat earlier that evening. A great ceiling of stars stood over it. I blew out the lantern. We sat there in starlight, silent for a long time.

I asked, "What will you tell Desac?"

"My question, and that I received no answer."

"And—what the book said?"

"That is yours to tell him or not, as you choose."

"I don't know what it means. I don't know what question it was answering. I don't understand it. Does it make sense at all?"

I felt that I'd been tricked, that I'd been made use of without being told what for, as if I were a mere thing, a tool. I had been frightened. Now I was humiliated and angry.

"It makes the sense we can make of it," he said.

"That's like telling fortunes with sand." There are women in Ansul who, for a few pennies, will take a handful of damp sea sand and drop it on a plate, and from the lumps and peaks and scatters of the sand they foretell good fortune and bad, journeys, money ventures, love affairs, and so on. "It means whatever you want it to mean."

"Maybe," he said. After a while he went on, "Dano Galva said that to read the oracle is to bring rational thought to an impenetrable mystery ... There are answers in the old books that seemed senseless to those who heard them. How should we defend ourselves from Sundraman? they asked the oracle, when Sundraman first threatened to invade Ansul. The answer was, To keep bees from apple blossoms. The councillors were irate, saying the meaning was so plain it was foolish. They ordered an army to be raised to build a wall along the Ostis and defend it from Sundraman. The southerners crossed the river, knocked down the wall, defeated our army, marched here to Ansul City, killed those who resisted them, and declared all Ansul a protectorate of Sundraman. Ever since then they've been excellent neighbors, interfering with us very little, but greatly enriching us with trade. It was not a recommendation but a warning: To keep bees from apple blossoms is to have trees that bear no fruit. Ansul was the blossom and Sundraman the bee. That's clear now. It was clear to the Reader, Dano Galva; as soon as she read it she said it meant we should offer no resistance to Sundraman. For that she was called a traitor. From that time on the Gelb and Cam and Actamo clans said the Council should not consult the oracle, and pressed for the university and the library to be moved from Galvamand."

"Much good the oracle did the Reader and her house," I said.

"'The nail's hit once, the hammer a thousand times.'"

I thought that over. "What if one doesn't choose to be a tool?"

"You always have that choice."

I sat and looked up at the great depths of stars. I thought that the stars were like all the souls who lived in former times in this city, this house, all the thousands of spirits, the forerunners, lives like distant flames, lights far and farther away in the great darkness of time. Lives past, lives to come. How could you tell one from the other?

I had wanted to ask why the oracle couldn't speak plainly, why it couldn't just say Don't resist, or Strike now, instead of cryptic images and obscure words. After looking at the stars, that seemed a foolish question. The oracle was not giving orders but just the opposite: inviting thought. Asking us to bring thought to mystery. The result might not be very satisfactory but it was probably the best we could do.

I gave an enormous yawn, and the Waylord laughed.

"Go to bed, child," he said, and I did.

Making my way to my room through the dark halls and corridors I expected to lie awake, haunted by the strangeness of the cave and by the words I had read and the voice that had spoken through me saying them: Broken mend broken. I touched the god-niche by the door, fell into my bed, and slept like a stone.

10

When Desac came the next day, I wasn't with the Waylord, I was helping Ista with the wash. She and Bomi and I had the boilers going soon after dawn, set up the cranked wringer, strung the wash lines, and by noon had filled the kitchen courtyard with clean sheets and table linens blinding white and snapping in the windy, hot sunlight.

In the afternoon, walking in the old park with Shetar, Gry told me what had occurred in the morning.

The Waylord had come to the Master's room to say that Desac wished to speak with Orrec. Orrec asked Gry to come with him. "I left Shetar behind," Gry said, "since she seems to dislike Desac." They went down to the gallery, and there Desac again tried to make Orrec promise to go out and speak to the people of the city, rousing them to drive out the Alds, when the moment came.

Desac was eloquent and urgent, and Orrec was distressed, divided in mind, feeling that this was not his battle, and yet that any battle for freedom must be his. If Ansul rose up against tyranny, how could he stand aside? But he was given no choice in time or place, and also no real knowledge of how this rebellion was to be made. Desac was clearly wise to say so little about it, since it's success depended on it's being a surprise;yet, as Orrec told her, he didn't like being used, he'd rather be included.

I asked what the Waylord had said, and Gry said, "Almost nothing. Last night, you know, when Sulter said he'd 'ask,' and Desac jumped at it?—Well, nothing at all was said about that. They'd said it before we came down, no doubt."

I hated not to be able to tell her anything about the oracle;I didn't want to keep anything from Gry. But I knew it was not mine to speak of, or not yet.

She went on. " I think Sulter is worried about numbers. More than two thousand Ald soldiers, he said. Most of them near the Palace and the barracks. At least a third armed and on duty, and the others close to their weapons. How can Desac move a large enough force against them without alerting the guards? Even at night? The night guards are mounted. Asudar horses are like dogs, you know, they're trained to give a signal if they sense anything amiss. I hope that old soldier knows what he's doing! Because I think he's going to do it pretty soon."

My mind moved swiftly, thinking of fighting in the streets. How can we be free of the Aids? With sword, knife, club, stone. With fist, with force, with our rage unleashed at last. We would break them, break their power, their heads, their backs, their bodies ... Broken mend broken.

I was standing on a path among great bushes. The sun was hot on my head. My hands were dry, swollen, and sore from hot water and handling linens all the morning. Gry stood near me, watching me with alert concern. She said gently, "Memer? Where were you?"

I shook my head.

Shetar came bounding along the path to us. She halted, holding up her head with a proud and conscious air. She opened her fierce, fanged mouth, and a small blue butterfly came fluttering out and flew off, quite unconcerned.

We both laughed uncontrollably. The lion looked a little embarrassed or confused.

"She's the girl that spoke blossoms and bells and butterflies!" said Gry. "You know about her—when Cumbelo was King?"

"And her sister spoke lice and lugworms and lumps of mud."

"Oh, cat, cat," Gry said, tugging at the fur behind Shetar's ears till the lion rolled her head with pleasure, purring.

I could not put it all together. Fighting in the streets, darkness in the cave, terror, laughter, sunlight on my head, starlight in my eyes, a lion who said a butterfly.

"Oh, Gry, I wish I understood something," I said. "How do you ever make sense out of what happens?"

"I don't know, Memer. You keep trying, and sometimes it does."

"Rational thought and impenetrable mystery," I said.

"You're as bad as Orrec," she said. "Come on. Come home."

That night Orrec and the Waylord talked about the Gand Ioratth, and I found I could listen without closing my mind. Maybe it was because I had seen the Gand twice now, and despite the hateful pomp, and the cringing slaves, and my knowledge that if the whim took him he could have us all buried alive, what I had seen was a man, not a demon. A hard, tough, wily old man who loved poetry with all his heart.

Orrec spoke almost to my thought: "This fear of demons, devilry—it's unworthy of him. I wonder how much of all that he believes, in fact."

"He may not fear demons much," the Waylord said. "But so long as he can't read, he'll fear the written word."

"If I could just take a book there and open it and read from it—the same words I speak without the book—!"

"Abomination." The Waylord shook his head. "Sacrilege. He'd have no choice but to hand you over to the priests of Atth."

"But if the Alds decide to stay here, to rule Ansul, to deal with it's neighbors, with other lands and nations, they can't go on abominating what trade is based on—records and contracts. And diplomacy—let alone history, poetry! Did you know that in the City States, 'ald' means idiot.? 'No use to talk to him, he's an ald.' Surely Ioratth has begun to see the disadvantage they're at."

"Let's hope that he has. And that the new king in Medron sees it."

But I began to be impatient with this talk. The Alds weren't going to decide to stay here, rule us, deal with our neighbors. It wasn't up to them. I found myself saying, "Does it matter?"

They all looked at me, and I said, "They can go be illiterate all they please in Asudar."

"Yes," the Waylord said, "if they'll go."

"We'll drive them out."

"Into the countryside?"

"Yes! Out of the city!"

"Are our farmers able to fight them? And if we chased them clear home to Asudar—won't the High Gand see it as an insult and threat to his new power, and send more thousands of soldiers against us? He has an army. We do not."

I didn't know what to say.

The Waylord went on. "These are considerations which Desac dismisses. He may well be right to do so. 'Forethought, bane of action.' But do you see, Memer, now that things are changing among the Alds themselves, I have my first hope of regaining our liberty by persuading them that we're more profitable to them as allies than as slaves. That would take time. It would end in a compromise not a victory. But if we seek victory now and fail, hope will be hard to find."

I could say nothing. He was right, and Desac was right. The time to act was upon us, but how to act?

"I could speak for you to Ioratth better than I could speak for Desac to the crowd," Orrec said. "Tell me, are there people in the city who would talk in these terms to Ioratth, if he agreed to some negotiation?"

"Yes, and outside the city, too. We've kept in touch over the years with all the towns of the Ansul Coast, scholars and merchants, people who were waylords and mayors and officers of the festivals and ceremonies. Boys run messages from town to town, wagoners carry them along with the cabbages. The soldiers seldom search for written messages, they'd rather have nothing to do with sacrilege and wizardry."

"'O Lord Destroyer, give me an ignorant enemy!'" Orrec quoted.

"In the city, some of the men I've talked about this with over the years are with Desac now. They seek any way to get the Ald yoke off our neck. They're ready to fight. But they might be willing to talk. If the Alds will listen."

***

ORREC WAS NOT SUMMONED to the Palace the next day. Late in the morning he went down to the Harbor Market, on foot, with Gry. He didn't give any advance notice, no tent was set up, but as soon as he walked into the market square people recognised and followed him. They didn't press very close to him, partly because of Shetar, but they made a moving circle round him, greeted him, called out his name, and shouted, "Recite, recite!" One man shouted, "Read!"

I didn't walk with them. I was in boy's clothes, as usual when I went in the streets, and didn't want to be seen as Mem the groom with Gry, who wasn't in disguise. I ran round to the raised marble pavement in front of the Admirals' Tower and climbed up on the base of the horse statue there, from which I had a good view of the whole market. The statue is the work of Redam the sculptor, carved from one great block of stone;the horse stands foursquare, strong and heavy, his head raised and turned to the west, looking out to sea. The Alds had destroyed most statues in the city but left this one untouched, perhaps because it was a horse; certainly they didn't know that the sea gods, the Seunes, are imagined and worshipped in the form of horses. I touched the Seune's big stone left front hoof and murmured the blessing. The Seune returned the blessing to me in the form of shade. It was a hot day already, and going to get hotter.

Orrec took his position where the tent had been on the first day he spoke here, and the people crowded round him. The pedestal I was on soon filled up with boys and men, but I hung on to my place right between the horse's front legs, shoving back hard when people shoved me. Many of the stall keepers in the market tossed a cloth over their goods and joined the crowd to listen to the maker, or stood on a stool by their booth to see over the heads of the throng. I saw five or six blue cloaks in the crowd, and soon a troop of mounted Ald soldiers came down the Council Way to the corner of the square, but they stopped without trying to push into the crowd. There was a great hum of noise, talking and laughing and shouting, and it was a shock when all that human commotion ceased at once, dropped into utter silence, at the first note of Orrec's lyre.

He said a poem first, Tetemer's love poem "The Hills of Dom," an old favorite all up and down the Ansul Coast. When he had spoken it he sang the refrain with the lyre, and the people sang with him, smiling and swaying.

Then he said, "Ansul is a small land, but her songs are sung and her tales are told through all the Western Shore. I first learned them far to the north, in Bendraman. The makers of Ansul are famous from the farthest south to the River Trond. And there have been heroes here in peaceful Ansul and Manva, brave warriors, and the makers have told of them. Hear the tale of Adira and Marra on the Mountain Sul!"

A great, strange sound went up from the crowd, a kind of moaning roar both of joy and of grief. It was frightening. If Orrec was daunted, if the response he got was more than he'd expected, he didn't show it. He lifted his head proudly and sent his voice out strong and clear: "In the days of the Old Lord of Sul, an army came from the land of Hish..." The crowd stood completely motionless. I was fighting tears the whole time. The story, the words, were so dear to me, and I had only known them in silence, in secret, in the hidden room, alone. Now I heard them spoken aloud among a great crowd of my people, in the heart of my city, under the open sky. Across the straits the mountain stood blue in the blue haze, it's peak sharp white. I held on to the stone hoof of the Seune and fought my tears.

The tale ended, and in the silence one of the Ald horses gave a loud, ringing whinny, a regular warhorse cry. It broke the spell. The crowd laughed, moved, and began crying out, "Eho! Eho! Praise to the maker! Eho!" Some were shouting, "Praise to the heroes! Praise to Adira!" The mounted troop up at the east edge of the square shifted as if they were forming to ride into the crowd, but the people paid no attention and did not move away from them. Orrec stood quietly, his head bowed, for a long time. The tumult did not die away, and at last he spoke through it, not outshouting the crowd but as if speaking in an ordinary tone, though his voice carried amazingly: "Come on, sing with me." He raised his lyre, and as they began to quieten, he sang out the first line of his song "Liberty": "As in the dark of winter night..."

And we sang it with him, thousands of voices. Desac was right. The people of Ansul knew that song. Not from books, we had no more books. From the air—from voice to voice, from heart to heart, down through all the western lands.

When it was done and the moment of silence passed, the tumult rose again, cheers and calls for more, but also shouts as of anger, and somewhere in the crowd a deep-voiced man called out, "Lero! Lero! Lero!"—and other voices took it up as a chant, with a fast beat on a mounting tune. I had never heard it, but I knew it must be one of the old chants, the songs of festival, procession, worship, that had been sung in the streets when we were free to praise our gods. I saw the mounted troop pushing their way into the crowd, which caused enough commotion that the chant lost force and died away. I saw Orrec and Gry making their way down the steps to the east, not across the square but behind the Ald troop. The crowd was still resisting the horsemen, though slowly giving way to them—it's very hard not to get out of the way of a horse coming straight at you, I can testify. I slid down from the pedestal and wriggled through the crowd till I got onto Council Way, ran up it and cut across behind the Customs House, and met my friends on the way up West Street.

A mob of people were following them, but not closely, and most of them didn't come farther than the bridge over North Canal. The maker, the singer, is sacred, not to be intruded on. While I was still up on the pedestal I saw people touching the place where Orrec had stood on the pavement above the Admiralty steps, touching it for the blessing; and no one would walk across that spot for a while. In the same way, they followed him at a distance, calling out praise and jokes and singing his hymn to liberty. And again for a moment that chant rose up, "Lero! Lero! Lero!"

We said nothing as we climbed the hill to Galvamand. Orrec's brown face was almost grey with fatigue, and he walked blindly; Gry held his arm. He went straight to the Master's room. Gry said he would rest there a while. I began to see the cost of his gift.

***

EARLY IN THE EVENING I was down in the stable court playing with a new batch of kittens. Bomi's cats had been quite shy and retiring ever since Shetar appeared, but kittens have no fear. This lot was just old enough to be wildly funny, chasing one another over and through a woodpile, falling over their tails, stopping to stare with their little, round, intent eyes, and flying off again. Gudit had been exercising Star out on the horse path. He stood watching the kittens with a glum and disapproving air. One got into trouble, scrabbling straight up a post and then sticking there, crying, not knowing how to get back down; Gudit gently picked it off the post, like a burr, and gently put it back on the woodpile, saying, "Vermin."

We heard the clatter of hoofs, and a blue-cloaked officer rode in and halted his horse in the archway.

"Well?" said Gudit in a loud, belligerent tone, straightening up his hunched back as well as he could and glaring. Nobody rode into his stableyard uninvited.

"A message from the Palace of the Gand of Ansul to the maker Orrec Caspro," said the officer.

"Well?"

The officer looked curiously at the old man for a moment. "The Gand will have the maker attend him at the Palace late tomorrow afternoon," he said, politely enough.

Gudit gave a brief nod and turned his back. I also looked away, picking up a kitten as an excuse. I knew that elegant sorrel mare.

"Hey, Mem," somebody said. I froze. I turned around reluctantly, and there was Simme standing inside the stableyard. The officer was backing his mare out of the archway. He spoke to Simme as he turned the horse, and Simme saluted him.

"That's my dad," Simme said to me, with transparent pride. "I asked him if I could come along with him. I wanted to see where you live." His smile was fading as I stared at him saying nothing. "It's, it's really big," he said. "Bigger than the Palace. Maybe." I said nothing. "It's the biggest house I ever saw," he said.

I nodded. I couldn't help it.

"What's that?"

He came closer and bent over to see the kitten, which was squirming in my hands and needling me fiercely.

"Kitten," I said.

"Oh. Is it, is it from that lion?"

How could anybody be so stupid?

"No, just a house cat. Here!" I passed the kitten to him.

"Ow," he said, and half dropped it. It scampered off with it's tiny tail in the air.

"Claws," he said, sucking his hand.

"Yes, it's really dangerous," I said.

He looked confused. He always looked confused. It was unseemly to take advantage of anybody so confused. But it was almost irresistible.

"Can I see the house?" he asked.

I stood up and dusted my hands. "No," I said. "You can look at it from outside. But you can't go in. You shouldn't have come even this far. Strangers and foreigners stop in the forecourt until they're invited farther. People with manners dismount in the street and touch the Sill Stone before they come into the forecourt."

"Well, I didn't know," he said, backing away a little.

"I know you didn't. You Alds don't know anything about us. All you know is that we can't come under your roof. You don't even know that you can't come under ours. You are ignorant." I was trying to hold back the flood of shaking, triumphant rage that swelled in me.

"Well, look. I was hoping we could be friends," Simme said. He said it in his hangdog way. But it took some courage to say it at all.

I walked towards the arch, and he came with me.

"How can we be friends? I'm a slave, remember?"

"No you aren't. Slaves are ... Slaves are eunuchs, you know, and women, and..." He ran out of definitions.

"Slaves are people who have to do what the master orders. If they don't, they're beaten or killed. You say you're the masters of Ansul. That makes us slaves."

"You don't do anything I tell you to do," he said. "You aren't any kind of slave."

He had a point there.

We had come out of the stableyard and were walking under the high north wall of the main house. It was built of massive squared stones for ten feet up from the ground; above that was a story of finer stonework with tall double-arched windows, and high above that carved cornices supported the deep eaves of the slate roof. He glanced up at it several times, quickly, askance, the way a horse eyes something that spooks him.

We came round into the forecourt, which goes the whole width of the house. It's raised a step above the street and separated from it by a line of arcaded columns. The pavement is of polished stones, grey and black, fitted into a complex geometrical pattern, a maze. Ista told me how they used to dance the maze on the first day of the year, the spring equinox, in the old days, singing to Iene who blesses growing things. The pavement was dirty; dust and leaf litter had blown across it. It was a big job to sweep it. I tried sometimes, but I never could keep it clean. Simme started to walk across the maze.

"Get off that!" I said. He jumped, and followed me down the step between the columns into the street, staring with a startled, innocent look, almost like the kittens.

"Demons," I said with a grin, a snarl, gesturing to the grey-and-black pattern of the stones. He didn't even see it.

"What's that.?" he said. He was looking at the stump of the Oracle Fountain.

The fountain is to the right as you face the great doors. The basin is green serpentine—Lero's stone—ten feet or so across. The water had sprung from a central jet; the bronze spout stuck up, now, out of a marble lump so broken and disfigured you could hardly see that it had once been shaped as an urn and carved with watercress leaves and lilies. Dust and dead leaves lay in the basin.

"A fountain full of demon water," I said. "It ran dry centuries ago. But your soldiers smashed it all the same, to get the demons out."

"You don't have to talk about demons all the time," he said sullenly.

"Oh but look," I said, "see, around the base of the urn, those little carvings. Those are words. That's writing. Writing's black magic. Written words are all demons, aren't they. You want to go nearer and read them. Want to see some demons close up."

"Come on, Mem," he said. "Lay off." He glared at me, hurt and resentful. That was what I wanted, wasn't it.

"All right," I said after a while. "But look, Simme. There isn't any way we can be friends. Not till you can read what the fountain says. Not till you can touch that stone and ask blessing on my house."

He looked at the long, ivory-colored Sill Stone set into the center of the step, worn into a soft hollow by the hands that had touched it over all the centuries. I bent down now and touched it.

He said nothing. He turned at last and went away down Galva Street. I watched him go. There was no triumph in me. I felt defeated.

***

ORREC CAME TO DINNER that evening, recovered and hungry. We talked first of his recitation, he and Gry and I telling the Waylord what he had said and how the crowd had responded to it.

Sosta had been down to the market to hear him and now was swoonier than ever, gazing at him across the table with her face gone all soft and loose, till he had to take pity on her. He tried to joke, but that didn't work, so he tried to turn her mind from him to her real future, asking where she would live after she married. She managed to explain that her betrothed had chosen to join our household and be a Galva. Orrec and Gry, who had a great interest in the ways people do things, asked all about our customs of marriage-bargain and chosen kinship. Mostly Sosta gazed, mute with adoration, and the Waylord answered;but when Ista sat down with us at table she had a chance to boast about her son-in-law to be, which she loved to do.

"It seems hard that he and Sosta can't see each other all this time before the wedding," Gry said. "Three months!"

"Betrothed couples used to be able to meet at any public occasion," the Waylord explained. "But now we have no dances or festivals. So the poor things have to catch glances in passing..."

Sosta blushed and smirked. Her betrothed strolled by regularly with his friends every evening, just when Ista and Sosta and Bomi happened to be sitting out in the side court facing Galva Street to take the air.

After dinner the rest of us went to the little north court. We found Desac already there waiting. He came forward and took Orrec's hands and called blessing on him. "I knew you'd speak for us!" he said. "The fuse is lit."

"Let's see what the Gand thinks of my performance," said Orrec. "I might get a critical commentary."

"Has he sent for you." asked Desac. "Tomorrow. What time."

"Late afternoon—is that right, Memer?"

I nodded.

"Will you go.?" the Waylord asked.

"Of course," said Desac.

"I can scarcely refuse," Orrec said. "Though I could ask to postpone." He looked at the Waylord, alert to catch the meaning of his question.

"You must go," Desac said. "The timing is perfect." His tone was brusque and military.

I could see Orrec didn't like being told he must go. He kept his eyes on the Waylord.

"No profit in postponement, I suppose," the Waylord said. "But there may be some danger in going."

"Should I go alone.?"

"Yes," Desac said.

"No," Gry said in a calm, flat voice.

Orrec looked at me. "Everybody gives orders except us, Memer."

"'The gods love poets, for they obey the laws the gods obey,'" the Waylord said.

"Sulter, my friend, there's danger in any undertaking," Desac said with a kind of impatient compassion. "You're walled up here, away from the life of the streets, the doings of the people. You live among shadows of ancient times and share their wisdom. But a time comes when wisdom is in action—when caution becomes destruction."

"A time comes when the will to act defeats thought," the Waylord said grimly.

"How long must I wait? There was no answer given!"

"Not to me." The Waylord glanced very briefly at me.

Desac did not notice that. He was angry now. "Your oracle is not mine. I was not born here. Let books and children tell you what to do. I'll use my head. If you distrust me as a foreigner you should have told me years ago. The people who are with me trust me. They know I never wanted anything but the freedom of Ansul and the restoration of the bond with Sundraman. Orrec Caspro knows that. He stands with me. I'll go now. I'll come back here to Galvamand when the city is free. Surely you'll trust me then!"

He turned and strode out of the courtyard, not through the house but down the broken steps at the open north end. He turned the corner of the house and was gone. The Waylord stood silent, watching him.

After a long time Orrec asked, "Was I the fool who lit the fire?"

"No," the Waylord said. "A spark from the flint, maybe. No blame in that."

"If I go tomorrow I will go alone," Orrec said, but the Waylord smiled a little and looked at Gry.

"You go, I go," she said. "You know that."

After a while Orrec said, "Yes, I do. But," to the Waylord, "if I went too far today, the Gand may be forced to punish me, to show his power. Is that what you fear?"

The Waylord shook his head. "He'd have sent soldiers here. It's Desac I fear. He will not wait for Lero."

Lero is the ancient, sacred soul of the ground where our city stands. Lero is the moment of balance. Lero is a great round stone down in the Harbor Market, so poised that it might move at any time and yet has never moved.

The Waylord soon excused himself from us, saying he was tired. He gave me no sign to follow or come to him later. He went into the house, slow and lame, holding himself upright.

I woke again and again that night seeing the words in the book, Broken mend broken, hearing the voice say them, my mind going over them, over and over them, trying to make them into meaning.

11

The next morning I did the house worship very early and then went down to both markets, not only to buy the food we needed but to see what was going on in the city. I thought everything would be changed, everybody would be ready for a great thing to happen, as I was. But nobody seemed ready for anything. Everything was just as always, people in the streets hurrying, not looking at one another, keeping out of trouble;Ald guards in blue cloaks swaggering at the corner of the marketplace;vendors in their stalls, children and old women bargaining and buying and creeping home on the byways. No tension, no excitement, nobody saying anything unusual. Only once I thought I heard somebody crossing the Customs Street bridge whistle a few notes of the tune of "Liberty."

When Orrec and Chy set off for the Council House late in the afternoon they went on foot. They took Shetar, but not me. There was no reason to have a groom without a horse, and they were concerned that there might be danger. I was relieved. I didn't want to face Simme, because every time I thought of him my heart sank with shame.

But as soon as they were gone I knew I couldn't stay at home. I couldn't bear to sit in the house waiting. I had to be closer to the Council Hill, where they were. I had to be near them.

I dressed in my women's clothes, with my hair done up in a knot instead of worn long like a child or a man, so that I was Memer the girl instead of Mem the groom or Nobody the boy. I wanted to wear my own clothes because I needed to be myself. Perhaps I had to put myself into a little danger, to feel that I was with them.

I walked along Galva Street quickly, not looking up, as women always walked, till I came to Goldsmiths' Bridge over the Central Canal. The gold of Ansul had mostly gone to enrich Asudar; many of the shops on the bridge had long been closed, but some still sold cheap trinkets and worship-candles and such. I could go into one of the shops, out of the thoroughfare, and keep watch for my friends.

Even though nothing had been going on in the markets, and there was no sign of any agitation here at the bridge nearest the Council Hill, and the two Ald foot soldiers on guard duty were lounging on the bridge steps playing dice, I couldn't rid myself of the feeling that something was happening or about to happen—a sense that some great thing overhead was bending and bending, about to break.

I stood in the shadow of a shop doorway. I'd talked a little with the old man who kept the shop, telling him I was waiting to meet a friend; he nodded knowingly and disapprovingly, but let me stay. Now he dozed behind his counter with it's trays of wooden beads, glass bangles, and incense sticks. Not many people went by outside. There was a little god-niche by the door frame and I touched the sill of it now and then, whispering the blessing.

As if in a dream I saw a lion pace by, lashing it's tail.

I came out of the shop and fell into step with my friends, who looked only mildly surprised. "I like your hair that way," Gry said. She was dressed as Chy, but was no longer playing the role.

"Tell me what happened!"

"When we get home."

"No, please, now!"

"All right," Orrec said. We were on the steps at the north end of the bridge. He turned aside at the bottom, where a railed marble pavement projects out over the canal; from it a narrow flight of stairs leads down to a pier for boats and fishermen. We descended those steps to the canal bank, right under the bridge, out of sight of the street. The first thing we did was go down and touch the water, with a word of blessing for Sundis, the river that makes our four canals. Then we all squatted there, watching the brownish-green, half-transparent water run. It seemed to carry urgency away with it. But pretty soon I said, "So?"

"Well," Gry said, "the Gand wanted to hear the story Orrec told in the market yesterday."

"Adira and Marra?"

They both nodded.

"Did he like it.?"

"Yes," Orrec said. "He said he didn't know we had warriors like that. But he particularly liked the Old Lord of Sul. He said, 'There is the courage of the sword and the courage of the word, and the courage of the word is rarer.' You know, I wish I knew some way to bring him and Sulter Galva together. They're men who would understand each other."

That would have offended me a few days earlier. Now it seemed right.

"And nothing unusual happened? He didn't ask you to sing 'Liberty,' did he?"

Orrec laughed. "No. He didn't. But there was a little commotion."

"The priests started a chanting worship in the tent again, just when Orrec started reciting," Gry said. "Loud. Drums. Lots of cymbals. Ioratth went black as a thundercloud. He asked Orrec to stop, and sent an officer into the tent. And the head priest came right out, all in red with mirrors, very gorgeous he was, but grim as death. He stood there and said the holy worship of the Burning God was not to be interrupted by vile heathen impieties. Ioratth said the ceremony of sacrifice was to be at sunset. The priest said the ceremony had begun. Ioratth said it was two hours yet till sunset. The priest said the ceremony had begun and would continue. So Ioratth said, 'An impious priest is a scorpion in the king's slipper!' And he sent for slaves and had a carpet set up on poles to make shade, by the arcade above the East Canal, and we all trooped over, and Orrec went on."

"But Ioratth lost the round," Orrec said. "The priests carried on with their sacrifice. Ioratth finally had to hurry over to the big tent so he wouldn't miss the whole thing."

"Priests are good at making people jump," Gry said. "There's a lot of priests in Bendraman. Bossing people about."

"Well," Orrec said, "they're held in honor, and they perform important rites, so they get to meddling with morals and politics ... Ioratth's going to need support from his High Gand against this lot."

"I think he sees you as support," Gry said. "A way to begin making some kind of link with people here. I wonder if that's why he sent for you."

Orrec looked thoughtful, and sat thinking it over. A horse galloped by on the street high above us, with a loud, hard clackety-clackety of shod hoofs on stone. The sleek surface of the water ruffled and roiled out in the middle of the canal. The sea wind that had blown all day had died away, and this was the first breath of the land wind of evening. Shetar, who had lain down on the dirt, sat up and made a low singsong snarling noise. The fur along her spine was raised a little, making her look fluffy.

The water rippled against the lowest marble step and the pilings of the pier. There was a smoky tint in the fading, red-gold light on the wooded hills above the city. Everything down here by the water was peaceful, and yet it was as if a breath were being held, as if everything held still, poised. The lion stood up, tense, listening.

Again a horse galloped past, up on the bridge above us—more than one horse, a racket of hoofs, and the sound of running feet on the bridge, and shouting, both up there and in the distance. We were all afoot now, staring up at the marble railing and the backs of the houses on the bridge. "What's going on?" Orrec said.

I said aloud not knowing what I said, "It's breaking, it's breaking."

The shouting and yelling were directly above us now; horses neighed; there was trampling of feet, more shouting, scuffling. Orrec started up the stairs and stopped, seeing people at the marble railings, a crowd of people, fighting or struggling, yelling orders, screaming in panic. He ducked as something came hurtling over the railing, a huge dark thing that crashed onto the mud by the staircase with a heavy sodden thud. Heads appeared at the top of the stairs, men peering down, gesturing, shouting.

Orrec had leapt down off the stairs. He said, "Under the bridge!" We all four ran to hide under the low last arch of the bridge where it joined the shore, where the men on the bridge could not see us.

I saw the thing that had fallen. It was not huge. It was only a man. It lay like a heap of dirty clothes near the foot of the steps. I could not see the head.

No one came down the steps. The racket up on the bridge died suddenly, completely, though somewhere in the distance, up towards the Council House, there was a great, dull noise. Gry went to the fallen man and knelt by him, glancing up once or twice at the railing above her, from which she might be seen. She came back soon. Her hands were dark with mud or blood. "His neck's broken," she said.

"Is he an Ald?" I whispered.

She shook her head.

Orrec said, "Stay here a while, or try to get back to Galvamand?"

"Not by the street," Gry said.

They both looked at me, and I said, "By the Embankments." They didn't know what I meant. "I don't want to stay here," I said.

"Lead on," said Orrec.

"Should we wait till dark?" Gry asked.

"It'll be all right under the trees." I pointed up the canal to where great willows stooped out over the bank. I was desperate to get home. I feared for my lord, for Galvamand. I had to be there. I set out, keeping away from the water and close to the wall, and soon we were under the willows. A couple of times we stopped to look back, but there was nothing to be seen from down here but the backs of the houses on the bridge, and across the canal, the wall and treetops and rooftops. No sound came to us from the streets. The air was thick, and I thought I smelled smoke.

We came to the Embankments, the great stone walls like fortresses that hold and divide the River Sundis where it comes out of the hills. Like all the children of Ansul I had played on the Embankments, climbing the steep steps cut into the walls, leaping the gaps, running across the narrow bridges of chained planks that connect the banks for the use of workmen and dredgers. Our game then was to dare one child to cross the plank bridge while the others jumped on it so that it bounced up and down wildly in the water. Our game now was to dare Shetar to cross. She took one look at the flimsy set of planks with water slipping and sliding over them, and crouched with her shoulders up and her tail down, saying very clearly, No.

Gry immediately sat down beside her and put a hand on her head behind the ears. She and Shetar seemed to be having a discussion. I saw that much, but in my haste I'd already started across the bridge. Once you start you can't stop, keeping going is the whole trick of it. I went on across and then stood on the far bank, feeling foolish and desperate, until I saw Gry and Shetar both get up, and set out across the canal—Gry stepping steadily from plank to plank, and the lion swimming beside her, holding her fierce head clear of the water. Orrec followed Gry.

Once on shore Shetar shook herself, but cats can't shake water off like dogs. Her coat was black with wet in the twilight, and she looked shrunken, lean, and small. She showed her white teeth in a mighty snarl.

"There's another bridge and a boat," I said.

"Lead on," Orrec said.

I led them across the abutment to the East Canal; we crossed that as we had crossed the other; then up by the steep narrow side-cut stairs onto the great wedge-shaped abutment that separates the East Canal from the river itself, across it, and down again to the river. By then it was getting quite dark. We crossed the river on the line ferry that is always there. The boat was on our side; we got in and pulled across. The current is strong, and it took both Orrec and me to haul us. Shetar did not want to get into the boat, did not want to be in the boat, and growled all the way across, sometimes making a short coughing roar. She was shivering with cold or fear or rage. Gry talked to her now and then, but mostly just kept a hand on her head behind the ears.

The line ferry landing is at the foot of the old park. Gry took the leash off and Shetar leapt up into the darkness of the woods and vanished. We followed her, finding our way through the trees, up to the paths where Gry and Shetar and I had walked, and so down again to Galvamand, coming at it from the northeast. The lion ran before us like a shadow in the shadows. The house stood huge, dark, and silent as a hill.

I thought in panic, It's dead, they're dead.

I ran ahead of the others across the court, into the house, calling out. There was no answer. I ran through the Waylord's apartments, all in darkness, and on back to the secret room. My hand shook so that I could barely write the words to open the door. There was no light in the room but the faint glimmer of the skylights. No one was there. No one but the books that spoke, the presence in the cave.

I closed the door and raced back through the dark corridors and galleries to the part of the house where people lived. There was a gleam of warm light across the great court. They were all gathered in the pantry where we ate—the Waylord, Gudit, Ista, Sosta, and Bomi, and Gry and Orrec had joined them there. I stopped short in the doorway. The Waylord came to me and took me for a moment in his arms. "Child, child," he said. And I clung to him with all my strength.

We sat round the table; Ista insisted that we eat the bread and meat she had set out, and in fact I was ravenous. We told one another what we knew.

Gudit had been over at a beer house near the Central Canal where he and his old friends, all stablemen, hostlers, grooms, used to meet and sit and talk slowly about horses. "All of a sudden," he said, "we heard a lot of noise, up on the Council Hill. Then there was smoke rising, a great black fume of smoke." Trumpets were blown, and Ald soldiers, mounted and afoot, came rushing past, all heading up along Council Way. Gudit and his friends made their way as far as Galva Street, but a big crowd was already there at the entrance to the Council House square, both Alds and citizens, "yelling and carrying on, and the Alds had their swords out," he said. "I don't like crowds. I decided to go home. It stood to reason."

He tried to go along Galva Street, but the way was blocked by mobs of citizens, and there seemed to be fighting ahead. He had to go round by Gelb Street to West Street. Over on our side of town things seemed quieter, but he saw people heading towards the Council House; and as he came up to Galvamand a troop of mounted Alds went by at the gallop, swinging their swords in the air and shouting, "Out of the streets! Into your houses! Clear the streets!"

We confirmed that there had indeed been fighting on Galva Street, at Goldsmiths' Bridge, and a man thrown to his death from the bridge.

A friend of Bomi's had come running in soon after Gudit came home, reporting that "everybody said" the Council House was on fire. But a neighbor running home said it was the Aids' big tent in the Council courtyard that had been set afire, and the Aids' king had burned up inside it with a lot of the red priests.

Beyond this there was no news, for nobody dared go out in the street, in the dark, with Aid soldiers all over the place.

Ista was very frightened. I think the terrors of the fall of the city seventeen years ago came back to her that night and overwhelmed her. She set out food for us and ordered us to eat, but she didn't eat a bite herself, and her hands trembled so that she hid them on her lap.

The Waylord ordered her and the girls to bed, telling them that Orrec and Gry would be guarding the front of the house. "With the lion," he said. "You needn't worry. Nobody is going to get past the lion."

Ista nodded meekly.

"And Gudit is with the horses, as always. And Memer and I will keep watch in the old rooms. It may be a friend will come by in the night and bring us news. I hope so." He spoke so mildly and cheerfully that Ista and the girls took heart, or at least pretended to. When we'd cleaned up the kitchen they went off together with brave good-nights. They had seen Gry posted at the top of the front steps, just inside the great door, where she and Shetar could see anything and anybody that came along the street or entered the front court. Orrec made himself the link among the rest of us, checking in with Gudit now and then, and with the Waylord, and patrolling the deserted south side of the house.

For we all dreaded the same thing, more or less obscurely: that Galvamand would again be the target of the Alds' fear or revenge.

The hours of the night passed quietly. I went up several times to the Master's rooms, where I could look out over the city. There was no sign of anything unusual. The slope of the hill hides the Council House from us;I peered that way to see smoke rising or the glow of fire, but there was nothing. I came down again to rejoin the Waylord in the long gallery. We talked a little, then we sat in silence. The night was warm, a soft night of early summer. I intended to go back up to the upstairs windows, but I was sound asleep in my chair when voices roused me.

I jumped up in terror. There was a man at the far end of the room, standing in the courtyard doorway. "Can I stay, can you hide me?"

"Yes, yes," the Waylord said. "Come in. Is there anyone with you? Come in. You'll be safe here. Did anyone follow you?" He spoke in a mild, peaceable tone, with no urgency to his questions. He drew the man into the room. I ran past them to see if anyone else was there. I saw someone standing out in the courtyard, a dark form in starlight, and almost cried out in warning—but it was Orrec.

"Fugitive," he whispered.

"Did anybody follow him?"

"Not that I can see. I'll go back round. Keep watch here, Memer."

He went quickly back through the arcade. I stood in the doorway, watching out, and listening to the Waylord and the fugitive.

"Dead," the man was saying, in a hoarse whisper. He kept coughing as he spoke. "They're all dead."

"Desac?"

"Dead. All of them."

"Did they attack the Council House?"

"The tent," the man said, shaking his head. "The fire—" He broke into violent coughing. The Waylord brought him water from the carafe on the table and made him sit down to drink it. He sat near the lamp, and I could see him. I didn't know him, he wasn't one of the people who came to the house. He was a man of thirty or so, his hair wild, his clothes and face smeared with dirt or ash or blood. They were, I realised, the striped clothes worn by slaves serving at the Palace. He sat crouched in the chair, struggling to get his breath.

"They set fire to the tent," the Waylord said.

The man nodded.

"The Gand was in it? Ioratth?"

Again he nodded. "Dead, they're all dead. It burned like straw, it was like a bonfire, it burned..."

"But Desac wasn't in the tent, was he.?—No, drink some more water, tell me later. How should I call you?"

"Cader Antro," the man said.

"Of Gelbmand," the Waylord said. "I knew your father, Antro the blacksmith. The Gelbs used to lend me horses when I was Waylord. Your father was very particular about their shoes. Is he still alive, Cader?"

"He died last year," the man said. He drank off the water and sat exhausted and dazed, staring in front of him.

"We set the fire and got out," he said, "but they were there, they came round us, they pushed us back, back into the fire. Everybody screaming and pushing. I got out. I crawled out." He looked down at himself with bewilderment.

"Were you burned? Hurt?" The Waylord went closer to look him over, and touched his forearm. "You're burned there, or cut. Let's have a look at it. But first, tell me how you got here, to Galvamand? Were you alone?"

"I crawled out," Cader repeated. He was not in the quiet room with us, he was in the fire. "I crawled ... I got over above the East Canal, I jumped down. They were fighting back there, all over the square, killing people. I went ... down ... Clear to the seafront. There were guards riding down all the streets. I hid behind the houses. I didn't know where to go. I thought they might come here. To the Oracle House. I didn't know where to go."

"You did quite right," the Waylord said in the same soothing and matter-of-fact tone. "Let me get a better light here and have a look at that arm. Memer? Would you bring me more water, and a cloth?"

I didn't want to leave my guard post, but it did seem that the man had come alone and unpursued. I fetched a basin and water, cloths and the herbal salve we kept for kitchen burns and cuts; and I cleaned and dressed the burn on Cader's arm, my hands being defter at such work than the Waylord's. After being looked after, and drinking a little cup of the old brandy the Waylord kept for the Feast of Ennu and for emergencies, Cader seemed less dazed. He thanked us and haltingly asked blessing on the house.

The Waylord asked him a few more questions, but he was unable to tell us much more. A small group of Desac's people—some of them slaves of the Alds and some like Cader posing as slaves—had infiltrated the great tent and set fire to it at several places while the ceremony was going on. But the plan went wrong. "They didn't come," Cader kept saying. Some of the conspirators, like Cader and Desac, were caught leaving the burning tent;others, who were to be waiting in the square to strike down the Alds as they fled from the fire, had themselves been struck down, or had not been able to get anywhere near the tent—Cader did not know which. He began to weep as he tried to talk about it, and to cough again. "Come, come on, enough," the Waylord told him, "you need to sleep." And he took him off to his own room and left him there.

When he came back I asked him, "Do you think they're all dead? Desac, the Gand? What about the Gand's son? He was there, in the tent."

The Waylord shook his head. "We don't know."

"If Ioratth is dead and Iddor is alive, he'll take over, he'll rule," I said.

"Yes."

"He'll come here."

"Why here?"

"For the same reason Cader came here. Because this is the heart of everything in Ansul."

The Waylord, standing in the doorway looking out at the starlit court, said nothing.

"You should go to the room," I said. "You should be there."

"To the oracle?"

"To be safe."

"Oh," he said, with a little laugh, "safe ... Maybe I will yet. But let's wait out the darkness and see what daylight brings."

It was still not daylight, though, when looking from the upper windows I saw a fire, southwest of us, down somewhere near the ruined university buildings. It glowed, died down, blazed up again. There were sounds of unrest, horses clattering down distant streets, a trumpet call, faint troubling sounds of voices, many voices. Whatever the disaster in Council Square had been, the city was not cowed or pacified.

Just as the darkness began to grey and the sky to lighten above the hills behind the city, Orrec came in. With him was Sulsem Cam of Cammand, a lifelong friend of the Waylord, a fellow scholar, who had brought many rescued books to Galvamand. Now he brought news.

"Hearsay is all we have, Sulter," he said. He was a man of sixty or so, courteous, cautious, very mindful of his own and others' dignity—"a Cam through and through," the Waylord called him. Even now he spoke quite precisely. "But we have it from more than one source. The Gand Ioratth is dead. His son Iddor rules. A great many of our people are dead. Desac the southerner and my kinsman Armo died in the fire in the great tent. The Alds still have the city in their grip. Riots and fires and street fighting have broken out all night here and there. People are stoning the soldiers from roofs and windows as they pass. But the attacks on the Alds have no leader that we know of. They're random, scattered. The Alds have an army, we have not."

I remembered someone saying that, days ago it seemed, months ago;who had said it?

"Let Iddor be certain of his army, then," the Waylord said. "We have a city, they do not."

"Bravely said. But Sulter, I am afraid for you. For your household."

"I know it, my friend. I know that's why you came here, at risk to yourself. I am grateful. May all the gods and spirits of my house and yours go with you: and go home now, before it's daylight!"

They clasped each other's hands, and Sulsem Cam went back as he had come.

The Waylord went to check on the fugitive, who was fast asleep, then out to the little basin fountain in the back atrium to wash, as he did every morning, and then he began the rounds of the daily worship, as he did every morning. At first I thought I couldn't possibly do the worship, but it seemed to draw me. I went out and picked Iene's leaves and put them at her altar, and started round to all the god-niches to dust them and say the blessings.

Ista was up and bustling in the kitchen. She said the girls were still asleep, having been awake half the night. Going towards the front of the house I heard voices in the great inner courtyard.

Gry stood on the far side, talking with a woman. The first sunlight was just striking the roofs above the open courtyard, and the air was sweet and summercool;the two women stood by the wall in shadow, one in white, one in grey, under a flowering vine, like figures in a painting. Everything was charged, intense, vivid.

I crossed over to them. "This is Ialba Actamo," Gry said to me, and to the woman, "This is Memer Galva."

Ialba was small, slight, a delicate woman in her thirties, with keen eyes. She wore the pale striped dress of the Palace slaves. We greeted each other cautiously.

"Ialba brings us news from the Palace," Gry said.

"Tirio Actamo sends me," the woman said. "I bring word of the Gand Ioratth."

"He's dead?"

She shook her head. "He is not. He was hurt in the attack and the fire. His son had him carried into the Palace and told the soldiers he was dying. We think he'll announce his death. But he's not dead! The priests took him to the prison there. With my lady. She's with him there. If Iddor kills him, she'll die with him. If the officers knew he was alive they might rescue them. But there's no one I can speak to there—I hid all night, I came here by the hill paths—My lady said to go to the Waylord, tell the Waylord he is not dead." Her voice was level, light, and even, but I realised that she was shaking, her whole body shivering, quivering, as she spoke.

"You're cold," I said. "You've been out all night. Come to the kitchen."

And she came meekly with me.

When I said her name to Ista, Ista looked her over and said, "You're Benem's daughter. I was at your mother's wedding. We were friends, your mother and I. You were always Lady Tirio's favorite, when you were just a child, I remember that. Sit down, sit down, I'll have something hot here in just a moment. Why, your clothes are all wet! Memer! Take the girl to my room and find her some dry clothes!"

While I did that, Gry ran back to give Ialba's news to the Waylord and Orrec;and I rejoined them soon, leaving Ialba in good hands. I brought with me a basket of bread and cheese, for I was hungry and thought the others might be too. We sat and ate and talked—what did the news Ialba carried mean, what could we do? "We need to know what is going on!" the Waylord said in frustration, and Orrec said, "I'll go and find out."

"Don't you show your nose in the streets," Gry said fiercely. "Everybody knows you! I'll go."

"They know you, too," he said.

"Nobody knows me," I said. I swallowed a last mouthful of bread and cheese and stood up.

"Everybody in this city knows everybody else," Orrec said, which was more or less true. But my being recognised as the half-blood boy or girl who did the shopping for Galvamand was no great danger, and to the Ald soldiers I was completely insignificant.

"Memer, you should be here," the Waylord said.

If he had commanded me to stay I would have obeyed, but it was a protest rather than a command, or so I took it. "I will be careful, and I'll be back in an hour," I said. I had already changed into boy's clothing, and now I let my hair down and tied it back and started out, leaving by the north courtyard. Gry followed me and gave me a hug. "Be careful, lion," she murmured.

12

I looked in at the stables. Gudit was walking Branty round the court, scowling;he nodded to me. He had set out pitchforks and other tools ready to use as weapons. He would die defending the stable, the horses, Galvamand. As I crossed the forecourt, still shadowed by the house and the rise of the hills, my breath stuck in my throat, because I saw the old man with his bald head and his hunched back and his pitchfork facing a cavalry troop with lances and bare swords, and I saw him cut down, I saw him die. Like the heroes of old. Like the warriors of Sul.

Galva Street lay empty before and behind me as I crossed the North Canal Bridge. The city seemed very silent. Again my breath caught: was it a deathly silence, despite the sweet morning sunlight and the scent of flowering trees? Where were my people?

I turned and cut through the back ways past Gelbmand and over by Old Street, heading for the Harbor Market. I didn't dare go towards Council Hill. I was nearly at the marketplace, and still spooked by the silence of the city, when I heard shouting, some way off, towards Council Way, and then the repeated summons of a shrill Ald trumpet. I ran back up West Street, out in the open, since there was no one about, until I got back to Gelb Street. Down it came a couple of Ald horsemen, just as Bomi had described them, riding at a canter, waving bared swords, shouting, "Clear the streets! Into your houses!"

I ducked behind a broken shrine of Ennu, and they didn't see me. They rode on, and soon I heard the hoofbeats and the distant shouts on the Downway, passing the Foothill Market. I touched the sill of the shrine and said the blessing and went on the byways between houses back up to Galvamand. I had hoped to join a crowd and be invisible and learn what was going on, but there were no crowds. Only soldiers. That was all I had learned, and it was heavy news.

Gry and Shetar were waiting for me at the front door of Galvamand. Four men had come to the back of the house, she said, all of them known to the Waylord, all of them members of Desac's conspiracy. They had been posted, yesterday, on the East Canal with a force that was to attack the Alds in the Council House courtyard when the great tent was set afire;but not all of them had got there when the fire started, earlier than planned. The Ald soldiers had been very quick to gather and defend themselves, and soon took the offensive. The rebel force was broken apart and men were cut down as they tried to escape. They had scattered out over the city. These four spent the night first hiding in the ruins of the university, then making guerrilla attacks on Ald troops. They made their way to Galvamand because the word was all over the city that whoever wanted to fight for Ansul should go there, to the Waylord's house, the House of the Oracle.

"For refuge.? Or to make a stand?" I asked Gry.

"I don't know. They don't know," she said. "Look."

A troop of seven or eight men came running round the corner from West Street towards us. They were citizens, not Alds. One of them had a bandaged arm and they all looked fairly desperate. I went out on the steps and faced them. "Are you coming here?" I called.

"The Alds are coming here," the one in the lead answered. He stopped at the Sill Stone and touched it. "Blessing on the souls of the household, living and having lived. The soldiers at the Council House—they'll be here soon. So we're told. Tell the Waylord to lock his doors!"

"I doubt he will," I said. "Will you help us guard them?"

"That's what we're here for," he said. The others were coming up and touching the Sill Stone. One of them said, "There's the lion, look."

"Will you come in?" I said.

"No, we'll stay here and wait for them, I think," the leader said. He was a dark-faced fellow; he had lost his hair tie, and his mane of long black hair made him look wild, but he spoke quietly. "There'll be others coming. If you had any water, though..." He looked wistfully at the dry basin of the broken fountain.

"Go around to the side, there, to the stable," I said. "There's running water. Ask Gudit to let you in."

"I know Gudit," one of the men said. "He's my dad's friend. Come on." They trotted on round to the stable. Already another, larger group was coming along the street from the other direction, from the Downway, twenty men or more, some of them armed with edge-tools, one brandishing an Ald saber. We made them welcome, and they too were thirsty, after what one of them called a hot night's work, so we sent them around to get a drink at the stables.

At least Gudit wouldn't be standing there alone with his pitchfork, as I had imagined him.

I ran in to tell the Waylord I was back safe and report to him that the city seemed empty, but that the forecourt of Galvamand was now getting rather crowded, and the rumor was that Ald soldiers were coming here.

This was confirmed by all the people who came. They kept arriving, a few at a time, members of Desac's conspiracy, or men and boys who had joined them after the aborted coup at the Council Square. They all said Desac and the Gand had both died in the fire. Some said hundreds of soldiers had been killed in the square, others said the dead were almost all citizens and the Alds were as strong as ever.

As the morning went on, there were more and more women among the people who came to Galvamand, walking in groups, some with a distaff in hand, a few with a baby in a sling. One group of five old women came, all carrying stout sticks and looking about grimly. Four stooped to touch the Sill Stone;the fifth, who was crippled with arthritis and couldn't stoop, just swept her stick across it with a short and testy blessing that sounded more like a swearword.

I stood in the doorway of the house, at the top of the steps, thinking it was like a market fair, or a recitation, or a festival—a sacred ceremony of the old days, such as I had never seen—the people of the city gathering, talking, chatting, idling, waiting, excited yet patient.... But they would have worn finer clothes to a festival. They would have brought flowering branches to a festival, not swords, knives, daggers, pruning hooks, sticks.

Two men with crossbows had posted themselves one on each side of the door.

There was a great noise, southward down Galva Street, in the direction of the Council House: trumpets and horns braying, drums beating, a roar of voices. The noise went on for some while, ceased, began again.

A little boy of seven or eight came running down the street, his feet flying, his hair flying. "It's the new Gand!" he shouted. "He's there with all the soldiers! And there's redhats making speeches!"

Everybody gathered round him. A man took him up on his shoulders and he piped out the message he had heard, which sounded very strange in his thin, sweet voice: "The Gand Ioratth is dead, the Gand Iddor rules! All hail the Son of the Sun, the Sword of Atth, the Lord Iddor, who comes to subdue the enemies of Atth and destroy the demons of Ansul!"

Like an echo, far down the street, trumpets and horns blared out again, voices roared, drums thumped.

From the crowd round Galvamand there was a groaning mutter of response. People shifted uneasily. I saw several groups climb over the low wall into the neglected gardens across the street, getting out of harm's way.

I turned and ran into the house again, back through court and corridor to the old rooms, where Orrec and the Waylord stood talking with Per Actamo and some other men of the Actamo household. They turned to me. I said, "Orrec, maybe you could come speak to the people."

They all stared at me.

"The new Gand and the army are on the way here," I said. "People don't know what to do."

"You should go," the Waylord said to Orrec—not meaning go out to the people, but meaning go up into the hills, escape. "Now."

"No, no," Orrec said. He put his hand on the Waylord's arm.

They both held still, silent, for a moment. Then the Waylord turned away.

"It will all be gone," he said aloud in utter despair and grief. "The books lost, the makers dead." He hid his face with his broken hands.

We all stood silent, shaken by that cry.

The Waylord looked up at last; he looked at me.

"Will you come with me, Memer.? Can I save you, at least?"

I could not answer. But I could not follow him.

He saw that. He came and kissed my forehead and blessed me. Then he went off, walking very lame, to the back of the house, to the hidden room.

"Will he be safe.?" Orrec asked me.

"Yes," I said.

Even inside the walls of Galvamand we could hear the sound of the trumpets now.

With nothing further said, we all went forward through the great courtyard and the high gallery to the front doors of the house, where Gry and Shetar stood like a statue of a woman and a lion.

I went to Gry and put my arm around her, because I had to have somebody to hold. I had let my dear lord go, I had not held him, I had let him walk away alone to be safe, to live, not to be hurt again. But I had to have somebody to hold.

Gry put her arm around me. We stood there in the doorway of the house. Per Actamo and the others went outside, but Orrec kept back, behind us. He knew that if he came out on the steps and the crowd saw him, he must act, he must speak, and he was not ready to act or speak. The time had not come.

People came, still crowding into the street and the gardens across it, people of Ansul, more and more of them. I couldn't even see the grey-and-black maze of the forecourt;it was a moving pavement of people, alive as it hadn't been in all my lifetime. The crowd gathered and gathered. Galva Street itself was crowded now both north and south as far as I could see.

The trumpets sounded again, a noise that thrilled in the blood, and the drums beat nearer.

There was a wave in the crowd in the street south of us like a tidal bore driving up a canal, pushing everything before it;people shouted, screamed, clambered up onto curbs and walls, making way for the force that drove them, forced them out of the street, pushed them aside: mounted Ald guards, their curved swords slashing and sweeping the air, their horses rearing and striking out with their hoofs. They came straight through the crowd in the streets and stopped in front of Galvamand, a compact troop of fifty or more horsemen. With them, among them, defended by them, eight or ten red-clad, red-hatted priests rode close round a man in the broad, pointed hat of the Ald nobility, cloaked in flowing gold.

Behind the mounted troop many people were still in panic, trying to get out of the way, while others struggled to go to the help of those who had been struck down or trampled. There was great confusion and great fear. But all the people I could see all the way down the street were men and women of Ansul. If there were more soldiers coming behind the cavalry, they had not made their way through the crowd.

A circle of emptiness had formed all round the cavalry troop in the forecourt, like the space that had been round Gry and Shetar that first morning at the market, but much larger. I could see the figures of the maze on the pavement inside the circle of snorting, fidgeting horses.

The group of redhat priests rode forward to the steps of the house, and the man in gold rode forward from among them. It was the Gand's son Iddor, the big, handsome man. The cloak he wore shone like the sunlight itself. He stood in the stirrups and raised his sword high. He shouted out words which I could not hear over the shouting of his soldiers and the strange noise of the crowd, the groaning roar.

Then all at once all sounds nearby died out, leaving only the noise of the crowds farther away, who could not see what was happening.

What I saw, what the soldiers and the nearby crowd and Iddor saw, was Gry, who came out of the door with Shetar, unleashed, beside her. Woman and lion paced forward and descended the wide steps slowly, walking straight at Iddor.

And he drew back.

Maybe he couldn't keep his horse from flinching, maybe he pulled the reins: the white horse and it's gold-cloaked, dazzling rider drew back a step, and back a step again.

Gry stood still and the lion stood motionless beside her, snarling.

"You cannot come into this house," Gry said.

Iddor was silent.

A little, soft, jeering whisper began to run through the crowd.

Down the street, far down, a trumpet sounded. It broke the paralysis. Iddor's horse backed again and then stood steady. Iddor stood in the stirrups and shouted out in a powerful voice: "The Gand Ioratth is dead, murdered by rebels and traitors! I, his heir, Iddor, Gand of Ansul, claim vengeance. I declare this house accursed. It will be destroyed, it's stones will fall, and all it's demons will perish with it. The Mouth of Evil will be stopped and silenced. The one God will reign in Ansul! God is with us! God is with us! God is with us!"

The soldiers shouted those last words with him. But then their shouts went ragged, as another sound began, a murmur that spread and spread through the crowd: "Look! Look! Look at the fountain!"

I was still standing in the doorway, between the crossbowmen who guarded the door of Galvamand, their bows ready to fire, both aimed at Iddor. A man had come to stand beside me there. I thought it was Orrec, then I did not know who it was, a tall man, his hand held out, pointing straight at the Oracle Fountain. The basin with it's broken jet was just within the empty circle of the guards.

I saw him then. I saw him, for once, as he had been, and as my heart had always known him: a tall, straight, beautiful man, smiling, with fire in his eyes. I followed his pointing hand and saw what the people below were seeing—a thin jet of water that leapt up into the light. It poised there and fell away to crash with a silvery racket in the dry basin. It sank, leapt up again, higher and stronger, and the voice of the falling water filled the air.

"The fountain," people cried, "the Oracle Fountain!" There was a movement forward, pressing in on the cavalrymen, as people tried to see better or to reach the fountain itself. An officer shouted an order, and the horsemen began to turn their horses outward to face the crowd. But their close ranks had been broken, and the officer's voice was lost in a new roar of sound.

The Waylord put his hand on my shoulder and said, "Come with me, Memer."

Gry and Shetar had drawn aside, on the steps above to the fountain. I went with the Waylord out onto the broad top step, where he halted and spoke.

"Iddor of Medron, son of Ioratth," the Waylord said, and his voice was like Orrec's, it filled the air, it commanded the ear, it held the mind, and the great crowd was still—"You lie. Your father lives. You imprisoned him and falsely claimed his power. You betray your father, you betray your soldiers who serve you faithfully, you betray your god. Atth is not with you. He abhors the traitor. And this house will not fall. This is the House of the Fountain, and the Lord of the Springs protects it, sending it the blessing of his waters. This is the House of the Oracle, and in the books of this house your fate and ours is written!"

He had in his left hand a book, a small one, and he held it up now as he strode down the steps. He was not lame, he was lithe and quick. I went beside him. I saw Shetar's laughing snarl as we passed her. We stopped a few steps above the pavement, so our faces were on a level with Iddor's as he sat on his nervous horse. The Waylord held the book up, open, right in Iddor's face. I could see the man in the shining cloak control himself, force himself not to flinch away from it.

"Can you read it, son of Ioratth? No? Then it will be read to you!"

And then there was a ringing in my ears. I cannot truly say what it was I heard, nor can anyone who was there that morning, but it seemed to me that a voice cried out, a loud, strange voice that rang out all around us, over the forecourt where the fountain leapt, and rang echoing off the walls of Galvamand. Some say it was the book itself that cried out, and I think it was. Some say that it was I, that it was my voice. I know I read no words in that book—I could not see it's pages. I don't know whose voice it was that cried out. I don't know that it was not mine.

The words I heard were, Let them set free!

But others heard other words. And some heard only the crashing water of the fountain in the great silence of the crowd.

What Iddor heard I don't know.

He shuddered away from the book, crouching in the saddle and hunching his shoulders as if against something that struck at him. His hands must have tightened on the reins to urge his horse forward or pull it back, but awkwardly, so that the horse reared up and bucked, unseating him. The shining figure in cloth of gold jerked and slipped and slithered down and staggered on the ground, while the squealing horse backed away and away, half dragging him with it. We stood still on the steps;Gry and Shetar had come to stand with us, and Orrec had joined us.

The priests closed in around Iddor, some trying to assist him from horseback, others dismounting. Across this knot of confusion the Waylord's voice rang clearly: "Men of Asudar, soldiers of the Gand Ioratth, your lord is held prisoner in the Palace. Will you go set him free?"

Then it was Orrec whose voice rang out. "People of Ansul! Shall we see justice done? Shall we go free the prisoner and the slaves? Shall we take freedom into our own hands?"

A wild yell went up at that, and the crowd began to surge down the street towards the Council House. "Lero! Lero! Lero!"—the deep chant ran through them. They flowed around the cavalrymen like the sea flowing around rocks. The officer shouted out orders, the trumpet blew a brief command, and the horsemen, some moving in a body and some straggling behind, all began to go with the crowd, amid them, borne with them, down Galva Street towards the Council House.

The red-hatted priests had got Iddor back up on his horse. Shouting to one another, they followed the mass of the crowd. None of the soldiers that had escorted them had waited for them.

Orrec spoke briefly with Gry and now rejoined Per Actamo and the small group of men who had come to stand with the Waylord and me on the steps. "Go, follow them!" the Waylord said urgently, and Orrec and the others set off after Iddor and the priests.

Not all the crowd joined in the rush down Galva Street to the Palace. People stayed in the street and on the forecourt, many of them women and older people. They all seemed both drawn to and awed by that high jet of water and the lame man who now hobbled down the steps to the basin and sat down awkwardly on it's broad rim.

He was as I had always known him, not straight and tall but bent and lame, but he was my heart's lord then and always.

He looked up at the leap and spray of the jet catching the morning sunlight above the shadow of the house. His face shone with water or tears. He reached down and laid his hand on the water, still rising in the wide stone bowl. I had followed him and stood close by him. He was whispering the praise to Lero and the Lord of the Springs, over and over. People rather timidly gathered at the fountain's rim, and they too touched the water, and looked up at the sunlit jet, and spoke to the gods of Ansul.

Gry came to me, holding Shetar now on a close leash, often putting a hand on her head;the lion was still snarling and yawning, still excited and enraged by the noise, the crowds. I saw why Gry had not tried to follow Orrec, though I knew she must long to. I said, "Gry, I can keep Shetar here."

"You should go," she said.

I shook my head. "I stay here," I said. Those words came from my own heart, in my own voice, and I smiled with joy as I said them.

I looked up at the column of water that leapt from the cylinder of bronze and towered high, breaking into a great bright-showering blossom at the top. The silvery crash and racket of it's fall were wonderful. I sat down on the broad green lip of the basin and did as the Waylord did: I put my hands on the water and in it, and let the spray fall on my face, and gave thanks and praise to the gods and shadows and spirits of my house and city.

Gudit came around the corner of the courtyard. He carried a pitchfork. He halted and looked around at the scattered, quiet people.

"They gone, then?"

"To the Palace—the Council House," Gry called back.

"Stands to reason," the old man said. He turned and started to trudge back to the stables;then he turned again and stared at the fountain.

"Merciful Ennu," he said at last. "She's running again!" He scratched his cheek, stared a while longer, and went back to his horses.

13

I can tell what happened at the Council House as Orrec and Per Actamo told us afterwards. The troop of priests surrounding Iddor forced their way forward through the crowd in Galva Street. Orrec and Per managed to keep directly behind them. When they came to the Council Square, the soldiers guarding it shouted, "Let the Gand Iddor pass!" and began to open the way for the troop of priests. But Iddor and his red-hats rode straight past, gaining speed as the crowd thinned out. Orrec thought they were making for the Isma Bridge to escape from the city, but they were circling round the back of the Council House to get to the entrance door on the far side, above the Alds' barracks. Soldiers guarded the four-foot-high stone wall that marked off the back court. At Iddor's shouted command, they opened the gate, and the troop of priests galloped in.

But with them came a mob of citizens, who had joined Orrec and Per following the priests past the entrance to the square. Soldiers attacked the citizens as they came pushing in the open gate and swarming over the wall, and citizens mobbed the soldiers. Iddor and his redhats broke through the confusion, leapt off their horses, and made straight for the back door of the Council House. Orrec and Per kept right behind them through the melee—the tail of the comet, Orrec said.

Before they knew what was happening they were inside the Council House, still on the heels of Iddor and the priests, who were so intent on getting where they were going that they paid no attention to their pursuers. They all raced through a high hallway and down a flight of stairs. At the foot of the stairs was a basement corridor dimly lit by small windows high in the wall at ground level. Where this corridor opened into a large, low guardroom, the priests and Iddor halted, shouting orders—at guards posted there, or at an opposing force coming from the square.? Orrec said it was all shouting and confusion for a while, Alds yelling at Alds. He and Per had held back;now they went forward cautiously to the doorway.

The red-hatted priests and a troop of soldiers stood facing each other, the officers demanding to see the Gand Ioratth, the priests saying, "The Gand is dead! You cannot defile the rites of mourning!" The priests had their backs against a door and stood firm. Iddor was barely visible among them. He had cast off his golden hat and cloak somewhere. A priest advanced on the officers, formidable in his tall red hat and robes, his arms raised, shouting that if they did not disperse he would curse them in the name of Atth. The soldiers drew back from him, cowed.

Then all at once Orrec strode straight at the priest, shouting, "Ioratth is alive! He is alive in that room! The oracle has spoken! Open the door of the prison, priests!" Or so Per reported his words. Orrec himself recalled only shouting out that Ioratth was not dead, and then the officers shouting, "Open the door! Open the door!" And then, he told us, "I ducked back out of it," for swords and daggers flashed out on both sides, the soldiers attacking the priests who defended the door, driving them away and down the farther corridor. An officer sprang forward and unbolted and flung open the door.

The room beyond was black, unlighted. In the glimmer of lantern light in the doorway a wraith appeared, a white figure out of the darkness.

She wore the striped gown of an Ald slave, torn and streaked with filth and blood. Her face was bruised, one eye swollen shut, and her scalp covered with blackened, clotted blood where her hair had been torn out by handfuls. She gripped a broken stake in her hand. She stood there, Orrec said, like a candle flame, luminous, trembling.

Then she saw the man who stood beside Orrec, Per Actamo, and her face slowly changed. "Cousin," she said.

"Lady Tirio," Per said. "We're here to set the Gand Ioratth free."

"Come in, then," she said. Orrec said she spoke as gently and civilly as if she were welcoming guests into her home.

The struggle in the corridor had intensified and then quieted. One of the soldiers brought in a lantern from the guardroom, and light and shadow leapt round the officers as they entered the prison chamber. Per and Orrec followed them. It was a large, low room, earth-floored, with a foul, damp, heavy smell. Ioratth lay on a long chest or table, his arms and legs chained. His hair and clothing were blackened and half burnt away, and his legs and feet were bloody and crusted with burns. He reared up his head and said in a voice like a wire brush on brass, "Let me loose!"

While his officers were busy getting the chains off him, he saw Orrec and stared. "Maker! How did you get here."

"Following your son," Orrec said.

At that Ioratth glared round and wheezed out in his smoke-ruined voice, "Where is he. Where is he."

Orrec, Per, and the officers looked round, ran back to the guardroom. Four priests were being held there by soldiers. The rest were gone, Iddor with them.

"My lord Gand," said one of the officers, "we'll find him. But if now—if you'd show yourself to the troops, my lord—They believe you're dead—"

"Hurry up, then!" Ioratth growled.

As soon as they freed his arms he reached out and caught the hand of the woman who stood silent beside him.

When they got his legs free he tried to stand up, but his burnt feet would not bear his weight;he cursed and sat back down abruptly, still gripping Tirio Actamo's hand. The officers grouped round to carry him in a chair hold. "With her," he said, gesturing impatiently. "With them!" gesturing at Orrec and Per.

So the whole group stayed together as they went up the stairs to the high gallery that encircles the Council Chamber and along it to the front of the great building, through it's anteroom. They came out into blazing sunlight under the columns of the portico, on the speakers' terrace that looks out over the Council Square.

The whole vast expanse of the square was a mass of people, and more still were pushing into it from every entrance, a greater number of people than Orrec had ever seen, the citizens outnumbering the Ald forces by thousands.

When Iddor, the man they thought their new lord and general, had ridden on past the entrance from Council Way with no signal to them, the bewildered soldiers began to heed the growing rumor that the Gand Ioratth was alive. Confused, divided in allegiance, some turning on others as traitors to Ioratth or to Iddor, they had broken ranks. Citizens had pushed into the square, armed with whatever they had. Before real fighting began, realising how outnumbered they were, the officers quickly rallied the soldiers and pulled them together out of the crowd. Most of the Alds now stood on the steps of the Council House and the pavement in front of it. In their blue cloaks, they formed a solid half circle facing the Ansul crowd, their swords bared, not threatening attack directly but not yielding.

The crowd, though tumultuous, kept back, leaving a ragged no-man's-land between their front ranks and the soldiers.

"There was an awful stink of burning," Orrec told us. "Vile—hard to breathe. The air was full of dust, fine black dust, hanging there, the ash and cinders the crowd had trodden and trampled and kicked into the air. And I saw a strange thing sticking up out of that roil and press of people. It looked like the prow of a wrecked ship. I realised at last it was part of the frame of the great tent, with burnt canvas clinging to it. And there were whirlpools in the sea of people, places where men who'd been killed or wounded in the rush into the square were lying, while some people still pressed on past them and others stopped to protect them. And the noise, I didn't know human beings could make a noise like that, it was terrifying, it never ceased, a kind of huge howling..."

He thought he could not force himself to go forward and stand facing that mob. His head swam with panic. The officers he was with were also clearly frightened and uncertain, but they carried their Gand forward staunchly. And they shouted out, "The Gand Ioratth! He lives!"

The soldiers below turned, stared up, saw him, and began to shout, "He lives!"

Ioratth was saying irritably to the men carrying him, "Put me down!" and they finally obeyed. He got a firm grip on the arm of one of them with one hand, and on Tirio's shoulder with the other. He managed to take a step forward, grimacing with pain, and to stand there facing the crowd. The roar of his soldiers' salute dominated the bellowing of the crowd for a while, but soon the terrible noise was growing again, drowning the shouts of "He lives!" in shouts of "Death to the tyrant! Death to the Alds!"

Ioratth raised his hand. The authority of that ragged, fire-scarred, shaky figure brought silence. And he spoke—"Soldiers of Asudar, citizens of Ansul!"

But his smoke-hoarsened voice did not carry. They could not hear him. One of the officers stepped forward, but Ioratth ordered him back. "Him, him!" he said, gesturing Orrec forward. "They'll listen to him! Talk to them, Maker. Quiet them down."

The crowd saw Orrec then, and a roar went up from them. They shouted, "Lero! Lero!" and "Liberty!"

Amid that tumult, Orrec said to Ioratth, "If I speak to them, I speak for them."

The Gand nodded impatiently.

So Orrec raised his hand for silence, and a rumbling, muttering silence spread out through the huge mob.

He told us that he'd had no idea what he would say from one word to the next, and couldn't remember what he said. Others remembered well, and wrote down his words later: "People of Ansul, we have seen the water of the dead fountain run. We have heard the voice that was silent speak. The oracle bade us set free. And so we have done this day. We have set free the master, we have set free the slave. Let the men of Asudar know they have no slaves, let the people of Ansul know they have no masters. Let the Alds keep peace and Ansul will keep peace with them. Let them sue for alliance and we will grant them alliance. In living token of that peace and that alliance, hear Tirio Actamo, citizen of Ansul, wife of the Gand Ioratth!"

If the Gand was taken aback, it didn't show on his battered, sooty face; he stood there, not able to do much more than keep standing, holding on to Tirio while she spoke. Her voice was clear and valiant but very frail, and all the crowd in the square went silent to hear her, though there was still a hoarse continual tumult of noise from all the nearby streets.

"May the gods of Ansul be blessed again, who will bless us with peace," she said. "This is our city. Let us hold it as we always held it, lawfully. Let us be a free people once again. Luck and Lero and all our gods be with us!"

The deep chant of "Lero! Lero!" rose up from the crowd following on her words. Then a man broke forward from the crowd, shouting out, "Give us our city! Give us back our Council House!"

Those who were there said that was the most dangerous moment of all: if the crowd had simply pressed forward in it's huge irresistible force to occupy the Council House and had met the army standing firm, they would have fought, and Ald soldiers fight to the death. It was Ioratth who prevented a slaughter, rasping out orders to his officers, who shouted them full voice and relayed them by trumpet calls, rallying the soldiers and shifting the whole mass of them rapidly over from the Council House steps to the area east of it, clearing the steps for the wild crowd who had begun to flood up and surge into the building. It was the soldiers' discipline, Orrec said, that saved them and the thousands of citizens who would have died in such a battle. The Gand's order had been, "Down arms," and after that not one soldier raised his sword even when shoved, struck, or pushed aside by exultant, vengeful civilians.

To escape the onrush of the mob, Orrec and Per stayed with the knot of officers, who chair-lifted Ioratth again and ran with him to the east end of the terrace and down the side steps to join the ranks that were reforming there. Tirio, Per, and Orrec followed them. A litter was fetched for the Gand. When they got him settled, he promptly summoned Orrec.

"Well said, Maker," he said, half audible, with a kind of grim salute. "But I have no authority to make an alliance with Ansul."

"Best obtain it, my lord," said Tirio Actamo in her silvery voice.

The old Gand looked up at her. Evidently he saw her bruises, her puffed eye, her torn hair and blood-clotted scalp clearly for the first time. He sat up staring, glaring, shouting in a whisper, "The damned—the damned traitor—Atth strike him dead! Where is he?"

The officers looked at one another.

"Find him!" wheezed the Gand, and began to cough.

Tirio Actamo knelt beside the litter and put her hand on his. "Ioratth, you must be quiet a while," she said.

He laughed through his coughing and gripped her hand. Looking up at Orrec, he said, "Married us, did you?"

***

IT SEEMED A LONG time before Orrec came back to us at Galvamand, yet it was still early afternoon of that day that had already been as long as a year.

The Waylord had come in at my urging for some food and a brief rest, but then he returned to the reception hall that ran along the front of the house, called the high gallery. It had never been used in my lifetime and had no furnishings. It's doors, the wide front doors of Galvamand, stood open now. He asked for chairs and benches to be brought, and there were plenty of willing hands to bring them, not only from other rooms but from houses nearby. He sat down there and made himself available to all who came.

And they came, dozens of people, hundreds. They came to see the Oracle Fountain run, and to hear those who had been there tell how the oracle had spoken and what it had said;that was when I first learned that not all had heard the same words, or that as the words were repeated they were changed and changed again. People came to see the Waylord, Galva the Reader, to greet him, to take counsel with him. Many who came were working men and women, others were or had been merchants, magistrates, mayors of wards of the city and members of the Council. They were all poor because we were all poor, you couldn't tell shoemakers from shipmasters by their clothes. Some of the working people came in only to bless the gods of the house and greet the Reader of the oracle with awed and joyful respect and be gone again, but others stayed along with the mayors and councillors, the merchants and members of great households, to sit and talk about what was happening and air their opinions on what could and should be done. So I first saw what it was to be a citizen, and what it was to be a waylord, too.

I stayed with him to wait on his needs and because he asked me to be there. I found it difficult, because people looked at me with awe and fear. Some of them made the gesture of worship to me. I felt utterly false and foolish, and had no idea what to say to anybody. But they had the Waylord to talk to. And fortunately I had to go to the kitchen pretty often to give a hand to Ista, who was almost crazy with excitement and anxiety. The house was full again at last—"It's like the old days!" she said over and over. "The good days."—but she had no food to offer the guests of the house. "I can't even offer them water!" she said, tears of rage springing into her eyes. "I haven't got enough drinking cups!"

"Borrow them," said Bomi.

"No, no," Ista said, offended at the thought, but I said, "Why not.?"—and Bomi darted off to extort drinking cups from neighbors. I went back to the reception hall and spoke to Ennulo Cam, the wife of Sulsem Cam who had come last night—a year ago!—and had returned now with his wife and son to sit and talk with the Waylord and the others. I explained our need to her, and very soon a couple of boys from Cammand brought us a half hundred heavy glass goblets, telling Ista, as they had been bidden, "A gift from our house to the blessed House of the Fountain." It was hard for Ista to take offense at that, though she scowled. From then on she kept Bomi and Sosta frantic, fetching water for every guest and taking back and washing out the goblets. She still wanted to offer food, of course, to everyone, but I did not see my way to begging on that scale. I said to her that the people came to talk not eat. She scowled again, bit her lip, and turned away. I realised then that I had given her an order, and she had taken it.

I went to her and put my arms round her. She hadn't cuffed me for years, but she never had been one for hugs. "Bymother," I said, "don't fret! Be happy with the spirits and shadows of our house. Our guests want nothing more than the water of the Oracle Fountain."

"Ah, Memer! I don't know what to think!" she said, getting loose from me, with a hasty pat on my shoulder.

None of us knew what to think, that day.

When Orrec came back at last, he was the comet not the tail: a stream of people followed him from the Council Square. He was the hero of the city. He stopped at the Oracle Fountain and looked up at the ceaseless silver jet of water with the same laughing amazement I had seen on so many faces. Gry came to meet him there. Shetar was shut away in the Master's rooms (where, Gry had told me, she was sulking and tearing strips out of the poor mangy old carpet). Orrec and Gry held each other for a long time before they went up the steps and into the reception hall.

Everybody crowded after them. Once he had greeted the Waylord, Orrec had to tell the whole story that I've just written of the morning's events at the Council House. Some of it we already knew from people who had been back and forth from Galvamand and the square, but the pursuit of Iddor and the priests to the prison chamber and the finding of Ioratth and Tirio was news to us—as was the disappearance of Iddor.

If Orrec couldn't tell us what he had said to the crowd, there were plenty of people who could: "He said, 'Let them beg for alliance and we'll grant them alliance!'" one old man shouted out. "By the Harrow of Sampa, let 'em beg! Let 'em crawl! And we'll give or not give in our own good time!"

That was the mood of the city, that day: fiercely joyous, belligerent, barely restrained from vengeance.

Ioratth had ordered his soldiers to keep off the streets and stay within the barracks area south and east of the Council House, which they surrounded with a cordon of guards. Wanting access to the Council stables where their horses and some of their men were, the soldiers tried to cordon off a passage between the barracks and the stables, but the crowd in the square got ugly; stones were thrown;and the Gand ordered his men to stay where they were, whether in the barracks or the stableyards.

The Alds were taking care to offer no provocation and show no fear. Their position could too easily become, perhaps already was, a state of siege. Once the habit of fear was broken, the citizens would realise that the conquerors who had mastered them for so long were dependent on them for supplies—and were, however formidable and well armed, vastly outnumbered. If the restraint Ioratth imposed on his men was mistaken for weakness, for unwillingness to fight, there could yet be a massacre.

They talked about that in the reception hall. And they talked about Desac and his group, what their plan had been and how it had gone wrong. The man who had taken refuge with us, Cader Antro, was there, and his story was confirmed and enlarged by others. The arsonists were Ansul slaves, used as servants and sweepers by Ald courtiers; the idea of burning the great tent had come from one of them to begin with. They had secretly admitted to the tent other conspirators dressed as slaves, but armed, and with them had prepared so that fires would start up in several places at once, engulfing the tent in flame, while Desac's men, rushing into the square from two directions, would attack the soldiers on guard. All that was to take place at the sunset ceremony, so that Iddor and Ioratth and many officers and courtiers would be in the tent when the fire broke out.

But, because Iddor wanted to disturb Orrec's recitation, the priests began the ceremony earlier than planned, and so the time of the assault had to be changed, and word of the change didn't get to all the conspirators. The ceremony was already ending when the fires were set. Ioratth came late and was still there praying, but Iddor and the chief priests had just left the tent. The fire spread with terrible quickness, and all of Desac's people who were there attacked, but the soldiers were quick to rally and seemed fearless of the fire, the promised embrace of their Burning God. In the fighting and the smoke and confusion, evidently only Iddor and the priests saw Ioratth stagger free of the flames. They seized and carried him to the Council House, while the soldiers drove the conspirators, those who tried to flee and those who tried to attack, into the furnace of the fire to be burned alive. Desac was one of them.

I could only think of that black foul dust of ash and cinder Orrec had told us of, kicked up by the feet of the crowds.

The people hearing the story were silent for a while before they began to talk again.

"So Iddor saw his chance," one man said, "with the old Gand as good as dead."

"Why did he put him in prison? Why not finish him off?"

"It's his father, after all."

"What's that to an Ald?"

I thought of Simme, how proud he was of his father, even of his father's horse.

"He was going to get his own back on the old man. Seventeen years he's been waiting!"

"And the old man's Ansul mistress."

"Torture them for the pleasure of it."

That brought a silence. People glanced uneasily at the Waylord.

"So where's he got to, that one, with his redhats?" a woman asked. People hated the Ald priests worse than they hated the soldiers. "I say they'll find him hiding. They'd never get through the streets alive, that lot."

She was right. We heard about it later that day, as news was constantly brought down the street to us by dusty, excited, exhausted people coming from the square. The citizens swarming through the Council House, retaking it for the city, throwing out all the goods and furniture of the Ald courtiers and officers who had used it for their quarters, came on Iddor and three priests hiding in a tiny attic room in the base of the dome. They were taken down and locked in the basement room, the torture chamber, where Ioratth and Tirio had been locked for a night. Where Sulter Galva had been locked for a year.

That news relieved our hearts. We had suffered much from Iddor's belief that he had been divinely sent to drive out demons and destroy evil, and we all felt now that with him imprisoned, disgraced, the power of that belief was broken. We had to deal with an enemy still, but a human enemy, not a demented god.

And it was a relief also to know that the wild crowd going through the Council House hadn't torn the priests to pieces when they found them, but had locked them away to wait for some kind of justice—whether ours or the Alds'.

"We may treat Iddor better than his father would," said Sulsem Cam.

"I doubt he'd be gentle with him," Orrec said wryly.

"No gentler than your lady and her lion," said Per Actamo, who had rejoined Orrec here and helped him retell their exploits and adventures to newcomers wanting to hear it all over again all afternoon. "That was the beginning of the end of Iddor—when he flinched and drew back in front of all the crowd! Where is your lion, Lady Gry? She should be here to be praised."

"She's in a very bad temper," Gry said. "It's her fasting day, and I've had to keep her indoors. I'm afraid she's eaten part of the carpet."

"Give her a feast, not a fast!" said Per, and people laughed and called for the lion—"the only Ald on our side!" So Gry went and fetched Shetar, who was indeed in a sullen mood. She had not appreciated the swimming and boating of the night before, or the crowd scenes of the morning; she sensed the continuing tension in the city, and like all cats she detested uproar, excitement, change. She paced into the reception hall with a singsong snarling warrawarrawarra and a yellow glare. Everyone made her plenty of room. Gry led her up to the Waylord and had her do her stretching bow; and people laughed again and praised her. They asked for her to do her obeisance again, for Orrec, for Per, for a little boy of three who was there with his parents;and so Shetar got a good many treats, and began to cheer up.

It was evening. The big room was growing shadowy. Ista, along with Ialba, Tirio's companion who had brought us such important word at daybreak, came with lighted lamps. Ista had told me that that was always the signal for guests to leave, in the old days. And as if the ways and customs of our people had been given back to us today, all the visitors rose, one after another, and took their leave of the Waylord. They spoke to Orrec and Gry, and to me, and as they passed through the door they spoke to the souls and shadows of the house. As they passed the fountain leaping up into the evening air they blessed the Lord of the Springs and Waters, and as they crossed the Sill Stone they bent down to touch it.

14

Lying in bed that night, sleep seemed as far from me as the moon, and I relived all the long day. I saw again Gry and her lion stand facing the priests and soldiers and the gold-cloaked man. I saw the leap of the fountain into the sunlight. I saw the Waylord stride out and down the steps beside me, saw him hold up a book before Iddor and us all, and heard that strange piercing voice, Let them set free ... The cry echoed in my mind with the other words I myself had cried out or that had been said through me, Broken mend broken, and for a moment I thought I understood.

Yet I was mystified again, remembering that when I went to the front of the house with Orrec and the others, the Waylord had gone back to the secret room, seeming in despair, taking refuge. He could not have gone clear back into the cave of the oracle—there had been not time enough for that. He must have gone straight to the shadow end, taken that book from the shelves there, and come back all the way through the rooms and corridors and courts of the great house, to stride forward to face Iddor—not lame, not a broken man, but healed and whole. For that brief time. For the time needed.

Had he questioned the oracle? Had he known what the book said? What book was it?

I had seen it only as a small book in his hand. I had not seen it's pages. I had not, could not have read from it. Surely it had been the book that spoke, not I. I was no longer certain now even of the words—had they been Let them set free, or Be set free, or only Set free? I could hear the voice in my mind but not the words. That troubled me. I struggled to hear them but they slipped away from me as if through clear water. I saw the fountain, the morning sunlight over the roofs of Galvamand brightening the high blossom of the water....

And then it was morning indeed, early daylight dim on the walls of my little room.

And it was the holiday of Ennu, who makes the way easy for the traveller, speeds the work, mends quarrels, and guides us into death. People say she goes before the dying spirit as a black cat, stopping and looking back if the shadow hesitates, sitting patiently, waiting for it to follow her. Few of our gods are given any figure or image, only Lero in stones, and Iene in the oak and willow; but Ennu is often carved as a little cat, smiling, with opal eyes. I had such a figure that had been my mother's;it sat in the niche beside my bed, and I kissed it every morning and night. Ennu's house-shrine in Galvamand is in the old inner courtyard, an incurved shell of stone on a pedestal, with the tracks of a cat carved across the floor of it, very faint, nearly worn away by the fingers that have touched them in blessing over the centuries. I got up and dressed, and took a bowl out to the Oracle Fountain for water, and a handful of meal from the kitchen bin, and went to that shrine to make her offering. The Waylord met me there, and we spoke the praise of Ennu together.

Ista had breakfast ready for us, and then it was as the day before: the Waylord took his place in the front gallery of the house, and people came to talk to him and to one another all day long. The community of Ansul was knitting itself together, remaking itself, here.

The Waylord wanted me there with him. He said to me that the people wanted me there. And it was true, though few of them spoke to me except in greeting, a deeply respectful greeting that made me feel as if I were pretending to be somebody important. Sometimes a child was sent forward to give me flowers, dropping them on my lap or at my feet and then running away. After a while I was so flower-bedecked I felt like a roadside shrine.

I tried to understand what I was to them. They saw in me the mystery of what had happened yesterday—the fountain, the voice of the oracle. I was that mystery. The Waylord was their familiar friend and leader, a link to the old days. I was a new thing among them. He was Galva. I was the daughter of Galva, and through me the gods had spoken.

But they were quite content for me not to speak. I was to smile and say nothing. Enough mystery is enough.

They wanted to talk with the Waylord and with one another, to argue, to debate, to break out of seventeen years' silence, full of words and passion and argument. And they did that.

Some who came said they ought to be at the Council House, holding their meeting there, and as the idea excited them they were all ready to go off to the House that moment and reclaim it as the seat of our government. Selsem Cam and Per Actamo talked easily and quietly of the need to gather strength before they moved, of the need to plan and act upon plan: how could the Council meet if they had not held elections? Ansul had always been wary, they said, of men who claimed power as their right.

"In Ansul we don't take power, we lend it," said Selsem Cam.

"And charge interest on the loan," the Waylord added drily.

What the older people said carried weight with younger people, who had little or no memory of how Ansul had ruled itself and were uncertain how to begin to restore a government they could not remember. They listened to Per because he was Orrec's companion, Adira's Marra, the second hero of the city. Also I saw that when any man of the Four Houses spoke, people listened with respect, a respect based on nothing but habit, tradition, the known name; but useful now, because it gave some structure and measure to what might otherwise have been a competition in opinion-shouting. Sulter Galva, the most respected of all, in fact said very little, letting the others talk out their passions and their theories, listening intently, the silence at the center.

Often he looked up at me, or turned to see where I was sitting. He wanted me near him. We joined our silences.

As the day went on, more of the people who came to Galvamand were armed: troops of men, some with nothing but sticks and cudgels but others with long knives, lances with new-forged heads, Ald swords taken from soldiers in the street battles two nights ago. During a long argument, I went out to breathe fresh air and look at the fountain. I went round to visit Gudit, and found him at the little stable forge hammering out a spearhead, while a young man stood waiting with a long shaft for the lance.

The talk in the high room at the front of the house when I returned was less of meeting and voting and the rule of law than of assault, attack, plans to slaughter the Alds, though they didn't say so openly. They spoke only of massing strength, of gathering the forces of the city together, of stockpiling weapons, of issuing an ultimatum.

I've thought often since of what I heard then and the language they used. I wonder if men find it easier than women do to consider people not as bodies, as lives, but as numbers, figures, toys of the mind to be pushed about a battleground of the mind. This disembodiment gives pleasure, exciting them and freeing them to act for the sake of acting, for the sake of manipulating the figures, the game pieces. Love of country, or honor, or freedom, then, may be names they give that pleasure to justify it to the gods and to the people who suffer and kill and die in the game. So those words—love, honor, freedom—are degraded from their true sense. Then people may come to hold them in contempt as meaningless, and poets must struggle to give them back their truth.

Late in the afternoon one of the leaders of these troops, a young man, hawk-faced and handsome, Retter Gelb of Gelbmand, urged his plan for the expulsion of the Alds from the city. Meeting some opposition among others there, he turned to the Waylord. "Galva! Did you not hold the book of the oracle in your hand, did we not hear it's voice, Set free? How can we set our people free so long as the Alds' very presence here enslaves us? Can the meaning of the words be clearer?"

"It might," said the Waylord.

"If it's not clear, then consult the oracle again, Reader! Ask it if this isn't the moment to seize our liberty!"

"You may read for yourself," the Waylord said mildly, and taking a book from his pocket, he held it out to Retter Gelb. The gesture was not threatening, but the young man started back and stood staring at the book.

He was young enough that, like many people of Ansul under the Alds, he had perhaps never touched a book, never seen a book except torn to fragments, thrown into a canal. Or it may have been fear of the uncanny, of the oracle, that came over him. He said at last, hoarsely, "I can't read it." And then, ashamed and trying to regain his challenging tone, he said, with a quick glance at me, "You Galvas are the Readers."

"Reading was a gift we all shared once," the Waylord said, his voice no longer mild. "Time, maybe, that we all relearn it. In any case, until we understand the answer we got, there's no use asking a new question."

"What good is an answer we don't understand?"

"Isn't the water of the fountain clear enough for you?"

I had never seen him so angry, a cold, knife-edge anger. The young man drew back again;after a pause he bowed his head a little and said, "Waylord, I beg your pardon."

"Retter Gelb, I beg your patience," he responded, still very coldly. "Let the fountain run water a while before it runs blood."

He set the book down on the table and stood up. It was a small book bound in dun-colored cloth. I didn't know if it was the book that had given us the oracle or some other.

Ista and Sosta were coming in with lamps.

"A good evening to you all, and a peaceful night," the Waylord said, and taking up the book again, limped away from the crowd of people, back towards the shadowy corridors.

People left the house, then, bidding me a subdued good night. But many of them stayed to stand about on the maze in the courtyard, talking. There was a sense of unrest, unease, all through the city, a stir in the warm, windy, darkening air.

Gry came out of the house with Shetar on the leash and said to me, "Let's walk over to Council Hill and see what's doing," and I gladly joined her. Orrec, she said, was in the house, writing;he had mostly kept to their apartments that day. He didn't want to be part of the discussions and debates, she said, not being a citizen of Ansul, yet knowing whatever he said would be grasped at eagerly and given undue weight. "It worries him," she said. "And this feeling that something is about to happen, some violence, something fatal that can never be undone..."

As we walked, people constantly greeted us, and saluted Gry and her lion, the first to face down Iddor and the redhats. She smiled and returned the greetings, but in a quick, shy way that did not lead to further talk. I said, "Does it scare you—being a hero.?"

"Yes," she said. She laughed a little and shot me a glance. "You too," she said.

I nodded. I led us off Galva Street to a byway where we would meet nobody and could talk quietly as we walked.

"At least you're used to all these people. Oh, Memer, if you knew where I came from! One street of Ansul has more houses in it than there are in all the Uplands. I used to go months, years, never seeing a new face. I used to go all day never speaking a word. I didn't live with human beings. I lived with dogs, and horses, and wild creatures, and the hills. And Orrec ... None of us knew how to live with other people. Except his mother. Melle. She came from the lowlands, from Derris Water. She was so lovely ... I think his gift is from her. She used to tell us stories ... But it's his father he's most like."

"How is that?" I asked.

She pondered and spoke. "Canoc was a beautiful, brave man. But he feared his gift, and so he hid his heart. Sometimes I see Orrec do that. Even now. It's hard to take responsibility."

"It's hard to have it taken from you, too," I said, thinking of the Waylord's life all the years I had known him.

We came back to the street at Goldsmiths' Bridge and went on up to the Council Square. There were a lot of people there, drifting and swirling about, mostly men, and many of them carrying weapons. Someone was haranguing the crowd from the terrace of the Council House, not too successfully, for people kept coming to listen and drifting away again. Over on the east side of the square was a solid line of both men and women, some afoot and some sitting down, keeping their place side by side and very much on the alert. I spoke to one of the women, a neighbor of ours, Marid; she told us they were there "to keep the kids from getting into trouble." Beyond them, down the hill, torches gave enough light that we could just make out the cordon of Ald soldiers guarding the barracks. These citizens had made themselves a barrier between the crowd and the soldiers, preventing random insults and forays against the Alds by young men looking for a fight or by idle stone-throwers. Anybody trying to provoke the soldiers into violence would have to break through that line of fellow citizens. It continued on across the square, in front of the stables, where I had sat and talked with Simme.

"You are a remarkable people," Gry said to me as we went back across the square. "I think you have peace in your bones."

"I hope so," I said. We were in the center of the square, where the great tent had been. The wreckage was gone now; there was no trace of it except the blackening of the pavement stones, a slight crunch of ash and cinders under the feet. We were walking where Desac had died, burnt alive in the fire he had set. I shuddered all over, and Shetar, at the same moment, set up a long, strange wail, stretching her head up. I remembered how she had taken against Desac, glared at him. I saw him alive, straight-backed and soldierly, arrogant, passionate, talking with the Waylord—"We'll meet again, free men in a free city!" he had said. His shadow was all round us.

Returning, we crossed the bridge and paused at the railing from which we had seen a man thrown to his death. We looked down at the dark canal that reflected a glimmer or two of light from the houses on the bridge. Shetar growled a little, informing us that she did not want to go back down there and go swimming again. A band of boys ran past us, shouting a chant I had heard several times in the street that day, "Alds out! Alds out! Alds out!"

"Let's go down to the Lero Stone," I said, and we did; neither of us wanted to go inside on this strange night, with the city all awake and restless about us, and it was good to walk, too, after sitting still listening to people talk all day. We cut down by the Slant Bridge on Gelb Street to West Street and to the Stone. A good many people were there, quietly waiting and doing as I came to do: to touch the Stone and say the blessing of Lero, who holds the balance.

We started back up West Street. I said, not knowing that I was going to say it, "Did you and Orrec never have children, Gry?"

"Yes. We had a daughter," she answered in her quiet voice. "She died of the fever in Mesun. She lived a half year."

I could say nothing.

"She'd be seventeen now. How old are you, Memer?"

"Seventeen," I said, finding it very hard to say.

"I thought so," Gry said. She smiled at me. I saw her smile in the faint lamplight of the High Bridge. "Her name was Melle," she said.

I said the name and felt the touch of the little shadow.

Gry reached out her free hand to me, and we walked hand in hand.

"This is Ennu's day," I said, as we came to the turning of Galva Street. "Tomorrow will be a day of Lero. The balance will turn."

***

IN THE MORNING it seemed that the balance might have turned already: we heard early that there was a great crowd gathering in the Council Square, not yet offering violence but noisy and determined, demanding that the Alds leave the city this same day. The Waylord conferred briefly with Orrec, and they came into the gallery together. Orrec looked tense and strained. He spoke to Gry for a moment, and she went to shut Shetar into the Master's room, while Gudit brought out both horses. Orrec mounted Branty. Gry mounted Star, and I ran with her, following Orrec through the crowds in Galva Street. They willingly parted for us, calling out Orrec's name.

He rode to the line of citizens still holding firm in the square in front of the line of soldiers. There he asked both the citizens and the soldiers if he might speak with the Gand Ioratth. They let him through at once. He dismounted and ran down the steps towards the Ald barracks.

I held Branty's bridle now, there in the crowd, like a real groom. He didn't need much holding. He stood solidly, alert but not troubled by the hubbub all round, and I tried to imitate him. Star shook her head often, whuffing and shuffling when people pressed up too close, and I tried not to imitate her. I was glad, though, that the horses kept a little space around us, for the presence of so many people was overwhelming. I could not think clearly, and emotions ran through me—elation, dread, excitement—they ran through us all, like the wind through leaves on a tree before a storm. I held Branty's bridle and watched Gry's face, which was still and calm.

There was a deep roaring in the crowd nearer the steps of the Council House; everybody turned that way, but I could see nothing over the heads and shoulders. Gry touched my arm and indicated that I should mount Branty. "I can't!" I said, but I couldn't hear myself, and she was making a hand stirrup for me, and a man near us said, "Up you go, girl!"—and I was abruptly sitting in the saddle on Branty's back, bewildered. Gry swung up onto Star, right beside me. "Look!" she said, and I looked.

People stood on the speakers' terrace: a woman in a dun-and-white striped gown, and Orrec in his black coat and kilt. They looked very small and bright to me, like images. The crowd was shouting and chanting. Some people were calling out, "Tirio! Tirio!" A man near us shouted ragefully, "Ald's whore! Gand's whore!" and immediately people turned on him, shouting at him with equal rage, while others tried to hush and separate them. I could not reach the stirrups with my feet and felt most insecure perched way up there on the saddle, but Branty stood like a rock, and I was at least safe from the pushing and trampling of the crowd. Gradually the noise died away; Orrec had raised his right hand. "Let the maker speak," people cried, and silence spread out slowly across the crowd, as the water of the fountain had spread out across the wide basin. When he spoke at last his voice rang out, distant but clear and resonant.

"This is Lero's day," he said. And said nothing further for a long time, for the whole crowd took up the deep, slow chant of"Lero, Lero, Lero!"—and my breath caught and tears filled my eyes and I was chanting with them, "Lero, Lero, Lero..." At last he raised his hand again, and the chant died away down the streets leading to the square.

"I who am not of Ansul and not of Asudar—will you let me speak again to you?"

"Yes!" the crowd roared, and, "Speak! Let the maker speak!"

"Tirio Actamo, daughter of Ansul and wife of the Gand of the Alds, stands here with me. She and her husband ask me to say this to you: The soldiers of Asudar will not attack you, they will not interfere with you, they will not leave their barracks—such are the Gand Ioratth's orders, and his soldiers will obey. But he cannot order the soldiers to leave Ansul without the consent of his king in Medron. So he waits to hear from Medron. And he, and Tirio Actamo, and I beg you to be patient, and to take your city back and claim your freedom in peace, not in blood. I who saw the ruler, betrayed and imprisoned, set free—I who with you saw water leap from the fountain that was dry two hundred years, and heard with you the voice that cried aloud from silence—I your guest—while we wait together for Lero to show us how the balance falls, and whether we are to destroy or to rebuild, to fall to war or walk in peace—while we wait, may I offer in return for your hospitality and the grace of the gods of Ansul a story, a story of war and peace, of slavery and freedom? Will you hear the Chamhan? Will you hear the tale of Hamneda when he was made a slave in Ambion?"

"Yes," the crowd said, and now the sound was like a great, soft wind in grass. We could all feel the tension in us lessening, and we were grateful for it, grateful to the voice that freed us from dread and passion and unreason, if only for a little while, for the time it takes to tell a story.

Anywhere else in all the Western Shore, people would have known that story; even here, where the books had been destroyed, many in the crowd knew it, or at least knew the hero's name. But many had never read the story nor heard it told. And to hear it told aloud, among a great throng, openly, asserting our inheritance as our right and our heroes as our own—that was a great thing to us, a great gift Orrec gave us. He told it as if he himself had never known it before and discovered it as he spoke it, as if the betrayal of Hamneda by Eloc appalled him, as if he were chained and beaten with Hamneda, and wept with him at the torture and death of old Afer, and feared for the slaves who risked their lives to help him escape. He was no longer telling the Chamhan I had read, but his own tale in his own words, when he came to the confrontation in the palace of Ambion, when Hamneda released the tyrant Ura from his chains, bidding him be gone from Ambion, and said to the rebels of the city, "Freedom is a lion let loose, the sun rising: you cannot stop it here or there. Give liberty to have liberty! Set free to be free!"

Since then I have heard people maintain that that is what the voice of the oracle said on the steps of Galvamand: Set free to be free. Maybe it was so.

In any case, when they heard those words, the crowd in the Council Square made the sound a great crowd makes when it hears said what it wants to hear. When Orrec finished the tale they were not silent, but roared praise, and their mood was jubilant, as if they themselves had been freed from constraint or dread. They flooded up around Orrec on the terrace of the Council House, and Gry and I had no chance at all of getting to him.

We could, however, from our horseback height, see him and Tirio; and we saw the crowd begin to swirl around them and carry them slowly towards Galva Street. Gry hopped off Star and shortened my stirrups, then swung up again into her saddle. "Hold with your knees and never mind the reins," she called, and we set off, surrounded by our own swirl of praise and jokes and shouting, on my first horseback ride—out of the square, across the three bridges of Galva Street, to Galvamand.

The people parted and made way for us, so that we soon caught up to Orrec and Tirio. Dismounting at our stable gate, I ran back to the house in time to see Tirio's meeting with the Waylord in the gallery. He stood up, seeing her, and she ran forward with her hands held out, saying his name, "Sulter!" They embraced and held each other, both in tears. They had been friends when they were young, maybe lovers, I don't know; they had known each other in youth and wealth and happiness and then been separated for years of shame and pain. He was crippled. She had been beaten, her hair torn out. I remembered how he had said to me, long ago, tenderly, "There's a good deal to weep about, Memer." I cried then too, for them, for the grief of the world.

Orrec came beside me, as I stood there inside the doorway trying to hide my tears. His face still had the bewildered brightness of one who has been acclaimed, taken out of himself by the power of the crowd; but he put his arm round my shoulders and said softly, "Hello, horse thief."

***

IT SEEMED AS IF Orrec and Lero had tipped the balance. That day and the days following, there was still tremendous unrest in the city, but it was less rageful, less threatening. There was a lot of angry talk, but fewer weapons were brandished. The Council House was opened for debate on the planning of an election.

People kept coming to Galvamand to talk in the gallery and to dance the maze—I saw it at last, I saw women dance the maze. After a day or two, Ista went out among them, scowling, with a dishcloth in her hand, and said, "You've got it all wrong. You turn here, when you sing 'Eho!' and then you turn there." And she showed them how to dance the blessing properly. After that she went back to the kitchen.

She was working very hard, and so were Bomi and I and even Sosta. People kept bringing gifts to the house, gifts of food, knowing how strained our hospitality must be with the endless flow of guests. Ista had brought herself to accept them, not as gifts exactly, or honor, or tribute, but as what was due the Waylord and his house—as debts owing and repaid. So her mind worked, like many minds in Ansul. If we have peace in our bones, we have commerce in them too.

Ialba went back with Tirio to help her care for Ioratth, whose burns were severe and slow to heal. The next day Tirio sent three women from the barracks to help us keep the house. They were city women who had been taken and kept as slaves for the use of the soldiers, like Tirio. As she won the Gand's favor, she had been able to bring them out of utter subjugation to a more decent servitude. One of them, who had been taken and used by the soldiers as a girl of ten or eleven, was crippled and a little mad, but if we set her at any task of cleaning where she could work alone, she worked hard and contentedly. The others had both been of respectable households, knew how to keep a house, and were of great assistance to us.

Ista was inclined at first to treat them coldly and tried to keep them from talking to Sosta and me—look at what they'd been, after all, no doubt it wasn't their fault, but they were no fit company for young girls of a good house, and so on. They and I paid no attention to that. One of them had a man friend she'd known as a slave;he moved right in and took a hand with the heavy work. Gudit got on pretty well with him, because he had been a cartwright, and could plan how to build a carriage out of the broken-down bits of carts and wagons Gudit had been hoarding for years.

So in a few days there was a great increase of people, of life, in the house, and I liked it. There were more voices and not so many shadows. There was a little more order, a little less dust. Many hands touched the god-niches now in passing worship, not just mine.

But these days I saw very little of the Waylord. Only in public, among others.

And I had not been to the secret room since the night the oracle spoke through me.

My life had been suddenly and wholly changed. I lived in the streets, not in books, and talked to many people all day long instead of to one man alone in the evening, and my heart was full of Orrec and Gry, so that sometimes I didn't even think of him. If I felt shame for that, I could excuse myself: I'd been important to him when I was the only person close to him, but now he no longer needed me. He was truly the Waylord again. He had the whole city to keep him company. He had no time for me.

And I had no time to go to the secret room, nights, as I had done for so many years. I was busy all day, tired at night. I kissed my little Ennu and fell asleep. The books in that room had kept me alive while my city was dead, but now it was coming back to life, and I had no need of them. No time, no need.

If I was afraid to go there, afraid of the room, of the books, I didn't let myself know it.

15

In those days of early summer, it was as if we had forgotten the Alds, as if it didn't matter that they were still in the city. Armed citizen volunteers kept a close watch night and day on the barracks and the Council House stables, having formed a kind of militia and doing guard duty in relays, but in the Council House itself all the talk was about Ansul, not the Alds. There were daily meetings, large and tumultuous but led by people experienced in government, determined to restore Ansul's power and polity.

Per Actamo was at the center of these plans and meetings. He wasn't yet thirty, but he took to leadership as one born to it. His vigor and intelligence kept the older men from too quickly dropping back into "the way we always did it." He questioned the way we always did it, and asked if it mightn't be done better; and the constitution of the Council began to take shape freed of many useless traditional perquisites and rulings. I went often to hear him and the others speak in the open meetings, for they were exciting, full of hope. Per was at Galvamand daily to take counsel with the Waylord. Sulsem Cam came with his son Sulter Cam, usually to argue that everything should be done the way we always did it;but his wife Ennulo supported Per's proposals. So did the Waylord, though more indirectly, always striving to bring about a consensus and not to become locked in a mere debate of opinions.

They were already laying plans for the election day, when one sunny morning, in an hour, the news was all over the city: An Ald army is coming through the Isma Hills.

At first it was only a rumor that could be discounted, some shepherd's tale of seeing Ald soldiers, but then a boatman coming into the city down the Sundis confirmed it. A troop of soldiers had been seen marching on the east side of the Isma Hills. They were probably already in the pass above the springs of the river.

Then there was panic. People ran past the house crying, "They're coming! The Alds!" Crowds at the Council Square and in the streets swelled ceaselessly. Weapons were brought out again. Men rushed to the old city wall that runs along outside the East Canal and the gate where the road from the hills comes in. The wall had been half destroyed when the Alds took the city, but the citizens made barricades across the road and at the Isma Bridge.

The people who came to Galvamand that day were frightened, looking for guidance. Too many remembered the fall of the city seventeen years ago. Per and others who might have spoken to them were at the Council House. The Waylord kept calming them, and they listened to him; but soon he called me and talked to me in the corridor alone.

"Memer," he said, "I need you. Orrec can't get through the crowd; they'll stop him and want him to tell them what to do. Can you get through the lines—to Tirio, to Ioratth—and find out what they know about this force of soldiers, and whether the Gand has changed his orders to his troops? And bring word back to me?"

"Yes. Have you any word for them.?" I asked.

He looked at me then just as he used to look at me when I happened to get the words of some translation from the Aritan exactly right, not surprised, but deeply pleased, admiring. "You'll know what to say," he said.

I put on my boy's tunic and tied back my hair. People knew me now, and I didn't want to be recognised and stopped with questions. So I went as Mem the half-breed.

I got along Galva Street all right for a while, dodging and shoving, but after the Goldsmiths' Bridge it was hopeless—the crowd was solid. I ran down the stairs we'd taken that evening, remembering the clatter of hoofs and the shouting and the smell of smoke. I ran along the canal to the Embankments, crossed there, and back down the east bank to where I could cut across to the exercise grounds and the hippodrome. They were empty, deserted, but I saw the line of Ald soldiers on guard, up on the long, low swell of Council Hill behind the stables. All I could do was climb the hill towards them, my heart beating harder and harder.

The soldiers stood and said nothing. They watched me. A couple of crossbows were aimed at me.

I got to within ten feet of them, stopped, and tried to catch my breath.

They looked more foreign to me, those men, than they had ever looked in all the years I'd seen Ald soldiers, my whole life. Their faces were sallow, their short, pale sheep hair curled out under their helmets, their eyes were pale. They stared at me without expression, without a word.

"Is there a boy named Simme in the Gand's stables?" I said. My voice came out very thin.

None of the six or seven men nearest me in the line moved or spoke for so long I thought they were not going to answer at all. Then the one right in front of me, who had no crossbow, but a sword in his belt and his hand on the hilt, said, "What if there is, youngster?"

"Simme knows me," I said.

He looked his question: So?

"I have a message from my master the Waylord to the Gand Ioratth. I can't get through the crowds. I can't get through the lines. It's urgent. Simme can vouch for me. Tell him it's Mem."

The soldiers looked at one another. They conferred a little. "Let the kid through," one said, but the others said no, and finally the swordsman nearest me said, "I'll take him in."

So I followed him on round the long back of the stables. Not every moment of this time is clear in my memory. I was so set on my goal that how I reached it seemed unimportant, details swallowed in the overriding urgency. I do remember some things clearly. I remember Simme coming into the small room where the swordsman had brought me to his officer. Simme saluted the officer and stood stiffly. "Do you know this boy?" the officer asked. Simme's eyes shifted to me. His head did not turn. His face changed entirely. It went soft, like Sosta's face when she looked at Orrec. His lips quivered. He said, "Yes sir."

"Well?"

"He's Mem. He's a groom."

"Whose groom?"

"He belongs to the maker and the lion woman. He came here with them. He lives at the Demon House."

"Very good," the officer said.

Simme stood still. His gaze came back to me, beseeching. He looked white and not so pimply. He looked tired, the way so many people of Ansul had looked, all my life. He looked hungry.

"You have a message from Caspro the maker for the Gand Ioratth," the officer said to me.

I nodded. The name of Caspro the maker might be a safer password than that of Galva the Waylord.

"Say it to me."

"I can't. It's for the Gand. Or for Tirio Actamo."

"Obatth!" the officer said. After a moment I realised he was swearing. He looked me over again. "You're an Ald," he said.

I said nothing.

"What are they saying out there about an Ald force coming over the pass?"

"They say there is one."

"How large a force?"

I shrugged.

"Obatth!" he said again. He was a short, worn-faced man, not young, and he too looked hungry. "Listen. I can't get through to the barracks. The city people are holding the line between us. If you can get through, go ahead. Take a message for me too. Tell the Gand we've got ninety men here and all the horses. Plenty of fodder but short of food. Both of you go.—You heard the message, cadet?"

"Yes sir," Simme said. I could see his chest fill with a deep breath. He saluted again, wheeled round, and strode out. I followed him, and the officer followed me.

The officer got us through the cordon, and then I got us through the line of citizens that faced them. I looked for a face I knew. Marid wasn't there, but her sister Remi was, and I talked her easily enough into letting us pass. "A message from the Waylord to the Lady Tirio" was what did it.

Once out in the crowd of citizens in the open square, we were on our own. Fortunately Simme had no uniform except the blue knot on his shoulder. Once somebody said, "Are those kids Alds?"—seeing our hair—but we wriggled away into the crowd. We pushed and shoved and got cursed at clear round the east end of the stables, across the steps below the Council Square, and then we had to face the line of citizens again, near the barracks. Again I found a face I knew, Chamer, one of Gudit's old friends, but how I talked us through I don't remember. Chamer spoke with the Ald guard facing him, quite a discussion, I do remember that. Then we were through both lines, and a guard was taking us across the parade ground to the barracks, shouting as he went for Simme's father.

I saw his father come running. Simme stopped and stood still and tried to salute him, but his father took him in his arms.

"Victory is well, Father," Simme said. He was crying. "I exercised her as much as I could."

"Good," his father said, still holding him. "Well done."

Other men and officers came pouring out of the barracks, and we gathered quite an escort walking past the long buildings and outbuildings. Whenever an officer stopped me, Simme and his father were there to affirm that I came from the Demon House, where the maker Orrec Caspro was, with a message from him. Then we went into the last building of the row, and the soldiers and officers dropped back. I saw Simme watching me as I was sent forward alone. I went past a door guard into a long room with long windows overlooking the curve of the East Canal. Tirio Actamo came forward to meet me.

She did not know me at first, and I had to say my name. She took my hands, and then embraced me; and I wasn't far from crying myself, from sheer relief. But there was my message to be given.

"The Waylord sent me. He needs to know what the Gand knows about the army coming from Asudar."

"Best you talk to Ioratth yourself, Memer," Tirio said. Her face was still swollen and discolored and her head bandaged, but the bandage became her, like a little hat; nothing could make her ugly. And she had a sweet, easy way about her, she comforted one's heart just by speaking. So I was less scared than I might have been when she took me across the room to the bed on which the Gand Ioratth lay.

He was propped up on a lot of embroidered pillows. A red cloth had been hung from the ceiling over the head of the bed, so that coming close was like entering a tent. The Gand's legs and feet were out from under the covers, covered with raw burns and black-scabbed ones, painful-looking. He glared at me like a leashed hawk.

"Who's this? Are you Ald or Ansul, boy?"

"I am Memer Galva," I said. "I come to you from the Waylord, Sulter Galva."

"Hah!" said the Gand. The glare became a gimlet. "I've seen you."

"I came with Orrec Caspro when he recited to you."

"You're an Ald."

"If I'd borne you a child, you might well take it for an Ald," said Tirio, mild and ladylike.

He grimaced, absorbing this.

"What's your message then, if the maker sent you?"

"The Waylord sent me," I said.

"If Ansul has a leader, Ioratth, it is Galva the Waylord," Tirio said. "Orrec Caspro is a guest of his house. It might be for the best if you and he were in communication."

He grunted. "Why did he send you?" he demanded of me.

"To ask if you know why soldiers are coming from Asudar, and how many, and if you'll change your orders to your troops when they come."

"Is that all," said the Gand. He looked at Tirio. "By God, this is a cool young sprout! One of your family, no doubt."

"No, my lord. Memer is a daughter of the House of Galvamand."

"Daughter!" the Gand said. The gimlet became a glare, and finally a blink. "So she is," he said, almost resignedly. He moved in discomfort, and winced, and rubbed his head with it's frizz of half-burnt hair. "And you think I should send her back to Galva with a list of my strategies and intentions, do you?"

"Memer," Tirio asked, "is the city going to attack the barracks?"

"If they see an army coming down the East Road, I think they will," I said. I had heard it urged again and again that morning—wipe out the soldiers here before these reinforcements arrive! Take the city back before they take it back!

"It's not an army," Ioratth said almost peevishly. "It's only a messenger from the Gand of Gands. I sent him one two weeks ago."

"I think the people of the city had better know that," said Tirio, as mildly as ever, and I added, "Quickly!"

"What, you think my sheep are in revolt, do you?" His tone was caustic, sarcastic, a sarcasm directed at himself, perhaps.

"Yes, they are," I said.

"Turned lions, have they?" he said in the same way, with another glance at me. He brooded a minute and then said, "If it's that bad, I wish it was an army coming ... For all I know it is. But I doubt it."

"It would be well to know, my lord," said Tirio.

"I have no way to know! We're cooped up here. Surely the idiots fortifying the bridge down there could send some scouts up the road on horseback to spy out the size of this army.?"

"No doubt they have," I said, stung. "Maybe the soldiers killed them."

"Well, we have to gamble till we know," the Gand said. "And I'll gamble that it's no army, but a messenger with a troop of fifteen or twenty guards. Tell your Waylord that. Tell him to keep his lion-sheep from stampeding, if he can. Tell him to come here. To the square. With Caspro the maker, if he will. And I'll get myself carried out there, and we can talk to the people. Calm them down. I heard what Caspro did the other day, cooling them off with his tale of Ura and Hamneda. By God he's a clever man!"

I remembered how politely, even ornately, the Gand had spoken in public with Orrec and his officers. He was blunt and coarse now, no doubt because he was in pain, maybe also because he was talking to mere women. I tried to answer with stiff politeness, but fired up as I spoke. "The Waylord is not at your bidding, sir. He keeps to his house. If you want his help keeping the peace, come to him yourself."

"Sulter Galva is as lame as you are, Ioratth," said Tirio.

"Is he? Is he?"

"From torture," I said, "when he was your son's prisoner."

The old man had been riled by my insolence, but at that he looked at me, a long look, and then away. After a while he said, "Very well then, I'll go there. Order up a litter, a chair, something. Tell them we want an open parley, there, at what d'ye call it, Galvamand. No use throwing it all away ... There's been enough..." He did not finish his sentence. He lay back on his pillows, his face colorless and grim.

To arrange a parley was going to require some parleying, given the jittery confusion in the city. Ioratth was talking with several of his officers, giving them instructions, when we heard a trumpet call, sweet and high, far off, eastward, across the canal. It was promptly answered by a trumpet from the barracks here.

Within a few minutes the Ald force was reported in sight: a troop, as the Gand had hoped, of twenty or so, riding out of the hills with banners. We could hear the swelling noise of the crowds up on the Council Hill and in the streets leading to the East Canal. But as no army followed the mounted troop, the crowd noise at least grew no louder.

From the southeast window of the barracks house we could see the River Gate and the Isma Bridge. Tirio and I watched the troop arrive, halt outside the half-ruined wall, and talk with the citizens who had been guarding and fortifying the bridge. It took a while. At last, one Ald was allowed through the gate, on foot. Escorted by thirty or forty citizens, he crossed the bridge and came straight along the Eastway towards the cordon guarding the barracks. I saw that he carried a wand of white wood, which I knew from history books was the envoy's token.

"Here's your messenger, my lord," Tirio said to the Gand.

And before long the blue-cloaked officer came striding in, holding the wand, a troop of soldiers escorting him now, and saluted the Gand. "From the Gand of Gands and Son of the Sun, High Priest and King of Asudar, the Lord Acray, a message to the Gand of Ansul, the Lord Ioratth," he said, in the rolling, measured voice the Alds used for public speaking.

The old Gand got himself up higher on his pillows, gritting his teeth, made a kind of hunch for a bow, and said, "The messenger of the Son of the Sun, our most honored Lord Acray, is welcome. Dismissed, Polle," he said to the captain of the escort troop. He looked around at Tirio and me and Ialba who was there too, and said, "Out."

I felt like snarling like Shetar, but I followed Tirio meekly.

"He'll tell us what the man says as soon as he's gone," she said to me. "Now that we have a little time for it, are you hungry?"

I was both hungry and thirsty after my difficult journey through my city. She brought out what they had to offer: water, a small piece of black bread dried hard, a couple of dried black figs. "Siege rations," Ialba said with a smile. I ate them with the care and attention poverty's gift deserves, wasting not a crumb.

We heard the messenger depart, and soon enough Ioratth shouted, "Come!"

Are we dogs? I thought. But I came, with Tirio and Ialba.

Ioratth was sitting up straight, and his sallow, seamed face looked feverish. "By God, by God, Tirio, I think we're off the hook," he said. "God be praised! Listen. I want you both to go to the Palace or the Demon House, wherever there's some kind of chief, somebody in charge of the mob, and tell them this: No army has come from Asudar. No army will come from Asudar, so long as the city keeps the peace. Tell them that the Gand of Gands offers to his subjects of Ansul full relief from tribute, to be replaced by taxation paid to the treasury in Medron as a protectorate state of Asudar. The Son of the Sun has honored me with the title of Prince-Legate to the Protectorate. In good time I'll invite the chief men of Ansul to take counsel with me and hear our orders concerning the government of the city and the terms of trade with Asudar. A number of soldiers will remain here as my personal guard and to protect the city from it's own unruly elements and from invasion from Sundraman or elsewhere. The greater part of our troops will return to Medron—when it's certain that Ansul is in compliance with our orders. Now, is there anybody in this damned city capable of answering that, and acting on it?"

"I can take the message to the Waylord," I said.

"Do it. Better than dragging me through the streets in a cart. Do it and come back with an acceptance. Come back with some men to talk to. Why do they send me children, girls, by God!"

"Because women and girls are citizens here, not dogs and slaves," I said. "And if you knew how to write, you could send your so-called orders to the Waylord yourself and read his answers yourself!" I was shaking with fury.

The Gand gave one sharp glance at me and made a dismissive gesture. "Tirio, will you go?" he said.

"I'll go with Memer," she said. "I think that would be best."

Indeed it was best. All I'd heard, all I could hear of the Gand's message, was that we were ordered to pay taxes to Asudar, submit to be a protectorate not a free state, and do whatever the Alds told us to do.

I had to listen to what Tirio said to the Waylord, when we got back to Galvamand, and what he said to the people, and what people said about it, all day long, before I was able to understand that in fact Asudar was offering us our freedom—at a price—and that my people saw it clearly and truly as a victory.

Maybe they could see it so clearly because it did have a price on it, in money and trade agreements, matters my people understand.

Maybe I had so much trouble seeing it because nobody died bravely for it. No heroes fighting on Mount Sul. No more fiery speeches in the square. Only two middle-aged men, both crippled, sending messages across a city, cautious and wary, working out an agreement. And wrangles in the Council House. And a lot of talking and arguing and complaining in the marketplaces.

And the fountain running in the forecourt of the House of the Oracle.

And the temples of Ansul, the little houses of the gods and spirits, the shrines at every street corner and on every bridge, rebuilt, set up again, brought out of hiding, cleaned, carved anew, decorated with flowers. Lero's Stone was so covered with offerings sometimes you could not see it. On Iene's Feast, the solstice, men and boys brought garlands of oak and willow into the city in procession through the streets and hung them over the house doors, and women danced in the marketplaces and the square and sang Iene's songs. The older women taught the girls, like me, who did not know the dance steps or the songs.

All that summer people kept coming to the city from the rest of Ansul. Often they followed after the troops of Ald soldiers who were being withdrawn from the northern towns and gathered here before they were sent back east over the hills to Asudar. Citizens came to find out what was happening in the capital, and to take part in the elections;merchants and traders followed. In early autumn the Waylord of Tomer came to stay with the Waylord of Ansul. Ista lived in a passion of anxiety for two weeks making sure he was entertained in all ways as befitted the honor of the House of Galva.

By then the Council was meeting regularly, and Galvamand was no longer the center of political planning and decision making. It was just the Waylord's house, where a lot of talk took place about trade, about hay transport and cattle markets and what you could get in Medron or Dur for dried apricots or olives in brine. The first election held by the newly elected Council had been that of the Waylord of Ansul, voted unanimously to Sulter Galva; and with the post they allotted funds for entertainment and upkeep of the house. Not lavish funds, but wealth untold to us who ran the household, and a heartening sign of the difference between paying tribute as a subject state of Asudar and paying taxes as a protectorate.

I had been utterly wrong about the Gand's message. I had misjudged it, and him. I had wanted to refuse patronisation, manipulation, compromise—politics. I had wanted to fling off every bond, to defy the tyrant. I had wanted to hate the Alds, drive them away, destroy them ... my vow, my promise, made when I was eight years old, that I had sworn by all the gods and by my mother's soul.

I had broken that promise. I had to break it. Broken mend broken.

***

THE MESSENGER OF the High Gand returned to Medron a few days after I carried the message to Ioratth. They had an escort of over a hundred soldiers, under the command of Simme's father, and Simme rode beside him, going home. I had asked Ialba and Tirio to tell me what they could find out about them, and that is what they told me. I never saw Simme after he and I went through the lines together.

That troop escorting the messenger back to Medron also carried a prisoner in one of the provision carts: Iddor, son of Ioratth. He was in chains, we heard, in slave's clothing, with his hair and beard grown long, a sign of shame and disgrace to the Alds.

Tirio told us that Ioratth had not set eyes on his son since his betrayal, had not let anyone ask what should be done with him, would not let his name be spoken. He had, however, ordered that the priests be released from prison, even those who had been captured with his son. Presuming on this leniency, the priests had tried to intercede on Iddor's behalf, with a tale that they and Iddor had hidden Ioratth in the torture chamber only to save him from the vengeance of the rebel mob. Ioratth told them to be silent and be gone.

Since their Gand had been through the fire, both burnt and spared, his soldiers saw him as clearly favored by their Burning God, as holy as any priest. Realising their disadvantage, most of the priests chose to go back to Asudar with this first contingent of the army. So Ioratth's captains, left to their own judgment, decided the best thing to do with their embarrassing prisoner, his son, was send him off too, and let the High Gand decide what to do with him.

I was disappointed by this ignominious, uncertain outcome. I wanted to know Iddor would be punished as he deserved. The Alds loathed treachery, I knew, and were shocked by the betrayal of a father by a son. Would he be tortured, as he had tortured Sulter Galva? Would he be buried alive, the way so many people in Ansul had been, taken down to the mudflats south of the city and trampled into the wet, salt mud until they suffocated?

Did I want him to be tortured and buried alive?

What did I want.? Why was I so unhappy through all this bright summer, the first summer of our freedom? Why did I feel that nothing was settled, nothing won?

***

ORREC WAS SPEAKING in the Harbor Market. It was a golden autumn afternoon, windless. Sul stood white across the dark-blue straits. Everybody in the city was there to hear the maker. He told some of the Chamhan, and they called for more and wouldn't let him go. I was too far away to hear well, and was restless. I left the crowd. I walked up West Street alone. Nobody was in the streets. Everybody was there behind me, together, in the marketplace, listening. I touched the Sill Stone and went into my house, clear through it, past the Waylord's rooms, to the back, to the dark corridors. I wrote the words in the air before the wall and the door opened and I went into the room where the books and the shadows are.

I had not been there for months. It was as it had always been: the clear, even light from the high skylights, the quiet air, the books in their patient, potent rows, and if I listened, the faint murmur of water in the cave down at the shadow end. No books lay out on the table. There was no sign of any presence there. But I knew the room was full of presences.

I'd intended to read in Orrec's book;but when I stood at the shelves my hand went to the book I had been working on last spring, the night before Gry and Orrec came, a text in Aritan, the Elegies. They are short poems of mourning and praise for people who died a thousand years ago. The names of the authors are mostly not given, and all we know of the people named in the poems is what the poet says.

One of them reads, "Sullas who kept the house well, so that the patterned pavements shone, now keeps the house of silence. I listen for her step."

Another, the one I'd been trying to understand when I stopped reading, is about a horse trainer; the first line is, "Surely where he is, they are around him, the long-maned shadows."

I sat down at the table, at my old place, with that book and the wordbook of Aritan, with it's notes in the margins written by many hands over the centuries, and tried to make out what the next lines meant.

When I'd understood the poem as well as I could, and had it in my memory, the light from the skylights was fading. Lero's Day, the equinox, was past, the days were getting short. I closed the book and sat on at the table, not lighting the lamp, just sitting there feeling for the first time in a long time a sense of peace, of being in the right place. I let that feeling come all through me and penetrate me and settle in me. As it did, I was able to think, slowly and clearly, not so much in words as in knowing what matters and seeing what has to be done, which is the way I think. I hadn't been able to think that way for months.

That's why when I got up to leave the room, I took with me a book from it, a thing I had never done before. I took Rostan, the one I called Shining Red when I was a little child building walls and bear's dens with the books.

I had heard Orrec speak of it longingly, not long ago, as a lost work of the maker Regali. The Waylord had said nothing in reply.

He had never said anything to Orrec about the books in the secret room. So far as I knew, he and I alone knew of the room itself.

That the oracle spoke through books, people knew vaguely, and now they'd actually heard it's voice; but they didn't ask to know more about the mystery, they didn't want to pry into it, they let it be. After all, for years, books themselves had been accursed and forbidden, dangerous things even to know about. And though we of Ansul live comfortably among the shadows of our dead, we're not a people with much taste for the uncanny. Sulter Galva the Reader was held in some awe, as was I; but people much preferred to deal with Sulter Galva the Waylord. The oracle had done it's work, we'd been set free, and now we could get back to business.

But my business was a little different. That's what I'd seen at last, sitting at the reading table, with a closed book in my hands.

16

Orrec, Gry and Shetar had returned from the Harbor Market late in the afternoon, Orrec to collapse and sleep for a while as he always did when he could after a public performance. He was reviving now, roaming about barefoot and disheveled, when I came to the Master's rooms. He said, "Hello, horse thief," and Gry said, "There you are! We were just talking about taking a walk in the old park before it gets too dark to see."

Shetar did not understand separate words, such as "walk," as many dogs can do;but she often was aware of intentions before people knew they were intending anything. She was already standing up, and now she paced over with her graceful slouch to the door and sat down to wait for us. The plumed tip of her tail twitched back and forth. I scratched her around the ears and she leaned her head into my hand and purred a little.

"I brought this for you, Orrec," I said, and held out the tall book with it's gold-printed red cover. He came over, slouching a bit himself and yawning, to take it. When he saw it was a book his mouth snapped shut and his face went taut. When he saw what book it was, he stood motionless, and it was a long moment before he drew breath.

"Oh, Memer," he said. "What have you given me?"

I said, "What I have to give."

He looked up from the book then to my face. His eyes were luminous. It gave me great joy to give him joy.

Gry came to his side and looked at the book;he showed her what it was, handling it with a lover's care, reading the first line half aloud. "I knew," he said, "I knew they must be here—some of the books of the great library—But this—!" He looked at me again. "Was this—Are there books here in the house, Memer?"

I hesitated. Gry, as quickly aware of feeling and intention as Shetar, laid her hand on his arm and said, "Wait, Orrec."

I had to think, and quickly, what indeed my intention was, what right I had and what responsibility. Was this book mine to give? And if it was, what of the other books? And the other lovers of books?

What I saw was that I could not lie to Orrec. And that answered the question of my responsibility. As for the right, I had to claim it.

"Yes," I said. "There are books here. But I don't think I can take you to the place where they are. I'll ask the Waylord. But I think it's closed, except to us. To my people. I think our guardians keep it hidden. The spirits of the house, the ancestors. And the ones who were here before us. The ones who told us to stay here."

Orrec and Gry had no trouble understanding this. They too had gifts of their lineage. They knew the burdens and chances laid on us by the shadows in our blood and bone, and by the spirits of the place we live in.

"Orrec, let me tell him I gave you the book," I said. "I didn't ask him if I could." Orrec looked concerned, and I said, "It'll be all right. But I need to talk to him."

"Of course."

"He never spoke of the books to you, because it was dangerous to know," I said. I felt I must defend the Waylord's silence. "For so long, he had to hide them all. From everybody. The Alds could never find them, here. So they were safe, and people weren't in danger for having them. But people knew. They brought books here in secret, at night—hidden in packages of candles or old clothes—in firewood, in a haybale—they risked their lives bringing books here, where they knew we could keep them safe. Families who'd hidden their books, like the Cams and the Gelbs, and people we didn't know, just people who'd found a book or kept it or saved it from the Alds. They knew to bring it here to Galvamand. But now, now we don't have to hide any more—do we.?...Can you—could you ever read to the people, Orrec.? Instead of reciting? To let them know, to let them see that books aren't demons, that our history, our hearts, our freedom's written in them?"

He looked at me with a slow, joyful smile that became almost a laugh. "I think it's you that should read to them, Memer," he said.

"Warrawarrroo!" Shetar said, losing patience at last.

Gry and I left Orrec with his treasure. We let Shetar lead us out and guide us in the twilight up to Denios' Fountain. There she roamed about through the fallen leaves and rustling shrubbery, hunting mice, while we talked, sitting on the old marble bench by the fountain. Lights were coming on down in the houses of the city. Far out in the straits, under the last dim purple of sunset, we saw the glimmer of the boats of night fishermen. Sul was a pure cone of darkness against the dying light. An owl swooped past near us, and I said, "The good omen to you."

"And to you," Gry said. "You know, in Trundlede they call owls bad luck? They're a gloomy, downhearted lot there. Too much forest, too much rain."

"You've travelled all over the world," I said dreamily.

"Oh, no, not yet. We've never been to Sundraman. Or the capes of Manva or Melune. And among the City States we've seen only Sentas and Pagadi, and we came only through a corner of Vadalva ... And even if you know a land well, there's always a town or a hill you haven't seen. I don't think we'll run out of world."

"When do you think you'll go on?"

"Well, until just now, I'd have guessed that Orrec might be thinking of moving on to Sundraman before the winter, or in the spring. He wants to see what kind of poetry they have there, before we go back to Mesun. But now ... I doubt he'll go till he knows every book you can show him."

"Are you sorry?"

"Sorry? Why? You've given him a great happiness, and I love to see him happy. It doesn't come easy to him. Orrec has a difficult heart ... You know what he can do with a crowd of people, how easy it seems to come to him and how they love him—and doing it, he's carried away by it—but afterward, he feels cast down and false. It isn't me at all, he says, it's the sacred wind blows through me, and it empties me and leaves me like dry grass ... But if he can write, and read, and follow his own heart in silence, he's a happy man."

"That's why I love him," I said. "I'm like that."

"I know," she said, and put her arm around me.

"But you yourself might want to be going on, Gry. Not just sitting here all year with a lot of books and politics."

She laughed. "I like it here. I like Ansul. But if we stay through the winter, and I think now we will, I might find somebody who needs a hand training horses."

"Surely where he is, they are around him, the long-maned shadows" I said. I said the rest of the poem for her when she asked.

"Yes. That poet got it right," she said. "I like that."

"Gudit is hoping to get some horses for the Waylord to use."

"I might train a colt for him. It stands to reason ... But, anyhow, we'll go on, eventually. And sooner or later we'll go back to Urdile, to take what Orrec's learned to the scholars in Mesun. He'll be busy copying that book, and anything you give him, from now on."

"I could help him copy."

"He'll wear you out if you offer."

"I like doing it. I learn the book while I copy it."

She was silent for a little while and then said, "If we did go back to Urdile, next spring or summer, whenever—would you think of coming with us?"

"Coming with you," I repeated.

Sometimes, back in early summer, I had made a daydream of the caravan wagon which stood now in our stables: a daydream of Star and Branty pulling it across some long gold plain where the poplars cast shadows, or over a road in the hills, and Orrec driving it, and Gry and Shetar walking with me along the road behind. It had been just a fancy to cheer me, to take my mind away from anxiety, in the time of the fire and the crowds and the fear.

Now she made it real. That road lay before me.

I said, "I would go with you anywhere, Gry."

She leaned her head against mine for a moment. "We might do that, then," she said.

I thought, trying to see what it is that matters and what I have to do. I said finally, "I would come back here."

She listened.

"I couldn't leave him and not come back."

She nodded.

"But more than that. I belong to Galvamand. I think I am the Reader. Not he. It's passed along." I was speaking out of my own thoughts and I realised she could hardly know what I meant. I tried to explain. "There is a voice here, and it must speak through one who can—who can ask, who can read. He taught me. He gave me that. He kept it for me and passed it to me. It's not his to carry, but mine. And I have to come back to it. To stay here."

Again she nodded, gravely, consenting fully.

"But Orrec could teach me, too," I said, and then, sure I had gone too far and asked too much, I shrank into myself.

"That would complete his happiness," Gry answered. She said it serenely and as a matter of course. "To have the books he longed for, and you to read them with—oh, you may not have to worry about leaving Galvamand, Memer! The problem may be getting him to leave ... But I think you'd like it, the way we travel, stopping to stay a while in a town or a village, and finding the makers and musicians there. And they'll speak and sing for us, and Orrec for them. They'll bring out the books they have to show him, and the little boys who can recite 'Hamneda's Vow,' and the old women who know old songs and tales ... And then we always go back to Mesun. It's a fine city, all towers on hills. I know Orrec would like to take you there, because he's said so to me. To meet the scholars he knows there, and read with them. You could take them the learning of Ansul, and bring their learning back with you to Galvamand ... But the best part is, I'd have you with me all that time."

I bent my head to kiss her hard, strong little hand, and she kissed my hair.

Shetar came bounding past us, a wild thing in the darkening night.

"It must be supper time," Gry said and stood up. Shetar came to her at once, and we went down to the house. Orrec was of course lost in Rostan, and had to be dragged from it bodily, and we three were late to table, arriving about the time Ista finally took her place.

We ate in the dining room now, not in the pantry, for we were generally twelve or more at table, what with the increase to the household, and Sosta's new husband, and guests. I haven't told of Sosta's wedding. We cleaned the great courtyard for it, taking out all the broken stone and rubbish that had been left there since the house was looted and burned, replanting the marble flower boxes and training the trumpet vines that wreathed the walls, sweeping the tessellated pavement of red and yellow stone. The celebration was on a hot afternoon of late summer, a day of Deori. All the friends of both households came. Ista set out a splendid feast, and people danced while the moon crossed the sky above the courtyard. And Ista said, watching the dancers, "It's like the good times, the old times! Almost."

This night, we had no guests but Per Actamo, who was as often at our house as his own. He had been elected to the Council, and was valued for his connection with the Gand Ioratth, now the Prince-Legate, through his cousin Tirio Actamo. Tirio herself played a peculiarly difficult part—once slave-concubine to the tyrant, now wife of the legate—victim of the enemy yet his conqueror. There were people in Ansul who still called her whore and shameless, and more who adored her, calling her Lady Freedom. She bore it all with steady mildness, as if there were no such thing as a divided loyalty. Most people ended up believing her to be nothing more than an ill-used, well-bred, sweet-natured woman making the best of her strange fortune. She was that, but she was more. Per was a man of lively intelligence and ambition, and he took counsel with Tirio as often as he did with the Waylord.

He brought a message from her, which he told us after dinner, in the Waylord's rooms. Thanks to a gift sent by the Waylord of Essangan we had wine after dinner these days, a few drops of the golden brandy-wine of those vineyards, like fire and honey. One after another we offered our glass to the god-niche and drank the blessing. Then we sat down.

"My cousin has persuaded the Prince-Legate of Asudar to request to visit the Waylord of Ansul, at last," said Per. "So I am the bearer of that request, couched in the usual incivilities of the Alds. But I think it's meant civilly."

"I grant it civilly," the Waylord said with a bit of a grin.

"Frankly, Sulter, can you stand the sight of him?"

"I hold nothing against Ioratth," the Waylord said. "He's a soldier, he followed his orders. A religious man, he obeyed his priests. Till they betrayed him. Who he is himself, I have no idea. I'll be interested to learn. That your cousin holds him dear is strongly in his favor."

"We can always talk poetry with him," said Orrec. "He has an excellent ear."

"But he can't read," I said.

The Waylord looked up at me. A girl among grown women and men, I still had the privilege of listening without being expected to talk, and mostly silence was my preference. But I had realised recently that when I did speak, the Waylord listened attentively.

Per Actamo was also looking at me with his bright, dark eyes. Per was fond of me, teased me, pretended to be awed by my learning, often seemed to forget he was thirty and I seventeen and talked to me as to an equal, and sometimes flirted with me without knowing, I think, that he was doing it. He was kind and handsome and I'd always been a little in love with him. I'd often thought that I'd marry Per some day. I thought I could, if I wanted to. But I wasn't ready for all that yet. I didn't want to be a woman yet. I'd had great love given me as Galva's daughter and heir, but I'd never yet had what Gry and Orrec offered me—freedom, the freedom of a child, a younger sister. And I longed for it.

Per asked me now, "Do you want to teach the Gand how to read, Memer?"

His teasing and the Waylord's attention put me on my mettle. "Would an Ald let a woman teach him anything? But if the Gand's going to deal with people in Ansul, he'd better learn not to be afraid of books."

"Maybe this isn't the best house in which to prove that particular point," said Per. "There's at least one book here that would put the fear of the gods into anybody."

"They said the last priests went back with the troops that left today," said Gry. The connection of her thought was clear to us all.

"Ioratth kept his house priests," Per said. "Three or four of them. To say the prayers and lead the ceremonies. And drive out demons when necessary, I suppose. He doesn't find as many demons here as his son did, though."

"It takes one to find one," said Gry.

"'The god in the heart sees the god in the stones,'" Orrec murmured, a line of Regali, though he said it in our own language.

The Waylord didn't hear him. He was still brooding, and now he asked me, as if he had been following the idea since Per had jokingly said it, "Would you teach the Gand Ioratth how to read, if he consented to learn, Memer?"

"I'd teach anybody who wanted to learn," I said. "As you taught me."

The talk passed on to other things. After arranging that the visit to Galvamand by the Prince-Legate and his consort would take place in four days, Per took his leave. Orrec was yawning hugely, and he and Gry soon went off to sleep. I rose to see that the Waylord had what he needed before I too went to bed.

"Stay a minute, Memer," he said.

I sat down willingly. Since I'd been back to the secret room and renewed that bond with all my past years there, I felt that things were as they used to be between him and me. Our bond, too, that I'd thought was weakened, held as strong and as easy as ever. He was linked now to many people other than me, and I to some people other than him;we no longer needed each other so urgently for strength and solace;but what difference did that make? Hidden in solitude and poverty, or among people in a rich busy world, he and I were bound by all the shadows of our ancestry, and by the power we shared and the knowledge he'd given me, and by dear love and honor.

"Have you been to the room at all?" he asked me.

We were indeed bound very close.

"Today. For the first time."

"Good. Every night I think I'll go there and read a little, but I can't drag myself. Ah, it was easier in Ista's old days, I'll admit. I could spend all day talking grain prices and half the night reading Regali, then."

"I gave Rostan to Orrec," I said.

He looked up, not following at once, and I went on, "I took it out of the room. I thought it was time."

"Time," he repeated. He looked away, thinking, and at last said only, "Yes."

"Is it true, as I think, that only we can enter the room?"

"Yes," he said again, almost absently.

"Then shouldn't we bring the books out of hiding? The ordinary books. As we kept them in hiding. For the same reason. So that people would have them."

"And it's time," he said. "Yes. I suppose you're right. Though..." He brooded a little longer. "Come, Memer. Let's go there," he said, and pushed himself up from his chair. I took up the small lamp and followed him back through the ruined corridors to the wall that seems to be the back wall of the house, the wall that has no door in it. There he wrote in the air the letters that spell the word "open" in the language of our ancestors who came from the Sunrise. The door opened, and we went through. I turned and closed it and it became the wall.

I lighted the big lamp on the reading table. The room bloomed with it's soft light, and the gold on the spines of books glimmered a little here and there.

He touched the god-niche and murmured the blessing, and then stood looking about the room. He sat down at the table, rubbing a stiff knee. "What were you reading?" he asked.

"The Elegies." I brought the book from the shelf and laid it before him.

"How far have you got?"

"'The Horse Trainer.'"

He opened the book and found the poem. "Can you say it?"

I recited the ten lines of Aritan.

"And?"

I said my reading of it, as I had to Gry. He nodded. "Very satisfactory," he said, with a suppressed smile.

I sat down at the table opposite him, and after a little silence he said, "You know, Memer, Orrec Caspro came just in time. He can teach you. You were about to discover that you can teach me."

"Oh no! I mostly just guess at the Elegies. I still can't read Regali."

"But now you have a teacher who can."

"Then—you're not displeased—it was right to give him Rostan?"

"Yes," he said, with a deep breath. "I think so. How can we know what's right, when we can't understand the powers we have? I am a blind man asked to read the message given him by a god."

He turned over the pages of the book on the table and closed it softly. He looked down towards the end of the room where the light of the lamps died away. "I told Iddor I was the Reader. What is reading when you don't know the language? You are the Reader, Memer. Of that at least I have no doubt. Do you doubt it.?"

The question was abrupt. I answered it without hesitation: "No."

"Good. Good. And that being so, this is your room, your domain. Blind as I was, I kept it in trust for you. And for all those who brought their treasure to us here, the books ... What shall we do with them, Memer?"

"Make a library," I said. "Like the old one here."

He nodded. "It seems to be the will of the house itself. We merely obey it."

That was how it seemed to me too. But I still had some questions.

"Waylord, that day ... The day the fountain ran."

"The fountain," he said. "Yes."

"The miracle," I said.

With that same hint of a smile, he said, "No."

I was perhaps surprised, perhaps not.

His smile grew broader and merrier. "The Lord of the Springs showed me the means, some while ago," he said. "I'll show you, when you like."

I nodded. That was not where my mind was.

"Does it grieve you or shock you, Memer, that a miracle may be taken into our own hands, as it were?"

"No," I said. "Not that one. But the other..."

He watched me and waited.

"You weren't lame," I said.

He looked down at his hands, his legs. His face was grave now. "So they tell me," he said.

"You don't remember?"

"I remember coming to this room in fear and anguish. As soon as I entered, it came to me that I should let the fountain run, and I hurried to do that, not reasoning why. As if obeying. And next, it came to me that I should take a book from the shelf. And I did that. And there was need for haste, so I ... could it be that I ran? I don't know. It must be that those who silenced me when they needed my silence, needed me then to waken your voice."

I looked down the room, to the shadow end. So did he.

"You didn't ask the...?"

"There wasn't time to consult the oracle. And it wouldn't have answered me. It speaks to you, Memer, not me."

I didn't want to hear what he was telling me, even though I had said that I was the Reader. My heart protested in fear, in humiliation. "It doesn't speak to me!" I said. "It uses me!"

He nodded briefly. "As I was used."

"It wasn't even my voice—was it? I don't know! I don't understand it. I'm ashamed, I'm afraid! I don't ever want to go into that darkness again."

He said nothing for a long time, and finally spoke gently. "They use us, yes, but they do not use us ill ... If you must go into the dark, Memer, think, it's only a mother, a grandmother, trying to tell us something we don't yet understand. Speaking a language you don't yet know well, but it can be learned. So I told myself, when I had to enter there."

I thought about that for a while, and it began to give me comfort. It made the darkness of the cave less uncanny, to imagine that my mother's spirit was there, with all the other mothers of my race, and they wouldn't seek to frighten me.

But I had one more question.

"The book—the one you had in your hand—is it on the oracle shelves?"

His silence now was different;he was finding difficulty in answering. At last he said, "No. I took the first book I saw."

He got up, limped to a bookcase nearby, the closest to the door, and took a little volume from a shelf at eye level. I recognised the dun-colored, unlettered binding. He brought it back and held it out to me in silence. I was afraid to take it but I took it, and after a minute I opened it.

I recognised it then. It was a primer, a reading book for children, Tales of the Beasts. I had read it when I was first learning to read, years ago, here, in the secret room.

I turned the pages, my fingers stiff and awkward. I saw the small woodcuts of rabbits and ravens and wild boars. I read the last line of a story, "So the Lion returned home to the desert and told the beasts of the desert that the Mouse was the bravest of all creatures."

I looked up at the Waylord, and he looked back at me. His face and his slight gesture said: I do not know.

I looked at the little book that had set us free. I thought of Denios' words, and said them aloud: "'There is a god in every leaf; you hold what is sacred in your open hand.'"

After a while, I added, "And there are no demons."

"No," the Waylord said. "Only us. We do the demon work." And again he looked down at his crippled hands.

We were silent. I heard the faint sound of the water running in the dark.

"Come," he said, "it's late, the dream senders are all around us. Let's let them have their way."

I held the small lamp in my left hand and with my right hand wrote the bright letters on the air. We went through the door, and along the dark corridors. Passing his room I bade him sleep well, and he stooped to kiss my forehead, and so we parted with the blessing for the night.

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